#i'll figure tht out later

[glasskey]

Justice THT Style - Part 1

When is Justice not actually justice? When it’s the wrong type. There are several types of justice: Procedural, Distributive, Retributive and Restorative. Each one of these will feel reasonable and justified depending solely on their context. Characters also by their nature will tend to have a taste per se for one or the other and it takes a definitive catalyst to change it. Over the next week I'll be taking a look at which ones our favorites prefer and what that means for them. I'm doing this in parts - Today its June and Luke, but coming up we have Nick, Serena and Tuello. Stay tuned. First up June.

JUNE

Vengeance, thy name is June. “Before embarking on the journey of revenge, first dig two graves”- Confucius. Season 4 and 5 made me think that either June hadn’t read a lot of Confucius or by that point just didn’t give a fuck about his wise, ancient musings. I’d like to think that it had taken quite some time before June turned into someone capable of the brutal salvaging of Fred, but then I remember that she did exactly that in Season 1 when she learnt of Moira’s supposed demise. At the end of season 4 June chased Fred down and tore him apart and in season 5 we saw her kneeling before a grave like mound. Laurence had tempted her with the offer of Nick and Hannah and in response she’d furiously ripped up the garden that symbolized the burgeoning home she was trying to nurture. 5 10 is drenched in an aura of darkness and horror, something has died but as June lies wounded, ironically she only gathers more power. She is becoming a leader and Nick even FINALLY crosses the border to pledge his allegiance (and didn’t we all cheer our brains out over that one?). It struck me that as she lay in that hospital bed, she was metaphorically buried until Nick came to kiss her forehead handsome prince style, figuratively raising her from the dead. Like the phoenix she is reborn just in time for season 6 to rain down the pain.... It’s worth remembering that June chose to ignore a blatant warning about the nature of retributive justice, but honestly who could blame her? “It will never be enough for you” Lawrence says when she bargains Fred for a group of female POWs. Love him or hate him, Lawrence seems to be able to make observations of her character with pinpoint accuracy.

I find it interesting that this bloody act of retribution comes the episode directly after she meets with Nick, she’s absolutely devastated that their family is being separated and someone is going to pay. Fred’s more than earnt her vengeance by now and Canada has failed to deliver. She’s fucking angry and no one except Nick and a bunch of fellow handmaids will ever understand why the only fit ending for him is a brutal salvaging. At the end of the day the scales of justice in this scenario were never going to be fully balanced by Fred enduring some sort comparatively cushy Canadian procedural justice. However it’s still necessary in the majority of story lines that conventional justice avenues be cut off to allow the protagonist to “take the law into their own hands” and exact old fashioned retribution. Writers were so clever ultimately giving Fred a double dose, he was involved in an official prisoner exchange for women no less (an act of procedural justice), and hand delivered to June to pay for his crimes Gilead style. Luke is horrified when she gleefully boasts about her murderous act of retribution. Dear me what possessed his sweet loving wife to do such a thing? Time to wake up Lukey, June pre Gilead is gone, welcome to June 2.0.

LUKE

Luke wants to believe in a procedural sense of justice but nothing’s ever that simple or fair. When societal systems begin to crumble we see June’s access to money and freedom slowly stripped but Luke feels somewhat empowered as it means he now holds the reins. Luke believes in the system so long as it serves him, but later when he actually loses something valuable and attempts to seek justice for June and Hannah, he can’t believe it actually fails him. Fred’s a wealthy, powerful, educated, white man. He’s just who the justice system is designed for and he gives Luke a small taste of utter helplessness in the face of a prejudiced system, much like what June endured. When first given the opportunity to get some answers out of Fred and some well-deserved vengeance, Luke chooses to show up with a binder expecting reason and logic from an extremist. When Fred manipulates Canada’s justice system, he is naïve enough to believe that Fred will be given a trial and then jailed in Gilead. I’m still not quite sure how Luke would have come to this conclusion, having witnessed an entire church full of hanging bodies. As of season 5 Luke seems somewhat ignorant to the brutality of the Gilead justice system and the savagery of what his wife was subjected to at its hands, even after witnessing her testimony. He can’t believe his wife would tear apart a man with her bare hands and cut his finger off as a trophy, meanwhile Nick didn’t bat an eyelid and Tuello wished her well. Goes to show there’s a difference between actually witnessing Gilead and hearing about it 2nd hand. S5 Ep10 shows us Luke's finally about to get a taste. Luke can be emotional when things don’t quite go his way, he screams at his ex, he punches Fred in the face, he shoves Nick when he approaches him with news about June and he yells at June when he learns about Fred. He’s a guy who wants to make rational decisions, he wants to follow the system but quickly bottoms out and becomes erratic when he doesn’t get his way. He’s a character study in casual misogyny and part of this is the undercurrent for the potential for violence in even the “nicest guy”. Luke is often dismissed as “boring” but this deeply underestimates how skillfully he’s been crafted and the amount of subtext his character contains. Throughout season 5 I witnessed Luke becoming increasing violent. Baited by Serena he warns her “next time I see you I’ll fucking kill you myself” his eyes filling with tears, his hands trembling with barely contained rage. In ep 10 he beats a man to death and is shown carrying a gun in their home, dismissing Junes concerns about having a gun near Nicole. In S 5 we also saw Luke attempting to secure his wife’s love with an act of ill-conceived vengeance: arranging for Serena’s baby to be taken from her, gloating with satisfaction while instead his wife looks on in horror. Throughout the seasons we’ve seen him be fairly even tempered, but in S5 there seemed to be increasing incidences of overt alpha physical violence that spoke loudly of outdated societal expectations of male roles and his personal insecurities. I believe Luke has had enough of procedural justice, he’s now blatantly dabbling in retribution and all these incidences are revving up to create a much more vengeful Luke.

Stay tuned. Tomorrow we have Nick Blaine....

#literature #nick x june #june x nick #june osborne #luke bankole #hulu #hulu streaming #osblaine #the handmaids tale hulu #bruce miller #vengeance is mine #hulu series #hulu tv #the handmaid's tale #handmaid's tale #handmaid's on hulu #elisabeth moss

[dballzposting]

confession: i read dballzposting like its the daily newspaper biweekly. Like wow....... trunks really does sorta need a different kind of fatha figure (cloth mother) in his life... gohan and goten are both kinda rly fcked in the head just a little bit but they have such drastically different approaches to finding peace andd enlightenment or watever.. yamcha is SO milfy.... this is all true no falsehoods hsve been spoken here

I would never have thought about yajirobe like dat.... bear w me cuz im a little disorganized rn but when i think about him hes like. everything being human is all about. he lived as he pleased, authenticly. a vagabond that truly does not need to gaf. He's a survivor, and Everything he did was out of survival, for himself and later for others. Of course he was a little self-serving and dishonest at times, but he did what he knew he was capable of and he did that very well. Yajirobe's got being human really figured out.

Then he meets thar cat and he LICKS HIM!!!!!

anyways peace and love on earth forever and ever 💋 💯 have a good night dballzposting

WOAH ...

SO LEGITEMATE.

#RESPECT.

You really do read da slop and glean the most beauty out of it .. you have a beautoful mind and i am honored ..

I especially like this part: "gohan and goten are both kinda rly fcked in the head just a little bit but they have such drastically different approaches to finding peace andd enlightenment or watever" That is so true and addressed so plainly .. I dont think i ever said that but ive probably implied it bc it's on my mind a lot .. But that's your synthesis ... Beautoful stuff ..

