#i'm losing my fucking mind right now

[hydr0phius]

The Eclipse-class Star Destroyer has no business being so big. Why would you bother with a Death Star when you have THAT monstrosity???Hello??? ISDs are minuscule compared to that beast. Mere FLIES. ANTS TO A BOOT-

I thought the Executor-class was as big as it got, but nOoOo. Someone had to go and make a bigger fish.

#i'm losing my fucking mind right now #how many people does it need #it's fucking massive #hydro rambles #star destroyers #star wars

[arctic-bookclub]

this thought has minimal to no substance and i'm inhaling so much copium about q!phil's wings right now but the skull phil got a picture of today is most likely of a deer right? well i tried seeing if deers' skulls have any set meaning and one of the things i ran into is that the deer in some cultures is seen as a symbol of regeneration because of their antlers shedding off and growing back through the seasons. there are other meanings of course but i can't stop thinking about that one specific possible meaning especially connected to the book regarding phil's flying,,

#qsmp #qsmp philza #philza #i am so intriqued by this lore i'm losing my mind #i can't wait to see what they're cooking #i'm fine with whatever they'll do because my interest is Peaked #is it connected to rose? or mumza? a figure we haven't seen before? bonnie? #who knows #anyway i hope this post sends my internet is fucking dying right now

[ghouljams]

first of all I am so in love with your gaz. He’s the ultimate baby boy. The sweetest man. Baby. being near that man my skin would clear up I’d get nine hours of sleep and what trauma? I’ve never heard of her

the way you write him is such a balm for a weary soul. I genuinely wish he was real 😭 😭

ok but also what’s going on in that tags 🌝 who grabbed your throat where???

I love writing for Gaz, he's just so fun and playful?? And a little naughty??? Like he's so sweet but there's that bite of flirtatious-ness. Idk how to describe it, but yeah he could fix me.

The guy I've been seeing has a habit of sliding his hand from my jaw to my throat when he kisses me lol Just hovers his hand so gently around my neck and I cannot be like "tighter" because he's trying to be respectful but also... (eye emoji) He's very sweet and polite but he also says shit like "you fit against me really nicely" and I'm DYING

#ghoul speaks #anyway idk if I wanna call him a good boy or have him use me like a toy #but he kisses me so good it leaves me stupid #and he RAGH #He was like “I like you stupid” OK AND ARE YOU GONNA FUCK ME ABOUT IT??? #take your pants off right fucking now boy #I'm losing my fucking mind

[softquietsteadylove]

Thenamesh. Tomb Raider. AU. Please.

Gil did his best to swim to the surface but it wasn't easy. The tunnel he had followed let out to a rather violent section of the river. He had chosen this slightly riskier path entirely because he had thought it might give him a head start on Thena.

Did Thena make it out okay?

He had bigger problems to worry about, like surviving this river.

He fought to the surface, gasping in what air he could before he was tossed aside again. Okay, so choosing the tunnel section close to the rapids was not his wisest decision. He was trying to think like his more reckless and impulsive colleague!

Colleague probably wasn't the right word for what they had. A frenemyship...a rivalry...some tension that he knew he felt, but was quite sure Thena was oblivious to. Not that it mattered now that he was drowning.

"Gil!"

He was hallucinating now. Much closer to drowning than he thought--great. He hit a rock under the water, its speed overpowering all the muscles he had worked so hard for. His air left him in one gulp.

He wasn't sure if it was a hallucination or not when he saw Thena in front of him. His eyes were barely open when she swam down to him. The river was calmer further from the surface. She swam right up to him, pressing her lips to his, pushing air from her lungs into his.

He must be dying, he thought.

Thena's hands gripped the straps of his bag, urging up back into the momentum of the river. He knew she was plenty strong herself. She would have to be, to be called 'Tomb Raider' by those in their profession, freelance or otherwise.

Thena gasped loudly as she surfaced first, then forcing his head up as well. "Breathe, you bastard!"

He didn't know how necessary the name calling was. But he did take in a breath--a real breath of air. So, he wasn't hallucinating, and he wasn't dead. He was surprised.

"Come on," she growled, still fighting against the current to keep him afloat. "Just keep breathing."

He tried his best, although he was waterlogged, to put it lightly. He felt her sharp talons of fingers creep around his pockets, finally pulling at the zipper of his bag, "hey!"

Thena grunted as she finally disposed of the counterweight he had in his side pocket, expressly for the purpose of switching out certain artifacts, potentially surrounded by traps. "Not a world of difference, but a stone is a stone."

He wasn't sure if that was a crack about how heavy he was or if she really was talking about the rock he was planning on switching out.

They did eventually make it to the side of the river. Thena grabbed onto the riverbank first, fingers dug into the grass and holding onto the strap of his bag for dear life. "Come on."

