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sapphire-heart-tippy · 8 months
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This oc I saw in my dream once... has actually helped me out a lot when it comes to gender dysphoria. Thank you, Bel...
in case you can't read my handwriting under the cut
Beleza speaking to Tippy: I...I completely understand...
It hurts... like your heart is being squeezed by a vice.
You feel like you're drowning. You're breaking apart.
Suffocating under the weight of that feeling you'll NEVER be the guy you want to be.
I want you to know that I see you as who you REALLY ARE!!!
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gansbeee-archive · 7 years
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I was tagged by @medjedofficial !! Rules: Answer these statements and tag 20 people
i tag: @the-dreamers-boy @for-the-life-ofme @colorcodedplant @deathdippedinroses (none of you have to do this if you don’t want to! Any of my mutuals are free to do this, just put me as the person who tagged you! <3)
THE LAST:
1. Drink: water probably
2. Phone call: My mom
3. Text message: ‘HOLY SHIT’ to adam about some hamilton meta
4. Song you listened to: Probably no one else performed by philippa soo from the great comet
5. Time you cried: listening to the aforementioned song
HAVE YOU:
6. Dated someone twice: never dated.
7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anyone.
8. Been cheated on: N/A
9. Lost someone special: hahaha i dont think theyre special anymore :^)
10. Been depressed: Ive been depressed for at least the past 6 years.
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never.
LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Green
13. Turquoise
14. Indigo
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: a few!
16. Fallen out of love: i have never been in love. At least, not in the traditional sense.
17. Laughed until you cried: just the other day. I was in a voice chat w some of my pals and my friend tobi laughed for about 5 minutes at a picture of a melted rubber ducky. Obviously i had to join.
18. Found out someone was talking about you: lmao more than once!!!
19. Met someone who changed you: i’ve changed a lot over the years, and i find it difficult to attribute that change to a single person or even a group of people.
20. Found out who your friends are: Yes. I think i finally have.
21. Kissed a mutual? Nope.
GENERAL
22. How many mutuals do you know in real life: @for-the-life-ofme (my best friend!) @the-dreamers-boy (my qpp!) @morriha (a good old pal) @medjedofficial (a new pal!) @colorcodedplant (another new pal!!!)
23. Do you have any pets: yep! Two cats: luke, a fat tabby, and ruby, a beautiful and sweet tortoiseshell calico
24. Do you want to change your name: I haven’t really thought about it yet.
25. What did you do for your last birthday: i think i had a party at a pizza place and then had a sleepover after? It was kinda small
26. What time did you wake up: this morning i woke up at 8:30 b/c of aikido practice
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was sleepy peepy
28. Name something you can’t wait to get: i’m not really looking forward to anything short term. But long term- an apartment w my qpp @the-dreamers-boy , a drawing tablet, and top surgery/testosterone
29. When was the last time you saw your Mom: sometime last night
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: besides the obvious (gender and money), i want a drive. I want something to look forward to, something to research, something to fall in love with.
31. What are you listening to right now: as i type this, i’m in the car and giving up the gun by vampire weekend is playing. If i could pick, i would probably be listening to the great comet rn
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: um? That is likely, yes.
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: not feelin this whole societal concept of gender
34. Most visited website: youtube and tungle.hell
35. Mole/s: they are. Everwhere. Most noticeably my face, arms, back, and legs- however they are on p much all my body parts.
36. Mark/s: faint thin scars on my hip, old scabs on my knees and elbows, a small crescent shaped scar on my knee. Also a surgery scar on my right wrist.
37. Childhood dream: I think i wanted to be a vet or a nurse. Jokes on you, past self, i can barely take care of my own health let alone other people’s
38. Hair color: light brown. Lowkey copper highlights? Blonde parts from previous dyeing
39. Long or short hair: reeeally long. Like, to my mid-back.
40. Do you have a crush on someone?: besides celebrities and unattainable characters? No one.
41. What do you like about yourself: ???
42. Piercings: I have pierced ears that have long since closed and that’s it
43. Blood type: i have no clue
44. Nicknames: gansey or kat
45. Relationship status: no romantic partner. I dunno if my qpp @the-dreamers-boy counts?
46. Zodiac: virgo sun and scorpio moon
47. Pronouns: they/them.
48. Favorite TV show(s): fma, pmmm, vld, probably other various anime i cant think of rn
49. Tattoos: none right now
50. Right or left hand: i’m right handed
51. Surgery: i had a gross abscess on my right wrist (probably from writing too much). In the future i’ll want top surgery and i might need hip surgery
52. Hair dyed a different color: as an experiment i dyed some strands magenta. They washed out to pink, and i kind of hated it, so i let it fade out.
