#i think thats everything i could find..

[cemetery-baccanal]

the butler, ponified.

#seb@ciel freaks DNI #pov youre the undertaker realizing fake ciel is more like his father and grandmother than the real ciel could ever be #and you find yourself doubting everything #at least thats what the plot of the dream this was based off of was abt #been working on this on and off since the dream in november? i think #jackal speaks #kuroshitsuji #black butler #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive

[ciderjacks]

hey if u guys r sad about ofmd and want another show with gay people to watch you should consider watching Deadloch. It’s really good it’s really really good uh it might get a second season if the creators decide to do that.

if you watch good omens you’ll be able to watch Deadloch they’re on the same service. Uhhhh One of the actors from ofmd is there shes one half of the main duo (the other half is played by Kate Box who’s an amazing actor and Dulcie is now one of my fav characters ever) gets to wear an open Hawaiian shirt for like 3 of the 8 episodes which is a bonus. It’s extremely gay and it’s fun and beautifully written and no queer characters die and it’s satisfying and funny and Please watch it I’m begging you please watch itPLEASE

#ofmd #deadloch #PLEASEEEEEE please Im begging Im on my hands and my knees PLEASE WATCH THIS SHOW #It’s not shy about being gay it practically opens with gay sex ok please pleaseee watch it #It’s got so many amazing characters every character is so well written it’s a detective satire that ends on a pretty openly anti cop note #The main characters work so well together and the actors have such good chemistry and the storytelling is so good and well done #Literally my only my singular criticism of the entire show is that I think the lighting in some scenes could be brighter so you can #Actually tell what’s going on bc it’s sort of hard to at certain points #THATS MY ONLY CRITICISM AT ALL ITS THAT GOOD #Ive watched it 10 times now I’m still finding new stuff and connecting things it hasn’t gotten old yet #It’s seriously like unironically a masterpiece of a show. I would like it just as much if everything else was the same but the characters #Were straight #Though given how much of it is tied to gay and specifically lesbian culture it would be sort of hard to do that LOL #but still. like hypothetically. If it was straight I would not like it any less I would still be just as crazy about it

[dasloddl]

glueing together pages of my friendship book... or as I like to call it... spiritual cleansing <3

#healing journey is going well #I wouldn't have believed me 4 months ago that I would be okay #I wished the pain would go away really quickly and was sad that it didnt #but in the end... like 4-6ish months and everything is fine (for the most part) #sure. theres a thought here and there but it has no emotion attached to it at all... #I mean that is rather quick healing I would suppose #4-6 months does sound long but it's not THAT long when you think about it #anywho... next is deleting pictures... which is harder cause I'll have to look at them to delete them #and like... I dont wanna do that #oh... and then deleting “the evidence” aka the whole chat i've saved #(idk for some reason my brain thought it needed evidence to show that someone could like-like me) #and I still find it hard to finally do it (thats why I won't do it now but some time later... point is that I have to do it) #oh well #I can start small and just delete the WhatsApp chat... will do that now #yeah. that sounds like a plan... deleting the chat and doing the pictures/other chat later #op dasloddl

[uniquezombiedestiny]

must be nice, being free for once

#character here is asuka from branch-wdk53 #art #zoom in for some details :3 especially the lineart and with her face #i had to retroactively add the little chess pieces bc i drew her hands and was like. ok. what the fuck is she doing #so something here about being able to control others persnaps... with the red shoes' power and all #also liking her updated hair :3 specifically with this ego it makes me think of her like not maintaining it totally #or letting it grow out since she wouldnt care about how shes perceived - like a red shoes possessed agent wouldnt #this is more corroded-y than just her with the ego but yknow. the themes etc #i could see it happening to her considering how often she gets fucked over by the world #wanting to take agency and just do whatever she likes for a time #the perspective here was all just fuck it we ball i literally used 0 references for this. sometimes i just Do That i guess lol #also! the lineart colors come from some just like. making it all a little bluer type stuff #but i also inverted the whole color layer and put it on top and was like. oh thats awesome #since i just selected everything outside of the lineart for the base coloring layer #it also went into the lineart and made some cool stuff with the parts that were or werent colored behind the lines #i will always find a way to have 20 tags on every piece of art i make o7

