#i need a fuck load of this actually

[aeondeug]

thing i need more of in fiction: butch/butch romance

#i need a fuck load of this actually #tons of it

[haunted-xander]

Do you think Saix' emotional co-dependence started as a Nobody or did it start as human Isa and just grew to an unhealthy degree?

#i like to think it started as a human partially bc that would make the most sense to me #(as xemnas/org xiii likes to use its members established weaknesses against them and saix/isas attatchment to axel/lea would be very easy to #manipulate him) #but also it furthers the parallels between saix' jealousy and rikus arc in kh1 #which i think is fun #obviously it wouldnt have been nearly as big a problem back then as it ended up being later on #partially bc isa wouldnt have been manipulated and gaslit so much but also #bc he wouldnt really have any fuel for it like saix got #no super-important super-secret mission they have to do #no forced emotional distance #and the idea of being 'replaced' would have been much more fueled purely by anxiety than any actual possibility of happening #oh and he also would have at least one other friend (subject x) #even if its one he wouldnt be able to talk to all the time #anyway im rambling. saix/isa got fucked up bad and i hope he gets loads of therapy bc god does he need it #isa #saix #lea #axel #leaisa #akusai #it feels kinda wrong to tag their noboy names when its them as a kids #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts birth by sleep #kh #kh bbs #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[mattodore]

finally updated my game for growing together and the first thing i did when i opened cas was make this guy... say hi to rajan 👋

#river dipping #my sims #simblr #ts4 #ts4 edit #basically mia for two days bc i was updating my game and cc hunting for infants and fixing mods and i come back w/ this #WHO is he? you ask #...............................idk just some guy kdjfngsjdnkjnsdgk #literally no refs no aesthetic board just made this guy from scratch after i realized i forgot to update stand still in cas #which meant the infants were all glitched and i couldn't do anything with them #like i was annoyed so i just started fucking around in cas instead of fixing the problem jfgkdjhg #i've fixed it now tho (i think) so i'm loading the game back up as we speak!!!! #i actually wanted to check on some sweaters i recolored and then i'm gonna make a baby for the sole purpose of putting them in theo's arms #>:) #also yea i went through the trouble of updating everything knowing that horses drops soon <3 #i'll just wait another four months to update again 😁 #...........also seriously this is just some guy i don't really have anything i need him for #i gave him outfits for all the categories too like....... why? idk but he was fun to dress #i'll probably throw him in either attilio's legacy gameplay (...pour one out for our forgotten men) or the new !! casual oc save #ALSOOOO need to edit the sim lush made me so it suits my sim style more and i'll put the sim in my saves too #i'll probably bring her back out whenever i DO update to horses kdjnhkjgnh i think her and attilio could be ranchers together

[ianthedebonair]

I am looking respectfully at your Hollow Ground 😳 What do u think Damien's relationship with him is gonna be? 💞💖

I've been breaking HG's nose for the majority of my playthroughs for the hell of it. But I loved going deep into his mind and go fishing for a moray so I'm thinking to have that over in my save state.

Damien will definitely be curious about what happened and wouldn't be able to keep a mystery like that unsolved. If HG still seeks Damien's partnership in Book 3 (which I hope he still does), Damien would be inclined to agree in order to take advantage of HG's resources, investigate their connection, and maybe do a bit of spying for our local glorified power bank (he did promise to help after all).

What might bite him in the ass, however, is whether HG would pursue a more familial relationship with Damien...

He'd be a fool not to take advantage of their sort-of blood connection to further infiltrate HG's ranks. Getting buddy-buddy with HG might make him feel like he's wearing a dead person's skin and living their life, but he's always been good at playing roles (plus it's HG, so no harm, no foul when Damien ends up betraying him). The problem is if Damien would end up actually liking the role he's playing.

He had to act human to fulfill his missions and liked it a bit too much that he escaped The Farm. He didn't really trust the previous Rangers and Ortega all those years ago, yet he became comfortable playing hero, and now the loss of what he once had still hunts him. He swore never to make contact to the Rangers again but is now playing the role of a disillusioned retiree a bit too well and is being dangerously comfortable in their headquarters. He also planned to keep his relationship with Dr. Mortum purely transactional, yet now Jane and the good doctor are literal besties and drinking buddies.

If Hollow Ground wanted Damien to play the role of his brother and fall into the trap of finding a connection that makes him feel human, how would this be any different?