53. Sports: I don’t play any.
54. Vacation: i’ve gone to niagara falls, canada, and various places out west in the states. I’d really like to go to spain, japan, and Mexico someday.
55. Shoes: for depression and summer’s sake, I’m often wearing either slippers, just socks, or flip-flops. When i have to go outside, i have a few pairs of converse, sneakers, and boots that get me by
56. Eating: i’m going to get food after i finish this, but the last thing i ate was ice cream last night (FUTURE ME REGRETS THIS BC IVE HAD TO FORMAT THIS THREE DAMN TIMES)
57. Drinking: i may end up drinking because it’s really big in my family, but i refuse to do it often.
58. I’m about to: get some fuckin food after 50 minutes of editing this format!!! Tumblr mobile doesn’t have an html editor :^)
59. Waiting for: marching band camp
60. Want: perhaps a love interest at some point? I mean i already mentioned other stuff (apartment, tablet, top surgery)
61. Get married: not sure. I think if i loved someone enough, i’d consider it.
62. Career: i don’t know. I want to do so many things. I think i will become either an architect or computer programmer, with my art on the side. Ideally, i’d want to be an editor, museum curator, physicist, or even an animator.
WHICH IS BETTER:
63. Hugs or kisses: hugs for me
64. Lips or eyes: Both are good
65. Shorter or taller: i’m in the middle (5'6"), but my qpp still loves to tease me abt it
66. Older or younger: um? Dating wise, in high school my partner shouldn’t be more than about a year older or younger b/c puberty is different every year. When i’m older i may have different standards. Friend wise? Ironically, i’m the youngest most of the time, yet i’m the wisest.
67. Nice arms or nice stomach: i’m kinda a tummy person, but both are good
68. Sensitive or loud: im more sensitive. I can be loud when i’m comfortable around people, yet often I’m embarrassed after my outbursts.
69. Hook up or relationship: Relationship
70. Troublemaker or hesitant: I’m usually the voice of reason here.
HAVE YOU EVER:
71. Kissed a stranger: never.
72. Drank hard liquor: No.
73. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I haven’t lost my glasses yet, but I wouldn’t be too surprised if i did. I’m a mess.
74. Turned someone down: i was asked out by two different straight dudes in middle school. I turned them both down
75. Sex on first date: i’m ace, so?
76. Broken someone’s heart: i’m unsure if i have or not
77. Had your heart broken: yes.
78. Been arrested: No
79. Cried when someone died: yes
80. Fallen for a friend: years ago, i thought i did.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: depends
82. Miracles: I believe they can happen but are very rare
83. Love at first sight: I don’t think love works that way, but who am i to tell others they’re wrong?
84. Santa claus: unfortunately no
85. Kiss on the first date: i’m not ready for that
OTHER:
86. Current best friend: jane!! (Her name’s actually sophia) @for-the-life-ofme
87. Eye color: light blue
88. Favorite movie: howl’s moving castle, coraline, kubo and the two strings
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thatonebeatlesblog · 7 years
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I was tagged by @blind-lemon to do this questionnaire. 
Fair warning: It is quite long. The questionnaire is too.
The last
1. Drink: Coke
2. Phone Call: Me mam
3. Text Message:my friend/adoptive auntie Jill
4. Song You Listened To: Peg-Steely Dan
5. Time You Cried: uh...like an hour ago
Have You
1. Ever Dated Someone Twice: Yes
2. Kissed Someone And Regretted It: No.
3. Been Cheated On: Probably
4. Lost Someone Special: Yes.
5. Been Depressed: Yes.
6. Gotten Drunk And Thrown Up: No
List 3 Favorite Colors:
-Yellow
-Green
-Blue
In The Last Year Have you
1. Made New Friends: YES!!!!
2.Fallen Out Of Love: Yes.
3. Laughed Until You Cried: No.
4. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: No.
5. Met Someone Who Changed You: HELL YES
6. Found Out Who Your Friends Are: Y E S.
General
1. How Many Of Your Facebook Friends Do You Know In Real Life: like 50 probably out of 200-something
2. Do You Have Any Pets?: YES!!!! I have a 2 y/o pitbull-border collie named Max and a little albino parakeet named Odette. 
