#if you dont know whats going on im happy to explain

[farmerstarter]

maybe some general seb relationship headcanons if you dont mind? especially prior to it or crushing/early dating. how would he react to the confession? would his friends tease him? etc.

im a little picky w sdv hc blog interpretations and i love yours! theyre so sweet. if this is a lot feel free to just do as much as you'd like 💟

ʚ👾ɞ ˚ · . Crushing

tags: sebastian from sdv x gn! reader

OMG Anon! I am so sorry this is sooooo late. I just finished my 2nd year of college and it was so hectic. But now I have WAY more time to write. Writing this was so fun! if you have any fic requests then feel free to send me an ask! <3 purple divider by @saradika-graphics <3

𐙚⭑ Sebastian couldn’t deny that he, like everyone else in the valley, was curious about the new farmer moving into the overgrown expanse of land to the west of town. He was a bit down on the idea of not having his usual smoking place anymore, but the intrigue easily overpowered it. He was one of the last people to meet you. Sam and Abigail couldn’t stop talking about you. Which was reasonable, nothing ever happens in the valley. The more Sebastian knew about you, the more confused he got. Why move out in the middle of nowhere? Why leave the city for a pile of dirt and a mosquito-infested house? It was weird. For him, at least.

𐙚⭑ You two finally met at night. Sebastian was smoking by the waterfall, and you ambled your way out of the cave with a bag full of copper and coal. The mountains were wisped with fog, cold with dew. Sebastian was sure he was the only living soul out in the open. Much to his surprise, and at the expense of his dignity, he let out the loudest scream he could muster when you decided it was a good idea to sneak up on him to say hello while you were covered in soot and mud. While he was calming himself down and you were washing your face in the lake, you promised not to tell Sam or Abigail about the encounter. Sebastian was very grateful for that. The two of you spent the next hour talking.

𐙚⭑ The next time you met him was when you were discussing building plans with Robin in her house. Robin was just explaining that you needed more wood for your planned chicken coop, and Sebastian just so happened to come out to return his pile of plates to the kitchen. Robin waved him over to introduce him to you. His eyes met yours, and you immediately introduced yourself properly. You gave him a discreet wink when Robin’s back was turned. You deduced that Robin wouldn’t have been too happy to know her son was out at the late hours of the night, smoking his third cigarette in one sitting. Seeing this as an opportunity for her son to get some sunlight, Robin asked Sebastian to accompany you while you got more wood. He didn’t have anything to do; he had finished his module for the week, and he was curious about what his friends were telling him about you. So, he agreed to do it.

𐙚⭑ The two of you decided that Cindersnap Forest would be a good place to chop down some trees. You led the way while Sebastian followed suit, dragging along a wheelbarrow that Robin gave you to make the trip back to the mountains easier. Sebastian spent the day sitting on the makeshift bridge over the river and watching you cut down too many trees for him to count. There were times when you offered to teach him how to wield an axe. He didn’t want to embarrass himself in front of you, so he just shook his head and decided to arrange the logs of wood in the wheelbarrow instead. It was 2 pm when you finally had enough wood for the coop, but neither of you wanted to go back just yet, mostly because it was too hot to walk back, and Sebastian didn’t want to burn off his skin.

𐙚⭑ You and Sebastian went to look at whatever the traveling cart was selling. You couldn’t help but laugh at the way the dark-haired man’s eyes widened when he found out the merchant was selling an egg for 500 gold.

𐙚⭑ It would be so cute if you and Sebastian stumbled into the secret woods and that became your little hideaway to hang out when life got demanding for both of you.

𐙚⭑ You definitely fell for him first, but Sebastian fell in love harder. It all started when you invited him, Sam, and Abigail over to eat the many fish dishes you cooked when you finally had a kitchen in your abode. You specifically made sashimi for him since you remembered he mentioned it was his favorite. He was touched. You took the effort to even remember what he said, and that made his heart stutter. (“It tastes just like the ones Linus makes.”) ((Side note: it would be so cute if Sebastian and Linus became friends because Linus would make sashimi for both of them to eat at night by his tent, but I digress.))

𐙚⭑ Your friendship with Sebastian continued to bloom when you found a frog egg in the cave. You immediately ran to Sebastian to show it off. The two of you became parents to a very hungry frog named Blimp.

