#i screwed these up so bad im so sorry

[luminessdoodles]

this was really fun; i recommend!!! sorry that the spacing is all weird i did it on my cell phone orz

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#my art #fine tip pen #twisted wonderland #SORRY TO THE SIDE CHARACTERS WHOM I SCREWED UP BAD #this was actually my first time drawing jack :0 i was gonna say silver + lilia too but i forgot i included them in a meme i never posted #several months ago lol #i think i had only drawn ortho + ace once each before too. which is why their hair looks so weird im so sorry dudes ._. #also not sure why kalim has his full name when the others just have first #✨because he's worth it✨ is my guess

[kidfoundonstreets]

i have so much hangouts its a little exhausting its fun dwdw just ahfh one finally screwed over another event (two times) in a clash and now i feel awful

#i hate untied ends. i hate how ppl can do favors or wait for you or do smth for you but youre on a limited like favor meter #and it can take damage every second. i lost a bit of those meters tonight even if they were relating to me. i could sense it maybe. #im a burden in general so i need to make up for it as much as possible. i need to stop being so selfish all the time. #im sorry im such a bad daughter. im sorry i screwed both of these two events over in one night and you have to reschedule them #you said it was okay and the other said they had fun but i still feel so uneasy. i hate this #i hate it #i hate myself #i just need toforget tyhsi i justneed to forgethtis i just need to rmemebr this is who i am and thisis who il lalwyas willbe #vent #i didnt mean to make it a vent sorries #i was too much and too inconsiderate with people who'll probably leave me in the end. #god #imjust #everythings my fuckign fault and i cant do anything but if i take responsibility in processing every single thing ill drown ill cut myself. #self harm #and if i do then ill finally be going off the deep end permanently.

[forgaeven1]

i've got a job interview today, and as you'd expect, i'm mighty nervous. if i'm more absent / present ooc ( really, my anxiety loves playing russian roulette with my attention ) , that's why !

#as context: i have like.... bad anxiety when it came to my career #i used to be in filmmaking? but my last project had this massive miscommunication #and it tore me into pieces. like.... i was just. in a bad shape #so i changed my career completely and found work in a kindergarten #and so far the work's lovely ( like yeah. it has its own stress ) but i've started to like? idk how to say it #but in filmmaking i had a very active position. i was among the chains of command #and in this new environment ( the pre-school ) im more of a follower ?? so ive been managing my stress #by taking this outside approach where im not THAT active #but lo and behold. the other day ive got an interview offer ( this one i'm going to ) in filmmaking #and im just. i suppose im scared the past will repeat itself #or perhaps its simply my anxiety bc i kept thinking i'm just gonna screw up #or i cant take the heat of the work. but?? i do like filmmaking #even if it busted my ass #idk. sorry for the rambling. as ive said - im nervous! #hopefully this channel will resume its programme after this break! #<333 have a good day yall. fr #gen: out of character.

[bmpmp3]

literally such a tragedy what channel zero did to search and rescue woods youre telling me the author lost the publishing rights for THAT like im still so mad. we could have had a book. we could have had a book

#sorry i hate the third season of channel zero always have and im speaking my truth now HJKDLSJHFKD #okay like. channel zero in general. the first season is like #i wouldnt say its good. honestly it started okay and kinda intriguing #and then got kinda bad. and then at one point it flipped back around and became camp to me #so i kinda like the first season but through no credit of itself HJKHJKDS #and as an adaptation i thought it was like too confusing for people unfamiliar with the creepypasta but too uninterested in the details #of said creepypasta to appeal to fans of it. but it was a bit camp. a little bit #the second season was fine. it wasnt perfect but i thought it held up decently as a story and as an adaptation #i never got around to watching the fourth season. i hear it was fine #but that third season was WRETCHED i remember it being rated well as a story but it was so like. disrespectful as an adaptation #(also it was too focused on gore and blood for me at the time. like i dont mind gore but it felt so like. meaningless?) #(and i wasnt sure about its depiction of mental health at the time but maybe my opinion would change nowadays it has been a while) #like you got the rights to such a weird and surreal concept and ignored it entirely....what on earth #no baby crying loop in the middle of the wilderness alone....no stairs that cut off your arm cleaning in the woods...NOTHING #literally so tragic. @ nosleep authors and other online horror writers PLEASE watch out when giving out adaptation rights #if i remember correctly the poor search and rescue author got screwed over by syfy which is so sad 😔 #also please publish some kind of paperback version of ur stories for lil ol me. pretty please #basic print on demand is fine id just love to have more creepypasta and nosleep stuff on my bookshelf LOL #also still sad theres no left right game book. blease it would be so good published BLEASE

