#i need to stop writing and some sleep

[coupleoffanfics]

Gotham Isekaied Reader

I have an idea. It's nothing new. I wrote nearly 5 pages of this idea, but I'm too scared to post it since it's filler and I even drew a cover. So I will ramble about this idea through headcanon. Some Jerome x Reader, I’m sorry. I can’t help myself. CW: One mention of suicide.

y/n wakes up to find that her life has gotten a major upgrade. Any flaws that her family has is erased. Did mom drink away stress? Now she doesn’t even touch alcohol. Dad isn’t smoking away his life. Her older brother is a law-abiding citizen who is studying to become a lawyer. Her younger brother is more positive about life and growing up in a home that they wished they had.

Not to mention that they’re rich. She no longer lives in a bad neighborhood and sleeps in a snazzy mansion.

Life is looking up until y/n turns on the TV with a news story about a man killing corrupt people with weather balloons.

She sits there thinking, ‘This was nice, but I should be getting back home.’

Maybe y/n’s close friends with Bruce beforehand. That’s when she realizes that she has to learn about the other y/n’s life. She can’t risk telling anyone about “we’re in a shitty TV show” without everyone considering throwing her into a mental institution. Tough luck because she ends up in Arkham regardless.

She writes down plotlines that she remembers. Making files on the character that she has met. Her files are hidden away in her room and aren't brought up later down the line when a certain person finds them.

How y/n ends up in Arkham is complicated. I want y/n to be completely sane through our POV, so she’s not going to be “I’m so insane and quirky”. Maybe she’s framed or killed someone in self-defense. Well, okay, I have thought out what gets her thrown into Arkham, but I don’t think anyone would find it interesting.

During her trial, the prosecutor will use her history of depression and suicide attempts to paint her as a homicidal. The whole trial is fishy, yet ends with her being locked up.

Bruce believes y/n when she says she hasn't done anything and promises to get her out of there. Legally of course.

Alfred probably tries to keep Bruce from visiting because Arkham has a reputation and doesn’t want him to be anywhere near there. The poor boy is going through too much in a short amount of time. 

So Bruce will send Selina to deliver anything. Or they both run away to visit y/n. When they come back to the manor and Alfred is questioning them, they both lie by saying that they’re somewhere else.

Bruce just wants to make sure his bestie is alright. Selina is just along for the ride but might visit y/n even when she doesn’t need to.

While in Arkham y/n is vibing in her little corner when Jerome starts bugging her. Might tell him about some plotlines just to see if anyone would believe her.

Jerome just laughs it off and starts orbiting y/n because she’s interesting. She tends to ramble and mumble to herself, for some reason he finds it so cute.

“You’re kind of funny, but I wouldn’t call you a joker.” She says before thinking, ‘Because legally you aren’t him. Thanks a lot, higher-ups.’

He writes about her in his diary and uses any stickers that she gives him. ‘Yeah, she's weird. Calling people characters and saying that we aren’t real, but she’s my little weirdo. I also got another pack of Hello Kitty stickers from her.’ Then he proceeds to doodle her with crayons.

When Theo Galavan surprise adopts them, Jerome starts taking y/n’s words more seriously. Still doesn’t believe her when she says he and everyone aren’t real. Like how is that possible? He feels real, oh whatever he has no time for that.

At the manor, Bruce is freaking out and dialing Jim begging him to save his bestie from that homicidal ginner. Theo has to make it seem like y/n is a hostage since she refuses to do any killing and Jerome has scary dog privilege.

‘They aren’t real. They aren’t people.’ She’d try to tell herself, but she just can’t bring herself to try to hurt someone. y/n is one of those freaks who try to drive safely in GTA without running over anyone or anything.

She doesn’t think that her words mean anything and that everything will follow the script. Until she tells Jerome to take an extra lighter with him. She’s chilling by herself when the news shows footage of a burnt bus and the news anchor talking about the cheerleaders who lost their lives.

That’s when y/n starts thinking over everything she’s said. She debates whether or not she should tell Jerome about Theo’s betrayal.

‘The show does start declining in ratings when he’s killed off. I could be doing the writers a favor, but what about the people? No, characters. They’re just characters! They aren’t real!’

In the end, Jerome is killed off and she’s put back into Arkham. Everyone is surprised by how calm she is after Jerome’s death. Not upset or anything. Like weren’t they close? Maybe their relationship was more one-sided.

