#i haven't been on a date in ages

[agustdiv1ne]

i just flirted with a man (over text) for 3 hours and now i'm going on a date with him tomorrow...what if i just throw myself off a bridge first

#i haven't been on a date in ages #i'm so scared #ashlee's bs

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

[chuckyray]

happy birthday to the prettiest and weirdest dead boy ever.

#technically his gravestone says 28th for his bday but it also says his death date was in 1862......not accurate! #his bday is the 29th but on non leap years he just goes with 28th ❤️ #anyway happy birthday harper boy your birthday gift will be me eating your flesh and guts so tenderly. i love you. #i know you haven't been able to celebrate or age for the last 150+ years but its ok ❤️ see you in april ❤️ #maniacs #harper tag #2001 maniacs #harper alexander

[averlym]

hi, i see you are on hiatus, but thought at some point you might like to hear that january 28th is henry’s deathday ~ holiday anon

another one bites the dust (haha because you hoover dust)

#one year anniversary of this in my ask box <3 have a silly little niche comic that would only make sense if you’ve seen this one behind the #scenes video interview thing i don't remember #i was going to find it to link it but alas it was super old (before covid! before cast change!) and i gave up #it was like is henry involved in this show? and yeah he eats the confetti at the end that's it or smth like that #in the uk. there is this specific brand of vacuum cleaner// hoover? (why do they call it a hoover i had to go back and bri'ish-ify the #dialogue in this. goodness). and its name is henry. amongst other things. go google it ig #notes!! okay so like. was going to draw all six queens but ran out of stamina. i have spent the day doing idk what and my eyes kinda hurt #so you get the trio of? #catherine parr #jane seymour #anne boleyn #fun fact! i was scrolling through the inbox today and coincidentally saw this and today's date. insane. and so i kinda rushed this out. #also. not sure if you've seen this @holidayanon but after the &lt;now retracted&gt; goodbye post i got to know who was behind this all along #and like. thank you amber you're very cool! haven't talked in ages! can;t believe you fooled me for so long. sneaky skills? ily <333 #back to notes on this yes. #there's a few references in here to my super old stuff (3 in total i guess??) #1) couch. one of my oldest drawings of the queens is all six of them on a couch and ngl i love the vibes i keep meaning to redraw it and #then not doing so. but every time i think of their headcanoned shared living space i like to stick in a couch hehe #2) plant!!! a long long time ago incorrect-sixquotes did smth about a plant and anne. its name was bess. if you look at like. sept 2019 #it's there in the archive. i think it might have been a fake plant but yknow what? i will allow bess to Grow. as a treat. and 3) there's an #incorrect quote out there i drew once from misha (wify!!) asking about cathy parr and 'make me a sandwich' meme/vine/thingy #with her and henry the hoover. so yeah! also i like in this one she's the queen declaring his death bc like how she was the one who outlived #him. itches my brain. i like to think that in this comic jane is humming one of the songs from six- specifically HoS or six!! <3 #i am not sure what noise a vacuum cleaner makes when it dies. i'm also unsure who other than my family vacuums a couch but then again i was #unaware we owned a vacuum cleaner until a month ago! so there's that #six the musical #six the musical fanart #caption is a silly little pun courtesy of me channelling my inner seymour. i think the last comic i did was for aragon's bday and despite th #e passage of time. i am still unable to properly pace things. oh well

[shima-draws]

There’s nothing quite like getting a wedding invitation from the guy you used to have a crush on in high school

#Hmm. Feels awful!! #Me to me: Maybe. I'm not quite over this. #IDK IT FEELS WEIRD MAN. I'm very happy for him. But also kinda bummed at the same time. #I think I'm more just dreading showing up and being like aha yeah! Here I am! #I haven't changed at all since we last spoke! Not at all!! #Nothing new or exciting going on with me ever. No accomplishments. No partner I can brag about. NOTHIN #Hey anybody wanna show up as my fake date. Fake dating to lovers AU /j #Idk it just feels wrong to keep hearing from my friends in high school who are all getting married and having kids #Meanwhile me. Who has never dated anybody ever. And has nothing to show from the past five years: #SORRY I'M JUST HAVING A MID-LIFE CRISIS I GUESS. AT THE RIPE OLD AGE OF 26. #Me: I've been dealing with my anxiety and depression on the daily for years now and yeah that's it how are you #My friends: I got my dream job and I'm marrying the love of my life and I'm going to buy a house soon!! #I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE. AND DIE. YEAH. THAT SOUNDS GOOD #Sorry I need to sit here and feel pathetic and hate myself for a second. Then I'll get overe it #*over #Shima speaks #Maybe I can lie and say I've been backpacking through Europe for the last five months. LMAO