[mothocean]

"Isn't diluc like 20 wdym he looks too young and clean" you're telling me he wouldn't at least have eyebags or some sort of scars or SOMETHING on his face??? Get that clean faced monstrosity OUT OF HERE idc if he's a young adult he went thru some shit and it should SHOW

#sorry i have just. so many opinions on dilucs design #hes like the one guy i have a concrete appearance hc for and its. very different from what he looks like in game hkgmgjghjdf #ok not that different but still. they did him dirty #like you know its bad when one of your older (by comparison/story role) guy characters has babyface in so much official art #btw i am extending this to the other characters too I'm just. very passionate abt it in regards to diluc bc he gets screwed up in art a lot #and also bc he's my main and i love him #roseflower.txt #not main tagging im scared

[pensbitchbiome]

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#beyond an eye roll bg hasn’t gotten a reaction out of me in a good few years but especially since fitf era started #like im sorry no amount of the kids dietary preferences or sport of choice mentions from louis to prove he’s dad of the year is believable #they screwed up astronomically bad when setting this shit up years ago to a point nothing they do is believable so im cool w looking away #louis going from acting like a c’est la vie fatherless want to be young forever to this supposed caring responsible father? #thanks for the free giggle juice i do not give a singular fuck #people are having aneurysms about how long its been and wanting to sell their tickets like lmfao okay stay safe #stream fitf 🫶🏽

[myownprivatcidaho]

thoseve yall who were here a year ago might remember that a year ago He was liking tweets like "idk how people can cheat when im in love im obsessed😍" and "the honeymoon stage rlly doesnt die if youre with the right person🥰" and he was liking stuff like that up till recently now shit like this is in his likes something is BROKEN in him

#i feel bad. i dont even mean it in a conceited way but i cant help but feel like a bit of this is my fault #hes so bright eyed and ambitious that the idea of him losing any of that idealism is nothing short of a goddamned tragedy im sorry #yes this is the guy who lead me on (unintentionally???) and flirted with me for a year despite seeing TWO people during that time #the latter of which became his girlfriend (who i told Everything to ...) #and like. he never apologized he never explained what was going on or why he acted like a fucking simp for a year #but basically we're not talking now and we're on bad terms and angry at each other #(me because. well yall were there for that . hes angry because i ratted his flirty ass out ) #god that all stings so bad i havent talked about the details of what happened to anyone...... #but yeah i just. even still after all this time i hope he stays bright eyed. the idea that he wouldnt is heartbreaking in and of itself. #that one crush situation lol #idk if theyre still together. it was early novembet i reached out to his gf and laid the whole thing out for her #& she said theyd 'take it from here' (??????) and was uncomfortable with me and him communicating with the knowledge that THAT ALL happened #even while they were together. i told her i could respect that (even though i wanted to ask her who the FUCK she thought she was. anyways) #and then i reached out to him one last time to clarify i wasnt dredging it up for retaliation or to break them up but bc she genuinely #deserved to know. then he sorta said fuck my feelings and then reiterated what his gf said that we shouldnt be talking anymore #its been radio silence since then from bothve them. if they did break up id feel bad (cause how COULDNT i?) but if they didnt. #that means the only factor that changed here was. well. his 'relationship'/chances of a relationship/flirtationship/friendship with me. #i dunno. im not gonna act like i have all the facts and im not gonna act like he hasnt screwed me over #but getting back to my main point. imagine knowing him and watching him lose his idealism. try not being heartbroken over that.