Jim will question y/n and she might let a few things slip. Most brush her words off as they believe that she has some sort of Stockholm syndrome and is angry at Theo for killing her captor.

Back at Arkham, y/n yells, “FUCK!” When seeing Hugo Strange.

When Theo is dealt with, Jim will visit her or send her a thank you card for pointing him in the right direction regarding the investigation.

I’m getting tired and I might continue writing about this.

But I was going to have y/n be free from Arkham when some evidence regarding her case comes out. y/n will be outwardly passive throughout the story.

In the end, I was going to have y/n be the one who becomes Joker. Maybe she falls into a tub of chemicals. Don’t worry darling you aren’t going to be deformed like Jeremiah at the end. You’ll look different, but still smoking hot. 😘

Anyway seeing the physical change, her dwindling hope of getting back home, and her mental state being worn out. She decides to step up and take the name of Joker.

Bruce angst all the way. Maybe angst for other characters, but I could see this tearing him apart. He’s forced to watch his closest friend be replaced by a cackling monster. To then eventually start fighting against her.

She doesn’t react to being called y/n anymore, but she’ll give Batman/Bruce a melancholy look if he calls her by that. He doesn’t call her y/n often because that wasn’t y/n. y/n l/n was dead and there was no way she was coming back.

The theory of Joker being sane will ring true to y/n. She knows this isn’t real. It’s just fiction and any good piece of fiction needs a good villain. Since she’s not making it back home, she’ll make things fun.

Or multiple endings because those are always fun.

“Jerome? Jeremiah? Never heard of them.”

#gotham x reader #gotham tv show x reader #dc x reader #jerome valeska x reader #gotham fanfiction #my idea rambling #will i ever do anything with this idea? idk tbh #i need to stop writing and some sleep

[divinekangaroo]

What is your thought on the S6 Tommy and Lizzie sex scene, would you consider it to be dispassionate and disconnected, they don't kiss. Does it scream end of a relationship that is long time coming?

I think it looks like grief-stricken lovemaking, and an attempt to connect between people who’ve been married for eight years and having sex for some fifteen years and who just had a daughter die, so possibly passionate sex is not on the cards for a while, and maybe hasn't been on the cards for a long time prior either. 

This sex scene also lands at a time where it's burdened with a massive amount of emotional issues delivered, not just Ruby's death, but Duke's reveal, and Tommy having just been given a terminal diagnosis. Perhaps Tommy feels like he's on some kind of countdown now to find a way to ‘fix’ this tangle of grief and disappointment between him and Lizzie, hence relocating their efforts to a hotel room to try to re-spark something more passionate. 

It seems Tommy always takes the role of sexual initiator with Lizzie: so, given this is not their first time having sex after Ruby's death, this is possibly also one of many attempts by Tommy trying to use sex to provide and receive physical comfort and intimacy. The relocation to the hotel room is trying to let them get through it without Ruby coming into the conversation. Lizzie's got plenty of reasons to be mad at him, and is definitely hurt, but she isn't shunning him or cutting him off from sex. They're both still reaching out for each other in the way they know has worked for them in the past, because I do think they use sex in particular to connect when words tend to trip them up badly.

They're very focused on each other’s faces in this scene, eyes open throughout, close and touching, a full length body press, so I think of how this sex scene is more about proximity and touch, which is intimate and connected.  The lack of kissing doesn't bother me one way or the other - I don’t really think of them kissing much, more touching /nuzzling. They don’t ever kiss in greeting the way some couples do, but they do embrace and usually touch/press faces. 

On whether a (tired, trying-to-connect) sex scene screams the end of a relationship a long time coming, I think they did a great job in S6 of playing the relationship dynamic as so very complex, you can never quite tell if a break up will or won’t be inevitable.  But that complexity, I find, is more in the dialogue and their other non-sexual physical touches, not this sex scene alone.  If there were a sliding scale as to ‘doomed relationship’ vs ‘fragile/imbalanced but ongoing relationship’, I’d put the sex scene on the ‘ongoing relationship’ side. I find it sweet and intimate and sad, and very middle-aged married couple, and they're both ok being a little bit pathetic with each other in favour of still making that effort to hold each other.