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

while i'm blogging about fanfiction on tumblr dot com for the first time in a while i'll also say i hadn't realized how much of my Energies were tied up in like actual WIPs that were actually in progress - other than the lil settings week fic i did all four of the stories i've posted this year were things where i had the whole concept outlined mentally or for real and at least some of it written/very well defined in my head going into the year. i've been sort of scattered mentally lately and it's been hard to latch on to the next Project when all the available options are, like, solely in the brainspaces and not yet in a place where i feel like i can chip away at them in 20-minute increments on the train which is how a lot of writing has been getting done this year. but we are visiting family starting tomorrow and i am taking like a week and a half off of working and am hoping to be able to use some of that time to hammer out some blueprints for the next phase! and it is kind of nice to think maybe i will be planning out the help i'm alive epilogue in the same place where i sat down and made a color-coded calendar-determined outline of damage control three summers ago :)

#i have been chipping a way a little at once again rewriting the first thousand words of this one PWP with feelings #that has been kicking around foreverrrrrrrrr #the other one i really want to dive into is the eliot makes quentin try dating fic i thought of like a month ago #which i have a super rough outline for #but am fuzzy on the actual beginning... and like truly i haven't written a first scene in AGES #meanwhile i say i am taking time off working but i also rarely work even 20 hours a week #i do a lot of commuting. but still. #one of my current Life Goals is to figure out like #how to structure my time or find whatever the fuck it is i need #so i actually FEEL like what i AM (a person with a lot of free time) #instead of somehow feeling constantly besieged by work despite not working that much #writing tag

[belle--ofthebrawl]

Some plans fell through due to the flu so now I'm stuck at home thinking about the things Aether and Dew did in the two days before they went to go see Omega.

#anyway. i had a really fun time with my best friend last night. we haven't been able to go to a lot of Pride events #but this masquerade was so fun even if i couldn't go dressed like a ghoul. #we haven't had the chance to just talk in ages and we ended up sitting more than dancing. #but that's fine. #i had a hot date on my arm and that's all i care about. #(she didn't actually confiscate my phone because we had to take pictures SOMEHOW)

[asharaxofstarfall]

it's october???

#haven't been able to see any of my friends in person for ages because of online school and i never check the dates #just thought that we were still in mid september or something #can't wait to go back to in person you wouldn't even get out #i really need to fix up because of college exams and the usual

[helianskies]

got invited to drinks after work and said yes to something for the first time ever and 10 minutes in conversation somehow turns to relationships and kinky sex and my single virgin ass sat at this table of four going

#i mean the guy at the table has previously been a nakey body on the show naked attraction for any familiar brits #tho his episode was not aired in the end #but. he has apparently been invited back #shout out to steve #meanwhile theyre all surprised to hear ive never even dated let alone done the deed #(but not in a bad way or anything they just haven't apparently met many people my age who havent lol) #anywho #that was a great hour and i want more friday drinks at spoons pls #helia's stuff

[marklikely]

less aromantic than previously thought. i think ive just spent the last few years surrounded by cishets who i would never want to be in a relationship with

#when I'm actually around gay/trans people my age who i can get along with enough to see as an option. i do date a lot #avpost #I've been thinking about it a lot lately like ok. not aromantic anymore i want a partner like fully romantically again. #this is the longest I've been single since i first started dating in high school bc i just haven't been interested in years #but now its like ah man. how do i get back into the dating scene I've been away for so long. 🙄

[serendipetite]

trying to determine self sabotage vs. self preservation

#i haven't exactly been very social since moving here #and in the time since moving here i got my diagnosis #and i haven't really had to share that with anyone yet #but i'm going to this thing with my mom this week #and meeting some people about my age #and hopefully some friends #but all my friendships have always felt like they come with an expiration date #like when i'll be too much or they'll get too tired of me #or i'll say something awkward #and ruin things #and i'm really actually very very scared of that happening again #and idk how to navigate this #and part of me just wants to hide away at home #and not even try anymore #but the other part of me is like 'that's ridiculous you have to put yourself out there' #but i'm scared #i'm so very scared #and i don't even have therapy between now and then #i just......i don't want to be alone #but i also don't want the pain that comes with people tiring of me #and if i make friends #how much do i share with them #sometimes i want to scream about my autism from the rooftops #other times i'm scared of how i'll be treated #i don't know how to navigate through any of this :(