[hanniehaeism]

I have chem Final tmr. Im scared actually

#made me realize I don’t like chem with all that review I did. #and the next day I have a math exam I COULDNT STUDY IT CUZ IM TOO SCARED FOR CHEM I CANT SCREW THIS SHIT UP #SO AFTER I HAVE TO STUDY A HELL LOT OF MATH TOO MY BRAIN ACTUALLY FEELING ALL WEIRD AND MELTING LIKE ITS BECOMING ICE LIQUID #Wednesday is my only free week 😔 #and then prom next weekkkkkk yeyeyey #I need to do good I need to save that stupid 76 on that one test that happened like three months ago #Yk when you get a bad grade or one that you wish you did better on and teachers and social workers and everyone is like you’ll get over it’s #just one sill test NO NO NONONON YOU DONT UNDERSTAND NOW I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING IN POWER TO MAKE SURE IT REALLY DIDNT MATTER #I’m just very paranoid my college will decline my acceptance of my chem grade goes down and my French average is always the bad one I mean #chem isn’t technically bad it’s actually above average but ig not my average I’m just scared dudeeeee idk sorry really dumb rant I need sle

[hishighnesstheprincess]

. Vent post in tags

#i just feel like such a screw up all the time #im such a poser and i can barely manage to be even somewhat nice most of the time #im not even good at writing or drawing. why do all these people like me im not good enough for any of them #i cant even update stuff on time im so late on everything #my head feels so fucking distended all the time. im so tired and weak and miserable #if my mom kicks me out i will fully deserve it #vent post #prin posts #prin preaches #its been so long since its been this bad. my arms hurt so much i dont have enough bandages fuck #sorry #delete later

[autisticcassandracain]

I really. Should sit down and figure out what to do with Shilo in my Fourth World canon

#Shilo norman is the fourth world character most aggressively screwed over except for maybe forager #It's hard for me to get a hold on him and that's because no two takes on him have been remotely the same #And I dont want to default to mr miracle v1 canon like i normally do bc shilo's backstory in that REALLY didnt age well #I like the source of freedom's take on him best I think but it completely loses his connection to scott and also fuck n'vir free #That leaves like. Mr miracle v2's shilo. Which is just. #Well. Choices were made #There's a reason most ppl have ignoreed mr miracle v2's take on shilo's personality and backstory and just kept him becoming mr miracle #I think my biggest problem with Shilo is that what I find interesting about him is not at all a character angle canon wants to explore #Ie I like the idea of Shilo as a mortal among gods #What does it mean to pick up a mantle that's shared with/was previously held by a god? #I rlly liked the initial thing in mr miracle v2 where rhey made him create his own tech for the suit bc he didnt have a motherbox #To me that's FAR more fascinating as a concept than what they ultimately ended up going with re: motherbox accepting him #Which I always found badly executed anyway like I think it was a really bad move to try and draw direct parallels between shilo and scott #I'm sorry a teen runaway mom leaving her newborn kid at the doorstep of an orphanage is not a betrayal!! Tf did you want her to do!!! #Anyway. Moving on #And then the source of freedom did away with the godly aspect of the mister miracle legacy entirely #And I rlly do like how cutting out scott enabled the story to focus on thaddeus brown and issues of race #The source of freedom is a very good take on shilo but still #I cant help but feel dissappointed nobody has rlly seemed to see shilo the same way as me ie a man among gods #Idk I still havent read all shilo comics im missing some notable exceptions so maybe I'll find it yet #But this lack of interest in framing shilo the way I believe would be the most interesting rlly does make it hard for me #To figure out what to do with him in my canon #My posts #Shilo norman

[munamania]

im beginning to think i just have a problematic stomach she needs to be cancelled...

