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tboom10 · 3 months

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i felt like drawing something with vibrant colours as did i feel like drawing humans, so i did both.

the humanizations (? is that the right word?) of gangle and zooble and pomni too /ref were made by SonaDrawzStuffYT. i dont think she has a Tumblr, so here's a link to her youtube channel:

(if she has a tumblr, let me know so i can credit her for the designs)

#note: despite my having drawn a bit of abstragedy art before and posted it this is not intended to be read as ship art #im kind of uncomfortable making ship art with designs from someone who hasn't given permission to do so y'know #so even though i find abstragedy cute here they are just a gal and zooble being pals #tadc gangle #tadc zooble #tadc human #the amazing digital circus #tadc fanart #tadc #sorry if its a bit inconsistant btw #my drawing program stopped working after drawing gangle so i had to delete and reinstall the app and all the brushes were reset #another thing i worked on was unfortunatly set back a decent amount but this one luckily didnt. the worst thing it affected were the brushe #i tweaked the designs a little bit cuz why not.#i'd like to think they drink boba tea together. idk why but it just feels right #also i messed up the layers and now it looks like the lineart is having a stroke oop #i worked on and off on this for like 3 weeks lol #gaster ut/dr and puppet/marionette fnaf cameo (i've seen gangle cosplay as both and i think its cute as peck so i added them here)#kys stands for keep yourself safe here #too many tags

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northern-passage · 1 year

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one thing i find really difficult about navigating the IF space is the direct line of contact between readers and authors. we share the same space, and i think that plays a big part in this weird blurred line we have in this community and overall lack of boundaries.

for a lot of people this is a fun hobby and while i personally try to keep it... semi-professional most of the time, it's easy to get wrapped up in having fun on tumblr (or the forums, or reddit, wherever it is that you mainly post/interact) and have a lot of personal interactions with both readers and authors alike - which is fun! i like it more often than not, but i also think that's why a lot of comments in this space can end up being really entitled, over-familiar, and inappropriate.

it's no secret that most authors get really weird messages on here, and while this is also a problem on social media at large and not just specific to IF tumblr, it is still definitely a big problem in this community.

and to be clear i'm not saying that you can't be friendly with authors or readers (i've become friends with a handful of readers myself) and i definitely don't mean to imply that there needs to be a huge divide between us; that's silly - again, most authors are readers, most readers are authors, we’re just people on the internet sharing the same space. but all of us deserve to have our boundaries respected. this is my story, and we are strangers. as a general rule of thumb: if you wouldn't say it out loud to someone you just met, you probably shouldn't be saying it to a stranger online. especially anonymously.

#i also think this is why some criticisms get so messy in this space as well #authors should not always be in the same space as the readers/reviewers #and readers shouldnt be able to directly @ authors with their extremely negative reviews esp when it's subjective #(‘’i hate this’’ as opposed to pointing out genuinely harmful content or other criticism)#for everyone's sake #& on a kinda related note: speaking as someone who has been receiving targeted harassment for *checks watch* over two years now #some people really need to reevaluate the way they interact with certain media #i think IF feels very personal due to the interactivity and the customization of the mc #but not everything is written for you. and it's fine to just not like something #without sending weird harassing anonymous messages for 2 years straight to a stranger on the internet. lol #honestly criticism is another can of worms and that's not really what i'm talking about here #but i do think that's also part of the entitlement and overfamiliarity as well #so imo it's connected a little bit. something to think about #at the end of the day my advice to other authors about this is to know your limits and know when you need to extract yourself #and know that you don't have to respond to every ask #especially if it makes you uncomfortable #and im definitely not trying to sound like the authority here this is something i've struggled with as well #like i said it is hard to navigate #and authors can be guilty of this too. wanting to defend yourself or insert yourself into conversations where you shouldn't #i've done that myself #and i've also had other authors i dont know be way overly familiar with me in the past #all of this is just an unfortunate part of online community i think. but im trying to be more mindful about it #anyways. this post brought to you by the weird messages in my and my friends' inboxes lately #i just think you should not be telling authors about pesonal bodily functions in anonymous asks #as an example. lol #personal

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blanketforcas · 1 month

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okay turning off anon for a bit! might turn it back on when i feel normal again

#with misha on his chaos tour across european cons...#lol no but i really need a min to like. breathe and return to what brings me joy here #cause apparently i'm now a medium/big blog in this fandom??(?) and that feels wrong tbh and i feel.. watched? so i overthink everything #not explaining this well but basically i feel a bit uncomfortable and like there's more responsibility now #which is a little bit silly cause it's not that serious!!#super honest moment at 1 pm on a tuesday ✌️#anyway <3

