#i try rlly hard promise

[crescentfool]

graduation day 🌸

#persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy does art #HELLO EVERYONE... i humbly offer a minato in these trying times... are you all prepared for the wave of march 5th art bc aha! im sure not #i looked at the promised day tag on twitter and GAAAH THE WORKS ARE ALL SOOO BEAUTIFUL #truly it touches my heart that soo many people are still drawing fan art for this important day even 16 years after the game has released #this is my second time celebrating it! and i couldn't be more grateful to have met minato and see his story.... #genuinely though his growth throughout p3 is sooooo loooovely and it's rlly hard to put in words. but like. god. i love my wife #dont look @ me for calling him that. i have seen other ppl call him wife material in the tags. they're right btw #oh and uh if u want u can look at my art for last year its smwhere in my art tag.... i like to think i hav improved... LOL #anyway thats all i have to say... i will rb and cry and sing to kimi no kioku tmrw since its still the 4th where i live. take care everyon!

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

things in fic that i am dying to get to (in no particular order):

emotional support Sun in parts'n'services

Moon making constant 'oooo, falling for me again, starling? ;3c' jokes (after tripping u and then catching u before u can actually fall ofc)

miss peepers,,

'hey wasn't there a book written about a robot-human romance that really popularized the robot-rights movement back in the day'

"YEA IT'S CALLED 'LOVE, UNPROGRAMMED' THERE'S FIFTY ONE SIGNED COPIES IN EXISTENCE ANd it's getting,, a,, movie adaptation,,,,,"

everyone: shares knowing looks

you: actively dying inside

freddy is ordained

"vanessa help i think i have a crush on someone i really, really shouldnt have a crush on"

vanessa: hold on *takes a flask out of her desk* alright, continue.

yes, you DO know him from somewhere. :)

your neighbor, miss tabitha, whos name is not tabitha, is shocked that you have brought not one, but TWO men over to your apartment

and you're not married to either of them?? damn aint that scandalous.

dont worry tho she supports u. reminds her of her swinger days.

miss tabitha wait thats not- *door closes in ur face*

sir pls these are my emotional support boyfriends

the emotional support boyfriends: two seven+ ft tall animatronics from the local chuck e cheese fazbear pizza place

#incorrect fic quotes #it was in reality not fine #not fine fic #anyway im trying rlly hard to work on things i promise #lays face down in a puddle

[sanjisboyfie]

are u dead ? /jk

im not dead </3 just IMMENSWELY SWARMED WITH WORK since my school sem started like two weeks ago, so thats my reason ive been DEAD DEAD on here. (not to mention one of my classes' workloads is absolutely atrocious and i hate the prof) sorry for not being super active on here guys, i know u guys are waiting for the requests u sent in to be done and i promise i am thinking about them literally every waking hour, i just dont have time to properly write as much as i would like to </3

#im so sorry guys #pls be patient w me #i swear i didnt forget yall #im just trying rlly hard to adapt to being in school/having tons of school work #anditss taking me a long ass time #but i promise i am trying #!!!

[chipjrwibignaturals]

THOUGHT ABT CHIP JRWI INCIDENT 40 DEAD 32 WOUNDED

#im so fucking far behind so I feel like I can’t rlly say shit #bc either its shit I’ve already said or abt events I haven’t witnessed myself #so I can’t like. give MY take im going off second hand info anyway #idk I just. I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!! #he’s so selfish and selfless and all he really wants is to protect and love #forever some part of him is stuck as that little boy on the black rose #whether it’s in his desire for family and crew or even just his… simple urge to do good for goods sake that children have #before hard reality and Reuben and the streets told him to keep to himself and only care abt him and his #idk I just!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya #it took gillion beating the shit out of him for that selfish shell to break #for him to realize like. hey. you’re impacting the ppl you interact with and you’re being a *dick* #and after we see him care more not just for his crew (like keeping his promise to gillion to not lie or just trying to know them better) #but like. signing for la alma. giving up grimms magic to revive people. stealing from royalty to give to an orphanage #loffinlot chip just… WOULDNT do that. it wouldn’t help him and just puts him at risk. just ignore it keep your head down and leave. #and even WITH that growth he’s still got that selfish streak— in the most positive sense of the term #him turning down Lizzie’s army offer in joaldo is him prioritizing those close to him over the needs of the many #(versus with Grimm doing what serves the most— self-sacrifice is easier to swallow) #anyway. tumblr mobile stopped showing my last tags like 7 lines ago so im stopping here just. #know that fucker is rotating in here again.

[2hotwing]

i’ll do the two asks in my inbox tonight!!! one is nearly two weeks old and i’m so so sorry it’s taken me so long to answer 😭 i’m going to be honest and say oct 31st is the anniversary of an accident for me so my functionality varies DRASTICALLY day by day around this time of year until i feel safer :(

but i promise i’ll get them done to the best of my ability!!

