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hollyhomburg · 2 years

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Sad but neat detail is the reason Yoongi was supervising in the first place is because he believed that there was a large chance m/c wouldn’t feel comfortable enough to voice her discomfort in fear of “ruining” the moment for the others, but in the end it was him that denied himself a proper, much needed check-in 😭😭😭

I keep thinking about the scene where Jin catches him looking for a touch longer than felt normal, that, that could’ve been the moment where he voiced his worries, or anywhere before that-

but even after that too, I know that even if he’d asked for a minute, Joon, Jin and m/c (the sweet girl was barely coherent and definitely wouldn’t have minded once she registered Yoongi’s glossy eyes, bless her heart) wouldn’t have held it against him or felt like he was ruining anything but ah !! you write my pisces boy so well !!!

I loved the parts where as the reader you’re engrossed in the saucy sections and then another train of though comes in (ie the food related white lie or Yoongi’s PTSD kicking in) this chapter was really good !!

yeah and the worst part is- i still have an idea for a scene in which the m/c doesn't use her safe word and i really want to explore it as a scene tooooooo but sigh, i feel like after bily is done i'm going to have to go back and like- write all the little scenes (especially a whole bunch of sex ones) that are happening in the middle of all this nonsense!

but yes- the m/c honestly wouldn't mind (and doesn't mind- though thats a bit of a spoiler) that yoongi safeword, if anything- the person most upset with yoongi using it is yoongi himself because i think i really love the relationship that traumatized people have between like- shame and guilt and needing things to be a certain way.

ahhh i'm happy you liked the parts where i was jumping back and forth! there is honestly so many little parts and alot of people have complained that it was kinda eerie or didn't let them relax but i didn't want to completely do it unexpectedly! thank you for telling me that you enjoyed it!

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quickhacked · 2 years

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[breaks down your door] give me the whole people section + 🌌💓 for vincent my utmost specialest boy

WOGHH THANK U RENA AAAAAA vincent my beloved... oh my god he's really in here now. into the washing machine he goes [microwave already occupied i'm running out of household devices]

👁️ EYE - what color are their eyes? do people notice their eyes? is there anything special about them (shows emotion easily, literally magical…)?

vincent has light hazel green eyes :D they're a very pretty shade and appear a bit more brown-ish in sunlight because there's little specks in them :) <3 they're insanely pretty and people tend to compliment him a lot on them!!

🤥 LYING - are they a good liar? do they have tells to show they're lying?

vincent is not all that great at lying, mainly because he doesn't like to bottle things up. lying to him is just adding unnecessary clutter to his brain and he will worry about it AND feel bad so even if he does end up telling a great lie, he will apologize very quickly and just tell the truth anyway because he can't stay quiet about it

a very obvious tell for him is that he becomes very serious when he's lying. he treats it as a very serious matter so he feels like it would be inappropriate to just be chill in a situation like that, without taking into consideration that him suddenly acting very stiff is Entirely out of place with how he usually is LOL so generally his friends can tell when he's not being honest with them, but it's always for a very good reason so instead of getting angry at him they'll ask what's bothering him ;w;;

👻 GHOST - do they believe in ghosts? what are their "ghostly experiences", if any?

vincent doesn't believe in ghosts but he LOVES to talk about it and discuss opinions with others. he would totally be down to go ghost hunting with you <3 he finds comfort in his own beliefs that at the end of the day there's nothing there but still likes to theorize about it and is very open-minded and likes to hear other people talk about it (doesn't just apply to ghosts btw!! he's like this for a lot of things)

he doesn't really have any ghostly experiences, but sometimes does experience. other things. such as his body warning him for incoming danger almost, in a way, and he has very strong intuition and a reliable gut feeling. this is all mostly because of johnny silverhand, in a way; though vincent isn't exactly sure how (yet. hee hee)

💥 COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with?

jealousy and sadness, mostly. vincent very easily thinks "i want that too" when he sees other people with stuff, mainly because when he was younger he didn't get a lot of things because his older siblings always took everything before he could even get the chance to get close to it, whether it was about toys or food or whatever. it's something he's painfully aware of and it bothers him a lot because he doesn't want to be like that, but it still ends up being his first thought VERY often (though it's important to mention he never acts on it and also doesn't let it influence his behavior towards others, it's just an annoying background feeling)

with sadness it's mostly because when he was younger he was ridiculed a lot whenever he tried to stand up for himself or whenever he was crying (or when he was crying because he was being ridiculed), to the point he's nowadays just expecting people to make fun of him when he's angry or upset. whenever he feels sad or feels like crying he starts to feel really bad about it and tries to hide himself away so he won't bother others and also as a way to protect himself, almost :((

