#i think the only change i made was singing 'some spice' because i didnt want to sound like i was mocking him - but i do love singing it

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My Lyrics for Eve's Demon Dance Tokyo! This song jumped the line of wips, I immediately fell in love with it 😂 I'm really proud of these -- it worked out well and was a blast to sing :D (Lyrics under the cut and my rambly process commentary in the tags lol)

Ah, don't you miss the home from where you came?

So many memories, feel your mind FLY FAR AWAY.

Tread-tread-tread-tread memories in tow,

INSTANT-PARADISE TOKYO.

Humans with such strange STYLE, all confusing me to no end

Jealous of them; wanna join them;

Credentials and such be damned. JUST GIVE ME (a)

SUPERMODEL TO DATE, wouldn't that be lovely?

CAMERAs are my place to be.

STYLE won't you come to me.

Ah, my voice as well has BEAUTIFUL SOUNDS, I’M LOVING IT.

You and me set side by side, I'll face you if you'll risk it.

Now I'm starving! Carefully as possible,

I'll consume you! Thorn-covered and poison-full,

Eating until I feel fed. "I'll have one of each," I said.

Grow wild! The worst follows AFTER BAD.

We'll fall down! Crashing parties that they had.

Conversations charge ahead: the turning point OF THE DEAD.

Endlessly I'm feeling coerced into everything.

Thump, thump, my heart --

Knock, Knock, my heart unlocks, love thump thump thumping like an arrow that's notched.

That dress looks so nice, does it feel too tight?

Now, you lead the way, to each command I will agree.

Do you think he's cool? Do you think he's lame?

It's all the same, let's dance BARRIER FREE.

SHOWTIME starting now, you can't allow yourself to sway.

Shed your worries and their weight, flying fast and far away.

We, the ones the world will never hold in high esteem

Never need to offer flattery, all we do is dream.

Now I’m starving! Even more voraciously

I'll consume you! Opening my arms you'll see

No one can take you from me, you're mine for eternity

Grow wild! Drinking more than I enjoy

We'll fall down! Stumbling I feel destroyed, these city nights show me I'm

A disappearing BOY.

We, the ones the world will never know or write about,

Now, to vast Pacific waters you will hear us shout... (SHAKE'N)

Please, wait a moment, Beautiful. Where is your smile from before?

Are you so sure I can't see that face anymore?

A strong PRIME MINISTER for you is what I became.

I swear to God I'll protect the country called by your name.

If we're close to Hell, never say farewell, please keep your hand holding mine.

I want to dance with you forever, won't you look me in the eye.

Now I'm starving! As ashamed as possible,

I'll consume you! Thorn-covered and poison-full,

Eating until I feel fed. "I'll have one of each," I said.

Grow wild! Gimme an ADVENTURE

We'll fall down! Crashing parties that occur.

This sleepless night, it bores me. SPICE is what it needs.

Now I’m starving! Even more voraciously

I'll consume you! Opening my arms you'll see

No one can take you from me, you're mine for eternity

Grow wild! Drinking more than I enjoy

We'll fall down! Stumbling I feel destroyed, these city nights show me I'm

A disappearing BOY.

And I recorded a little draft! Now listen. I'm really bad at singing. My mic was being annoying. However, I always get frustrated when I can't tell how translyrics are supposed to sound, and wanted to put it all together. It's meant more as rhythm reference than a nice performance 😅

#eve #demon dance tokyo #lyrics #woooo ive been working really hard on these and its so nice to see it all come together :D #im really happy with them!! #i know thats not the recognizable thumbnail pic but i like that lil lady... dances i do while vibing to this song... #i was so excited how all the english words and repetition sections fit in! #i think the only change i made was singing 'some spice' because i didnt want to sound like i was mocking him - but i do love singing it #the way he does with like three syllables #the knock knock line gave me hell but i think it works alright 😂 i just couldnt grasp the rhythm #i had 'thorns are sharp' first but that was too much of a mouthful -- i think 'thorn-covered' feels easier to say #there was another translation i was looking at that compared that line to feeling like a party crasher and i really liked that image #i kinda wanted to keep it just 'im starving' because i hate random filler words but also the four syllables is so important to the original #once again these are open for anyone to use 👀👀👀 #pleeeaase dont make my ugly recording in vain -- id love to hear your take on it :3

[kyber-kisses]

Hymn (Part 5)

Winchester Brothers x Sister!reader (Platonic)

Warnings: descriptions of violence and blood

Summary: Y/N Winchester has wrestled with demons ever since her mother died, but when her younger brothers lives are in danger it’s their souls she fights to save, because isn’t that what a big sister should do?  

