#i hope theres enough but also not too much?? i also hope i didnt forget anything skhgkjds

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

oh god you have foolishly provided me a chance to dump the contains of my soul and heart out in the open through throwing all my favorite songs to listen to and think of Muriel at you in this essay i WILL

ok first i know its on his official playlist already BUT i feel a need to emphasize just how much it is ABsoLUTEly HIS song most of any of them: drumroll please::: 👏Wolf👏 by 👏First Aid Kit👏 any muriel simp reading this right now i am pounding you with my brainwaves of intent to go listen to it Right Now and Read those Lyrics and just try to tell me its not literally about him god if could draw id be doing such a cool animatic about it but alas it dies with me anyway WAYWARD WINDS!!! A VOICE THAT SINGS!!!! OF A!! FORGOTTEN!!!! LAND!!!!!!! SEE IT FALL!!!! CHILD OF WAR!!!! OH LEND!!!! A MENDING HAND!!!!!!!!!!! i believe ive made myself clear kbgxkyhfhkvd

https://youtu.be/6PmuuiXgIZE

i dont know if links work on anon but i had to try gjzghfdtomfg our wedding song straight up this is in my language and also like. about a girl but the words are easy to switch around so it fits lol it basically just goes like "you just had to know (to do something? like in a you know how to work me way lmao linguistics hard), that i cant forget you at all/i forgot my mother and father/my sister and my brother but i cant goshdarn forget you" and i dont know i probably cant translate that so it hits right but god its absolutely perfect to me cause like I DIDNT! FORGET HIM!! MC REMEMBERS HIM AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT!!!! EVEN WITH THE CURSE I DONT KNOW LET ME HAVE THIS ITS TOO GD ROMANTIC I CANT BELIEVE HE GOT ME ACTING LIKE THIS AGHGF im sorry for yelling i got excited

NEXT a classic we gotta pepper some hozier on this thing so here goes Nothing Fucks With My Baby cause thats my ultimate serenade for him in my head especially the "if i was born/as a blackthorn tree/id wanna be held by you/felled by you/fuel the pyre of your enemies" part as it perfectly describes my sentiments towards my man: hes my bby i will kill for him👁️👁️

theres Always Forever by Cults, i dont have that much to rant about it i just always think of him when i play it lol theres hozier again It Will Come Back which is on his official playlist too but i play around with perspectives in this one cause i put myself in the "it" position, like. im chasing here bro👀 oh my god i have got to shut up this is entirely tmi

https://youtu.be/mLycEitwJCA

i made a whole post about this one its a whole thing lmao long story short muriel on a murderous revenge quest au MOVING ON

OH i remembered another folky one

https://youtu.be/NrgwIo8GWDI

its SUCH a banger and i love it and it goes like i saw a Wolf a Fox a Rabbit so i just imprinted on it with Muriel Asra and MC respectively cause i dont know i had a phase where i decided mcs spirit animal is a rabbit cause of that scrapped introduction chapter with the labyrinth thing i guess idk im scrambling here ngfsfugc anyway it slaps listen to it and imagine a bangin tavern party and maybe youll calm down /meme

ohh ok we're on a folksy roll thats probably because i just mostly associate old timey sounding songs with arcana in general lmao i mean its like middle ages over there right

https://youtu.be/t9PUlNQOZ8o

this ones in my language again i know annoying but i found a translated version look!!! AND theres a bunch of people correcting the mistakes in the comments too if you were wanting to get deeper into research hkdggjyecb and its white voice style so depending on your taste it might sound silly but yeah this ones got some fitting lines too tying up with Murmur and its so cute and so cheesy and hopeful and sappy and it cheers me up aw

oh my god i wonder if anyone gets this far reading this ever if youre seeing this its probably during a scroll roll slow just enough to make out the letters Hello godspeed you continue on your journey with my blessings cause im noT EVEN DONE YET HAHAHAHAHAA

Motha Motha! Problems! nuff said

https://youtu.be/artn9fErRp8

this ones gonna take explaining gjxgkhpgz but maybe not that much

https://youtu.be/_h9V94b4R2g

i just had a eureka moment one day and so another animatic concept to take to my grave was born lmao but mostly its just playing into Muriels & MCs "nO i cOULd hUrt YoU Go aWaY" + "ayo hold my flower ima kill them real quick" dynamic theyve got heehee like the whole "~Dangerous~ ooh that sounds good ya" bit and also yes im in your house no im not leaving jgdghkfhgd and like i just imagined the song fitting the vibe of the whole murder lucio quest road trip with MC all "yo we Getting this shit DONE dont fuck around w my crew" (The Crew: feral milf & bear with anxiety) AND LIKE i always get to the "party like we all gon die tonight" basedrop part with the whole visual montage of us finding khamgalai and then the graveyard fight and Absolutely Everything Going to Shit and the mood shifting to "well fuck maybe we do not in fact got this" but its good we kick lucio all the way to hell at the end we good💕

https://youtu.be/ZxWiG6UJr0w

MMMMMMM THIS ONEE AWW im literally just scrolling through my endless unsorted playlist to find these gdiyyfgfz this ones just cute it doesnt really relate to anything at all actually when i think about it but its nice so here

https://youtu.be/6FEDrU85FLE

.....nope i got nothing on this one just plop it right in here

oh my god. its over. weve done it. we're free

man i hope those links work. definitely not on mobile lol whatever

Hi! and oh, WOW, this was one of the most delightfully wild essays I've ever read for Muriel and I loved it. Especially describing the dynamic on the trip south as "feral milf & bear with anxiety" XD

I've found that links don't work in asks, even with the media option turned on, so I'll include them below. Thanks for your suggestions, anon, I'll put them on the tag! ^.^

#ask arcana brainrot #arcana brainrot playlist #the arcana #the arcana headcanons #the arcana hc #muriel the arcana #muriel of the kokhuri #the arcana game

[yuridovewing]

My least favorite retcons include:

- whatever the hell they did to Ravenpaw in Redtail’s Debt, Redtail’s Debt as a whole

- them making Onestar, Morningflower, and Ashfoot siblings, while also confirming that Heathertail is his daughter

- the whole Hollowflight/Ivypool friendship being erased

- Sorreltail’s entire death??

- Fernsong being retroactively confirmed to have actually raised the kits when there was no mention of it/scene of him doing so in the actual books

- Goldenflower being made to be around Bluestar’s age is uncomfortable given the fact that Frostfur was left behind with the other elders despite being Bluestar’s apprentice

- Making Bluestar much younger than it’s implied she was in the main series, thinking of the line where it says something akin to “most of these cats never lived under a leader besides Bluestar”

And not necessary retcons but Frostfur and Brindleface being sisters is so bad. Lionheart being Frostfur’s mate is bad since it retroactively makes TigerDove distantly related. Hawkwing and Pebbleshine being cousins, hell just the amount of inbreeding in SkyClan despite being made up of unrelated rogues, kittypets, etc.

