#idk who else i'm not that well read

[mzannthropy]

Oh the joy of seeing men call each other "my dear fellow".

#books #literature #classic lit #sherlock holmes #arthur conan doyle #the count of monte cristo #alexandre dumas #charles dickens #oscar wilde #bram stoker #dracula #idk who else i'm not that well read #i searched through some works on gutenberg for this phrase #but can't do it for all #mypost

[lenievi]

(DC Comics February 1995, issue 68)

#spones #'unique bond' lol #spock's like doctor stonn asked me if i ever got over t'pring #mccoy: idk if i'm more surprised that he asked you or that you're telling me #spock: we have a unique bond doctor (who else would i talk about this with?) #and i'm troubled because i've never tried to quantify those feelings #mccoy: well a few years ago you'd never say a word. this is an improvement #spock: what caused this improvement? #mccoy: you said we shared consciousness #spock: you said don't remind me lol #tos nonsense #always love to see people acknowledging a unique bond between spock and mccoy <3 #i'm gonna miss these 1990s comics. i'm slowly running out :( #since i also only read one author and skip the rest since i don't trust them

[nostalgia-tblr]

"are people not into that?" i ask, after posting my weird niche shit to the internet, despite knowing it to be weird niche shit.

#jsyk sylkius or anything adjacent to it does not “Do Numbers” in any way and i observed this some time ago #i assume that's the “rival ships” element at work but who knows really #that sort of thing is like femslash in that everyone approves of it but nobody actually reads or writes it #but who would have thought sylvie beating loki with a stick would not bring in droves of readers???! shocking twist there! #& i don't consider sifki a rarepair but my rarepair standards are VERY strict like if there's >5 fics a pairing is basically mainstream #chasing popularity would annoy me though & i just don't have the mental spoons to try writing stuff i wouldn't personally read #yeah i *could* put my blorbos to work in a coffee shop but what cost to my own enjoyment levels? AT WHAT COST FANGELA??? #you can't please everyone so you may as well just please yourself and if anyone else likes it you've found some fellow freaks so yay #i don't mean please yourself in a wanking sense. though feel free to do that too it probably counts as a cardio workout idk. #BUT ANYWAY #fic related #ps i am v glad there's the “warning: loki” tag because i think/hope it acts as a filter for 'he did nothing wrong in his life ever' types #who are Valid & etc obviously but i write my morally grey characters to be morally grey and the tag might help avoid conflict #though tbh i write almost every character to be morally grey in some way so i can't claim to have left my comfort zone here #(i'm not joking when i say the 1987-89 run of Dr Who shaped my entire future fannish life from a young and apparently v impressionable age)

[autistic-beshelar]

ah yes dungeon meshi, the manga where an autistic man gets repeatedly bullied by people he thinks are his friends and not a single person supports him

#dont get me wrong i am enjoying this manga #but i'm failing to see how this is some great amazing autistic rep #like yeah laios is obviously autistic #and the struggles he has due to his autism are VERY relatable #but it's deeply uncomfortable that even the people closest to him are routinely awful to him #specifically for his autistic traits #and their bullying is almost always a joke #not a single person defends him #literally senshi is the only character that's never been cruel to him #well and farlyn but lbr she's also autistic and also has been in like half a chapter that ive read so far #maybe ive just not read far enough or not seen enough posts #but im not understanding why the fandom are treating it like amazing autistic rep and how it understands us so well #you could argue that the narrative tends to support laios's methods and way of thinking #but nothing else does #the scene with shuro was fucking awful to read tbh #'you're so annoying because you're autistic. how dare you think im your friend when you should have just guessed that i hated you' #and not a single person defends laios #or calls shuro out on what a fucking horrific way of treating a party member that is #like i dont know MAYBE you could have just said 'hey i don't really want to be friends' #maybe you could COMMUNICATE. #but no it's the autistic man who's the problem. for the crime of.... being too nice. #i don't have a problem with the scene. #i have a problem with the fact that shuro is framed as reasonable here. instead of utterly fucking vile. #i have a problem with none of the other characters sticking up for laios. #dungeon meshi #maybe ppl will start treating him better #i would like to continue reading #but if he continues getting bullied in EVERY fucking chapter as a 'joke' then idk man

[sergeifyodorov]

why are you a straightsid truther

he's straight

#asks #sidney crosby #answer i'm leaving in the tags bc i am a gossip purveyor but do not seek to become a gossip blog (im here 4 auston matthews' chest hair) #bc he is the most famous active or possibly ever nhler and has never been caught. #almost everyone else who's Possibly Queer has like *actual* rumours; he operates on a negative #on a 'well he's not very public or affectionate with his gf now is he?' #which. yeah no totally that's super read-into-able #but i PROMISE one of the guys on datalounge wouldve said something by now if there was substance to it #also. and this is just me. he doesn't really ping idk there are wayyyy more gay-on-vibes nhlers out there than his whole deal #FINAL disclaimer that reality and fanfic are different and gay sid fic is WHOLEHEARTEDLY encouraged and adored by yours truly !!!! #okay awl this over continue as usual