I don't know what you mean by you "would never have thought about yajirobe like dat" becasue judging by what you have written here you nailed it. Like I obviiously think that becasue you're borrowing words from my own posts so yeah like i agree... but thats what i mean. I especially like this part: "but he did what he knew he was capable of and he did that very well. Yajirobe's got being human really figured out." HE DOES DO WHAT HE DOES WELL AND NO MORE .... HE'S GOT IT ALL FIGURED OUT <3

Our supposed disagreement presumably lies in the following line about him LICKING THAT DAMN CAT !!! But it's not a disagreemnt actually (not that you seem to care much about disagreeing with it anyway BTW youre so real for that) and I can explain.

That notion came from THIS HILARIOUS POST that was so awesome and that i loved so much becasue it floored me so profoundly and was so funny ...

It made me think a lot about whether he actually licks that cat or not ... I NEVER would have thought of that before ... but if something is really funny then I'll believe it no problem. But i had/have a lot of conflicting ideas about it.

Then came the discovery that in TFS's DBZ abridged they had Yajirobe and Korin be gay married and yknow love wins <3 but again I never would have thought of it like thag.

So I think that we are on the same page <3

My formal professional Yajirobe Opinion is that: he consistently refers to Korin as "karin-sama" in the japanese dub and that honorific I think is a constant reminder of the discrepancy between the two's status and furthermore Yajirobe is not capable of romance so i dont think tht he could gay marry the cat sorry .. But i have a lot of thoughts about what I just said. A story is worth telling if you want to tell it and when you borrow character already pre-established in something in order to tell it, well it's a bit of a situation becasue now you have to conform to the original author's writing of the characters otherwise what's the point of borrowing them ... I think ... And that's always been the line for me: whether it's feasibly in-character or not .. otherwise it feels weird and makes me a bit sick (PERSONAL FEELINGS NOT A JUDGEMENT) . .. If you can make something seem in-character or CONVINCE YOURSELF THAT IT IS then a story passes. Otherwise I'd prefer that one be honest about their intentions and admit outright something like "yeah this is out of character but I'm projecting and have a vested interest in telling these sorts of events" or something. And that's totally fine like i dare not cast taboo onto the indomitable human spirit

The UNIVERSAL EXCEPTION however has always been IF IT'S FUNNY THEN IT LITERALLY WORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Partly due to the way that often funny things are funny becasue theyre true or true-adjacent. BUT NOT ALWAYS !!!!

You didnt ask for this ramble. What is my point

My point is that I definitely think that it is insane to portray romance between Yajirobe and Korin, but intimacy less than that is honestly agreeable and passable because it's either funny or pleasant to see.

That being said: A.) I Love Insanity B.) I WANT EVERYONE TO FOLLOW THEIR HEART'S CALL!! NEVER DENY YOUR HEART YOUR CAREFUL ATTENTION!! NEVER JUDGE IT!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!! C.) I Really Strongly Admire That Tumblr User (Linked Earlier) for Following Their Heart Despite Their Obvious Implicit Insecurities And For Drawing Yajirobe x Korin Stuff I Loved That So Much and I think that they're so Strong and On The Right Path D.) Love Wins <3

I mean if he gay married that cat then that would be sooo funny like NO one knew (least of all him) that his life would end up this way but Korin is a crazy bitch and let this happen so now we're here. And that's beautful <3

To borrow your words:

PEACE AND LOVE ON EARTH FOREVER AND EVER !!!!💋 💯

Thank You All

#dballz posting #dballz asks #yajirobeposting

[wooahaes]

dino soulmate au !! i don't have a specific trope in mind, but im curious to see which one you think fits him best :D

hii <3 hmm... technically dino was where i left off on my soulmate series (which is currently paused until i finish either sweet night (more likely) or under the sun (unlikely lol), then i'll try to finish out those fics before i start a new series), so i'll avoid what i've got planned for him there

(death tw, will tag the post w this as well)

ill play around w a lil bit of angst. reader has lost the soulmate that they were dating ever since they met in high school bc (insert cause of death here). not even minutes after he's dead, the name lee chan writes itself across the back of their hand. out of resentment for the universe immediately pairing you up right after you lose the love of your life, you resolve to keep the stupid name covered as much as you can and never meet this lee chan the universe is replacing your soulmate with.

elsewhere, chan realizes that there's a name written up his forearm that he didn't have before. a certain percentage of ppl are born w/o soulmates, and chan always thought he was one of them until now. he probably excitedly shows it off to his friends (only abt half of which have soulmates imo bc i like having a mixed bag there), and they promise to let him know if they happen to run into someone w his own name on them.

enter jeonghan, currently going through practicum to become a licensed therapist. enter, you on a summer day without a bandage on the back of your hand and his friend's name contrasting your skin in neat lettering. also enter the fact that jeonghan can't say/do anything about giving out your information because of violations, so he's stuck trying to figure out how he can lead you or chan to one another.

ultimately, he figures out a way: you mumble one day a week or two later that your favorite coffee shop is closed for renovations because you'd always treat yourself with something sweet from there, jeonghan asks if he can make a suggestion, and he pushes you toward one of chan's favorite places before immediately getting both seungkwan and vernon on the task of getting chan there. you end up sitting in the corner to kinda just people watch and chill post-therapy session and wait on your drink. your name gets called out, and you notice the way another guy's head snaps up immediately. you retreat to your corner with your drink, only to hear the name lee chan read out soon enough and you aren't taking any chances. you get up to leave, and immediately the guy tails you out and asks for you to stop before rolling his jacket sleeve back to reveal where your name is boldly written along his arm.

you tell him you aren't interested. he's immediately heartbroken by that kind of talk, but asks for your number anyway because he'd at least like to be your friend if nothing else. you give it to him after making it clear you aren't looking for a new lover, and then leave.

and idk insert more stuff abt you and chan getting closer until you finally open up and mention tht ur in grief counseling bc of ur soulmate dying and that you'd always hated chan (as a concept--you like him now as a person) because it wasn't even five minutes before his name appeared on you. he apologizes, you tell him not to bc its not his fault, and the two of you agree to take ur friendship slow.

insert chan feeling guilty as he falls for you. insert u feeling guiltier because you fell harder after that and you try to push him away again. fic culminates in you admitting to him or to a friend that you're terrified of losing another soulmate. maybe its w a family member of deceased soulmate who reassures you that he would want you to be happy before asking if it had been you, wouldn't you want him to move on one day? it ends w you crying on them and apologizing because you feel like ur betraying ur first soulmate, but accepting that its okay to move on.

its just a lot of talk abt grief and whatnot lol with a side of chan helping you heal because he wants to be there for you, romantic feelings or not. you confess to him that you've fallen for him and ask to take things slow now and the fic ends off with the two of you going to get coffee together or something

#wooahaes.ask #wooahaes.askgame #sweetteawithpeach #death tw #sorry this one is longer lol im admittedly a sucker for a soulmate au

[sashapearl23]

