#i know i probably sound whiny bc privilege i know

[friendofthecrows]

Stressed bc Tumblr is actually my only stream of income rn and I'm not making anything on it despite my best efforts

#like I'm not trying to be an influencer and I don't have or want a big blog #i just don't have anything else to do lmao #I'm looking for a job #everything requires a driver's licence though 😒 #i legally can't drive bc of my disability #trying to figure out what to do bc my dad seems like he wants me to bring money into the household and if I don't start making progress #on that #i think he might cut off my allowance #as you probably know I have a rich dad that I have to stay on the good side of if I want my medical bills and tuition paid :/ #but I hate him #and everything he asks me to do is very counter everything I'm trying to do #or just really hard to achieve bc disability #I'm trying though #hal rambles #sorry for the vent #i know i probably sound whiny bc privilege i know #but I am scared of being disowned lol #he already hates my younger brother bc he spends time gaming instead of schoolwork #and yeah it's kind of annoying how 'lazy' he can be but also he has adhd so it'd be nice if my dad was a little less mean about it #I'm like the smart and good one that's expected to financially support all of my 3 siblings when my parents aren't here #like they've always just banked on me being financially successful and have invested so much financially into my future #i legit don't know what I'll do if I don't live up to those expectations #i don't know what my siblings will do #they don't have the resources my parents poured into me #it's actually a lot of pressure #i have to figure out how to make money #i know they don't like me other than an investment for money #bc my mom has already threatened to disown me for being a 'monster' on 2 occasions #once when she found out I have DID and the other time when she found out I have ASPD #the DID one was actually worse lol 'you're not my child. give me my child back' and all that

[spacelazarwolf]

i just had a thought i am going to attempt to express but may not do so well

there’s a chance that the reason you attract so many assholes is because your jewish but “white”. people can be racist to you but if someone accuses them of racism they can claim that they cant be racist to you bc your white and obviously antisemitism isnt real as far as a concerning number of leftists are concerned

this makes you a prime target for white-supremacists/racists who dont want people to think they are

idk if this makes any sense and if it does its probably something you thought of and have mentioned already but it came into my head and I couldnt get it out

it's actually kind of fascinating bc no one on this website (save like two ppl i am friends with irl) actually knows what i look like. and someone who doesn't follow me or interact with any of my posts where i talk about my complicated relationship with race and ethnicity will have absolutely no idea about my background. i don't have any pictures of myself or indications in my bio or pinned post about whether or not i'm white. the only thing they see in my bio that they have to go off of is "jew" so their perception of my experience under white supremacy is entirely shaped by their preconception of jews.

if they think all jews are whiny, entitled white people who may have been oppressed a while ago but the holocaust is over stop milking it you're actually all privileged, then that's what i become. so any read of my posts will be through a lens of "whiny white guy who thinks he's oppressed."

if they think jews are conniving, corrupted subhumans who are conspiring against them, then that's what i become. my posts will be read through a lens of "predatory thing trying to infiltrate our community that we must protect ourselves from."

but of course, it doesn't just have to be either or. a lot of the time, it's both. the jew is simultaneously weak and pathetic, and aggressive and dangerous. which is why the rhetoric in a lot of posts about me or the discussions i'm part of sound.....Like That. bc the thing is, you don't have to be a bona fide white supremacist to have these be part of your subconscious biases. i've encountered people who are intensely dedicated to antiracist work, trans liberation, workers liberation, feminism, etc. who still hold these antisemitic biases. bc antisemitism predates every single one of these concepts, and people are simply not willing to go back that far for such a small group of people. so progressive spaces become a hotbed of antisemitism, and progressive jews are left with nowhere to go. and it sucks.

