#idk if anyone who follows me will know who they are lmao

[chrisbangs]

hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi... #i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭 #i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh... #uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂 #i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say... #i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media / #without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ???? #i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀 #i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭 #who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

[saveugoodmadam]

this is so funny to me okay so the timeline goes

Several years ago in my desperately wanting to be a werewolf phase I looked at like one or two pages of the first chapter of the glass scientists but it had literally just started and hadn't gotten past chapter two and I was. A child. So I ended up like of dropping it

Fast forward several years later...

I'm looking at random tv tropes articles and there's one with a picture of a girl with a skeleton hand

I reverse image search it and one of the suggested images is a panel from chapter one of tgs

flashback.jpg

I binge the entire comic in a single day and buy volume one immediately

edward hyde and associates sink their grubby little paws into my brain

and today I just spend twenty one pounds on a copy of the two main source materials (j&h and frankenstein) and a copy of the jekyll and hyde OBCR and a copy of the original studio cast recording which had to come over the sea from TEXAS

#don't thiiink I'll tag this because idk whether anyone cares except my followers but yeah #I do just really enjoy cataloguing my histories with fandoms if I can remember them lmao #but I saw that reversed image google suggestions and I got the most vivid flashback to being younger and in the absolute throes #of my wanting to be a werewolf phase (newsflash past me it was the transness and the autism) #and reading those first few panels with jasper #I stg I cried happy tears at the jasper reveal because idk it's like. #Werewolves are a big thing for me because sometimes I don't feel human and sometimes I don't like my body and I'd rather be a wolf tbh #and then to look back on things and realise that and realise that one of the werewolves I came across when I didn't know who was is like me #man. ah man. #any way sorry about the tag essay everyone

[redysetdare]

I think i would like sci-fi a lot more if more stories took the evolution route to it. so many sci-fi stories focus so much on the technology side and "Let's go to space! let's see capitalist hell!" and like, yeahh those have their purpose and place in sci-fi. But personally i love when sci-fi gets speculative with biology. How will the earth change? what animals developed from changed ecosystems - which animals evolved and which ones went extinct? I want people to take the science part of science fiction and explore biology and ecology and how the planet and animals change with the world. I"m tired of it only focusing on technology and robots and being more cyber fantasy.

#text #b4 anyone says 'u want specfic' sci-fi does count as specfic #i just want some science fiction that focuses on nature rather than tech #tbh most my sci-fi tho comes from books i read in my college class on it and the book i got full of classic sci-fi stories #but not many were able to capture my attention like i had hoped #if you guys have any recs that do what i say in the post im all ears!!! I'll be happy to learn abt sci-fi stories like that!!! #basically in this case I want to be wrong I want there to be books about what this post mentions #sci-fi #science fiction #uhh idk tags #oops #anyways a bit outta left field for ppl who usually follow me lmao #if u didnt know i wrote my own story for that class that was basically this #it took the idea of humans going extinct and how the world would grow and change after that #it also speculated on primates becoming more sentient and the fact that new species of monkey appeared #a little more fantasy now that im out of that class but still a bit focused on some sci-fi elements

[thueenz]

have any of u guys seen that cheeseball cat on tiktok/insta?? idk i dont use instagram. this one

i saw them months ago but they popped up again last night on my fyp and i want to talk about them so bad because theyre an occupied object as i like to call them (object with some kind of spirit in them, not to say haunted, just an object with some kind of 'being' or soul to it) and i find it endearing that a cheeseball cat i randomly saw one day is occupied. now we go under readmore

im pulling most of the screenshots from this video because its the one i saw last night so go watch if youre curious and to show the creator some love for their art!