NO CAUSE YOURE SO RIGHT!!! no real opinion on ravenpaw’s change cause i haven’t read redtails debt, but i did hear that they just completely forgot that its a critical detail that redtail didnt kill oakheart. which is just so funny to me. good job everybody

honestly i just get the vibe that they made onestar and ashfoot siblings just to piss off the fandom. cause like theres no way in hell that they’re unaware of the incest at this point. like. idk this is on the same level to me as “omg lets make pebblehawk first cousins!”

SORRELTAIL OH MY GOD people forget that was actually a retcon. she was perfectly fine in the last hope, vicky just really really hated her and wanted her in the dirt (you may think im being hyperbolic but, like, no, vicky actually ranted about how “boring” she was when a fan asked how she felt about her parents and kids’ deaths and said ‘she isnt miserable enough shes too happy and thats stupid”. it literally is in there cause vicky put her through hell and back and couldnt get enough of that. and people think the misogyny in this series is up for debate.)

ohhhhh my god all the tpb age retcons are so frustrating. its worse cause like, why do snowfur and leopardfoot and all these cats give birth the second theyre out the warriors den? why is bluestar only about a year older than her nephew?? ive ranted about the shadowclan elders all being retconned to be super young actually, but its everywhere. (in razorverse i try to fix this by making snowfur and leopardfoot have whitekit and tigerkit wayyyyyyy later. like when theyre 4 instead of 1.)

-honestly 9/10 of the time, a family tree retcon is gonna be awful. who asked for spottedleaf to be tigerstar’s aunt. which deranged individual keeps insisting that whitestorm is ashfur and fernclouds dad.

adderswift isnt real. lets go get some ice cream

#mail #these are all delicious thank you #also yes to the ivyhallow thing. let the cats have friends im begging you

[transgender-png]

i didn't wanna tack this on my last reblog bc its so long and i didnt wanna take away from ranboos speech either but. theres some specific parts my brain has latched on to from that.

first off being bazoingas, them acknowledging how busty their vtuber and people's art of them was hilarious. i love seeing him explore his identity more, i love that he's comfortable enough to do that. it gives me hope and courage to do the same, and i see a lot of myself in ranboo in terms of gender identity and expression. and something about the phrase "young queer kid" and how we helped that queer kid makes my heart sing. like. they were a young queer kid. they were scared at one point. just like me. just like a lot of us. but if he can make it this far, maybe we can too

and although the whole thing is mostly addressing what the community has been doing wrong recently, i melted when he mentioned how much he appreciates us. bAcK iN tHe dAy, before live streaming and especially twitch became so popular, there was always such a big barrier between the content creator and their audience. you knew your favourite CC appreciated you, sure, but you were always aware of that barrier and how it would always be there. now tho, for better or for worse (thafs a different topic that im too migrainey to tackle rn) that barrier has become a little.. transparent? i guess? it's more like glass now. it's still there, and you're still aware of it, but it has become so much easier to make a real connection with your audience as a creator, and vice versa.

seeing ranboo talk about how he has fun with chat and appreciates us.. it makes me happier than i can accurately describe. ranboo always seems genuinely excited to meet fans and is so active in their own community. it's one of the things about them that charmed me when i was first getting into their content, is how much they clearly loved their community.

but it also makes me sad how much he's been having to correct the community lately. i wont pretend im not part of that issue at all, bc im not perfect and ive definitely broken a rule or two or crossed a boundary once, intentional or not.

but ive been stepping away from ranboos content recently. part of it was not being into their new content as much, as im not a huge fan of horror (but that has been steadily changing for me) but a lot of it was the community. ive watched a lot of great fandoms and communities go sour because people cared too much about the wrong things. i don't want that to happen to something/one that has helped me so much.

but i don't want to end this on a bad note. one of my favourite parts of being a boober is the community (and the name). ranboo fans are some of the most creative, supportive, passionate (even if the passion is misplaced) and welcoming people ive met. even though its easy to forget, especially with what's been going on lately, i try to remind myself and others that there are good people in this community. they can be funny and witty and talented and inventive and observant and so many other things!! this community is filled with good people!!

and at the end of the day, we're qll here for more or less the same reason.

we like ranboo. we enjoy his content and his personality. for a lot of us, ranboo has helped us through some dark times, and led us to make some great friends. some of us are here from the old enderian-platonic-husband days and some of us are here from generation loss and some of us are here for the variety horror games and some of us are just here for minecraft content and a million other reasons. ranboo has charmed their way into the jearts of me and many others. some of us consider finding ranboo to be one of the best things to ever happen to us.

ive never been good at wrapping up these things but ig ill end with. remember where we all came from, and why we're all here.

whether you're a long term fan, a new boober, or have stepped away as the content has shifted, we all were impacted in some way, hopefully positive, by this creator. he's helped a lot kf us, whether it's with mental health, starting our own content creation journeys, inspiring us to make art or mess around with how we present ourselves, or just made us laugh with their jokes and offhand comments, we're all here because of ranboo.

and idk about you, but the fact that so many people can and do come together all because of one person.. that's pretty fucking beautiful to me.

basically, live, laugh, love ranboo. <3

#ranboo #ranboolive #generation loss #gen loss #boober #bazoingas had me wheezing tho #love how artists have been making ranboo sluttier every day (/pos) #all the while hes holding popcorn and clapping #it's great #i love ranboo

[heavensank]

hoo boy, time to talk about the relationships w the fam...

long post fr

lu is incredibly family orientated. always has been, always will be. for him his motto is; at the end of the day, all you have is your family. after getting denied by the elders over and over, he tried really hard not to let their denial get to him but he has feelings after all, so ofc it stings a liiiiiittle bit. it can be a disheartening tho, being an outsider even though you're one of them. it gets lonely knowing no one will just listen, but hey! at least theres family right?? but in the end not even his family would be there for him yeah he may not have been the best brother all the time, sometimes he got too caught up in his dreams and would forget to check in on people. but that didnt mean he didnt care about them!! he could've been better, sure. but after what they did??? would've been a waste of time after it was all said and done

lucifer and god - ~dni~ thats it thats all you need to know LOL. lu is BIG mad. still.

lucifer and lilith - bruh i could go on all day about these 2. first and foremost, luci was smitten for her almost immediately but tried his damn hardest to not make it obvious (he failed he's gomez addams coded what do you expect) mainly out of respect. and bc that was against the rules and he knew better, he' was still a son of god yknow?? he knew better. but the heart wants what the heart wants. but he did try to keep it platonic at first! besides michael, she was his first friend. she actually listened to him ramble on about his dreams, and didnt judge him regardless of how unheard of they might be. she was the only person to not look at him with a blank stare or disapproval, and as if he didn't have the utmost respect for her seeing as shes (now) the mother of his child, she had earned every bit of his respect back then, just for giving him a chance. to him, she's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen in his entire existence, both on the outside and inside ofc but the inside was what had him giggling and kicking his feet and shit lmao. to him, she had a light to her that he's never seen before and it gave him hope. if it wasn't for her by his side, he would have never had the balls to give eve the apple. he was far too scared to do it on his own. even though the whole ordeal didn't exactly go exactly according to plan (he has the tendency to not think about the consequences to his actions) in the end, she had his back. not his family. she became his REAL family. and for that, together or not, he will ALWAYS be grateful for her.