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dykeaegir · 4 months

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siiiiiigh the chuggaaconroy situation really sucks :(

#like i don’t think he’s the scum of the earth or anything but you can’t deny how creepy he’d been acting #and no being autistic is not an excuse for consistently making your female friends uncomfortable #and continuing to act weird even after apologizing #i feel bad for everybody he’s hurt. especially lady emily who’s had to deal with a Lot of victim blaming #masae coming out with her own experiences too makes it sting even more #and i do think emily could have been more solid with her boundaries but i also don’t blame her for feeling weirded out. i would too tbh #man.#i wonder what colo’s gonna look like this year #honestly i haven’t watched chugga in a Long time cuz i’ve just. kinda grown out of his content style #also it legitimately surprised me when he started openly swearing in stuff lol #like who is this #but he still held a dear place in my heart and it feels a little bit off now #hrm.#bear.txt #bear.vent

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zappedbywho · 4 months

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#Diary #So here’s something I remember DEVASTING me for some #I was at the playground with my step sibling. and we were playing this game where we would swing and point out the smaller kids like ‘Thats #my kid’. Choosing babies basically and not much else. And this one girl was getting teased so we invited her over and she sat in my step #siblings’s lap while they swung. Well this girl chats like the 5 year old she was and I stumbled over my words or something and my step #sibling laughs at me hysterically. That hurt my feelings but I remember thinking that I wanted to be more thick skinned than I was when I #was the girl’s age so I just pushed it back and kept swinging. My step sibling had to #pee or something. so it was just me and this girl. I wasn’t as chatty as my sibling but when the girl slipped off the swing and couldn’t #Get back on. I asked her if she wanted me to help her get back on. and she was like ‘My mom doesn’t let me talk to strangers’#Of course this confused me. because we just met and I am also a child?#She looked. like. uncomfortable near me or something and I just felt so weird in my body #Cause like. I know I’m chubby and taller than other girls but am I really scary like an older boy?#My sibling was an average size and a little malnourished and I was already incredibly insecure about our differences #Like I was wearing knee shorts and a t shirt to swim in the lake and they were wearing a girl’s bikini lol #Then this little kid gets right back on their lap when they got back and I was like ‘😬’ trying not to cry and just walked away to sit by #myself. Now there’s a picture of my clueless father sitting next to me when I’m like ‘Oh ‘extremely high kid voice crack’ sure you can sit #next to me dad😃 Please drown Em in the lake for me because I hate them and that people like them better’ from behind.#This was a pretty regular experience for kids but I was a little off and even kids sense these things lol

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dravidious · 2 months

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You're super neat

Early sketch of my commission from @quonit! It's really cute, but I wanted something more like o.o

#asks #a blank expressionless face is kinda comforting to me #for the same reason wearing a face mask is comforting #maybe i'm shy idk #i like keeping my face to myself sometimes #but cute plushies with cute blushy smiles are cute so i'm keeping this pic too!#and i was planning to have it be a profile pic so having the representation of me be permanently smiling is a little off #especially in public! how scandalous!#also i wanted it to be able to be interpreted as inanimate so the blush is a no #and while being just a cute inanimate plushie can be nice i definitely don't want my inanimate body to be forced to smile #i was always uncomfortable with permagrin stuff #also i just like the look of a blank face. it feels right for a plushie whether animate or not #the many reasons why my plushie commission has no mouth #and has those cute beady eyes #just realizing now i probably should've mentioned the “able to be interpreted as inanimate” in my request lol #turned out great in the end anyway tho

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pepprs · 7 months

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ok so. today i am going to

fly (and travel at all) by myself for the first time since making the emergency return home from br!ghton bc of c0vid 4 years ago (extremely distressing and scary experience). and fly by myself two weeks after a mixed bag of a conference experience / plane ride home that included a massive scary depressive spiral that i had someone there to help me through as much as they could but it wasn’t enough which was absolutely not their fault but was deeply distressing to me at the time. so im about to be in a very similar environment but this time that person won’t be physically with me and it’s going to wreck my brain in multiple directions in part bc i have not yet recovered from the depressive spiral. i am still in it. lawl <3

ride in an uber by myself for the first time. ride in an uber at all for maybe the 5th time. as a very short young woman. which i have been expressedly warned by my parents not to do. lol <3

