#i don’t mean to leave but. it happens

[cryptiduni]

“white mourning.”

#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’ #jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice #judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice. #she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry #he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as #he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back. #he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb. #planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco #you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen #his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but #jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control #i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation. #but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse. #i relate to ​jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late #my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone. #kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon #disco elysium #de fanart #jean vicquemare #disco elysium fanart #jean heron vicquemare #jean posting #illustration #de #artists on tumblr #my art #I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!! #i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings #my little maiu maiu

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

To Shape A Dragon’s Breath

YA fantasy

a young Indigenous girl finds & bonds with a dragon hatchling - the first time in many generations for her people - and is required to go to the coloniser’s dragon academy in their mainland city, to learn how to raise her dragon and the science of its magic

historical inspired setting on the cusp of industrial revolution with steampunk vibes

bi polyamorous MC, Black lesbian SC, nonverbal autistic SC

#To Shape A Dragon’s Breath #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #this is really really good i loved it! #the chapter titles are all like snippets of a story. or like sentence fragments that match up. which is cool #it is definitely more about being indigenous in a coloniser institution than Dragon School - not Super dragon heavy if you want that #I suspect the subsequent books will get into that when she gets big enough to ride and stuff #t’s also def YA! i’ve seen a few ppl assume it’s adult and be like its very young :( but like. I mean its perfectly reasonable for a 15yo m #definitely a Lot of racism and colonialism which is not fun to read! though it's still through a YA lens. there was def a part of me that #was imagining consequences of the narrative as if it were an adult novel #on that line of thought - at the end a lot of it is kind of solved by them going to the king and he's is like. oh no racism is happening? #that's bad i'll deal with those people! which felt like. a little simplistic. but maybe the easiest way to end the narrative for book 1 - #I don't think the author ACTUALLY is going to portray the king as a Good Guy throughout the series - it just felt conveniently like - #a simple YA solution to some very big and complex elements? if that makes sense? (but again - it is YA so it's allowed I suppose!) #some of the worldbuilding (like all the science learning) is probably setup for next books - we don’t really see any practical application #the romances are also subtle and not Overbearing In Book One which i like - leave some space for the series! #also her getting fanmail from a 10yo mixed race girl who looks up to her 🥺 #anyway. i really loved it! #oh also it reminded me a little of leviathan. i guess just the steampunk/time period/european culture.... #To Shape A Dragon's Breath

[the-faultofdaedalus]

see i’m not even that mad that astarion killed me, it’s more the fact that when morning came i was still dead, somehow in my clothes, and everyone else was just wandering around ignoring my dead body. like no one checked???? not even a little pulse check? SOMEONE put my clothes back on, and then he’s just “oh, well you’re fine now” I HAD TO BURN A REVIVE SCROLL! i had to manually control gale to use one of his to wake myself back up! the death isn’t the part im annoyed about! it’s the not doing anything about it!

#like. come on at least once he wakes up from Blood Haze #and i’m clearly knocked the fuck out. #i mean ideally check for a pulse. or if not like… fuckin get shadowheart #u know the cleric we conviently just have around #lie ur ass off about what happened i Don’t Care #but just leaving me on my sleeping bag to get pecked at by crows or w/e. just Wow.

[agent-troi]

scully telling mulder she’s ok in f. emasculata right before testing herself for the parasite because she doesn’t want him to know she might have been exposed because she doesn’t want him to worry☹️☹️☹️

#also just now realizing mulder probably never knew she had been exposed #because scully would probably conveniently leave that out of her side of the report #unless mulder happened to ask her directly if she’d been exposed because i don’t think she’d be able to lie to his face #i mean look at that face how can you lie to him #she would still probably try to deny it though because he’d still worry so much even after the fact #they care about each other and protecting each other and keeping each other safe so much #also this episode should be considered mytharc #x files #txf s2 #f. emasculata #fox mulder #dana scully #mulder x scully #msr

[goblin-enjoyer]

Ok I think I’m too far gone. I had a dream where izutsumi was demanding I eat better in a gift shop connected to what seemed like some sort of dark iron dwarf raid entrance. I know “haha watching/reading dungeon meshi makes the characters pop up in your head and tell you to eat better” is the funny joke around here, but were you gits not 100% joking or something? Am I just looking too much into a random dream? (Probably)

#and it was oddly heartfelt too #like I was all like ”yes izutsumi i will help us eat better” #after I woke up #she JUST showed up last episode at the end how in the world did that happen so quick #I mean I get I don’t eat well(or much. I eat like maybe one meal a day) but why the location???? #like did I accidentally witness a future raid for the war within (the next wow expansion) #why was there a gift shop with fishing gear right above it? #did my brain get the idea from watching the knuckles show yesterday or something?? #jeez why did this dream leave such an impact on me #I am going to BEGRUDGINGLY tag this mess because from what I’ve seen on here things like this are decently common #dream #delcious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #izutsumi #not tagging the other side of that dream Warcraft fans will think I have gone crazy

[ongsasuns]

guys this is going to sound really heavy? insane? but. first of all going on a hiatus. i’ll put the rest in the tags because idk. it feels really weird doing this but also unfortunately it is very very necessary at this point.