lucifer and charlie - THATS HIS BABYYYYYY he's highkey always wanted a family of his own, and once he held charlie for the first time?? he immediately felt like it was all worth it. as much as he often times feels ashamed and sometimes regrets giving eve the apple, he knows that if none of that happened, he wouldnt have charlie. charlie is truly his saving grace, who needs heaven when youve got your own little ball of sunshine. and she calls you dad!!! bonus!! after lilith and charlie left, he gave up on himself. as if literally watching the sinners pile in because of HIS decision wasn't enough of a burden on his shoulders, them leaving made him give up entirely. he stopped making appearances, he started getting behind on work, he really let everything go. and the one thing he truly regretted letting go of, was charlie. even though he made little to no attempt to fix their relationship (talking about the past is hard ok), she was always on his mind. he actually has multiple boxes filled with toys (mainly rubber duckies) that he had made for her over the years they've been apart, specifically for her. he will most definitely try to hide those boxes for all of eternity bc thats absolutely gotta look pathetic. also bc he knows he doesn't have any right to miss her, he did the absolute bare minimum to see her. just another one of his many regrets to add to the list. nowadays, he tries more to spend time with her. get to know her! but this is literally the first time he's tried to make amends...with anyone. so he's relearning how to be a dad to an adult, instead of a child. children forgive much easier than adults do so he's struggling™ . but besides that he's a proud dad!! she proved to him there's always a reason to keep trying. he doesn't know if redemption is possible. but thanks to charlie, he knows its worth fighting for at least. he'll forever be charlies #1 supporter now.

lucifer and michael - NAH THESE TWO HURT MY SOUL. lu and michael we're definitely the closest. two peas in a pod, basically twins!! michael was truly his best friend, and lucifer really thought their bond was unbreakable. he thought that michael would always have his back. i mean...he's always had mikeys back so he kinda expected the same yknow?? lesson learned tho. because when it came down to facing the music, michael was right there with the congregation -- judging him. even though lucifer silently plead for michael to do something, say something, defend him. he was met with dejected eyes. looking exactly like the others. in that moment, he realized that the michael he thought he knew... was nowhere to be found. perhaps they never even existed. maybe it was wishful thinking on lucifers behalf. but that didn't make it hurt any less. dont get me wrong, lucifers used to being rejected, but not once did he ever expect michael to be a part of the rejection. and thats what hurt the most. the betrayal. now, michael and god are tied for first place in the "who does lucifer hate the most" race. there's a part of him that really does miss michael...but that part can easily be overlooked. the shame anger, hurt and betrayal overpowers the loneliness he feels. even though he hates michael, he still has some respect for them. even though he will NEVER admit to that. that's why he will never talk trash about michael. he might make some smartass comment, but he won't explicitly talk shit. he still cares about michael.

lucifer and gabriel - if you hear luci refer to some as "tattletale" he's most likely talking about gabe 😂. to lucifer, gabriel has always been the epitome of a goody-goody. don't get me wrong, ALL of them we're in some way shape or form a goody-goody, but gabriel seemed like they always went the extra mile for the cause (hint hint playing messenger boy / girl for god) and for that, luci would def poke a liiiiittle fun at them. nothing crazy, just playful banter. typical big brother little sibling behavior. tbh to lucifer, gabriel was kinda like the third-wheel. the one that always had to come with (tfw ur dad says "bRiNg YoUr LiTtLe SiBlInG wItH yOu")

more tba

#this has been sitting in my drafts for too long #i will be adding more to this later on btw #yall cant tell me luci didnt wrap his wings around lil as a means to protect her like mans took the full force of the impact for her #blood and feathers everywhere and hes just like 🤕👍worth it #also i used gender neutral terms for his siblings bc technically angels dont have genders they can define themselves how ever they please #ㅤ 𖤐 ʾ ⠀[ ⠀ ꜱᴄʀɪᴘᴛᴜʀᴇ.⠀ ] ⠀ : ⠀headcanon #long post /

[cutlikediamonds]

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i dont have that much to say but im down another pound or two. again, slowest pace ever but i really dont mind it. and i like when my methods are habits and not just desperate attempts to make the number lower that end up with me bingeing the second i get what i want and then having to do it again. lot of habits and routines that dont feel forced and are actually changing things, thats where im at now. 

my summer class is almost over and that keeps me really busy so im vaguely concerned about what losing that will do to my routines and all that but, i should be mostly okay i think. i hope. itll at least give me more time to work out which ive been craving to do so maybe itll be better actually. 

i think i referenced it once but one of my best friends is out of state for the summer doing a summer program and we go to the same school otherwise, so a new motivating thought is wanting to have lost enough that she notices it when i see her in the fall again. i doubt shed say anything out of respect but i can read her well so i just want her to notice it and wonder. also, the last time i lost a bunch of weight it was so obvious how i got treated differently over time, like that was the only time when friends who didnt before started play flirting with me or just referencing my physical appearance more often and theyd call me pretty casually, as if it was an obvious thing when they had never really said it before, and that was the only time of my life where i got genuinely asked out. whether it was actually cuz of my weight or just because i had more confidence because of the loss idk but it was an undeniable difference, and i keep remembering it and wanting to pull the same reactions out of everyone again. 

its annoying honestly, i like to put thought into my appearance. i like doing my hair and my makeup and playing with my gender expression but my friends dont really comment on it and i was used to it and didnt mind it until they suddenly did talk about it when i was thinner. i come off as having a very easy going vibe with that stuff so i guess nobody thinks i care about style or appearances like that but i do, i like the creativity of it, and i wish they were invested in mine even when i wasnt thin but.. also i wanna be thin too lol so i guess i cant be that mad. its motivating at least. 

another new thing, its always nice to relapse like this when ive undergone a lot of reflection in the mean time and know who i am more cuz now the inspo that i come up with in my head or find online hits harder cuz it feels so much more relevant to me lol. like, i never used to care about being strong or looking toned all that much but now thats one of the things that keeps me the most focused. arm workouts have been the easiest routine for me to stick to cuz i just never forget the goal of it, its nice. 

i like the slow progress so far. i like seeing the subtle changes. i like that the changes dont get lost if i have a bad day cuz theyre not that unstable. i like that even after a day of eating i can look at my body and still see the parts of it that have made progress, the bloating of the day aside. its very grounding. 

im also trying to respect my weird food habits. in the back of my head im trying to go on a journey of ‘unmasking’ a bit (neurodivergent thing) but its not at the forefront of my mind, but one of the aspects of that is definitely respecting myself when it comes to what foods feel safe or not and how eating makes me feel. its still annoying, sometimes when theres no safe foods around i just cant eat anything and i can tell that in that scenario pushing myself out of my comfort zone is probably what i should be doing, but i also would take the discomfort of hunger over the discomfort of feeling overstimulated or out of control from whatever i made myself eat any day. i know some people would say thats food or the ed having control over me, but i think you could also say its me respecting myself and taking control of my environment and triggers, so who knows. 