#ask avishai

[poeplepound]

im so overwhelmed and Done right now like,

i went on a week long trip with my brother and my parents and their two friends and their son, and we were together 24 hours a day for six days

and that was A Lot and i got home last night at like midnight? one am ? something like that, and my grandparents were at my house - and didnt leave til around 2 this afternoon

then my brother got home at 3:30 and wanted to talk to me about grand theft auto, and then i started cleaning my room and making a list of the things i needed to do/get in order to bring the rat home - which i thought i was doing today

but then my dad got home at like 5:30 and told me Once Again he wouldnt be paying me the money I KNOW WE HAVE for the stuff i did for him last wednesday (i scrubbed a hole in my finger AND got bleach in it, and slipped and got a bruise in the bathroom - he said he’d pay me the $40 for scrubbing his shower with bleach for three hours and washing all three big ass dogs) - the money i need to bring the rat home

and it doesnt sound like a big deal, and i probably sound super privileged because I AM, but im sosososo upset about not getting that money right now because it means i wont be able to get it until sometime next week probably

i was told id get this money a week ago!! seven days ago!! 

this is such a privileged problem to have, and im so grateful for the things i have, but my family is treating this animal like im not trying so so so hard, and it hurts me s o much and i dont even know why - i dont even have him yet but this rat already feels like something i love and need to have in order to survive

like,, planning to bring this rat in, and making things and researching and getting a little hope that ill soon have something in my life worth living for has made me a Different person like, i feel like im alive for a reason and i have something im attached to and i have something i care about now and i was SO EXCITED to bring him home today, bc im running out of things to do in preparation, and now ill have to wait another week

i feel like i only have one thing, and my dad just, completely took it from me without a warning and now i have nothing - and even if it is just another week, im So Close to the edge like, this one week without my One Thing could sincerely push me over and that dependency is horrifying

basically, im very overwhelmed from being around people so much for so long, and i feel like im deflating like a whiny balloon because of this money thing

not to mention like, i shouldve been done with school two weeks ago, but i decided not to finish? for some stupid impulsive reason ? and now my parents are Agro @ me for that too

ah geez

#this is annoying and whiny im sorry #me #mental health

[hibiscus-boy]

hnnnnnnnnnghhhh

#r.txt #if ur making someone (who is probably black) out to be stupid and whiny #for calling u out on skimping on black representation in ur edits #that is antiblackness #just saw some stuff on a blog i recently followed and noped the fuck out #yk you sound like a racist privileged ass when u say things like that right. #i hope u know that. #antiblackness tw #also damn dont weaponize nbpoc against black people! #they were going like i made edits for ME / Asian / etc #first of all black ppl...do exist in the ME / Asia / etc #second of all just bc you made content for Some poc does not justify you. #also i feel like (white) europeans complaining abt #their country/culture not being represented in media.....while u have a point and i agree to some degree #this argument is often used to. deplatform representation of poc #it sounds very / you guys talk about the peopels of colors too much.....why cant this be about Me / #is the american understanding of race the same everywhere in the world? no! #but racism exists everywhere. antiblackness exists everywhere. #its institutional and its been here for centuries. if you are white you are born privileged and you are born racist. #this person's actions are stupid lol. but i find their mindset worse. it's absolutely vile. #anyways m'done 🤟🏽❤️ love y'all!

[faeriegardenz]

was that post really necessary? was a rant by a white people really what the world needed right now? because i totally get where you're coming from and totally acknowledge the hypocrisy of some poc, but that post came off as whining about how you can't be included. i'm sure that's not what you meant, but that's what it sounded like to a woc. i'm not gonna get into the whole blm thing, but i think the best you could do is reach out to actual poc rather than make a post all about you.

i’m sorry, i was just trying to express my frustrations about people in general being mean to people who are on their side? 

i’m really sorry if i came off as whiny or an annoying white girl because that really wasn’t my intention !!!!! like it really really wasn’t. i totally understand how it could come across like that but i really didn’t want it to

it’s just frustrating bc i’m going to college to study gender/women/sexuality/and race studies and to work with that for the rest of my life and i’m sick of people just being mean, not necessarily to me, but to people like me.

and trust me i KNOW i’m privileged, like i really fucking know and i’m fully aware. i think it’s okay for me to speak my opinions as long as i am fully aware that i am privileged and that i don’t lose sight of that, because once i lose that sense of how i am privileged then my feminism is over.

