#i have so many thoughts (no feelings bc im very emotionally detached from the show now)

[seokjinnieb]

i think my main problem with ipytm till now is that we get so little insights from the characters and what they are actually feeling. there's so much context missing for everything. especially in ep 3. there's just so much missing, its like they give us a vague ass timeline of events happening without showing us anything about the actual characters. i wonder if they expect me to fill in the blanks and just understand where and how teh and oh changed?

itsay was a character-driven show and people (or me I guess) did get attached to teh and oh. there was no huge, dramatic plot thing happening. but ipytm just really disconnected me from the characters. they feel like vague shadows (?) and just so out of touch. and yeah the whole don't compare thing is totally valid but ipytm is still a continuation of itsay and i was watching it for the characters and their relationship. and if you make us feel distant from them then what exactly is the point of it being a part 2? just make another series (although...lol)

and this is not just because i think the things in ep 3 are ooc for teh (which i guess i still believe in). but if they did the whole cheating (?) or method acting while making it a little more believable i would be perfectly fine with it. and by believable, i mean actually showing how teh reached that point (especially after ep 2). his actions make so little sense to me right now, i could make 15 theories about how we reached ep 3 teh and they could all be canon. his actions are so confusing and so contrasting all the time and i have no idea how or why tf is he doing anything. they really gave an anxious af teh in one ep and gave a fucking detached teh in another with no context. ok, maybe i'll just go write some fics about what happened in the middle since they don't want to give me any context.

i'm not even going to ques their direction of the script because you do you (i guess?) and it is their story (although if they are making something commercial the audience is like, you know, some way involved too but whatever). but if you don't even make it convincing enough for me, then how am i supposed to just. should i just take your word, that oh changed, teh changed so they do this shit? of course, they changed i expected that much. this story is over three years, of course, they changed! but how, and most importantly why?

#ipytm #i promised you the moon #i have so many thoughts (no feelings bc im very emotionally detached from the show now) #i've had this issue since ep 2 so it's not even about the cheating plot #i dont even have a prob w cheating plot bc all those messy emotions ah #literally sat thru friend zone every week and enjoyed it so #i waited to see if it would get better in ep 3 but it regressed #so let's see if ep 4 gives their character more depth #its def the time skip's fault but that was also their decision and idk they fucked it up for me #ngl the method acting plot is very interesting and it could be explored if they had more time #like that korean movie explored it so so well legit gave me creeps but it was amazing #but this topic is so deep idk how they will pull if off #still gonna watch ep 4 sometime tho bc i've invested so much time in this show #it would be a waste to not watch it #plus messy emotions are my style so

[queenharumiura]

|･ω･｀) sixthscorpse

Send me |･ω･｀) + a URL and I’ll talk about this blog! ||Accepting||

Alrighties then, I think, we first met like roughly 6-8 months ago. It was around the time when I decided to actually open the blog for interactions. I did make the blog on a spur of the moment thing, but then I decided to reread the manga before actually starting. 

It... it took a while;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; Essentially... there are certain arcs in the series that irk me and thus it takes me a while to get through it. Especially the final arc. That probably took me the longest because I just---- my heart wasn’t in it, y’all. Just knowing that Gokudera, Yamamoto, and Ryohei will have such a small window of screentime-- just... //fist clench. 

By that time, you knew me as ‘An-chan’. I don’t think you followed me on Haru until AFTER the alternate mun name reveal. I’m pretty sure when we met, Cady and Pocky were around. I do remember that you did disappear for a while after that. 

Will admit that I did my usual panicky: Ah, did I mess up. Did I make people mad? Ahhhhhhh... I probably did. Wonder what I did. 

Skip forward months later and it was like oh-- suddenly a lot of KHR blogs are back. What happened? You came back and talked to me and I was like ‘okay--- so--- maybe I didn’t do something wrong... //squint squints’. [Paranoia decrease by 25%]

So I do recall we did send a few memes to and fro, which was fun. Uhhhh--- you followed me on Haru... and you followed me with other blogs---

-- and then you confused me that one time with Giotto, which now gave me a new random habit(?). There wasn’t a rules page that I could find so I sent a message like where is your rules page and it was basically like, don’t worry about it. 