[starglitterz]

guess who just got asked out 😵‍💫

#on a date. supposedly? #idk a guy whos been flirting w me for a bit has asked me to hang out. is that considered a date if he has clearly flirted with me or is- #-this like a friend thing. man im alrdy getting stressed this is why i don't do relationships 😮‍💨 #but anyway it might be fun so im going HAHA it's someone i alrdy know so it isn't my first time meeting them or anything #but i haven't talked to them irl in ages so i'm so AKWKSKAS i'm worried it'll be awkward... #✨️ — quill screaming !

[kendallspussy]

i did it .

#i haven't felt so good in a while . #i always state that im queer on dating apps because I've had enough of discourse #y'know if u dated 5+ men at the age of way too little and if u were traumatized and SA #at some point u dont know what's a trauma response and what's your actual identity #I've been reclaiming this shit for years and trying to figure out wtf is wrong with me #I've never been so at peace with everything lol .

[donuts4evry1]

just wanted to say that i went to the aquarium recently and paid special attention to the jellyfish because you've been posting about them!

UAHRUHSDJG I'M SO GLAD :))).

I'm just here spreading that jellyfish agenda 😎

#luckyyy ;w;!! the nearest aquarium from here is like more than an hour drive. i miss the aquarium so much #jhsdjfsdngsdf honestly that's me tho :>! #i haven't been to an aquarium in ages but last time I went to one....... i barely focused on the animals I just went crazy over the jellyfi #sh #ugh #especially the moon jelly display up front #for anyone who watched the bw anime..... i was literally cilan looking at the train's ATO. crazy. #if anyone gets anything out of this jellyfish game i hope that it's a newfound/renewed appreciation for jellyfish #or uh. if im lucky maybe they want to date a jellyfish <33 #ask #jellyfish #mun rambles #<333 jellyfish my beloved

[gu6chan]

made the mistake of looking through some of the most recent posts in the drakengard rpc a couple minutes ago

#was thinking 'oh there probably isn't going to be any body swap shenanigans on april fools this year; what a shame...' #then i looked through and saw it... some of the last activity dated today of 2023 #this song literally started playing in my head and i had to stop scrolling since i was feeling myself start to psychically age #i cant believe its been so long... i actually get the same feelings i do looking through old forums now :( #for better or for worse on either end i either haven't heard from any of the people or have just barely spoken to them at all #they were all so talented i hope theyre doing okay................ </3 #SoundCloud

[discoreptile]

Shellycoat

#heyo again posting in the ol tags #At a moral quandary but I guess I'll update yous on my life while I think of a way to sound it out #I am currently single. This is a big deal for me because I am coming to terms with my status as a serial monogamist #I think my ex has been not single longer than I have so I'm not feeling guilty about it. Just feels weird being single is all. #I'm doing the whole dating thing again. Have been on 2. First one I stayed at her spare room and freaking cried. Haven't spoken to her sinc #Second one I stayed in her spare room and she stayed with her roommate. Both times I didn't want things to go physical. Both over now. #The second one I was more optimistic for tho.Prominent thing was that she wanted me to date her and others. So I'm not exclusive with anyon #And I still maintain that. Doesn't feel good bc when I go on a date with one it feels like I'm cheating on the others. #But i have such low confidence that I don't want to turn anyone down or keep anyone waiting for me to ask them out. So idk what I'm doing #anyway. moral quandary. I just realized I can't actually talk about it. But I have to choose advancing my own career at the cost of my sou #it would be really nice to get some big £$£$ but I'd have to sort of betray new boss a little. Who has already given me permission to do so #it doesn't feel right. Shellycoat here is from new project. Ugh I dunno. I think I'm going o have to sell out just a little. #Bein single again shows me how behind I am for my age. Still can't drive still living with my best pal. Probably goin bald soon #then again I've been saying that for years now. Maybe I have a few years left of it. But yeah. I don't earn very much rn. When I get those #questionaires I'm often in the lowest bracket so i'm like “I am among the poorest of ppl then??” One lady stopped talking to me when I #told her I rented a flat. Which implies a lot of men my age own property already. But did they get them with their morals intact or did the #have to do a bit of backstabbing on the way? Anyway. I guess I'm happy that I'm not just whining about my love life.Maybe being single is o #still wanting to get out there. Maybe I'll make another post about that or whenever I'm not single lol