𐙚⭑ You and Sebastian rode his motorcycle at night when the two of you had nothing to do. He didn’t have an extra helmet yet, so he insisted you wear his helmet instead of him. He wanted you safe.

𐙚⭑ I am a firm believer that Sebastian is the type of person to become loud and talkative when he’s around people he is truly comfortable with. So, the moment you two became friends, Sebastian would invite you to hang out with him and Sam in his room to play Solarian Chronicles. He becomes more animated the longer you play, laughing at Sam’s crappy rolls and your insistence that every small enemy is the true boss in disguise. To both Robin and Demetrius’ surprise, Sebastian spends more time outside compared to the past. The two of you either hang out in the Secret Woods or play the arcade games in the saloon. PICNICS! IN THE SECRET WOODS!!

𐙚⭑ You confessed first, and Sebastian became red in the face in an instant. He couldn’t stop smiling, though. Sam doesn’t let him hear the end of it.

𐙚⭑ On clear nights, you and Sebastian climb up to the roof of his house to stargaze. He loves pointing out constellations to you, showing off what Maru taught him. If he asked nicely enough, his half-sister would let the two of you borrow her telescope.

#stardew valley #stardew valley x reader #stardew valley sebastian #sdv sebastian x reader #sdv sebastian #sdv sebastian x farmer #stardew valley fanfic #stardew valley headcanons #sdv sebastian fanfic #🌱 writing :: sebastian

[datcravat]

I see people hyping up Bridget being trans but I still don't fully get what being trans is about?? Is he trans because he wears "girly" clothes even tho everyone says clothes have no gender?? 😭 or because he looks cute? but being cute is not a girl only thing?

She is transgender, the creator of the game has expressed this and it's her story arc in Guilty Gear Strive. In previous games she still identified as male, but now she's a woman.

As with real life, her gender is not derived via how girly she is, it's derived via what that person says they are.

If you truly do not understand what being transgender means, please use google and other resources!

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#sorry for exposing my follower base to the ignorance #ask #I smell they're trying to lure me into a trap tho #without an understanding of whats going on.. I feel unqualified to explain this as a silly artist on tumblr!! even if it should be simple #they get this one bone #it's hard to tell these days!! but genuinely #if you dont know whats going on im happy to explain

[findafight]

Robin chose Steve. Robin made the conscious and deliberate decision that she could and would trust Steve. She already liked him! She had fun working and bantering with him! They were already on their way to being weird little bffs and the torture just expedited the process. Steve chose Robin just the same! He thinks she's fun and cool and likes her so much! He chose to be honest and open with her too, putting himself out there.

Even though their interests on the surface level don't match why wouldn't they share them? Steve clearly caves when Robin wants to watch a movie he doesn't think he'll like, Robin can watch a March madness game or five.

Stop trying to take away their bond oh my god people can be close to more than one person!!! Their best friend doesn't have to be dismissive or mean or whatever in order for a romance to be special to them!

#if i have to see another fic or whatever that makes it seem like robin doesnt give a shit about what steve likes and talkes about im going #to scream and maybe even rampage #its nice to sit down and have someone who knows explain who the players are and what the stakes for this particular game!! #just because yall seem to not think anyone can be nutral towards sports doesnt mean people aren't #literally why is it so hard to believe robin would like to hear steve talk as much as steve likes to hear her talk #i am so close to telling some steddie shippers to not look at steve or robin or their friendship because some of yall do Not get it. #its like you can see them go 'have to make sure eddie is the most perfect specialest boy for steve...well that means robin doesn't Get Him ' #or 'robin ignores him/dismisses his interests/isnt told everything happening in his life' like okay dont ever touch them again thanks #robin is steves specialest sunshine cupcake goober girl. steve is robins bestest happy times sweet funnyman. dont u dare take that away. #omce again tsgs longer than the post but ah well. #stobin #platonic stobin #robin buckley #steve harrington #stranger things #finda's rambles #steve and robin #this is a scheduled post just to jazz things up i guess #but seriously some of yall need to STOP MESSIGN WITH STOBIN