Me: //WORRIES ABOUT IT. 

“You know who I am.” 

Me: //STARTS TO SWEAT HARDER BC I DON’T RECALL EVER INTERACTING WITH A GIOTTO OTHER THAN SHARR. 

You in discord: It’s me. 

I cannot forgib this transgression of tomfoolery (i’m jk). Anyways, from thereafter, any time I find a blog that suddenly follows me and I can’t find their rules page easily-- “Is this Rikku”. 

#tru story. 

Idk, it makes me happy that when you make new blogs you’ll follow me with said blogs. Like omgosh, i’m valued enough to be followed with multiple blogs. The fact that you were willing to follow and interact with Haru was very !!!!!!!! to me. Pretty sure I talked to you about it via discord before, but I have a lot of emotional baggage when it comes to the KHR fandom. I don’t have high expectations for the fandom and honestly don’t expect many blogs to interact or pay attention to Haru. 

So it’s always a pleasant surprise to be proven wrong. We’ve talked a number of times on discord and we do have some similar points of views on things.

I don’t want to call them arguments, since they weren’t really arguments? We did have a few moments of tension though. Primarily just emotionally charged things caused by misunderstandings or just words being confused. 

After that, there was a period of silence for a while, and I was a lil nervous. I also just had a lot going on with life in general so there was a time when I was really everywhere in regards to my schedule. So, I hope you don’t think I was avoiding you during that time. I was just-- everywhere. 

Anyways, I think after a while, we kinda started talking more again. Primarily through dash or im. 

I’ll say this for just in case it is a worry: I’m not angry, nor do I hate you. I know that you didn’t mean to hurt me and I moved past that. So hopefully, if this is a worry, will help you know that I’m over it, and you can approach me more if you want. I do remember saying it before, but I am sorry. 

I can be sensitive at times, and I take things very literally. So I take words very seriously, so when they are written in a certain way, I’ll interpret it a certain way. So sometimes, I may end up misunderstanding what you meant to say because of it. I am aware that you have trouble conveying your thoughts, and so I try really hard to understand, but sometimes I can’t-- and so I ask. 

I honestly feel so bad any time I have to do that, because it’s not your fault. I just am dumb, and can’t understand. I try not to ask too much because I worry that I’ll hurt your feelings, or make you feel inadequate, which you aren’t. 

I say this sincerely, but I truly do value you as a friend. Whenever you can, you have sent in memes, or you’ve replied/liked my ooc posts. It goes to show that even if we left off on a rough/sad patch, you still care. It’s the little things like that, that show that you care. 

You have moments of feeling down (from what I see in your ooc posts) and because of that, I want to take this moment: 

You are a very well-intentioned person. Maybe sometimes it may not come out the correct way, but the good intention doesn’t disappear. It can be scary to continue to try, and it may seem hopeless, but I can promise you that it isn’t. 

You are very caring towards others, and you’re open-minded. Open to try out things, and to have fun. You enjoy to make jokes and have fun with others. It’s easy to see that you care a lot for other people, and that’s a GOOD thing. Sometimes, it seems that you care for other people more than yourself. I say that, because I can be the same way. If the option was between me being happy and making another person happy, I’d choose to make the other person happy. 

I get the feel that you and I may share that quality in ourselves. It’s always nice to see how generally caring you are towards those that you like-- ie your friends. You are mindful of other people and their feelings, and you do your best to keep people around you happy. Even if it may hurt you in the process. That’s how it looks to me, and I can relate to that to a degree, which is why I say this. 

You deserve to be happy too, and you should remember that you too are a good person. Your worth is not determined by the times you’ve hurt people by accident. A worth is determined by what you do with that. I know people who KNOW that they normally hurt people because of misunderstandings. They actively choose not to do something about it. 

You don’t do that. You do try to fix things, or from what I’ve seen in some ooc posts, you try to hold back because you’re worried you’ll hurt someone again. Ultimately though, I do believe you’ll ask about it because you do worry about people a lot. I think, that is the quality that should be focused on. 

Now, I don’t say this just to be like ‘I’m trying to cheer you up.’ No, these sorts of memes are a time for me to be honest and talk about myself. 