i guess i did have stuff to say today lol

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Oughhhhhhhh I thought a little too hard about the cult arc and the other ciel reveal and all that and now Im just sitting here, angry, so Im making a tumblr post about it

I want to make this very clear, I 100% forgive Lizzy for her reaction. Like, yeah I think its frustrating that she did what she did but also get it, yknow. It seems like she really loved the other Ciel and didnt spend too much time with our Ciel because hes a Frail Victorian Boi(tm) and couldnt play with her and she does feel bad about all of this and theres a lot of complicated feelings-stuff going on here. Also, I used to dislike her for ~○°•Yaoi Fangirl Reasons•°○~ and now that Ive gone through some growth I think I might be incapable of disliking her for any reason so. good for her and good for me ig

I dont really care about the rest of the Midfords tbh I kinda keep forgetting that theyre even there I remember reading the school arc and being so comfused about Edward because I somehow managed to fully forget about him, but I guess I get their reactions and actions too

Tanaka though............. I hope that stupid cunt goes to hell 100%. I really hope thats not like, a hot take but I doubt that anyone feels strongly enough about him to fight me on this lmao

Like ??? not only did he live with our Ciel for those three years, I assuming he spent a lot of time with him when he was younger bc yknow, hes a Frail Victorian Boi(tm) who wasnt spending a lot of time outside and that flashback made it seem like Tanaka would play with him or whatever and seemed to care for him but the SECOND fucken the "real" "Earl" Ciel Phantomhive shows up he just abandons our Ciel??? I fucking hate that!! Literally unless it turns out that he was playing some double agent 7d chess over there, I hope that old man never sees the light of heaven I hope Sebastian goes home after all of this and we see him while hes going down

#black butler #kuroshitsuji #blue cult arc

[25-worms-in-a-trenchcoat]

eye emoji at ur oc tags i am looking so hard what da hell is going on over there

hehehe excuse to infodump abt them hell yeah! okay so i partially answered this here and also before i forget i actually have a sideblog dedicated to the campaign theyre for over at @the-curse-investigation-team ! and for anyone who needs context for this ask i posted this earlier (putting the rest under a read more bc this is gonna be long)

ANYWAYS so i mostly talked abt the curse earlier, but basically theres a curse on the monsters (they're good!!) of this town that make them get sick and rampage and not have control of their monster forms if theyre shifters. it affects one person every new moon and the person ends up dying from the curse just from how sick they get (or previously they were killed/euthanized but that stopped since there was recently gained hope that the ppl could be cured of the curse. my character, worms, originally got turned into a monster/worm-shifter bc he got attacked by a worm shifter that was effected by the curse and worms bit him in an attempt to get it off of him (he was panicking okay he wasnt exactly in the best position to be making decisions). when he woke up he was in a hospital bed and found out that bc he called for help the worm ended up being killed and now he has ✨survivors guilt✨. so even tho he's told theres nothing he can do to help he keeps researching the curse and trying to save those effected to no end (his working theory is that if the cursed monster stays alive til midnight of the new moon then the curse will stop effecting them but no one will listen). finally things change when two non-monsters (scott, a manager from the local gary gators [think rainforest cafe x chuck-e-cheese and yes this is based on fnaf shhhh] who?? has a phone for a head??, and sonya, a college student who has powers given to her by a something or other but rly doesnt want to) get roped in. they figure out that worms' original theory doesnt work but they figure out sonya can dispell the curse, but at that point its too late. next month rolls around tho and the curse gets dispelled from that person and we now have the first person to live through having the curse!! but its still gonna show up every month so now we gotta figure out its source and keep dispelling it and tracking down who has it each month.

as for the best friend, his name is/was emmett and they met in elementary schooland knew each other up into their early 20s and they bonded over both being trans (with emmett being a trans guy and worms being nonbinary) along with many other things. emmett got bullied a lot in school and worms v much gave him scary dog privilege and got the bullies to back off whenever they were around, or at the very least caused problems for them lol. they were super close, to the point where emmett developed a romantic crush on worms (but didnt ask him out or say anything bc worms is aroace and he assumed they wouldnt want to be in a relationship w him [he didnt know that qpps were a thing]) and worms developed a queerplatonic crush on emmett (but didnt say anything bc emmett isnt aro and "deserves to have a nice romantic relationship with someone who can reciprocate" [emmett would love to be their qpp if he knew it was a thing]". v much and they were both idiots energy. anyways they lived together for a while after worms got kicked out and before emmett left for college in emmetts parents house. right after emmett had moved back to their hometown after college he disappeared; long enough that he was assumed dead. it was insanely hard on worms. it turns out emmett is now scott, the phone head guy i mentioned earlier. freddy fazbears gary gators decided they needed a new manager (all of which are ppl kidnapped and turned into partial animatronics with their memories mostly wiped and v v traumatized. scott doesnt remember worms bc, like i said, memories wiped, plus worms changed his name which doesnt help (he used to change names all the time and then landed on worms after the wormening). worms does seem very familiar to scott though and finds them very comforting to be around and has a crush on him again. worms doesnt know scott is emmett bc different voice (voicebox) and can't see his face (phonehead). scott does remind him a lot of emmett though and finds himself falling into old habits with him and developing queerplatonic feelings for him, both of which he feels a bit guilty about.

also side note but worms's grandpa-figure (pops) turns into a bear and is dating mothman :)

but yeah sorry this is long agshshs lmk if you have any questions!! tho stuff abt emmett/scott i may or may not be able to answer since hes my friends player character not mine (same goes for sonya).

#worms

[oh-katsuki]

hello cal!! i hope you're well! ok so this has been bothering me for a long time and i wanna tell someone so if you have the time pls read thru this LMAO

yeah soooo, theres this guy who i have a veryyy big crush on and on somedays i cant do anythign except think ab him. but the thing is he seems very pompous?? ive seen him look at me and shi and ive noticed hes always next to me when we have breaks in between classes but whenever i smile up at him he pretends like he didnt see me which is kinda hurtful tbh. i feel like he ignores my existence on purpose and at the same time i feel like hes into me sooo idk what to do pls

whenever i am close enough to initiate a convo w him(like today) he ignores my presence😁😁

do u have any tips for me so that i can talk to him?? i really cant get this boy outta my mind and its pissing me off

thank u lmao

the rational part of me wants to tell u to forget abt this guy bc i cannot STAAANNNDD when people don't just say what they want to and act that way... but the ego part of me is saying he might be into you and is just shy abt it.

like ik sometimes when i see someone CRAAZZZY hot and they're near me im like "oh fuck don't look or they'll know u think they r sexy"...... but we're GETTING AHEAD OF OURSELVES!!!

honestly, i would just suggest you strike up a conversation with him. maybe abt the class ur taking or the professor or even something stupid about the work / assignments. like it can genuinely be anything.

don't overthink too much and just try talking to him. if you get a lukewarm response / he seems like he's kinda an asshole... then that's that. but he could also just be a little shy and might end up being super sweet.

and even if he's not into you or hasn't noticed you yet, talking to him is the best way to open up that possibility. good luck!!! im rooting for you <33333

#[ 🏩 – chatting ] #advice #i lost my advice tag and am too tired to go an collect it :(( #love u tho and i hope things go well!!!!

