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the-s1lly-corner · 6 months

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hi this is the same person who send you that ena ask and i just want to say that i really liked it

do you think you can do the rest of the characters if so thank you very much

The rest of the cast x ENA! type reader!

im so glad you liked it!! i was kind of worried that it wouldnt be that good since i had. no idea what i was doing since ena is such a funky character but!! heres to hoping my writing is a little better in this post; i will cry if im having an off day

caine, pomni, jax, and ragatha's part!

KINGER:

im actually writing these in reverse order, but im gonna borrow from zooble and say that he might be put off by your overwhelming cheer. its not so much that he finds it weird, its more so that he gets a little confused how you respond positively even if the other party is being rude, but at the same time gets thrown off on how drastic the shift can be when you do eventually get upset about something

i like to think sometimes he uses big words to try to seem fancy so he can relate to you there in some way, you guys probably had a mundane conversation that sounded more than it was because you two kept using really intricate words

ZOOBLE:

a little put off by how cheery you can be when you're in one of your happier moods, but who are they to shoot down someone else's whimsy and joy? actually sometimes you even rub off on them

tries to console you when you swap over to your blue side but like, in a "everybody can go eat shit they shouldnt matter to you" kind of way, up to you if you think that would help or not

not much to be said here me thinks

GANGLE:

writing her part first but bro shes basically just like you

like i think when her comedy mask isnt broken shes more cheery and just a touch more confident in herself, but the second its broken all that falls away and shes more... well we've seen the pilot

but your thing is a more extreme case

when the two of you are both in high spirits you kind of bounce and build off of one another! when you two are both upset things can get.. gangle does offer comfort, though! shes not the best at it but she offers a,,, shoulder.. to lean on

#tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus x reader #digital circus #kinger x reader #zooble x reader #gangle x reader

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simcardiac-arrested · 5 months

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Whats wrong with predator 2018?

it’s been like 10 days i’m tired but i CANNOT stay silent anymore The world deserves to know. you will not believe how awful this movie is

1. the moment the movie starts you just understand that it…is not going to be good. it was made in 2018 so of course it has that edgy self aware marvel humor of Uhmm he’s right behind me isn’t he ? (and then you check shane black’s other works and he directed iron man 3 and everything suddenly make sense) LIKE IM SERIOUS there’s just a scene in the first 10 minutes where this Woman In Stem character goes Lol why did we name this thing The Predator? it’s more like a Hunter or a Huntsman it’s more like a Bass Fisherman LIKE WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? WHAT AM I HEARING RN? it’s so fucking stupid and i hate this type of humor so much like CAN U BELIEVE WE’RE IN A MOVIE? ABOUT THE PREDATOR (DUMBASS NAME (LOL))????

2. i mention the Woman In Stem character specifically because she is. also not good. i’m not going to act like the predator movies have always been the best with female characters (even 1987 has its issues) but at least they were actually BEARABLE. The girl character in this movie is just like. this annoying 2010s smartass quirky girl archetype that we put in our movie because you wanted Women(tm) right? there she is we even made her quirky!!! we’re not going to give her a single likable quality though. we’re going to write her Bad . is this what u wanted ?

3. which is not trying to imply that the other characters are written Good . they’re all written Bad they all fucking suck. none of them have any charm or likable qualities and there’s nothing to get invested in. AND THEY DON’T HAVE ANY FUCKING DYNAMICS BETWEEN EACHOTHER!!!! it’s like they just exist in the same space and that’s It . they don’t get any interesting relationships or interactions . they’re all just so nothing

4. like halfway through the movie it just turns into unapologetic US army propaganda—which is fucking ironic if you know what the original predator was made for (commentary about american terrorism in central america in the 80s under reagan)—the main character’s wife just starts suddenly going off about how he’s so cool and doing so much for his country and he’s in the army waowww wowww We need to shoot everyone who’s worked on this movie and im serious.

5. i…..do not know who this movie was made for. like who is it supposed to cater to? one of its main things is autism and mental illness and yet it has the shittiest portrayal of both. But especially autism. like what if we made a movie about how autism is the next step in human evolution (?!) and autistic people are like superheroes basically (?!?!!!?) and the entire plot hinges on the fact that The Predator wants to become autistic by stealing the autistic character’s autism dna (?!?!?!?!?!?!?? WHAT? WHY ARE THERE EUGENICS IN MY PREDATOR MOVIE? IS ANYONE ELSE SEEING THIS?) (and then the autistic character in question like. actually has unironic superpowers. look he gets overwhelmed by sounds but he can instantly understand and translate predator’s alien language!!!!!!!!) And then the next minute one of the characters says Lol isn’t it crazy how we can’t say the r slur anymore? Fucked up world. LIKE SERIOUSLY WHO IS THIS MOVIE FOR? I FEEL LIKE THIS MOVIE WOULD PISS OFF BOTH THE “WOKE” AND THE “EDGY ALT RIGHT” AUDIENCES EQUALLY . shane black probably thinks autism speaks is a charity i dont even know

6. too much predator in this movie. When i say that they should make a predator movie where every scene has the predator in it YOU SHOULDNT FUCKING LISTEN TO ME IM JUST AUTISTIC. a predator movie is a THRILLER The Fucking Predator himself should appear like. a few times at least until the climax. but nooo this 2018 ass movie just has the predator running around in every scene (btw this predator moves really fucking weird in a human way. Like they usually at least make him move semi alien-like and uncannily, but this movie didnt even bother with that) (also their design is uglier than the original) (also it suffers from the same problem as the 2010 movie by adding a Bigger Cooler Buffer Awesomer Deadlier New Predator LIKE WHO ASKED FOR THIS. WAS MY OG WIFE NOT ENOUGH FOR U) Anyway yeah if you didnt get it yet: this movie doesnt understand what impact or subtlety is. at all