#the latter half is a whole load of “what if” but i hope we can explore this dynamic with HG #and that's assuming HG has an ounce of actual affection left for his dead bro #Damien's unconsciously desperate for human connection because deep inside he thinks it would make himself more “real” #he's just doomed to repeat his mistakes 😭😭 #he has simple needs: just treat him like a decent human being and he'll eventually cave in #what a softie (derogatory) #the bar is on the fucking floor and we have The Farm to thank for it #fhr #fallen hero #hollow ground #damien becker #sidestep #anon #at #my art

[silver-horse]

Yes! Thank you modders! I was about to ask for this

#looks so fucking cool #astarion #outfit #bg3 #mods #nexus #modded #baldur's gate 3 #ascendant astarion #epilogue #cool #clothes #mod #astarion ancunín #astarion ancunin #bg3 mine #my post #my posts #now I only need to find a way to actually make my previously modded saves load in 😭😭 larian please ... do something... saves don't work

[antisocialgaycat]

4000 posts are you fucking kidding me

#4000 posts #tumblr milestone #i need to get a life #like actually need to get a life #fuck #just a load of garbage

[stonerzelda]

FUCK IT I'm gonna try to drop off a resume at my ex rival hobby shops store tomorrow idgaf 😈 plus it's centered around KNIGHTS. How much more destinal can you get

#at least id be surrounded by actual interests i care about and can help people with! i WILL need to learn how to play warhammer tho #they have loads of tournaments for it there. im honestly game fuck it lets go. ill give it a shot 💪 #im too weird and offputting for the pet store <3

[pierog]

i have a really cool job interview MANIFEST FOR ME!

#i dont wonna say specifics in case i jinx it #it's with animals #quitting mainstream journalism's been soooooo awesome #im “freelance” now which means i cook delicious meals and go to the beach and get paid for writing silly self-indulgent pitches #this job im applying for would be so lovely actually a childhood dream come true.. a complete career change #i have lots of experience and a vaguely related masters but i'm norveous cos i know theres load of others WAY more qualified academically #i'll actually be fucking stunned to disbelief if i get it but i didn't even expect to get an INTERVIEW so mayhaps i need more faith... #personal

[altschmerzes]

getting real tired of people who are shitting on “found family” more generally as a narrative concept and specifically named familial dynamics in fan interpretation of characters in particular because it all seems to be getting painted with a really wide and really homogenous brush. “we need to take found family away from people because they think it all has to be In Nuclear Family Terms and do you know friendship exists and you don’t have to call these characters siblings to legitimize their relationship while making it clear you Don’t Ship Them Ew Gross and THEN you sneer at people who Do ship them” cool cool that is a lot of really intense characterization and assigning of motive to other people en bloc!

like sure there’s some meaningful critique to be found in a broad trend to label every single relationship directly and specifically with terms that have very specific contexts and roles but im waiting to be told when anyone IS by the standards of people making and reblogging these very sweepingly generalized posts allowed to call a relationship parental or whatever. is that Ever allowed. who is handing out the permits. sometimes a specific term for a relationship isn’t actually about wanting an excuse to sneer about your ship (and frankly there’s a lot of projection going on there imo from people who are actively sneering about other people’s interpretation of a relationship!) and it’s because there are very specific contexts and details about a dynamic that makes exploring it from the lens of siblings or whatever very rich and compelling and interesting because words mean things and assuming everyone is just being reductive and demanding conformity to a nuclear family is, ironically, really reductive.

so like. cool it. stop being really fucking mean about people having an interpretation of a dynamic you personally don’t like or makes you feel a little weird or uncomfy because you ship them.

#gav gab #im so tired of seeing people do this lmao #is someone actually being reductive and trying to get your ship labeled ‘basically incest’ #or did they just express on their own blog that they don’t ship something bc they see those characters as siblings #so it feels weird to them #you know #the exact personal preference and interpretation you’re expressing in the opposite #it’s all ‘UGH not every relationship NEEDS A SPECIFIC LABEL’ as soon as the label isn’t romantic lmao #like amazing of you to start caring about how friendship matters as is legitimate without anything else #as soon as it’s not about your fucking ship anymore :) #be real you do not care about friendship lmao you can just dismiss it more easily and comfortably #when people aren’t using terms that are more loaded to your ship #are the big meanie found family enjoyers actually harassing you for shipping fake incest #or are you just uncomfortable when it is not about you #and chronically unwilling to curate your experience the way you demand other people to #because fandom has always catered to shipping and why should it ever Not be expected to do that #bc I sure see a lot of shit talking of familial dynamic labels based on people who use those labels being weird to other people #and not a lot if any of those people actually being weird to shippers #and one or two isolated incidents is not indicative of a widespread problem #do what everyone who doesn’t like a popular ship does and unfollow and block lmfao grow up

[wild-at-mind]

Not to talk about MRA-lite spaces again but I'm going to need everyone to understand that in these spaces, the subtext of 'men don't get to talk about their problems' is ALWAYS 'and it is women's fault!'