A/n: Heyyy, I'm sorry this took so long to get out. Writers block is a bitch, anyways I hope you enjoy this chapter and please tell me what you thought!( Gif made by Gaywitchtwins)

It was a week later when you felt the first pull. A familiar feeling that started in the cradles of your boots and traveled up your legs, nudging you in a direction.

She wants me to keep moving, You thought. Even though Manah controlled you like a puppet there were instances she loosened her hold on you. You were still a person after all, and is she wanted you to work properly that meant giving you time to eat and sleep.She was mainly in control when you fought, but other than that you mostly had control over yourself.

Looking up from the already cooling cup of coffee wrapped in your hands, you let your pupils scan over the diner. It hadn’t taken long to find a place to stop when you had hit the outskirts of Kansas City. Outside the old sign of the diner swung slightly in the breeze, it’s paint mostly chipped away as rain ran off in sheets. The inside was as weathered as the sign too— torn vinyl on the seats, the air greasy in your lungs. You didn’t care though, it was these types of places that reminded you of a feeling of home. Playing tic tac toe on the paper place mats with Sam and Dean, dipping fries into milkshakes. Innocent things like that.

Everything you no longer were.

“You been on the road awhile?”

The voice seemly came out of nowhere to you, instantly snapping you out of your gaze as you looked up.

“I’m sorry, what?”

The waitress smiled. The kind of smile that was sincere and not sinister. “I said, have you been on the road awhile?”

“Just a week. But it’s flown by.” You shrugged lightly, fiddling with the handle of the mug in front of you.

“What’s got you travelin?” She asked. She had a deep voice, rich as a cup of melted butter, dark skin, topaz eyes.

“Family. Haven’t seen them in awhile.”

You watched as she attempted to read your facial expression before letting out a light laugh. “Have fun with that. Family can be complicated. Doesn’t look like your looking forward to it.”

“You could say that again.”

The waitress let out a light sigh, spinning the pen in her hand. “Well, can I get you anything else before you head out? Maybe some actual food and not just coffee?”

“I’m good, but thank you.” You smiled, fishing out a few bills and handing them to her before grabbing your backpack that had been sitting between your feet. The longer you stayed in one place the tighter the hold on you became. Better to leave now.

As you stepped out onto the gravel of the parking lot, rain soaking you instantly, you felt your hand move towards the charm hanging around your neck, wanting nothing more than to tug on it, but you stopped half way. Each attempt at trying to pull the damn thing off only left you with blistering skin on your palm.

Your feet were moving before your mind was and as you made your way down the side of the two lane road your mind went back to the last conversation you had with the demon who had power over you.

“Tell me, Do you enjoy games, Y/N?”

Game? Manah didnt do games. She was organized chaos. She had a specific order to things. Games weren’t her type.

“Games? What the hell are you talking about?” You questioned, hands clenching around the straps of your backpack as you stood on the deck of the old railroad yard the demon called her home. Any second now she would take her hold on you and like so many times before you would become an obedient attack dog.

“Just to spice things up, let’s say you and I have a little game.”

“What type of game?”

“Well, seeing as they are your family-“ the demon began, dragging a manicured nail across your cheek. “I’ thought I would have some fun with you.”

“Why?”

“I’m getting to that darling.” She sighed. “I’ll give you two weeks. Two weeks to find your brothers and end them. . .or ill send someone else to do it.”

Find them? When it came to stuff like this she always gave you somewhere to go. Now she was giving you nothing. Fear rippled through you as your hands white knuckled the straps. “Why?”

And then, like so many times before- Manahs hand came up to grip your face harshly. “Because they are your family and I know you. You are going to try and fight this. You’re defiant by nature.”

Everything inside you wanted to head butt the bitch right off the deck but you stood stoic, glaring her down. “Alright, you gonna tell me where I can find my dear brothers?”

“Not this time. I’ll give you. . . Let’s call it a homing device. Like a bird, you’ll know your direction. It’ll be up to you to find your way.”

“Like a map?”

“No, like instinct. No way to know how far. You just have to go.”

“That’s not fair! Two weeks? They could be anywhere in the US—“

A soft breeze shifted through her red hair, her gloved hands going back into the pockets of her black coat. “Then you best start moving. The clocks ticking.”

The weight of the weapons in your pack shifted as you forcefully tightened your straps, heading towards the road with a growl. It was only when you reached the steps of the deck did you pause and turn around. “Why are you playing this morbid game with me?”

Manah only smiled, red lips twisting wickedly. “Your a hunter aren’t you? This is what your good at.” She paused. “I’m going to break you Y/N, whether that be by you killing your brothers or watching someone else do it. It will happen.”

A shudder ran up your spine at the memory, the only thing to pull you out of it being the sound of a Bus tires hitting one of the deep puddles in the road before coming to halt at the bus-stop you found yourself at. The greyhound was driven by an older man singing a blues song in a gravelly voice as he opened the door. He stopped mid chorus to ask where you were headed.