7. the worst thing is with the finale. you see every predator sequel loves to reference the original 1987 movie because well, it’s iconic! it has a lot of meaningful moments and lines! Specifically in the ending of the original movie, where the main character asks the predator “what the hell are you?” and the predator echoes it back at him. Supposed to symbolize us army = monsters who kill without meaning yadda yadda u get it. anyway so in the 2018 movie finale they start to reference this moment too. the main character asks And what the fuck are you (ooo f bomb we’re SOOOO edgy and 2018core) and when the predator starts asking it back the main character just goes SHUT THE FUCK UP😂 and shoots him. it’s like. my hatred for this movie was indescribable at that moment. I’ve never actually genuinely watched a marvel movie so i just took people at their word when they said it was a genre of movie that fucking hated movies. but after watching the predator (2018) which is basically a marvel version of predator? yeah i get it. What if they made a movie that hated its source material and had 0 respect for it. and also hated its audience. and hated being a movie

8. they made the dogs ugly

#the one on the left is from the 2010 movie and on the right is from the 2018 #AND LISTEN. THE 2010 MOVIE WAS ALSO BAD. IT SUCKED. BUT AT LEAST THE DOG DESIGN WAS FINE #then in the 2018 movie they were like Waht if we just put a predator face on a dog (????)#god i fucking hate this movie so much i actually cant #everyday i wake up and think about how it has ruined my life in every way possible #i need to watch prey. Badly #cramswering

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haley770 · 2 months

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glue me by los campesinos! is my favorite song(by my favorite band) ever and it is so so wilmon. literally everything about this song is perfect and beautiful. the lyrics represent wilmon and young royals so much. so lets go through it, shall we?

just a little note: almost nothing about this is in any order of the show(it is in order of the lyrics), basically just what scenes/things i am reminded of by some of the lyrics because so much of it lines up with this amazing show [:

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/this song begins with such an amazing line, "the clouds salivating, drooling from the sky at the thought of the trouble to wreck" it is raining. water is such a big component as a metaphor in this show to represent everyones feelings. (thank you @tvmicroscope i love your analysis') its also just such a beautiful way to describe the rain as well, the clouds salivating, oh my god (!!! WTFF thats AMAZING I LOVE IT). and then it continues, "and its high tide, as the sewers rise and the drains have become obsolete" it is flooding. both of these just make me think of how it was raining on wilhelm in the soccer/football field scene. when he was soo fucking high and confused and overwhelmed, his brain was being flooded by so many feelings and emotions. probably conflicting each other. wilhelms entire life as he knew it is falling apart, he lost his brother, his best and only friend. he blames himself. he feels guilty. he is burdened with the title of the crown prince, which is the last thing that wilhelm wants. and most importantly(to him at least) he had to reject the love of his life because the crown prince cannot be gay like that. he felt like he was drowning in all of these emotions. he couldnt handle it, "i cant do this anymore", earlier in this same episode when he yet again rejected simon. but still, he goes on and makes the most amazing(and somewhat embarassing) love confession to simon because that is what he really feels. it is the only thing he can take a chance with for him to feel anything nice. and real. (ily tvmicroscope your analysis' are so beautiful)

/and now simon turns up, "seems theres no place in this town, for something as pure as you seem" wilhelm definitely thought this when simon actually came to rescue him in the middle of the night all like "you came, oh my god you came, im so glad youre here, youre so beautiful" wilhelm was definitely shocked simon actually came, especially after all the back and forth wilhelm put him through. it just further proves how amazing(pure) simon is(for this world/town).

/another heartbreaking one "water to my waist in a shark-infested bin" again reminds me of the football field scene when it was raining. wilhelm is so overwhelmed with everything. the water. he just wants to talk to somebody, but he is surrounded by fake friends who want to use him, people who dont give a shit about him as a person. the sharks. he doesnt have anybody to turn to. so he takes the chance of calling simon.

/this time, i hear simon. "and i heard, that it hurts" it literally echoes simon's "love shouldnt be this difficult" from the season 3 trailer. or maybe even in season 1 where wilhelm completely betrays simons trust and then doesnt understand what he did wrong. its just so heartbreaking for both of them ): especially because simon still loves wilhelm but hes also angry at him. at first, wilhelm didnt want simon to be mad at him because of the drugs, and he wasnt. but now he lied, and their relationship has since changed, and simon is mad at him, rightfully so.

/this one is more direct, "two wrists, two wrist watches. tick-tick-tocking second hands slightly out of time" how many times have watches been brought up or specifically highlighted in just seasons 1 and 2? SO MANY TIMES. (haha get it) we even saw some watches in the season 3 trailer! even boris! "ive had this watch for 40 years and it still works" 40 years is honestly crazy though, what the hell. let me see that watch.

/yet another heartbreaking one, "i requested a room with a view, in the middle of a war between me and you" is literally wilhelm looking at the beautiful lake in season 2 crying because he has completely lost hope for simon and he felt soso alone )): thankfully(...)felice came to rescue him, replacing simon from season 1. parallels am i right?(we did NOT need another kiss between felice and wilhelm. one was enough. or apparently it wasnt i guess)

/and, excuse me, OH MY GODD, i can HEAR wilhelm telling simon: "ill be gloomy til they glue me in the arms of [he] who loves me, til the rats and worms are all interned at least five feet above we" he will not give up on simon until he is sure there is no hope left(which we saw in season 2 until the valentines day ball kiss, also in the previous paragraph). another scene that fits is how wilhelm asked simon to hold him ): and finally, just wille being silly (the rats and worms because rats and worms are inherently silly like come on) reminds me of their 'date' by the water in s1e5, but its also so sweet because he is saying he wants to be together with simon until death. which is really the only thing wilhelm definitely wants(as well as for august to rot in hell, or jail, either works but both would be best, but thats besides this point).