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[pensymbols]

if u believe that jason grace is lame gtfo this is NOT safe space for you

#everytime someone claims hes a boring character and a blank canvas i losd up a gun and #like jason ISNT a boring character hes actually incredibly interesting #but rick riordian fucking hates his guts and refuses to give him anythin #like genuinely #like first of all jason getting his memory wiped but hes never able to regain them??? #so despite people knowing WHO he was and him having the general feeling of knowing who he is he genuienly cannot remember shit #and those memory problems persist all the way up throughout toa #second of all his general past?? #like the grace siblings had such good backstories in the sense they were intriguing and actually defined everything and every choice they #-make #like jason who was proclaimed as heras/junos since he was born stolen from thalia who was raising him and she cant wver find him again and #-so she assumes shes dead and being reluctant to take in annabeth whos supposed to be around her baby brothers age #that shits peak #and then theres jason who was raised by wolves and then eventually found his way to new rome where he was only ever seen as jupiters son or #junos champion and he was only ever going to be the praetor and no one there truly saw jason for who he is #like thats PEAK #AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE JASON VS PERCY THING BCS A) I THINK ITS DUMB AND B) ITS STUPID #also rick DOES hate jason grace bcz they killed his character long before toa when thwy tried to make jason more like zeus so the rivalry- #-could make more sense #pjo #percy jackson and the heroes of olympus #jason grace #percy jackon and the olympians #heros of olympus #trials of apollo

[evenings-at-the-seaofquanta]

Having a moment rn

Also on a more general note:

#honkai impact 3rd #hi3 aponia #hi3 kalpas #hi3 vill v #hi3 flamechasers #meme #thinking about the flame chasers makes me want to bite things but these 3 in particular... #aponia is an incredibly interesting and complex character morality/ethics-wise + i love her role in the elysium everlasting arc #both in the er ch3 with the ''predetermined fate vs free will'' thing and in the story part being the ''human controller'' of the realm #(shes also my best built character and long-time main but thats not what im talking about) #kalpas. at first you think hes only ''the angry destructive one'' but then you find out more about him and his interpersonal relationships #and it just hits you how much he cares. him dying to prove his best friends innocence. his last convo w/ aponia. everything abt him + emile #oughhhh #AND VILLV!! At first i didnt pay her much attention but her arc in ch30 + getting to see her inner workings (literally and figuratively) #changed that completely. original vill-v my beloved #i could also go on and on about them and many other fcs (kosma griseo pardo etc etc) but ill stop now. enjoy the memes #from the sea of queue-anta #<- look i have a funny queue tag now

[dizzybizz]

a wuhwuh that took way too long bc i decided to try krita and i was so lost the entire time

#i feel like i spent more time trying to find my way around than actually drawing and thats probably correct. #couldnt be arsed to fully render this one RIP #trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun fanart #my art #me throughout the entire process: wuh??? wuh.......?? WUH??!???????? #krita is so confusing...... why is it like that.... didnt help that i switched language in the middle of it bc english was different than #what im used to for art programs but then everything was different and i could barely locate the blending modes i wanted and #it was a whole mess #i like some of the brushes a lot tho #i feel so exhausted after that #i could sleep for 24h #im like sluggishly working my way through the manga atm #started it AND the 98 series AND stampede on the same day bc apparently i hate myself like that #i havent been keeping up with stampede since?? ep9??? i think???

[mymp3]

Aigis and Minato are like escalators.

A non-human becoming a person, a person becoming something all but. One's starting their journey at the bottom, and the other at the top. At the end of everything, Aigis is on ground level, with SEES as her newfound friends in the same boat, with the same mindset. Minato meanwhile, starts at the bottom, with everyone, all of the people, and slowly leaves until nobody can reach him anymore.

Their journey's intersect but they're not headed to the same place.

They briefly touched, but in the end, they were just at the wrong place at the wrong time.