[todayisafridaynight]

matrophobia

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #masumi arakawa #masato arakawa #snap sketches #oh my god im going to pass out but my tag ramble is necessary. like especially this time #i was just gonna draw his Actual mom but then i wanted to get saucy with it. also i miss drawing wolves but theres a purpose i promise #ive loved wolves since i was a kid since theyre like. family-oriented and shit. of course a lonely loser ass kid gonna think thats cool #when i think of wolves i think of family- which is what you should think of with your mom right #but a lot of people know wolves are monsters so. ysee where im goin with this one #the flowers and thorns arent Just Random i Double Promise: i snagged inspo from her flower shirt #i originally had the roses be purple to highlight that buuut i didnt want any more color aside from red #did i have anymore notes..... i dont think so. thats all i had to explain :) this is mid ik i just needed it done tho im TIRED #OH HER MULTIPLE EYES its supposed to be inspired by her necklace :) the third eye has a purpose im too tired to explain rn tho #the jo alternative was more depressing since i wanted to put emphasis on his feelings of inadequacy in that #BUT i figured hey. let me have a /lil/ happiness today right. i can do that at least let me draw that at least #ignore the fact i got more bad news while drawing this and almost abandoned it as a result but we push through :) #in any case. im subjecting arakawa to more horrors tomorrow i guess sorry king youve had it good too long. i GUESS #to round this off. Obligatory Vent Portion because myyyyy GOD. i have nightmares about my mom every night #its been that way since like. february- ive always had nightmares bout her but theyve ramped up since The Event #and for the most part i just wake up tired and despondent but sometimes the nightmares just make me wake up gasping for air #like i was TRULY just fighting for my life then and itd been a while since i had a nightmare like that #and just. coupled with how trash my months been. and now that im comm free.(dm me;) ) i figured id express the soul a bit #alright NOW im done. im pretty sure. goodnight everyone come back for part ii of. whatever this was #IM ALL OUT OF TAGS NOW LMAO THATS EPIC ok bye fr

[northern-passage]

Genuine thought as a fellow trans dude, I’ve seen a lot of (obviously non-serious) questions on other blogs about characters’ genitals such as “how does it look like?” and similar, and I think we all know & understand that such questions are extremely inappropriate to ask and (I hope) no one would actually go around asking these questions irl. Idk, I think we should treat trans characters just like cis ones, without any special “precautions”, so to normalise them and not make cis people treat them like fragile boxes, a thing which happens to a lot of us irl. Hope this doesn’t come off as an attack or anything lol.

no worries, i didn't take this as an attack at all. i actually agree with you, that's why i mentioned feeling conflicted about it and also mentioned that i've changed my stance on how i felt about handling Noel and Clementine in game and in explicit intimate scenes.

however, for me the problem comes from the fact that people... don't ask these kinds of questions about cis characters? i suppose people do get cheeky "who is the biggest 🤪" asks but i would hardly compare the two. to be a bit crude, no one is going to be asking if a cis character has a dick or not, or "what does it look like". of course it's natural for people to be curious, and i honestly encourage the open discussion and am happy to see trans bodies being talked about more in a positive way, but not everyone is going to be comfortable with it due to the inescapable transphobia online and in the community. sending me that kind of ask is like sending out an invitation for a debate or a discussion that i don't necessarily want to have. i also just don't think people should default to asking a random IF author on tumblr dot com to describe what bottom growth looks like.

and with most of these asks typically coming from someone who is anonymous, i have no way of truly knowing what the tone is, what their intentions are or why this is being asked - is it another trans person? or maybe someone who is just genuinely curious? or, more likely in my experience, is it someone who is going to immediately follow up this message with something transphobic after i answer? do i want to roll the dice and find out?

so while i agree with what you're saying, it's important to consider the context and the reality we live in. the IF community is not kind to trans people or trans characters. and as a trans person, my first priority is protecting myself and my mental health. so what i mean when i say "precautions," is that those precautions are for me, because i've had to deal with transphobic harassment here for years now, and i try to mitigate it as much as i can. it's also for my personal comfort - again, to be blunt, i'm simply just not comfortable discussing a trans character's genitals with anonymous strangers on the internet. it makes me feel vulnerable.

also i do want to say i didn't mean for any of that to come across as a dig at other authors - if you're comfortable answering those kinds of questions, that's really only something you can decide for yourself. like i said, this is just coming from my own experiences in IF and for my own personal comfort - i have previously talked a lot about trans stuff and gender and sexuality here, when i'm feeling up to it, but it is something that is very draining for me and can also be very upsetting.

basically: i do agree that it's important not to other trans characters or treat them any differently than cis characters, but i also think there are ways to do it that don't require me answering invasive questions or questions that i don't feel comfortable with as a real life trans person, you know what i mean?

