#i got one last class tomorrow

[inkyquince]

we miss you Daddy 🥺

daddy is packing up his briefcase and about to drive home, dw

gonna spend christmas with my lil guys, huh?

#i got one last class tomorrow #that i might have to miss cuz im fucking ILL #but #im doing a wee dancey dance #and then next week im planning a lasagna night with my friend before she flies home for christmas #i really attract american friends like a magnet #they're drawn in by my inexplicable accent and tism #ask #mwah mwah

[yo9urt]

video games....

#mine #i love my steam deck sooooooooo much im so happy i can actually play games again like a big proper library of them #and everything #everything on steam AND emulators is available to me. do you know how many games that is! #i started a new beegee3 playthrough on the HARDEST DIFFICULTY (!) today. which is also a single-save difficulty #and im in one of the most difficult parts of the game right now (level 4) and kind of nervous lol #but at the same time im really proud of myself for learning the game to the point i feel comfortable challenging myself in it #and im happy i get to at all :D i love you video games #and sooner or later ill come back to stardew valley cause there was that big update and i have some games on my wishlist too #and its not verified yet but i might play that pomeranian making the house dirty game cause it looked cute #oh and yakuza also because my friend got two of the yakuzas for me #YAYYYYY GAMES #also kind of sad though because tomorrow i pack and sunday i go back for babys last quarter of college #and im worried about how busy its going to be with classes and job apps and then of course actually graduating #and moving out and haivng a job and stuff #when all i want is to enjoy being able to play video games again.... sig #sigh* #WHATEVER...future mes problem #oh i almost forgot...one of the best parts of the deck imo is the versatility because with games like beegee3 #you can play it in controller mode which has its pros and cons but you can also swap to computer mode #which also has its pros and cons so like. i can adjust as needed #when im just exploring or trying to loot an area etc i go controller #but when im in combat i go computer because the hotbar is REALLY helpful for decision making #its really nice to have the option to choose since no console players have that it seems #and the only pc players who can do that are the ones who have and are willing to connect controllers #and most of them dont seem to be into that #but im really glad to be able to do both #ok done yapping now

[todayisafridaynight]

mine thing im crazy about today: the strained grin he gives when pretending like hes not about to attempt murder on his subordinate hes literally What did something good happen :)

in his defense (the only one he gets) kinda stupid to be talking shit about the chairman for being young when the chairman of the company YOURE in (whos 2 feet in front of you and known to be nutty) is younger lol

ITS LEGITIMATELY SOOOOO GOOD mine's the most valid person on earth for stabbing a wank right after his Cinnamon Apple (platonic) just presumably kicked the bucket and this twat's cheerin bout it. WHILE SAYIN HE WAS TOO YOUNG TO BE IN THAT POSITION OF POWER BUT THEN THE NEXT BREATH SAYIN HIS BOSS (WHO IS YOUNGER) SHOULD BE NEXT IN LINE ☠️☠️ absolute kissasses the lot of em..

#snap chats #omg i was thinking of mine today tho cause i was having one of my misanthropic monologues with myself again #overheard someone just casually talkin bout keepin certain dudes around just to use them for certain stuff #and i GUESS thats commonplace and. normal to a degree. but im still not used to hearing people so openly talk about using people like that #IN ANY CASE.... i love that scene tho lmao.... hes so cute.... when he's obsessive <3 #i was gonna say he'd burn down a hospital but bruh he destroyed an orphanage like. i think we know how serious he can be LMAO #HE'S SO WICKED I LOVE HIIIM #anyway need you guys to stop me from going to the city tomorrow to get more pork floss im finally just about out :( #fun news tho my evening class tomorrow isn't in person... hehe..... #i might do comm work with that time 🧍‍♂️maybe..... idk i can prob get two of them done tonight and start the last one in the morn #idk thats for me to figure out ANYWAY. i love mine <3 #i have to post about my other fave freakazoid hang on sorry everyone twitter got me pressed as per usual

[raksh-writes]

Having a casual breakdown, cause I just found out I might've somehow broken my toe in my left foot just as Ive barely started uni again and need to go to classes. Like.

Is this some kinda cosmic joke? Cause its not funny...

#personal #vent #rant #i haven’t really done anything that couldve broken it tbh #but it Has hurt the whole day yesterday and got swollen #and my doc said it looks like it might be broken the way its like sticking out to the side #so thats fun #when I have to go to and from classes on foot 15 min one way #and the soonest I can Maybe get it checked out with like na xray or smth is tuesday next week #I could maybe try tomorrow but I Need to go to classes #I was already absent last week cause of my lovely migraine and sinuses issues #which might actually be covid #I need to do the test I bought today to check that #Im... Im just so tired of this already #I was happy and excited about going back to uni #and so far with barely two weeks of classes behind me theres only been health issue after health issue #Im gonna go cry some more #maybe that'll help #and then I dont know #grit my teeth and survive I guess

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

anybody wanna nominate themselves to kill me with hammers?