#compendiumnotebook #ive been thinking about this for a while #i hope this makes sense #but Aigis who needs a person #Aigis who is a person at the end of everything #she loves life and humanity so much and she's ready to live #Minato never got to live a life he wanted but he loved everything and everyone and he's ready to go #I firmly believe that Minato's his happiest when he's dead at the end of the game #not that he's not scared #because of course he is. he's deeply scared. just also deeply depressed. #Minato sees himself as a monster. He loves humanity but they could never love him #Thats why at the end he gets to fight for something he wants to #he gets a choice #He was always going to die but he could actually choice for the first time in the entire game and that choice was provided by the monster- #-who lives and shares his soul #also if you think that him growing up like that means he's a fully adjusted person with absolutely no trauma im not sure what to tell you #that boy has complexes for days. #anyways #minato getting to become the thing he always thought he was and finds comfort in (a giant fucking Eldritch door with NINE WORKING EYES) #while being with the one thing he feels that understands him how he is (Ryoji) at the end of the game is such a happy ending for that boy #even if you say it out loud its quite possibly the saddest thing youve ever heard #but thats Minato's life baby! #persona 3 #minato arisato #aigis persona 3

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

babygirl

#feels like such a 13 thesis statement #'more than anything' #feels like i could open any episode any scene right now and find that sentiment #more than anything but she wont say that #what if she said it though #what if she said everything #what if she (and yaz) werent defined by restraint #what if she swung the other way #equally earnest but overdesperate #scrambling #seeing abandonment looming Everywhere #not coldly disdainful but hopeless in confrontations with evil #not having to be begged by the only person she'd indulge in that way to be asked why he did this #asking anyone anywhere all the time. why would you DO this #why do you do this #hdfkghjgk once again starting a 'what if' an dthen realising actually thats not a what if tahts just there i think hfgkjghjgh #but still #what if she were just such a wet cat poor little meow meow #consistency of goop

[bylertruther]

the crazy thing abt will and mike is that we mostly learn will is gay because other people tell us he is, but we learn that mike is gay (despite him telling us he's not, begging us to pls see tht he's not gay) because literally everything that he does is so fucking gay. because in him trying to not be gay he is just being so unbelievably extra fucking gay without realizing. like. el is literally his red herring idc i'll say it stone me if u must but the truth must be said !!!!

#why is he always so crazy to save and protect will and even just to figure out if he's okay #but if el is missing he's like damn... tht sucks... but stays his ass at home. calls on his radio but thts it. #he doesn't Go Insane and put himself n everyone he loves in danger jus to find her. he knows she's out there. he SAW her. and yet!! #and when he fucks up with her he needs someone (lucas and will) to hold his hand n guide him through it (which NEVER fucking works #bc they don't know her how mike SHOULD know her as her bf but i digress) but when he fucks up with will HE LITERALLY DOES EXACTLY WHAT #OTHER CHARACTERS ARE TELLING HIM HE NEEDS TO DO FOR EL (LUCAS) OR EXACTLY WHAT OTHER CHARACTERS ARE TELLING EL THAT HE'LL DO FOR HER (MAX) #EL IS LITERALLY CRYING BEGGING PLEADING SAYING YOU DON'T EVEN LOVE ME WHY CAN'T YOU SAY IT YOU THINK I'M A MONSTER #AND HE'S LIKE 😰🤐😶🫥 BUT WILL CONFESSES UNDER HER NAME AND THEN /PROMPTS HIM/ TO SAY WHATEVER HE NEEDED TO SAY #AND SUDDENLY /THATS/ WHEN HE CAN SAY I LOVE YOU?!!? FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME????? #AND THEN AFTERWARD WHEN THEY'RE NOT TALKING HE JUST BRUSHES IT OFF???????????? #YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT'S NOT A GAY MAN? YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT'S NOT A HOMOSEXUAL? #meanwhile will has always just been will. the Biggest hint we got was s4 him moving his foot away. but other than that it was always subtle #ppl calling him slurs. bc everything else they PURPOSELY made it so tht it could be either he's just Not There Yet or Could Be gay #but mike is just so. he's fucking gay bro how else can i say it like 😭 #mine #mike