#i rlly am sorry i was also out of work for three weeks because my ptsd was THAT bad #:( promise i’m trying really hard #zeke yappin’ #update postin’

[circusclownproductions]

UR GINGER???

im sorry ophelia, but idk if we can be friends anymore </3 im gingerphobic

/J /J

Oh boy /lh/nm

#I’m trying so hard not to sound mad I pinky pinky promise I’m not mad at you I’m just tired but I have made like 3 posts addressing this #kind of joke and the post I just made about expressing my feelings was me asking my friend not to say things like this about my hair or my #autism as much anymore #I get that you’re joking I really really do #but it’s just so fucking hard to hear after the millionth time bro #and I already hate myself and my appearance so much that hearing this every five seconds really doesn’t help #I’m sorry if I sound whiny or if I’m making a big deal out of nothing I’m trying not to be a baby about it or stress you out cuz I don’t #want you to think you did anything wrong cuz you didn’t and you couldn’t have known how much I’ve been struggling with this recently #but I really wish people would stop with the hatred of redheads even if it’s just joking because after a while of people just joking it #starts to feel like they’re just hiding behind the guise of a joke and trying to express how much they hate you #and when you already have an anxiety disorder that’s rlly easy to jump to #I’m sorry if this is annoying or dramatic and I’m also sorry if it makes you anxious at all I love you ghost I’m sorry I didn’t handle this #the way you probably expected I’ve just been really sensitive to stuff recently cuz I’m kind of at a low point but I’m getting off topic im #sorry #again I’m not mad I swear I promise #ghost 🖤 #🪽 #/gen all of it

[mossyflowers]

FORGOT TO POST AN ACE DOODLE YESTERDAY SO HERE'S SMTH I'M RLLY PROUD OF

This is!! A lil promo thing that I doodled a bit ago in case I ever made Ace's stuff a comic so :]

#sonic oc #sonic ocs #genuinely did have a lot of fun drawing this HGCCGBHJGFGGGFN #still kinda tempted to make it a comic but #1. sonic games just have. rlly bad pacing usually so i'd take a lot of work to get that right #2. comics hard :( #idk maybe i'll try it if anyone's interested but i can promise it'll be rlly fancy or get finished lol #anyways yea!! there's a lot of stuff packed into this that i!! will not elaborate on atm!!! maybe later lol

[arionawrites]

how tf did me facetiming someone i matched with on tinder turn into them giving me unsolicited advice about giving people your full attention after i already let them know that i recently got diagnosed as adhd and it’s hard for me to focus on just one thing/person and then them telling me that “based on my behavior” they think i’m autistic like ?? didn’t ask, we literally started messaging each other like a day ago, even if i am autistic (which wouldn’t be a bad thing if i am) when has it ever been socially acceptable to tell someone you JUST MET that you think they’ve got some kind of mental disorder/illness/disability/etc.

my friends have mentioned that i might be autistic and that’s fine bc i’ve spent a lot of time with them and they actually know me and i take their perspective of me very seriously because they’re the people who see me 100% unfiltered and have known me whenever i’ve been completely unmedicated. i trust their word.

this person from tinder, however, i have sent like maybe 20-30 messages to where we talked about nanowrimo and i was like omg it’d be so cool to meet someone who also writes, whether it’s as friends or as more, i would love that—only for our facetime call to be less than 20 minutes long and for them to try and diagnose me as autistic just because i, after ALREADY TELLING THEM that i have adhd and after them asking about meds and me telling them that i haven’t taken my adhd meds today because i didn’t have work and also i’ve taken multiple naps today which has made my head even more foggy and made it even harder than usual to focus, found it difficult to focus.

like. i wasn’t unresponsive. i wasn’t ignoring them. i was listening and i was responding, i just also was looking between my phone and my laptop screen.

which okay i understand that maybe i’m just frustrated because of the “based on your behavior” comment because an 18 minute facetime call does not give someone enough interaction time to try and fucking diagnose me as anything, and maybe this is more of a we just didn’t vibe and that’s fine, i don’t think they’re like a bad person or anything and if nothing else i’m glad the mismatched vibes were felt before deciding to meet up or anything, but also.

eighteen minutes. literally eighteen minutes and they fucking “based on your behavior i think you’re autistic” and “here’s some advice, when meeting new people you should give them your full attention”

FUCK that.