#like. nor way that some extra cheese on a pizza two days ago is screwing me up this bad #sitting here at work like somebody pray for me. there r so many things to do and stomach cramp/pain is my weakness #i get the slightest hint of nausea and im like oh deary me i need to lie down. so u can imagine my personal hell rn. #abby talks #like damn. i mean i had the tiniest bit of shredded cheese? oh my god. im sorry im liveblogging my lactose intolerance to u guys #but i mean im just sitting here and my stomach is stabbing me so u can imagine my struggle.

[orcelito]

Sometimes i look at statistics for # of ppl who have had suicidal thoughts / etc & I'm just kinda like. "There's No Way it's that low, right?"

Guys I think I have a normalized mindset that might not be entirely healthy

#speculation nation #suicide ment/ #NO IT'S NOT HOW IT USED TO BE. im fine for the most part. #but it still feels so normal to me lmao and apparently it is not in any way normal #or at least. shouldnt be. #majority of people apparently never even consider it as an option #meanwhile theres me with my longstanding philosophy of like #'if i lose literally every single person who cares about me then yea im killing myself lol' #BUT it works the other way too where so long as i got ppl who care about me. even just one person. imma keep living #that's what got me outta my teen years and im just keeping going with it #the underlying idea being that if i get to the point where i have lost literally every person who cares about me #i probs have some Pretty Big Problems so the wish would inevitably be there anyways lol #but yea uhhhhh yea. it's much more quiet than it was when i was a teen and thank god for that #it's annoying to deal with lmao #but it's still so normalized in my mind. i can end up muttering some rly concerning shit to myself when im really really mad or frustrated #primarily at work lol. as it goes. #then again ive always had a screw loose & bad ex just rly knocked it out of order lol #patched it up with duct tape and gorilla glue. slaps the top of this hunk of barely functional meat. this babey sure can brain #....in theory lmao #sorry for the dark topic i promise im feeling fine. aside from the muscle soreness and fatigue lol #just saw a post that got me thinking about how weird & skewed my perspective is. And So It Goes.

[boy-armageddon]

At this rate I think I’m getting at most like 2 or 3 hours of sleep tonight 🫡

#I hate waking up at 6 I’m dreading tomorrow #im kinda vaguely hoping I idk. explode or something #im so nervous I have to do a presentation on something I’ve barely worked on I only had yesterday and today until like 1 pm to #and the thing starts at like… 10 am which isn’t that bad. but still too little time I think I’m utterly screwed #and I hate doing presentations #ugh. sorry for venting and stuff kinda ive just been hating stuff lately #but hey. I have a Thursday show to go to this month plus my beautiful daughter (bpib vinyl) #so it’s not… that bad #still shitty but could be worse

[s0urte3th]

i mean, im not saying im.. bad i guess?

#more so.. saying im a hazard. a hazard that allows myself to be touched despite.. the fact i probably shouldnt! #history repeats itself and im afraid itll do that again #i dont wanna bring you down with me. i know im a handful. i know i hurt parts of you whenever i speak #urgh #how does one recover? how does a person like me be normal for the people i love and care about? #i dwell on that a lot. its why i wish i could be normal. because if i was normal i wouldn’t have a screwed up noggin! #i dont care if its a bad thing to wish.. but i wish i could be normal for you! for everyone! #im tired of being the mentally ill freakazoid that even i tend to hate on. one who sits and mopes because working is hard. #how do i get better when i can only learn to cope with the thoughts? theyll never go away. the memories wont ever go away. #the bad feelings wont go away because.. i was born with them! i just need to learn how to cope #but how do i properly cope? do i just.. shut up? so that i stop hurting you? #i dont know if ive ever found a coping mech that works! other than ignoring but thats just destructive. #sorry for the ramblings. ik its all over the place. my minds a bit scattered atm..