#my time in the MRA-lite saltmines returns to me yet again whenever i see the transandrophobia side of tumblr #look- it's just the same stuff ok? Or maybe i'm just biased because it triggers me the fucking same no matter who is saying it #also please note i'm saying MRA-lite and not MRA- I understand that MRA usually has connotations of violence for people #MRA-lite is nothing like that it's just a load of talking about men's issues but without any of the context #the very important context that you need to place the issues into wider society and its effect on everyone and not just men #these spaces may not be violent but they are quite pointless and the conversations never ever go anywhere #and it's been the same like 5 conversations for the past 15 years and no doubt much longer but that's as far back as i go with it #every time someone discovers the 5 or so men's issue they act like they just converted to a religion or something #and bring it up in everything. I was like that too at like 21 i promise i get it! but now i look back and CRINGE #and i am a guy now! ok? I get it that a lot of people are transmasc doing this i get why! but..... #i just wish it was less of a Thing. and i genuinely find it triggering. #because i do fucking care ok? i have academic books about some of the 5 or so men's issues on my bookshelf! #because actually there are people writing these books and they do care! #i had someone a while ago saying it was 'sad' to see a trans man talk like i do on this so i explained where i'm coming from #and they never came back so i will never know if they saw my point of view and that kind of sucked #hopefully that won't happen again- i really don't like arguing with other transmasc people (i like discussions though) #anyway i'll stop rambling now

[diah-the-demon]

YES I FUCKING GOT TICKETS FOR ADO WORLD TOUR FUCK YES

#ado #ado world tour #HELL YES #they were mostly sold out in less than 5 seconds #i reloaded the page as soon as it hit 3pm (the time sale started) and ALL OF THE VIP #AND MOST OF THE GENERAL ACCESS TICKETS WERE SOLD OUT IMMEDIATELY #holy shit how the fuck did i actually manage to get them #we had me. my mum and my aunt all on our phones and laptops on this page to buy it #my aunt was able to get 2 bought #me and my mum also got 2 loaded up about to be confirmed but we didnt buy more than we needed obvsly we just let those go once we made sure #that my aunt had confirmed her 2 ones were purchased #IM SO FUCKING HAPPY HOLY SHIT #also managed to get seating tickets (well the venue is mostly seats anyways but still) #I DONT NEED TO WORRY ABOUT STANDING TOO LONG NOW CAUSE WE GOT SEATS

[onconstellationstreetmp3]

the worst part about the godfather iii was the incest and the best part was how severely divorced Michael and Kay were. I wish they got into spy vs spy antics

heres the thing if yr gonna do incest you can at least NOT be lame about it the incest was serving ZERO cunt slay beyond the fact that andy garcia & sofia coppola were really hot in that movie outside of that it was just. wheres the DRAMA. wheres the NARRATIVE SIGNIFICANCE. 'wah wah wah you cant date him cause hes in the mob' BOOO its PATHETIC it just came off as awkward teen flirting with no plot relevance AT ALL!!! so i DID NAWT LIKE IT!!! but i DID like seeing michael MISERABLE & kay GETTING ON HIS FUCKING CASE. society if she killed him

#me.txt #correspondence #my friends :) #the godfather #im basically fine with incest plotlines if theyre like. good. yknow? like if its well executed & has some actual relevance #like with any ofher romance arcs i need them to mean something #& its like load bearing symbolism! family corruption! cost of power! perversion of protective bonds! #but even though tgf is sooo heavy with the fucking Family Themes it somehow pulled it off the worst way ive ever seen #granted i do not see a lot its like greek plays & dead ringers but STILL. #tgfiii fixing you either have to make it worse or make it better to make it actually good. you get it. #either eliminate that plotline or execute it like you fucjing mean it #i have less fhoughts on michael & kays relationship i do remember being vaguely annoyed cause some scenes it seemed to be #teetering on the edge of them still being in looove or whatever i wasnt into that shit i needsd them to be maximum bitchy

[monstertsunami]

sanyura is like toxic yaoi to me

take my hand.. we could make this real...