[in-decisivo]

solar return 💔

hi

i have been dreading for this day to come

i know what happened this day last year and the rest was a blur and the rest are all part of the history, tragedy because everything was in a mess, total mess

i remember waking up going to work then buying you all the things you want because you said you cant eat

so i hastily went to your house without a doubt

without a single drop of fear in my heart i know i can make it right

i have been always

always been brave, somehow

i also didnt noticed how my heart was breaking that night

with all the things you said

and all the things i said, i couldve said and i shouldve said

everything was sad its not like i didnt love you from all of these years

i didnt knew it then but i knew how there was missing fragments of information to patch up whats supposed to be, fixable

but i understand it now

im writing this in the hopes of someday one day what happened today, last year would make sense

i get it now it has to be ugly it needs to, i has to at some point

and you did what you did

you made me believe all the lies you made

with James

with your friends

and everything else in between

my November 22s are memorable

five years ago we decided to finally test the waters

ill never forget that day

of meeting you in your denim jacket

me drenched in black

were you able to remember the first movie we ever watched? its Wreck it Ralph,

do you remember the first thing you said from March 9, that you cant be Fix it Felix because theres nothing else you could do -

(how did i remember that so easily

i guess i paid more attention to the subtle details than you did

right, it has gone full circle)

which you didnt pay much attention to

i was thinking you could be the one i could spend the rest of my life with you and if this is how its going to be ill be fine because i know you

i know you

but now i dont anymore

you died

you died in my head

you died MJ

you died

everything you ever said you are, gone

you died

every little possible thing to make myself believe you are not who i thought you are, gone - you are dead

there is another universe that you could possibly be all the good things you said you were, but this time you are not

you are a fraud, you lied

you

lied

paradoxical

i really have to turn this back around again

its a November 22 and i remember too much

i remember everything

im on my own now

im doing fine

its been great without you

without the fear of having you close and losing you

without the fear of having to perform on a certain level because you would not love me enough

without the fear of watering down my roots because i cant be me anymore, sadly

and that version of me is unloveable - insufferable,

who wouldve thought

its a 22

how did all of my 22s became so memorable to me

i guess

things like these are meant to happen to me

i guess

for the good if it all - i hope

i gtg

it isnt nice for me to walk backwards

oh God i still hate you fuck !!!! that

#mj #personal

[megismorallysunny]

HELLO AGAIN 20/09/23

ok so i said i might talk about a situation with a sub yesterday but i didnt end up writing about it, ok so our history and geography teacher was out probably bc theres a cold going around the school. anyways so we had a sub for the past two weeks and i was also out on friday which was a geography day, so this is all second hand information but its from my bestie "Diorite" nicknamed after my one of my fav blocks in minecraft. anyways so what happened is my class all got out of their seats because class was ending in under a minute. but anyways the sub gets mad and says "HEY EVERYONE SIT DOWN NOW ITS NOT THE END OF CLASS" and one of my classmates idk who says "but theres a few seconds left sir" and also its lunch next and the good things run out fast, my class is also in one of the hardest to get out of hallways so like it was completely justified. then the sub says "EMERALD YOUR STAYING AFTER CLASS" also ive nicknamed every1 in my class after a gem and emeralds a guy idk i think thats just a lil important. as soon as the bell goes emerald runs tf out and the sub RUNS AFTER HIM, he starts pushing people out of the way and yelling "EMERALD, EMERALD" apparently people from the canteen could here him, which is like far enough ish away. then the sub catches up and GRABS EMERALDS WRIST and emerald shouts at him "CLASS IS OVER SIR" and then the sub walks away, giving out under his breath. anyways the reason why i didnt say this on like saturday or whenever i said i was, was beacuse i was hoping for some kind of update. i was in school on monday and tuesday, we had first class with our tutor and she didnt mention anything but in english our teacher said "the bell doesnt dismiss you what does, emerald?" and emerald was like "uhh the bell?" and english teacher says "no emerald the teacher" also this came out of nowhere, we werent talking about anything like this before. so yeah quite confusing, and more confusing to pick emerald. on tuesday we had history first and i was really excited to see the sub bc it was gonna be really fucking entertaining. but turns out we had a different teacher. me and diorite were all like "omg i wonder what happened." diorite thinks he didnt want to sub for us anymore and admitted defeat, but i think that he got suspended. in second year a first year told on a teacher for swearing at her, and the teacher was like never seen after that. the teachers still dont talk about her or answer our questions. our history sub was weird, like proper weird, and very antisocial, like walks into other rooms to get stuff he needs during class which isnt too weird people forget things but he doesnt say hi or why hes there, anyways diorites in all my classes, bar woodwork, graphics, maths and business and while we were in history i said, "omg look at his head theres so much blood on it" and she snarkily replied with "yeah like you" (i had spots ok that sometimes bled but i hadnt had that for like 2 months so ty diorite that was luvely jubilee) then i said "no really look" and she gasped like proper gasped, she doesnt gasp not at all. so i was right yeah i know *mic drop* yeah yeah. but there was really a concerning amount of blood on the side of his head but id seen it before so i wasnt too creeped out. anyways not too much else happened so yeah hope you have a good morning, day and night. <333

[ast4rtrying]

I js wna say what i feel abt that time

Or rather what i still feel sometimes

Dear lord,

I dont know why, sometimes i still feel like theres a mask between us, some sort of thick wall

unlike when we would message or talk to each other and reply most things immediately or ask for and give elaboration quickly, things are a lot slower now

I dont know why, i dont want to face it, its fkin unreasonable but sometimes i just feel abit ignored when i ask some things but they arent answered. I unds that in a public space like this we cant answer sensitive things as freely or answer everything bcos its js so slow too, i know. I dont know, i dont see a way to fix this while keeping things smooth and tidy and in line with our promises, i dont

I know i do this sometimes too, sometimes i forget to return to another topic when we're already going down one lane of thought, even if its as impt

I also know that i can ask a lot of qs, a lot of weird or obvious qs that maybe have already been answered, its really js childish for me to expect an answer for them esp in such a slow env and even more so if it seems obvious alr hais, im sorry for that, really adding a lot of stuff clogging up our blogs

And i know its tiring to have to reply to everything posted, i shouldnt have even expected that in the first place. Im sorry its unreasonable, these expectations are unrealistic, and ive been unreasonable too. Im sorry, please forgive me lord, i hope that daniel may forgive me too

Im sorry for that, if i made him feel sad or unheard lord. Im sorry that i didnt make enough effort sometimes to detect what hes feeling, instead focussinh too much on solving it. Im sorry if it made him feel frustrated or ignored like i did sometimes. Im sorry, im trying to do better there and wherever i can too. I pray that you would forgive me for these and anyth else ive done wrong to or hurt you or daniel by doing. I pray that he would forgive me too for any of these that ive hurt him by doing lord. Im sorry lord, and im sorry daniel. Please forgive me

I know we are both trying. We ARE both trying and its hard to address or talk about everything this way js bcos its so slow, theres not enough time in a day to address everything on our minds

Please help us lord, teach us how and give us strength to fix whatever issues or rifts between us, or outside of this relationship that could still be affecting us.

