#i forgot to put bad memory on there!

[aviul]

still here for y2k

#hypnospace outlaw #hypnospace outlaw fanart #hypnospace #finished this a couple days ago #bought like a gazillion years ago but wasnt in the right brainscape to really play until now #damn good game #i love it when you can just feel how much love and thought the devs put into a game #the vibes... the authenticity... incredible #in loving memory of slippy and slippy jr (both were mushis) #slippy sr was more neglect and slippy jr was Oh Shit I Forgot To Feed Him #never changed my wallpaper once i found This One it ws just too good #just slapped some stickers on that bad boy #boppos theme my beloved

[dreamspring]

oh my god i forgot about the dr rockso is a groomer side plot…..

#traumatising episode. for more reasons than one #like why did they put that in there 😭 truly so bad #and unnecessary!!!! #i forgot how much i hated it (i wiped it from my memory) #mossy posts #metalocalypse

[sweetgreekcreep]

some of them have multiple names so i tried to include them all just in case lol

plz reblog so more people can vote! ^^ /nf

#if i forgot anypony just put them in the tags my bad i'm doing this from memory- #mlp fim #my little pony #background ponies #poll #derpy hooves #lyra heartstrings #bon bon #dj pon3 #vinyl scratch #oh god that's a lot of names i have to tag. i'm not gonna tag all of them lmao- #minuette #twinkleshine #lemon hearts #octavia melody #dr whooves #dr hooves

[pekodayz]

I keep re-realizing ppl aren’t that forgetful

#all my life I’ve been around some ppl who have bad memory so it kinda just stuck with me that everyone will forget this one thing. lol yay! #but when they bring smth up that i thought they forgot it makes me ill but not ok a bad way ? moreso like oh ummm i didn’t know u remembered #terrible. I just think ppl forget what i put out and call it a day(⁎˃ᴗ˂⁎)

[sunnykeysmash]

I can't shake the feeling that the flashback in ep8 will be mac and dennis' meet cute and it will be an entirely fabricated memory born from the pain of their actual reality

#iasip #s16 spoilers #macdennis #like they both wanted that romcom so bad and they wasted 20 years chasing it and each other #plus no recollection from these guys has ever been accurate #or i may be referring to the flashback in ep6 with young mac uhhhh either way i have this feeling so im putting it out #i love the gang fabricating memories to patch the holes of pain of their real ones u can tell by how much i like clip show #to an extent roller rink is in this category too tbh like that shit aint fully real it's veryyy wishy washy yk it's about the Message of it #we will be Making shit up... #UNLESS!!! and this is my other feeling. it's a memory they both forgot. yes a macdennis meet cute memory try to keep up!!! #something about it's always been you #something about frank being the bowling ball and mac n den being the last two pins standing #something about macden apartment having a bowling pin. and so on... #something about a meet cute set up..... ya. thats what i feel #lets go delusionalposting of the day

[modernmutiny]

Y'all really know I was raised by witches when I think to myself "why am I feeling so Much lately? Oh duh it's samhain" 🤦🏻‍♂️

#teddy talks #personal #my grief is uh. close #like the box/button metaphor that button is big as hell recently #but yeah duh its samhain grief is gonna get Real Close #its 3am on nov 1 so i feel like. if grief were ice and im saltwater #slushy and surrounded and wading through #not in a bad way! im remembering things i thought i forgot and i treasure those memories dont get me wrong #ok less like ice and more like....lava slowly turning to magma? #idk my metaphors are escaping me #but to put it in terms my mom would use: the ghosts are rising like the tide around me #which makes me seem a little crazy but ive always had a....thing with ghosts #and ive tried to forget that and put it behind me but thats not exactly working :/ #so of youre of that mind - the ghosts are really pressing close lately like they know i can feel it #and i feel like it like when your sibling puts their finger half an inch away from you like 'im not touching you' but. you Feel It #its hard to explain #like remembering a physical sensation almost #like seeing something out of the corner of your eye #anyway if you want to hear my stories about ghosts and shit lmk but thats less the point #the point is my world is Weird rn and im trying to reconcile and pay respect and all that jazz #its candle + meditation time