#hopefully this better explains what i was trying to say #again no worries anon i've had this exact conversation before with other trans people #and it's something that i don't think has a perfect solution esp with the current... climate #and especially online with the anonymity it makes these topics really touchy. you don't know who is reading this or who is interacting #if it's sincere or in bad faith #things have changed a lot in the IF community for the better but it's still not safe and i always advocate for an author to protect #themself first #back when i started tnp it was not at all common for ppl to list characters as cis #really it was only nb or trans characters that got listed in that way #and it's why i chose not to do that and why i wanted the player to find out lea and merry was trans at the same time as the hunter #same with noel and clem and their privacy #giving them that agency was important to me #and it's still important to me now #but i got a lot of harassment because of that. the lea reveal didnt even end up in game it was on the blog and it was weeks of harassment #afterwards that still makes me anxious to this day whenever i talk about lea's transness #so basically like. it comes down to what someone is comfortable with and what they're mentally able to handle #edit: thinkin abt it more &im going to be honest if someone sent me an ask that said ‘what does it look like’ i would be very Not Happy #like cis people & cis characters do Not get treated that way so why would i allow it for my trans characters #so i stand by saying that these asks are inappropriate like. i obviously dont know the context of what ur referencing #but that’s a hard no from me personally either way #to me as a trans person that question in itself is othering and objectifying #ask #anonymous

[townslore]

discovery of the day

#im sorry i do Not see what everyone sees in this movie. although from the years of browsing the internet ive began to realize #that i actually dont know if people actually like the movie or not #why is everything so rushed #their romance felt like nothing to me because i dont KNOW what they see in eachother #listen you dont have to tell me straight up into the camera why they love eachother #but the aggressive kissing and cut sex scenes arent telling me much #i get that it came out in 2005 but cutting mostly every gay sex scene? even the kissing for the most part? #but oh we NEED to see this happy husband and wife doing it. yes im bitter #a german movie by the name of summer storm came out the year before this one and actually shows something that feels like actual passion #i sound like i need to see people doing it in these movies all the time I promise thats not it #but even the kissing? the thing i Actually like the most? the thing that makes me feel things? felt like nothing at all #and oh i forgot that this is a tragic gay movie where one of them dies. Oh yeah. forgot. #mentioning summer storm again: it actually has a relatively happy ending. feels good that i dont need to be reminded of how gay people are #doomed 24/7. #the romance started good. with jack telling the guy whos name i already forgot to get his ass in the tent already. #the Pulling his arm over my body thing. it was going great #THEN IT WENT SO FAST! WHY WAS HE SUDDENLY SO INTO IT! WHY WERE THEY BOTH SUDDENLY DOING IT #im sorry i expected a slighter slow burn than this!!! calm down cowboys i have no idea why you two like eachother all of the sudden! #i seriously thought they would show these little moments of tension #and it just growing bigger and bigger #until they couldnt take it anymore #that would explain the aggressiveness of it! why they were so desperate! but it literally just HAPPENED!!!!!!!!! #im sorry i. I expected more of this movie that i hear so much about. #the most it made me feel was at that moment that turned into a meme where i thought “Hop on fortnite” #chuckled. that was it. did i cry? did my heart race at any moment? was i worried about what was gonna happen? not Once #im so. Disappointed. #after this i wanted to watch summer storm but netflix removed it. Its a german only movie no one knows from 2004. where the hell am i gonna #🏴‍☠️ that #AAAGHHHH!!!!!!! #not being able to watch summer storm made me cry more than this movie did What the hell

[4giorno]

okay im enjoying getting these dialogues i previously missed so much. literally astarion when you ask what? will you miss me: "HA!

why not!!!"