#nini’s nonsense #so i don’t really want to disappear on anyone and just to be clear. i am fine there’s nothing wrong with me personally but. life got fucked #real real fast and that’s why i’m leaving but. i’m doing a bi-weekly check in because the thing is. the moment those stop. you can all #unfortunately assume i’m not on this earth anymore #HA i feel insane typing that out but it is the truth of life atm so yeah uhm #this sounds so heavy and i mean. i guess it is. but yeah i also don’t want to just randomly disappear forever so this seems like the best #thing to do? sorry idrk how to deal with this yet so yeah. #maybe if everything turns to normal once more i’ll come back but i don’t see that happening anytime soon. #but yeah maybe. for now. i love you all dearly forever and always <3 #does this need a trigger warning? idk lmk #anyways let me pin this. #also pls don’t worry too much! my life is just being. well my life i guess this had to happen at some point. #also see you sept 1st!! hopefully!!

[strawmaguchi]

Twitter is legit filled with so many shit takes like you can feel upset your fave character died (it was very sad) but i hear people saying shit like “Ed isn’t redeemable without Izzy” and that they aren’t interested in S3 without Izzy. Like I just hate to see the negativity because I really adore this show and want to see it continue. Seeing this negative energy from the fandom about the future of the show sucks because I thought HBO was the one we had to worry about

Hopefully some people can come around I’m just like damn people were right when they said gay art gets more criticism from within the community

#like I’ve seen some people make some serious claims about Izzy’s death being problematic #like can you leave the crew and writers alone? #it’s okay to be upset but don’t like be a dick about it #our flag means death #ofmd #fanon exists for a reason #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 spoilers #ofmd season two spoilers #ofmd discourse #izzy hands #hate seeing people with GO icons going so hard for Izzy like….such different vibes I don’t get it #I will not stand for Ed and Stede hate #people are complex or whatever but like hating on the main ship of a show??? what do you expect to happen

[thelesbianthespianposts]

Rhys Darby reading about a pirate who was conned and betrayed by Blackbeard: what if they were together though

#It’s weird #i love it tho #I haven’t started season 2 but up to this point it’s been super accurate #i mean we have no way of knowing if stede was queer or not #And the love story is debateable #But nothing is too derivative #It’s really interesting how it recontextualizes all of it #But #In history after the act of grace stede and ed never meet again #Blackbeard leaves steals all his shit and then fucks off #So I’m really excited to see what’ll happen in season 2 #No spoilers please #The finale destroyed me #But they’ll get back together right??🥺 #Don’t answer that #ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #edward teach #the gentleman pirate #blackbeard

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

last post for the night i swear

the real tragic part about the whole science fair incident is that perpetual motion is impossible to achieve

ford’s machine would have never worked, regardless of whether or not stan had interacted with it

(warning i accidentally wrote an approximately 30-tag dive into ford’s character in the tags don’t click see more if you don’t want to read that)

anyway!! good night everyone ❤️‍🩹

#it’s also tragic because ford didn’t know #the impossibility of perpetual motion was discovered far before that point and yet he didn’t know #i mean. ‘he’s actually just so arrogant that he thought he could break the laws of physics’ doesn’t make any sense #his reaction to the situation really didn’t match that interpretation as far as i can tell #i don’t think it’s just a ‘oh no! my dream school (that i was essentially shoved into pursuing)!’ type deal #here’s what i’m thinking: #fact one- stan and ford were seemingly already drifting apart by this point in time. this is important to note #fact two- it’s really emphasized to him that he’s smart. that’s all they say about him really- that’s he’s a genius #fact three- filbrick does not even care enough about stanford to say his name. he calls ford his ‘ticket out of this dump’ #these last two points were likely heavily emphasized to him throughout his childhood #filbrick found out ford was smart and thought stan wasn’t. so ford became his plan to make money #ford is heavily bullied for his weirdness. his hands and his interests. being smart could ‘make up’ for this in his mind #he wants to leave. he outright states this- he doesn’t feel like he belongs and he wants to go somewhere he does (his own bermuda triangle) #so what essentially happened- i believe- is that ford internalized all these things #that his weirdness is bad and that he makes up for it by being smart and that he’s meant to make his family money- #-and that he wants out #his machine fails. this is a slap in the face to him. perpetual motion is impossible? #but why didn’t he know that? he’s supposed to be smart isn’t he? if he isn’t smart then what the hell is he? #what redeeming qualities does he have? how is he supposed to help his family now? he’s a failure isn’t he? #he spots a familiar bag. stan was here. suddenly he has an excuse- a reason to believe it wasn’t his fault #(and there’s really nothing to be at fault for but he doesn’t think that) #it’s easier to blame it on stan because of how distant they’ve grown. he can’t read stan as easily #and his reaction is suspicious- did he actually sabotage the project? is it…actually not ford’s fault at all? #they don’t speak to each other again for another decade #stan because he’s afraid of rejection #ford because he doesn’t want to face his own insecurities and emotions about everything #it’s easier to pretend that he wants to be famous and isn’t just doing it to make it his father money #and it’s easier to distract himself with things he loves than to feel all the guilt and hurt and frustration #and that. is perfect for bill to use to manipulate him #that’s my thoughts anyway. sorry for the rant was not expecting that to happen

