#i really am losing the plot

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

did you guys think id be normal about this

#im losing my actual minf #funniest person to show hanigng out with pep though. im so glad theyre getting along. #getting along 😏 really well #cuz basically like last we saw pep ran off and left blaine there to DIE #iconic #every time i am given a chance i will simply regurgitate the entire wc plot dont worry. i am obsessed that way <3 sorry #ok ok. sorry #adventure time #distant lands #fionna and cake #<- YOU GUYS SEE THAT? I CAN TAG BLAINE IN THE FNC TAG? #blaine #peppermint #digital #wait do i even need the DL tag. i usually do it. um. #whatever. sure. thats where blaine was born

[iamamythologicalcreature]

Six Sentence Sunday! The sequel!

So... Yes. I am still working on this little (I hope it's little) "What if Baz succeeded in stealing Simon's voice in 5th year?" fanfic of mine. Because. Um. I like the potential for angst? So much angst. Also other feelings. But for the purposes of today's little snippet: ANGST.

Since I missed last week (and might miss next week if I can't manage to write something new between now and then), you get 12 lines instead of 6! Also because the snippet wouldn't have worked so well cut in half.

You already know the premise of my fic, so this shouldn't come as too much of a shock: Baz did a bad thing, and he remembers it too well.

He didn’t start our would-be confrontation with any of his usual questions or accusations. He started with my name. "Baz—" That single utterance morphed into the most terrible sound I’d ever heard. Would ever hear. Snow choked on it, because it wouldn’t stop. It twisted and writhed in the air after clawing its way out of him. It became an unrecognizable, fading wail. Only I knew. I never stopped hearing my name. My name on Snow’s lips took forever to die. And as awful as that slow death had been, the silence that followed was a thousand times worse.

(Yeah. Canon divergence begins here. I did say I'm here for maximum angst XD)

Side note: Looking for brainstorming/writing buddies so I don't overwhelm the ones I already have. Ahem. If this story idea intrigues you and you'd like to let me babble at you a lot (I am happy to accept return babble if you also have a WIP), let me know. It's the only way I get anything done, apparently.

Bonus picture of my pile of notecards, mostly to prove I'm doing something, under the cut, along with tags!

(I am posting this at 7-ish am, then going to bed, so if you've posted already all you lovelies in other time zones, consider this a friendly wave hello! Will read stuff tonight!)

@nightimedreamersworld @cutestkilla @hushed-chorus @alleycat0306 @artsyunderstudy @aristocratic-otter @prettygoododds @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @supercutedinosaurs @martsonmars @fatalfangirl @thewholelemon @raenestee @ileadacharmedlife @ivelovedhimthroughworse @ic3-que3n @facewithoutheart @rimeswithpurple @erzbethluna @ebbpettier @ionlydrinkhotwater @whogaveyoupermission @theearlgreymage @philaet0s @scone-lover @youarenevertooold @whatevertheweather @brilla-brilla-estrellita

(Want tags? Don't want tags? LMK!)

#six sentence sunday #I know nothing of plotting #no really I mean I'm a total pantser #trying to plot #Baz should really be giving me tips while occupying my brain rent free the way he is #note cards are involved #right? #ZOMG SIMON LOSES HIS VOICE LIKE ARIEL IN THE LITTLE MERMAID #only I'm not writing a mermaid story #that's artsyunderstudy #no really you should go check out her sexy billowy shirt baz #are you seriously still reading my tags? #you're my hero #(I am so freaking tired) #baz pitch #simon snow #simon snow series #the simon snow trilogy #carry on #simon snow fanfic #snowbaz #canon divergence #jodofic

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i’m gonna be so honest i have no fucking clue what's going on in malevolent

#bluebird.txt #yes i am completely caught up. arthur goes on so many side quests that k don't even remember what the main quest is. #separate them??? king in yellow something????? #ik larson has yellow in his head. ik he has something to do with the cult of the fallen star. or whatever it's called #i know the butcher was out to get him but that's not a problem anymore presumably #i know kayne. i know john has a secret deal with kayne. i know those ladies from the beginning of the podcast. anna and sara i think. #um. #yeah #idk #malevolent #i need to relisten i guess #idk sometimes it feels like i really have no idea what's going on in the larger picture and it just feels :/ #i do love the characters but the plot is kinda losing me personally bc it just goes on and i can't remember the connecty bits #makes me sad #i am looking forward to the xmas special though

[problemswithbooks]

I knew Stain was gonna die because he wasn’t a LoV villain but I'm still bummed.