“Lawrence.” You handed a over fistful of bills. He took a long look at you, and then at the backpack. “Now that’s a whole lot more than you need to give, young lady. Tell you what.” He sorted through the bills and change. “This much’ll take you as far as you need to go, and if you settle in back, I’ll turn the heat up for you.”

It was at times like these that you were reminded that there were still good people in the world. It wasn’t all demons and monsters. Manah may have raised you in chaos but you still knew good from bad. Once you had given him a sincere thank you bumped your way down the empty bus towards the back, collapsing tiredly into the back row of empty seats.

Your feet were pulling you towards home. . . And you had no idea what you would find.

*. *. *. *. *. *.

Dean let out a deep sigh as he flexed his hands against the steering wheel, peering out of the front window of the impala at the parking lot.

“Dean?”

“Why did I drive us here? Seriously, this has to be more stupid than going back to Lawrence to see Y/Ns grave.” Dean snapped. He wished he had never brought up that reoccurring nightmare, had never thought twice about you. It was like he liked drowning in grief.

“You okay?”

The older Winchester huffed, flexing his fingers again. Sometimes he hated you more than anyone else he knew. Hated you for being selfish, for running out that damn motel door, for not thinking about what it would be like for him and Sam if something happened to you, leaving them behind. Or worse, for thinking about it and not caring.

Instead of giving his brother an actual answer, Dean kicked open his door and stepped out into the mostly empty parking lot before taking a few steps and coming to a stop besides the other person with them.

“You okay, Mom?”

There was a pause before Mary slowly nodded, bringing her hand down from her mouth. “This is- this is where she-“

“Disappeared? Yeah.”

The place was practically the same. The neon sign of the motel flickered every few seconds, and the hum of several air conditioning units filled the night air along with crickets. Though his mothers eyes were fixed on the trees just beyond the asphalt, Dean turned his head to look back over his shoulder at the motel. The red paint on the door of room 16 was beginning to flake off with age, the lights off and quiet.

“It’s messed up.” Dean began. “Messed up that I’ve stopped here more than I have in Lawrence.”

“Why?”

Shoving his hands into his pockets, he looked down at his boots. “I think a small part of me always held out hope. That maybe I would show up here and she would come walking back out of those woods. . . God, I’m such a child.”

Mary let out a sigh, ignoring the sting of tears in the corners of her eyes. “Dean, she had you and Sam, she’d raised you traveling with the idea that she would always be there, and suddenly she wasn’t. You can’t blame yourself for having a little bit of hope.”

The hunter nodded solemnly, eyes still on his shoes. He felt like he was twelve years old again, standing on the stoop of the motel room with your gun in his hands, listening to you scream.

He quickly shook it off though. He had had decades to mourn your death, to mom it was still fresh- and she was holding herself together better than him.

“You and Sam never gave me a full explanation of what happened though-“ Mary started. She didn’t want to poke but it was her daughter who was gone and she wanted the story.

“Mom, I’m not sure Dean wants to-“

“It’s fine, Sam.” Dean sighed, shoving his hands back into his pockets. “What do you want to know?”

And that’s how Dean found himself launching into the fucking nightmare of a memory for what felt like the millionth time. It hurt more this time though because he could see that his mom was trying hard not to cry, and he had to remind himself that he hadn’t just lost a sister, she had lost a daughter. . . And now she was outliving her.

“The only thing dad came back with was her flannel. It was practically in ribbons and soaked with blood.” Dean breathed, his voice cracking at the next words. “I was twelve years old when I watched my sister run out that door to her death.” He jabbed a finger at the door behind them like it was the one to blame for you leaving.

There were still so many things running through his head as he suddenly spun and headed back towards the car, anger beginning to rise once more like earlier. What had killed you? Why didn't Dad put more effort into avenging you like he had with mom? Why didn't the Darkness bring you back along with her? Why did you have to die? 

Mary made a move to go after him but Sam clamped a hand down on her shoulder. “I wouldn’t try. Each time we've stopped here he only leaves angry and in a wreck. It’s like talking to a brick wall.”

She paused before nodding. “I think this place has taken its toll on all of us right now. How bout we go home?”

“Sounds good.”

As the remaining Winchesters made their way back to the car, Dean paused at his door, his hand tightly gripping the handle as he cast his gaze towards the woods just beyond reach, as if answers might lie in the shadows. But there was nothing.

Sliding into the drivers seat, Dean stuck the key into the ignition. Home. He just wanted to go home. No more trips into the past.