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

vincent cries pretty easily, but also knows how to control his tears so he still ends up not crying all that much even though he Does kinda want to just. cry sometimes :// any kind of intense negative emotion can push him over the edge, especially anger for some reason; it's once again tied to him being ridiculed so often in his past, to the point it just already happens the moment he starts feeling angry

👊 PUNCH - are they quick to violence?

vincent usually tries to ask questions first and shoot later, but many gangs in night city don't give him the opportunity to do so </3 it's more out of necessity than willingness, but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do :// as soon as there's a non-violent option available to him, he's taking it though

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

vincent cracks his knuckles but does so pretty loudly, if you don't like that noise then. rip ig LMFAO he's trying to do it less because he knows vitali cannot stand the noise but it still happens subconsciously a lot

another thing is that he HATES it when people touch his stuff without asking and he can get very defensive because of it. mikhail and vitali needed some time to get used to this because they both grew up with each other and essentially sharing Everything and stealing each other's stuff constantly, but they're very respectful about it and do their best to remember

a last thing vincent has is his routines. there's a couple of things he just HAS to do sometimes, such as ALWAYS washing everyone's hair when they shower together, or loading the dishwasher in a specific way in a specific order. it's very harmless little things but they're easily overlooked by people who don't know him well, and he can get upset if he isn't able to do them. he's learned to deal with it better over the years but still prefers to just. be able to do them and luckily his friends let him <3

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

NOW THIS ONE IS NICE so vincent's parents are richard (a c*p smh) and elise (works in a grocery store), and vincent is the youngest of five. his older siblings are robert (7 years older), jason (5 years older), phoebe (4 years older) and riley (2 years older)

vincent doesn't have contact with his family anymore (RIGHT NOW >:]), he left home with the intent to just stay away because even though his parents weren't outright transphobic, they also weren't all that supportive and vincent was tired of trying to give them second chances :( he does still love his mom a bit. in a way. but he fucking HATES his father and that's not ever going to change <3

i won't go into great detail for his siblings right now because i'm still cooking up some detes and i also don't want to spoil everything but generally speaking, vincent and robert do NOT get along because robert is a fucking cunt, vincent and riley are kind of neutral about each other, and vincent LOVES phoebe and jason so much and they love him too <33 when they were all younger they were constantly bullying vincent, mostly "friendly banter" that kinda. went too far. they realize that now. but not back then. but basically vincent has always clung to phoebe and jason the most despite them also poking fun at him very often

for a future chapter i'm planning some sort of a "knives out" like mystery for the mayer family that forces them all back together >:] it's gonna be insane and vincent is gonna have a Time but i'm already very excited about this even though i am NOT good at writing mysteries LMFAO

😨 FEARFUL - when scared, do they go into "flight" or "fight"?

fight, usually. vincent usually Wants to run away but he rarely does, he wants to keep his friends safe and he'll be brave for that if he has to ;w;;

💤 SLEEPING - do they fall asleep easily? what helps them sleep?

vincent sleeps very irregularly so whenever he goes to bed he usually falls asleep very quickly because he tends to wait until he's Actually Tired. he's managed to get a better sleeping schedule now that he lives with vitali but still just. occasionally sleeps at Weird Hours LOL what generally helps him sleep is a nice meal before bed and also sleeping with others nearby helps a lot :)

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

vincent spawned in my head after i played the game as vitali and i once again got insanely obsessed with cinematic trailer male v LMAO i am in love with his design and i just. wanted to kind of recreate him?? so that's what i did <33 first thing i decided for vincent was that his face claim would be cinematic trailer male v and. well. he still has that now but i also tweaked his design juuust a little bit but in my head he still looks like that mostly <3

it's funny because i was completely not on tumblr when i created all these men so i have very little recollection of how it all started but i DO know that there was very little original content in the mix when i first made vincent and vitali. i just had them as ocs for cyberpunk and then when i created mikhail, THAT'S kind of when the rest of it all became relevant and i started thinking about what would happen after the in-game events and who else would be part of vitali's fixer network etc etc

so yeah vincent was literally just meant to be my v and i didn't have a lot of big plans for him at first, i thought he'd end up being a bit like nathan, ronan and tiberius in terms of like. video game main character oc who lives in my head sometimes. and. well. now this happened LMFAOO

💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing?

answered here! to add some more to it: he loves daydreaming about romantic scenarios, this is something he already did before falling in love with vitali (mostly with. random strangers he fell in love with for like 5 minutes LMFAO) and it would always get his heart going a morbillion miles an hour in his chest <3 later on he would sometimes think about holding vitali's hand but he'd have to stop himself because it would just render him useless for a good hour trying to recover from those thoughts LMFAO

oc asks!