Thursday night was my first night back to audition..i get there at 10 pm. it was nice to see the entire staff pretty much still works there. It's a good sign. Tells you there's consistent money. Some dancers I recognized. I meet with the manager and she is the same from before. We both know this will be fast because i know the deal. It takes a while filling all the paperwork. I finally get done and I am free to be on the floor. I get on stage a dancer and a guy come tip me on stage. When I finished my set. I went to thank them, and then I walked around the club making small chit chat with some of the faces I recognized. I run into the dancer tht tipped me on stage earlier and this time she asks if im free for a dance. I say yes and the guy who tipped me is the one the dance is for. We all go upstairs. This girl, she was so beautiful, long black hair that teases the crease of her ass - she wears a sparkly garter around her stomach tht wraps around both of her thighs. She's rocking Grey socks and black leather boots all the way up past her knees. She looks like the Asian brats doll. Very sultry, curvy figure , ass so fat & tits to match. Her bra and panties set were black. She dressed very well. Said she's from Vegas originally and I can tell. She's intoxicating .. we do a double dance for her fiancee. She's so hot we are feeling on each other and him. I'm super turned on by now. I ask if they go to sex clubs and they're just exploring. I think to myself. I think they're so hot and I would love to go fuck them sometime and be in an orgy or like a foursome. I finished the dances. We exchange numbers then i go to fix myself up in the locker room. I go back outside n sit next to their friend. A very attractive man in his 40s. He asks if I want a drink. I ask for a vodka soda. At that time we are alone, the couple r no where to be found but thts ok I get the vibe they'll be back. We sit n talk n I get to know the single friend. After some time, I ask him if he wants a dance. I say that he doesn't even need to go to the dance area. I'll dance on him right here at his table. He says he would love to, but his ATM limit is reached and he has to wait until midnight.. I say ok. I look at my phone its 11:39 pm. I say hey thts only 20 mins away. So I sit n drink my drink and talk . The couple are back by now. They're so adorable . They get some beers and we all drink. We are talking the fiancee recommends me for a dance for his male friend. I say we already talked about it. We r waiting until midnight. We look at the time. It's 12:02 am. He says let me go to the ATM. I joke and I say lol! Don't be tht guy give it alittle more time so you know it goes thru . We all joke about it. And around 12:15 he goes.

He comes back I dance for him. He doesn't usually get dances so he wasn't particularly interested. He just kept handing me cash, as we chat. He even gave me cash for a nude I promised to send later. (I did).

The couple leave before 1 am. I finish my night with this awesome guy. We just chat and he gives me money 😁 I tease him with an ass shake sometime. I played his fav song on stage and he paid me handsomely.

The dj calls everyone out. I go to the back, change and go home. The Vegas dancer I met recommended day shift. So I decided that tomorrow I'll go into work earlier and see it for myself.

[theloveinc]

Hiiiii, i just saw tht post about writing and like formulas to do like big fanfictions/bigger pieces (i struggle too tbh, although it’s more like i struggle w writing in general lol) and even tho it’s not really a formula or something and u might already know it, i still wanna share in case it’s helpful!! Something that seems to make bigger writing works seem less daunting/easier to imagine and write is like, thinking of it like a puzzle. essentially doing very small portions (bc a 500 word/1k little blurbs is easier to write than a 30k, for example) at random/whenever/whatever strikes your inspo and then just piecing them in after you have a ton to make one large work. As for a formula of anything to write romance, i WOULD LOVE for u to share if u crack the code lol, im lost there too

Sorry if this wasn’t helpful bc u knew already and it didn’t really tackle the application of romance but i just wanted to potentially help! you’re one of my fav writers and you are an amazing at it so i know you’ll get there and it will be amazing when you do, like your work already is 🤍🤍

anon!! thank you sm for the tips <333 this is really sound advice... even if i'm gonna have to work my booty off to begin actually practicing it.

not to go off on a tangent, but i notice my struggle really lies in like... actually developing a plot/timeline/climax/intention? i often think of little scenes i'd love to include in something bigger... but i never really get to what that bigger thing is. in terms of other stories i've thought of, i always say... it's like i have point A and point Z... but i don't know how to get from one to the other (alongside like... making all the necessary transitions needed, and doing that properly).

i have started like... physically mapping out a lot of my ideas. from short stuff to long stuff, i write little blurbs of what i want each scene/chapter to be.... but even then, what usually happens is i either get stuck or scared (of whatever work is needed) and stop progressing. and alongside my crippling fear of like... doing a bad job (or not completing something in a way i'd enjoy)......... it's very paralyzing.

but that's just to explain how how i've been handling it (if u have any more tips or even just relate) + to say I AGREE W/ U that i, as well as others, should just... write what comes to me in any order and go at my bigger projects from there.

but....,....... :') i'm sure you already know. difficult.

thank you, thank you for this and the lovely encouragement tho!!!

it always feels berry nice to know you're not alone in whatever you're going thru, esp when it seems like the people around. i always just try to take comfort in the fact that we're all still pretty young... and that (not all but) a lot of my fave writers didn't start writing long things/publishing until WAYYY later. not that i want to do this publicly or anything, but.... there's lots of time for improvement, and to put the same expectations on myself at this point is... clownery tbh. you know?

but ARGHGHGHH if i do figure it out one day, i'll make sure you get the secrets first!!! til then tho, it just means a LOT to me that u like my writing even as is❤️❤️❤️ hugging u forever🥺

#i'm a low effort type of person #if i can't do it perfectly without trying... im just not gonna do it #im really trying to get over that mentality tho #but it's embedded into me so deeply it's basically like fighting genetics #sighghghhgh #i do have like. 2 longfic ideas but the amount of work they'd take is sensational #and i only really have like the barest of skeletons for them #so i think i just have to read more janet evanovich and hope there's a takeaway #colleen hoover or something #flalkjfkjasdfkjasd #maybe look into some classes #but really truly im kissing u anon #i hope this response is okay bc i really value everything u said #<333 #anon #ref #caitie answers

[dykexenomorph]

absolutely cannot wait to go see halloween w my friend later today while knowing tht I remember exactly 0 plot points from halloween kills and halloween 2018. the only characters I remember are myers and laurie, I'll figure the rest out as it goes ig

#i was gonna rewatch them b4 today but i forgot dushaiak #its not like they're super mega plot driven films but still #i am speaking

[jaekaicx]

*sighs* time to adjust my post canon au/headcanons

#amphibia spoilers #gonna mention some spoilery stuff in here so uh if u like looking at tags then look away #im still a mess over tht dont get me wrong im just slightly more composed now #sdhflasdfkja #sdklfasdhifoasidfka #alsdkfaskdlfajs;dfk #slkdfasdflkasd #aslkdjfa;sd #ok should be safe now #so yeah im totally ignoring marcy and sasha's future desings #wtf marcy grows out their hair? blasphlemy ludicrous who made that decision im suing them /nsrs #also DID YALL SEE SASHAS JACKET LOOK I GOT THE LIL CIRCLE PATCH ON THE LEFT ARM KINDA RIGHT AAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA #ik the color & style is a bit off and the patch is different but STILL ITS FAIRLY SIMILAR HAHAHA I TAKE IT AS A WIN #anyways. im not having marsh move away lol nope. still keeping the 'marsh move in with ev since his parents moved away' thing #and. idk maybe they start dating a bit later on like maybe after a few years or smth idk #also terri def figures out how to make a better portal and the trio are allowed to go back and forth between earth and amphibia i dont care #hhhfdskjf ok gimme a bit i still gotta process the ep. and then i'll rework the stuff that needs reworking #but im gonna stick with what i already have as much as possible dw im not flipping the whole thing #jace rambles #k.txt

[monbabi]

Can you do them reacting to their S/O being good at baking but horrible at cooking?