#somehow the week of spring break is my most incredibly busy week with work. KRILLS MYSELF!! #im on our colony care rotation. im doing my grant experiment that takes 3hrs a day. my TA prof wants me to grade a shitton of stuff. my PI #was like can you get an updated draft to me by wednesday? ^_^ gonna have to tell him no fucking way tomorrow #bc we are also having a fucking forensics meeting #i wanted to go on another bug catching trip with a friend on wednesday but idk if ill be able to now :( #and i wanted to have a wine and cheese night. no fucking way im gonna feel up to hosting that this week #i was supposed to have an appointment this last wednesday. lady cancelled last minute and said how about monday (tomorrow)? and i thought #that would be fine. but i just had to text and be like hey sorry dont think i can #im probably forgetting something too. who fucking knows. #i wanted to clean my room bc its looking like the fucking labyrinth trash lady zone in there but fuck me i dont have the energy to #oh edit from one minute later. just got an email from my prof abt an assignment he wants us to do over spring break in my horrid fucking R #coding class. yeah im killing myself 😁👍🏻

[arolesbianism]

So I may or may not have spent a good chunk of my day trying to learn how to look into onis code and while I may not have yet succeeded I will likely keep fucking around with shit tomorrow and if I manage to succeed it'll spell great doom for my sanity as oni becomes the interest I've officially poured the most effort into analyzing

#rat rambles #oni posting #for now I must sleep but hopefully tomorrow Ill figure out how to decompile files #the real question is going to be if Ill be able to do this on my shitty ass laptop or if Ill need to figure smth else out #I just want to be able to view stuff so ideally it won't make my laptop chug too bad but rly Im more worried abt space #I might have to try to do some cleanup and delete some shit maybe Ill go scan through the shit that came pre installed #and hey maybe if I can get this to work I can go mega hacker mode and tweak some stuff for funsies #probably wont since I don't wanna break my game and I dont trust myself but yknow #itd probably help if I actually retained any information from the Two programing classes I took when I was younger but alas #one of them was even specifically a video game programming class and lemme tell you I remember absolutely nothing #also from what little I was able to view without fancy applications I have no new info but I can finally fully put jean in the we 100% know #their last name zone cause while we definitely already 100% did Technically we only got jea- for first name confirmation #but theyre referred to as jean in a note in a bio bot story traits file ty whoever added the notes there #god I hope theres other notes in the files I want to read those so bad #btw this was all spurred by that one nails log that disappeared cause I have found a file that looks like it but I cant fully view it #and I desperately need to view it I need to view it #also if I can look in the code then in theory itll make copying down all the lore logs easier #also the datamining thread of the forums hasnt been particularly active so who knows maybe I can become a proper dataminer #(<- will not do that probably unless it turns out to be easier than I thought) #but admittedly I am interested in hunting for potential future update content even if I probably won't hunt too hard for it #again Im mostly just hunting for lore #hey maybe if Im lucky Ill find some genuinely new and usable information in that department #maybe the secrets of b363 and dr. holland lie in the files ooooo (they probably dont) #man it'd be nice if I had a proper pc itd make my life so much easier and my desk feel less enpty lol #in a world where I get to play videogames at a higher framerate than 10fps #I mean we do have some older computers laying around the house although theyre probably also crusty pieces of shit #idk maybe I can see if I can salvage one itd be nice to have a proper computer to fuck about with #Im sure my mom wouldn't mind as long as its one that hasnt been touched in years #which tbf I dont know how many options thatd leave me but we at least have one computer that could theoretically be usable #albiet its definitely packed with viruses from me and my siblings being dumb kids

[risingsunresistance]

last final tomorrow, wish me luck o7

#got my financial aid sorted out and i'm ready to party #it's technically not my last final hut i'm opting to not do one of them lmao #i'll leave with a 72% C... it's fine #THIS CLASS IS BS MAN THE BOOK DOESNT EXPLAIN ANYTHING AND SOMETIMES STRAIGHT UP HAS NO INFO #LIKE THE QUIZ WILL ASK ABOUT A SPECIFIC TERM. I KEYWORD SEARCH THE TERM. NO RESULTS #i hate it i'm not taking ur stupid final 0/10 class i only took it for extra hours anyways #ANYWAYS my final tomorrow is scary and i'm not expecting much. i just wanna pass the class #it's the only class i'm at risk of failing ;-; i'm just struggling to do work *fast enough* #my homework is fantastic and i think my project went well. but i keep doing terrible on tests bc i cant work that fast #we're given an hour to do three problems (same length as homework) and im gonna be honest that would take me closer to 3-5 hours... #but the final is two hours so maybe there's some hope for me #chat #gn btw o/ havent been reblogging the goodnight post but whatever i'll get back to that one day #maybe