if you have no idea who cheddar is they were not always a cheeseball, the creator bought them and painted them like this originally they looked like THIS

the being in them was present from the time of buying, they stick out like a sore thumb in this image specifically (likely because this is the day of buying and they havent settled into their surroundings at all)

luckily they dont seem to mind the fact that they were painted like a giant cheeseball at all. i cant say every being would take well to that, but if anything, they seem to like it. even if op and the fans on tiktok arent aware theyre 'there', they seem to enjoy the attention they get, and the individual love they have been given in the paint job. to be loved is to be changed or whateva. in all seriousness though they are fine with it, more than fine, which im glad lmao

theres plenty of beings in objects that are discontent with their situation, where the person theyre with either is not aware of them at all, or is misguided in their views towards beings in objects/uncaring/ even scared, but cheddar here seems perfectly happy. while others might shy away from attention, they seem to like the attention tiktok gets them.

i mean, they have their own little pedestal, special gift like baby cats that are custom painted, theyre special and named to the person theyre with, and people on tiktok love them. not a bad life if thats something you like! im really happy they feel so content, i get sad seeing beings that are unhappy on the internet but i cant rlly do anything about those cases so 😭

they really seem to like the person theyre with too, in this frame of them being picked up, their energy softens and brightens and makes my chest feel giddy and affectionate. theyre very cute i adore this cat i would give them a hug if theyd have me

i think they likely have a purpose or magical skill, but i cant pinpoint it further than 'they want to bring good into this persons life', which could cover a raaange of things.

theyre not malicious at all, they seem very content and friendly and i wouldnt feel uncomfortable around them at all in person so no worry of that. a bit intense before settling into their new life, but not bad. sometimes beings are just a bit intense lol. theyre not haunted by any human spirit, i can't say where they came from, or when, but i don't think they were ever 'alive' either animal or human.

i ♥️ cheddar and their sweet little cheese throne

#i know literally no one followed me for this but its here anyway #if anyone has any questions about anything in this post feel free to ask lol i didnt want it to get too long #and idk how clearly i speak for the average person who isnt used to this stuff #this is what i mean too when i say people can send me stuff to review so heres an example ! #ig this can be rebloggable i usually turn it off for personal posts but if someone wants cheddar analysis on their blog go ahead lmao #special thanks to my friend for helping confirm my reading since i like second opinions shoutout phoenix💪 #the entities still kicking my ass but i churned out a post just for cheddar ilysm #magicposting #occupied objects #energy reading #sorting these tags so i dont have to do it later #pers

[blazingstar29]

question the general public because reddit scares me LMAO and also i don't know many trans people irl and none of them ride horses

people who ride horses and use a binder (both traditional binder or transtape) how do you find it because i do not want to fuck around and find out. more in terms of falls and wearing a back protector at the same time (bc lets be honest those things aren't cozy). general riding/dressage i think it'd be alright but when it comes to jumping both cross country and sj, taking off, and landing, yk when your horse lands and you twist to look for the next fence?

maybe i'm over thinking it but i know exercising with a binder isn't recommended so i was just thinking how it'd go with riding. i'm especially interested with if you've ever fallen in one without a body protector and if that's fucked with your ribs

#anyway just sussing everything out bc idek lmao #binding #trans equestrian #tags for reach bc idk if anyone who follows me is going to know but i'd be interesting in anyone's experience :) #a traditional binder would be more economic but for riding i wonder if tape would be better idk

[jefferythejelly]

foolishfreckles you are my safe space on this cruel cruel app full of karl haters. love is indeed stored in the foolishSharkheart.

aw i'm glad i can be that for u anon. we certainly seem to be a minority on dtblr as of late but at least we can always just talk to each other lol 🫂

#personally i just started unfollowing ppl being weird lmao #to me dt.blr is me and my mutuals and a handful of ppl outside of that who are cool at this point lmao #a while ago i was actually thinking abt making one of those 'rb and ill add u to a follow list' but for ppl with mains other than d.team #but i never actually did it lol. would anyone b into that #ifl it could be good but could also backfire bc the goal would b a list of ppl who ideally arent too neg abt ccs outside of d.team #but i know theres ppl out there who are like. kantis who still like foolish or tina or munchy etc etc #idk maybe just a karl positive follow list might b good at this point lmao #90% of this post is in the tags uh oh #asks