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[homme-brella]

aesthetic themed ask list

It’s friday night i’m by myself listening to music in my bed in the dark and i told all my friends to leave me alone but i don’t feel like journaling properly so i’m just going to do this as an exercise lol. Found this list in my drafts of my old account i made for my ex.. oh how times have changed since 2015. 

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? just now i guess?

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? who killed jonbenet ramsey???

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? i don’t feel like i’ve accomplished much - actually got stuck on this question during a job interview (i didnt get the job lol) probably... finding my current job and seeing an actual path for my future for once.

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? telling my friends how much i love them saturday night.

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? drop out of cpa, quit my job, travel the world and send cards back home to my friends to remember me by.

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? no bucket list... i just wanna travel the world...

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. she reminds me that people aren’t perfect, that sometimes you shouldn’t be selfish, that there are more people who have opinions than i’d like.

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? it didn’t get bad until jr high / high school i don’t think i can complain.

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? sunday night.

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. jessica. she loves the stars as much as i love her.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? no i can barely do that with my friends.

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? i guess it was 5-6am when we talked. cass is a dear friend of mine. 

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? i’d tell Ron “stand tall, stupid”

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? pretty.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. “i don’t have everything that i love, but i love everything that i have” - my dad said this a lot. i try to remember to love everything in my life, and put 100% of my energy into loving them.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? lmao i was looking through my archive i think it’d be “needs to be held, cries often”

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? probably pay off every debt my entire family has, and then invest the rest and treat my family & friends nice.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? sometimes. I can be pretty petty sometimes, but I think it’s a defense mechanism. Sometimes i wish i could take the high road but sometimes they don’t deserve it lol.

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. idk how to count a hundred words but “don’t stay with someone just because you’re loyal”

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? pastel probably?

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. i like them in moderation! although my mama is strict )-:

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? no idk how to do makeup well and i’m also really lazy. thank god for permanent makeup.

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. “She likes spring, I prefer winter” -Slchld. I think this song reminded me that it’s ok to have differences between you and your s/o. I think it made me an open minded person, and open to flaws and acceptance. I think it also got me through a time when I was losing myself and it reminded me that it’s ok to be different and like what you like, as long as you know what you like, you know?

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. Love is love.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

Us the Duo  - went with my ex when we were about to break up. gave me hope that we could work things out because they sang our song and we held each other but it didn’t end up working out. i still have a bad habit of attaching people to music

Daniel Caesar - went with my best friend, we found a spot near the side of the stage and interacted a lot with the drummer - he actually was the highlight of the night the way he enjoyed himself so much. It was freezing out but it was honestly such a warming sensation being in that venue.

HONNE - went with a group of friends, i actually introduced them all to HONNE, it was amazing singing those songs with them, it bonded us but also marked the end of our time together.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? i would love a letter from my grandpa telling me everything that happened to him during the war.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? It’s not lol.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? brush teeth, hop in bed, scroll on phone for hours, sleep

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? their daughter’s a hoe ToT 

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? pink. idk i like pink.

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? ron devon cass andrew mitch, we would get an RV and travel across the country for a month or two, making stops in random cities.

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

1. i wish ron lives happily ever after with the girl he loves - because he deserves it

2. i wish to be successful in my career - so that i can afford to travel and see the world with the people that i love

3. i wish that the dreams my friends are manifesting come true - because i love my friends.

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. i think i was pinocchio one year that was kinda cute.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? called my entire local committee and hysterically laughed and hyperventilated on video call lol.

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? kill a person

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? wait that’s really hard lol ummmm maybe one song? maybe the different people i see can sing different songs for me.

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. i think so! it’s when you think about them throughout the day - consider their feelings and what you could do for them. but idk i’m single as fuck lol.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? i did rock really short hair lol

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? uuhh i don’t really drink starbucks but i like the seasonal drinks - pumpkin spice latte.

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? peace.

fin.

#moi

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thats summ3r in the middle of makomart when shes giving herself a stress-induced pep talk about how bad the economy is but that doesnt mean love is fake and life is too short to waste it and yes shes too poor to buy this macaroni but that doesnt mean her HEART is too poor to LOVE WOMEN and shes kinda mumbling beneath her breath about it because she thinks shes alone but then theres a family of like a middle-aged woman and her three kids and summ3r apologizes loudly and her voice cracks and she shoves the macaroni in the basket she has and walks off as confidently as she can and then when she goes to pay the cashier is really cute and shes like shit i should have gone to the self-checkout line instead and when the cashier says something about joining the club membership thing summ3rs like "thanks, you too" and then it clicks and she just starts crying and the cashier is being paid minimum wage and she really doesnt deserve this and summ3r know this so she keeps mumbling apologies and she pays and pretends that she isnt crying and on the receipt that she looks over when shes in the car the macaroni was 500c when the only other thing she went in there for was 200c and god she doesnt have the money for this what the fuck was she thinking and she goes home and makes the macaroni and she cant even enjoy it because she 1. burnt it and 2. she only has 72c left in her bank account now and when she tries to go to sleep she thinks of every time she fucked up socially in public with stupid blunders like that so she just never falls asleep