Gil groaned, dragging himself up out of the water after her. He did feel heavier after his impromptu river ride, he had to admit. He coughed up some water, although he was pretty sure he could hear Thena doing the same. "Thanks."

She remained facing away from him, also fighting to catch her breath. He had underestimated just how strong she was, apparently, given her ability to drag him to shore with those thin little arms. "Imbecile."

"Okay," he huffed, turning over to sit on his butt and lean back on his palms to gasp in the rest of his air. "I'll send you a card, I guess."

"What were you thinking?!"

Gil stared at her as she grasped the front of his soaking wet shirt, shaking him. Her voice was raw and warbled from the shouting and the almost drowning. But it was more than that; she had tears in her eyes.

She shook him again, looking terribly upset (angry and otherwise). "Why didn't you follow me?"

"I-I-" he shook his head, still stunned.

She grabbed his shirt with both hands now, pulling him closer so she could really shout in his face. "Why didn't you follow me?!--down my tunnel! It leads further downstream, at a lower altitude!"

She seemed awfully upset with him for...almost dying? Gil let her grab and shake him all she wanted though. Whatever helped her get it out (and not start punching him). "I didn't know. This was the way I came in."

"You could have died, Gil," she asserted, since apparently it bared repeating. She never called him Gil.

"I-" he blinked, sitting up more properly and gently reaching up to her hands. He tried to pry them away from him gently, and she let go as soon as he touched her. But her hands were so small, and so soft, and now they were so cold, too. He held them in his, "I'm sorry, Thena."

She didn't have a clever response to him holding her hands and wholeheartedly apologising. He still wasn't sure why he was apologising for almost dying on her, but what the Lady wanted, the Lady got.

Thena sighed, her hair now hanging around her cheeks limply after their little log ride. "I thought I was the reckless of the two of us."

The two of them made quite a pair, he thought. He chuckled, looking up at her in her hunched position up on her knees. His hand drifted, and he almost wondered what it was doing. He pushed back some of her loose strands escaping her braid, tucking them behind her ear again. "Guess I had to beat you to it, just this once."

Fuck, she was beautiful. If only her very existence didn't interfere with every job he had ever taken.

Thena looked him over, determining if he really was fit to travel or if he was having one last surge before croaking right in front of her. But she must have been satisfied, because she rocked back on her heels before standing. "Just this once, Gilgamesh."

He mourned how she called him Gil.

"Are you able to walk?" she asked more genuinely, more firmly, and more like her usual self. She glanced at him over her shoulder (with as little effort as possible). "Or should I come back for you."

"I'm fine, I'm fine," he insisted, even as he let out a loud groan to get on his feet again. "Maybe if I tell them I almost died trying to get that stupid idol they'll still pay me for my trouble."

"You did technically find it," she shrugged as they began trudging back to the main basecamp around the remains of the city. "I would vouch that your finder's fee still applies."

He smiled, tired as it was. Her shoulders sat lower than before, and she had never looked more delicate to him. But he dared to nudge her shoulder with his elbow, "thanks for saving me."

She declined to respond to that.

If she wanted to walk in silence then so be it. But he had to wonder, "where's the idol."

"Bottom of the river."

Fuck.

"It was made of gold, Gilgamesh, I could not possibly have swam with that on my person."

She abandoned it...for him? He looked at her curiously, but apparently his eyes burning a hole in the side of her head was low down on her priority list.

"Which means my finder's fee also applies."

Ah, that was more like the Thena he knew. He chuckled, soaking up the sun, both for the warmth and in hopes it would help dry out his clothing. It was stuck to him like a second skin. He would worry about Thena, but her raiding outfits tended to stick to her like a second skin already.

Not that he had noticed.

"I can always go back for it."

He laughed more fully, even though his lungs still ached a little. She elbowed him for it this time, and damn her elbows were pointier than his. But he let it slide, given how she did forsake a great treasure to save him. "No racing this time."

"It was never a race," she rolled her eyes at him. "And if it were, I had beaten you anyway."

Ah, Thena never changed. And he kind of didn't want her to.