#boss makes a dollar i make a dime thats why i answer asks on company time #as always my fave ship dynamic is 'i dont actually ship this and i dont even think theyd ever date but i think they can hurt each other+ #so badly without even needing to be in a relationship' #shipping is such a loaded word.. it implies cute romance and dates . fake as fuck

[linddzz]

I've been having some Thoughts on how the push to vote in the past has given people the wrong idea of what voting can accomplish but also why it's still something you should do. I'm not gonna try to convince people who are ideologically against voting (though I have some raised eyebrow Opinions on people who stick to ideology over actionable results/goals set in reality that I'm probably gonna end up ranting about here) but I WILL push back against the people who seem to want everyone else to also not vote and get all high and mighty at any mention of voting.

Some basic facts right off the bat;

1) Voting ON ITS OWN will not stop a fascist state

2) Voting will not Fix Everything

3) If you ever approach voting as only going for who you Believe In you will be disappointed. Politicians are not your friends. They are not heroes. I don't even think 99.8% of them are good people. Ideological Purity and politics don't mesh in reality.

4) Our system sucks. It is flawed. You can't change that by voting. You also won't change it by NOT voting and being smug online about it.

5) Voting Is Step 1. It is the LEAST you can do for civic change.

Bold on the last bit for a reason! You can not change the system from within the system, but voting is not the same as say, becoming a cop thinking you can change the entire institution by being "one of the good ones." A vote does not lock you into the system. You can vote and then go flip a cop car over and spray paint a confederate statue. You can vote and then join a co-op for community improvement.

So why vote if it won't fix shit?

Well for one thing it should be noted that there's a REASON Republicans are putting a lot of focus into make it harder for you to vote. If that doesn't set off a little ding then idk what does.

Anyway my view of voting is something I said for the 2020 election; it's a tourniquet. A tourniquet will not heal a wound. If you ONLY use a tourniquet without any other actions you just delay the inevitable, but the tourniquet is the Step One to give you more time to take those actions.

Voting won't stop a slide into fascism but it can help put breaks on. Things suck and haven't gotten better but you can't convince me it wouldn't be so much worse if Trump won in 2020. There would be MORE hyper conservative judges being put in place, erosion of rites would be happening WAY faster. You vote to slow the bleeding down even slightly so you have less of a battle than you would otherwise.

As soon as you stop thinking of voting as "this is how I will make a difference by voting for who I believe in and like" and think of it as harm reduction you can get way more strategic about it. An example from my red state is how a lot of leftists handled the primaries. There's no way someone even left of center or moderate is going to win here. It just won't happen! So for the primaries a LOT of left leaning people changed their voting registration to Republican to vote for the least awful guy.

They were all awful. All of them are harmful. But ONE was an open supporter of Q-anon endorsed by Trump and his goons. A lot of votes went to the one who still had shit views but at LEAST said Biden won the election and made wishy washy noises on abortion (as opposed to loudly yelling about banning all abortion and birth control. It's understood he will still likely vote against birth control, but he also seems to care about appealing to moderates so you can push back at him more). He may switch later but there's less of a chance of that guy going full throttle on overturning voting rights, and it was understood that guy would be less of an uphill battle than the other one. That guy won. I know other people in deep red states doing the same thing.

This also is a state to state thing. Here you can change party affiliation for the primaries then change again for the main election, which is what everyone is doing because we accepted that we'll probably end up with that shithead but we're still going to vote against him because we want it to be clear that there IS opposition here.

There's also local elections which are SUPER important. Every left community outreach org I've talked with or read up on pushes local voting and they're probably accomplishing more than the average online leftist arguing The Ideal Revolution. We GOT here because the right wing is VERY good at mobilizing a voting base and they have spent DECADES purposely starting from the local level up. Q-anon and openly white supremacist groups are targeting city councils, school boards, all that.

Go to ballotpedia.org, look at everything down the ticket. Then look up that person's social media. See who they're friends with. See what they were posting about two years ago. Look at who follows them and who they surround themselves with.

It's boring. It also often just takes me a few hours or less in an afternoon to look it up and vote down the ballot. The president really is the LEAST important part of the vote except for how they can shape their party direction (moreso for Republicans than Democrats. Republicans tend to fall in line with whoever their Top Man is. Because they're fascist adjacent at best and outright fascist at worst.)