[silverislander]

prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding. #i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/ #a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!! #for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

[bensiskos]

(…)

#WUAG. ok. Complaining ahead ignore it’s whatever #We got a dog last week bc my mom really wanted one #the dog is fine she’s a good girl #But I really don’t want to be responsible for it #and my mom said “Ella don’t worry you don’t have to be responsible for the dog” #Even though a. She works 9 hours a day and won’t be home 5/7 days a week #b. My dad also works full time #c. My sibling will be the one home full time & I don’t want to make them do dog stuff all by themselves on the days I am home #d. SINCE WE’RE ALL TRAINING THE DOG ITS MY FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY #It’s just another thing I have to worry about on top of math classes AND work AND cleaning the house AND planning for my 18th bday #and it’s a lot #and I wish we didn’t have a dog because it makes life so much harder and I don’t really think it’s worth it for me #but I can’t say no at this point because like augh my mom would be so upset #we took a training consultation today #and obviously it’s a lot of work training a dog #and I don’t want to be the one worrying about it #I just wish I could tell myself the dog isn’t my problem BUT SHE IS because my mom isn’t fucking home to do the work herself #I’m just tired and I know I’ll feel better tomorrow but I feel insane about this like is no one else worried about this ????

[cimicherrychanga]

SO fucked up that when u study languages they also make u study architecture history and ant biology and economy and european politics hierarchy so by the end of the semester i still cant tie a proper sentence in any language but sure i can differentiate the neo gothic style from rococo or tell you what a bull market is

#shut up dave #im tired im tired im tired i dont care abt any of this #i mean i do enjoy architecture and art periods. i dont want to be required to know all of them #i have an exam tomorrow and one on sunday and one on wednesday and one on next saturday #then on monday and tuesday and the following saturday and monday too #and frankly. im only confident i can pass 3 maybe 4 of them #for the rest??? idk ill need to study and im very bad at that #but hey we got the grades back from the first exam!! the one i took last week and i got a 9 yippeee #that is out of 10 #it was in german interpreting n like. genuinely. im good enough at consecutive interpreting that i dont think theres a way 4 me to fail #like even if i mess it up i cant do THAT bad #i had to do it 4 english today and i think i fucked up sooo big it was so embarrassing. but then we got to the critique of my performance #and. it was all the usual nitpicks? like few word choices #the occasional discordance with adjectival conjugation. few points that 'havent clearly come across' #in my mind i had missed like a whole half of the speech but apparently it was p good still #now the problem is. same prof who teaches that subject also teaches specialized languages #and im. very bad at that one for simple reason that i have not processed any information all year #um maybe next time dont make your class about the stock market? idk just a suggestion. i dont care for wallstreet or whatever. #tho to b fair i didnt care for the european parliament last year either so ig u just cant win me on those terms #but if we get to specializing on the judiciary field i think i wouldnt be able to keep ignoring it. because of the circumstances #i have two more shirt designs to finish before the month ends but as u can see school wants me dead at the same time #one of said designs is a full 7 character thing :/ #and the other. well ive already made 3 thumbnails for it and nothing rly clicks the way i want it to

[britneyshakespeare]

oh my god am i so fucking tired

#work ended two hours ago but still just so so tired #to be fair it was my first shift back in two weeks after that GODFORSAKEN cold #tales from diana #i was very anxious to do this last night. i had a hard time falling asleep #didnt get as much sleep as i wanted but i still did sleep #i had a half-day kindergarten job originally but when i got there they switched me to full day fifth grade #and it sure was a full day of fifth grade #theyre doing this thing right now in the fifth grade where they switch classes and go to the different teachers #to prepare for middle school. i get it i get it it's a good system #but i did have to teach a one-hour writing class three times to like sixty kids in total #it's a lot. AND i had to do a lunch duty god forbid #tomorrow im subbing full-day for a different kindergarten teacher and since im goin there i doubt theyll send me anywhere else #unless i guess someone else abruptly calls out sick but like. uhhh i just wanna do this k class ive been w them like 4 times this month #theyre easy i know these kids they dont scare me #and in early childhood ed theres always like at least a para or two #in the older grades im lucky if theres one para but today there were none #all day. goooood im tired

[todayisafridaynight]

obsessed with the bullets from my 'physical impacts from 'gaming'' notes for class cause they all talk about violence and aggression an yeah that sure is a thing in videogames but have you considered ichiban deserves to enact a lil violence. just a bit. also he's the light of my life and the ray of sunshine in the dark and