Like he wanted to die, so he got what he wanted, but I sorta hoped it would be a bit more heroic, I guess. I mean, he honestly didn't do anything helpful except cheer on All Might and get killed. Just like with his past contribution, he could have been removed, and nothing changes.

I will forever be disappointed we never got tenya meeting him again or even thinking about him given this was supposed to be the villain redemption arc.

I also find it funny that so far, he's the only villain that has died trying to actually stop AfO/trying to do good. Like yes, Toga might have died saving Ochako, but it was from a wound she gave her. Meanwhile, Touya might have had his last breath, wishing his family was dead.

I'm just bummed it was so pointless and quickly moved on from. It wasn't even the end of the chapter. AfO turns him into juice, and that's the end of it--on to All Might, thinking of his other dead friends.

Which, yes All Might is far more important then Stain, but it does make it feel as if Hori just tossed him in so AfO got a kill and he tied up a lose end as fast as possible.

Given the past villain death scare chapters, I know hori can do touching ends. Like it would not have killed him to have a one panel flash back of Stain as a kid holding an All Might doll when he thinks about how he didn’t even have a high school education. It would have humanized him before becoming a blood splatter and renforced that villains used to be kids once.

Instead, we get panels of him sniffing blood on rocks. 😒

#bnha 401 #hero killer stain #akaguro chizome #bnha spoilers #bnha #like again knew he was most likely gonna kick the bucket #and it was always gonna kill me a little because hes my fav #but still i expected a bit more effort #like at least Hori had him think about how he learned to be a hero from AM #but its really shallow and a waste of a death the way its done #like stain was more integral to the plot then the dude saving bakugou #but he got a way more touching end #i swear if someone makes one of those is stain dead or alive blogs im going to lose it #bitch is super dead #even if we didn’t see the body #the fact its so quick and moved on from is all the proof u need #will he be alive in the au i have in my head? #yes very much #but canon wish hes mush now #and the sad thing is #no one will care #and its clear hori always just saw him as some crazy guy #only a little more sane then flesh eating body suit Moonfish #stain as a concept had great potential and now hes meat paste #waste of a character 😒

[thefirstknife]

I admit upon seeing the art for Season of Defiance that we would be having a Mara focused story instead of her just being the reason why we're able to do stuff.

Plus Where's Petra, Eris and Sjur.

Dreaming City curse developments when?

Oh yeah, same. I definitely expected more about Mara this season.

Some of the stuff we got this season from her is really good to me, but would feel much better if she had an actual central stage and if there was more stuff about her and the Awoken in general. This season is really just about Crow again. And while I love Mara's and Crow's development, I feel like it would've hit a lot better if that was handled somewhat differently and if that was the true focus. Adding Amanda stuff in there is kinda watering it down.

Also Mara being so broken over Amanda is very strange, they didn't know each other at all. I do enjoy that Mara is involved and moved by people dying for the cause; before, she would just treat those things as part of the duty everyone has to the universe. But at the end of the day, Amanda is just one of the soldiers that gave their life for the cause. And if we're adding Mara's grief about a dedicated soldier dying for the cause, I really expected some mention of Sjur. We got one hint at Sjur and that's it.

I suppose adding Petra and Eris would've been too many characters, but also it wouldn't have been too many if the season was truly Mara/Awoken-centered. Also PLEASE. When will we have a Mara season where Eris shows up. Genuinely like. Mara and Eris share an incredibly unique relationship and we've not seen them interact on screen, ever. Nothing in Lost, nothing in WQ (where they're both on Mars at some point??), nothing now.