#peaky blinders #tommy x lizzie #just remember i'm biased because i love fail!sex #and think tired established couple fail!sex is the most intimate loving sex possible to show or write #passionate sex is invariably some form of a performance #also i do wonder what was happening back at home after ruby died for tommy to decide he needed to book a hotel room #tommy seriously rolling on top of lizzie every night trying to work through her (his) grief that way #and she was not warming to this? #or he was losing his hard? #or she was asking him to stop and leave her be? #or was lizzie initiating and tommy couldn't respond? #or did they lay there staring at the ceiling and someone would say #remember when ruby was sick and came in to sleep with us and threw up in your hair #and then it'd just be grief and memory and ghosts

[magicaldreamfox1]

u know. if u gain more confidence in ur writing then it'll be more fun and less miserable

#i just feel like this has to be said #it's not easy to do ofc it's not and i had help #but it's never wrong to try and work on urself #bc being miserable is just not worth it #stop overediting stop trying to be perfect just post ur writing and then write a lot more #it's not easy but it's simple #if that doesn't work for u then find smthg that does #bc genuinely u guys Need some confidence #bc that's ur hobby and u shouldn't be miserable while doing ur hobby #gain confidence set boundaries put it down when it needs to be put down go to sleep when u need to sleep #it takes a lot of time and a lot of trying but so much can change for u if u just try #and i am trying to take that advice myself in a lot of other areas im not perfect #but my writing improved so much since i gained more confidence and now i just have so much fun writing #where i had to sit myself down and make myself write previously it's just part of my routine now and i do it nearly every day bc i like it #idk if that makes sense but conclusion: y'all need more confidence in ur writing so u can stop being miserable #dni if this post doesn't apply to u and u like being miserable or smthg idk #this is also not abt mental illness so don't start #this is abt insecurity making u miserable #and ruining the joy of creation #thank u for coming to my ted talk #dreamy talks

[lunaetis]

[ i got sucked into relink and it's 1:40AM i should sleep HJKLHLKJLK ]

#.ooc #.mobile #[ it's saturday night i'm allowed to stay up playing games ! #but ok i shall sleep now HJKLHLK i almost nodded off at that last quest #bUT DAMN IT'S SUCH A FUN GAME #i'll try to do some writing tmr ... maybe some asks bc i owe A LOT HJKLHLK GOSH I NEED TO STOP HOARDING #hope you all have a good day / evening / night on your end ! #if you see me interacting w/ your posts after this post jUST BONK ME IN THE HEAD #AND THROW MY ASS TO BED THANK YOU ]

[hermanunworthy]

help im rereading MY OWN FICS and being like "goddamn this is so relatable fuck" yeah maybe bc u wrote it mf

#this shit hurts bro. some of the things i say.. #'ilysm (it scares me half to death)' vs my normal kinning ass #i need to stop rereading instead of writing. or sleeping whoops #siren says

[hua-fei-hua]

it's definitely extremely funny that after i start writing a smut For Real (not clickbait) i proceed to receive. a fucking nosebleed. like this is anime.

#it's definitely Something that it also happened like. after i seem to have lost interest in writing it #BUT ALSO THE NOSEBLEED JUST LIKE. FUCKING HAPPENED??? #LIKE I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP (had been for like an HOUR) AND THEN SUDDENLY. I FEEL THIS RUSH OF LIQUID OUT MY NOSE???? #and i'm like 'oh it's like when i'm ill and have a runny nose.' but i also wasn't sentient enough to think 'but i'm not sick???' #however i WAS sentient enough to think 'what if it's a nosebleed? let's taste it' AS IF I HAD A NOSEBLEED IN THE LAST DECADE #and then i was like 'hmm well it's kinda thick and metally. let's turn on the light just in case.' AND WHABAM.... BLOOD ON MY HANDS #okay well that's a lie i also smeared some on my fingers n squinted at it in the dark n was like 'that's awful dark. it might be blood' #and THEN i turned on the light and saw all the blood. my sheets have tinie bloodstain on them now. and also my stuffed unicorn :c #and then it just like. wouldn't stop. but it has stopped now! huzzah #i almost went to the bathroom to get a wad of toilet paper but then i remember i still keep a box of tissues by my bedside #from my plague days when i Definitely Fucking Needed Those Things All The Live Long Day #(oh right i got vaccinated yesterday <33 well i guess two days ago now. we love inoculation!!! i'm doing my part :D) #anyway i'm now chillin in bed with the lights on and my head tilted back bc i'm worried #that if i just try to go back to sleep then my nose will just start gushing blood again #anyway i also went and got a glass of water. that's supposed to help right? right #anyway (2) we'll see what happens to that smut. i Need to be better than my archnemesis at this #tho considering she writes like Peak any two guys shit these days i imagine it would not be that hard! #花話

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Oh, no, I made myself love my story ideas so much that I'm not going to be able to actually write the stories. I'm just going to explode.