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#so thinking abt my inability to do things in thr context of my 0cd is interesting. bc i would say my primary problem is my obsessive #compulsive behavior and inflexibility. idk if thr inflexibility is inherent to me bc its part of the reason i got stamped with aut1sm or but #its part of what maked it so hard to tell if i had 0cd or not. bc im just so fucking rigid and structured abt literally everything without #any reason. y do i have to do X thing and i cant do Y thing? idk my brain just says i cant. which kinda does align with 0cd more or just #like something compulsive. and its sorta weird bc i think im a lot more aligned with purely obsessional 0cd. so i dont do a lot of external #ritual. its more abstract. like constantly i have to work or b perfect or else i start getting intrusive thoughts. always thr same ones. and #to make them go away i have to physically suffer usually thru overworking to my mental breaking point or sometimes more direct ways #when its really bad. and then i have to keep working. and i do a lot of fucking ruminating. fucking constand catogorizing and pathological #self reflection. again i have high standards and high affinity for self punishment which is a lot to deal with. its exhausting and misery #making. and the annoying thing is that im like this for a reason. i mean it makes sense. having a learning disability plus bad short term #working memory plus some mood weirdness. ive created a structure that makes me productive but also creates so much pressure thst i cant #function at all sometimes. and whats worse is that even then even with the amount of checking i do i am still a master of fucking up the lil #things. i forgot to write my name in the autoclave list and caused problems for ppl bc i forgot when i went up there Even tho i new i needed #to. i also forgot to put thr foam cap on a liquid nitrogen tank which would have been SO FUCKING BAD if it all evaporated. so many samples #woulf have been lost bc i just fucking forgot to put it back. that was just this week. idk i just forget things like that. i left a freezer #door open in hs and we lost everything in the freezer. i also fucked up an whole experiment by not reading a schedule right. and its really #frustrating not being able to trust that youve done the right thing in the past. not to mention all the bullshit i mislabel but thats more #dys1exia realated. alas. i check and check and get anxious spikes of: FUCK DID I DO X? for a reason. but also its no fun #unrelated

[pandanscafanfiction]

🙃

#im just gonna rant here real quick #all i want to do is erite but every sentence feels terrible and i'm having trouble getting from point A to point B #work was terrible today and i havent eaten a full meal in like a day and a half and i know its all just accumulating to poor mental health #and i know i'll get over it #but being in the position i am now is just awful and the only thing that makes me happy i can't even do because of my bad headspace #i just want food but i can't even go grocery shopping until day after tomorrow #i've been eating not even 1 meal a day because of work getting in the way and i'm over it #like. i fr just want to cry tbh. what i really want is to fly back to GA but i cant i'm stuck here #sorry to anyone who read this i just wanted to say it somehwere i knew no one would listen #before i go insane #like. i even bought a pizza and got it delivered to my current work place just so i'd finally be able to eat #but systems crashed and the store is also short staffed and both the staff i did have were trainees. #so i put the pizza in the fridge and told myself i'd remember to take it back to the hotel with me #but od course due to exhaustion and an already horrible short term memory of course i forgot #so it's another night with no dinner #i hate this shit

[mejomonster]

Oh no guys I read about adhd symptoms to see if I had it and now I've made myself sad :c dang these things be affecting my life :c

#rant #i was like: well i probably have ahdh but i have a fuckton of coping mechanisms so doctors probably wont help me #then i reflected on my coping mechanisms :c #guys i spend 8 hours prepping for a doctors appt. im not kidding. i hqve to schedule reminders on my outlook calendar #that i must look at constantly for work (so i dont forget). then sit for a couple hours to focus and dontemplate on the goal #of the appt. then write everything i need to tell them. then think some more. then write things i forgot in another few days #then in anothef few days. then after several hours and a few weeks i have a LIST OF STUFF TO TELL DOCTOR and then i always put calendar #appts EARLY on them by 1 hour so i freak out when i hear alarm and get ready then have time to get there extra. #and i do this for. taxes. oil changes. license renewal. any appointment of any kind. any work situation that isnt super routine and quick #all this shit takes me hours to WEEKS of prep. taxes take me 2 weeks of ONLY TAX WORK so like 20-30 hours whenever im nog working to slowly #prep then calm down then concentrate then prep. but i also do this for shopping for so much basic shit #i have calendar reminders to pay bills. i have a whiteboard on fridge to remind me of chores #i CANNOT remember any convo or task without gratuitious written reminders and notes so i write EVERYRHING down. college was hell #i threw out my planners from college so many bad memories and stress. byt like. goddamn some peiple... #onlt take 1-3 hours to prep for a #doctor???? or even less?!!!! some people GENUINELY only need 8 hours/a #sunday to do taxes???!!!! some people can plan appointmenrs without 1 hour buffer early time on their alarms? hell without NEEDING alarms #to remember the appt exists??!!!! i cant even follow a conversation thats 5 minutes without asking what they said. my mind blanks and i #space out. like... :c quite sad how much time is wasted by all this prep to cope as well as others. its all that CBT therapy strategies i #learned combined with just. so many fuxking notes. #i also do SO much to have normal convos. i practiced hard to focus ish and respond better and write things and have #the correct expressions and even now i know my talking speed upsets some ppl. which stresses me out :/