On one hand, I do like the focus on some other characters like Devrim and Amanda, but also combining it all with Mara and the Awoken ended up feeling unfocused. Mara, Techeuns and everyone who might've been a good match for a Mara season playing second fiddle to Amanda just feels kinda weird. Like, I do enjoy Amanda as a character but I honestly do not see how she's that important to be center of the season. And now even more so given her death and so much dedication to it and who knows what's happening with that in the future. Like, as much as I don't think it would make sense, she might still turn out to be a Guardian. It's a possibility and if that's the case, then she would have to be someone important for that to make sense.

I'm not too bothered by it all, but I do definitely feel like some potential was lost with this setup. And that's honestly a good point about the Dreaming City curse; when are we dealing with that? Can we expect another Mara/Awoken season at some point? This season is kinda about the invasion of Earth so clearly we weren't going to deal with the Dreaming City. But that's somethinig that should be solved at some point. Maybe then we can expect Eris and Petra and maybe even Sjur. Please Sjur.

#destiny 2 #season of defiance #mara #ask #please please please sjur #also like. eris and mara. can we do that once? #eris in general. eris and osiris???? #she has still not interacted with him or asked about him even #not in any scene not even in lore #like. eris. the therapist. has not asked about osiris. her friend who lost his light and ghost on the moon. like she did. #man who was heavily affected by savathun's schemes and plots. savathun pretended to be him. and eris has no comment #hello? i am losing my mind about this #eris hasn't asked about osiris in three years?? the last time she mentioned him was in BL letter #and then on top of that she hasn't really even talked to mara #even when mara had savathun in her house. not before not during not after #????? please. eris is BESTIES with these people

[immediatebreakfast]

Sometimes I wonder if despite being such a nice book Dracula is destined to have horrible adaptations that don't care about the original material, while the few good ones remain hidden for avid readers to see.

Yeah the Drcl Midnight Children manga is still shit, and it twisted all of the characters so beyond that the only thing they share is name. Warnings for sensitive content regarding sexualization with Lucy because I do warn you it gets really gross.

Shinichi Sakamoto literally had the easiest job in the world if he wanted to adapt Dracula into manga since he already has a gothic art style that could have been the perfect ring for the novel. We have already seen in the Manga Classics adaptation that you only need to draw what is happening in the novel, that's it.

Just grab your ink pen, and let Stoker's writing do the heavy lifting while you go crazy drawing all of the dresses, and the bats.

But nooooo! Everyone thinks they have the Big Brain™ to "subvert" Dracula while doing what everyone else has been doing but worse every time. The same tropes, the same complexes, the same beats, even making Dracula the protagonist. All of it feels the same, and Midnight Children does this too BUT WORSE.

It's infuriating to see Mina and Lucy portrayed like this. Also I only mention Mina and Lucy because these girls are the only characters who got any "dept" in this story, everyone else is a downright cardboat cutout, or worse a stereotype (Guess who is this one). Again, these modern writers end up being more sexist than century old irish writer with all of these "subversions" somehow.

We start with Mina Murray, a peasant girl who managed to get into Whitby's only boys academy which makes her a pariah among her peers, and subject of bullying for being first a girl, and second poor. This Mina is... pitiful.

She is not the Mina Harker/Murray Train Fiend, lady journalist, and leader of the group. This girl is only Mina in name, and in typewriter use because this is just a poor teen girl desperately trying to survive in the middle of a hellish school while surrounded by bullies. Drcl Mina is intelligent, but only in information, she tries to document just like Mina Harker, and the narrative conveniently spits on her efforts by having Dracula somehow tamper her precious typewriter.

Even with all of drcl Mina's wits I don't feel the same resolution, and admiration that I felt for Mina Harker in the novel. The manga is only presenting a poor girl named Mina scraping at every small bit of information she can find to somehow explain all of the supernatural shit she is seeing, and the sudden sickness and death of her only friend. I don't want to cheer for this Mina, I want her to grab her bag, and get the hell out of that school and out of Whitby even if it means abandoning Lucy because the conflict feels pointless. It feels like something that she can't win, or fully understand because SHE IS A CHILD.

