#i’m scared of speaking to her

[icefireanimates]

my mom trys to keep me away from the internet because of things she wants to explain to me.

but.

news flash.

you’d been slowly losing my trust for a while. 2020 was just when the last of it had withered away.

why the fuck would i ask you anything important again.

#vent #i fucking hate her. #and not just “i’m 14 i’m rebellious.” #she’s traumatized me #i don’t trust her #shes made me hide who i am and then asked why #she’s never explained why things are bad to me #only scolded me for doing them #now i’m scared to do anything #im scared to make a noise too loud in my own room #i’m scared of speaking to her #speaking to her makes me have a near panic attack everytime #she doesn’t know she’s hurt me in more ways then helped. #and i’m too scared to tell her because she’ll brush it off as “you’re 14 ofc you’re like this” #i don’t know man.

[creative-time]

My favorite dhmis character trope: Becky Sloan voicing funny little creechur

#good for her good for her #lil creechur #dhmis #don’t hug me i’m scared #dhmisspoilers #dhmis spoilers #sketchbook #spinach can #unemployed brendon #stain edwards the forever boy #Electracey #creative speaks

[anthonysdemo]

little quick regulily sketch because it’s always “do you ship jily, jegulus or jegulily?” justice for regulily REAL

#LIKE JUST IMAGINE HER COMFORTING HIM AND STUFF ABOUT LIKE DYSPHORIA #MY GIRL SEES THE BEST IN PEOPLE #LILY DESERVES JUSTICE ESPECIALLY #they kiss on the mouth fr #trans regulus #i mean come on just imagine how sweet it would be #nonbinary lily evans REAL #regulily #why is this an unpopular ship just imagine the possibilities #i’m fr writing a fanfiction as we speak #jegulily #marauders #fanart #i tried so hard to steer away from the marauders but they just snuck in when i least expected it #LOOK HES SMILING AT HER #WHY CANT THEY BOTH BE HAPPY 😭😭😭 #my friend is fr the biggest jegulus shipper #girlie is scared of jily #i’m waiting till she finds out #marauders art #marauders era

[bayleymania]

Me trying to remain calm and enjoy the show knowing that Ronda is backstage and there’s no one I hate more in this industry than that transphobic, talentless, boring, mediocre jerk.

#aew #I’m trying guys I’m trying but I hate her so much and I’m so scared and I- #lexie speaks

[tbartss]

Just heard my coworker with her full chest say the n-word eye—

#*​blinks rapidly* ma’am….. what the fuck did you just say ?????? #holy fuck it was like a jump scare. I think I’m in shock #I can never just fucken live in peace now can I #and to think I gave her flowers two days ago because of her sick mom ToT #taro speaks

[apollos-boyfriend]

does anyone else ever think about how much evangelion is about growing up too fast and too soon and yet never growing up at all. because i do. i think about it every fucking day

#icarus speaks #asuka was SO mature for her age. and yet she never stopped being that scared little girl #who watched her mother die right in front of her. an act that killed a part of asuka herself too #and shinji. wasn’t. he was just a kid #but everyone around him told him he had to be more. he didn’t want to be more. he wanted to be 14 #but he had no choice in the end. #rei was never allowed to grow up. not really. #she was never allowed to be human. so of course she didn’t experience a human upbringing #she was an adult and a child all at once. a doll and her own person. and she was also neither. #god can u tell i’m fuckign insane about them #don’t even get me started on kaworu

[sugarcoated-sweetheart2]

it’s my moms birthday today! her worthless husband isn’t taking her out to eat or even baking her a cake so i’m doing both of those things today. she asked for a dr pepper cake lol which if you don’t know it’s just red velvet box mix with a can of dr pepper. i’ve never made one before so i hope it comes out well. it’s in the oven right now!