[noxtivagus]

i love ffxiv so much fr

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #generally i feel very deeply n that's both a good n bad thing #usually i don't really have opportunities to be idk as open or unrestrained abt it as i would be (in regards to affection) #i love fiction.. i forgot the word but yk it helps like. yk let it out healthily bcs i'm also rlly just a creative person at heart #WHY IS WEIGHT OF THE WORLD INSTRUMENTAL PLAYING IN MY HOUSE HAHA WHY R ALL THE LIGHTS OFF WTF #AGHHHHH I'M SHY OH MY GOD FUCK WAIT WHEN IT COMES TO ANY SORT OF LIL STUFF LIKE THIS W ANYONE AT ALL #MY FRIEND PLACED A MESSAGE IN OUR MESSAGE BOOK 🥺 #this was.. oh my god last month 18th i haven't placed ffxiv much at all recently that i've only noticed now #THATS SO CUTE MWAHH i love my friends vv much 😭🫶🏼 ok but wait hermes OH NO I WAS GNA RAMBLE ABOUT HIM AGAIN ^^ #AGHH I CANT CONCENTRATE WHY IS WEIGHT OF THE WORLD PLAYING..... IM CHANGING IT THIS IS TOO EMOTIONAL???? #i love the songs i placed in the orchestrion so much #i might edit it sometime bcs uh 'from the heavens' is too. idk too strong for the rest of the songs i think #1) neath dark waters; 2) your answer; 3) and love you shall find - i love this so goddamn much btw fuck terncliff; 4) from the heavens 💀; #5) voice of no return (guitar) - my fav automata ost; 6) pilgrimage; 7) kaine (final fantasy main theme version) - too ethereal oh my god; #8) radiance!!!! #tbf actually 'your answer' & 'radiance' r battle themes too. along w 'from the heavens' though i'd say they're all rather elegent in a way #i rlly want to put 'apocalypsis noctis' somewhere.. i don't listen to it too often nowadays but it'll always be one of my favs. #& i rlly wna put 'dragonsong' :<< that song is v special to me with heavensward n all. the lyrics r so romantic n beautiful #'he who continues the attack' is so fucking good. i have lovely memories w apollo with the 'the measure of [] reach' songs hehe #'fragments of forever'!! under the stars w alisaie 🤍 oh my god i Need to put 'shadowbringers' n 'tomorrow and tomorrow' somewhere :(( #'a fierce air forceth' & 'a fine air forbiddeth' from my favorite frontlines map. apollo n i always got so many kills n were rlly good ehe #'vamo'alla flamenco' dnc's one of my fav classes n. i love ffix. 'bedlam's brink'.. iconic emet-selch my man. 'the heavens' ward' GRRRR #it's so epic though! 'wind on the plains' n rlly just the other bozja n zadnor related stuff. sm memories. it means a lot to me #'tomorrow and tomorrow - reprise'.. cried the first time it played with alphy in around eulmore. 'dangerous words'; god i love shb #'the queen awakens' i love delubrum reginae so fucking much. n then 'endwalker - footfalls' & 'flow'.. oh fuck . #AGHH THE OTHER NIER SONGS TOO :(( N THE RAIDS. EDEN'S PROMISE AAAAA FUCK FUCK I MISS RAIDING SO MUCH #'hic svnt leones'.. the memories 💀 n the aglaia osts hehe I DONT HAVE. SCREAM FROM PANDAEMONIUM N IN THE BALANCE #THERE'S TOO MUCH SONGS IM EVEN ONLY LOOKING THROUGH THE ROLLS I HAVE HOLY SHIT #shiva n tsukuyomi n endwalker n the auspices n the primals n all the dungeons n the tribes n city states n EVERYTHING FUCK