#idk maybe they’re also autistic and thought it was supposed to be helpful? and again i dont think they’re a bad person #and esp if they are some kind of neurodivergent they might not have realized how that comment could come across #so i’m trying not to take it too personally bc 1. i dont rlly know them 2. they dont rlly know me and 3. it has no heavy impact on my life #but also like idk it just was weird and even if they didnt intend to comment to come across like that #i can still be uncomfortable and upset about it #anyways moving on this is why i barely ever open tinder in the first place lmaooo #aricomplains #also like they probably arent all that wrong to be fair #i know it can come across as rude to not put ur full focus on someone esp someone you’ve just met and that is something i want to work on #it just felt weird that i literally explained i have adhd and its hard to focus and i promised them its nothing personal if i struggle #to focus on them while talking and like AFTER i said that they tried to give me that ‘advice’ like i hadnt already addressed it #idk i understand how my actions might have come across as rude or something but if someone told me they had adhd and struggled to focus #i would immediately know not to take it personally if they’re like fidgeting or on their phone while i talk or smth #which i also get is not something everyone has to do too like no one is required to react the same and #blah i’m overthinking this i need to stop #basically: i understand how my part in the ft call might have come across and i addressed it and tried to focus as much as i could #and if they took my lack of focus as rude i understand why and i also understand my ability to focus on people’s something i need to work on #but also the way they approached it rubbed me wrong and those comments made me uncomfortable and upset #but again i started talking to them yesterday and have no obligation to talk to them again so #take this as a lesson and a reminder of why i need to keep working on my ability to focus on people better when talking to them #and also take this as a reminder as to the kind of people i want to spend time with and thats not people who give passive aggressive advice #or try to diagnose someone they JUST met #and then take those lessons and reminders with me as i move on #ok im done now im gonna unmatch w them on tinder and also maybe just delete tinder entirely bc i barely use it anyway and would rather #try to meet people in more authentic ways #honestly my hope is that now that i’m spending like 3 days a week at the library in between shifts #i might meet another library-going sapphic and that would be VERY lovely 🥰

[twinklefists]

its been so long, wow hi guys!!! see tags for more info on an update <3

#sorry i disppeared again #life is crazy #im trying rlly hard to getmy own place #its hard when u have no money #but hopefully when i have my own place for the first time i can finally be present #i dont havea computer rn that i can sit at and write #but i rlly wanna get back into it #so when i have that place hopefully within the next month #im gonna reboot carol and wanda for sure!! #and might make a multi too #thanks for hanging around those who are still here #pls continue to stick around for me! i promise ill be back! #see you guys soon! <3 #ooc tbt

[butchtoro]

everyday i commit to making art and making something i can be proud of, then i post it, have a subsequent breakdown and spiral into deep depression when it gets nowhere, and swear off art forever because of how damaging it is to my mental health in the end . then i pick up my pen a day later and tell myself this time will be different, it has to be (it is a cycle, it will not be)

#this sounds v melodramatic i promise im just saying words #i just type like that #anyway im gna just scribble n post and pretend i dont care about most of the notes being from my own reblogs #i lived my adolescence hyper aware and fixated on interactions as i was very isolated and it was the only time i got human contact #and it's still the same now but im trying to not let it rule me #for random talking posts im okay now but for things i make it's still rlly hard to seperate #i dunno. i hope i get there someday #i know i can #blabs

[oceanic-recollection]

hello? Is this McDonald's? Id like a large double cheeseburger and an amount of fries around 40-50

<APIS> Mx. I'm going to need a more specific number than that-

<GRP> 200 psc frie?

<APIS> We do not sell boxes or bags of 200 fries.

<GRP> 500?

<APIS> ThaAt's not on the men u

#apis #tabby #grp #goldy #art #ask #anon #idle chatter #SHES OKAY SHES JUST TRYING RLLY HARD NOT TO LAUGH I PROMISE

[antifragi1e]

:/

#uhrjdhdhrh sorry venting again #one of my goals (well my number 1 goal) this year is to have a better sleeping schedule #i feel like im disappointing myself coz its only been 6 days since i last slept at this hour and i promised myself that i NEED to get better #i literally cant sleep its almost 7am #and im trying sooooo hard to sleep on time but i have insomnia and it rlly rlly sucks #i have somewhere to be in at 1pm and i just wanna go to sleep for a bit #i should really log off n put my phone down but if i do that means im gonna be alone w my thoughts #and its 10x worse #im being so dependent and its not good #sorry to delete i just ughrhhhghr i gotta start a bedtime routine for real

[kiss2012]

ummmmm ok.