and then summ3r goes into work the next day because thats all she really does and jarrett said she could take the day off if she wanted to and summ3r really wanted to but the taste of macaroni still clings to her mouth and it tastes like disappointment and the 72c left in her bank account so shes waiting for her shift to start and justins talking about something but she tuned him out a while ago and she was thinking that weed should come in cigarettes and thatd be a great idea and as she chews on her cigarette she remembers weed is illegal in the octarian-atramentonian union which sucks so she wonders if she can move to another country where she can get legally baked but 1. shes really poor and 2. weed highs arent even that great anyways, and then later that day when shes actually working shes really having a horrible time because she poured hot coffee on her hand and the customers keep yelling at her and she really doesnt get paid enough for this and then the fucking cashier from yesterday comes in and summ3r makes eye contact with her and she wants to cry and then the cashier comes up to the counter because thats what she does

and then her order is really complicated and long and bad like theres seven pumps of pumpkin spice in this and its tea but whatever summ3r doesnt have to drink it even though shes judging her immensely and then when summ3r asks for a name the cashier says lusīl and summ3r assumes its lucille so she writes that and lusīl pretty obviously has that disappointed look on her face of "my name was misspelled by a white girl inkling" and summ3r really wants to apologize but she cant and then when summ3r tells her to enjoy her drink lusīl says "you too" and she looks mortified and summ3r thinks its maybe much cuter than it should be and as lusīl sits down at a table to go drink her horrible pumpkin spice tea summ3r hears her swearing beneath her breath and anyways summ3r has a crush now and she doesnt like it because shes too poor to deal with one so when shes on break she cries when she smokes two cigarettes at once and she resolves to move to jellia where she can face hate crimes but also be stoned

so summ3r goes to makomart again after quietly asking her mom for money after a few weeks of radio silence which her mom does give her and summ3r should really call her mom more but most times shes just way too tired to do so that or her phones dead but regardless shes at makomart and she wants to self care a little as the chumblr kids do so she buys a box of macaroni and the noodles are shaped like fresh fish and summ3r knows they wont look like fresh fish when theyre cooked and the fun shape ones taste worse than the others but its okay because summ3r is quite frankly a little high right now (which is sarahs fault not hers) and shes not really thinking about things like "not being broke" and "the fact that shes singing the veggiefishtales theme song loudly in makomart" but anyways shes trying to go the self-checkout line but its way too long and the 8th checkout thing is so much shorter than that which summ3r thinks is fun and funky and cool and she really wants some fucking 'ronis right now and shes so excited for that and then lusīl is the cashier again and she says hi and summ3r immediately feels herself sober up in this weird way that cant be described beyond "what the fuck"

and so summ3r places her box of macaroni on the conveyor belt (which should have a better name, in her opinion) and lusīl laughs and says they really shouldnt be running into each other so often and summ3r laughs also and cries internally and apologizes externally and lusīl says she didnt mean it like that and shes sorry and then summ3r apologizes for misinterpreting it and then lusīl apologizes for not being clear enough and it goes back and forth a little bit and the line is really long now and summ3r still only bought 5 objects and it shouldnt have taken this long and summ3r leaves with a "bye! i like your face!" and lusīl blushes and calls "yeah, yours is nice too!" after her and summ3r decides that god is real and then goes home and wants a cigarette but she didnt buy any so now she just feels stupid and bad and gay

so summ3r works again because thats just what she does its like her whole life is just go to work, smoke 3 cigarettes at once, think about lusīl, get high, smoke a cigarette, lay face-down in the shower, smoke another cigarette, overcook some pasta, fall asleep, wake up, go to work, smoke 4 cigarettes at o

but lusīl comes in again and she gets the same drink and summ3r still doesnt know how to spell her name because she just doesnt so instead of lucille she spells it like loocille and lusīl laughs at it when she sees the cup and summ3r laughs also because lusīl is really cute and when she gives it to her summ3r tells her to "enjoy your drink, lucy" and summ3r is screaming internally and lusīl is blushing like a lot and so lusīl stammers back "YEAH YOU TOO" and she turns to walk out very rapid and walks face-first into the wall and now summ3r feels really bad because maybe lucy is a slur in octarian or something so she rushes over to help her and theres tea all over the ground and when she goes to wipe it up they both reach for the same napkin and their hands brush and then summ3r laughs and lusīl looks like she just had a life-changing experience and then they just kinda stay there for a bit and then summ3r realizes that theyre just standing there and theres tea all over the ground and they both apologize at the same time and summ3r gets filled with the scandalous desire to shove her tongue in lusīls mouth which is gross and lusīl is probably straight anyways