/then simon, "[he] smiled, at a joke" just in general how happy he is when theyre together. this reminds me of the lake 'date' again and how totally in love simon looked whenever he was looking at wilhelm. as well as the laugh at the end of s2e5 after wilhelm closed the curtains, im glad theyre healing and can laugh about that.

/once again, excuse me, THE FOOTBALL REFERENCES(its los campesinos' thing to have a lot of football/soccer references in their lyrics but i dont really know much about football/soccer, i just know the references are there) WITH THE WHOLE FOOTBALL METAPHOR AND HOW FOOTBALL=SOMETHING REAL(from what i remember about the tvmicroscope analysis, read it if you havent it was so amazing and it was just so nice to actually see someone take the time to go through the show and each clip and write everything down, i am not very good at spotting metaphors but i love reading about them). but we have roshs great line, "rowing isnt a sport. football is a sport." very insightful for this entire metaphor. i guess you could say when they were at rosh's football/soccer game for these lyrics, but i think thats a bit boring, sorry. i would also like to note that, because of my non-existent knowledge on football/soccer, i chose not to talk about them in detail because i really dont understand the references in the song. from what i do know and so we are on the same page, the references are "im diving into headers, put this pretty face where the boots are flying in" | "but we connected like a yeboah volley" | and "of missed panenka penalty" as well as the chant at the end of the song, but i will actually talk about that in depth because it isnt very specific. there might be more(probably) but im not 100% sure about them.

/finally, we have the entire ending, "ex-boyfriend, boyfriend, give us a song" repeating. another football reference by los camp! which also fits the young royals narrative. the repetition is used as a chant for football, a play on "give us a wave". firstly, the valentines day ball comes to mind. this scene is showing simon who he really(again football is a real sport, thank you tvmicroscope) loves at the valentines day ball, hence him chasing after and kissing wilhelm. he also previously said he couldnt fall in love with marcus, "it just feels like he likes me for real" and "i just dont understand why i cant fall in love with him" ON THE FOOTBALL FIELD. too bad he didnt take the hint back then. also(unrelated) he couldnt even spell marcus' name right. "Hej Markus" seriously simon? too bad he never sent that text. they could have potentially broken up sooner. and then at the end of the valentines ball when marcus wille is listening to his ex-boyfriend his boyfriend sing a song he wrote about HIM(despite him being unaware of this fact until the next episode). it is such a crucial moment in season 2's whole plotline(and wilhelms sanity). next, this reminds me how he literally fell in love with simon when he was singing for him when he was being welcomed to hillerska. the glance around at erik and august like "are you seeing this shit?" or "are we watching the same thing?" look because of simon is so iconic. and the smile is so sweet. his first gay panic experience. moving on, it reminds me of how they sang the same song together later in this same episode "it takes a fool to remain sane". finally, when wilhelm was PISSED because simon couldnt sing his song at the jubilee(and they broke up yet again) and he asked jan olaf about it. he really wanted to see simon perform that for him ): and for simon to be able to perform his song and be happy. at least wilhelm was able to give his wonderful speech. really i am so proud of him, nobody could have expected this from him, especially at this point. not even simon! "it was a.. um.. a moment i didnt want to share, with anyone else, so i lied about it". he has matured so much in such little time, he didnt even want to give this speech either. he shouldnt have to. his anxiety must have been through the roof and he probably threw up afterwards. and of course the infamous consequences. the only reason the queen talks with her son. at least he has simon with him now to hold him when it gets too much(no more fights season 3 please i beg i cant handle it after season 2, the ending did kind of make up for it all though). i got a little off topic but you get the point. also, i brought each of these different scenes up because the ending specifically repeated this lyric several times, like all of these different moments line up. its literally wilmons song, you cant tell me otherwise.

well, that was a lot. i have been thinking about this for WEEKS. months even. and while i typically wouldnt post something like this, i put soso much thought into writing this. like ive actually put so much thought into this its driving me insane. its literally wilmons song, in my opinion. i also just needed a reason to talk about my favorite song and band and relate it to my favorite show. please listen to the song(or anything by los camp! theyre AMAZING). thats really all i need in life, for more people to hear this masterpiece.

🩷💜 thank you💜🩷

i dont know if i will ever do anything like this again, perhaps. im not sure. i did actually enjoy writing this though. i didnt originally plan on writing anything significant but i got carried away. i was supposed to be drawing more wilmon, i want to finish it before season 3 is officially out but it is just so detailed📚. someone yell at me to finish the drawing PLEASE ! time is ticking but its so fucking DETAILED and TEDIOUS. oh my god theres only a week left WHAT THE FUCKK. anyways i loved this [: very fun!

[if there are any typos or just flat out mistakes, either no there isnt or just let me know, i probably wont fix it but i appreciate it. i also want to say i am aware i am HORRIBLE at staying on topic i just had so many things ive wanted to say]

💜

#Spotify #young royals #yr #wilmon #wilhelm young royals #simon eriksson #los campesinos #los campesinos!#Youtube

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bridgyrose · 9 months

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Weapon Buddies AU:

First of, I agonised over a team name. The initials of this group didn't offer me much that felt particularly fitting. However I did eventurally come up with PRXS (Praxis). This would normally imply Pyrrha became team leader, but lets assume Ozpin just does what he wants and made Ruby team leader anyways. Duo's would be Pyrrha & Ruby and Yang & Weiss.

Secondly, whilst angst is basically your trademark, would it be a fair request to keep this AU a bit more lighthearted? Seriousness can still happen, but (if possible) a bit more easily resolved and without long-term drama and repercussions.

Anywho... Next AU installment suggestion:

Weiss is cool, collected and confident she can keep at bay the emerging 'gay panic'. The conversation with Blake several days ago did help in some way. Now that feeling is no longer overwhelming her, not as much as it did at first, in any case. But this progress does mean that Weiss can actually help her teammates with their weapon maintainance now.