#yea dont look at me i started a new character and felt like shit going through all the stuff that i just walked past on my beloved character #so i just made my og character the exact same again and im doing the exact same route with him again VDKFJDJDJDKF #but now im gonna actually do all the stuff in the game bc before i didnt understand the game so i missed so much #i was gonna explain everything i felt but it got way too long so ill just say this instead: #im already getting so much fuller of an experience and i couldnt be happier #and i wanna play my new character (who i like) when i dont feel misersble doing it #im not someone whos precious abt their games like when its over thats it thats the canon story so this way works for me #i build it meticulously until im satisfied! #im still gonna make the same decisions. hes still gonna be the same deceitful little rat with delusions of grandeur #but now i just play out all the massive amounts of stuff i didnt know existed bc i didnt understand how to navigate the game #its gonna be tough to eat the tadpoles again and be cool to the dream visitor bc i HATE the emperor hdjdjdjf #but like i said first time around its absolutely what he would do bc hes convinced he can control it #to get back to the post itself LMAO im obv so happy to get all the astari0n dialogue i missed bc just with this one dialogue i missed #(bc i didnt know how to long rest well) im getting a much more fleshed out picture of his manipulation and its so great #im on tactician now so im hoping it will force me to long rest more so i miss less camp dialogue #anyway can you believe my previous attempt at these tags was even longer? lmao bye im off to enjoy the game however i please!

[gohard-or-gohomo]

God I wish I were dead

#apparently because im not social enough with my crew im not going to get picked for good boats at the championships???? #this from my mother. not my coach or anything #when i explained that i dont want to be social because im saving my energy for. rowing. #she just said shit about 'social capital' and how i need it for the workplace #and like #i know!!!!! you think i dont know that??? #but the probable autism (THAT SHE WON'T GET ME TESTED FOR) means thats a no!! #im aware i can be social sometimes!! thats at the expense of other things!!!! #im a fucking good rower. #just because im not a god damn social butterfly doesnt mean theyre going to get rid of one of the best bows they have #and this is all because when im sick (now!!!!!) i dont seem happy to be down #guess what!! im not!!!!!! #but i still go because i care about my crewmates #and theres nothing i can control about how i am #i want to bash my head in with a brick or something #and i dont want to tell my irl friends about this whole bullshit because im scared they wont understand #so if someone wants to chat in tags that would be nice :(

[krenia]

"Finally it charged time to transfer the Marie piece and finish all the shipart—"

*random Aiden 30 minute [something] instead appearing*

#FUN FACT he has crippling social anxiety and also bunch of other issues i will NOT be explaining at 1am i know my limits #but he has a habit of blaming himself for the smallest mistakes or just not understanding social cues and then punishing himself #(krenia is not projectingYOURE projecting) #depending on what point in plot i draw him at hes either a normal happy dude in a relationship #or like a complete wreck who constantly damages his own body in more ways that one #again depends on where we are #it took a lot to get him out of the “if im not useful i dont deserve basic human rights” mindset #oh long infodump no im locking the knowledge for later #he spent like 15 years of his life not as a person is all im going to say #everyone who sees this never looked at arknights so im not going further #for now #i cannot stay quiet for long as you may been aware by now #OH god long rant yeah no this is the end back to killing my wrists #procreates text tool sucks ass also #my art #aiden-oc

[nt3000s]

im so lucky to know so many people in my life to have met so many people in my life that are just life saving ill never not feel lucky people are so beautiful and kind and talented and funny and have so much worth everyone ive ever met anyone in my life i have ever touched i just cant believe it ill never be able to understand it how important everyone is how much i love people the degree to whihc i love people and everyone i have ever met ill just never ever be able to express the depth of how important it is to me it might be the most important part of my entire life. i just need people to know how much i love them im desperate for it to be known how important everyone ive ever met is to me. all of my friends everyone whos ever been kind to me and whoever ive been kind to it will never be lost on me how important it is. and i feel so lucky to be graced i guess by my friends. i cant imagine the life i would live without every event every person who ive ever crossed. i would never sacrifice anything to not be where i am now because of the people i know and have known. the people i know and talk to everyday or the people i see in a notification or pass by. i cant overstate your importance to me. i cant overstate how important i want people to feel. i want people to see themselves how i see them. i can not overstate your importance to me and i love you. im so lucky ill never be able to take it