check into a hotel by myself for the first time

walk in a big city by myself for the first time (technically slightly untrue bc wjen i was last in ch!cago 5 years ago i did power walk from the hotel to the conference venue (like a block away) on the last day bc i was pissed about a situation but that was like… a block and i saw ppl i knew walking in that area. this time i will be in the same city and know no one at least for today

give myself a self care evening at the recommendation of my therapist…. for the first time. (maybe after i take a walk which i will do specifically when it’s still light out to see what the area is like). tonight no one i know will be in ch!cago yet and i have no plans to do anything. im going to play video games and draw and sing and give myself space and time to just enjoy being by myself and see how it goes

#purrs #conference tag #chicago #im very very very scared. that i won’t be able to handle it. i have craved solitude but also don’t know if it’s something i actually want o #if it’s a product of my circumstances. i am not used to being completely alone like that like whenever ive had it there have always been #other ppl in the building that ive had to be cognizant of and that will be true of a hotel too but bc i don’t know the people i will feel #less responsible to them . like obviously im not goi ng to sing at the top of my lungs but i will feel like i can sing which ive never felt #like i can do when ive lived with roommates or at home kinda. idk. my therapist was challenging me to experiment with fear by asking myself #if im really in danger or if im just uncomfortable / about to experience something ive never done before and right now im so extremely #anxious but what i am about to do is not inherently dangerous and i need to recognize im just experiencing something new and do it scared.#like im literally terrified i can’t describe how scared i am in a way that does it justice. but i am going to be okay. and when i tell #myself that i make it so.#trina vega voice im a woman…… [about to be] in ch!cago….. who’s SCARED!#i also have no idea how to be in a big city and be safe. like what do i do if im followed or if someone tries to attack me or something.#obviously the chances of that are extremely slim but ive had it hammered into me that if i am alone in a city that’s what’s going to happen #to me bc i am such a ~weak and defenseless small young woman~ lol. but bc i believed the fear and have had very little experience in citie #i have no idea how to navigate them or to be safe which creates the problem. like it makes it true that i am weak and defenseless bc i have #been shielded from being able to learn how to be smart and strong and cognizant of my surroundings. and i am so angry about it and hope tha #i will SHATTER that sense when im there and come away from it w confidence ive never had before #like i don’t have… pepper spray or anything like that. idk if that’s a thing ppl actually carry on them or if it’s just a thing ppl say. i #genuinely have zero idea at all. and i really really hope i won’t be in a situation where i’ll wish i had some. i doubt i will be but still

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widevibratobitch · 3 months

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the side effects of experiencing all this funeral stuff from this up close is honestly that im just starting to plan my own funeral in my head to entertain myself and it also kinda stopped me from being suicidal because i realised no one but me could do it right

#obv i cant kill myself now because that would completely destroy my mother but also because she'd give me catholic funeral #and that would honestly make me come back from the dead just so i could kms again #anyway the real ones will come to my funeral dressed in pink <3 and no open casket unless they really manage to make me look fabulous #i want rainbow flowers (with green carnations!) and i want it to be a met gala level fashion show dont yall dare wear boring black outfits #i want mozart to play and no catholic priests allowed. if a catholic priest tries to go near me all guests should get together to kill him #also saw a grave of some 16y/o girl apparently obsessed with h/arry p/otter today and as much as i hate HP it was AWESOME #she had a bunch of little funko pops figures there and even a hp candle #and there was obv a cross with jesus on it but he had that little ball with wings on a translucent thread tied to his hand lol #and there was also a framed picture of her and her friends goofing off and pointing their middle fingers at the camera and like. yeah #obv very sad but this is the kind of grave id like. obv not with fucking hp 💀 but i feel so fucking uncomfortable with the thought #that people might come to my grave and be all solemn and cry and make a big deal out of it like plz ffs dont #i mean obv i wouldnt be uncomfortable cause id be. well. dead. but if my funeral is boring and/or catholic then fuck this im just not dying

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stonerzelda · 4 months

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ah fuq i did not factor in canadian prices for that. Special edition arzette collection uhm. So much for the idea of quitting my job soon to look for others again lol