3. Do You Want To Change Your Name: Yes. Since my birth name is still in effect.
4. What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday: I spent the night with my mom and went to dinner w/my dad and stepmom, and was gifted a copy of The White Album
5. When Did You Wake Up Today: 6:30, I think??
6. What Were You Doing Last Night At Midnight: burning my throat out on a bong in-between texting @blind-lemon and another friend 
7. Name Something You Can’t Wait For: travel.
8. When Was The Last Time You Saw Your Mum: Yesterday.
9. What Is Something You Wish You Could Change In Your Life: Nothing. Because it brought me here today. 
10. What Are You Listening To Right Now: Well, I had a record going, Aja by Steely Dan. But it played out and now I’m overhearing my auntie and uncle watching Wheel Of Fortune on the television in the living room bc they have it up so loud (they’re hard of hearing--well,, my uncle is anyway)
11. Have You Ever Talked To A Person Called Tom: Yeah, but I was too young to remember.
12. Something That Is Getting On Your Nerves: I made the mistake of watching the news earlier with my aunt and i ended up getting upset about the mass destruction happening worldwide feeling helpless to do anything about it. But I know that when I travel and sing/help others any small fluctuation will eventually make large ripples. 
13. Most Visited Website: This Place.
Random Info
1. Mole(s): 5 or 6
2. Marks: FRECKLES,, FRECKLES EVERYWHERE IT’S DAY 5,000 AND I FEAR ONE DAY I WILL LOOK TO NO LONGER SEE SKIN
3. Childhood Dream: To be a geologist, which evolved into a veterinarian which then evolved into an ocean biologist which then evolved into ornithology which then evolved into acting/musical theatre which then evolved into MUSIC--Today!
4. Hair Color: Light brown
5. Long Hair or short hair: short, but it’s growing out. I need a haircut 
6. Do you have a crush on somebody: I’m here becos the beatles ruined my life 
7. What do you like about yourself: my compassion and understanding, i’ve come to realize that not everyone i encounter views things the same way and it can be draining
8. Piercings: YES. I have a silver ring on my right nostril. I want to get my lip done too but idk yet
9. Blood type: I have no clue,, but some of the mosquitoes outside my auntie’s house might be able to tell you. 
10. Nickname: Log
11. Relationship status: single and happy
12. Zodiac: Cancer sun, Libra rising, Leo moon
13. Pronouns: He/They
14. Favourite TV shows: Friends, How I Met Your Mother, The Joy Of Painting w/ Bobbie Ross, Andy Griffith, Gravity Falls, Spongebob
15. Tattoos: No! Unfortunately!! I want to get one very soon!
16. Right or left hand: right
17. Surgery: no, thank god
18. Hair dyed in different colors: yes, i went blonde in middle school (dont ask highlights were in) and i went red soon after but washed it out after two days after ‘feeling weird’ idk i was a moody little shite
19. Sport: I loved kicking ass in street hockey, but nothin beats kickin shit at each other whether it’s a ball or a can whatever 
20. Vacation: I’ve been jonsing to go down to La Jolla lately and back to LA even though my last experience there was horrid--it’s calling me back. With it’s East-Coast-style buildings and pigeons everywhere. It’s like a little slice of Manhattan.
21. Pair of trainers: I brought one pair of white high-top Chuck Taylor’s that have my scribbly writing and drawings all over em
22. Eating: whatever that’s food. But i’ve been scared off of eating meat by like every media source since i’ve been in high school so i’m an aspiring vegetarian. Whether or not i’ll follow through is another thing...
23. Drinking: Nothing,, I should probably go and hydrate myself
24. I’m about to: go watch Lawrence Welk with my aunt and uncle
25. Waiting for: The Magical Mystery Tour to take me away already,,jesus 
26. Want: food
27. Get Married: Idk man I don’t see myself being that settled
28. Career: Spiritual counselor/healer, Singer, English Literature Teacher
29. Hugs or kisses: hugs
30. Lips or eyes: eyes
31. Shorter or taller: i like taller, but i honestly don’t care
32. Older or younger: older 
33. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms
34. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
35. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
36. Troublemaker or hesitant: depends on what kind of troublemaker 
Have you ever
1. Kissed a stranger: no
2. Drank hard liquor: yes
3. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i’m always losing my glasses. 95% of the time they’re on my gd head
4. Turned someone down: yes 
5. Sex on the first date: no
6. Broken someone’s heart: yes
7. Had your heart broken: yes
8. Been arrested: no
9. Cried when someone died:Yes.
10. Fallen for a friend: yes
Do you believe in
1.Yourself: Yes,but I doubt far too much
2. Miracles: Yes
3. Love at first sight: yes
4.Santa Clause: Okay, I may be a sap but no. But I don’t doubt there is, in fact, a fat hairy man living in the arctic 
5. Kiss on the first date: it depends
6. Angels: Yes.
7. Current best friend name: Levonia
8. Eye color: hazel
9. Favorite movie: Yellow Submarine or Fantastic Mr. Fox
I tag: @prettymacca , @mclennunf , @greerio , @thefeetlesfan , @dribblebeatles 
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