#Thenamesh Tomb Raider AU #I give the people what they want!!! #I hope you don't mind I'm continuing on that other prompt I had #I did my homework! #I watched the movies #tried to get a sense of her character #I like the idea of Gil being another freelancer #and the poor guy is constantly losing contracts because the Tomb Raider got here first #meanwhile he's like Thena please some of us have bills to pay #she looks at him like yes my house is huge it has many bills #They drag themselves to basecamp #Gil is like so I did find it...and now it's gone #they're like the fuck bro #but Thena glares at them like A MAN ALMOST DIED #she lays right into 'em because she doesn't give a flying fuck about these old bastards and what they think of her #Gilgamesh admits to himself that he's a little moved #not just that Thena doesn't want him dead #but that she would feel strongly enough to yell about it? #he thinks yelling is her love language #also he does send her a card #and flowers #and it thanks her for saving his life #and he draws a little 'x' to “return the kiss” #Karun and Druig back at the estate are like exCUSE ME??? #Thena: *throwing the whole bouquet into the fire* it's nothing #pt 2

[what-immortal-hand-or-eye]

i'm so not normal right now

#trigun #wolfwood #listen. listen. i'm losing my fucking mind thinking about him #i'm adding 'mama' by mcr to my ww playlist right now

[villafordefeatedvillains]

2023 REALLY IS THE FUCKING HLVRAI RENAISSANCE HUH. We got RRY2K (very fucking good askblog, my friends run it, you should follow it NOW), we got the Return of the King (year2000electronics/Mothra), WE got back into HLVRAI after leaving the fandom in early 2021 AND NOW THIS????????? NOW THIS????????? GOD. GOD. GOD.

#m.txt #i'm never going to be normal again #i got into the fandom while act 3's edited videos were being uploaded and watched act 4 live. i'm losing my entire fucking mind right now #i lied about being insufferable after watching fnaf but i will most definitely be horrifically insufferable about THIS #resort rambles

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

MY HEART JUST SKIPPED A BEAT WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS

#vivitalksot #WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WHY ARE YOU WATCHING IT PABLO STOP #anyways. someone made a polvorón movie of all their moments and we're all gonna watch it now #WE DIDN'T THINK MR PAUL THIN WOULD FUCKING FIND OUT ???? THROUGH LETTERBOXD ???? #i'm actually losing my mind right now

[transgender-catboy]

It's been on my mind a lot lately

#I'm losing my MIND #I'm not gonna get into it because it's late and i have things i need to do tomorrow #but just know #I'm thinking about blowing his back out. #which. might not be the greatest choice of words knowing he has back problems... #okay so I'm not *literally* gonna do that #just like. in essence #i will fuck him to the point of overstimulation tho #pretty boy is gonna be ... i am stopping myself now. #:3 #shit... that one mutual was kinda right #...guess i did kinda get into it too. damn #i uh. #I'm going to bed now #love ya! goodnight! 💖

[oblivions-dawn]

Fascinating to me how Vigdis is a wolf and Serana is a raven. A lone wolf that begrudgingly accepts the company of a lone raven. A burning sun beside the cool moon. Ice-blue in white crashing against persimmon in black. Warm to the touch but cold in tone; cold to the touch but warm in tone. Ice cracks and fire blazes. The flame and the moth. The vampire hunter and the vampire. A human that's a monster, and a monster that's human. Monsters for each other. And it's blood that ties them together. fUCK

#Senu Dialogue #Virana Art #YEAH I'M PUTTING IT UNDER THAT TAG FUCK YOU #Vigdis #Skyrim OC #Serana #Serana Volkihar #WHY AM I HAVING SO MANY FEELINGS OVER THEM RIGHT NOW #DON'T MIND ME IN MY DARK LITTLE CORNER JUST. LOSING MY MIND OVER THEM #It's because of the new League of Legends song [WHICH IS GOOD BY THE WAY IT'S BEAUTIFUL FIGHT MUSIC AND SO VIGGY GO LISTEN TO IT--]

[mortimermcmirestinks]

is it possible for me to say "the Israeli government is committing horrific genocidal war crimes and needs to be stopped at all costs, free Palestine" AND "it would be extremely bad if a Republican got elected president of the US in 2024" at the same time? because it's starting to look like a shitton of people find those two opinions contradictory

#like. fuck the israeli government. it's horrific and genocidal #imperialism is bad and genocide is bad and islamophobia is bad #but also #at the same time #I think that we should avoid electing people to the United States government who openly think that being trans deserves a death sentence #like y'all understand that donald trump isn't exactly a Free Palestine kind of person right #predicting that one year from now when the votes are tallied Just Enough People will have refrained from voting that we get another fascist #and we'll be fucked #people refusing to vote for clinton in 2016 was how we got trump the first time #I'm going to lose my fucking mind

[trans-axolotl]

literally just want to start yelling at everyone all the time right now. incredibly pissed about so many things right now and would much rather be using this energy for like. my friends who got arrested last night rather than this bullshit! im so done im so done

#personal #this is about organizing stuff and this one group that i'm in that is an absolute clusterfuck right now #and is managing to just like. fuck up in so many ways #going to lose my fucking mind! #vent

[petrichorvoices]

people keep saying delulu and they keep trivializing psychosis and they keep saying things like "living in my delusion!" as though i'm not seen as a monster who should be locked up for my delusions, as though it's a fun flashy experience, as though it's something to want.