#911 lb #the henren and maddie storylines were great #i really loved the henren one genuinely #and i love that buck showed up for 5 minutes did that tackle burned lasagna and noticed eddie’s cologne like truly buck girls stand up!! #bobby’s storyline also promises to be rlly good i like amir i hope they don’t villainize him or anything #im thinking back to like end of s2 and when they had that boy bobby indirectly hurt and mostly he was just shown as the bad guy and he #kind of was obviously but im hoping for some more nuance with amir #because thinking about 2x18 with buck (basically bobby’s son) getting hurt by the son of someone who bobby and athena indirectly harmed #that was a rlly good storyline and one of the best season finales they had imo #so i wanna see where they go with this now #and eddie. well like. i’ll reserve my opinions until next week i guess #i do love shannon. genuinely shannon was one of my faves she’s one of the most complex and interesting characters the show has ever done #and i love her and eddie’s relationship i always will #but a doppleganger is soooo soap opera-y 😭 im trying hard to take it serious on one hand it’s like wow this is kind of horrifying and #fascinatingly messy and interesting #and on the other it’s a bit ridiculous #also it’s difficult to see eddie’s progress from his (good) s5 arc….just put aside?? #he might not have dealt with shannon but was he rlly at This Point u know… #i really can’t excuse the marisol of it all tho it makes zero sense to have her around for this just to be cheated on like…why the nun #thing and now no mention of that so what was it all for… #there’s sm going on rn…. #anyways im returning to my s2 (beloved) rewatch

[lovecrazedpup]

trying to be strong and think reasonably vs my unwavering belief that im an awful person and hes going to leave me

#i feel so fucking bad but i dont know what to do or how to fix it 👍 #cant really stop crying bc our relationship is steadily getting worse and i am a bad girlfriend #i cant make him feel loved and i cant make him happy #its like im trying rlly hard but im still doing things wrong and making him upset #im scared bc everything will pile up and itll be in the back of his mind constantly and then one day itll be too much #im such an awful person i cant even let him talk to me abt my issues without crying #genuinely why am i so manipulative i dont mean to be #im trying hard to think normally and be normal but everything just leads back to ‘im the issue i should die hes going to leave me’ #i love him so much im so sorry for being bad i really mean it #im gonna stop talking to everyone and ill only talk to you now i promise #im going to go back to being perfect even if its fake bc thats when things were good #ill do better #jamie.txt

[somuch-4-stardust]

something that peeves me is like. i dont even know how to explain this but sometimes people will try to comfort me when what im saying isnt meant to be all boohoo sad im just like. being realistic. like i appreciate the effort like genuinely so much but like. it almost feels patronizing? and like disingenuous?? to make it easier to understand like. im wasian! if i said 'i am wasian and it sucks sometimes' and you say 'nooo yr not wasian stoppp dont say that abt yrself!' that just DOESNT MAKE ANYSENSE!!! like its litearlly just a fact??

#and OBVIOUSLY no one is saying this abt me being wasian. which btw is white-asian mix idk if yall know that #anyways no. okay FIRST OF ALL. i understand like. people who are constantly self deprecating are like a lot. and that can be so draining #and i totally get that but im being sooo serious i try so hard to not be that but like #when i say like. im a hard person to care abt. LIKE THATS NOT me being all 'oh guys throw me a pity party :((' like #im just trying to state a fact! i am just aware that it is a fact about me!! like its okay!!! i get it! #and I KNOWWW it still comes across how i dont want so i need to just stop saying it but GRRRRRRRRR #esp when it just comes up in conversation. like 'oh actually i dont rlly have any super close friends' is not self deprecation guys #it is LITERALLY just me stating a fact. like I JSUT DONT HAVE ANY SUPERLCOSER FRIENDS I DONT NEED YOU TO COMFORT ME ARRGGGHHH #and again i do appreciate it it makes me feel very cared for when people try to comfort me at times like this. but at the SAME TIME. #ITS SOOO ANNOYING!!!! #okay while im treating my blog like my personal diary again. and on this same thought process like #one of THE MOST AWKWARD THINGS!! as someone who is genuinely like. a very unlikable person #(as you can probably tell from my blog) like........ i feel like a lot of people dont get it #and like!! all my friends say things and im like. no that literally has never happened to me because as a general like #most people dont like me!! i dont have those experiences!! #ALSO LIKE NO THE AWKWARD THING i lost my train of thought IS TRULY LIKE #THE FACT THAT I CANT BE LIKE. 'yeah so im like. inherently unlovable or damn near close !' BECAUSE ITS ACTUALLY SO AWKWARD #like even i can filter myself out enough to never ever say that because people do not know how to respond at all. #WHICH. IS TOTALLY FAIR but honestly like again!! i dont want you to try and comfort me i know its a fact i dont like #well it still upsets me and all. but you're not gonna change it lol like. its okay i promise LMAO like im okay #(side note i literallydont know what the number of tag limit is anymore so if any of this gets cut off. so sad!!!)

[saleeba]

essay finito 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽 !!!! now to catch about 2 hours of sleep before i get the train back to uni :D

#trying rlly hard not to kms i promise!! :D #piku.txt