[dragonfruitghosts]

Good news gang! I have finally kinfirmed Cyn, Polly, Marco, Chem and Berry (Sparklecare and Cometcare but that’s probably obvious) and I’ll probably talk about that later at some point when i feel like it

The bad news is that those weren’t the only ones I’ve been kinsidering and now I’m stuck wondering if I’m Sugar Rush, Kiki, Jay, Caroline, Jolly, Brigh, Pepper, Frosty, Dr. Time, Ribbon Pop, Scratch, Funfetti (that one’s an odd case), Siri, and maybe Barry (idk I’m getting vibes but they are the weakest)

So to make a long story short I will be making some silly Au versions of said kins (and also maybe some I’m questioning to see if my brain will actually give me anything to work with) and I’m in fictionkin hell please pick me up I’m scared /silly

#larry talks #do i tag this as sparklecare and/or fictionkin? #do i want to spotlight my nonsense currently? #fictionkin #i’m so sorry in advanced Sparklecarers who follow me (and just anyone seeing this post honestly) #i promise I’m usually normal (me when I lie) but the kin gods ganged up on me today #idk if the ones I’m fully questioning are coping links or actual fictotypes #I’m figuring it out as i go #haven’t focused a lot on my copinglinks #i do have them i just never found a way to list them out #anyways this is gonna be really funny if i go kinfirm scratch or pepper in some way #it’ll be me kinfirming hunter toh all over again lmao #whatever funfetti ends up being is still gonna be a f/o for me though #i just know I’m gay for that fucked up critter and whatever happens happens #also it’ll be so funny if i do end up having siri as a fictotype or copinglink #cuz I’m already Polly #might as well be the reincarnation of cometcare Polly in the future /silly #i really need to sleep so i will lmao #can’t wait to finally start making my copinglink section on my intro post

[vonlipvig]

this veep poster is so cool and i needed it as my phone background, so have a quick little textless edit for any of your textless edit needs.

#veep #veep hbo #a little shoddy but idc it's good enough for me lol #but yeah i love this poster! i love that i've only finished s2 but im still gonna use this as lockscreen...like idk who that man is but idc #also if anyone likes veep do give this a like or smth so i know who to follow in the near future lmao

[krutomu]

It’s okay and normal to get pissed off at your friends. It is normal and okay!

#I can’t be specific on this cus idk who follows me #But idk I just get a bit pissed when one person is exclusively nice to their partner #And has to constantly say things for their partner #And do things for their partner #Because their partner won’t just tell me if I do something wrong it has to be made everyone’s business so that someone else can tell me #I don’t like it when someone gets special treatment Al the time and I just get told to kill myself in a friendly way!! #And everyone can call me a twink too because it’s funny to them I guess #Idk i just #i just don’t like this guy and I keep trying to but I just don’t like him. #Apparently I make him cry all the time because I hurt his feelings but he doesn’t tell me #I hate to break it to you but you have to spell shit out to me #Im angry so I’m going to work out. Also I’m having more fucking hunger pain ugh #Idk if anyone’s reading this far but If you happen to know what it means when you feel hungry but when you eat you feel nauseous and you ha #Vertigo #lmk lmao

[wehelddarkness]

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#mayhaps i'll be back in here #mayhaps i'll do a bit of clean up about who i follow #i realized i've been bombarded with a lot of things and that has added to my anxiety #staying more lowkey has helped me function better #who would've thought that not staying on the loop of things most of the time would decrease my FOMO #anyway #it's been.... something this time i've been more disconnected #still hanging in there tho #so idk #i might just come back here once in a while or mayhaps not #i just know it's not in my nature to let go of a space i've curated for half of my life basically LMAO #so this will be always here as well as perfectdagger #and a space for my fanfics if i ever find the time to write again #anyway if anyone cared or noticed that i was away this is just to say hi i'm still alive 👋 #personal

[orcelito]

Formal Apology to my persona 5 followers

Yeah.