#vent #i'm losing my fucking mind #if you say delulu then you NEED to look into saneism #become normal about psychotic people Right Now #saneism cw

[cooking-with-hailstones]

I feel like I'm losing my mind. How the FUCK are people still saying that what Israel is doing to the Palestinians is justified? How are people defending this or saying it's necessary? Sure Israel has a "right to defend itself" but from WHAT? From fucking babies??? Literal infants blown limb from limb? Children playing football in the streets outside their homes? I cannot accept that. I cannot believe that.

Tell me truthfully: do you believe that bombing Palestinian children, hospitals, schools, infrastructure, will make Israeli people safer? Do you genuinely believe that?? Has that been borne out in any kind of truth?

Rallies all over the world. People all over the planet are screaming, weeping for Gaza. For Palestine. For basic fucking human decency. For respect of international law. And yet our politicians send millions, billions of dollars in aid and military spending to Israel. They criminalize the fucking Palestinian flag. They say it's antisemitism run rampant.

Look at any of the footage coming out of Gaza and tell me that any of this is for the benefit of Jewish people. That this is necessary for Jewish safety. I don't believe you, and I think it's fucking vile to insist that this is the case.

I'm sorry I'm just.... I'm at a loss for words tonight. We scream and cry and beg and try to amplify the voices of Palestinians who are dying en masse and what do we get? Facebook and Instagram actively suppressing anything we try to say. People yelling at us saying we support rape and murder, that we're vile anti-Semites who just don't understand anything about history.

#i just fucking can't right now #I'm losing my entire mind #how can you say this is for the benefit of Jewish people #how dare you say that #how fucking dare you say any of these things about Palestine #about her people and her struggle #Palestine #Emily talks #sorry y'all it's been a rough fucking night

[eggy-the-boy]

I love Lockwood & co so much but I'm gonna be honest half the time when i hear 'Lockwood' I think of this guy:

#I'm fucking obsessed with this show right now and if you follow me you can tell #Or id have interacted with me in the past week #But yeah y'all remeber this movie? Classic #Anyway I love lockwood and co so much and if I don't get a second season I will lose my mind :) #I am very normal and cool and sane about the media I consume #lockwood and co #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #george karim #george cubbins #Lockwood & co

[hawkinslibrary]

new vol 2 tv spot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i'm losing my entire mind HELLO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #s4 #st4 spoilers #spoilers #video #idk if everyone's seen this already bc i just did just now dsnjkfdnk #i have so much adrenaline right now fuck

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

i read a hannigram fic last night where op decided it was an okay thing to mention vatsyayana and my brain chemistry is fucked now.

#raj shitposting #afghdaklkjfdakjfgaskjgf #so for context i read the kamasutra as a joke earlier last month and istg i was not expecting what i read. #bro- listen i thought it'd be about heterosexual sex only but it's really not specified IN SO MANY PLACES IT MAKES ME WANNA YELL. #there's this entire section in the text about scents. now idk how many of y'all know seema anand but you should def check out her tedtalk. #because she kinda boils it down to the very basics with the best examples for all of those who do not want their brain chemistry altered. #and that was what got me into her stuff and i read the arts of seduction a couple years back but i wasn't unhinged back then- #-so i forgot all about it until like a month or so back when i came across a video of hers on yt and damn those floodgates BROKE man. #which lead to me finally putting my foot down and reading that shit and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST- #so back to where we were. there's this entire section about scents alright? and we all know where this is going so bear with me please. #so this section talks about how different scents stimulate excitement and how different parts of the body should be scented. #like seema anand does NOT warn you about how fucking DETAILED this shit is in the original text. AT ALL. #it's got i think somewhere around 600 different scents and the optimum intensity of the scents for like IDK TURNING INTO A MONSTER. #so like when i read the fic my brain thought HEY THESE ARE TWO UNHEALTHY OBSESSIONS OF THIS FUCKING SICKO THAT SHOULD ALIGN RIGHT? BOOM. #and i imagined post fall will experimenting with scents for fun and shit because why not who's to stop him at this point in his life? #and then my brain flashed me a very vivid image of hannibal BURYING his face into will's waist to smell the perfume he put there- #and then my brain short circuited because that is too powerful an image for a mortal brain to comprehend. #i don't think anyone will understand what the fuck it is that i'm on about but y'all should watch that ted talk. #and get ahold of the nearest fic writer you know and force them to write a fic on this BECAUSE THIS IS THE PROMPT THEY'VE BEEN WAITING FOR. #this is actual psychosexual bullshit and istg i've had SO MANY vivid dreams ABOUT SCENTS ALONE it's making me lose my fucking mind. #GAAAAAAAAAAAAH #hannigram #hannibal