One-on-one's with Ruby and Pyrrha were both pleasant experiences, offering her plenty of insight into her teammates. Their personalities and quirks and more, were all shared with her. Weiss reciprocated that openness in full, even managing to do all of it without a single blush!

Things were going well, right until her own partner Yang decided that she needed nothing more than a tank-top and shorts during their one-on-one. Whilst Ember Celica was lying on the desk, stripped from its outer casing, Weiss believed the Yellow Brawler to be just as near as naked.

If Weiss wasn't so distracted, then she might have noticed that Yang quite appreciated the attention.

(Chances are, this one probably wont get angsty... unless I end up going into vol 3 stuff. And then the real fun will begin. But until then, enjoy)

A blush crossed Weiss’s cheeks as she looked over Yang in her sparring gear. It was different to see her with her hair pulled back, in nothing more than shorts and a tank top that didnt leave much to the imagination. She looked herself over, feeling a tad bit self-conscious while in her own battle gear. “Are you sure you’re not underdressed for this?”

“This is what I normally wear when I’m sparring with dad and Ruby,” Yang replied as she shadow boxed to warm up. “Besides, you’ve sparred with Ruby and Pyrrha a few times, you should spar with your partner too.”

Weiss sighed and looked away for a moment, knowing Yang wasnt exactly wrong. Though, sparring with Pyrrha and Ruby had been different. Ruby had at least kept her combat gear on, not swapping to anything lighter, and while it wasnt often she saw Pyrrha out of her armor, she still wore enough of it that even in shorts it was no different than seeing her in a skirt. “I-I know, but… you know… its different to see you like… this.”

“Comfortable?”

“Naked!” Weiss’ blush deepened as she realized what she had said. “W-well not exactly naked naked, just… you know… not covered up.”

Yang rolled her eyes. “This is just a bit more comfortable for me. My combat gear isnt exactly restrictive, but sparring like this makes things… easier.”

“But cant you do that while looking more… decent?”

“And what exactly is indecent about this?”

Weiss paused for a moment as she tried to get her words together, her eyes making their way to Ember Celica on the bleachers nearby, casing off and showing the firing mechanism of the shotgun inside. She blushed once again as she spoke quietly. “Seeing you like this is like seeing you work on Ember Celica.”

Yang smirked a bit. “So that’s what its about.”

“And what’s that supposed to mean?”

“I’ve seen the way you watch Ruby and Pyrrha work on their weapons.” Yang readied herself and grinned. “So, ready for our sparring match?”

“Now? Shouldnt we stretch-” Weiss quickly dodged a jab from her partner, putting up her own fists to get ready. “I’m not ready!”

“You had plenty of time to stretch, now’s time to spar!”

Weiss took a few steps back to avoid a few more jabs, watching Yang’s hands as she tried to block a straight. She stumbled back a bit as she watched Yang move almost as gracefully as a dancer with each strike, just as deadly with or without her gauntlets. With a quick step back, she slipped back as her heels caught a slight bump on the floor. She closed her eyes, ready to hit the ground until she felt a tight grip on her arm.

“Dont worry princess, I’ve got you.”

Weiss blushed hard as she was pulled back up by Yang, catching a glimpse of the light catching her hair just right to make it look like it was nearly lit by flames. Once she was steady on her feet, she quickly pulled away and started to grab her things. “Okay, I think that’s enough sparring for today.”

“But we just started,” Yang replied. “And besides, it was nice to have your undivided attention this time.”

“I-I need to study!” Weiss finished grabbing her things and rushed out of the training room, holding her bag close to her chest. Once she was far enough from Yang, she stopped to sit down, sighing in frustration. “I finally had a chance to be alone with her and I still couldnt handle it. Just… need more practice and then I can deal with them.”

#rwby #weiss schnee #yang xiao long #drabbles #weapon buddies au #weapon buddies

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rainfallbeats · 2 years

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- oh yeah and semi-sanitized hosts really are partially dead!! their heartbeat is very slow, has an irregular beat, and can be pretty hard to find if trying to check their pulse. their scarring is FREEZING cold. - "ohhh but inklings shouldnt be warm blooded because blah blah therefore theyre always cold" shut up shut up if that were the case then there wouldnt be any inklings in the desert who moved from inkopolis shut up shut uppppp!!! /nonsrs - depending on the severity of the infection, hosts will sometimes sleepwalk at night. they pretty much act like a zombie minus the violence. just kinda hobbling around growling and might raid the pantry. this isnt their mind, this is the sanitization kinda hijacking them while theyre unconscious. in fact, they can dream completely normally and be entirely unaware of the body getting up and grooving. if theyre woken up theyll be a bit disoriented but back in their own body - telephones that look like tartar mixed with the weird radio sounds/voice that tartar has can overwhelm sanitization victims, often causing either severe panic attacks or severe disassociation. the disassociation one can let their sanitization take over a bit and start following orders to attack. so uh yeah not good :3 id imagine the radio waves that would cause tartars voice would be pretty hard to replicate so thats luckily not much of an issue, but seeing old telephones like tartar would absolutely still trigger a panic attack. they WILL go ham on that phone and tear it to pieces before realizing what theyre even doing. kill kill kill - in my hc's specifically, sanitization and fooze works like a stronger oil vs water situation. they roll off of each other the same way they'd roll of a table, and it would be REALLY hard to try and mix them. so if a sanitized host were hit by fooze in the infected scarring areas, it wouldnt do anything. just like getting splashed with water (except water kills cephalings so bad analogy but you get it you get it) ive probably got more info on the logistics of sanitization and how it effects people, but thats all i got so far. as you can see, i fucking LOVE science fiction thats the flavor of splatoon. no more white glossy spaceships with starship fights and lazer guns and ooky spooky aliens, i want sci-fi thats more like fantasy that has scientific explanations!!!!! like splatoon!!!!!!!!