I’m a very insecure kind of person and I’m very lonely, even if it may not seem that way. I can come off as detached, because I’m just wary of being hurt again. I’m just tired. Still, it’s been comforting to know that there is a person who still cares. 

Even if they are a bit scared, they still care. Perhaps you may not realize how much that can mean to a person, but it means so much to me. To know that occasionally if i’m upset, or even if i’m not, you do still look at my ooc posts and will interact with it (reply/like). If we talk via im at random, you do ask about how me or my family is doing, because you’re concerned. 

You remember i’ve been concerned about it, so you worry. It’s not a very common thing to find someone who actively worries and cares for other people. It’s normal for people to care in the moment, but not a lot of people (from personal experience) continue to care outside of that moment. Like, even if we hadn’t talked for a while, you still cared enough to worry about me. It’s clear with the way you asked me ‘are you okay?’. 

I didn’t post an ooc post saying that I was upset, so I was confused initially, but you did say you were worried bc the last we talked, I was worried about my family. That’s telling to how much you care for other people. I hope you don’t feel ashamed or anything about that quality of yours. It’s a good one. 

I tend to worry a lot for other people to, but I’m very worried about boundaries and over-stepping, so I don’t often brave asking outright if people are okay. It does take bravery to do such a thing. 

Pretty much, I just want to say thank you for being a friend, and for caring. It really means a lot to me. It helps me remember that there are people who care about me, for some reason. Even though I personally don’t think that I’m worth much, or that I personally do not believe i’m a good person (bc quite frankly, i’m not), but it’s so comforting to know that someone cares. 

Will openly admit that I cried a bit while writing this lol. Just hope that this helps somehow. Sorry, and thanks. 

#Anonymous ask #meme answered #answered ask #thanks for the ask! #Neo speaks

[gg-astrology]

Can you do Kai ideal type post? I've recently got into exo after this dating thing and I have the biggest crushes on Kai and chanyeol

Hey there! 💕 Aaaah I haven’t even done his outline yet!! I hope you don’t mind if we take some time to talk about them (individually) first?? 💕💕I usually can’t go straight into ‘ideal’  placements until I look at their charts ksdjnfksn so this makes sense to me ;; 💕💕 (and also Im glad u got into them after the dating thing!! 💕 They’ll need support now more than ever!! 💕💕 Im happy for u AND them!! 💕💕)

[Below Cut: Brief Outlook for Kim Jongin (Kai) and Park Chanyeol ]

Note: Since this is an ‘outlook’ this is just my first impression, some things can be flushed out but we’ll save those for an actual ‘overview’! 

I’m going to start with Jongin first before we go into Chanyeol ok?

For those who are curious he’s a Capricorn Sun | Aquarius Moon + Mercury (0′) | Capricorn Venus + Mars  | Aries Lilith + Chiron | Virgo Chiron |  Scorpio Juno 

Phew, having so many placement in Capricorn and Aquarius makes it easier for me since they can be conjunctions to each other (and he has plenty!)

First of all— With Capricorn/Aquarius there’s a lot of stubbornness, but also argumentative energy there. High moral and collective consciousness, often someone who isn’t afraid to counter-back at others (regardless of age/difference) if they think they are ‘close-minded’ or ‘hurting’ others (they protecctive)

These people learn from experience, or ‘exposure’ to such things. Aquarius Moon makes the person likes to explore many different culture/types of people to keep themselves being ‘open-minded’— they like to have the bigger perspective first, before they make a direction on something

They also have great intuition like ‘this isn’t right’ – usually it has to do with moral/ethical stuff, it’s like they can ‘feel’ if other people are going to be hurt by it. These people are incredibly in-tuned to the others/collective and thus– they can be great representative in the world (like a spokesperson/ambassador for something humanitarian is great for them)

This humanitarian aspect is especially prominent especially since he has his Sun-Venus/Sun-Mercury conjunct to each other. 