#speculation nation #i did not mean to switch fandoms but like... my brain has entirely switched gears lmao #i do still love p5 & akeshu of course but like. god i hate the fandom so fucking much. #no fandom is without faults but ive been enjoying my time in trigun fandom SO much more than p5 fandom #enough to take my blog out of hiding from search results. which is honestly kinda wild. #i dont plan on permanently giving up on writing discacc. but like. lol. #im having a lot more fun with itnl & interacting with trigun fandom. so this is just how it is rn. #i keep losing some followers (tho slower than im gaining trigun followers) and i Assume it's my p5 followers jumping ship #which like. Fair. hfkshfj if ur not interested in trigun & dont wanna see it. well. uh. sorry. #in the end it's my blog & writing fanfic is supposed to be fun. i hate temporarily putting discacc on hiatus #but i HAAAATED the p5 fandom & especially akeshu fandom. which is not a great feeling for the fandom im supposed to be in. #turns out it's not quite normal to have a great number of big names in the fandom that make my blood just fucking Boil #just upon seeing their names. it's that Dust shit & all involved. for those that know lol. #for any who r willing to stick it out with me. thanks ❤. tho im not judging anyone who ends up unfollowing #this is less of an apology for switching fandoms and more an apology for letting down discacc fans #maybe i should put a note on it or smth idk. i'll think about it. #for now imma just keep doing as i do. Happily. i have been having a lot of fun.

[fandom-fae]

apparently theres a very realistic chance that my grade’s “prom” (its not rly a prom but its kinda a local equivalent) won’t have any food or snacks there and like. i am so so so so hopeful rn because that would make the whole thing 10x better tbh

like therell still be drinks but that’s whatever shjxhdkdjjf

#like this is probs gonna sound super weird to like veryone who doesn’t know me But!!!!!!! i would celebrate that sm if they actually decide #not to have any food there bc of my misophonia/sensory issues lmao #like!!!!!!!!!! #anyway its rly annoying that so many ppl in this grade want there to be food but apparently the headmaster is against it which i find very #sympathisch of him. like i don’t even like him but that’s ehrenvoll tbh!!!!!!!!! #moi #irl #school #food ment tw #idk if anyone who follows me needs that tag but just in case yk

[chqnified]

Love how one of my irl 'friends' thought I'd be devastated that she hadn't even looked at my messages in over 2 weeks and that she had so many messages. Like babes, i have 3 fan accounts, but whatever.

#I didn't say anything. she wanted to see how many unread messages i had and i think that spoke for itself lmao #but like??? i mean tbh i didn't even realise she never responded or looked at them. She's on the list of people i generic reply lol #bless her. she's recently really been trying to embarrass us in some way lately. or attempting to feel superior anyhow #first it was with the grades... i did better than her so she failed at that (not to mention she also cheated but whatever) #then it was the attempt at saying she had sex and kissed someone at a party and she was 'so drunk she couldn't remember ' ... #idk how she thought that was a flex but go off ig #now she's trying to claim she's way more popular and liked than me and that in a way we need her? #like ok. #erin tag #it's comments here and there that really make me think. ok. you're definitely not jealous of us huh? #and don't get me started. she's still trying to twist everything we say into making it seem like we have a crush on her but she doesn't #again go off ig. but we all know the truth. She's the one who follows me around and has to come find me #nobody else will talk to her at break lol #she'd try to make out that i don't have anyone to talk to but her. the difference is. in break i fucking hide from everyone #because they all get on my last nerve atp #I'm just tired?? i have enough issues as is without some immature person trying to jab at me anytime possible #and whilst she doesn't know about our DID. it is perfectly obvious she tries to take advantage of when a little is out #also. despite knowing when we're having an anxiety attack. she'll just purposely leave us and claim we're holding her back from socialising #one time we only agreed to go out with a group of friends bc she said she'd be there if we needed to leave for a break #when time came and we were very stressed and in physical pain too bc haha joints. she made us feel guilty for it? #also she forced us into staying with the group. saying she too had anxiety and leaving the group would make her feel awful. #manipulation at its finest #that's all she seems to be good at. and yk what. i give her the credit of being better at it than us. congrats babes.