[starlooove]

About that last reblog I agree 10000% but I can’t help but feel frustrated bc not even just woc, but poc in general have been saying this shit for YEARS and it’s just now that’s impacting yt women that ppl care and making posts spelling it out as if it’s some profound knowledge or conspiracy theory that they had to work hard to connect 💀

#maybe I’m just being a hater #I’m prolly just being a hater #but like. yeah. the prison system is built in racism and actively takes the rights of those imprisoned #we knew this since immediate post slavery #where they literally said no more slavery unless ur in jail #and yeah. the Justice system and prison system go hand in hand to create these situations where minorities are imprisoned at a higher rate #we knew this since immediate post slavery. #where they made laws about where black people could fucking stand. #like I’m glad ppl are getting with the program and all #but ur late as fuck and it doesn’t feel like ur gonna catch up till they screw you over again #and by that team we’ll be fucked twice #like in conclusion #thanks but it would’ve been nice if you listened when we said it #and don’t get me wrong like I understand not knowing everything all the time #but like. the prison system is bad should not have been something you learned in 2023 bc of a tweet about abortion im sorry #like for that to happen you’re either real young or just. ignored everything happening in 2020 #with BLM #and I’m using BLM as a starting point bc I genuinely saw how many of y’all were like. shocked at what native and blk ppl specifically go- #-through so despite the thought that it was nothing new I see it as a net positive #but if you were over 20 then and just had the realization that the prison system sucks now? #where have you been the last 3 years 😭 #I think I’m just in a bad mood but whatever #and it’s not the post itself #it’s more like the reaction in the notes #mfs going ‘OMMMG!!!!’ liek yeah okk now what? #what are u gonna do moving forward? #let’s stop sitting and staring and move forward

[ironmanstan]

Ill forever be mad ab the pink diamond reveal tho btw

#im sorry i literally cannot b convinced it was good i dont care i dont care #makes me SO mad #ruined my LIFE #i loved rose so much . she was SO cool to me . i feel like basil was somewhat inspired by her actually now that i think ab it #so the pink diamond reveal. ooohhjh my god. it was cool ??? at first ???? when it happened ??? bc it was like what the FUCK #but then it just got worse and worjrrhsdjnjbf #even like. like im not mad ab rose possibly being a bad person i actually loved the reveal of pink diamonds shattering to steven #that was awesome i love rose being a complex figure when hes growing up in her shadow and being her legacy #and struggling w whether he can be proud of that legacy or not when he knows hardly anything about it #thats so cool !!! what the FUCK was the pink diamond reveal #like idk . it makes me so mad and feel cheated it feels like those things where its like ohhh it was all a dream #pink diamond is characterized so differently from rose and roses entire vibe as a person feels markedly different #so when the lean into pinks characterization happens w the reveal its like ok. what was the point of all this build up #why did rose even matter as a character what was the point of this characterization. she was all for nothing #idk maybe its just me ???? im insane. it makes me mad it is my biggest beef w this #ion give a damn ab anything else compared to this. like this is my real severance of heart strings to everything #yeah they forgave . the diamonds ig. i dontnfhfucking care whatever #i have beef ab this and i have beef ab pearl just as a person #pearl . ... pearl is so insane and i kind of love it ALSO PRE THE PINK DIAMOND REVEAL #BC THAT SCREWS PEARL OVER TOO #pick one. pearl is gay and possibly slightly manipulated emotionally to fight a war w a girl who doesnt like her (awesome) #or: pearl is gay and a slave (????) is say servant but she for real physically cannot disobey her OWNER. so. and is IN LOVE with her owner #not awesome. frown #DO U SEE WHAT I MEAN #ppl hate pearl for being toxic but i think shes mad funny for that she is fuckin insane. #imagine ur bestie u been in love with for like 10 thousand years fucks off to earth and dies so she can have a damn baby id kill that thang #slash j. but like u cant lie shes so drama im here for it #if u kin her. U HAVE PROBLEMS !! GET AWAY ill observe her like a poisonous sea snail thoo #shes like if rohan kishibe was worse and a lesbian #the gamer speaks uwu