This makes for a person who is in control of himself (his Mercury/Venus is before his Sun – going by the angles for the unknown time anyways*can be inaccurate, his Venus/Mercury may be ‘Burned’ and therefore– his Mind/Heart are usually put forward in an objective way in order to manifest his ‘Sun’)

He may however, have a hard time expressing his emotions/affection in a way that’s truly heart-felt and sincere (the kind of ‘feeling’ emotions and not ones he’s already familiar with) – with Capricorn/Aquarius people, they often ‘get better’ at expressing their emotions more openly as they ‘familiarize’ themselves with the intimacy/how they should express it outward.

*Doesn’t mean it’s not honest when they do, it’s just that they’d like to have control and time to prepare. So it’s like, he can get easily embarrassed when he’s not used to heart-felt intimacy/something from the heart of others. He can listen sincerely, but giving back (feed back) is a lil bit awkward and hard if it’s not automated/he hasn’t had time to prepare. 

I hope this makes sense? Like having Capricorn/Aquarius doesn’t make you ‘detached’ or ‘controlling’ or all that hard ish, it just means they’re a lil bit more cautious and may need more time/stability before they engage/function.

Another thing that points to him being a lil more proactive is definitely his Capricorn Mars and aspects to it (conjunct Sun/Venus/Uranus/Neptune) — this talks about his tolerance, patience and stability. Especially with Moon-conjunct-Saturn, he may have more maturity for his age (emotionally) and be more ‘in-control’ than others around him

It’s just– interesting with Jongin because he has so many personal aspects with Uranus/Neptune (Sun/Mercury/Venus/Mars/Pluto) which points to an imaginative, creative and ‘under-dog’ type of character. 

Like he stands up for people, can’t control his mouth about it but also has social grace, the vitality (genuinity) and do things for charity. His mind, mouth, heart and body aligns with make changes for people. It’s largely a part of his driving force. 

**Given that it may be pretty common for people who are born during his birthday period to have conjunctions like this too (since Uranus/Neptune moves suuuuper slowly)– it’s just interesting to see it in an idol’s chart so prominently. Like how they function/their main driving force y know? 

It also it makes his Moon stuff a lil more prominent. Jongin has his Moon-square-Pluto (as well as Saturn squaring his Pluto) – making him resistance to change, stubborn/confrontational if he’s not careful, a lil more narrow-hearted than he realized he is. Often these people can lead themselves to close themselves off from others even when they acknowledge that the change is necessary and good for them. A lil huffy. 

And with Saturn-square-Pluto, anything that is seen as ‘threatening’ his stability/foundation (sometimes his narrow-mindedness/egoistic part sometimes) –he can close himself off from it. This is like– not a very good ‘stubbornness’ for him since it makes him take less chances/open-up to others. It can make him ‘selective’ or ‘hypocritical’ when he tries to help others, because he won’t accept help/constructive criticism back on his belief/methods sometimes. 

Most of his chart is in sextile or conjunction, which bode for someone who may have a lil problem ‘breaking out’ of themselves or breaking away from themselves a lil. 

With Capricorn/Aquarius it has to do with point of view, a lil more about perspective and changing habits (bc of their strong moral principality/belief in themselves). 

Since these people can be very traditional despite also being unconventional. They may – unnecessarily impose their ideas/views or judge others because they may feel uncomfortable around more ‘flexible’ changes around them. It’ll take time, and open-minded-ness from others to make their ‘pessimist’ into a lil more optimistic attitude.

And then we have Park Chanyeol! 

With Chanyeol, we have a Sagittarius Sun | Capricorn moon | Scorpio Mercury rx | Capricorn Venus and Cancer Mars | Pisces Lilith | Leo Chiron | Aquarius Ceres | Cancer Juno 

First of all Chanyeol— has his Sagittarius Sun sextile Libra Jupiter. 

Jupiter makes everything big, and in aspect to his Sun it makes his personality/core-self big as well. He has a big heart, a big love/thirst for learning for travelling for experience. Sagittarius Sun likes the Libra’s analytical nature, likes it’s diplomacy and fairness. This becomes an integral part of his personality and although he may seem joking/jokester– he’s actually a rather fair and mediating presence within the team. 