[griffsursparker]

the desire to share my poetry with my friends vs the fact that the gc I'd normally share this with because I feel comfortable sharing something so personal with these people is full of people who know the person this one is about lmao

#and at least one of them would probably realize that #so I just. cannot in good conscience share this with them but #damn this is way too personal and also way too dark and fucked up to share with anyone else lmao #I'm just rambling because if I ramble there they'd tell me to share it anyways #and the person it's ABOUT follows my twt so extra can't say anything there #and idk I just think what I really need to do is talk about. what happened with this person #but it's this weird dynamic of like. no one who doesn't know the person would Get It fully #but only one person who DOES know the person knows the full extent of why it's fucking me up #except it was way fucking worse on them #so it doesn't feel right venting to them because like objectively it impacted them way more #I was just sorta on the sidelines #anyways this was a long ramble but in short whoops I think the problem is not actually wanting to share the poem #and is more just christ I need to talk about this thing #but it's so fucking heavy welp #I need therapy lmaooo

[benevolentslut]

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#i'm in like. a weird grey area. #i know that I'm not like. a uniquely horrible person. #there are people out there who've done the same thing as me but fully intentionally and without regretting it #but also all these posts that are like 'your past actions don't define you!' 'forgive yourself and move on!' #don't really take into account someone who's done something as awful as i have. so like. #no actually i don't think that raping my ex is something i can just forgive myself for and move on #i think if it Was then that'd be even worse #'don't carry your guilt forever!' okay then what am i supposed to do with it. #i definitely don't want to put it on him lmao. he's suffering enough without having to deal with my bullshit too #and it's not exactly something i can just bring up to vent to friends about. #only two of my friends know the full story bc i'm just too ashamed to give anyone else more than just #a vague 'i unintentionally crossed an important boundary and betrayed his trust #i know if i ever dated someone new then they'd have a right to know. it's not something i could hide in good conscience #so every time i see posts like that i'm just. what do you want me to do with it then #i feel like anything Other than carrying it forever would be unfair to him. why should he have to suffer ptsd for life while i'm fine #idk. i just needed to throw thoughts into the void. I'll shut up now. #if any of my followers see this and decide to unfollow or block me i understand. i wouldn't want to associate with me either. #rape tw #vent

[awakened-void-deity]

I have nothing serious to post but i need to post art more. Problem is i dont art enough to post more AND I AM SUFFERING FOR IT

Best i have is a couple of sketches so enjoy some sketches for your....viewing purposes i suppose? Been practicing fluid and dynamic posing, trying to push poses further too yk. Anatomy is a bit wack but idc its not supposed to be super accurate

Then have some stuff from a Cyberpunk AU i made bc i listened to a song too many times (in my defence, Cyberpunk - ATEEZ is a good fucking song) (people who know me dont look at this) (i beg) (unfortunately this is my cringe thing)

(+ i made a design for my sona's husband too but id rather ask his creator first before posting that one)

Anyway thats all i have i havent been very motivated lately SIGHHHHH

#moth makes the arts #moth ramble in tags #moth doin a speak #yeah so anyone who knows me and is a part of my silly “hiiii bestie” tags please avert your eyes from my wrecked form #idk why im so embarrassed about enjoying ATEEZ music tho tbh theyre fucking fantastic artists #is it the kpop fandom its the kpop fandom #no like actually thats the reason. yall scare me and ive been into kpop for over like 7....9? years #i lost count ages ago tbh lmao #its between those two numbers tho lmao kms...yeah its been a long time #all i know is that i unironically was into BTS before they got super popular IDJDOSJSODJ i feel cringe saying that tho #im not like other girls im a dude /j #also idk if anyone does enjoy ATEEZ and follows me id love to see if someone can guess my favourite members... #i genuinely think its unfortunately obvious LMAO #anyway im not gonna ramble further ive already said too much @3@“