[backpackingspace]

Okay but yin yu needs a raise this yin yu is overworked that. Where is the Ling wen needs a raise content

#Tgcf #Yin yu #ling wen #I do love the idea that yin yu has a great employment plan he's just long suffering and #If he's too busy working than he doesn't need to feel things ever #Obviously hua cheng probably bullied him and definitely made him transcribe his diary bc #“What if his highness wants to read it one day yin yu this is important yin yu” #But he also seems like the person who understands very well that money talks #And that an employee who is comfortable is much less likely to betray you #Meanwhile Ling wen is dealing with some bullshit 24/7 #She's not being paid half the other gods never wrote out reports everyone is sexist she hasn't slept in 3 years #Jun wu calls her into his office twice a day to make her scribe his evil plans (tm) #She's tried she's overworked literally xie lian is the only who's ever said thank you to her ever #Yin yu gets invited to the overworked employees club for drinks (idk who else would be there besides Ling wen but let's imagine that there #Everybody complaining/screaming/wishing for death bc they're so tired #Yin yu: Oh I think there's been a mistake I actually have great benefits #Ling wen considers homicide and defecting right there and then #Idk why I'm trying to push the Ling wen yin yu friends agenda but here we are

[leafy-m]

My stupid story is 20k now how I do make it stop 😵

#Every time I read through to edit I end up adding another scene this is so fuckin embarrassing #It's not even in chapters it's just one massive thing #The beginning is bad though I have to figure out how to rewrite that but lmao a fixed version with dialogue will be another 2k aha ha ha #There's one long scene I could remove and make that it's own one shot but also god how about I Don't #I'll probably end up deleting it because it's just. Too much. Compared to everything else. But also. What if I didn't? 🤷‍♀️ #I think what's hilarious is that I had Plans. About Themes. And Character Studies. And Comparisons #And idk if it's even really in there and visible and not just 20k of 'what if I just wrote the most indulgent shit for me specifically' #And then ended it with an emotional slap to the face because I love building things up and then tearing it apart #(and it does that really well; I'm giggling into my hands - I'm dancing on my own grave) #I've cried so many times during this stupid fic #*deletes other comment* #Anyway my OTHER fic that I also indulgently love and is way too long and made me cry way too hard every fuckin scene #Does not make me cry anymore and idk if I broke it somehow in the editing or if I'm just immune to its devastation now #Honestly concerned that when I post these I'll be like 'meh; it's just ok' and then anyone who reads it is like ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #Hehehehe #Ok I'm done

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[gregoftom]

oh they fr had bitchnasty sex after this

#tomgreg #I CANT BREATHE HAHAHAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa oh wow. ohhhhhhh wow. oh wow. hahahahahaaaaaaaaaa wow. #GREG REALLY SAID: YOU WANNA FUCK ME SO BAD IT MAKES YOU LOOK STUPID. #the way tom goes OHHHhhhh at greg getting bold is Exactly the same tone me and my gf use with each other. just. you know. for reference. #BUT GREG'S LITTLE HEAD GESTURE BEFORE HE SAID PROVE IT LIKE HE REALLY MEANS IT?????? I GOTTA GO #also i'm sorry but they both read so fucking gay to me like so gay. esp greg in this moment. his line for comfry is so like. #it's so. like you just wouldn't do that. i think. if you were straight. I DONT KNOW I JUST FEEL A KINDRED SPIRIT IN HIM I GUESS. #''she seems like a nice.... person'' GIRL WHAT KIND OF ANSWER IS THAT AND THE PAUSE BEFORE PERSON I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE. #i know what you both are. #like. fuck what else can i say about this scene. they're insane i guess???? #oh btw i know for a fact tom thinks greg is the most beautiful weird ass creature he's ever seen #like you know a sea creature that's kinda weird that you'd find at the bottom of the ocean that you see in an aquarium #and you're like wow!! that's odd! but.... so beautiful #like that's greg to tom. yet he's like SHES SO PRETTY AND YOU'RE SO GROSS HAHAHA #like. i see what you're doing you fucking avocado you're like oh don't bother going after her bc you're sweet and she might actually say yes #she might like you for what i like you for and y'all might hook up and i can't be having that!!! #like he's so transparent lmfao. #how do i know tom thinks greg is beautiful?? well who else do you say would be fit to take over from your beautiful wife if she died #ALSO tom is just surprised that greg bit back he's not even like. angry? idk i feel like if anyone else said that they'd be #family guy on the floor pose #about shiv being out of his league i mean #HE EVEN LOOKED AT GREGS MOUTH WHEN HE DID THAT LMFAOOO HE THOUGHT THAT WAS HOT #GOD I HATE HIM HAHAaaaaaaahh #AND AFTER GREG SAYS PROVE IT IT JUST CUTS OFF?!??! DID YALL GO FUCK IN THE BATHROOM IM MDDDWDWKDW #ALSO IF YOU LOOK AT PREV POST/WHAT HAPPENED PREVIOUSLY. THEY TOUCHED EACH OTHER LIGHTLY DIDNT EVEN HUG. #and as i said it felt sort of like ''i don't wanna spoil your outfit we can do that later anyway when we fuck raw'' #then you get this. and the cut off. so like. come on what the fuck am i supposed to think. just ignore it?? #ALSO sorry. sorry. BUT TOMS FACE DURING IT ALL HES LIKE 20 YEARS YOUNGER!!!!!!! AAARRAHgh #ALSO!!!! sorry. sorry. sorry. but why are the colours the bisexual flag in the bg. why. for what reason. #tom keeps looking at gregs mouth all throughout talking about how he fucks. so fuck him. prove it pussy.