It's even worse because one of the ideas is a story that has stumped me for a long time, and all the pieces have finally come together except for the climax, and I'm going to obsess over solving this problem instead of writing the story with a mostly-complete outline.

#adventures in writing #there is emotions! #and regret! #they're both hiding from their pasts and have to step into the light and trust that they're loved #but you've got to have story logic and not just emotional parallels #it needs a climax that's exciting and not solved too easily #and flows naturally from what's already happened instead of just coming out of nowhere #and every time i come up with an option that fits one of those things another piece falls apart #it's possible i just gotta figure out options #and probably stop looking at a screen and get some sleep #and then wake up in the morning and write the simpler story #and probably never write this one because the moment will pass #hence my heartbreak

[nothoughtsjusthoffstrahm]

Think I'm gonna rewatch Saw VI and Saw V for chapter 5 of my fanfic once I get some sleep 'cause I finally feel both good enough to write it and am fully back in my Hoffstrahm mood

#i was kinda more in my Ghostmyers mood lately tbh #now it's back to equal so <3 #and i do need to take some more notes for this fifth chapter because it's actually even more Strahm's investigation-based than #the other past ones #anyways you'll see you'll see at some point #but writing an investigation is actually so fun to me #i had no idea this would actually turn out to be one of my fav things to write #this fanfic really made me realize another thing i do really adore to write #i gotta stop blabbering and listening to music and just go to sleep for real #it's 5 am istg

[daz4i]

how did we get here

#(it says ''words''. this is what i wrote of that fic so far) #abt 50ish of these are like outlines for future parts I'm planning but the rest is. yeah #200ish is the scene i originally wrote earlier as well. but the other 1100 is all weird domestic shit. wow #I'm stopping here tho bc i really do need to sleep soon akdkflglb and i need to be more awake to figure out how to connect the scenes #(I'm right at the glue part between the original scene and everything before it. gotta make some tweaks to work with it first too) #anyway. even if i wake up tomorrow and decide it all sucks. i think I'm allowed to be proud of myself for now af least 🫡 #lol remember how just a few days ago i said I'm probably gonna stop writing stories . amazing what s&m does to a person

[roses-and-tears]

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#I have spent. 8 almost 9 hours resetting my laptop. I chose the option to keep all my files but uninstall apps. and it has been restarting #and installing for almost 9 hours. yeah I get that the process will be long. but ffs #I have been bored the past few hours so I watched the smile movie bc I got reminded of it yesterday #it was pretty bad. the couple gorey scenes towards the end were nice but some of the acting and writing was just terrible #I was also hoping the movie would’ve taken a different turn. I think it would’ve made it more.. idk. I can’t think of the right term.- #-it just would’ve made it better I think. #I’ve also eaten a lot today. more than I usually do. more than I have in months and years and im upset about that. im already bloated. #I hope I don’t work tomorrow. I have to call in in the morning to check. and I don’t mind working but rn I just kind of want to spend the #day relaxing #I’ve spent almost 9 hours on this resetting part. and 4 extra hours trying to simply repair it in restarts #I also need to clean up my room. a lot of it. and clean my pets cage. it’s ant season now and im really stressed about that #the smell of sharpie returns and I am just. overwhelmed. I have 3 days to prepare for my special week long activity and im not happy about- #-that. #I also had some feelings earlier that im stressed over too. #im being vague about that bc i just don’t want to go off about that to everyone #im tired and overwhelmed i just want my laptop to finish resetting so i can stop fretting about this. i want to sleep #im tired. of so much #to delete later

[loregoddess]

con't Octo2 observations, endgame spoilers, etc.

did not see a wild Ori in Hikari's Stormhail chapter, but it's still a solid chapter overall. Still not sure why Stormhail, located where it is, is Ku's "launching point" for domination of the eastern continent since it is really, really far inland and does not seem and ideal place for Ku to have an outpost in, but the politics of Ku and the rest of Solistia continue to baffle me

Agnea's Sai chapter (listen I've long since lost track of which chapter I'm on for anyone) places Cuani in Sai 20 years prior to the story, which is...uh the same time period that Ku took over Sai? I am assuming Cuani stopped by after the war? damn Sai is a mess of confusion when it comes to the timeline of events and worldbuilding for Ku and Timberain. We know Oboro/Kazan was born in U (which Sai was a part of), so if he's in his 30s then he was a teen when U was razed, and Ori was younger than him (so she's probably in her mid 20s?), and I have no idea what this means about Dolcinaea (iirc she states that she was abandoned by her parents, so she's probably basically a war orphan as well), but what I don't get is why Sai, despite clearly being part of Ku, has people who were trying to work w/ Timberain (leading to the five-year long war that Castti and co. helped out in), like is there some sort of labor agreement in place? ugh, Sai is a weird town...