Lord, you provide for all your creations, please help daniel sleep well at night and eat well and regularly each day so that he can live a full and fulfilling life according to your plan for him.

Please heal his body and his stomach of its pain and restore it according to your design for him, so that he can live comfortably and smoothly each day.

Please calm and restore his mind and mental health so that he can live happily and peacefully and fully enjoy this world you have created for him to explore and make better with the gifts you have given him.

Lord, please take care of daniel, help him to live well, fulfilled and happy and following you, regardless of the obstacles or challenges he may face, help him to always be able to overcome them and trust in you.

Please help us both to be honest with ourselves, you and each other and always to support and empathise with each other especially when things are tough.

Thank you for taking care of us and helping our relationship grow thus far, we pray that you will continue to watch over us and help us maintain our relationship in a way that strengthens it, each other and honours you always lord.

Praise you for all your goodness, love, wisdom, mercy and justice, lord, may we praise you forever on earth and with you in heaven. In jesus' name, amen.

Lord, i forgive him already. Amen

Please forgive me world, im sorry for being unreasonable

I hope he is sleeping well

[soaringsearingphoenix]

Me: no netflix stop recommending disenchanted to me... i pick up mannerisms from tv too easily... if i watch people being assholes to each other im gonna start being rude and i dont wanna get in that zone rn

Also me: ooh i heard umbrella academy is good i will watch that instead

#wow theyre really terrible to each other and i love them all #like hey what if we made the incredibles but they were all sad and haunted #but like theres actual character development in this show so far so i have hope theyre gonna get to feel ok at least some of the time #which is not the case with every show ive watched lately #stranger things drives me NUTS #i just want them!! to get to be happy?!! and every season ends and its sad again like #they always end when the trauma ends but they dont show the epilogue where they start to heal and it! hurts!! #and im not watching yhe new seqson of disenchanted because its like... i disliked most of the characters at the beginning #and by the end? i still disliked all the same ones equally as much but also there were some new characters who i ALSO disliked #if there was a character in that who didnt piss me off they werent memorable enough for me to recall now #umbrella academy is good so far tho!! but thats the thing #i know i have a weakness for stories about tortured geniuses #questioning themselves and searching for their place in a world that wont let them forget their individuality #do you think all cultures have these stories? where people face the almost unbearable burden of uniqueness? #or do you think that comes from an individualist culture that teaches us to reject conformity #and maybe also from living in a culture that rejects open physical affection #that combination of things. sort of a physical and emotional personal space we are raised with #i dunno. maybe its late and im unusually nostalgic for the fact that i used to see people every day #as much as it wore me out. every day is too much #still it was nice having a regular schedule with a little bit of free time to spend with friends factored into it #i think not taking classes this semester was a mistake #i mean i am taking a class but not like... formally for credit #which is really my favorite way to do it but #like i do miss having a fuller class schedule a little bit #i gotta get to sleep i ramble when its late #goodnight

[mqnasluvr]

skinship headcanons | genshin impact

pairings; jean x gn!reader, amber x gn!reader, albedo x gn!reader

mentioned; kaeya, lisa, huffman, sucrose

warnings; suggestive themes ( jean ), all lowercase, not proofread

word count; 1.7k but half of it is albedo

jean

jean is not the touchiest person out there, but she does enjoy holding you. not too big on pda either; the most you’ll get out of her in public is maybe a quick smooch on the cheek and hand holding🛐 other than that, shes quite reserved.

her hugs are very comforting, but the first couple of times it was awkward on her part. she was used to giving barbara and klee hugs, but this was different. she wasn’t sure where to put her arms, and if anything she got more frustrated the more she hesitated.

once she grows accustomed to it, she’ll be fine. she enjoys the warmth and innocence of hugs, especially if you’re taller than her.

like i said, in public she isnt very touchy. while running errands she does keep you close though, and enjoys holding your hand more and anything.

behind closed doors shes a little bit bolder, but still shy overall. she’s not sure if she’s moving too fast for you so she waits until you initiate any type of physical contact, then takes it from there herself. it took her a long time before she managed to get the courage to kiss you tbh

one time when you two were in her office, amber walked in on you “distracting” jean from her work.

“y/n, i have to get back to work, please,” jean adverted her eyes from your gaze, embarrassed. she kept looking at the door, mentally asking herself if the door was locked or not and getting more nervous as the seconds passed.

you sat straddled on the young womans lap, her hands loosely placed on your hips. holding her face in your hands, you guided her face back to yours. “you work for way too long,” you frowned. “and i’m bored. there’s nothing to do in here.”

“the library is just across the hall—“

“if i read another book my brain will implode.” jean sighed and shook her head.

“please indulge in me just this once? please jean?” she stared at you blankly, her resolve quickly deteriorating. a couple of kisses couldn’t hurt, could it? she looked up at the clock in the corner of the room, then back at you.

sighing for the umpteenth time that day, she nodded. “just for a little while-“

before she could finish speaking, you pressed your lips to hers hurriedly, not wanting to waste any time. jean barely ever separated herself from her work, and refused to accept help from anyone else. you almost never had time alone with the acting grand master— you weren’t going to miss your chance now.

the kiss was not heated whatsoever, just very.. clumsy. and needy. on your part, at least. jean tried her best to slow you down, gripping your hips as her face heated up.

“jean, lisa needs you for somethi- oh,” amber nearly dropped the papers in her hands, immediately covering her eyes with it instead. you whipped your head around and stared at the girl wide-eyed before she spoke up again. “d-did i come at a bad time? i am so sorry, i’ll um. i’ll go now.”

jean couldnt look her in the eyes for WEEKS

it was painful

but overall, she likes physical affection, shes just nervous :,)

amber

amber LOVES touching you!! she’s 100% okay with pda. she isnt as forward as maybe kaeya or lisa, but she’s still rather bold. sometimes she forgets youre in public too, which ends up drawing a lot of attention to the both of you.

when you two go out on dates she is always touching you. hand in hand, arm around waist, whatever. theres always some type of physical contact, no matter what.

it’s so PAINFULLY obvious that you two are dating but for some reason she didn’t think that anyone knew ?? one time huffman saw yall kissing in an alleyway u really aren’t slick🤨

she loves cheek and forehead kisses, but likes receiving them more than giving really. shes a hyper one, and these kisses fluster her enough to make her quiet down. ( it’s so cute )

she often picks you up to hug you, spinning you both around in circles in an almost bone crushing hug. other than those times her hugs are really soft, but the energy is still there. ^^

have i mentioned that she is affectionate?? because she really is. she does respect your boundaries though, but if you feel uncomfortable you’re going to have to speak up on it because she won’t notice.

in private her clinginess is amplified by 10.