A child that is trying so hard to be voice of the group while no one listens to her. All of Mina's qualities, and intelligence are not there because the story downright erased the epistolary format that gave her so much charm and character to make way for shock value scenes that only paint Drcl Mina as a pitiful fool going in circles for trying to win against Dracula.

We all know that Jonathan is Mina's other half, the only person who defends her, and loves more than god itself through the whole narrative. However, having Jonathan with Mina in Midnight Children could mean that Mina would have some sort of supporter, and that doesn't make room for tragedy™ so no Jonathan for Mina!

Now, talking about Lucy (Luke). How the fuck Sakamoto decided to make this Lucy a trans girl, then immediatly sexualize her in the most gross way possible. It's a new layer of grossness because in this adaptation is very textual that Lucy is trapped inside Luke, and she has to pretend to be a boy in front of everyone else except when she is alone with Mina.

It could have been a sweet, but rather tragic story about Lucy trying to overcome her own internal battle with her gender along with her trying to make sense of her upcoming tragedy masked as a chronic illness.

But no, this Lucy is passive, midly cruel, and reduced to a puppet device for gross sexual scenes that borderlines on transphobic voyeurism. Remember that Midnight Children Lucy is a TEEN.

She never lifts a finger to make the suitors stop their bullying towards Mina despite her calling her "my only friend." She never tells Mina of any pranks, nor consoles her in her lowest moments. This Lucy is every adaptation Lucy that paints her as the whore to the madonna, and somehow becomes more useless because of the rampant sexism, and the perceived sexualization that will always follow Lucy's character despite her being a symbol of purity, and the perfect victim.

Just to tell you that the first encounter between Lucy and Dracula here is on the Whitby shore, but instead of being a glance of red eyes that incites dread, teenager Lucy is alone when wolf Dracula steps on Whitby soil, and something really gross it's implied for shock value, and I had to put the phone down, and take a moment.

ALSO STOP DRAWING 15 YEARS OLD LUCY NAKED JUST STOP. IT WILL NEVER LOOK ETHEREAL NO MATTER HOW MANY FUCKING FLOWERS YOU DRAW ON THE PANEL BECAUSE THE FOCUS IS ON LUCY BEING NAKED. THERE IS LITERALLY A FUCKING PANEL WHERE LUCY IS COMPLETELY NAKED, AND EVERYONE (INCLUDING ADULT VAN HELSING) JUST STARES, AND IT HAS EVERY SINGLE INSULT ON THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE, and that scene is so cheap edgy that I can't.

Also all of the symbolism, and mystery of the bloofer lady is gone because here vampire Lucy graphically kills the children she feeds from, so... another plot line into the trash.

#Honestly how could he grab a very straight foward story and just make it a mess #Like as beautiful as the art is the panels and the structure is all over the place #There is no clear yesterday today tomorrow and no it doesn't work to create a dream like atmosphere it really loses the thread of the plot #Why am I doing this to myself? #dracula daily #dracula #drcl midnight children #cw sexualization #cw violence

[submech]

I am so excited for dunmeshi anime I want it to be january already...

#I jsut remembered how the other day I ranted to my friend about the anime vs the manga's style and how I hope they lean more into #Kui's style later in the manga even though thats unlikely. I just really adore the thick detailed lines and unfortunatley I feel like a lot #of that style is lost in the anime from what we've seen #Losing the plot here but nevertheless I am still really excited mainly because I want to share it with my friends and sister #Who don't really get around to reading manga (understandable bc reading manga is hard for me too) #But dm was really easy for me to get invested in and get up to date with quickly! #I'm excited to see everything I'm hopeful. Eeeeek

[fuckmeyer]

if a vegetarian vampire drinks human blood, do their powers become stronger? (since generally vampires are stronger when they drink human blood?)