[scattered-winter]

anyone else up feeling utterly overwhelmed or nah

#not to overshare on the internet but. #idk there's just So Much to untangle and So Many mental habits to break and it feels impossible. how can i undo 20 years of this. #like yeah ive already made some progress just in the last few years but thats just the very tip of the proverbial iceberg!!!! #every single day i find something else buried deep that i have to try and root out!!!!!!!!!!! literally every day!!!!!!!!!!! #im just. hrghhgh #i dont want to be fighting this for the rest of my life man. im so tired. #i think. the worst thing about this is. it feels like they still have a hold on me. #which is genuinely the most bone-chilling horrifying thought i have ever had. #i DONT regret leaving but man. if i fall back in. because everything familiar is there. i dont think i could rip myself away again. #because leaving the first time was hard enough. i don't think im strong enough to do it again. #genuinely terrifying. i hate living like this #getting the fuck out of this state canNOT happen soon enough. i swear to god #winter speaks #personal #<- sorry its very late at night <///3 im getting introspective and feeling frustrated

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard* #I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. ) #the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol) #hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie* #Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

[field-guide-to-mud]

🤍🩶🖤

#mudposting #junk journal #scrapbooking #pressed flowers #white #grey #gray #black #wax seal #collage #craft #anyways i made these agessss ago #the black one is my favourite #its really fun finding the balance between black and white for keeping it looking still like a black page #but keeping everything distinct #it prolly could have more black on it but thats okay #i think im gonna save the pride collection for next year cuz i wanna redo one of the pages #and this month is passing by so fast #ill start drafting em tho so theyre ready #or maybe flat out schedule em idk #either way! #those exist and will arrive someday lol #if you read all my rambles i am giving you warm bread with butter

[puppyeared]

footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia

#this isn’t about anything in particular btw. I just have to add a lot of memos when I’m doing things because some things are done a certain #way and it isn’t explained well in the instructions. like my mom has instructions on her baking recipes right #but when it says stuff like add dry ingredients to wet ingredients it also means you don’t dump it in one go you add it slowly by portion #this is probably why I find videos and demonstrations the most helpful when I learn something. like I almost always ask someone to show me #how they do it because there could be something they do that’s already second nature and wouldn’t really be considered in an explanation yk #I don’t think I’m an exception either. when the rice is done cooking I divide it into 4 quarters to bless it #but there are a million ways to divide rice and it makes me think that one persons way of doing it or not doing it all is just as valid #theres also technically no wrong way to divide rice afaik. this means either all ways of dividing rice is safe or valid until we find some #universally terrible way of dividing rice. until that happens nobody really thinks about specifying HOW you divide the rice #source: I have anxiety starting and doing things for the first time because I got way too many people yell at me NONONO WHAT ARE YOU DOING #THATS WRONG while I’m in the middle of doing the thing. I would rather have people think I’m either very stupid or overly specific #than go thru the panic inducing fear of ‘YOURE DOING THIS WRONG OMG WHY DIDNT YOU ASK AHEAD OF TIME THIS WILL BE FUCKED UP FOREVER’ 🧍 #nothing wrong if you don’t give something a second thought because you’re so used to it. but I can and will ask about it and I don’t think I #really should feel bad about it if I don’t know enough to dispute it. idk #the other way around I try to be as specific as possible and word things in a way that people who might not get where I’m coming from will #understand. but the problem with that is my explanations tend to be lengthy and I lose them either way 🗿 #Im. trying to work on that using examples and stuff because they seem to work the best #but if I could write everything down on a word doc and beam it into your melon that would save both of us time and embarassment #im rambling the short version is I have adhd #yapping

[mihai-florescu]

I want to sit down every employed neurodivergent person in the world and ask them Ok what do you do as a job. And are you not overwhelmed or burnt out or hating it? Share with the class

#man. all my friends either cant find jobs in their fields of interest so theyre doing other part time stuff Or theyre still in school #im both #well ok no i was Hoping i could work in this field and maybe i can if i liked my coworkers more #if i wasnt dreading just thinking about having to see them #whateverrr #i just need to pass the year #thats all #i need to take out all the suibaiting from the school report before i submit it and pretend that everything was ok