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[lesbianlotties]

uh oh i'm getting this feeling that tells me i might not graduate this year and as soon as that's confirmed you have no idea how much i'm going to cry <3

#as if i wasn-t slow enough and procrastinated like my life depended on it... my thesis tutor is an asshole that took a month to read ch 1 #to READ IT so who knows when he'll finish the corrections like these will be just the first ones of the first chapter #there's two more chapters left #and my uni requires that i'd be done with fucking everything by OCTOBER 5 #that means submitting myt thesis AND defending and god knows how long that takes #like my prof technically just gave me good news but idk about about you guys #but i'm feeling like i might just kms instead <3 #i'm staring at the calendar on my phone thinking we're not going to make it chief #oh i'm going to be sick #okay wait wait hold on i'm thinking not everything is lost like so what if i don't graduate this year i can still finish the thesis this ye #and then actually fucking rest and enjoy my life and plan what i'll do next while i wait for the next graduation! #but what about everyone in my life being intense about me graduating already??? well they'll make me cry but what else is new

[holocene-sims]

next // previous

june 18, 2021 1:00 a.m. the callahan residence

#ts4 #the sims 4 #sims 4 #sims 4 story #ts4 screenshots #simblr #hlcn: everything the stars promised #it bugs me that i chose a slightly anachronistic reference for the modern songs BUT HDJSFJKDGJKDF WHO ELSE IS GOING TO NOTICE BUT ME #except now you are mildly aware if you read the tags #also i'm just going to hope that it seems obvious she's briefly referring to an gorta mor // aka the potato famine #sometimes idk how well the cultural aspect of this story comes across at this point BUT i guarantee you it is important #holocene.docx #holocene.png #hlcn: grant #hlcn: aoife

[emp-blast]

i've been sitting here trying to write a post about how it sort of sucks that the gay shooting games that i play do not, in fact, show any sort of romantic interactions between two male characters, but i can't find the proper words for that thought

#this is specifically about apex btw. like it could apply to other games but i had apex in mind for this #it's okay for the gay characters you created to be gay on screen i promise you #idk maybe i'm asking for too much but it feels not great when it's only mentioned in an off-handed comment #or in a single line in a comic that 75% of the player base doesn't read. or in a goddamn twitter comment... #idk idk maybe i'm just upset over nothing- after all confirming a character's sexuality is a lot to celebrate for! #it's just that when you have characters who are able to express their sexuality (Valk specifically) that's not a problem #but when it comes to male characters that's a big No No #no hate to valk btw i luv her a lot #she's like the girl equivalent of Just Some Guy #and she's unapologetically attracted to woman and i am happy that she can do that! #and i don't want to take that away from her and anyone else who relates to her #like i don't wanna sit here and say 'well what about me??' #which is what i ended up saying anyways 😭 #SORRY- i just need to see some homosexuality occur onscreen okay???

