#i just had to break the silence

[alls-fair-in-pride-and-prejudice]

The Orville season 1 episode 1: this dude finally gets to be a space captain, but his first officer is his ex wife! So wacky 🤪 plenty of jokey moments. This is a star trek parody we don't take ourselves too seriously!

The Orville season 3 episode 1: one of the main characters commits suicide and the only one who can revive him is someone who suffered firsthand from his actions in the previous season and hates his guts. We explore multiple expressions of grief and hatred as well as consider what drives someone to suicide. The best scene has no dialogue, just a character slowly breaking down into tears as the wall of emotions finally breaks free in a moment of solitude.

#the fam and i were rewatching and after the aforementioned scene #i just had to break the silence #and said 'this started out as star trek with fart jokes' #the orville season 3 #the orville new horizons #electric sheep #suicide mention tw #suicide mention #the orville #to be fair im not ragging on the more comedic version of the orville either #and some of the best episodes also have a lot of comedic moments #its just #damn what a tone shift

[appri-dot]

Nothing more isolating then finding this guy cute as hell

#LISTEN TO ME LISTEN TO ME #aaah but hes mean to steven and hurt him #take a drink for every fav. #oooh but hes weeeiird and annoying #describe early season ''gremlin'' peridot as a character and look at me in the fucking eyes #his design is baddddd #HIS HAIR IS CURLYFRIES ITS ADORABLE #Everyone has shit to say when a teen/young adult character is bastardized until theyre pudgey and a man #i get he made dumb mistakes but note how he like..stopped? silent improvement/the writers literally just erasing him #''its not even good on chips!'' is iconic #had to break my fucking silence sorry one of my partner's said they hated him n i had to set the record straight

[quickhacked]

HARBINGER; a person or thing that shows that something is going to happen soon, especially something bad.

#cp2077 #art:reuben #nuclearocs #nuclearart #rbs encouraged <3 #had to sacrifice my soul for the details on the arm btw. if you even care #full name is reuben de la rosa and he is my baby. i love him #ex maelstrom. didn't join willingly. left but also maelstrom Knows they still control him in a way #half a cyberjaw which is faultily installed. it's basically a death trap if he puts too much tension on his jaw his skull breaks. basically #done on purpose by maelstrom to silence him </3 BUT HE GETS IT FIXED NOT TO WORRY. IT JUST TAKES SOME TIME #trans also. if you even care. Very important to me. and he's just a little silly he's just a little guy <333 #known as harbinger on the streets still because of how he used to operate when still with maelstrom... #i Will yell more about him soon not to worry but this will have to do for now <33 if you have any quastions tho pls send me asks teehee

[vitamin-zeeth]

every time I see someone with a doctor who take or theory or anything that puts any weight whatsoever on 13s run I like immediately stop reading and just skim the rest of it. No hate to them I just

- didn't like the run

- gave up watching it during the timeless child arc cause the lore inaccuracies pissed me off

- generally ignore its existence cause it's easier

#to me everything osst like her first season is not canon sry #i didnt like the direction the show took i didnt like thewriting style or the general production style #it kinda felt like a weird dream id have when i was ill and had just been watching a bubch of dr who #also im a jay exci fan forever and always so the 5 Hour Dr Who Video Essay is a big part of my dislike #they made some great points and put ibto words loads of vague feelings id had about the series in a way i really liked #i only realised recently that a lot of dw tumblr is actually way into 13s run lmao so maybe this is a controversial take #but if it is then BREAKING MY SILENCE EXCLAMATION MARK EXCLAMATION MARK SHOCKED FACE SERIOUS FACE F WORD FACE #sorry non dw mutuals for putting more dw on your dash also trust me on this im really correct and cool and you agree with me B) #i also really hope this doesn't come off as passive aggressive towards anyone other than chris chibnall idgaf what you guys vibe with #anyway #dw #doctor who #look. chibnall made some wild lore decisions in his run that imo he did not by any means earn. so for that fuck you chibnall

[midnight-rice]

ok tumblr really *has* broken my speaking mannerisms, at work I found two cup lids that had melted together inseparably and muttered "this, too, is yuri" as if that's a normal thing to say on a sunday morning

#life update i am tired and so is everyone else #my sister went to the ER last night for chest pain (she's ok it seems though still not great) #work's had the busiest week of sales ive seen thanks to march madness but we're short staffed #two of my coworkers were arrested this week and one went home after a mental breakdown #and tomorrow after the sun goes out for a bit we're gonna service everyone wanting food for the mm finale #might end up working overtime for a third day though i feel like it'll cancel out w the hours i missed this morning #when i was too nauseous to work due to all the painkillers i took last on an empty stomach last week #but honestly im doing ok i just want a fucking break and so does everyone else i know it seems #feels weird venting here but i guess it's better than silence #and at least i have weird events to explain my inactivity instead of 'idk brain bad :/' like before

[softquietsteadylove]

For the 2nd part: The angst starts here...Gil visiting and also brought some lunch for them but Thena just give him a cold shoulder. But he couldn't figure out why and she's all snappy and sarcastic suddenly saying that she thinks he's liking his new team now to be considering to be there permanently. And Gil addressed it calmly that he never considered it and he wanted to be back immediately on her team. But she just asked him to leave even though she doesn't want him to.