I’m thinking of this in the context of jasper’s curse, that he claims the emotions of his “prey”/victims make feeding unpleasant, but wouldn’t eating people enhance his ability, increasing his suffering? like a fucked up little positive feedback loop

yes! Edward mentions it in Chapter 14 of Eclipse:

"Human blood makes us the strongest, though only fractionally. [...] That's why [newborn vampires] are so strong, of course. The newborns are full of human blood - their own blood, reacting to the change. It lingers in the tissues and strengthens them."

human blood increases the intensity of Jasper's gift/curse, perhaps a detectable amount but not a crippling amount. i'm sure the loss of self-control/discipline/mental acuity that veggie vamps seem to have would also adversely affect Jasper's ability to control his gift.

stupid idiot boyloser in his fucked up little feedback loop :) get fucked

#asks #jasper hale #tts #twilight meta #twilight renaissance #when i think about Jasper drinking human blood and how it causes him to lose control of his gift #i am thinking about the way in which he can manipulate others #kinda like how i bet the hulk is super strong but like can't hold an egg without beaking it #i bet jasper can make someone really balls-to-the-wall angry but is less able to do it in a subtle way. he loses a bit of finesse #ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT BITCHASS SMEYER SAYING HUMAN BLOOD MAKES THEM 'FRACTIONALLY' STRONGER????? #NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #veggie vamps should be WEAK AS SHIT and human-drinking vamps should be BALLS TO THE WALL INSANE #they should be the fucked-up levels of strong we see the cullens have canonically BUT the absolute rank insanity due to #bloodlust fucking up their head #PLEASE smeyer i am BEGGING YOU to give the lore and characters and plot ACTUAL CONSEQUENCES #FUCK ME PUT A LITTLE WEIGHT ON THOSE CHOICES. PUT A LITTLE MEAT ON THAT STORY #FOR GOD'S SAKE I CAN'T TAKE THIS FUCKING-

[novelconcepts]

Paper girls was one of the most honest genuine portrayals of being a 12 year old girl I've ever seen. Even apart for them fact all this shit is happening around them they are still 12 year olds with 12 year old problems.

The period scene in particular was one of the best, truest scenes I've ever seen. It was beautiful, funny, awkward. It was perfect. 

It is so fucking authentic. Everyone rightly leans on how powerful the performances are, but you also get such a range in the writing. The period scene, the sleepover scene, the gentle bickering, the in-your-face meltdowns, the gremlin run up the stairs--it's all so perfectly tuned to what kids are like. And it never talks down to them; the rare time an adult tries to imply a situation is over their heads, they're instantly shot down. Because kids around that age are smart. They're learning who they are, how the world works, what their individual moral compass looks like, and it means they don't get things right every time, but they're capable. They can in one moment be reassuring and kind, and the next snappish and closed-off. This show allows room for that without ever feeling like a deviation from character, which is...frankly really impressive.

It always strikes me--in the best way possible--that these girls are all allowed to be mean. They're allowed to be catty, to be vulgar, to say the wrong thing with good intentions (Tiff pointing out KJ's missed her puppy's whole life), or the barbed thing because they're just being a dick (Mac's "you don't have to talk all the time" followed by KJ snickering). They aren't forced into stereotypical boxes, true, but they also aren't forced to be Sweet and Pretty and Kind. They can be those things, sure; when Erin's falling apart, everyone's there to catch her, and when Tiff's walkies are stolen, Mac's got her back, and when Mac is facing mortality, KJ won't let her do it alone or give up on herself. But they're also not always gentle with one another. A lot of the time, they butt heads. Sometimes they punch each other in the face. Sometimes they have to apologize and mean it for the friendship to continue, and it strengthens their bond every time. Sometimes they're stupidly reckless, lobbing the single brain cell from one girl to the next: Tiff running after the backpack, Mac going off on her own in the middle of the night, KJ stealing the motorbike, Erin getting drunk at a party. And sometimes they're so level-headed in the face of panic. They are all allowed to be incredibly nuanced, so full of life and hope and fear and anger. They're never dumbed down, even when they act like dipshits. I cannot remember the last show that not only took into account what historical periods were actually like, but what young girls are actually like to this degree. I will be gutted if we don't get a pickup, because, Jesus, imagine the growth in coming seasons.