but once the tea is cleaned summ3r offers to make her another drink and lusīl chokes out "YEAH OKAY" and summ3r asks what shed like and lusīl orders 8 pumps of pumpkin spice with ketchup and summ3r quietly asks if shes sure and lusīl looks like shes pleading for death but she nods anyways so summ3r makes it nonetheless and lusīl looks really disappointed when she gets her drink but she thanks her anyways and when lusīl actually walks out of the building, the second the door closes summ3r hears her yell loudly in frustration

anyways later that day summ3r stops at a gas station to buy some cigarettes because she wants some and then she runs into lusīl there, not that she works there or something, she was kinda there, and so summ3r asks her if she liked her ketchumpkin spice latte which was a really bad joke but lusīl starts laughing uproarously once she realizes what summ3r said and yeah sex is cool but have you ever made a pretty girl laugh in a gas station and so riding off that high summ3r asks what shes doing here and lusīl quietly replies with "buying gas" which admittedly makes a lot of sense, maybe too much sense, and summ3r wonders if she could flush herself down the toilet

but then lusīl asks what summ3rs doing here and summ3r cant just say shes going to buy 3 packs of cigarettes becauses thats her coping mechanism of choice so she lies and says shes also getting gas and so lusīl offers to walk her to her car but summ3r walked here because its like right down the block from her apartment and now summ3r feels stupid so she says its okay and then offers to walk lusīl to her car and then it goes back and forth a lot and then they pause and kind of realize the stupidity of it all and start laughing again and lusīl mumbles "youre really cute" and summ3rs entire being short-circuits so she shifts into a squid and just lies there

and lusīl asks if shes okay and then summ3r doesnt know what to say so then lusīl shifts into octopus form and theyre just laying there, vibing, and then an employee finds them and quietly asks them to not do that and then they shift back and go seperate ways and summ3r doesnt buy anything and shes still having nicotine cravings and all she has is weed so she just smokes that and doesnt feel any better in the end

#long post #.txt #drug tw #smoking tw

[feraldavestrider]

i never check my mentions apparently @alpacalmond and @uiyutrentasei tagged me in a GTKM thing so im gonna do it oh uhhhh 2 weeks later LOL because i cant sleep and i hate myself

i tag @hal-strider if they didnt do it? and @noctiilucent, @kiyumiarashi, @whimsicmimic and @ataliaf uwu and anyone else who wants to do it!!

how tall are you: this is a cryptid question. i get a different result every time i try to measure myself and ive never asked anyone else to do it for me. some people tell me im very short, others have told me im average height for someone who is afab. im gonna hazard a guess at 5′5 tho.

what colour are your eyes: very dark brown

do you wear contacts and/or glasses: glasses. i literally CANNOT see without them. i mean like 2 inches from my glasses-less face is so blurry its unbelievable. i get super triggered by eye stuff tho so contacts are a no go ALSO i look weird w/o glasses anyway.

do you wear braces: no my teeth r p good actually. one is a bit wonky but thats life

what is your fashion style: i mean 90% panties and a sweaty 4 day tshirt because i just spend all day in my room like a goblin. BUT when i actually go out im ur basic ass post-emo trans dude with skinny jeans, converse and a too-big graphic tee. sometimes i spice it up with a plaid shirt because im fuckin GAY.

when were you born: october 12th 1999, babey

how old are you: 18 motherfucker flashes my titties and gulps a bottle of vodka im an ADULT

do you have any siblings: yes. a younger brother and hes a cunt

what school/college do you go to: im at sixth form rn (last yr of highschool technically if ur american but im not and hs finishes at 16 yrs old here deal with it). im going uni next yr tho and this years almost over for me academically since we go on study leave soon for our final exams. uwu overshares

what kind of student are you: the asshole who never studies for tests and does homework at 5am the morning before and still manages to pull straight As to everyones anger. im also the adhd class clown who makes random noises and cant concentrate half the time. ik i hate myself too im so annoying irl even more so than online.

what are your favorite subjects: in terms of actual content of the subject, english lit fs. in terms of classmates/teachers/general atmosphere DEFFO drama we spend half of our time eating cake, singing random shit and just losing our minds while filming it on snapchat which shouldnt at all be allowed.

what are your favorite movies: god idek. um. fuck. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i cant think of a single movie. ok ok ok i got it: white chicks, premium rush, scott pilgrim vs the world, the cornetto triology too i just love edgar hes such a great director. i like a lot of the marvel movies esp the spiderman hc and thor ragnorok and both gotg were p good. i love a lot of movies my brains just a void that sucks memories up into its fat gob and steals them from me forever.

what are your pastimes: sleeping, crying, used to be rping but i gave up on that, playing overwatch way too much and getting tilted because im shit, reading fanfictions did i say sleeping

do you have many regrets: dude. my guy. come in close. let me whisper in ur ear. are you close? no, closer. ok. 