ofc!! sorry it took so long exams have been kickin my ass

shownu

• u two are baking brownies for the boys since theyve been stressed lately and u wanted to do something nice for them• shownu watches in awe as u expertly pour in and mix the brown batter in the bowl• u always had some kinda magic touch when it came to baking, u knew how much sugar and flour to add in and when to add the vanilla extract• it just made shownu smile bc wow how cute is that ur working ur butt off for some sweet treats for him and his members• “hey (y/n) i’ll take over the stirring can u make eggs or something? i havent eaten all day”• u freeze and give him a smile• “sure”• u hand him the bowl and walk over to the fridge to grab some eggs. easy enough right?• u crack the eggs into the pan, not failing to leave some egg shell in the yolk thats starting to sizzle in the pan• u turn to shownu whos diligently mixing the batter, workin up a sweat • tbh he looks real good• hes totally shirtless, wearing grey sweatpants and to top it off, a cute little pink apron that looks like its gonna bust open at the seams• u lean against the stove, basking in the appearance of this actual adonis in an adorably domestic setting • unfortunately u totally forget that stoves are hot and pull ur hand away as it stings with heat• shownu puts the bowl down and rushes over to u, holding ur hands and blowing frantically at them• “babe are u okay?” he asks worriedly, his eyes watching ur reaction closely to see if ur in any great pain• u reassure him “im fine” until u hear the beeping of the fire alarm• “oh my GOD”• u turn around to see the pan totally covered in SMOKE and shownu switches the stove off • ur kinda upset that u cant even make eggs for ur boyfriend but shownu just chuckles and kisses ur forehead• “next time i’ll cook okay?”

wonho

• “baby are u hungry?” wonho comes into ur shared room where ur sitting in bed on ur phone. he wraps his arms around ur waist and nuzzles his nose into ur neck• u smile at the sensation. “mm kinda? what do u wanna eat?”• he gives u a knowing smile and u sigh and get up from the mattress• “ramen?”• he smiles and takes a hold of ur hand, stroking ur index finger with his thumb • u know me so well"• the two of u chase each other to the kitchen and u grab the very familiar plastic bowl labelled shin ramen • u rip off the lid and unlock the hot water dispenser, filling the bowl to an unsteady level where the water is teetering around the edges. u put the bowl in the microwave and punch in 50 seconds• all seems well until u hear some popping noises from inside the microwave• “um. babe”• “yea?” u ask, too scared to turn around and see what happened inside the microwave• “did u take out the sauce packet before adding water and putting it in there?”• “oh my g-”• BEEP• wonho moves u out of the way and opens the microwave, his face contorting at the smell of burning plastic and the sight of ramen sauce power all over the inner surface. some soup flowed over the top too• u laugh nervously, put ur hand over wonhos, and close the microwave. u head over to the fridge and take out a plate• “how about we eat the macarons i made yesterday?” u give a sheepish smile• a smile creeps onto his face and a goofy laugh escapes his lips. ur hysterically laughing and he’s bent over his knees, so thoroughly amused by ur antics• “man i dont know how u do it. but yea i’ll take a macaron” he opens his mouth. u pop one into his mouth and he chews then hums with delight• “these are so good??? what happened just now? are u the same (y/n) i know and love?”• u two laugh again and he puts u in a playful headlock and plants kisses on the top of ur head

minhyuk

• u got a text earlier that ur boyfriends gonna come home late so u wanna surprise him with a nice meal• u can bake a mean cake but ur not too confident about ur cooking abilities• but u’ve baked minhyuk so many cookies and cakes and cupcakes ur worried for that boys blood sugar• so after watching 3 youtube tutorials u try to make kimchi stew, one of his favorites• u roll up ur sleeves and get to work. u throw some broth and vegetables into the pot• u cut some kimchi then some fishcake some spring onions u get the pork out of the fridge• u think its going well • until u get a text from minhyuk that he’s on the way home• according to ur calculations he was supposed to be coming home late• shit• u do some quick math if u boil the stew at maximum heat for 2 minutes u’ll finish in time before minhyuk gets home so u crank that stove up and • KACHOW the pot overflows• soup is everywhere, the kimchi is on the floor, ur kitchen looks like a natural disaster• “honey! where are u???”• he comes into the kitchen sweaty from practice and ur just on the floor crying next to ur empty pot, food is scattered around the floor• “oh baby what happened?” he cooes at u and crouches down next to u, wiping ur tears with his thumb• u barely manage to get a sentence out• “i-i tried to cook u” u hiccup, “something but e-everything just fell apart” • he kisses u on the forehead and stands up to grab his phone• “well i like pizza. how about we order some pizza and we watch kitchen nightmares yea?” u flinch at kitchen nightmares. “okay how about we watch house hunters” u nod frantically and smile• totally ignore the mess on the floor• u clean it up eventually dont worry

kihyun

• u made a deal with minhyuk that at the next house party u were gonna cook something to bring and kihyun was gonna bake a cake to bring along with the food u made and in return he was gonna make a video of himself flicking a booger and post it on instagram• the problem? minhyuk knows u cant cook for shit and kihyun cant bake for shit • kihyun originally protested saying “he doesn’t want his house to end in flames” but after minhyuk kept egging him on saying he was a wuss, he threw on his apron and started reading martha stewart books• so u and him are in ur kitchen, face in hands and sitting at the counter• “why did i agree to this”• “why did i let u agree to this”• u sigh and slide off the stool. “i mean i can make like, fried rice right?” kihyun groans. “knowing u it might result in a call to 911” u shoot him a glare. “hey bobby flay at least i know how to bake a cake”• he scratches his head and gets off the stool. “how about we make this a competition between ourselves. whoever makes the better dish wins”• “ur on yoo kihyun”• its like iron chef u two start scrambling around ur kitchen, opening cabinets and packages • u lift the lid of the rice cooker and groan in frustration as u see a clean, empty container• kihyun indulges himself in a shrill giggle until it abruptly stops when he’s opened the last cabinet and found no cake mix• “u’ve got to be kidding me” • u hover over the grey pot, finally shutting off the faucet when the rice grains look like they’re drowning in tap water • kihyun’s throwing sugar, flour, and eggs into a bowl, trusting his “chef’s intuition” that he doesn’t need measuring cups for a mere cake• u throw the soggy rice into the pan and just start adding stuff u think will taste good together in there. zucchini, bits of kale, ketchup, leftover chicken that probably has been sitting in ur fridge for at least 2 weeks • it smells pretty goddamn awful but when u look over at kihyun u think u have a good shot at winning• he’s gotten green food coloring all over his hands and t-shirt and the batter’s completely runny• “how u doin ogre there”• “im never doing this ever again”

hyungwon

• u two are laying on opposite sides of the couch, sitting up to show each other dog pictures and whatnot• u see a video on instagram showing u how to make this yummy looking beef over rice thing• u lean over hyungwons knee, excitedly showing him the video and how u should make it for him• he gives u this knowing look • “(y/n) do u remember the last time u cooked something?”• “no why”• “i was taking a nap and u tried to make this weird chicken thing u saw on youtube”• “uh huh”• “and when i walked into the kitchen”• “yea?”• “i have never seen so much fire-”• u playfully slap him on the thigh, pouting. “i forgot to turn the stove down while it was boiling!!!” u huff, turning away while crossing ur arms• hyungwon laughs and sits up to ruffle ur hair• “but u made it up by baking cupcakes to give to the very nice firemen who saved our apartment”• u giggle and bring ur knees up to ur chin, reminiscing in the time u almost burned down ur entire apartment complex• hyungwon sits crosslegged facing u, staring at ur face• “what?”• “im just wondering how the hell u managed to do that”• “no cupcakes for u then”• he whines and the two of u share a laugh and settle back into the sofa to continue laughing at twitter memes