#ask #paper girls #paper girls spoilers #i am literally interested only in thinking about this show and my grief for it is enormous #the arcs! the depth and weight every character is given without ever feeling forced! #the plot is not without its flaws it's true--there are holes and some confusing elements #but i am so confident further seasons would smooth a lot of that out #the first run was about establishing this world and in the world of paper girls everything is so fucking bonkers #that what REALLY matters is these four kids #if we're not on board with them nothing else will ever stick #so the first season did the right thing. the smart thing. in fleshing out these flawed wonderful characters and making them so human #that even from their first scenes you have a sense of what you're working with--but you still only know enough to be hooked #and the rest of the season is about 'looking a little deeper' and seeing how many layers each of them possess #it's a slow burn without ever feeling slow and it doesn't talk down to them at all and i! am! furious! at the idea that it got cut short #i am absolutely praying legendary knows what they're doing #i mean. they've spent money retaining the rights right out the gate and announcing it's in need of a new home. that gives me some hope #i just really really want them to prove me right on that count #because these girls have so much further to fly and GOD this cast is perfect. i would be heartbroken to lose them after all they've given

[pennamepersona]

woke up thinking about the narrative use of astarion & how weird it is that his personal quest doesn't tie into the main narrative At All bc something is wrong with me, etc

ftr, i'm saying all of this as a bigtime astarion fan. love this guy. i keep romancing him and it's begun to feel like a cry for help. And Also, @ larian it's really fucking weird that you made a guy who doesn't tie into the plot at all

i'm putting the rest of this under a readmore. also i'm maintagging this mostly just for being able to find it later, if anybody wants to come @ me then pls know i basically never engage w/ tumblr and you'll probably be disappointed.

best i have for a real justification is that astarion exists in part for players who want to be Evil And Fucked Up. none of the other companions are fully down with using the tadpole powers or trying to take over the cult. and it is genuinely good to have a companion who gives you that option! if players who wanted to explore the fucked up options had complete disapproval from every companion, it would be kinda feelbad and make those options feel less like a real choice you're allowed to make.

why does that matter re: astarion being entirely detached from the main narrative? thank you for asking. it means that "guy who is down for being fucked up and taking over the cult" doesn't come across as secretly being in league with the bad guys the whole time. astarion having no link to ketheric, orin, or gortash means that his power play ideas don't make you suspicious that he's been lying to you and is just waiting to deliver you to the Chosen.

to be clear: still weird that he has no direct tie-in. but this is the best reason i could think of for why he'd be so completely not involved.

the other Point Of Him, i think, is for The Dark Urge. it's no secret that astarion is a killer parallel for durge. i'm not gonna go into that but goddamn, i love it.

and if we're looking at things from the durge perspective, i think it kinda works for astarion to be so detached. he then becomes Random Baldurian Affected By Durge's Actions and it adds more strength to him also functioning as a piece of nuance for the tadpoles. he's the only one who directly benefits from the tadpoles existing! and that on its own is a cool bit of narrative. i think the durge side of things makes astarion's narrative tie in just a bit more. we've now got Dude Who Was Saved By Player Character (Albeit Unintentionally). i think it adds more depth to the durge narrative, and if the dark urge was the only non-origin option and tav didn't exist, i think it makes astarion's lack of narrative relevance a bit less glaring.

tldr; useful for the guy who's down to be fucked up to not be involved with the villains At All so you don't get suspicious of him and the option to be fucked up feels like more of a real option

(also tasty durge & astarion narrative depth)