YES

what is your dream job: whoo boy. im do indecisive and i think a LOT of jobs seem super cool that id never do i.e. be an actor or be in a band. my dream job since i was like 8 was to be a writer which is unlikely since i cant even finish a pwp oneshot. but thatd be cool. id also like to write plays and direct them but thats also wild and v dream > reality. 

would you like to get married: honestly. marriage as an institution? angers me. i dont like a lot of things about it. BUT. part of the reason i hate it is honestly if ur in a long long term relationship with someone ur better off married than not in terms of the benefits so. id happily get married if the other person wanted and/or we felt like it was the right thing to do, i just dont really care about being married or having a wedding tbh.

do you want kids? how many if so: no. hard pass. i might adopt if im long-term with someone who SUPER wants kids but that likely wont happen because i dont want to get into a long-term relationship with someone so desperate for kids since i dont have that same enthusiasm. sorry. ill be ur uncle gabe but im not having my own children im just not well equipped to literally have a full time job of making sure little idiots (meant affectionately) who dont know fuck from shit dont just straight up die. i can barely do that for myself.

how many countries have you visited: shit dude actually ive only visited like... uh... 4??? a lot of my holidays tend to be to the same countries (portugal/america) so i dont have that much experience like i feel like i do.

what was your scariest dream: hmmmm. when i was a kid i had these recurring dreams where i worked at this like. “zoo” where these MASSIVE, i mean ABSOLUTELY MASSIVE string rays that were also pancakes were like. hooked up to make electricity? anyway i hated the job because we all abused the rays super bad to make them generate the power and it sucked and it was all dystopian. there was stuff where like we had to kill the baby rays and stuff. anyway one day it went all planet of the apes and they broke out somehow and could fly and they killed loads of people and i had to go into hiding because they were super clever and could id who had worked at the zoo plant and wanted revenge. its super weird ik but this is pretty tame for my dreams they go HARD and BIZARRE and this one always made me wake up feeling super sick and scared idk. ur welcome.

do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other: no im lonely but its ok because i need to work on me 

put your playlist on shuffle and without skipping the first 15 songs: ok so i dont really have a “playlist” per se so im just gonna use my top 100 2017 songs on spotify which ignores a lot of my non-spotify non-2017 bangers but whatever.

1) ‘My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark’ by FOB

2) ‘Tuxford Fall’ - Vasudeva

3) ‘Our Lawyer Made Us Change The Name Of This Song So We Wouldn’t Get Sued’ - FOB

4) ‘Fried Noodles: Getter Remix’ - Pink Guy, Getter (listen ive never watched any filthy frank he weirds me out but this is a banger)

5) ‘Brick By Boring Brick’ - Paramore

6) ‘Thnks Fr Th Mmrs’ - FOB (i really dont listen to this much fob this is crazy)

7) ‘Death Note L’s Theme Goes Metal’ - Charlie Parra del Riego (theres no defence for this)

8) ‘Turnstile’ - Vasudeva

9) ‘Idle Worship’ - Paramore

10) ‘Monster’ - Paramore

11) ‘Miss Missing You’ - FOB

12) ‘The City’ - Madeon

13) ‘Far Too Young To Die’ - P!ATD

14) ‘Don’t Stop’ - Nothing More (really this is the band i listen to much smh these results are so skewed)

15) ‘Smile Like You Mean It’ - The Killers

#the void it speaks #lad tag #about me #i guess? #fhjdskshdsjg #this is stupid i h8 myself but also i love oversharing bye

[4clc]

day6 as a swim team aka free!au

aka the start of my free!ly collection

sungin:

swim team captain of course

3rd year

in charge of grilling the hot dogs

breaststroke!!

smol man but he finishes 100 fast

always fckin eating bananas

hates protein bars with a burning passion

“THERE’S SO MUCH EXTRA UNHEALTHY STUFF”

hangs all his medals on his bedroom wall

next to pictures of this team :’D

<3 loves his team so much <3

googles team bonding exercises

spent 33 hours in total reading wikihow articles and guides

has been pushing a team camping trip ever since he was a 1st year

“but what if someone mistakes you for a bear” - wonpil

The Driver™

car permanently smells like chlorine and old spice

was pulled aside and asked to be in an old spice commercial after a swim meet once

NO COLORED BEVERAGES IN THE CAR!!!

lifeguard in the summer with the bro brian

pulls out his guitar at the end of season bonfire

has a loooooong ass speech prepared

ends it with “i just love you guys ok”

cries but says he didn’t

jae:

swims FREE and buttah fly

2nd year

his credits got messed up when he transferred from the u.s.