“i’m trying to cook, amber,” you mumbled, struggling to stir the paste sauce in the pot. all you were trying to do was make dinner for the two of you, but around 5 minutes ago she came up behind you and wrapped her arms around your arms and torso. you could feel her bury her face further into your back.

“mhm, and it smells really good too,” she hummed. you groaned, and she just giggled.

“i’ll be done in like, 20 minutes, amber. you can hug barron bunny in the meantime,” you tried to pry her arms off of you but she started whining.

“that’s too long.”

“no, it isnt,” you turned around with a spoonful of pasta sauce, motioning for her to open her mouth. she slurped the sauce and gave you a thumbs up.

“see? its good, right? well it wont get much better if you keep clinging to me so much,” she stayed quiet, but at least loosened her arms around you so that it was easier to move. you lightly patted her hand. “thank you.”

“whateverrr,” she drawled, and you couldnt help but laugh.

the pasta was in fact very good

in the end, shes the exact opposite of jean, and youll need to slow her down a lot :,)

albedo

as far as physical contact goes, it’s literally the last thing you will ever find on his mind. he’s too caught up with other things to think about physical affection

he does love you yes, but he doesnt show it through physical means. he does more gift giving, like when he sees a pretty flower that reminds him of you while going out to find starsilver shards.

if you want a hug or anything out of him you’re going to have to initiate it first— it’s foreign territory, and it’s not something he’s particularly interested in, so he doesnt feel the need to indulge in it

however the first time you two cuddle you can tell that he’s hooked. and he does a terrible job at hiding it.

now, he insists that you sit in his lap while he is taking notes because it “helps him focus better” and because “he’s so lonely”

we all know that aint true lmfao

he also really likes it when you play with his hair. please play with his hair, especially when you want him to get away from his studies. physical contact is completely foreign to him so something as simple as a scalp massage will make him melt 🛐

whenever he refuses to get away from his work, sucrose always asks you to step in because he wont listen to her

“y/n,” sucrose quietly approached you as you conversed with kaeya. you turned to her and nodded, albiet a bit concerned. sucrose never really needed you for anything, what did she need now that she couldn’t do herself?

kaeya took this as his sign to leave, but not before giving you a quick pat on the head. “yes, sucrose?” you said. “did something happen?”

she nodded meekly, watching kaeya walk off. a little bubble of guilt formed in her stomach from interrupting. “ah, i need your help with something. you see, mr albedo has been doing research non-stop on a new thing that has caught his eye since yesterday afternoon. i’ve tried to get him to put his research on pause, but,” she adjusted her glasses. “he doesn’t listen to me. i was hoping if you could maybe convince him to take care of himself?”

you pinched the bridge of your nose and sighed. he was doing it again. but you couldnt really blame him, he was terrible at keeping his hyperfixations under control. “i’ll take care of him, sucrose. don’t worry.”

she visibly relaxed at your words. sucrose flashed you a smile of gratitude, then waved and walked off to finish her errands in mondstadt.

—

it didn’t take him very long to notice your presence behind him. you were practically glaring at him, but there was no true anger behind it. wordlessly, albedo turned around in his chair and looked up at you.

you crossed your arms. “albedo,” you started, and it took everything in him not to sigh at the inevitable lecture.

“sucrose sent you, did she not?” he propped his arm up on the armrest of his chair, leaning his face into his hand as he gazed at you nonchalantly.

“of course she did. why aren’t you taking breaks?” he turned his chair back around, but you sat on the desk he was working at. you placed your hand on top of his papers and he shot a glare at you. it didnt phase you in the slightest.

“i have work to do. it’s much easier to do it all at once than stop inbetween.”

“have you at least been taking care of your basic needs? when was the last time you ate, or drank water?”

your eyes softened when he looked away.

hopping off of the desk, you grabbed his hand and pulled him away from his work ( gently, of course ). he barely protested.

you started muttering about how he needs to take better care of himself while pouring him a cup of water and making him a simple sandwich. he was a bit disappointed in himself for making you worry, and ate the food you gave him guiltily.

you pinched his cheek as he ate, giving it a light tug. he slapped your hand away playfully and a bit of the guilt he felt lifted when he heard your laugh. “i’m sorry you have to go through this for me.”

you shook your head. “you just need to learn how to stop yourself. you’re smart albedo, i’m sure you’ll figure it out in no time.”

he finished eating his food and, uncharacteristically, pulled you in for a hug. albedo rested his forehead against your shoulder, relaxing even further when you weaved your fingers through his hair.

“...i’m sorry, y/n.”

“stop apologizing.”

“okay. sorry. oh-”

you laughed.

#genshin impact #jean x reader #jean x reader genshin impact #jean x reader genshin #amber x reader #amber x reader genshin impact #genshin impact fanfic #albedo x reader #albedo x reader genshin #albedo x reader genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #is it obvious that i have a soft spot for albedo

[souryogurt64]

i love that post you made about pete and ryan, their dynamic/relationship isn’t talked about nearly enough i think. hope this isn’t creepy, i just find them interesting! obviously no pressure at all in any way but if you have any more thoughts about them i would love to hear 👀

i think its not even a theory, its pretty well documented that ryan really looked up to pete and possibly even questioned his sexuality back then and he gave that weird answer about if they hooked up or not.

i think as an adult thats now the same age ryan was when he started to fall apart its kind of obvious how difficult everything was. he put on these airs and talked in this weird pretentious half-british fake accent and its just really difficult to watch.

i genuinely cannot imagine what it would be like to be 18 and have an abusive alcoholic father and worship someone and have them sign your band and become chart topping literally 6 months after starting the band and then have the whole thing explode in less than 5 years including your dad dying and ending up with the worst grifters ever in your life. it is so fucked.

i was only like 13-14 at the time and didnt really understand what was happening or remember the exact timeline when the panic stalker thing occurred and the shane morris stuff was happening but i remember watching it and hearing about it and in retrospect it is like . so bad

i also am not sure pete even knew how much ryan hero-worshipped him. its possible he remembered talking to ryan on aim and after shows and that ryan was on their street team in 2001-2002 and its possible he was too self absorbed to connect the dots and ryan never told him.

ryan has a lot of feelings about, and pete rightfully gets a lot of heat for, how he sort of “dropped” ryan and ryans life spiraled out of control but i think people kind of forget that spencer and jon exist and its not as simple as pete picking brendon over ryan. ryan and spencer were best friends for a very long time and then their friendship ended too. pete ended up focusing his efforts on trying to help spencer out after his pill issue and i think he just kind of had to pick a side, more or less. pete also got divorced and was at a bit of a low point as well during 2010-2012 or so. also, ryan ended up hanging out with shane morris, who is extremely racist and i am pretty sure sexually threatened petes toddler at least once.

also dont worry theres an essay that touches on it coming

#i work two jobs have the zine freelance and kind of sort of volunteer and have other hobbies so unfortunately i cannot bang this out as fast #as i want to #i know im online 24/7 but i actually do have a life

[cynettic]

Hii,I’d like to request a fanfic about kaeya and venti(seperate) comforting a gn!reader after losing their pet

Summary - Venti and Kaeya comfort you after the loss of your pet.