Also finished Hikari's final chapter (rip, Ritsu managed to kick my ass several times, so far the only two deaths I had were wandering into a side dungeon way under-leveled, and the Grieving Golem bc I didn't optimize my subjobs beforehand; I actually had to level-grind a bit for Ritsu bc I tried dragging two characters who were like ten levels under the rec'd level into the battle, whoops).

ANYHOW I noticed Mugen chants the same thing child-Hikari chanted after being overtaken by the Shadow ("quench the flames, call out to the night" or something along those lines), which suggests that the shadow-stuff going on with the Ku bloodline seems to act sort of similar to like, what Lyblac was to Galdera? in that the Shadow of Ku isn't like, specifically Vide or even makes the descendants of Vide worthy candidates as vessels, but the Shadow does take hold of them in an attempt to bring about the right conditions for Vide's revival, which makes me wonder if D'arqest was actually playing the role to Vide that Lyblac played to Galdera, but bc Vide is a different entity than Galdera, Vide needs a legit vessel which is how the entire "Claude was bio-engineered to be Vide's perfect vessel" came about, even though as we know anyone can be Vide's vessel (re: Oboro). Because Hikari and the Ku bloodline are direct descendants of D'arqest and not of Claude, this would also explain the differences between Hikari's struggles with the Shadow, and Throne just chilling with her special night powers (since she would be a descendant of Vide's vessel and heir to the powers of the vessel rather than to the shadow blood of D'arqest...maybe?). To be fair I am kinda tired, and my brain's a bit fizzled from irl stuff stressing me out, so I'm probably grasping at straws here, but, hm, lots to think about here.

ALSO, also Mugen does say that the "light of [Kura's] bloodline" lives on in Hikari (and that this clan also fought the shadow historically), so while this isn't a direct 1:1 connection to the Lumine family being the "bloodline of light" it is pretty damned close, so yeah, I'm thinking Kura and Rita were distantly related, and I'm still thinking they might have some connection possibly to Alpates. So hmm...yeah more stuff to think about....

#I should really go and sleep I have to be up early for work #I just wanted to jot down some thoughts so I could stop saving them in the ''I need to write this down so I don't forget'' part of my brain #game theory is my treat for having to deal with the horrors #as is ruining my sleep schedule I suppose... #anyhows...that's all for tonight #oracle of lore

[firewoodfigs]

✉️!

#send me some asks re my fics if you wanna :) #or any of my wips!!! #for sneaks or hints or just to scream AHAHAHA #I’m so bored rip I wanna write fic but if I start I won’t stop and I need to sleep and study 😭😭😭

[ladyseidr]

desperate need to explore my michael's nightmares tbh. both in like a He's Totally the Protag Of The Nights In FN.AF4 And I Should Get To Write Him With The Nightmares way and just in a please let somebody recognize that he has nightmares and care way—

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥ #f n a f / #.tbd. #hallucination mentioned tw #btw his nightmares don't stop as an adult they just get more diversely horrible </3 #i do also write him as still sleeping some ( whether he /needs/ to is debatable ) post-scooping so they rlly do just. not stop. #he also sometimes struggles with recognizing dreams from reality due to sometimes experiencing hallucinations #so it's uh. rough. #anyway i think abt him seeing nightmare fredb.ear with blood on his teeth CONSTANTLY #plus just the exaggerated teeth on all the animatronics in general. haunted by his own actions and all that—

[witchwhaat]

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#maybe i'm dramatic but i'll literally never forgive my uni for making me stay with that thesis supervisor :))))) #the whole process of choosing a supervisor was a circus and then when i tried to change it i wasn't aprobed for some stupid petty reasons #that don't even concern me #and now i'm stuck with a supervisor who i don't like can't communicate with and i'm 100x times more stressed bc of that #and i have to work in a way that's uncomfortable to me and which does NOT work for me i hate it here #like normally i would have already stopped wiriting hours ago but i can't :'))) bc i need to write more :'))) #which surely is such a good idea to write some bullshit just so i hit a words count he wants :'))))) #*it wasn't approved #arghhhhh #it would've been so much better for me if i just ended up with the supervisior i wanted! #my supervisor is not even interested in the topic i chose and he doesn't know anything about it! the supervisor i wanted to choose does! #sorry i'm just very frustrated with how it all turned out and i just want to go to sleep but i still have like at least 2 oages to write #agnes talking

[konveeart]

I thought last year I made the Art Summary post in January but I played myself. Anyways, Happy New Year!