#bg3 #bg3 meta #astarion #still weird. can't emphasize this enough. #i'm a major astarion fan and still @ larian what's up with this guy #i think i'm onto smth with having him as the If You Wanna Be Fucked Up narrative support #and i really do think it makes sense for him to not have any possibility of being secretly involved with the Chosen #still weird but that feels like it might be the real reason #i'm rly tired btw so possible i'm less of a genius than i think i am #fr woke up and almost immediately started thinking about this #wrt to the rest of the companions i landed on shadowheart and lae'zel being the most Necessary ones #wyll adds reason to care about ravenguard and also ansur #karlach ties into wyll and gives more gortash narrative #never thought about it much before but gale is actually v similar to astarion #his quest ties into the narrative but he as a character does not #you could remove gale and lose nothing from the actual plot narrative #the fact that his quest ties in makes him in a whole other category than astarion ofc #but he doesn't actually leave a hole like the others do #though tbh karlach is the next easiest to remove #she adds to wyll and to gortash but mostly she is uninvolved w/ the bigger narrative #wyll should rly get more attention from larian given that he's the guy who gives u reason to care about the Baldurian side of the narrative #the duke is def helped by wyll being around #but the most necessary and narratively useful are absolutely shadowheart and lae'zel #shadowheart has the artifact. could you just find it on your own or have it Appear somehow? sure. but she makes it infinitely less clumsy. #also the Entire thing w/ aylin #rly the whole shadowlands thing would lose a lot w/o shadowheart #and lae'zel is your Singular connection to the githyanki #it isn't *necessary* but you lose quite a bit of Giving A Shit About Orpheus which is y'know #i would say pretty important #none of this is me saying any of these companions are therefore Better than the others btw

[straylaughs]

this is honestly worse than 2019 bc at least then the fandom was barely a fraction of the size it is now and it felt like most stays knew how to not excuse their actions (though ppl were actively reporting vlive comments so like not that much better)

but now it feels like the majority of this fandom is actively trying to promote this song just to spite boycotters and that geniunely feels so gross?? like this isn't out of ignorance this is targeted

#seeing a bigger effort for this than even their last cb because yall would rather support zionists #insanity #i /would/ ask: 'when did yall get so hateful?' #but lmfao nvm its actually always been like this #this whole thing is just leaving me with a greater feeling of despair than anything else #cause i really am not seeing how this'll get any better #(hoping i am proven wrong) #but also (side tangent) i just cant fathom how a group like skz developed a fandom that so vehemently believes music shouldn't be political #like how did we lose the plot THIS badly #stray kids #skz

[flythesail]

I'm pretty confident that by the end of Nancy Drew, my season ranking is going to be 2, 4, 1, and 3 from most to least favorite.

#s2 just has too many iconic episodes + the nostalgia factor to beat it #but s4 has given me so many new favorite episodes #and i'm really liking the overall plot too #s3 i dont think was as a strong #particularly losing 5 episodes had to have hurt it #s4 pacing feels a lot better though #i do love s1 too #the tiffany and lucy mysteries are absolute classics #yet it also takes time for the characters to settle into their dynamics #as much as im dreading the end of nd i am looking forward to a rewatch from the beginning #and forever grateful we get a complete story #flythepost

[kijosakka]

wheel of names save me save me wheel of names (picking out what direction my plot should go in)

#fuck. HOW DO I UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #need to make a pros/cons list. how am i supposed to make decisions in these conditions #and its not about ‘losing’ potential scenes cause i have so much from my ‘intended’ drafts that i- #-want to spin into summary fics or smth just to explore it without fringing on the Plot #i just. really dont know what to do here hnngghhfhh #plot convenience. but also the Potential. #FUCK. #kijorambles #hadys

[running-in-the-dark]

I want to be someone who has smart and interesting things to say about shows/movies that I like - like when I tried to convince my friends that they really need to watch Leverage. that would have been useful! instead I'm just like 'it's sooo good I like it so much I love all the characters they're all so awesome 🥰'

my thoughts are generally just like.

ooh he soo prettyyy. I want to braid his hair. hehe he punched someone. look at his lil face 🥰 baby boi. pretty smile his mouth is so nice I like his teeth. chest hair. hands! arms arms arms 🤤 his eyes are so pretty. oooh blood on his face, blood on his face! he's growling. annd his voice is all raspy again. I wonder [many many redacted thoughts]. ooh now he's in danger oh noo 😏

there's a bunch of 'she's so pretty' and 'I love her' somewhere in between all that too but mostly it's just. very, very stupid

