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#if i didnt get pushed into social circles i could spend my entire life alone
ofsunhillow
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2 years
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im like narcissus but a girl
#i feel like im deeply and irreversively self centered. not that im a bad person. but that i just dont connect and dont want to
#everything i think revolves around me what i am doing what i would say how i would react how i would move
#and i repeat my own scene 100 times
#i can spend hours looking at myself in the mirror but i dont
#as if to stop myself from being so self centered. and i get in the shower and think about
#hypothetical scenarios where i am talking to someone and i am saying things about me
#i feel like an outside observer of people
#if i didnt get pushed into social circles i could spend my entire life alone
#i dont miss people. when i do what i miss is the entertainment i got from being with them
#when i love someone i cant tell if its real or if im making myself believe i love them because accepting that i cant form attachments
#would be too much. i would have a dull life. not because im lonely but because i would be bored
#but am i thinking this because i actually feel this way. am i actually unable to get attached to people
#or have i just convinced myself of that as some sort of weird repression
#and thinking about this feels like a loop it feels like i will never get out of this way of thinking. because im just
#thinking about how i think about how i think about how i think
#and im not sure what it is exactly thats making me hate this
#is it because i feel broken and deep inside i want connection? is that a desire i have
#or do i hate it because i feel i am missing out on the human experience. i am very very afraid of missing out
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