sorry this got so long lol, worldbuilding is my prime special interest of all time and when my brain grabs ahold of a concept that can be build off of it fucking GOES. anywas uhhh stan rome splatoon goodnight tri-state area <- doesnt go to sleep (part 2, i deadass wrote so much that tumblr wouldnt let me send the whole thing in one ask ;0;)

*nod* i like these. sci fi is fun especially biology stuff

#splatoon #splatoon oc #ask box

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707sandheartbreaks · 5 months

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tw : i dont fucking know, dude. im an emotional mess right now. proceed with caution, but to you, my favourite follower, please read ahead.

you know i'm talking to you. dont talk to me, dont even respond, just please read this entirely. why dont you fucking get it? i can't without you, and however annoying and painful and tiring that may be i just cant go without getting this right and you saying "you cant say i didnt try" hurt me so much and so bad and it sucks so much to be in my position. i thought we'd laugh about this in 20 years and yet here we are at this pedestal of mover awayer and holy fuck i can not deal with this at all and i can not handle this at all no matter what or how or who because it always always always feels like im just not too fucking wrong and yet ive reinforced what i shouldnt have and treated you not too well but it sucks because its mostly the distance and a little bit of me and fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck dont leave me and dont stop trying and taking no for an answer will leave me gutted and i dont want you to go and i dont know why but ive loved you so much and yet it all crumples because of a couple of bad decisions. hurt me, kill me, just dont leave my side god id rather be miserable with you than happy with someone else and its kind of messed up but its just the sort of attachment that kills you and you grieve of its a bullet in your arm level of attachment and i want you to stay till i die or u do and i know this is too much so you can just fucking move on and disregard tis entirely but this is probably the most overwhelming thing ive ever felt. ive loved you and ill die proving it to you if you let me please please please please please let me and if you want we can start over and we can do all of this again and it doesnt have to be the same if it gets better and you dont have to trust me and i'll give you my location all the time and you can be logged in my emails and everything and you can have my upi id and pin and and you can do anything just please dont leave me please i'll die and i'll die without you and i need you and i love you and im sorry but im sorry and i dont know what to do and im so fucking confused and its all so fucking difficult and im sorry im swearing so much i know you dont like it but its difficult to convey the intensity of what i feel none of this covers a fraction of it man i wish i could post my tears along and then youd believe me but fuck i cannot do this without you

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ryan-waddell11 · 1 year

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15 Questions// 15 Mutuals

thank you for the tags lovely people @mcbeanzontoast @whatsyourfavoritescarymoviex @heydreamchild @moonchildquinn & @like-what-the-fuck-scoob

1. Are you named after anyone?

Yes!! I’m named after a movie character!! There’s an 80s film called Hiding Out and the main girl (played by Annabeth Gish) is named Ryan!! My mom loved the movie, thus my name was born!! Also, Meg Ryan kind of sparked that idea! My mom was watching a romcom of hers (in true 90s fashion) and saw her name is go by and was reminded of that movie because she it had been a while since she saw it!!

2. When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday. I hurt myself and it made me cry for a sec 😅

3. Do you have kids?

Nope!! maybe one day but if I do have one it will honestly probably only be one!!

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

It’s my second language. I try not to use it so much on here because I know people can’t read my tone and I don’t want to come off as malicious!!

5. What’s the first thing you notice about other people?

Their style and behavior! Usually how they treat others or how they act in general!!

6. What’s your eye color?

I have heterochromia, so I have two different colored eyes (I also have two different pupil sizes so that can change my eye color too)!! I have blue bases in both of my eyes, but one of my eyes is blue/gray, and will flip between those two and the other eye is blue/green and it changes from blue, green, and brown. It’s gotten a lot more apparent now, because the eye that has green and brown is often darker than my blue/gray eye!!

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies can have happy endings. I think it depends certain happy, endings and films people SHOULDNT get. However, I enjoy both!!

8. Any special talents?

I’m a pretty decent musician on various instruments. I know how to play piano, base, a little bit, guitar, and the drums (my personal favorite) and I don’t think I sound like total shit when I sing!

Is reading fast a talent?? I can knock out pretty big books fairly quickly!! I can knock out a 300 page book in about an hour 🤷🏻‍♀️

9. Where were you born?

Indiana!!

10. What are your hobbies?

Music (playing and seeing live concerts), going to conventions, Collecting a lot of shit (vinyl, cassettes, vhs, funko Pops, stuffed animals), Reading, Filmming and Writing!!

11. Do you have any pets?

2 older dogs 🐶

12. What sports do you play/have you played?

I’ve played competitively for a long time multiple sports, I don’t play any now, but I coach volleyball as my part-time job. I played volleyball, basketball, softball, golf, tennis, track, beach volleyball and I think that’s it!!

13. How tall are you?

5’5!!

14. Favorite subject in school?

Music, Art, English, ANY of my film classes!!

15. Dream job?

I’d love to work in film, tv, or music!! I don’t care if I’m in front of the camera or behind somehow. I just want to make something special for people!!