#asks #mutuals #aartyom #ask:vincent #oc asks #THANK U THIS TOOK FOREVER TO ANSWER BUT I GOT LOST IN THE SAUCE LMFAO #i love my boy so much oh my god. augh #his little routines... i need to write more about that i Have to. god #and him and jason and phoebe... so many thoughts so many thoughts aaauauauuauauauau

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kithtaehyung · 1 year

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WHEW here we go Ryen!! This is a lot but here were my thoughts 🥰 (part 1 bc I have to split it all agagag

IMMEDIATELY I WAS LIKE FUCK ITS NOT NAMJOON AHAHAHA THEN OH FUCK ITS JIN!!!!! LOL I WAS SO SHOCKEDD BUT ITS OK WE LOVE

When I tell you my heart dropped to my ass…..PLEASE we know there’s some history here (& I can’t wait to know abt it!!!) but this made me so nervous for how yoongi was going to react - mad?? sad?? all of the above??

1. “Have you?” He is!! Just won’t admit it yet 🤪🤭 LISTEN I WAS GETTING SO TERRITORIAL IT WAS BAAAAD. I love u jk but please no 🫶🏻.

2. THE BIG REVEAL OH MY GOD!!!!! Hope is what leaves him!!!???! PLEASE DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEE - torn between wanting to be a good friend, stepping back bc miss girl is “off limits” anyway, thinking jk is what should be best for her…. HOPING BC MAYBE WE MIGHT WORK OUT!!!! YOONGI SHE WANTS YOU TRUST MEEEEEEE

Again, love you jk but not today ty 🫰🏻(u can come to me instead it’s ok)

THIS WHOLE SECTION. Ahh, it’s always the what ifs huh. What if he did step away and give jk and her the chance to reconnect? What if it’s really what’s best?? What if it’s not?? His POV is so interesting because we rarely see it esp in this light. All he wants to do is make her happy even if it means hurting himself in the process 🥲

BUT let’s stay in this moment right?? Hold you tight while he still has you😭😭😭😭 (the more than anything part absolutely killed me like yes let’s understand our feelings tonight thank you)

Need I say more

tbc hehe

ABEEEEEE I CAN FINALLY GO THROUGH AND RESPOND TO THESE AMAZING NOTES SFFHSJFD first off, can i just say: my jaw dropped when you sent this first one in, and then it kept going with each message of annotations you made?? holy shit i've never screamed so much when i realized what you were doing!! ok ok screaming over now we go under a cut for more (inevitable) yelling:

your thing about the brother was so funny bc LMAO i was wondering what people were gonna say when the rapline names dropped!! i saw that you realized that it in fact wasn't jin either so it's all good :D

awhhhhh yeah.. the way we get a sinking feeling as soon as the reveals start to happen. i like how you sniffed out a history so quickly, though?? damn!

1) “Have you?” He is!! Just won’t admit it yet 🤪🤭 LISTEN I WAS GETTING SO TERRITORIAL IT WAS BAAAAD. I love u jk but please no 🫶🏻. 2) THE BIG REVEAL OH MY GOD!!!!! Hope is what leaves him!!!???! PLEASE DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEE - torn between wanting to be a good friend, stepping back bc miss girl is “off limits” anyway, thinking jk is what should be best for her…. HOPING BC MAYBE WE MIGHT WORK OUT!!!! YOONGI SHE WANTS YOU TRUST MEEEEEEE

LMFAO THE DEFENSIVE MODE WAS ONNNN. we love jk so much in this house so this is all out of tough love, we swear!!

and your "NOoOoOOoO" TOOK ME ALL THE WAY OUT PLSSS.. yoongi def recoiled so damn fast but i get it. he had his reasons, albeit so stupid. :'((( if only he knew what we knew.

Again, love you jk but not today ty 🫰🏻(u can come to me instead it’s ok) THIS WHOLE SECTION. Ahh, it’s always the what ifs huh. What if he did step away and give jk and her the chance to reconnect? What if it’s really what’s best?? What if it’s not?? His POV is so interesting because we rarely see it esp in this light. All he wants to do is make her happy even if it means hurting himself in the process 🥲

LMFAO exactly i love how everyone's like "omg jk screw off and come to me instead" LOLLL

sheesh, his pov's always hurt but are amazing validations for us as readers. can you imagine if we didn't have any of his pov's? we would wonder what in the hell is happening and would be blindsided just like reader. on the flip side, it kinda hurts us two-fold anyway bc we know both sides. which is rough when both of them are so sAD but we wanna scream to not be!!

the "more than anything" and "please say his name a lot tonight" double hit absolutely destroyed me. bc this man, in his mind, knows things are ending soon. clearly, he still very much wants to milk out whatever he can with reader and it's just aRGHHGHGHHG

AHHHH i can't wait to respond to the other parts, abee. you are INCREDIBLE!! thank you so so much for taking the time to annotate the lines and screenshot and even format these reviews. i am: the most grateful and feel very unworthy honestly :'))) truly, thank you so much!! more to come soon!