jooheon

• he never fails to send u a text asking if u’ve eaten yet and if ur free, to go out and get lunch together• its the sweetest thing and u decide u wanna do something nice for him• so u roll up ur sleeves and make a lunchbox for him. its kinda childish but it seems easy to make and for ur……limited cooking skills, its ideal• ur in the kitchen, scraping an egg off the pan as it burns to a crisp• “aw man that was the last egg,” u whine, looking at all the failed prototypes on a plate next to the stove• u begrudgingly roll up the burnt egg in the lunchbox and set up some lettuce on the side, trying to make it presentable at least• now time for the Meat• the last time u cooked meat was when u and jooheon were out eating kbbq and whenever the tongs were in ur hand u’d somehow toss the meat in a way that cooked it. lets say well overdone• jooheon had to call a worker to get the fire down even tho it was at its lowest heat. nobody on the restaurant knows how u did it• so yea ur not the best at cooking meat but hey second times the charm• so u slide the beef into the pan, satisfied with the sizzling sound that came after• now the hard part. knowing when to flip it so it doesnt slowly burn into charcoal. so u just keep flipping it mindlessly, too scared to let it burn• the beef is just NOT turning the brown that it usually does when jooheon cooks it and u settle for when the beef is a weird brown, pink, red—u dont even know what color it is but its 12:30pm and jooheons lunch break is about to start• u shrug as u pack the lunchbox. u made cookies before this mess so• u drive up to the building complex and climb up the stairs to his studio. u punch in the passcode and pop the door open• jooheon hears the door click and turns around in his chair, giving u that sweet dimpled smile • u show him the lunchbox and bag of cookies u’ve been hiding behind ur back and he opens his arms to bring u into a hug• “how did i get so lucky?” he kisses the top of ur head and sits u down on his lap• he turns the chair around and u place the lunchbox and the cookie bag on his desk in front of his monitor and open it• he has to stop himself from laughing, the corners of his lips trembling to rise into a smile. u flick him on the arm, a smile growing on ur own face. “shut up i tried my best!!!!!”• jooheon kisses ur temple, a small chuckle leaving his lips still dumbfounded by the mess of food in the lunchbox• “i made cookies?” u suggest• “yea we can share those” jooheon closes the lunchbox

changkyun

• u guys ate out at this one restaurant that had really good pork stir fry• so naturally u two went to the internet and searched up recipes to cook at home, inspired by the dish• after finding a seemingly easy recipe online, u and changkyun head to the kitchen and grab whatevers in ur fridge• oh by the way its 1 in the morning so theres no supermarkets still open • it sounded like a good idea at the time• anyways u two are jus rummaging through ur kitchen, substituting whatever needs to be substituted• “hey kyun we’re outta sugar”• “we have lucky charms”• “that works” • u and him lay out the shabby ingredients on the counter• pork? eh leftover hot wings should do• bok choy? iceberg lettuce thats been sitting in ur fridge for 3 months• but at least u have soy sauce• u start choppin up the lettuce, slicin and dicin and ignoring whatever wilted leaves u see bc hey food is food• changkyun: hey how do i start the stove• “…….ur kidding right”• u put down ur knife and walk to the stove, hesitant to turn any knobs• “um its this one right?”• u switch on the stove on the inner right corner which seemed fine to u…….until the roll of napkins next to it caught fire• “HOLY SH-” “HOLY SHIT”• the fire alarm starts beeping and u freak out and start blowing on it until changkyun shoves his hand into ur face. “DONT BLOW ON IT ITLL GET BIGGER” • “WHAT DO WE DO THEN”• luckily ur dating the son of a scientist so he grabs a pot lid from the cabinet underneath and throws it on top of the fire, stopping the flow of oxygen and u hear the sizzle of ur bounty napkins • u and changkyun breathe out a relieved sigh and u lean on him• u suggest making cookies tomorrow and changkyun insists on putting lucky charms in them• u roll ur eyes, “yea yea whatever lets clean up and go to bed”

#monsta x scenarios #monsta x reactions #monsta x #kpop #shownu #wonho #minhyuk #kihyun #hyungwon #jooheon #changkyun #i'll figure tht out later #me: doesnt kno how to put things under a read more

[lisosa]

I was replying at an ask, I clicked on "save it as a draft" but the ask disappeared... what just happened? There are some problems with x-kit? :/

#uuugh #it isn't in my drafts neither in my inbox... #where are you ask??? THT #delete later #when i'll figured out what is happening

[talkfantasytome]

I had an idea for an after Halloween nessian prompt: Nesta and Cassian have leftover candy and usually they give it to the neighborhood kids (or Cassian eats all of it) but this time it’s Nesta tht can’t stop eating the candy. Spoiler alert: it’s cuz she’s pregnant (I don’t know how pregnancy works so idk if candy or chocolate or sweet stuff in general is a craving)

This is so sweet! 🥺🥺 I meant to do it closer to the end of Halloween, but things got away from me, so we can just pretend it's last week. 👀

And you think I do? 😂 I can't say I know much about pregnancy, ngl, though I do think technically cravings are more common later in pregnancies, cause the first trimester is when a lot of people experience morning sickness. But, like, who cares. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ As for cravings, every person is different, that I do know. There's no standard pregnancy craving...I think...lol

"All right, what's going on? Since when do you pick candy over cake?"

This is pretty short, ngl, but I was smiling like a goof the entire time I wrote it, cause 💕💕. You're going to make me want to do a Nessian pregnancy and/or kid fic, and I do not have time for more WIPs. 😫😂

"Nesta! Where's all the leftover candy?!"

Cassian could have sworn they had a whole bag of Reese's and another of Kit Kats leftover after the previous Sunday. At least.

He'd definitely overshot on the candy this year, but it was always better to have too much than too little.

"Why?!" a muffled voice asked from the living room, and suddenly Cassian had a feeling he knew exactly where the candy was.

Chuckling, he made his way into the other room. "I was supposed to bring it over to Gwyn and Az's, remember? Gwyn's been craving a lot of chocolate lately." He paused once he reached the couch, standing just behind his girlfriend. Cassian rested his hands on her shoulders, rubbing them softly as he bent over to speak into her ear. "And, don't forget our deal. You let me get the candy out of the house before it becomes a temptation, and I bake you a chocolate cake."

Nesta groaned softly, pressing her head against his. "Too late." She pointed at the empty wrappers already piling on the table.

Cassian couldn't help but laugh as he pressed a kiss to her neck. "I'll hold our deal fulfilled if you let me take the rest."

"No," Nesta grumbled. She grabbed the two bags and shoved them beneath a cushion before Cassian could grab them.

Hopping over the couch, Cassian sat beside Nesta and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, pulling her close. "All right, what's going on? Since when do you pick candy over cake?"

Nesta shrugged. "I just do."

"Well, we would be doing Az a big favor if we brought over the rest of the chocolate," he explained, hoping to remind Nesta why they'd made that promise.

Az and Gwyn had only just told them she was pregnant a week before Halloween, followed quickly by the request from Az for any candy they had leftover from the trick-or-treaters. Apparently Gwyn was going through it fairly quickly.

"Why is Gwyn's desire for candy more important than mine?" Nesta pouted, looking up at him with big eyes.

Cassian loosed a breath, cursing himself for getting into this situation. He couldn't say no to Nesta when she looked at him like that. Only, he wasn't exactly saying no…

"Because, sweetheart, Gwyn's pregnant. She's eating for two and having some rather specific cravings."