[licantropa]

Happy Holidays!!

#Mianite #I’d like to apologize for the tag essay you don’t gotta read all that idk what happened #you know its interesting how red has called jordan ‘skipper Sparklez’ implying that he places them on the same level #especially since both of them have messed with capsize’s ship. but jordan places himself on the same level as capsize #because theyre both captains (which stops being true since capsize demotes him to boatswain) #and capsize makes Tom a captain meaning she places him on the same level as herself (Tom is a captain because he owns a ship btw) #(which btw is why capsize was like ‘you’re leaving my crew?’ to Jordan when he got the ss jerry but technically since he says the ship is #‘for capsize’s fleet’ it belongs to her) #I think the issue with Jordan and Capsize is that he doesn’t actually like her as an individual but as an idea #that idea being ‘having a teammate’ because it’s just been him up until that point. #arguably jordan doesn’t really care about capsizes feelings on things examples of this are #her saying no to getting married but he like ignores that and continues on with the idea that they’re together/ going to get married. #him throwing gold at her and assuming that was all it took to get a date out of her instead of asking (like everyone’s given her gold he #ain’t special) and the ss jerry which was made to impressive her but it’s in a color he likes and also he named it #also him stepping over capsizes boundaries and kissing her #me personally I will not write them having a positive relationship because Jordan’s ruined it for himself truly #I think we as a society need to put more blame on Jordan when it comes to capsizes death by the way #like while he wasn’t the only one in the room BUT he was the only one capable #Tucker was stuck in a hole Tom was being a bitch in the background Red was paralyzed in fear #and when Capsize gets threatened you know what he says? ‘Skipper you gonna do something’ (something along those lines anyways I don’t fully #remember) like he let Furia fucking villain monologue are you serious??? #also it’s way more interesting that they don’t get along #or maybe i just like issues idk #feel free to disagree ofc

[itspileofgoodthings]

all the lyrics across Taylor’s past 5 albums about how she hopes she doesn’t lose him (hopes he doesn’t leave, hopes it never ends) only to arrive at her saying “you’re losing me.”

#the moment where it shifts in any relationship #where it goes from this fear of losing something to realizing that the loss is inevitable beCAUSE a person doesn’t want you #like. in a way her fears didn’t come true. because she didn’t do the losing. #it’s not like she had perfect happiness and it was just suddenly ripped away. it can’t be that no matter what people say #which was the fear #the absolute strangled fear in Cornelia street #because the coldness was there first and the distance and the apathy. and then it’s not about being left and feeling rejected #it’s about seeing the truth and saying oh. you’re losing ME. Because you don’t WANT this #idk if this makes sense but it is such a real life distinction to me #the difference between fears and reality #and of course that doesn’t mean it isn’t also a loss and a blow (a huge one) for her too #but it’s still not I wake up screaming from dreaming one day I’ll watch as you’re leaving #cause you got tired of my scheming #where the burden rests on her for the loss. as in the failure was innately in her #because you’re losing me still has ‘don’t read the last page cause I stay’ written on all over it #but then it’s seeing clearly too—you don’t want this enough to stay #this Probably makes no sense #it’s just exactly how heartbreak happens in real times which is. Yeah exactly what’s happening #the whole thing makes me so sad

[laniemae]

hey so uh I’m back

kinda

I don’t know how to word this. But my break is over I guess. I ended up leaving for longer as I didn’t know how to handle returning and I wanted to do it on a better day, and I’m sorry if I made you worried.

Although with all of this it feels nothing has changed yet again. It feels like forever since I’ve been here and my break consisted of highs and lows where I felt I could do nothing and desperately needed to go back to tumblr, or I feel relaxed and it was a good idea.

it’s very hard. I’m considering actually leaving for good because of how my break affected me. But I’m going to try to intergrate myself back here, but I think it’s going to be very hard.