#i just want ti go to sleep but i cant my sleep schedule has been so miserably depressing me #not that badly. i cherish every moment i have with the people around me and i cherish how lucky i am to be surrounded by such unbe #lievable people. i am happy everyday because people love me. #this will never be lost on me. the importance of it. the importance you all have will never ever be lost on me. your worth as a human being #you are so kind. you are so talented. you are loved by people because you are seen by people that way. i will never lose this #im miserably desperate for everyone i know to feel loved or to know that i love them. nothing will ever ever ever in my whole fucking life #ever be more important to me #nothing in my fucking life will ever be more important than that. please know how much you mean to this. to everything #i dont know what changed but i cry so often now and every single time my thoughts wander to how deeply i feel about this #im just sobbing and sobbing and im like. i love the people that care for me. i love the people i care for #i know when i stop crying or when the day rolls over i get to talk to everyone again. and i feel so lucky. i feel so desperate to explain it #how. much. it. means. to me. How badly i mean this and everything I say. #i dont fucking care if yoire my mutual from fandom or someone who random followed because my blog was funny #someone i talked to once or twice. you mean so much. i swear to god. ill never be mpre genuine or more serious. i guess #thats very kind of you to do that. or like my posts or anything. youre very kind for that. you mean alot to me. #i just dont want to fall asleep when the sun rises and wake up with a few hours to talk to people before im alone #i really hate it right now. and my neutral state has genuinely just been on the brink of crying. like if i sit still too long i just sob #thats genuinely how i have been for the past few days #and thats not the fault of anyone its just how my brain has been treating me #but whdn i get like this i just remember how lucky i feel about everything. like the depth of my feelings #you really just have to trust me when i say like how forever sincere and deep snd monumental it is to me. like please understand the depth #of when i say i love you. dear god i love everyone ive ever met i love you. please please please please understand how desperate i am #i will never ever feel more strongly about anything. i cant imagine it #i have to make this exact same fucking post over and over again #i need to keep saying it man #i need people to love themselves like i love them #the degree to which i say the word need #anyway. i love you. i hope you have fun or are happy about something. or draw write something nice. talk to your best friend. something

[doebt]

U can call me naive or stupid for being excited about working at target potentially but Bro after literally 1 shift of $8/hr nursing home janitorial work. Well i dont even need to continue this sentence

#Also in alabama it is like a privilege to work for an inclusive company even if it is like #superficial like it always is Do you know what i mean. well honestly you probably dont but you either do or you dont #Its like there are places here that either will hire gnc people or WILL NOT under ANY circumstances hire a gnc person #places that will: some small businesses(Love).... starbucks... spencers in the mall... target... walmart but they wont be happy about it #also petco and petsmart which is actually really nice to see but I kind of dont want to work at either of those #For like reasons blah blah i dont want to get into ittt #But yeah like i cant explain it but its super noticeable if you know and after living here almost my whole life #It like jumps out at me its like if i walk into 1 of the above places (besides walmart) i KNOW im going to see a gay person #And SEEING a gay person when U live in a smaller town in alabama is like week altering... Just refreshing af #Ok i cant talk about this anymore its honestly complciated you get it or you dont. I hvae to go get my covid booster BYE

[tragically-jane-doe]

I'm honestly afraid to know what the whole proshipping thing is

#shipping #?? #i honestly dont know what it is #i just go by the philosophy of ship whatever you want if it makes you happy just leave real life humans outta it #the amount of people that just go overboard on shipping real people is weird #but yeah if anyone wants to actually explain what the whole proshippers or non proshipper thing is please dl #are non proshippers just against anytype of noncanon ships? #ive somehow managed to stay outta drama on tumblr for YEARS #i dont wanna get in some now but im curious #tell me what the hell this is pleaseeee

[touyaz]

I just read "let us love each other until the end" on AO3 and had to run to gush about it. The bathroom scene, with Toge signing "I'm sorry" in Japanese over and over is one of the most beautiful pieces of literature I have ever read. (I should preface this with I am deaf lol) There's a certain intimacy with signing wholeheartedly like you described, and I can tell how much work you put into researching how to convey signing while writing and I really appreciate it. <3