[dawnleaf37]

god i keep forgetting zam exists

#im so sorry but. yeah justin is the best voice actor for that guy by a LONG SHOT #im sorry zam #how many mutuals are zam enjoyers again i forgot #did ev watch twr i forgot #ohgod im forgetting everything. bad memory activate #you put a piece of it in your inventory. you got the bad memory! /ref

[cathalbravecog]

i mighrt be autitic. pay Nomind

#rambles #sudden guzma urge to purge (ohh.. rhyme...) to delete my cog world stuff again. im like. changing everything. #what i talked abt is so bad and i missed to many points because i just. forgot minute details that #make everything #but oh wellclash lore messy as fucking hell so . dont blame me fully. whateva. owie my head hurts #but yea i jurst dont agree fully anymore and i ramble on for too long . i may archive and delyeet and just #work on this stuff in private then slowly put it out with my oc story stuff #once i shifted my focus to ocs i began having more fun !! #i still . just. feel bad about certain things though yknow. but idk i shouldnt beat myself up for forgetting #i have a bad memory and currently in the moment im literally having some fever on and off so . foggy mind. #oh well! #anyways YES THIS POST WAS ORIGINALLY ABOUT ME CATHAL RAMBLING ON PREV TAGS #YES I DID DERAIL IT #CAN I DO THAT? Yes. #and i will #again #(THREAT)

[catinfroghat]

My grandad's back in hospital because he got worked up about my Nan's memory issues and then argued with my mom about her care and my mom's pissed off at my uncle as well because he and my grandad made plans without asking for my mom's input (who is the only medical professional in the family) or asking nan what she wanted and my nan is upset because she's scared and feels like it's all her fault for needing help um lmao it's probably a good thing we're not having Christmas dinner as a family this year

#i feel bad for my nan... my grandad only expresses his concern for her through getting angry and making himself ill #so she's always worried about saying anything about her health etc. #and my uncle and grandad never listen to my nan or mom they always speak over them about everything #we only just got my nan a hearing aid and we were going to try to see if that helps with her cognitive issues first #and then seek further advice in the new year once she has gotten used to it #my grandad only had a meltdown because nan forgot to put his dinner in the oven btw. #which sure is an example of her memory issues but also something that anyone could do dementia or not #(which he would know if he ever cooked for himself but i digress) #like is he worried about my nan's health or is he worried that she won't be able to cook for him anymore if she gets worse #smh my head oh well families amirite *winks at camera*

[ocdhuacheng]

I fucked upppppp

#my mom is going to be getting home before me on Thursday and I forgot to take the compost out she’s gonna be so pissed #like I put it in the oven for the night bc it was pitch black out and I was gonna take it out when I could actually see #but predictably I forgot #like I promise I didn’t do it on purpose #it just. urgh #I just wish my memory wasn’t so bad #.txt #I also forgot to take some stuff out of my brothers room because my aunt is staying there she’s gonna be pissed about that too fuckkkkk

[milo-is-rambling]

Redyed my hair (a slightly deeper pink shade but basically the same) and now I’m laying in bed thinking about all the ways I’ve changed who I am and what I believe over the years and I don’t recognize who I was when I was young but I sympathize with them even more than I ever thought I could I just don’t think of those pictures of me as actually being me because my mind has always been this and I’m sure years from now I won’t recognize myself now because obviously my mind has always been whoever I am then