I’m still scared staying here and I feel like I’m stuck in a narrow space with no exit no matter what I do, I just hate everything I hate myself I just want help but there’s no one to get help from I have no idea what to do I feel exhausted yet I haven’t done anything I just don’t know where this is all going and I’m scared for the future

#I really don’t know if I should leave or not #ive been saying this a lot but this might be the actual time I’m truly considering it as I had some experience of that #Whatever that means #i feel like it’ll be relief either that or I’ll be even more stressed #I can’t tell because i experienced both emotions simultaneously during the leave #There’s also so much I want to share with everyone #I ended up ripping apart the Milgramblr tree #I didn’t feel anything not happiness not sadness but nothing #I just don’t know if I can take it anymore but I don’t even know the true source of what’s bothering me #I probably won’t continue my archives for a while because of this #And I need to vent here #FOR WHATVER FUCKING REWSON AS SOON AS I CAME BACK ALL OF THE PHOTOS GOT SHUFFLED AGAIN #AGAINNNNNN #AND I SPENT SO MUCH TIME REOGANISING THEM EHEN IT HAPPENED LAST WEEK #AND I ADDED SO MUCH NEE STUFF #Hehhhh it’s just some annoying it issue #But I guess this has been a bad start to everything #I just wanna sleep forever and not wake up

[arospecsyourblockdudes]

Relistening to tma s5 has made me realize that everyone who was saying it was paced badly was right. It really is paced badly

#do not archive #just in case I don’t need Jonny seeing me shit #they dicked around the apocalypse too much. so much time was wasted #and then just in the last ten episodes did the plot happen #and there was just so much happening #I mean cut out half the apocalypse road trip maybe cut some statements #just have episodes of like them talking/time skips #no dicking around london first ep in london we find melanie and Georgie #leave the safehouse earlier either 1st-2nd episode #let annabelle cane be her own character and have her own motives #don’t make the web sentient and for the love of god don’t make jon the webs special little boy #I fixed like half the problems right here

[skyland2703]

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#Am I the only person who doesn’t feel bad burning their bridges? #by bridges I mean relationships #like sometime i get so immune to certain people I chuck the relationships in fire and never look back. #and it???? just doesn’t hurt?????? #and then at the same time with some people I’m clingy af and don’t ever want them to leave????? #what is this #please tell me this doesn’t happen only with me????

[evansbby]

#thanks everyone for all the kind messages #like seriously thank you #I guess it was one of those things where I was having a really shitty week and then I came on tumblr and just the one thing set me off #and affected me way more than it usually would have #this past week was good for me though #I had three interviews and two of them were for jobs I really really want #and one of them is my dream job so hopefully I get it! #but even if I don’t… I genuinely think the interview went really good like all three of them! so I’m happy for that like #it gave me more practice #anyways with five days away I guess I made my point lmfaooooo #I was angry and upset but tbh anon hate is nothing new and it’ll keep happening sooooo #I was genuinely touched by all the sweet messages! #and also laughed at the ones which were just begging me not to leave poyt unfinished 😂😂😂 like I love the honesty there #but I laughed in a touched way bc I understand that even those asks came from a good place like the intention was good #ANYWAYS yes I was very very upset but this week went good for me so I’m in a much better place #I guess I’m going through a very rocky time irl so it’s making me more sensitive to small things that didn’t affect me before #like anon hate I mean usually I honestly find it entertaining and funny 😶😶😶 #but yeah that one thing got to me but whatever!!! we move #anyways how r y’all! #I’m free this weekend so I’ll be active on here as usual hehe

[lesbiansanemi]

I know people have always been weird with fic updates but I swear recently people have been even more impatient and weird about it. I get comments on fics that have been updated WITHIN A MONTH asking if it’s been abandoned or when it’s going to continue. Like…. My guy…. Idk where you’re from that fics are apparently getting updated like fucking daily but you need to chill

#like generally if a fic has been updated within a year at ALL I don’t assume it’s abandoned??? #and even if I did I’m not gonna ASK the author? #I’ll just happily read what’s there and enjoy it? #also like. it’s annoying when ppl leave comments like that on an older fic that really hasn’t been updated in a hot minute #but when it’s on aforementioned stuff that’s just happened to have gone a month or two without an update #idk. something about it is kinda disheartening #like if I don’t update things AT LEAST weekly ppl will lose all interest and my audience will be gone #because there’s no patience or grace for the writer #idk. it’s just. #maybe we shouldn’t assume something is ‘abandoned’ just cuz it hasn’t updated as quickly as you’d like #maybe we shouldn’t assume that at all but even if we do don’t fucking comment phrasing it like that?????? #idk even if that’s not how ppl mean it it feels kinda rude and VERY passive aggressive #it’s just something I’ve noticed in uptick in recently and it kinda makes me :/ #kaz rambles