Pairings - Reader x Venti / Kaeya

Warnings - Pet angst

Penpal - Sorry for getting to you late! If you did by chance lose a pet like that I’m so sorry to hear that- I tried to make it extra comforting for that case. If not and I’m just overthinking it- I hope you enjoy it either way :)

A/N - Ahhhh- I havent posted in so long ;-; sorry sorry, been stuck with 40-50 hours of work this entire week, and when I get home I just grind Inazuma. I havent even caught up to the archon quest, just exploring lol

Comfort after Losing a Pet

Venti

Venti has lived for a very long time, and even with his cheerful chatter and harmless jokes, he’s gained a strong sense of wisdom from these years. He has no doubt attached himself to people throughout these years and lost them, but instead of feeling sad for them, I feel like Venti would keep them close to his heart instead.

He’d urge you to do the same.

Things like these take time, taking in the death of someone important to you is not easy, he understands that.

Venti can be incredibly patient, even though it might be hard for him to put himself exactly in your shoes, he will wait alongside you.

Unless it’s a cat.

He’s allergic to those little fuckers- and even if he doesn’t share a particular hatred towards them…

Jk jk he’ll comfort you and mourn your pet with you either way, he just wants to see you smile again.

What Venti could best give you is words and time, he doesn’t really have much archon duties so he’ll spend the day doing things with you. He’ll even skip a few nights at the bar just to cuddle with you and make you feel safe and like you have someone to rely on.

As for words, we all know Venti is a smooth talker- who’s to say he isn’t good at soothing someone either?

He probably won’t be as touchy as Kaeya will, and will rely on the things he can do to cheer you up. Playing his lyre, telling you jokes, and just being by you.

_-_-_-_

"People and animals come and go, I know for sure that -pet name- loved you dearly Y/n. And even if they can’t be here with you," Venti pressed a loving kiss to your chest right where your heart was. "They’ll always be right here with you.”

_-_-_-_

“They’re gone.”

You slowly sank to your knees, lips pressed firmly shut as you tried to blink away the tears. Shock coursed your body as you tried to understand just what had happened. But every time you thought about it, your heart thud a bit too loudly against your chest, and suddenly you wanted to cry all over again.

Venti, who was right beside you didn’t know what to do. His hands were outstretched to bring you into his arms, but he was unsure of whether it was the contact you need at the moment.

He decided to simply rest his hand on your back.

The two of you had just been on your way back home after having to put your pet down, something you’d been trying to delay, but knew you had to with their age and actions. Venti had stood with you through it all, but you hadn’t shed a tear back then.

But the shock gradually faded away, and you were a sobbing mess.

Venti rubbed his hand on your back, whispering soft promises and loving words into your ear. It hurt him to see you like this, and even if he was close and had known your pet well, it didnt affect him nearly as much as it did you. However, when you continued to sit crouched on the floor, he knew he needed to take action.

Slowly, he lifted you to your feet, opening the door to your home and slowly helping you inside. Tears continued to trickle down your face as he walked you over to your bedroom, a firm grip on your arm so you wouldnt fall. His thumb gently brushed the skin of your arm, a contact that reminded you he was there.

He gently sat you on the bed, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “Y/n,” he began gingerly, already taking off your boots and unnecessary accessories. “Take a deep breath in.”

You did just that, but another sob broke past your lips and suddenly you were wiping them away.

“No no,” he took your hands in his, your wrists encased in his gentle grip. “I’m not asking you to stop crying… I just want you to clear your head a little.” His gaze was soft as he looked up at you from his crouched position. “Being sad over this is completely normal, I’ll be with you through it all.”

He slowly brought your fingertips to his lips, pressing a featherlike kiss to each of them. So soft that by the time he’d finished, you’d stopped crying. His touch made you feel warm, a bright reminder that he was here with you, that you wouldnt be alone during this.

“(Pet Name) loved you Y/n. I want you to know that they were happy till the end, happy with you. I know you need to grieve, but don’t ever think that you’ll have to do it alone.”

Kaeya

Kaeya may not as lived as much as Venti, but he has certainly gone through enough to understand handling a loss. He’s lost a great amount of family, and has lost his relationship with his brother. He probably hasnt had a pet before, but knows the importance they hold.

He probably got to know your pet too, formed memories and came to love them as well.

It wont hit him as hard though .

Kaeya will also be patient with you, theres no rush to heal over what happened or finish your grievances. Expect him to be there with you for the majority of the time, he might ask for a couple of days just to stay with you.

But Kaeya still needs to work, hence time not being one of the main providers he can give you. Instead, he would wrap you in his arms and wouldnt let go. Physical contact and giving are what he’s gonna be doing.

You feel hungry for eggs and bacon? Chef Kaeya to the rescue-

Tbh I dont even know if he can cook.

Like Venti, he will remind you constantly that he’s there. Because he knows that its exactly what he needed back when Crepus died. He’ll remind you through his words, actions, and contact.

24/7 Cuddle buddy.

He most definitely calls you nicknames all the time, but the names before the death of your pet might have been more like, babe, doll, honey. He might’ve switched to love, dear, dearest, stuff like that for a little.

Idk- but ‘Your pet loved you doll,’ doesnt sound as nice as, ‘Your pet loved you dear.

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“We made so many memories with them,” he whispered into your ear, arms around you. “You were always there with them, loved and took care of them, I know they loved and appreciated you for it.”

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“I’m fine Kaeya,” you mumbled as he held the cup of tea to your lips. Your hands could easily grasp the sides, but for some odd reasons he insisted on being the one to do everything for you. You knew it was partly because he’d have to start going back to work soon, and he just wanted you to feel comfortable.

“I know,” he simply said, a smile playing at his lips. “But I want to spoil you with love, just take it.”

You felt your throat go dry and your chest thud painfully, something you’d gotten used to since yesterday. The loss of your pet struck hard, but you found it all the more bearable with Kaeya, who stood alongside you through it all.

Finishing the tea, he climbed into bed with you, hand coming to pull you close to his chest. His fingers slowly brushed the skin of your back, soothing patterns that would send you to sleep right away. But instead, you nuzzled your head deeper into his chest.

“I miss them,” you spoke softly.

Kaeya didnt stop with the motions on your back, but instead drifted his other hand to the back of your head. He brushed his fingers through your locks, lowering how own head down to press a kiss to your forehead.

“I know you do,” was what he said in a whisper. “Theres nothing wrong with it either, you will miss them for an eternity.” He spoke from experience, but was never harsh with his words as if he expected you to know. “But eventually, you will solely remember those good memories with (Pet name). Those are the only ones that matter, because you made them happy, and they made you happy.”

The deep breath you took in was painful.

But he was right, you knew well that their memories and your yearning for them would turn into a past adoration. You would never forget them, but you’d come to accept their loss and always remember them in a happy light.

“Thank you,” you mumbled softly to the boy, wrapping your hands around his waist. “You always know what to say and do… thank your for being here for me.”

“I will always be here for you,” was his answer.

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