#idk something about your mind maturing when you aren’t paying attention and then suddenly you feel like you’re twelve again from some stupid #memory and you’re struggling to even remember what it felt like to be in those shoes and you don’t know how much is repressing trauma and #how much is you smoking weed constantly and how much is you being depressed and so suicidal and mentally ill in your early teens that you #didn’t even bother to attempt to make memories so now anything you do remember drags you back to the worst depression of your life and you #forgot how bad it was until someone else brings it up and suddenly you’re that kid crying and hurting yourself and begging anyone to care #and being abandoned and laughed at and you feel like it will never end and then you open you’re eyes and it hasn’t been that way in years #and you’d struggle to even believe yourself because everyone else ignores the way they treated you growing up so now yoh internalize it and #assume you’re just crazy for these memories you have cause surely your family didn’t laugh at you sobbing surely they didn’t bandage your #self harm wounds and then sit you at the table and scream at you about homework and then your mother talks about her therapist and suddenly #having someone in her life to put your adhd in perspective and she realizes that maybe there were reasons you were struggling other than #being lazy but she never apologized she still doesn’t apologize and you don’t bring it up you don’t tell her you remember but the silence #between you is deafening and you can both tell you’re forgetting something and you don’t know what the other person doesn’t know #haha yeah anyways #my mothers therapy is going good and she’s finally realizing that her kid and her husband had very similar adhd patterns that affected their #entire lives and we’re not as visible and her sons adhd patterns where he was more hyperactive #like I’m happy she’s learning to deal with all this shit but now that she’s in therapy and talking about all these things with me growing up #while somehow not at all talking about all the bad shit it makes me feel like she doesn’t even know she did anything wrong and I don’t want #her to feel worse about it rn cause there’s nothing she can do and we’ve moved past it but like I still can’t cry in front of people without #this deep pit of self hatred and thinking someone’s going to laugh at me when I show real emotions so I keep it all inside until I explode #but yeah at least she feels better about herself now #like legit I am happy for her and I don’t want to make her therapy about me but like god damn woman just admit anything you did and apologiz #so I know that you know it wasn’t the right thing to do #acknowledge that you hurt and scarred me so I won’t feel so fucking crazy all the time #I got kind of poetry ish in the middle there but I went back to being bitchy ranty soon enough so now I’m gonna go smoke real weed and try #to sleep without thinking thoughts or using my brain for anything other than bodily functions

[f1dev1l]

SILLY GOOFY GAMER | LN4

pairing: lando norris x f!reader

summary: max decides to expose your drunk thoughts during lando's stream

warnings: alcohol, but not really?

you woke up to screams, with a pounding headache, now what the fuck was up with that, and this was definitely not your bed.

"why am i in max's bed," you asked as the heads of both said max and your boyfriend lando whipped to look at you where you were now propped up on your elbows, glaring at both the boys for the volume they were currently at.

"because you refused to go to bed with lando last night so he just put you in here and i took the couch," max explained as lando laughed at you, welcoming you into his arms as you got up and wrapped yourself around him, still hungover from whatever night you had had the night before.

"are you on stream?" you asked as you turned your head to look at the monitors in front of you.

"yeah, max got bored but we wanted to keep an eye on you so we just streamed in here," lando explained as he brushed your hair out of your face.

"yeah and you guys are fucking annoying," you grumbled, burying your head into lando's neck as he rubbed your back soothingly, almost luring you back to sleep.

"you had a party last night y/n, i don't know who let you have that much alcohol, but it was a funny sight," max said laughing at your disoriented figure.

"i don't know either, but i'm surely regretting it," you continued to grumble, just wanting to not have a headache anymore, "i didn't do anything bad did i?"

lando and max turned to look at each other and smirked, you didn't like the look of that.

"did i fucking fight someone," you questioned alarmed, eyebrows now raised in a rather violent questioning glance at the two boys.

both boys bursted out laughing while lando shook his head no, "no baby, you just lost your memory and forgot i was your boyfriend."

max had to breathe because of how hard he was laughing before trying to get his next words out, "lando literally went to go try to grab your hand to take you outside and you slapped him and told him to fuck off."

your jaw dropped as you turned to lando who was trying to stifle his laughter through his hand that wasn't currently wrapped around you.

"we managed to wrangle you into the car while you were grumbling about missing your boyfriend when he was literally right next to you the entire time," max said while he laughed some more at the face you currently held.

"i didn't hurt you did i," you asked grabbing your boyfriends face to turn it from left and right to see if you left any damage.

"no, i'm okay my love," lando said, looking at you with adoration as you held his face in your hands.

"what do you mean i refused to go to bed with lando," you asked turning to max.

max giggled again before answering with a smirk on his face, "lando was trying to get you ready for bed and into your bed when you claimed that he was a stranger and that you would only go to bed with your boyfriend and so he had to tell you my room was our guest room and you just face planted in my bed after he managed to get you in comfortable clothes."

"oh my gosh," you said while hiding your face into your boyfriend's neck.

both the boys laughed at you while you mumbled out a small, "never let me drink again."

"noted," was all she got as she pulled herself up to stand to get herself together and ready for the day, leaving the boys to be obnoxious to the twitch stream.

boy will she never be going out again with them.

#lando norris x reader #ln4 #lando norris #lando norris x you #lando norris x yn #lando norris imagine #lando norris fluff #lando norris one shot #max fewtrell #quadrant #f1 x reader #f1 imagine #f1 #mclaren #ln4 x reader #f1 fluff