HIs Moon/Venus however is square to Jupiter (Capricorn-Libra) – thus, sometimes he may overspill his emotions into his relationships with others. Overshare or disregard other people’s perspective/point of view when he’s ‘too much’ into his own problems (can be dismissive, caring one moment uncaring the next)

But this is generally appeased by his Moon/Venus conjunct— loves people, but may have a harder time showing it unless he’s going about it ‘officially’ (like courting them, step by step) 

He can sometimes be shy– as most Capricorn Venus people are, his own emotions may be oblivious to him. Often ‘knowing’ isn’t the same as ‘feeling’ what emotions are. And his Cancer Mars only makes him aware of it when it’s built up, when it’s been there for a while which is why he makes ‘emotional releases’ from it (has to learn a lil more self-control maybe to work with this Capricorn) 

His Mercury/Venus is conjunct to his Uranus/Neptune – making for someone who is intuitively creative, day-dreams, can pull his thoughts into vision and is good at talking/thinking -> applying it to real life (physicality – Mercury-trine-Mars) and sharing his product with others (Venus- social relationships, so music that touches others or has ‘feedback’ in them is crucial to him especially since he’d want recognition/admiration for it)

He thrives with challenges, especially one to do with blockage of the mind. To him, mental blockage are better because he can confront/work through it and ‘get’ what he needs from it (transform himself mentally) Mercury-Pluto conjunct and then Mars-trine-Pluto – making him thrive when its time to take action

In a way with Chanyeol— he may be more prepared for hardship/challenges than good thing to him to him. His conjunct/aspects to Pluto makes for a personality that does best/feels most alive when they are progressing, when they are moving forward in life (Scorpio Mercury/Capricorn Venus - aspects to Pluto) rather than be ‘stuck’ and stagnant analyzing their own self.

This is why even though he has a ‘big’ personality because of the Sun-Jupiter graces, he may often have a humble view of Jupiter. He doesn’t rely on it’s graces to shower on him all the time, for everyone to understand his Moon/Venus (the inner parts of him)– thus, he may focus more on manifestation of his work, to prove himself instead (Mars aspect) 

Anyways this is my short brief take on it! 💕💕💕

Thanks for being interested and sending the ask in!! ;; 💕💕 I hope this is just as good as an ‘ideal type’ skdjnfksdjn 💕

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[inkbrusher]

funkadacious replied to your post “😴😴😴😴”

i am absolutely here for this and desire an in depth explanation if you desire to write it out

wow homie thanks for allowing me to indulge 😔🤟

1. detached from her family: her parents are the prim and proper late-night-worker types and are a bit emotionally detached... they leave her to do what she wants now that she’s a teen. while she doesn’t hate them she doesn’t feel particularly connected to them, other than the fact that they are her parents. she doesn’t have siblings so she’s kind of on her own there. (stripes greatly fills that hole in her life... as u can tell dottie excels more physically but stripes excels much more emotionally, based in the fact he has grown up in a very supportive household)

2. id issues: inkopolis culture is all about what is trendy and fresh, so as a young teenager she naturally feels pressure to Fit In. there’s this self she makes to feel like she’s cool enough and sometimes deludes herself into indeed believing she is cooler and owning it and more important/influential than she probably is (actually what that white teeth teens comic was abt fdkjkf but i didnt want to spell it out and it was just a late night where i felt like drawing what i was feeling). yet another layer of herself is her agent work, its something she was into at first (again with feeling important) but struggles with now and wishes she can get out of (am i that important? im not. im supposed to be just a stupid teen turfing it out but instead im here. but wait. the teen turfing it out.. is she even me either? bc she tries too hard to be cool and imporant...). basically she feels like there are too many facets to herself and how she acts that she doesn’t know which of them, if any, are the ‘real’ her. 

possibly why she takes to stripes’ company in that he, conversely, is so consistent with how he acts/just Is Him Self all the time (funny to think abt how she sees him as a foundation but he sees the same of her in how stoic she can be, thinking nothing can get to her)

i say none of this matters much to knowing about dottie as a char bc she doesn’t really ever show this on her face ofidjklfj but. in my head this has generally been what is going on in her head

anyway thas half watered down (partially personal stuff also i feel embarrassed abt how much thought) but yea as u kno she’s an über personal character now u know too much 🔪

#funkadacious #.txt #my splat chars mean so much to meee