Also most importantly for a lot of you lefties (especially younger ones):

Ideology and Reality are often not compatible. Do not trust that a great Revolution will overturn everything and Fix It because a lot of problems are rooted in the cultural, not political. Revolutions more often than not end in such massive death and upheaval that a fascist power just comes in and promises order anyway. Also even if you DO pull off a revolution, the moderates and neolibs and conservatives will still be here. People will still be complicated and won't fit into ideology. And I think it's pretty substantial that so far I only see a whole lot of talk about how the system needs to be torn down but not what could realistically take it's place. People have been trying to make a perfect system of government since we started living in tribal groups bigger than a village. An ideology is good for an aspiration and basis "if I could have my ideal what would that look like?" but reality will almost never fit that ideal, and you have to be able to learn how to not throw out "slightly better" because it isn't perfect.

I am not a politician or political scientist. I'm not a sociologist. I do not know how to "fix it." I don't think anyone solidly does. But I know that just saying "the system sucks I won't participate" doesn't change the system, and could cause greater harm to those who are in more danger from it than me. I hold my nose and vote based on the approach of harm reduction (even a TINY reduction of harm is a reduction). I expect all politicians to be rat bastards, I try to help my community and friends and work towards what I actually want from that level up. The vote is the base layer.

(anyway Robert Evans on Behind the Bastards recently put it really well. He's a half feral anarchist bastard Man who also believes voting can't fix the system or even change much, but he said he still votes because "voting won't cause more harm and there's ALWAYS a chance that I'm wrong about what it can accomplish." Basically if he's wrong and voting DOES make a slight difference, then he is causing harm by not doing it.)

#also im trying to emphasize Republican vs Conservative #bc i ideologically disagree with conservative politics on almost all levels #but i also know people who consider themselves conservative and like. arent terrible fascists. #hey also NEOLIBS ARE ANNOYING AND CAN BE A ROAD BLOCK OFTEN BUT YELLING AT THEM AND BEING SUPERIOR DOESNT CHANGE MINDS #OH MY GOD LEFTISTS NEED TO BE BETTER AT MARKETING AND OUTREACH #YES ABOLISH COPS SHOULD BE THE GOAL BUT IT ISNT REALISTIC RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THE COUNTRY IS FUCKING SOAKED #SOAKED I TELL YOU. IN A CULTURE OF SEEING COPS AS HEROES. EVEN IF ITS HEROES IN A BAD INSTITUTION. #BROOKLYN 99 STARTED FROM PEOPLE WITH THE IDEA THAT YOU COULD HAVE GOOD COPS #YOU CAN NOT SELL THE MAJORITY ON 'ABOLISH THE POLICE' RIGHT AWAY #if you see people trying to make it a better sell by describing a system of reallocating funds to social work to reduce the load on police #and you go UM BUT THERE SHOULD BE NO POLICE SO DIE #you help nothing! you arent making that moderate neolib go 'wow theyre right!' #im YELLING OVER THIS SO MANY OF YOU FUCKS PUT IDEOLOGY OVER REALITY #THE MAJORITY OF THE COUNTRY IS MODERATE. THAT IS REALITY. IT NEEDS TO BE ACCOUNTED FOR WHEN FIGURING OUT WHAT CAN ACTUALLY BE ACCOMPLISHED

[tlatia-the-radiant]

- @askthecaptiangeneral

I will club you to death with your own fucking femur

#ooc #ily ofc but dude What The Fuck #where did you even find this. did you make this. and why #WAIT WHY DOES IT HAVE THREE MAGWELLS STACKED ON TOP OF EACH OTHER #hang on I'm going to need to dissect this #that's three standard boltors at the front. two upside down. leading into the frame of a standard boltor with a toploading mag + bullpup mag #except there are three magwells at the back #and not enough space to load a round (that's less relevant in 40k tbh) #but it also has four different ejection ports. where does the shell come from wtf? #does it choose at random? #and why do the three mini bolters each have grips?! #the front sights are obscured and also not even #the rear ejection port isn't even in the proper spot if the magwell WAS in the right place whether it's a bullpup or not #WHAT FUCKING HERETEK CREATED THIS PHOTOSHOP ABOMINATION #I. i need to sit down actually. and sleep. for a long time. #i need to pull a Guilliman maybe then my goth aeldari waifu gf will be able to help me deal with the trauma of seeing this #like dude What The Fuck Is This #for context I'm from the US and I'm fairly familiar with guns #i don't live in the US anymore for transgender reasons but I still have the knowledge and all of that knowledge is telling me to kill you #for making me see this. abomination unto God the God-Emperor and John Moses Browning