#and I wonder why I don't remember the plot of probably half the leverage episodes #I'm rewatching it with my partner now and it was. definitely interesting. how I remembered pretty much everything from season 1. annd it #got so much worse after that #I wonder why that could be :') #I have said at least half of these things out loud just during the last episode I watched #I am so fucking stupid for this man #no thoughts just 😍 #my brain melts and gets replaced with just pictures of Eliot with hearts drawn all over them like I'm a creepy stalker but also 12 years old #and tbh probably half of it is actually just. oh I need him. I want him. I love him. #do you sometimes wonder why some people feel the need to share every goddamn thought they have no matter how dumb it is? #why? oh no reason. me? oh no I don't do that I'm so normal! #hey at least I didn't once mention how fighting him and fucking him would definitely not fix anything but tbh yeah no it totally would #it really would #annnd now I'm losing my mind again and I better shut up before it gets even worse #like fuck it's like I literally lose the ability to form a single coherent thought #I've had thoughts about shows before! I'm capable of that! but not wjrn #there's a man. #ugh. horrible. bad. so stupid #(but he's hot and I want him and) #(oh crap now he's really in danger oh no I don't like it oh don't hurt my baby 😭) #(oh thank god now he's hitting people again. phew.) #anyway shut up shut up shut uppp #personal

[scarletiswailing347]

so the unfortunate thing about me is that, when it comes to the media i consume, i tend to have one 'anchor' (very rarely two) to keep me interested

this is necesary cause i have an incredibly hard time being interested in things in general so i have to purposefully spend my focus on one thing so that i can keep being interested in it cause otherwise i just kinda feel meh about the thing, i mean ill still watch and enjoy it but i wont be as interested as id like to be and may even drop it eventually after struggling to keep interacting with it (this is unfortunately what happened with empires, x-life, yogscast, and the lsmp seasons without mumbo in it)

if i ever drop that anchor whether purposefully or not then i lose interest in everything that ive ever connected to its rope -- i could still enjoy them sure but then at that point theyll just be like every other filler content in my life, like music when im washing the dishes

for hc its mumbo, for dsmp and smplive it was schlatt, for the scrunkly squad its boosfer and baablu

for lifesteal its zam

idk what happened behind the scenes but ill be honest its not looking good and theres a possibility i might have to drop him :/

#mine.txt #not sure yet tho cause without enough context it just feels like im doing something unnecessary that the affected party (lila) #may not necessarily want #i mean intuitively it seems like something that someone would want #guy who hurt you loses support? sounds great right? #but thats not really something everyone wants and i am Very Sensitive to feelings of intrusion whether by me or other ppl #either way im def gonna loosen the hold at the very least #i mean i Could look for another anchor but its a lot harder for me to attach to an anchor if they were attached to another anchor before #so for me to stay interested in something even after the anchor dropped there has to have been another anchor at the same time #like boosfer and baablu with the scrunkly squad #even if one of them drops i can still stay interested in ss (although i may become more focused on one inner circle more than the other) #also ill be honest i just dont really care enough about lifesteal in general to do that #what a shame i really liked zams character too #both drawing and making stories of him #just gonna go hard on baablu and mumbo if it ever happens ig #oh man just realized im gonna drop gen too if and when it happens #nooooo not my saturday morning cartoon T-T #it is what it is ig its not the first time this has hapenned and it wont be the last #honestly the best option for me to stay interested in something is for the plot/lore to be my anchor #unfortunately that very rarely happens cause of how character-driven a lot of stories are #and esp with cc-content its even moreso considering its nature #...just now realizing this May be part of the reason why i love mystery stuff so much #yeah the characters are important but they mean practically nothing without the plot like they wouldnt act the way they do without it

[qeyond]

going through some of my old youtube playslists and not to be dramatic but I always loved imagining B writing this song about L

if you eat up everything you love, it'll be with you forever and ever :3

#ugh its so fun and creepy #and i love him having that energy #'love you L forever and every youre the worst thing this world ever spit out <3' #qeyond sucks #okay yes beyond would understand its really the systems that failed him's fault and not like obv L specifically #but im also obsessed with characters that arent logical about shit #he gets caught up in his adoration for L that he really latches onto the 'you are why i am the way i am' vibe #i love a lil yucky boy stuck in his head about everything to the point he loses the plot a bit #death note #beyond birthday #q music