#sugar speaks #lowkey scared about going out to eat cause we’re going to a mexican place and that’s always so many calories and can’t ever calculate #exactly how many. but i’m gonna try to push past cause it’s her birthday and no one else is taking her out so i need to #i think it’ll be okay. i just need to try to not think about it too much

[badolmen]

My toxic trait is unironically liking 2000s-2010s country music 😔

#ra speaks #personal #sorry I’m Nostalgic this morning like #man I remember when my sister had a plastic purple and silver radio she kept by her bed #and she’d have it set to the local country station for the night and I’d fall asleep listening to like #Kenny chesney rodney attkins Miranda lambert Carrie underwood brooks and Dunn etc etc #and off there’s some Toby Keith-esque post 9/11 crap in there but like #*lies down on the floor sobbing* if you’re going thru hell keep on going don’t back down if you’re scared don’t show it you might get out #bEFORE THE DEVIL EVEN KNOWS YOURE THEREEEEEE #and yes yes there’s a lot of oooo I love beer and girls and tractors bullshit #but there’s also really sweet songs like we danced and watching airplanes and I loved her first and it won’t be like this for long and and a #*head in hands* the genre is so varied even post 9/11 it’s not my fault post 2016 it’s all devolved into trash outside of a few independents

[pissfizz]

I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf

#NOT MINE BTW I MISSED MY CHANCE LMAO #but Jesus Christ family I’ve never met before flying in from Panama…. god I’m so scared #I’ve already been dealing with some wack ass imposter syndrome ass shit cuz of how I was raised this is gonna make it SO MUCH worse #I DIDNT EVEN KNOW PANAMANIANS GOT QUINCES #i was raised with almost zero influence from any culture whatsoever I wasn’t even raised close to that side of the family #and like I’m mixed with white but I can’t even use that as an excuse cuz the cousin who’s quince it is is also mixed #and that side of the family is super tied to the culture and they speak Spanish and shit #i don’t even speak Spanish even if the family from Panama doesn’t think ima. total embarrassment what if most of them don’t speak english #when I’m surrounded by white people 24/7 I feel like a total outlier but the second I’m around anyone else latine I feel like that but WORSE #i don’t speak Spanish I don’t know anything about the culture I’m from the fucking pacific northwest and do digital art and watch anime #i am so far completely removed from everything I’m gonna be sick #my grandma is already so judgy about stuff my uncle was even WORSE and made fun of the stuff that was too white or too American about me #my cousins throwing the party are the least of my worries cuz at least their mixed and second/third Gen too #but oh my god the family I’ve never met before I’m so scared I’m so scared #i was already thinking like. can I even call myself latine bc of how I was raised and how far removed I am from everything. I’m mixed so - #-should I just associate myself more with the white side of my family. am I being fraudulent by identifying with that term just bc I have - #-the blood is that even enough maybe that kid had a point when he said I shouldn’t count as hispanic if I don’t know spanish #and thinking about showing up to my cousins quince as. me. it’s terrifying it’s awful I want to go I want to meet these people I want to - #-celebrate my cousin and be happy for her but GOD what if everyone hates us and just tolerates us cuz we’re related to them #i would say we’re the black sheep of the family but I feel like white is more fitting cuz I feel like we’re just slightly brown white people #god god god I’m so stresssd out by this #is this a weird thing to be worried about is this stupid is this selfish #and to make matters worse I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR A GIRT #vent

[serafilms]

i’m really nervous to move out tomorrow guys 😭😭😭 idk why like i just have so much stuff and it’s stressing me out

#and i have even more stuff bc i’m moving with my friend and pretending her stuff is mine #bc she’s not supposed to be living in my dorm but her lease ended early #and i’m scared and anxious about the chinese couple who i booked to move my stuff #and i feel bad i hope theyre strong and able and don’t get hurt by my stuff #maybe they have other employees #wish my mum was here 😭 #ashley speaks !

[maximotts]

Elspeth from Saltburn I’d give you my life

#I never know if Im scared of Rosamund Pike or what but I love that about her #she’s so eerie I’m obsessed #motts speaks.