Nesta's eyes narrowed as she leveled a flat look at him he'd seen a hundred times before. It was her 'I know, idiot' look. It wasn't his favorite look of hers, but it was up there. The way her brows lowered and lips pursed, it was adorable. But, this time there was something extra swimming in the blue-grey see of her gaze. Something he couldn't quite read, but begged him to figure out.

Of course she knew Gwyn was pregnant. She'd barely been able to stop talking about it since they found out. Cooing over baby things with Gwyn, trying to figure out which features the child would get from each parent, crying over how happy she was for them.

Yeah, that part was weird. Not something he'd grown to expect from Nesta. She wasn't really one to cry.

Cassian felt his eyes widen, breathing in deeply as realization struck. The less stable emotions, the hunger and cravings for something beyond her favorite foods, and he could've sworn the bathroom had a faint smell of vomit a few days before - it just hadn't been strong enough for him to be sure and ask about.

His stomach flipped, his extremities growing numb with the shock even as his lips curved into a goofy grin.

"Seriously?" he rasped, his gaze flicking from hers to her stomach. "Nesta, are you…"

She held his stare, nodding, and Cassian could see both the excitement and fear in those storm cloud eyes. Not a fear of the future, but of this conversation. It nearly broke his heart, to think she would be so nervous.

"Nesta!" A loud breath escaped his lips as he lunged forward, pressing them to hers. With one hand he cupped her thin, delicate face as the other rested on her still-flat stomach. He pulled away and rested his forehead on hers, tears beginning to form his eyes. "Really?"

Nesta nodded again against him, wearing a smile that matched his. "Yeah, Cass. I'm pregnant. You're going to be a dad." Silver lined her eyes, her nose scrunching up as she sniffled softly. Cassian wasn't sure she'd ever looked so beautiful.

A soft laugh burst from his lips as they sat there, forehead-to-forehead, nose-to-nose, breathing each other in.

"Does this mean I can keep my candy?"

"You can have all the candy in the world," Cassian beamed, kissing her again softly. "Hell, let's go steal Gwyn's."

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[orcelito]

Im Making New Ocs and its 100%,

uuuuhhhhh,

idk im gonna put like Everything self indulgent in this, 

im gonan make a masterpiece 

#speculation nation #specifically it was One Oc but im making a twin for her #i dont actually have any officially developed ocs that are twins and #i dont think...... ive got any who are blood siblings either #ive got a set of four siblings who i started developing approaching a year ago but they were never finalized #but yeah anyways. twins! adorable #andddddd im sorta semi modeling their aesthetic after a certain unofficial set of fictional twins #my girl is a trans girl & i wanna give her a trans boy bro #just cause theres this one fanart comic i saw that i fuckin Loved and it touched my heart and i want an aesthetic like That #trans twins supporting each other's transitions. that shit. thts good. #as for the self indulgent shit Well #im making a dnd version first and foremost but im also keeping Human Au in mind for all this #so ive got their races down & i'll figure out their stuff simultaneously #but yeah. uh. dragonborn. they're cool. #oc shit #im gonna want this to look at later lol

[hooterhorror]

Could I have a slasher matchup please?

Some things about me:

I'm a 5'6" cis-gendered female and (I'll admit) a few pounds heavier than I should be. Reading and baking are my favorite things to do (though I will cook occasionally), as well as write and draw. I prefer tea over coffee and autumn is my favorite season (because I absolutely love wearing baggy sweaters and drinking hot chocolate). I wear exclusively jeans, which I usually pair with flannel plaid, and sneakers are a must (but I do own converse). I enjoy being outdoors (hiking, fishing, gardening, etc), but I can easily stay in all day too (my dining table is my home, I can spend hours typing away). I like physical affection but I struggle with asking for it because of how I was raised. And (also because of my upbringing) I'm not confrontational in the least, I'm more likely to just stand there and take whatever is being thrown at me than to clap back. Sure, I'll rant about it later but in the moment I tend to freeze up. I don't like the dark (I sleep with a lava lamp for a nightlight, lol) and bugs/spiders creep me out. I love horror movies, but I do have a tendency to talk during them (critiquing dumb decisions and brainstorming better alternatives to said stupid decisions) which I understand can be annoying to some people. In general, I don't feel like I talk too much (seeing as I zone out while writing, reading, or drawing) but I will engage in conversation if prompted.

Sorry for the info-dump! I just wanted to give as much as possible to work with!

Thanks for sending this in!!!! You gave enough, ty for all the info!!!

Jason Voorhees.

At a whole six foot five, Jason doesn't necessarily tower over you but... it's a noticeable difference! It just makes you more huggable! And oh by the way, Jason LOVES hugs. You'll never have to ask, he loves to have his arms around you and squeeze you tight! Not bone crushingly right but yeah- you get it!

Your sense of dress is very similar to him, since I can definitely see Jason casually wearing flannels now and then... ain't that cute! y'all can match! he'll get so flustered and happy if y'all did! He loves to harden with you, cus he obviously maintains the camp grounds.. he would never let it overgrow but sometimes it gets overhelming! So having your extra hands and green thumbs makes things sm easier and GOD he's so grateful!! He loves little quiet days with you after a long day of planting and ripping up weeds and trimming the bushes- sipping tea of course!

He's a little apprehensive about fishing because how he died, or at least I imagine he is, so he'll watch you fish from the dock and claps and give you a thumbs up at s good catch! he's so supportive! He'd love to hike with you tbh, he's in his element in nature no matter what he's doing!

Jason will hold you extra tight at nighttime, hoping it'll soothe your anxiety about it until y'all get that lava lamp. He'll still cuddle + spoon you, but you're more comfortable now! I figure you love it cus you're warm and secure in his arms, so he won't stop unless you want him to! :3 also he LOVES tht lava lamp, he thinks it's so damn cool! he's careful to make sure it's off during the day and turned on at the right time so it's warmed up and going properly by bed time!

He isn't confrontational either, but he wants you to stand up for yourself. He might not be able to teach you, but if you come to him ranting and raving about a situation you couldn't manage to speak up in, he'll assure you that it's hard for a lot of people but it's important you don't take so much shit! it isn't good for you! if you come to him and say you managed to tell someone off, he's ECSTATIC!! hugs you and everything!

Loves to cook with you but gets nervous cus he feels like he only gets in the way sometimes. he's a big help though! he learns fast and starts to make food for YOU! and it's good! he doesn't really need to eat himself since he's... y'know, but it makes him happy to do stuff for you like that!

not a huge fan of horror movies himself but he loves them now cus your rambles and he loves to discuss things with you! though he usually just agrees with whatever you say since he's been distracted by how adorable you are- he's such a softie he SWEAR

and oh yeah, when the leaves fall around camp, he'll stomp through them with you!