i really feel bad for coming across that way.

it’s just why can’t i post something and then it get crap just bc i’m white ??? 

idk i’m probably digging a deeper hole for myself rn but i’m sorry again like rly sorry

#celine rambles #views #Anonymous

[abbym13-blog1]

I love Taylor but I'm frustrated

@taylorswift So I've been going back and forth on this whole Taylor Swift Tix thing for a long time. I'm still not sure how to feel about it, on the one hand, it's great that this may give us more opportunities to get tickets, but on the other it's really kind of hard to have a really good place in line when you are someone (like myself) who can't afford merch and several pre-orders/albums. And I seriously lover Taylor, and this whole album is amazing but it's really hard to suddenly realize you won't be going to a show this tour like I just have. This, and I fully acknowledge this, is a very privileged thing to say, as I've been to one show each tour since the SNWT. When the Tix thing was first announced, I was really startled that there were absolutely 0 shows in my state (NC) when Taylor has been here every tour. I realized this was probably a stadium tour, but I held out hope that other dates would be announced. Of course that didn't happen. The closest show to me is in DC, which is still pretty far for a concert. My dilemma this tour for a while is that I have several week long and possibly several week long events this summer, and not knowing any of the tour dates, especially for places so far away, I couldn't bring myself to sign up for tix. I eventually did, out of desperation, but I still had no idea when the show would be, and if I was wasting my time watching video after video, and not only that but wasting my excitement for seeing this tour and my hope. The tour dates were announced today, and the one in DC may conflict with one of the summer events. These events are for my future, and helping to decide what colleges I may want to attend by spending a week at one, so it's pretty important that I go. I can't choose what week I go, and though there are several weeks, my parents and I are not willing to spend money just to waste it. And we could sell those tickets, but there's no guarantee that anyone would take them. It's honestly just really disappointing. The next closest is Nashville, which is at a better time, but more expensive bc of the distance. My parents are making a lot of sacrifices to go to expensive college trips to help me, and this just isn't working rn. I am genuinely heartbroken at the idea of not seeing her, but that's just how it's happening. Here's where my issue/complaint lies: I wish that there was more communication and information regarding the tour to the fans. Right now, we don't know what other countries will have dates, and it seems that less and less countries will have them (I really hope that she goes to a lot of places outside the US, it's really an unfair thing to those in other countries when she doesn't ever go to a certain place) and the lack of information is really getting on my nerves. If I had known when the tour was announced it was a stadium tour and only a stadium tour for only a few places, I wouldn't have gotten my hopes up. I wouldn't be saddened and heartbroken rn. If we had more information, international swifties would be celebrating that they can go see her in concert. But we didn't get that information. I understand that reputation was a mysterious album and we weren't supposed to know much, but this is really just ridiculous. Maybe Taylor is tired of touring a lot and only wanted to do a few shows. That (obviously) is more than fine. Maybe the tour dates weren't final when the album and taylor swift tix thing was announced. If that's the case, I would like to know why the tix thing wasn't launcher after the tour dates were final. I have seen so many people talking about how they can't go to shows bc taylor isn't going to their city, and don't know if there will be another round of dates. This is what I wish would have happened: When the taylor swift tix thing was announced (which I still have problems with) the tour dates were in place. It was certain that this was the only tour, rather than leaving things up for guess work. The stadium tour was confirmed, and questions were answered about whether there would be more tour dates. I mean, obviously what I want more than anything is more tour dates, but I would settle for some damn organization and information too. I am really upset, and I honestly wish I could go back and not get my hopes up. I don't know how many other people have been having problems like these where it's just all conflict and confusion, but if you guys could share this around and wrote about your experiences, and maybe tell me if I'm the only one feeling this way?? And if I'm not, try and get taylor to see this maybe? I don't expect anything from her or taylor nation, I just want more organization and less chaos. I know, I know (trust me) that i sound really whiny and privileged, (and I am) but I needed to get my feeling out. Thoughts? - Abby