#ignores that id been crying couldn’t care less that I relapsed

[ghostickle]

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#I wish I could go back in time never had met either of them #never trusted them never given them everything #I moved in with him because he begged me too I wanted to live alone #and now I’m getting fucked over #I do everything I can for people I pour everything I can into people #give them all my time and energy do anything I can to make them happy hurting myself in the process #and when they can’t get anything more out of me when they got bored of me I get treated like this #and left to rot #with nothing #and it keeps happening #I find a person who I think will genuinely care about me and love me the way I do for them #who truly wants me around #and I trust them #and they take that trust to use me and everything just keeps repeating #why can’t I just be loved #they only love me when they’re able to use me and make me into what they want #ghost rambles #they don’t even hide that they’re only using me by the end of it. #I’m there for every thing they struggle with whenever they feel alone #I get them presents I make them food and treats I get into whatever their interests are so they can show stuff off to me #but no one’s done it for me #they don’t even look when I try to show my art #they don’t care about my music #they were never there when I was struggling #shit there’s been times he found me crying with fresh cuts blade still out and just wants to talk about how everyone hates him #just wants me to drop everything to comfort him #ignores that id been crying couldn’t care less that I relapsed #it’s always about them