[magentagalaxies]

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#scrolling through tumblr first thing in the morning and seeing nothing but news/activism is uhhhh kind of exhausting rn #like obviously i'm glad people are spreading awareness and i agree with most of these stances #but jfc how does this not make everyone else tired and depressed??? #like i'm scrolling through tumblr and it's like. scotus protected someone's right to hypothetically discriminate against gay people #stabbing in a gender studies class. tourists decimating the economy of barcelona. presidential candidate advocating trans genocide #and that's not even counting the super long posts i just didn't have the mental energy to read. or the joke-y ones #(like ''every time you reblog this capybara a terf/antisemite dies''. well obviously it's not true bc it's not the fucking death note. #and ik wishing death upon bigots is a good way to make sure those bigots aren't following you but also #it just forces me to remember there are bigots who would probably want me dead if reblogging posts could kill trans people) #idk this isn't me telling people to stop posting politics. bc honestly i admire people who have the energy to spread awareness #and i don't want to just like. blacklist anything remotely political and live in a bubble as the world's ending #but idk i just wish my scrolling didn't immediately turn into doomscrolling this morning

[bumblingbabooshka]

Worf/Tuvok Because if their wives can get together so can they!

#OK BUT THIS SOMEHOW CLICKS?? #First of all I just love Worf and Tuvok a lot #also...both dads #and Tuvok is like A+ dad while Worf seems to have a rocky relationship with his son #idk - I am basing this ALL from the wiki #and I'm picturing Tuvok and Worf having a 'bonding with kids' montage #where I'm sure a klingon child's energy/natural temperment is different from a Vulcans in some ways but in some ways very similar #since Vulcans have STRONG emotions and as children would need to be taught to control them #I don't think Tuvok would be too phased by Klingon childrens' emotions he'd just deal with them differently than a human or klingon would #Picturing Worf not knowing what the hell to do with Tuvok's 4 pack of quiet well behaved children who follow him around like ducklings #but I do headcanon that he has at least one wildcard (Elieth) and he and Alexander get along like a house on fire #hmm what else... #Klingons use poetry in mating rituals and Tuvok likes poetry! Imagining Tuvok reading Worf poetry without knowing the implications #and then ALSO Tuvok and Worf sparring and Tuvok kicks his ass #Worf looks at Tuvok kicking his ass reading poetry and wearing vulcan robes like 'This guy's GNC as FUCK' #they're also both more serious and very ... what's the word? patriotic? #Ughheugh. No. Patriotic might as well be a slur. #They're both deeply connected their cultures v_v and I think they'd have a lot of boring old man convos about it #It doesn't SEEM like either would have a straightforward relationship to that culture either...with Worf apparently being raised by humans #(I assume on earth?) and Tuvok having struggled to fit into Vulcan society in his youth to the point where he says he wishes he hadn't been #born Vulcan! Very different from him in canon...I just think they'd talk a lot v_v #cliche little moment where Tuvok shows up to one of their talks in a Vulcan robe instead of his uniform (not thinking anything of it) #and Worf is like '!??/?? ?? d ress?? dress??' but he's kinda...into it....uh oh #Tuvok gives Worf flowers and Worf doesn't know what to do with flowers but he tries his best to care for them #hmmm......thats all v_v #thanks for listening #Tuvok/Worf #Tuvok #Worf #ds9

[apollo-cackling]

sometimes I go into western fandom spaces for chinese webnovels and I feel like I'm going insane is chinese racism/ableism really that different from western racism that western fans don't notice them the way I do it can't be can it it feels so blatantly obvious to me but no one talks about it??????

not to say that folks can't enjoy them still I just start feeling like the person in horror movies that's the only person that sees ghosts

#my rambles #like this arc with desert dwelling people who are Inherently Brutish and Murderous and 10147x stronger than Normal people #and we Had to genocide them 'cause else they'd've suicide bombed hundreds of our cities #(which is confirmed true by one of those quote unquote savages' generals and the narratives just accepted was necessary) #like ????? #also seeing a book rec'd on its political intrigue and turns out there's a whole Thing about killing and subjugating the Savages #idk if 蛮人 is more or less yikes than 'barbarians' on a cultural context level but #yk #even in the ones I've started to read that are less bad about it #the barbarians/'we actually gave them a name this time but you know what we're talking about' #still essentially serve the narrative utility of tolkien's orcs #also the liao kingdom in y/wu even setting aside that I just find 'Ontologically Evil Kingdom' extremely boring as an archetype #(esp given the narrative utility of it was just 'well the stuffy nobles* Bicker and all that but when faced with an existential threat #they pull together #*read: deeply bigoted dogmatic hateful selfish exploitative rotten to the core groups people #which is boring and lazy and I hate it) #also just. good ol' chinese racism I can't remember if it's Actual Racist (w/ its descriptions mirroring descriptions of irl folks) but. yk #I need to stop picking structural holes in yuwu I'm done reading it I'm done #also this other one I found's base concept involves a mentally ill protag whose mental illness literally involves him sometimes becoming #an uncontrollable murderer or wtv #so #fun