#INCREDIBLE #abee!#lovely people #asks:3tan #3tanhof #3tan9 #*ryenfictalk #mailbox💌#long post #3tannotations

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daeguzen · 2 years

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jaemin was such a douchebag in winter's ornament of death 😭😭😭 was it really all for show when he started treating her nicely since the sketchbook incident to the cottage trip? 😔 didnt he feel a bit of love in between these moments? did he not want to find out why the princess sketched him? 😢

thank you for giving us a happy ending! (the title of the story originally scared me for a bit! haha, but it's a very special title though!!) did u have an alternative ending in mind for this story? has it always been a happy ending in your mind?

Hihi! Ah yes, Jaemin was very mean. I think personally, I didn't flesh out that section of the story very well in terms of characterization.

But in all honesty in accordance to how I wanted to write it, Jaemin was in love with the Princess the entire time. He never stopped loving her but he was angry with himself for still loving her and felt betrayed by her when she acted so cold. I don't touch upon what she says but as Jaemin puts, the Princess basically pushed him away and said she didn't want to be friends with him anymore.

That to him was like ripping his heart out. So he grew very bitter towards her and stopped trusting easily. As for the sketch, he did wonder why she drew him if she had initially said she didn't like his presence. So he thought to use that against her to figure out what her reactions would be if he started acted differently.

Even in that scenario, Jaemin was very contradicting with himself because he loved being with her but he also wanted to hurt her the way she hurt him. That's how it eventually came to Jaemin found the sketch, he devised a plan in his mind to figure out how the Princess would react, he was surprised that she reciprocated, but when they came home he decided to give her a little 'taste' of her own medicine. Because at the end of the day, Jaemin just finds it extremely hard to forgive her for rejecting him so harshly and making him believe he wasn't good enough for even her friendship.

That's where everything falls apart and Jaemin realizes that he took things tok far and that he was being not only a vengeful person but very childish for not letting things go and instead wanting to break her down. Because the Princess is someone who is kind and sweet but she's also very stoic when faced with a problem or insults that Jaemin would throw. It bother Jaemin because it seems like she just doesn't care when all he does is care about everything she does. She has that much power over him and his feelings which is why we find Jaemin contradicting his actions all the time. Basically the whole "I hate myself for still loving you" kinda theme.

As for the ending, it was actually in my inbox for over a year (so sorry to the person who requested it cuz I took a long time to write it) and if I remember correctly, they wanted a happy ending. Or they mightve not minded a sad one. I always have a thing for like....going through something rough or painful and then having a happy ending where both characters finally reach that level of communication. I don't know what that says about me but I like angsty stuff but with a sparkle of happiness somewhere.

However, there will be occasions where it's just pure angst like the Heaven Knows I'm Miserable and Remember When I Told You I Loved You (both Renjun fics, he's a sweetheart and I do this to him ah im so sorry Renjunnie)

But the thing I like about doing writings in this blog is that I can go back and add more or rewrite my stories. Eventually I want to fix that part in Winters Ornament of Death because I know I didn't communicate that scene very well.

Thank you for taking the time to read it though and for your questions, I love answering stuff like this cuz it's like the behind the scenes of the story. I hope you're well! 🥰💚

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dood1e-bug · 10 months

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(Spoilers) What are your thoughts on the ending now that you finished the game? Personally, I got really sad at the thought of them never seeing each other and hope that the devs add some kinda post story dlc about the group reuniting or the option to go with your romantic partner at the end of the game, although I’m not holding my breath on it happening.

DUUUDE

I so badly wanted to share my thoughts and experience.

HUGE SPOILERS of course

Ok so the atmosphere (mmuuah 💋) walking into the mirror and the other worldly feeling with the bridge section I was so nervous to walk in then the whole gang showing up before you confront Aleph made me tear up just to see all of them here.