#🗝️—tunas matchups. #slashers #slasher matchups #slasher x you #slasher x reader #slasher #jason voorhees #jason voorhees x reader #jason voorhees x you #slasher fluff #matchups #matchup

[wooahaes]

Couldn't cry about it in the tags so I'll cry in your ask box: i loved the bits abt how long it would take for others to notice it's literally so so cute!! Y/n and Minghao failing with the "honey"trap is so funny to me shyhsshshs

But literally all members had me so soft and felt so in point I loved reading that sm 🥺💖

the “honey” thing was absolutely pitched as a joke but they decided to try it anyway bc lmao why not? and u KNOW ppl lost their minds when it worked just bc hao is not high on the list of ppl who would fall for it. imo only a few of them would like… be expected to

which is: chan bc reader calling him any tern of endearment is probs enough to make him go !!! momentarily, seok bc hes so full of love and would look up like oh me? im ur honey? 🥰, maybe gyu too? and deadass i think jihoon MIGHT depending on the day but he’d have to be distracted enough to only hear reader say “honey” in any context.

soonyoung comes close bc he’d look up, process what was said, and then keep his mouth closed. shua also imo at least looks up if he hears “honey” but notices ur not talking to him.

cheol is the person whos busy and whoevers talking to u gets u to say honey more than once (“what do bees make…?” “honey?” “what?” “honey???” “sorry, what???” “HONEY.”) and he finally looks up like sorry i was distracted, yes love? and then realizes tht he just got baited out.

anyway thank u ill turn reblogs back on later tbh i just didnt want to imply tht i have more of it done if tht makes sense? its just me spitballing based off how much i have figured out lol

#wooahaes.ask #asks.anon

[ravenhealer5]

Loved your JK post! I was a hardcore EM shipper for years but since 2019 I alr felt the ship was doomed but had a hard time accepting it. I was in denial. It wasn't until DEC 2020 did I begin accepting that EM was sinking & won't be made canon the way i'd want so I gave it up. I agree tht EM was faulty since day1, could u get into details about tht? Curious what you think about its problems. Also the friend you mentioned, did he go thru the same thought process as you about potential jk endgame?

Sending you a hug. I hope you’re not feeling too upset anymore. I can be a pro denier too, but at some point it gets tiring. Denying to others is just the tip of the iceberg, most of all you have to deny to yourself, telling yourself over and over again that what’s happening isn’t really happening and have to come up with twisted theories to suit your agenda. Too much work. I supported EM and was sad when I figured out it’s not happening, accepted and moved on, and later I came to love JK and it reached the point where I realised if I could pick one of the two ships to be endgame, it’d pick JK over EM, which was a pleasant surprise to me.  

Regarding EM, since you asked, I'll tell you what I think but if you don't like it, please remember this is just my interpretation and you don't have to agree with it at all. I’m putting a cut here.

First let me address EMA as a whole. Its main problem is it’s based on their childhood selves. They became friends when they were kids and got along great. Then as they grow up, they develop, forming their own views of the world, becoming their own person, and these newer versions of them no longer get along as great as their child selves did. But they don’t even understand that. In their head, they think they’re still the bestest friends and things are still like they always have been. This is why later in the story we have both Armin and Mikasa having these questions about Eren. They both thought they knew Eren, but looking at things, that clearly is not the case. And Eren doesn't understand them either but the difference is he isn't even interested in understanding them, he's too busy doing his own thing. And in the mean time, all of them have formed other significant bonds. For Eren there was a lot but the most significant ones will be perhaps Reiner and Historia (platonic), for Mikasa it’s not shown as explicitly but it has to be Sasha and Jean (keeping aside Jean’s feelings, like I’ve already said I don't think it’s that important a factor in the pre epilogue part of the story except for being a hint) and for Armin perhaps Jean and Annie. And these bonds, unlike EMA, are based on who they are right now. The only arc where we get EMA standing out, working as a trio is Trost arc. The very first arc of the story. As the story progresses, they get integrated into the rest of the cast. And in the final arc we have Eren committing mass murder and Mikasa and Armin having a terrible argument as they fail to figure out how to handle him. Now, it’s still possible to remain friends with someone even after you’ve grown to be very different people. You have to accept them for who they have become and respect them as individuals. Your relationship has to adapt to the changes you’ve gone through. And this is where the problem lies cause none of them even notice they’ve changed. And that’s why their bond doesn’t get updated, hence never growing beyond what it was in their childhood. It’s like trying to use windows XP in 2021. It’s not up to date, it can’t work.

Now even in EMA, Armin’s bond with both Eren and Mikasa are your normal friendship. He met Eren as a kid and became friends and we don’t see his first meeting with Mikasa but we can assume it was an uneventful meeting when Mikasa came to live with the Jaeger family. Eren and Mikasa however, a different story. Their bond started out on childhood trauma and co dependency. That didn't necessarily mean it had to stay that way, but like I said, unfortunately it did. They grew but their bond never did. Hence the flaw in their relationship remained as it was till the end. I think we all have a few childhood friends we’re not friends with anymore. We didn’t have a fight or some dramatic break up, it’s just our adult selves no longer get along like our young selves did so we drifted apart. Had things been normal in Eren and Mikasa’s case, that’d probably be the fate of their relationship. Last month, my sister watched+read AOT and she said had Eren and Mikasa met at fifteen, like normal people, no trauma nothing, they probably won’t even be friends. That’s actually true, they don't really have much in common to build a bond on. What connects them is the shared trauma of the past that neither of them can heal from. A great exhibit will be this scene from before rts.

What Mikasa wants is to go back to the past, to get back what she lost. 

Eren also wants to bring back the past but more importantly he wants revenge. 

Both their characters are stuck in the past. Because neither of them actually have a healthy coping mechanism and therefore never made peace with their past. Neither of them are looking towards the future. Now compare that to

Armin also lost his family, in the manga it was his parents in the anime it was his grandfather. But whatever, he lost his family too, he’s mad too but that doesn’t stop him from looking towards the future. He’s not being defined by his past. And just to make it clear, Armin is my least favourite character of EMA aka I’m not being biased. 

Mikasa’s attachment to Eren is also rooted in her inability to make peace with her past. The moment Eren wrapped her up in that scarf, giving her a home, offering her warmth when her world had turned too cold, in her traumatised state she held on to him, seeing him as a means to get back what she lost. Her family. She took him as a replacement for her family. This is why we never see her mourn her family, this is why her ideal dream in 138 is almost an exact replica of her childhood life with her family, except it’s with Eren (and this is why it was important to show her mourn Eren all her life while her family is right there. it’s to show that she did not make the same mistake again. this time she found a healthy coping mechanism, accepted the pain and still went on with her life. Eren represents her past while Jean and the kids and grandkids her present and future. they all appear together for a reason). She never got over the trauma of losing her family, I mean she did in the long run but the timeline the story covers, she didn’t. She just wants things to go back to how they used to be before everything went wrong and she thinks she can do it with Eren, not even taking into consideration that Eren might not want the same. And the truth is he does not. Eren is all about himself. To a fault almost. This is why there’s a lack of balance in their relationship. Mikasa has tied her entire existence to Eren while has not tied his to her. He has a warped idea of freedom where he denounces all bonds, even those precious to him. This is from the first chapter.

This is before the wall has fallen, when Carla and Grisha are still alive. But you can already see the problem in their relationship here. Eren’s complete disregard for the people who love him and worry about him, and people he loves too. His idea of freedom is absolute. His life is his own to do anything with. And we have Mikasa who is technically not wrong here but reading the whole story we know this is coming from a feeling of entitlement. She thinks she can interfere with his life the way she wants to. This never changes. From the story’s beginning to its finale, we had Mikasa chasing after Eren as he chases after something else. The two of them never met each other halfway. 

Eren and Mikasa’s relationship is more about specific moments rather than steady continuous growth. Like I mentioned in my JK post, in a moment Eren goes from being a total stranger to Mikasa’s entire world. Not how normal human relationships work. And this pattern continues. They have nothing nothing nothing, then BAM!!! a cool moment. Not only that, their great moments are always coming after something traumatic/tragic. The scarf wrapping when they first meet, the promise with the scarf in chapter 50, the who am I to you scene in 123, the kiss (I personally don’t have a problem with the kiss, I felt like it suited AOT’s style but I completely understand why people are uncomfortable with it). It’s like for them to have a moment, something tragic must happen first.