looks like a twig but don’t be fooled

this string bean will be outta the water before you even finish

very very good at long distance

the L O N G really helps him

used to do hurdles in track but decided to try smth else

he met brian at a party where he spouted some philosophical bs

and jae thought it was hot

BOOM! swim team

hogs the aux cord

plays strictly nicki minaj and coldplay on meet days

always on snapchat

u see that 600 second story?

dont bother it’s just closeups of wonpil

and sleeping brian

gets yelled at by sungjin bc he even does it in the locker rooms

“accidentally” pushes kids into pools (see: wonpil)

looooooveeess teasing wonpil

but dont even u DARE even THINK anything mean abt wonpil or else jae will fight u

in fact he nearly fought some 3rd years who made fun of wonpil’s speedo

“YEAH WELL HE’S GONNA BEAT U WEARING THAT” “hyung stop”

known for his huge ass sunglasses

“DAMN DANIEL” but at dowoon in sandals

a big dowoon fan, especially of the cat pictures he sends

but not the links to horror stories at 2am

brian:

medley king

3rd year

The Hot Swimmer™

a marketing ploy to gain more swim team members (see: jae)

hates backstroke because it feels like he could sleep but he CANT

acts like he knows u

will smile at you before and after he obliterates you

even if someone didnt come in first place young k congratulates them and shakes their hand

everyone has a crush on him

even the swimmers from other schools

likes to sling his arm around sungjin in group pics

sungjin’s lifeguard buddy

LOTS of food dates with dowoon

but they have to be sneaky bc sungjin puts them on a strict diet

dj young k, second in command to the aux cord

the first to go into the pool during morning practices

not bc he wants to

but bc his soul has already left his body

thank you cram school and swim practice

in other words this boy doesnt sleep

always forgets his own soap and shampoo

“hyung can i borrow some-” “get ur own hamster boy”

also forgot his clothes at a meet once

thank god he was saved by wonpil

but not rlly bc “WHY THE HELL DO YOU OWN THIS PINK SWEATER”

wonpil:

pink speedo

1st year

just wants brian to be thankful for his pink sweater

stopped straightening his hair bc it gets ruined at practice anyway

and he always complains but everyone LOVES it

he looks so good ok honey please bless us with ur curls again

distance swimmer

used to be intimidated by sungjin bc he’s v good at breaststroke

but it disappeared when sungjin helped him out of the pool after he got last place at his first meet

cried tears of joy (also sungjin hugged him for the first time)

really looks up to sungjin

was shocked when he beat sungjin 200 fly

but sungjin congratulates him and hypes him up

and wonpil cries again

thinks brian’s butt looks nice

he compliments it a lot

once jae recorded him singing in the shower and it went viral

because his voice is beautiful

but also bc he slipped and fell when he saw the camera

always seems to be falling when jae is around

got pushed into the pool bc he asked jae what he got on the math test

gets the aux cord when theyre going home and everyone’s asleep

sungjin gets annoyed because he’s always changing songs

*turns the radio off*

gives his teammates chocolates on valentine’s day w the help of dowoon

bffs with dowoon

wonpil was scared to try out on his own so dowoon tried out as well

BEST. DECISION. EVER.

held dowoon’s hand while the coach was talking bc he was so so scared

both ended up making it on the team

dowoon:

“i only swim free”

1st year

always makes references to anime

and spongebob

bought his swim shorts bc they look like haruka’s

tried grilling mackerel with only an apron + swim shorts

wonpil walked in on him

“....”

wrote pick up lines on cards to go with wonpil’s chocolates

“are you tired? bc you’ve been swimming thru my mind all day”

uses earphones to listen to his own music in the car bc jae sucks

“why can’t you appreciate jazz?????” “are u gonna slam nicki??”

always brings the largest bag to meets

bc its filled with manhwas

steals everyone’s parkas to spread out on the grass so he can lie down and read

quiet and shy but always trying his best

jae and young k stole his clothes while he was in the shower once

it was “initiation”

but dowoon started crying for help and mama bear came

and jaehyungparkian fckin BOLTED

his team attacks him with kisses when he gets his first bronze

they carry him to the car when he gets gold

cries when the seniors graduate

cries at the last meet of every season before they go home

and his teammates smush him in a group hug

always the first to fall asleep on the ride home

also ik their ages dont match their years but shhhhhh

#day6 #sungjin #jae #youngk #wonpil #dowoon #park sungjin #park jaehyung #brian kang #kang younghyun #kim wonpil #yoon dowoon #i made all these pics on snapchat dont judge me #yes i did this instead of finishing reqs and writing my fics #day6: free!au