The battle with regular Aleph was tuff. Felix was down and he was defeating more and more of my tapes til fittingly (in Freya's story) Her starter Spitzfyre got the final blow. An amazing battle that I wish we could do again same with the final boss

The final battle I LOVED IT the whole gang teaming up and then all fusing AND THE MUSIC havent talked about it yet but all the songs in the game are so good, I've been playing it on repeat while I draw and these final battles esp the one where they all fuse big fav it's still stuck in my head from last night.

Got damn the farewells it hurt one by one they said goodbye, I was already crying THEN freaking Felix said some cute stuff that made me even more sad 😢😫😭

Such a rollercoaster of emotions that final section.

But I enjoyed the game the battle system, little puzzles, bosses, characters, music, etc.

Oh yeah I dont see them doing that sadly (but AUs are a thing we can do)

Love to see them hang more as a group though in new wirral

#cassette beasts spoilers #ask #anonymous #cassette beasts

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morathicain · 2 years

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moraaaaa in the first minute!!! over pran’s bed!!! those pictures of them together!!! AND he’s hugging nong nao!! the breakfast in bed moment??? also the way pat consistently follows whatever pran wants/is comfortable with😭.. like even thru his sad puppy face he just accepts pran saying he needs some time to adjust😭 them finally holding hands though!!! and pat dancing in the car and singing that song to pran!!!! i can’t do this!!

AND INK AND PA I’M— ink knowing that pa likes shrimp?? and the way pa is such a mess around her!! AND THEN THE SLO MO AND THE MUSIC LIKE????? we really might win w this one. also pat seeing pa in ink’s instastory and being jealous that they can openly be together and on each other’s social media like.. the implications.. in p’aof we trust🛐

but honestly tho i really love how as soon as one of them gets upset/sulky the other will try to get them to cheer up. they did this before too but now that they’re boyfriends it’s sooooo. like pran’s little messages everywhere for pat, and pat in the xylophone scene when they go over the lines. everything they do is out of love for the other, even when we see them at ends w pat posting them on social media. it still all comes down to love.

also??? their whole phone call??? pat and his “go to the balcony? oh so i can jump off😀?” like pat pls give me a chance to breathe. AND PRAN BEING SO CUTE?? can you believe?? him doing all that just to see pat smile i’m sooooo. the virtual hug???? the comfort pat feels just by having pran’s shirt (scent) and pran’s comfort being pat’s earphones like.. ep4 pran is literally somewhere crying. he wouldn’t even believe ep8 pran exists.

and the last section!!!! i feel like their fight was a culmination of the same exhaustion that pran was talking about w wai. like both pran and pat are experiencing it, it’s just their feelings about it are different. i think pran felt that the exhaustion was just something they’d have to deal w if they wanted to safely continue on while pat is just dealing w the exhaustion because he wants to do what makes pran comfortable. also pat playing the xylophone and all those flashbacks between the two of them.. oof

i’m probs just gonna go ahead and rewatch this whole ep because this was ~a lot~ i’m literally hanging on by a tattered thread. and i’m sorry if i’m even less coherent than usual but this was really ~*a lot*~. i hope you’re having a good day/night and that you’re doing ok after this ep alskdjsk -🥞

Heeeey Pancake! =^^=

Sorry for the late reply, I am a mess right now and Bad Buddy doesn't HELP! XD

so yeah, feels all over the place and I haven't had time to rewatch the episode yet, which .... UGH, I want to! But damn that was amazing! *_*

They really came for our souls with their PDA and their cuteness and LOVE™, like I felt so damn attacked but also addicted to them at the same time. Because yessssss, the breakfast scene? The car scene? Pran going home because he knows Pat will be there and he wants to support him? The vitual hug?? The way they are so happy and in love around each other? It felt as if I've been attacked by rosa cotton balls until I was bleeding but I couldn't get enough.

Tbh I kinda expected more pain to start but the amount we got was already enough Q.Q

You're right about the exhaustion. They're both so happy when they're together but everything around them makes it so hard to be true and honest about their feelings, especially because it makes them so happy. For Pat it's even more difficult to hide it, but even Pran feels the weight of it and him saying it all in front of Wai hurt q.q

Still, they're amazing the way they are together. How each other's happiness and comfort is their priority. How they're also making sure to talk. How it's always both of them, not one. Despite all tropes, P'Aof really threw all the stereotypes into the trash with those two! <3

Thank you for your rant! <33333

I hope you survived your rewatch and are in another headspace than I am now XD see you soon and take care!

Have a wonderful day/night =^^=

(warning: I won't be able to watch next episode next friday, but hopefully around saturday or sunday, bc I'm with my family - but feel free to send any asks you want, I will avoid reading them until after the episode =^^=

#ask #Pancake

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