What Thena didn't know is Gil was there to talk to her before leaving for a mission, a mission that is very risky and dangerous but he never got to tell it to Thena.

"Boss?"

Gil stepped into Thena's hurricane of an office. She always kept it neat, although sometimes if he opened up her desk drawers they would be an absolute disaster. But currently she had files sitting everywhere, some open, some closed, some jamming her paper shredder.

It wasn't like her to be so out of sorts.

"Thena?" he tried again, stepping in and pulling the door closed behind him. He set down the lunch he brought her on the desk.

"Not now."

He frowned at the sharp tone of her voice. It wasn't like her to be snappy. Cold, sure--terrifying, to some. But she wasn't usually like this with him. "You okay?"

She finally turned to look at him, but she seemed...angry. Not necessarily pissed off, but...annoyed? There was a mix of a few things in those stunning eyes of hers.

Gil sighed as he adjusted his bag strap on his shoulder. He knew she had a meeting with the brass, and he was sure his transfer had come up as a topic. But he wasn't allowed to ask directly about it until his probation was up. "Did things go well?"

"Ask Minerva."

Gil raised a brow at that. Thena was many things, but petty?--no. Passive-aggressive wasn't really the Goddess of War's style.

"She was singing your praises," Thena finally said more than a few words to him, although she still seemed agitated. She slapped some files down on her desk. "Thinks you're really liking Extrication."

"Like is probably a strong word," he shrugged. He hadn't screwed anything up, yet. Not that he did much of anything other than follow orders and fill out paperwork.

"Really?" Thena examined him in a way that made him feel like they were strangers. "She's quite in favour of your transfer being permanent."

"What?" Gil leaned forward on her desk as well, matching her rather combative stance. "No one brought that up to me."

Thena looked like she was about to say something but bit down on the inside of her lip. She looked down at her desk, her ponytail falling over her shoulder. "It was a surprise to me too."

Gil melted a little. She seemed so...downtrodden. He had asked Kingo at length how she was doing since he had been transferred. Kingo was certainly at his wit's end about it, but he still obliged him and told him every time Thena had a bad day, or tried to stay late in the office, or forgot to eat lunch.

"Is it-" Thena started and the paused, dropping her rigid posture until she was all but slouching. She looked down at the desk, "is that something you want?"

No. No, he wanted to be back in Special Ops--he wanted to be with her, again. "No, and I didn't think-"

"Well, Minerva thinks," Thena cut him off, and he could feel herself trying to saw off the feelings of hers he was getting too close to discovering. "And the Chief thinks so, too."

"Well, I don't care what they think," Gil said gently, trying to get a look at that face that brought him more peace than he thought possible in a line of work like this one. She avoided his eyes. "I want to be here."

"Gil," Thena looked up, again seeming on the brink of something before swallowing it. And it seemed like a big pill to swallow. "I...I'm sorry, I can't do lunch today."

"Oh," he blinked, deflating some. He reached slowly for the lunch he had brought her before pulling his hand back. Maybe she would eat it once she sorted out whatever had her so mad.

She turned again, shaking her head and drawing her shoulders up. She swiped at something on her face before rifling through her files again, "later?"

"Uh," he gulped, looking down at his phone, "yeah. Yeah--later."

"Hm."

He walked out of her office slowly, hoping to get another look from her. But she was focused in front of her. He closed the door again just as quietly.

Gil, you on your way?

He sighed. The operation was big; high risk and high reward. It was so big that even he was being dragged into it, minimal experience and everything.

I'll be there.

#Thenamesh Special Forces AU #pt 2 #I hope you like it! #I know you might have imagined something a little different #but these two #they know each other #and I think they would still be civil even with emotions running high #or maybe I'm just soft hearted #but I still promised you some drama and some angst! #Thena is already putting some distance between herself and what's going on #because if she clings to Gil and he still gets taken away #it will break something inside of her #they have been having lunch together when at all possible #not that it's that often but it still happened #and even when it couldn't #he was texting Kingo 24/7 about how Thena was doing #Kingo had to silence Gil's notifications on his phone

[golforoosh]

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#i know it passes like it always does but time has never been so slow #im so exhausted from feeling this way and not being able to do anything or even talk about it. i want to fix it but he doesnt.. im so stuck #my heart hurts my head hurts i want this to end #i want the floor to open up and swallow me whole. why did i have to agree to this #why couldnt god just give me smtg easy #smtg easy to test me with. why did he have to test me with my emotions. why do i have to suffer so much at the hands of a man #who doesnt know how to treat a woman so that when shit happens. im always the one that is at fault #ive never felt so alone #someone talk to me so that i can break this silence #make me laugh so that i can forget about my problems even if it be a few minutes #i miss when i used to actually feel like i was a somebody on twitter when people would like and retweet my tweets #why cant those days come back. days where small things would make me happy #days where i had people in my life that made me feel special #what am i doing here #what happened to me

[todayisafridaynight]

non believers say ichi looks nothing like arakawa but personally when i remember arakawa as a child and i remember them big ol eyes im like Yeah Those Are Ichi's