It’s not that Eren and Mikasa aren’t growing up, they are. And they’re changing. Eren for the worse, Mikasa for the better. But there’s a part of them that’s still badly stuck in the past and that part is what connects them. That’s why it becomes a problem in a story that constantly talks about moving on. This is also an important factor that their developments are going in the opposite directions. Serumbowl made that clear. Where Mikasa and Eren make the opposite choices regarding Armin. Mikasa accepts that while she’s suffering, there is a bigger picture she should prioritise, something Eren does not. That’s what happened in the finale too. Mikasa putting the greater good before her personal sufferings while Eren till the end could not rise above his self-centred mindset. When two characters have this type of contrasting character developments, it’s not very likely for them to end up together.

Now do I think Eren and Mikasa love each other? Absolutely. Probably more than they love anyone else, they share a deep connection with each other that they don’t with anyone else. But also, do I think it’s a mature, ‘healthy’ love between two mutually independent individuals? I don’t. From their perspective it’s the only way they’re capable of loving each other but from an objective POV, it’s messed up. I personally think if we consider ‘healthy’ love, like no trauma or co dependency, for both Eren and Mikasa, that person will be Armin. (I HATE using the words healthy and unhealthy while discussing fictional relationships because the way fandoms weaponise these words but I’m just trying to explain here)

Mikasa isn’t seeing Eren for who he really is. A proper mature love requires that you see the person for who they are, and accept them for all they are. The good and the bad. Mikasa isn’t anywhere near doing that. She’s projecting, only seeing what she wants to see, turning a blind eye to what doesn’t suit her, she works on assumptions and oversteps boundaries. To an extent that Eren himself finds it annoying. A very common argument in the fandom is that Eren does not respect Mikasa as an individual which of course is true but the thing is Mikasa doesn’t respect Eren as an individual either. She barely sees him as an individual. I personally like to use the comparison of a drowning person. While saving a drowning person, we’re advised to not get close. Because they’ll hold on to you so tightly that it’d restrict your movements, putting both your lives at risk. But they simply aren’t able to process that because of the extreme state of fear they’re in. To them this is their last chance at survival that they can’t let go of, and they hold on to it with every ounce of strength they have. That’s exactly what Mikasa is doing. To her Eren is her last surviving family, her only chance at living on in this cruel world and she’s so afraid of losing him, she’s holding on to him with everything she has, she’s overdoing it. It’s her fear of losing him that’s stopping her from forming a normal functional relationship with him. It’s almost like a paradox. Now, is she okay with losing Armin? Not at all. Was she okay with losing Sasha? Absolutely not. But she hasn’t tied her entire existence to them like she has with Eren. That’s where the difference lies.

Now Eren, I don’t claim to understand his character very well but to me he reads like a self-centred person who at the end of the day will always put himself first. I’ve noticed that certain shipping communities seem to be under the impression that Eren cares about no-one but the character they ship him with. I personally don’t think so. He’s not selectively caring, he’s incapable of caring in a mature way. In a mature love, be it platonic or romantic, you’re supposed to think about the other person’s feelings. Which Eren is not doing. Not for Mikasa, not for Armin, not for anyone. He never understood why the scarf meant so much to Mikasa but he tried more than once to take the scarf away from her based on his assumption of why the scarf was important to her. Eren neither does nor is interested in understanding the other person’s POV, he’s too self-absorbed. And at the end of the day he’ll do what he wants to do. By that I’m not saying he does not care at all and is a monster. I’m saying he doesn’t care enough to make compromises.

Eren’s little tantrum over Mikasa surprised many. All of a sudden he’s crying about how he wants to be with her (and everyone else too but she gets the focus). This is the same girl who has spent all her time just trying to catch up to him, whose only wish was to be with him. He is the one who was busy running after other things. This feels like a contradiction. Just like how he wanted his friends to live long happy lives and then put the same friends’ lives at risk. As a result of which Sasha died and Jean and Connie also turned into titans. What’s with these contradictions? Because once again, Eren has priorities. He wants things to happen but won’t actually compromise his own selfish dreams to make it happen. Now I personally have been convinced since 123 that Eren does have feelings for Mikasa. But those feelings are not his priority and never will be. He was throwing a tantrum over Mikasa just when it’s time for him to die. If he’s given one more year to live right there, do you think he’d spend it with Mikasa? No he won’t. He didn’t in the past, and he won’t this time either. He’d spend his time chasing after something not named Mikasa and once a year has passed and it’s his time to die again, we’ll get tantrum part two. You know those kids who spend the entire vacation playing, neglecting their homework and then cry on the last day? If the vacation gets extended by a week, they won’t use the seven extra days doing homework properly. They’ll waste first six days playing again and cry on the seventh day. Again. Because the homework is not their priority. Just like Mikasa is not Eren’s. If you’ve read Lost Girls, you’ll know this exact pattern also repeats there. Despite the gates getting sealed and SC getting disbanded, Eren still gets himself killed trying to go to the outside world on an airplane. Eren was never going to sit still and live the peaceful life Mikasa wanted. 

The thing is Love and compatibility don’t necessarily come together. In general people’s idea of love is very much affected by what we see in media. The type of love our stories, movies, songs glorify aren’t exactly what functional irl love looks like. To have a functional lasting love, there’s a lot of things, many practical factors play a key role. When fictional love stories get a ‘happy ending’, it generally isn’t really the ending. It’s barely the beginning, those stories omit the real challenging part. Falling in love is the easiest part, staying in love however, takes a lot of work. Maybe in a more fairytale like story, Eren and Mikasa could be but that was never AOT. 

EreMika was meant to be like this. People in the fandom tend to call EM badly written which I’m not disagreeing it could’ve been written better but my problem is people aren’t meaning they wanted it to be written better, they’re meaning they wanted it to be written as a functional relationship. Like people often call EMA the worst written trio, and while my favourite trio is JSC, once again, EMA is supposed to depict the falling apart of a childhood friendship which is depicted rather well imo. Something faulty isn’t an example of bad writing when it’s intentionally written to be faulty. People are like if he wanted to make EM canon, he shouldn’t have written it like that. Like what is it that he has made canon? Their mutual love. But that’s it. He didn’t make them endgame. Not only do they not get a happy ending together, Romeo and Juliet didn’t either, but them dying together is still very romantic. While Mikasa gets her happy ending with someone else. Said ‘someone else’ being a character foil of Eren. It hurts in the worst ways possible. Something that never had the chance of happening, it not happening is not painful. But something that could have happened but didn’t, now that hurts. That’s EM for you. They were right next to each other, loving each other, it could have been so easy. But it wasn’t. That’s why it’s a tragedy. With EM it’s so weird because it gets misinterpreted by shippers and haters alike. It’s not your tale of peak romance and eternal love, neither is it forcibly thrown there at the last minute to look functional. It’s been there all the time, as a dysfunctional relationship and it remained so till the end. 

And regarding the friend, more or less yes. He said that to me in February 2018, when Marley arc was at its climax. But I only asked him about it after I myself was convinced about JK. He explained he was sure Eren wasn’t coming back to Mikasa and Armin anymore, like even if he lived he won’t end up with Mikasa. And since Jean was Mikasa’s only other romantic interest in canon, he thought she’d end up with him. Like he was a bit confused about Eren’s end (remind you, we’re talking about Marley arc here) but he seemed pretty confident about JK. 

#my asks