I saw ALOT of people already tagged, but I still want to know about you all I just don’t want to overwhelm you!! please join it’s so fun ✨

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dollwrites · 1 year

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HI BABE please take all the time you need I know you're probably sooo busy right now!!! I'm so sorry about your old page you didn't deserve that, but I'm so so happy you decided to stay and make a new one I couldn't even imagine coming on here anymore if you weren't here 😭

THEY ARE TALKIING ABOUT BANNING TIKTOK! Unfortunately our government REALLY wants to ban tiktok they had a hearing with the CEO of tiktok and everything about it, and they're also trying to ban vpns so we cant get to tiktok that way either 😒 it's so annoying I would be so crushed lol I have hundreds of edits and stuff

I DID GET TO SEE DEMON SLAYER OMG IT WAS AMAZING I mostly just went to see the tengen/gyutaro fight on the big screen tbh lol. They only showed the first episode of the new season but I will say koku looked and sounded VERY cool he was super mysterious I'm very excited for you to see in like a week 👀 hate to say it but muzan looked BEAUTIFUL and of course akaza did too, but as someone who hasn't read the manga I was SHOCKED at just how HUGE Doma is like the stature on that man is insane I was expecting him to be kinda skinny and lanky but NOPE 👀 Also mitsuri I- 😳 the bi in me cannot handle it I just love her 😭 like was there a certain scene that was just brazen fan service, yes. But did she look gorgeous YES. I'm also kinda excited to see more of Genya his character design is so cool to me. I'm very excited to see what you think when the new season comes out 👀

Also PLEASE write more diabolik lovers!!! Diabolik lovers is one of the only animes I consistently rewatch I just cant help it it's like a guilty pleasure lol. It has so much potential for dark content like idk if it's just me but I love reading about blood/my blood getting drank etc lol so it fits perfectly. I also just love the trope of being forced to live with them and the whole gothic vampire vibes 🖤

I didn't want to send many tiktoks since ik you're probably so busy with the new blog so I'm just gonna include two diabolik lovers ones lol 🥰

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRceDUYr/

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRceukvJ/

I'm so excited for the new things you're going to post, I hope you're doing well 😘 -jjk anon

BABY YES HI

First of all I’m so sorry all the shit happened before I could answer your big ask I WAS SO UPSET 😭

OH NO THEY SHOULDNT DO THAT. I mean I pretty much exclusively use tiktok to watch thirst edits of anime hotties BUT STILL I wonder why the gov doesn’t like tiktok???

if they do ban it we’ll have to send each other fan art back and forth 😭😭

YES DEMON SLAYER IM SO EXCITED I’ve been getting so hype about finally seeing Koku baby animated my big big big warrior man 😵‍💫😵‍💫 BRO I SAW SOME LEAKED CLIPS AND PICS IM NOT A MUZAN GIRLIE BUT HE LOOKED V V GOOD and douma is fucking MASSIVE !!! I haven’t read the manga either but one of my besties has and I did make her ( begged 💚 ) to give me all the spoilers which is how I knew about koku in the first place SKKSKSK SO IM EXCITED

YOU LIKE DL TOO ?? YES WE SHARE ONE BRAIN I SWEAR. DL would be a guilty pleasure anime if I possessed even 1 ounce of shame but I do not so I just openly love those slutty slutty vampire men. I must know who your favorites are 🤨🤨 YOU KINDA GIVE SUBARU AND YUMA STAN VIBES but I can also see you being into ayato also THE FORCED DOMESTICATIONNNNN ONE OF MY FAVES WE REALLY DO HAVE ONE BRAIN SKSKSKKSK

THE TIKTOKKKKSSSS OMG YOU SEND ME THE TWO BABIES ??? IM GONNA SCREAM kanato is my little meow meow the urge to be his mommy ( bc his real mom is….. ya know 💀 ) and let him drink from me while I pet his hair is OVERWHELMING and AZUSA SOFT BOY I’m shaking trembling I love those TikToks thank you for the snack babe 💚💚💚

It is kinda hectic trying to transfer everything 😅 BUT I always want to make time for you when I can !!

I have some for you too 🥺🥺

listen… I’m so excited to write that upper moon reverse harem au I’ve been HOLDING ON TO FOR THE LONGEST TIME it’s finally almost time to release these fics and Douma is going to be a MENACE to our poor reader

I SAW THIS AND IMMEDIATELY SAVED IT THINKING OF YOU

I genuinely cannot believe my FAVORITE va was cast as the deadbeat dilf I am going rabid

I WISH I HAD MORE FOR YOU BUT SINCE THE MOVE IVE NOT BEEN ON TIKTOK THAT MUCH

#jjk nonnie !#DONT THINK I MISSED THAT #‘can’t imagine coming on here anymore if you weren’t here’ WHAT IF I STARTED CRYING RN #I was very worried you wouldn’t see I moved and I’m so so glad you did 😭😭

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astranva · 2 years

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nova you summoned your doctor anon

pls pls pls know that your job shouldnt make you feel bullied bad, and anxious. stress comes once in a while but when you feel anxious, its a sign to take a step back and rest. maybe talk to your hr about how your boss been treating you? because ik talking to your boss directly is out of the question

also pls take some time for yourself whenever you feel anxious and overwhelmed. dont feel like you need to write for us because your well being is more important

pls take your daily dose of chris's puppy interview. i can guarantee you'll feel better after

tons and tons and tons of kithes for you. take lots of them whenever you feel anxious to remind you that we're always here to have your back<3

hugeeeeee and waaaarmmmn hugs could never go wrong too

- your favorite trusty doctor anon🫶

my boss and i actually had a talk today and she’s just lacks feelings and was manipulative. like she was like “i want you to gain as much experience as you can so you can grow” BECAUSE she wanted me to do MORE than my job and what i agreed on. like at this point, i’m doing job that you can hire like 3 people for, and the salary doesn’t even cut it.

i’ll just give it some time till i get my salary and finalize some projects then i’ll probably leave. i hope things go smoothly.

you’re my favorite (and only) doctor ever, idk what i would’ve done without you 🤧

love you, i’ll be taking the kithes frequently and will watch the puppy interview right now 💖💖💖

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clairecantdeal · 1 month

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Its almost april and nothings happened. Should i still leave it in her hands? Yeah probably. Fuck i really dont know how to do this but i feel serious about it. I shouldnt be pursuing a relationship even if it takes until june. But i want her to know that i feel this way. Uhh even though ive said it already. She knows. But she hasnt given me anything. I have to remind myself not to come on too strong but i want her to know and i want to be sweet to her just bc i like her as a person. idk i just want to do nice things for her and i hope i havent been overwhelming in that way. The truth is i dont know what she is thinking. She mightve decided she’s not into me the night i complained abt having a bad week. Or she mightve just put up some distance to protect both of our feelings. It feels so bad to wait even tho i know patience is important. I m trying to be cool about it i s2g i am trying to be cool about it but i just want to know i want to tell her so badly i want to just see her & smell the perfumed air when she sits close. I made her smile and laugh and i even got her turned on and now i freeze and we dont talk about anything. Is she not only putting up a boundary but avoiding me as well? I work on the weekends so that makes it suck too. I hate this why am i thinking about her so much. I hardly even know her. But she believes in beauty & she herself is strong smart and fucking beautiful. she made me feel things i never felt before.