#snap chats #breaking my silence arakawa was so cute during the prologue. son why you got the eyes of a baby deer #its what makes The Horrors all the more terrible like noooo dont do that to him he's just a boy.. #anyway yeah. thats where ichi got them beautiful eyes from ig #im procrastinating on drawing again. hi. #i thought i had A Vision but i dont i keep trying to sketch it but i dont like anything....... #im determined to make this idea work. And I Made A Promise SO just give me like. a day. #ok bye bye i might pass out or stare at this candle all night

[addictivewhispering]

can i confess something very big to u all. i haven't watched the last world cup final

#it wasn't like On Purpose or anything #but i was on a 9 hour flight (coincidentally out of france) #and the match was supposed to start like right as the plane took off #but they HAD NO FUCKING WIFI #fucking air france #so i couldn't watch and then on top of it couldn't find out the result for like 6 hours #anyway when i found out i couldn't watch it i cried a little bit and then promptly went to sleep #and i've just never had the heart to watch it back ever since then. #anyway that's me breaking my silence #my demons

[hotgirlcoded]

ough he looks good but i hope that movie flops so bad and people talk shit and im not going anywhere near it and i hope he's embarrassed about it and i hope i never have to hear about them again and-

#sorry i just needed to be a hater for a sec #his flop era. good. #that's what you get for putting two blondes like that. you are Not barbie. #i watched like one second of the trailer and had to teehee #breaking my silence #lisa.txt #will delete later

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#i had such a horrible melt down today... god i just need this week to be over! #i burst several blood vessels around my eyes temple and nose from crying too hard and for trying to do it in silence #and i also figured out that my big smart plan of hitting myself in the head as to not leave marks nor break things doesn't work #because i now have a fucking BRUISE ON MT FOREHEAD #goddamnit #i can hide it with hair but i really need to find a different way to cope... #i used to throw shit around but years of being screamed at for breaking toys or whatever i had in my hand at the moment has forced me to #turn the destruction upon myself #cause at least i'm not breaking shit other people paid for #but damn my head still hurts and now i have to hide the stupid red spots in my hairline #if my mom finds out she will most likely kill me ahnfjsng (not really she will just scream at me and call me stupid for hurting myself #which in turn will make me hurt myself more probably...) #it's a hard thing to admit i self harm. and i never really thought of it like that but it's getting worse so i need to stop #it started with scratching myself when i was too anxious and it turned into full blown out meltdowns... #i had to fight the urge to hit my head on the wall which is scary #like it took all of my willpower and the realization that people would hear me and maybe i would draw blood which would be harder to hide #that's what made me not do it... not the fact that self harming is bad and doesn't help... #like that's a scary thought to have... #i can think about it rationally NOW but in the middle of the mess? nope hitting is the only solution #i'm exhausted and so fucking embarrassed about it #i hate living with my messed up brain #i have to leave the house tomorrow... and because i mask still the only thing vissible will be my fucked up eyes with red dots around them.. #that's gonna be fucking embarrassing as hell?! #not worse than when i gabe myself a black eye tho #that wasn't self harm that was just me fainting when sick and falling face first to the floor lol #anyways... i'm off to bed i just needed to vent ahfnsjf i'm fine now #and i'm gonna do my best to find better coping mechanisms i promise #angel talks #personal #tw self harm

[dylawas-reblogs]

One thing I do look forward to about in-person work for the first time in four and a half years, even if it's 28 miles of travel both ways right during the worst winter months, is I can't be my father's free Chore Servant when he's too busy (read: disorganized and lazy) to sort things before he leaves for the day

#just this morning the guy calls me eight minutes before my shift starts when I'm still in bed trying to wake up and goes #'oh by the way I didn't take the dogs outside can you handle that' #this is a process that takes five minutes normally #on top of the three to five i need to get dressed use the bathroom etc #AND one of the dogs is on medication right now #add another two #also this man was standing around in his kitchen this morning at seven chatting with his employee and his gf #he ABSOLUTELY could have taken them out #fucking prick #lucky i can clock in from my phone and my current employer is none the wiser #if he tries that shit with my new job in two weeks i will literally not be home by the time he calls #in fact i'm just gonna silence my phone. I will be thrilled to not have to think about him all day #will never forget the one time he was in the fucking mediteranian and had me put together the checks for his employees #'oh it'll take you like five minutes' #yeah that was my entire lunch break asshole. thanks. #the more i think about it the more pissed I am I'm still stuck in this fucking house #I need to secure that car before I fucking snap #dylawa rants #dylawa rambles

[pinkieroy]

Kinda surprised that my aunt called my dad on his birthday, not gonna lie (maybe it is the only child in me) but I thought this fight was going to be it

#like he had heart surgery last year and she was still holding on to her grudge so tightly (and he was too) that even that didn't break the #cold treatment i thought it would take an even bigger (somehow) health scare to get those two on speaking terms #anyway #i'm just surprised that she was the first aunt that got a call informing of my autism diagnosis because until two days ago #they hadn't talked to each other for like two years #and a fucking heart surgery didn't break the silence #text #personal