#i shouldve known like when the price came up being. like way more affordable lol i was like um sick #but theb i saw the actual transaction number in my bank account and uhhhhhhh i mean itssss. not Devestating but. i would not have done it 🧍#and yeah im basically getting really sick and tired of the bullshit of working at this place like i keep trying to just press on #cuz it was NOTTTTT EASY finding a job AT all not even a LITTLE bit for the LONGEST time #but its literally so fckin uncomfortable when your coworkers dont like you and your boss is a bit of a dick lol!#like i get in shit for Every Single Tiny Little thing i ever do wrong #and i still have an assload of other training to eventually learn but they 'dont trust me' to teach me yet #its just weird and im over it but at the same time i cant just quit cuz 'um i dont like it <3'#i need income very very very very very Badly. like VERY badly especially now #its just so fucking stupiddddd im tired of feeling like an idiot and like NOBODY wants me there man

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kasumingo · 11 months

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Honestly a lot of people (especially minor) just need to learn that a lot of artist and writers are going to make stuff that will make them uncomfortable and upset, and theirs nothing wrong with that! Art is supposed to make you feel in a lot of different ways. Some good, some bad, but all are valid and meaningful to at least one person, and that is important. If one really doesn't like it, or it triggers something in them, theirs nothing wrong in blocking and moving on.

But a lot of the time I see these kinds of people doing this weird gaslighting to other artist. Making them feel bad about what they create, and in turn saying that their way of thinking is the "right way" to create art.

And idk, I just think that sad...

Art and fan creations should be an open space for us to explore our ideas, characters, stories and expand our creative minds to places we never even thought before. And putting a limit in that, putting a "right way" to do it in that is just awful...

And like sure, I personally don't like it when characters are way to ooc, or certain tropes, or even certain types of stories. But I would never stop or discourage anyone for doing them anyway. Maybe their not for me, but I'm happy for the people that do like them.

At the end of the day we are just here to have fun and play around with our ideas and stories!

Sorry for rambling in your ask box op

Yeah! A lot of these mentalities and what this general climate of making art does makes artist just outright afraid to create and post, because when it comes down to it, those who are the loudest about that kind of "criticism" really can spin the fanwork in the worst way possible and find anything to call the artist on about. Things need to change.

(and I'm so glad you're rambling to me)

#Anonymous #answer #sure there is a lot of bigoted arists but i think this line is like awfully blurred now #between genuinely harmful stances and actual personal experiences someone doesn't agree with #and it's not helpful to treat artists who do things wrong like they're fundamentally broken and need to be warned about #like you need to stop approaching things so emotionally it's not helping anyone in the long run #also YEAH that bit about feeling uncomfortable #art is not only supposed to make you comfortable and validate you lol #sometimes you approach something challenging and what you can do is at least a little introspective why it makes you feel that way #and sometimes you will find you have some internalized stuff that makes you feel that way #and not the artist #like the takes on disability i was talking about earlier #'oh prosthesis bad'#why do you think so?

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whysamwhy123 · 8 months

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Hooooo boy. 6.5k words into this OrangeHook fic. This thing is TOO LONG and it ain't even done yet. For the love of God, it's Hook and OC! These boys are MONOSYLLABIC, THEY DO NOT SPEAK MUCH AT ALL! And yet, I'm having them go on and on and on. To be fair, there's a lot of internal monologue in there and Intense Rumination, so it's not all talking. But there's still waaaaay too much dialogue for it to be these two. This is probably horrendously out of character, LOL. But I'm having fun with it, so *shrugs*

I'm right at the point where It Happens. This should be where it gets smutty but knowing me, I'll probably chicken out and just do an annoying fade-to-black like I usually do. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't tempted to make it a ''And they were both bottoms...'' moment, and then leave it at that.

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #There's a lot of Problems here but tbh I'm just happy to be writing again.#And enjoying it!#And writing in present tense for the first time in years has been a fun way to spice it up a little #I think I get why that's the fandom default now? Maybe?#Oh and also if you read this fic and you want to get blind stinkin' drunk -#a) it'll probably make the fic a lot better #and b) take a sip every time OC refers to Hook in his internal monologue as ''the kid''#And take two sips every time high school is mentioned #Yes both of those were 100% intentional on my part 🙂🙂🙂#Some writers are smart enough and able to use a deft touch to navigate around some of the more uncomfortable aspects of their pairings #Me on the other hand I like to revel in the uncomfortableness and make it WORSE!!#If I ever post this thing I have a feeling it's gonna be a big ''Everyone disliked that'' moment for me LOL

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hella1975 · 2 years

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anyway in regards to my last post this is all to say that if i moved to a foreign country and shared a nice apartment with my mutuals where we did boring errands together and listened to nice music and danced barefeet then everything would be okay i think