I am the problem i think. All i want is a companion but im too depressed to let myself enjoy another persons intimate company. Im a total downer to be around! No something HAS to be wrong. There HAS to be a catch or a negative side to it, Right????

Everything is fine.

Everything is going to be fine.

Today can be a good day even if i dont learn anything new abt the situation.

But if everything is fine why did she stop texting me? Why is it always me texting her lately? Is that even true? Can i even trust my perception of reality? Or has my depression taken that away as well? As i know it often does.

But it feels that way. Ive written her notes and got her little gifts, im usually the one to initiate the conversation. Fuck. :( this shit hurts so much. I wish she’d just give me a chance.

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b0mblover · 4 months

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… or maybe the god’s just stupid.

(/3)

By: J

(Basically lopt eats tissues and jirou gets drunk)

(idea creds to sho_variable, thank you for the idea bae /p)

(do not eat tissues it can cause issues with digesting)

today was a rather lively day, after noriko chased him for drinking her nail polish, jirou attempting to calm her down, her in turn punching jirou, him having a panic attack, etc etc. He was rather tired, as much as he liked the feeling, it could be overwhelming, Jirou had been going out with crown for the past several days, he almost was hoping that jirou would stay home so he could bum a smoke off him, ironically for a god, he was mostly broke, and sure he could get a job like a normal person, wheres the fun in that? Jirou did end up going out with crown, to lopts disappointment. He usually would just steal, however the events of today mixed with the fact that jirou would very muchly notice, Jirou would probably have a breakdown, still being very muchly overstimulated, it wasnt the best idea. He decied to just wait until he got back, sitting in his room looking around at anything he could fiddle with, he seen a box of tissues, odd for a god that doesnt cry.

(ITS BECAUSE JIROU WOULD COME TO LOPTS ROOM TO CRY NOT JERK OFF YOU DRITY MINDED FUCKS /lovingly)

ironically, he did know what they were, however, his impulsive thoughts got the best of him, or at least what little left there was. He pulled one out of the box, ripped a piece off, and stuck it in his mouth. He thought it didnt taste that bad, ironically out of all the things he ate that he shouldntve, this didnt hurt. He continued pulling pieces off and eating them, until there was nothing left, since it didnt hurt, he decided to eat another, and another, until he had ate 5. it took him around 30 minutes, ripping small pieces off like he was doing wasnt that efficient, before realizing what he was doing and stopped. He got bored of waiting so he decided to lay down and try to sleep, sure he didnt really need to, but it would pass time. Laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, he thought about the past week and how weird it was, first he ate “plates” which are very muchly not supposed to be consumed, then he drank nail polish and nail polish remover, even worse, and now hes ate tissues, sure tissues shouldnt (at least to his knowledge) do much harm to him, but it was still weird. People would probably laugh at him, gods, thinking about it, Noriko and Jirou never laughed at him for it, yet at least, they were concerned, worried, that wasnt something he was used to. If he had anymore tears left to cry from over the past centuries, he would. Not wanting to get emotional, or rather be embarrassed, he decided to grab his phone and listen to music, or something, anything? He just wanted to stop thinking about how people treated him in general, after 7 minutes and desperate attempts of trying to not get out of bed to check, he found his phone, on the otherside of his room, he didnt know how it got there, probably something to do with noriko. He noticrd several messages from “My lovable idiot (02), Jirou,

(note, 01 is mason bc why not)

“Auhhgf bae i miss u soonc much”

“hey do yoh think oti could pick me up”

“wait nevemond”

“ushebd hey do u wnst me to come hone?”

lopt was rather confused at the messages, sure jirou never typed well, but he did make some attempt at making things readable, before figuring out that he was more than likey drunk. He kept reading

“foeskwaa yk i love hoj rivtn?”

“becaus i do lien wlot”

lopt mentally had to repeat what jirou was saying.

“augh bae i miss you so much, hey do you think you could pick me up, wait nevermind, uhgh hey do you want me to come home? auhwaa you know i love you right? because i do like alot”

he sent a reply, “are you alright? i can come pick you up did something happen?” he waited for some odd time before sitting on the edge of his mattress, “mmhgbfnf nktbing happendd i miss you and in dont drle hood” lopt being a fucking master at translating idiots and drunk idiots, repeated “nothing happened i miss you and i dont feel good” mentally skimming through proper responses, he responded with “why dont you feel good love? and yes of course i can come pick you up”

(look lopt def writes in a weird proper way dont deny it its either absolutely shit or extremly proper)

“mmsbxn plewsse?” “of course” he contemplated adding a heart but ultimately decided to not.

He got into “his” car, more or lessly the car everyone used in the revolutionary army (REVARMY CAR REVARMY CAR) he had a good idea as to where jirou was, 3 spots, one. crowns “house” two. bar around a couple of blocks. three. old abandoned building they used to do meetings in. He checked crowns place first, knocking on the door, he waited about 5 minutes before leaving, next going to the abandon building, it was unlikey they went to a bar, they only did that in special occasions, and when something awful happened to numb the pain. he went into the first level of it, and seen jirou sitting on the ground with crown standing half hunched down, patting his head. Jirou stood up, mumbling his good bye to crown and waving, the car ride home was quite, hed ask tomorrow. They both walked into the dark apartment, Jirou immediately getting water out of the tap and some random fruit to eat, it was for the best if he was drunk. Lopt kissed him on the forehead and told him that he loved him, Jirou said the same before walking off to his room. Lopt decided to properly sleep finally, hed live without a smoke for another day.