HIII first of all I'm so sorry for getting to this sooo late but pls know I've thought abt it countless times since you sent it in & it makes me so 🥰💗🥹 I'm really glad you liked it so much!!! I think the bathroom scene is like. one of my most favourite scenes ever written. and him sitting on a stool in a bathtub, staring at the ground, hair soaking wet, was the only thought I had going in to write that fic lmao

also I'm like. over the moon at how that kind of intimacy came through!! for me bathrooms have always been this kind of safe space where you're free with your own thoughts. you're like an open wound but you can control what infects it (you) - you can let in whoever you want. and inumaki doesn't /want/ to let the reader in, per se, but he bears the pain and lets them in anyway. and I think there's this added vulnerability that comes with being so exposed (literally and figuratively lol) in a bathroom when you're not alone and your safe space isn't just yours anymore. and it's like he's at his lowest and he feels useless and pathetic and utterly unlovable but he's already let you in so now he thinks you should stay. the damage has been done and now he wants you stay. despite it all. is that too much to ask for? that you stay even though you know he's not worth it? he finds himself desperately clinging to the hope that you say no. that you shut the door behind yourself and you lather shampoo in your hands and you tell him that he doesn't even need to ask. there's just something so needy, so pleading in his repetition. his begging the reader to look at me. please look at me. please don't leave me, too.

#I RAMBLED FOR WHATTTTT #im continuing my reply in the tags bc im embarrassed now LMAO but fr words cant explain how much i appreciate everything you have said #like im sooo glad that that intimacy did come thru and i didnt make a Fool of myself trying to write abt smth im not experienced in #what is repetition if not desperation if not devotion if not an act of worship!!!!!!!!! #AAA honestly i dont know what else to say im just super happy that you enjoyed it!!!!! and thank you so much for taking the time to write #to me about it too it honestly made my day!! and im so sorry for not getting back to you sooner abt it i wanted to treasure it for a #little longer and then just. completely forgot to reply 😭😭 #Omg i will shut up now bc i could go on and on about bathrooms they're my fave. and also how repetition and devotion go hand in hand<33 #but thank you so much again i rly rly do appreciate this beyond words can tell 💓💓💓 #anon #comeback tag #ult fave

[enchantingruinscandy]

mmm my favorite feature bout myself is my lack of ability to comfortably share how I'm feeling and without beating myself up for it later

#personal stuff in the tags here #but oh my god i hate my birthday so much #and when people ask why i only tell them half of it bc thats all i can explain without getting looks of pity or apologies #its fun in theory but then ppl start wishing me happy birthday and spending their time and money on me and i have to fight to keep a #straight face. i dont know if its stress or anxiety or what but i will start crying #i know that ppl close to me do it because they care but i just cant believe it. if you tell a stranger its your birthday theyll tell you #happy birthday. its not something personal. ive seen strangers get a small birthday gift for another stranger before or give them a #birthday discount. #i dont know where im going with this but ranting about it makes me feel better. #birthdays are cool. just...not if its mine #shut up arlo thats personal #enchanted dumbassery

[malwarechips]

honestly i hope no one gets the clip studio paint 2.0 thing when it comes out. force them to rethink their choice, if they havent before it releases i dont think ANYONE wanted this

#lev.txt #im genuinely distraught i HATE this . #im glad that you'll be able to keep using the old version (hopefully) forever but . euchh... stinky. #ive used csp for abt two years now and i just . urgh. #if you dont know whats going on: google it bc im gonna explain this badly probably: #clip studio paint is gonna stop giving free updates for 1.0+ versions in favour of 2.0 versions which iirc are gonna be monthly payment onl #only* #aka: its a way to get more money and no one is happy #its gonna be happening in 2023 which . isnt SOON but its soon . and i. roughgghgg #goes feral /neg

[master-gatherer]

#how to explain that my parents are still cut out of my life #and for good reason #like i get it you want us all to be one big happy family #parents and children shouldnt fight etc etc #but consider: do you want to bridge that divide b/c its best for both parties? or b/c you feel like this is something that should happen? #my life has been considerably better since cutting both my parents out sooooooo 🤷 #and from what shes told me dad is doing ok or at least a lot of the same #only mom has really turned and thats less 'boohoo i miss my kid' and more 'boohoo i dont know how to go out and socialize' #which like same but im not throwing myself a pity party about it #even if i was interested in talking to them again im still salty over getting some of my art back water damaged and covered in mildew #like the water damage w/e i could work with that #but actual fucking mildew #just hope i tossed it all before it spread #but yeah sure i feel missed #personal #delete later #maybe #and yes that is our father that text within a text is from she calls him that dont be weird about it #being weird about it is an insta block