[pnuk-r0ck]

My mom just came into my room a few minutes ago cuz she heard the video I fell asleep 2 and now she’s upset with me😭

#I’m scared she’ll put my screentime back on #I still get the notifications and crap 4 it so maybe she won’t idk #She wants 2 talk 2 me 2mrw morning so I’m just gonna tell her the truth: I fell asleep with YouTube on #Like I actually did fall asleep with YouTube on😭 #She was getting so mad she wanted 2 take my phone #But like. I need it 4 school. And it’s also my alarm clock I got rid of my actual clock a while ago #Idk she might not? She hasn’t since middle school but I’m still scared #Victor Speaks #Vent

[leatherforhell]

feeling emotional bc I never wrote Clara before bc I was so scared of how she would be received and it turns out you guys are Really Fucking Nice actually

#this is a shout out to fightwing and batcaller especially bc they have been SO welcoming #and I was so scared abt interacting w canon characters bc I don’t like overstepping #and they have had nothing but enthusiasm and kindness and I appreciate them sm for that #and all the spidey blogs 💕💕💕 who I was not expecting to fall in with but here we are (I blame Leah) #speaking of Leah I wouldn’t have even come back to rp without her so thank u beloved #and thank u also to dollie who is an angel and lets me spam her on discord and ask for help with photoshop stuff #and thank u to amber and kylie who welcomed me back on cress and here which means so much #bc I didn’t think anyone would care at all #ily all and I’m going to bed now. kisses for all of u. goodnight #ooc.

[madigoround]

I just talked with my grandma who has been at my great aunts hospital bedside for days and they got some shockingly optimistic news about possible treatments today but my great aunt was upset about being told she could very well live because she is enjoying the attention from everyone being scared about how long she has left and my grandma is trying to impart on her that possibly beating the cancer is good news which feels like the most obvious thing to have to tell someone 🙄

#honestly I’m just feeling so relieved right now #my grandma had been having some health issues before my great aunt got the leukemia diagnosis a few days ago anyway and then she rushed down #to be there for her sister and of course I’m worried about my great aunt but she is the type of person to cut her own hand off if it would #get her sympathy so to speak and my grandma had been so scared and feeling like she had to be the strong one #and just now she sounded more optimistic than she has since before all of this because my great aunt was #finally stabilized enough to be transferred to a much better hospital where she’s getting better care #and they’re talking about possible full cures and it just feels like such a relief that at least for right now they’re both okay and my #grandma is feeling positive and happy #i was feeling so stressed about all this today and it’s gotten a lot better after that call

[cherrysnax]

wahwahwah

#vent #not much of one #but I can feel myself. slipping at times #I sound like her when I talk. when I lose focus when I forget how to speak #when I hear things that aren’t there #i look in the mirror and I don’t see a 23 year old #I see. something shattered between way too young and way too old #I don’t feel like myself. in a completely unironic way #because even though I’m not alone in here. I know who I am. we all have a role to play but sometimes it feels like my role is to just fall #apart #break. shatter. whatever pretty word describes it #my thoughts leave. my words because clumsy. childish. it all falls out of my head like bile #chevy and I wanna try and learn another language together to test. our brains #I can barely keep a conversation going in English. slack jawed and glassy eyed and gone #I know where I am. I don’t know where I’m going #I just know that when I’m eventually trapped in my own head I have a way to get out #I don’t feel like myself anymore. and I don’t feel like anyone else either #I just feel like I’m falling away from everyone. into a dark dark place #and I’m scared and alone. too big to feel this small #too young to feel this old. #its hereditary

[somesmartsmarties]

Sending an apology in every single language to my Korean teacher, with a regular handwriting as bad as mine I can only hope that my Korean handwriting looks at the very least readable to her

#I have my first official lesson with her today and I’m so scared #is this how it feels to learn a new language #she’s mother tongue too so I’ll feel even worse if I mess up #praying I don’t accidentally insult her entire lineage when trying to introduce myself in Korean #smartie speaks