The next morning, well rather noon, jirou was vaguely awake and talking to noriko about what happened yesterday, apologizing and things, “so how was your day?” noriko asked directing it at lopt, “well uh, i found out that tissues taste pretty good!” he said semi excitedly, Noriko and Jirou sat in shock, “Lopt you… what? why would you even” Jirou started in, Lopt didnt believe he was ever going to get a break.

(this was the worst ive wrote yet im sorry, but theres no real way to stretch lopt eating tissue out that long, or maybe there is idk i might try again someday, as per disclaimer, do not eat tissue, it can lead to intestinal blockage.)

(im genuinely sorry for how poor this is, im not exaclty focused at the moment, but honestly i cant think of a better way to do this so!)

(god im so tired, like sleepy, not tired of anyone or smth, i woke up way too early for my own liking)

(this is almost the last one! next will be about lopt eating tic tacs 💀)

#j writes badly #no beta we die like jirou #im so sorry this is so awful i was like half asleep when i wrote this but i have no motivation to rewrite it💀

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b1mbodoll · 6 months

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oh goood how annoying these ppl are lmfao but ive gotta say that i also use „” a lot because it just is right grammatically and it helps understand the sentence more so i guess we shouldnt judge what we dont know AND THIS GOES TO THAT ANON TOO (but i’ve gotta also add that i dont believe these are the same people? idk they write differently(?)) btw don’t concern yourself about such people lol and remember: it’s just the internet, these are strangers, and while being active in the socials you should be prepared for such anons to come! but again, they have not the right to talk bad about you (and i may also add (yes i’m kind off judging again) that they probably don’t know the meaning of „pick me” as i didn’t know it as well for a long time and i thought it was something like acting like oveeeeerrrrlyyyy cute in front of the boys.. but now i’ve educated myself on that topic and know better!) idk where i’m going with this ask but i love you gabi even if you don’t know me:( i’m interacting with your blog for the first time and i’m a bit nervous because i’ve never sent an ask in my life and i’m so scared to send it:(( but yes okay i love you<3

(it took me a whole 7 minutes to prepare myself for sending this ask)

hihi anonie 💌 thank u for sending in such a sweet message and please please please !!! do not be afraid to interact more :( my inbox is always open n i love talkin to u guys ! i promise i’ll reply as soon as i can <3 i’m sorry for replyin a lil late but i was just overwhelmed n wanted to actually take the time to reply which is why i held onto this for a little while, so i hope u can forgive me !!!

ur right that with the internet comes mean people but that doesnt make it ok :( its not right to come onto the account of people u dislike or dont know just to be mean and make others feels bad but agh idk i blocked ‘em from sending asks so :] its whatever ! and for the pick me thing, whether or not they knew the meaning it was still unecessary for it to be sent it especially considering the fact that they dont know me. but thank u for the support and the kind words ! ur a doll <3

i love u too honey and im happy you sent this in! again, pls dont be nervous to interact !!!! and im honored to be the first receiver of ur first ask!!!! take care of urself always 💌

#♡.signed. sealed. delivered.

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smashingdownyourdreams · 6 months

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Im mad, im sad

I know I shouldnt enrage myself so much

But i couldnt help it

The sharp bleeding of your questions

The fear to be again humiliated, misunderstood

So everything you ask is part of an investigation im overwhelmed with

I Just want to be with you but, but your sour words just confirm

I am right

My sight won't change

Your fears won't change

You don't believe me

You probably won't

I am right

You're just trying to get a confession i won't make

A confession for something i didn't do

I do care about you

I know you care about me

Why are your words and rage legit?

Why arent my words and rage and cries legit?

Why am i not allowed to feel, to suffer?

I made mistakes, but this doesn't give you full right and reason, this doesn't mean im a person no more, or annihilates my sense of sorrow. If you think i deserve It, if you think i have no more right to be, to react as i feel, to tell you when your words are excessive, we have nothing to discuss about

If i have constantly to stop crying or react because my cry or agitation annoys you

We don't have much to discuss about

I promised myself no one would tell me to fucking behave in reaction of their speech or words

If im crying accept you made me fucking crying

If you're saying something absurd After months of anything, months of cries and screams and fights and relapses, i will fucking scream, then fucking cry, then fucking laugh, then fucking lose myself in the thought of me being alone

I won't accept another "die"

I won't accept another "bitch"

I won't accept another "i am the only one who didn't rape you, so respect me"

I won't accept another "oh my God you're exaggerating. Stop crying! How old are you?"

I won't accept another "shut up"

I won't accept another "tell me, i know you did It. Gotcha! I know you did it just LOOKING AT HOW YOURE REACTING TO THIS"

I won't accept another "oh, you dressed yourself as you're a working gal, WHY?"

I won't accept another "you can trust me" then starts saying all things he hates about me

I won't accept another "go away" and related "AH! YOURE GOING AWAY UH? SEEMS YOU WERENT WAITING FOR NOTHING ELSE"

I won't accept another rejection with no explanation

I won't accept another touching or reading my stuff

I won't accept having sex then starting again telling me what you hate about me

I won't accept you being so secure about something you just FEAR

I won't accept another doubt, i won't accept to fear to speak, act, react, write, open up

I won't accept being denigrated, treated as my things arent valid just because different

I won't accept it

Pushing me so hard, trying to pull out something from my mouth when im not ready, to treat me like im stupid, assuring me you understand me then brutalize me, that you understand but still don't get what i am saying

Is just helping me digging a grave i wish i'll see soon

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