#snap chats #the videogame segment funny as hell in general cause theres bullets where its like #'yeah youre putting yourself in the position of these hyperviolent and dangerous people' #and then im thinkin of ichiban calling a fuckin crawfish on his phone like yeah. deadly stuff right there youre right professor #tho now that i mention ichiban Aw Fuck he might be the worst/best example of videogames and the correlation of violence #if not solely because his fighting method is literally influenced by dragon quest but i repeat hes valid and its ok <3 #anyway sorry i have to be sick in the head stop reading now if youre a fish. or daigo bear GET OUT #theres a note here like 'increase in arousal' and Honey. if my eyeballs observing this community have a comment on that-- #im not guiltless tho 😔 saw that forbidden masato katsu screenshot and i got sick <- still obsessed with how gorg he is #AND WHY DID THEY REMOVE THAT SCENELVKLVKJ ITLL FOREVER BE FUNNY AS HELL #THERES JUST THIS GORJUS AS CHRIST SHOT OF KATSU AND ITS LOST TO THE RGG VAULT #rgg please one high-rendered cutscene of ishin masato is not enough for me. his smile was so cute in the scene pleeaaaaasssee bro #im so ill. anyway im gonna lay in bed for the next five hours until my last class #i thought i was gonna stream but if i even try talking i just might throw up. also i should prob do my comm work instead OOP #luckily its just sketches this week so.... maybe i can stream tomorrow or thursday... #dont quote me on that i suck. anyway bye

[kitsunabi]

Low key hoping that the pair of grannies who decided to move in together in the new neighborhood I’m moving to by next year is Not Straight

#living la vida valerie #I learned who my 4 neighbors will be #it’s mysterious lady who showed up with her dad / grannyx2 / firefighter??? / nurse head of household #I haven’t met any of them btw the person I learned this from is just told me for funsies???? #this place too white suburbia for meeeeeee #today was a good day overall! only one minor annoyance!!! #I got the -You don’t sound like ur Chinese- comment again😞 #ah well better luck tomorrow! #off to my last class for today!

[scarletcomet]

i was talking with my dad because i don’t really understand a lot of things in my computer engineering class, and my dad has a degree in computer engineering. he said i should try to meet with the professor. i told him that the exam is in the morning, and he was like oh people usually start studying more than a day in advance. like first of all, i did not start studying today. second of all, did he miss the part where i’ve been severely depressed for the last like month to the point where im going to have to take incompletes in all (except maybe one) of my classes??

#im really not ready for this exam because it's on the three modules that i have not done the assignments for #my professor said i can take an incomplete to finish those assignments but i should take the exam tomorrow #i know that it's impossible for me to fail this class even if i get a zero on the exam and those 3 missing assignments #but i was getting a very high A for the entire semester so that would suck #anyways im just really upset about what my dad said about me not starting studying early enough #i think he just assumed there was more time before the exam based on how little i knew. #like i have actually done a good bit of school work the last few days which is a huge improvement from the previous several weeks #my parents don't know about me being suicidal but they know that im really depressed #he probably wasn't thinking when he said that but it still hurts #the last exam i took i only answered one question because i couldn't think about anything other than hurting myself #idk what im doing #im so pathetic #this is ridiculous #am i just faking it? i got a 90 (well above the mean) on an exam from the same day as the exam i just mentioned #i have barely been able to get myself to do anything in weeks because i just have no energy and my thoughts and movements are slower #and because whenever i would try to think or focus my thoughts would drift and i would end up thinking about killing myself #and imagining killing myself all these different ways. i still am having these thoughts almost constantly so it's hard #i just want to kill myself. it's practically all i can think about. #so i would say im doing pretty well considering all of that #tw: suicide mention

[yrieso]

im either about to kill my dance teacher or kill myself

#told my friend if our teacher says any fucking thing about how MY existing with adhd is distracting to HER then im just #going to walk out of class because i can't handle this anymore #i hate my teacher now and she's made me hate dance class and just hate dancing in general #and it feels really shitty when your biggest passion dies out because of one person #and it's ironic because i got really burnt out of dance and it was worsening my mental health in middle school #because i was being bullied by another student to the point where i got panic attacks just thinking of going to class #now im burnt out of dance and it's worsening my mental health to the point of panic attacks just thinking about going to class #because of my teacher #not to mention how she's (in the last months especially) made me extremely insecure and self conscious about my weight and #my appearance and whatnot to the point where i dont even dance around at home anymore #and im just. fucking sick of living like this!!!! #my recital is next month but even then im going to be working at my studio next year so im not gonna be free of this! #the amount of therapy sessions that have been spent just talking about issues i have from and at dance is insane #anyway. i have to go back for class tomorrow LOL #yriesodottumblrdotcom

[fulgurbugs]

damn me and my professors just goin thru it rn

#art history prof just cancelled tomorrow cuz she got a concussion #i haven’t been to the last two days of classes cuz my ankle #NO ONE ELSE GET INJURED OK