I figured in early 2023 that I have a difficulty differentiating "want" with "have to". It's a real piece of tangle that became alarmingly obvious in the last months, between end-September to spectacularly turn into an aggressively-flashing-sign in December. I found more balance than I ever have to this date in the first half and by losing it in the second I can confirm what made it work, which is a big win. I am entering 2024 determined, carrying my worries and feeling nervous, but I don't feel desperate. At least, not in art..! For the future.. the pov might heavily rely on my dopamine levels and Vitamin D deficiency.

I drew a lot this year! The difference between sketching and drawing/painting grows in my folders but I've consistently for 2 years kept a "warmup" folder which also grows with a satisfactory level of diligence and fun. I taught myself to draw decent hands (still struggling when they are closed or.. doing more things than fingers being spread-out to show "I am a hand"). I also did a lot of new things!

::Quick Summary

January: launched an enamel pin ks campaign || February: drew a lot of アキ天, zine work & made my first home-made sticker-sheets🍓|| March & April: chibi-style exploration, SK8 sticker-sheets, sketchbook challenge and campaigned another special-merch collaborative project (」*´∇｀)」 || May: Convention time! ..and final zine work for the year (￣▽￣)ゞ || June & July: busy with the ks & packing orders || August: r e s t ♥ (with the best beans! I miss you all!!) || September: revisions, file-sorting, wrap-up commissions, picking up my projects again || October: online-shop run, comic-drafting, life gets busy || November: life is on fire, paperwork, learning to study (and succeeding) but getting tired, trying my best to keep on drawing!! || December: burnout caught up, Christmas cards give me life (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡, escaped to the mountains, pet a lot of cats

Thank you for an adventurous year 🌱 Wishing everyone all the best for the coming one ♥

Fun facts:

I've done a decent amount of work for myself and I plan on doing more! I keep having the difficulty of working out some boundaries for myself but it's improving.

This is not a resolution but if by the end of the year I have not sorted out my files, that's it I'm deleting them...! (bold statement)

Feb-Mar-April I discovered The Pudding Club and GOON and their music gave me so much energy! This is one of my favorite songs and makes me do a little dance every time I hear it~

What steadily led me to burn-out by December was denying myself wind-down time, daily, for four months (if not more). I remember feeling anxious in Jan - April for making so much work and still going. "Can it really be this good? Is this normal??". But the seedling sprouted and I took good care of it, despite my worries. I intend to keep taking care of it with more diligence. Sleep and food are necessities, and so is play.

#art summary 2023 #yearly art meme #art summary #I managed to do so many things..! #Some are in the works and not finished- but they are getting baked and that's awesome #I feel so tired eeee..!! #I spent an hour writing this and I am still not entirely happy EHEH.. Maybe just stop poking at it #Nearly made it CV like and i was laughing at myself #i NEED more energy this year.. figure out how I spend it to be precise #I am so excited and have so many plans.. can't contain everything.. aaaAA! #fake brain energy- I feel like sleeping but get so excited over everything I want to create!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BODY COOPERATE!! #please I need the day to be longer ..! #thank you for coming to my tag talk

[essektheylyss]

Actually, in all seriousness, I do think my goal for NaNoWriMo this year is to write 50k of absolute crap, just unusable garbage, for one particular universe, because by the end of it my brain might be working again and that world is gonna be a lot more thought out, and I have spent so much time for the past three years but this year in particular trying to write a lot of decent, readable fic, and I just need to produce some utter horseshit on the original front to get over my block there.

Back to the true NaNo roots: WRITE SHITTY WORDS, REJECT QUALITY, CREATE EARNEST GARBAGE.

#i have gotten about 1100 of those words down and I'm ready #let's DO IT #and then maybe ill fucking finish hawksbane but yanno. the STRUGGLES. #also this whole project is designed so i stop thinking about How To Write A Novel so it really tracks. #Format is great for having some chill restrictions until suddenly you're incapable of breaking the rules at all #ANYWAY i need to sleep so i can do it all again tomorrow.