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nixonio · 3 years

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Bakugou Apologized and I Have Some Constructive Criticism

So, I read the fan translation for Bakugou's apology, and I figured I'd analyze it to the best of my ability. Well, not analyze, more like give my opinion on it.

I want to start off by saying that I'm not an anti. I'm I'm a stan either. I'm tagging this as both, though because I want to hear every side, and think about everyone's opinions so that I can make sure mine is the best it can be.

Also yes, I know it's fan translated and that the official will probably be different, but I wanted to have fun and do it anyway🥰

Please note that this is my opinion. You are more than welcome(in fact encouraged) to tell about your own opinion in the replies, but please be respectful.

Everything I write here is to be read in the most respectful and kind tone. It's how I was meaning for it to be read. I'm sorry if it doesn't come off that way, but please know I am in no way trying to be rude with anything I say.

Now then, let's get started.

First of all, he starts out with a bit of an insult "you were always far behind me" thats not true, but it's Bakugou's opinion. I'm not sure I like how he states it as fact. "You were always so far behind me." Rather than "I used to think you were always so far behind me." or "I thought you were so far behind me."

Bakugou does, however, imply that him looking down on Izuku because of him being quirkless is wrong, and I think that's awesome.

After this, he starts giving a reason(a pretty illogical one, in my opinion) as to why he bullied Deku. Bakugou felt that Izuku was somehow miles ahead of him. Next he goes into what he felt, why he felt the need to hurt Izuku. It's because of something he was feeling. And of course, how could you talk about that with someone? Especially being immature and at that age(around five or so). He didn't have to talk about it, but hurting someone is never the option(we knew this already).

Next he talks about how he was distant. And OK, that's good. He should have been distant.

Except he wasnt distant.

I can admit that on normal circumstances Bakugou didn't go out of his way to speak to Midoriya, but when Deku would speak to/compliment him, insults were thrown. Bakugou should have been distant then. Also, "I grew up distant and always tried to beat you down" are contradictions to eachother, imo. Bakugou, back in middle school, went out of his way to bully deku. That's not distant. Now back when they were small, yes. I'd say Bakugou was kind of distant. He still made fun of Izuku though, so he probably wasn't as distant as he thinks he was.

Next he talks about he could never truly be superior to Deku, how he always lost. But this is(in my opinion), unnecessary. He's giving all these reasons as to how things didn't work out for him, and that last part being placed well....last kinda makes it seem like because everything didn't work out right, he's sorry. I know this isn't how its meant, but I feel it could have been worded differently. I can't help but wonder, though, if Izuku had submitted, if Bakugou had been superior in his own eyes, if he'd succeeded, would he still be sorry?

In alot of cases, though, Bakugou succeeded in beating Midoriya down(temporarily). Physically anyway(the final exam, and when he impaled Izuku with his headpiece).

(Note: A differing opinion has lead me to think differently about this. Bakugou had become distant in an emotional sense, he and Deku weren't as close as they were before. No longer besties, if you understand me.)

At least, after this, Bakugou explains that he realizes nothing he said really matters. I like that he can understand this, and I appreciate that he feels Izuku is owed an explanation at least. The one thing I hate about this is that his reasoning for doing what he did is longer than his apology. His apology is one line.

It's just one. If someone told me that they put me through hell because of an idea they'd placed in their own head that was so incredibly far from the truth(like Bakugou saying that he thought Izuku was looking down on him during their first battle at Ground Beta), I wouldn't feel any better. As a matter of fact, I'd feel worse about it. There is literally nothing Izuku could have done to prevent the bullying. Even if he wasn't quirkless, Bakugou back then, might not have been able to fathom the idea of someone being even a little better than him. So he probably still would have bullied Deku. Only this time Izuku might have been able to fight back depending on the quirk he would have been born with.

If someone murdered my mother, and stood in court explaining why, far more than being sorry, I wouldn't be any happier. Yes, the reason matters, but the amount of time you spend explaining the reason should be virtually nonexistent compared to the time you spend showing remorse and sorrow.

I very much enjoy how he understands that Izuku wanting to leave UA and go it alone wasn't necessarily wrong. I think Bakugou is correct here. Nice Bakugou, very cool.

I'm also very happy that Izuku apologizes for saying that everyone couldn't keep up. Very cool, Izuku.

Please don't get me wrong, though. I'm proud of Bakugou for even bringing this up regardless of how he did it. I think that Bakugou apologizing is a huge step in the proper direction. I cant help but be concerned over how he'll be different in the future though.

Well, why would I be worried about this? Because he's shown promise before, but soon after goes back to being pretty rude. Bakugou explained to that child that looking down on others would prevent him from realizing his own weakness "If you keep looking down on everyone, then you won't notice your own weakness."(My Hero Academia Episode 80(sub): Relief For License Trainees -16:00). Yet, he continued to look down on others in a sense, even as recently as the Endeavor Training Arc. Bakugou's arrogance continues, even when he realizes that looking down on others is wrong. He claims that Todoroki could never notice something he didn't already notice(My Hero Academia Episode 103(sub): One Thing at a Time -7:18). And when he claims that Endeavor, the Number 1 Hero, is ripping off of his style "He's copying my Explosion" (My Hero Academia Episode 103(sub): One Thing at a Time -6:50).

Truly, I hope Bakugou's arrogance and negative confidence will subside, and we'll be able to witness him being blatantly and openly kind to others. I'm not asking Bakugou to change his character, he could become an Inosuke(Demon Slayer) of sorts. He could even become a more obvious Tsundere, with the narrative showing his thoughts and agreeing with him actually caring in a more obvious fashion.

But, that's just what I think

Once again, feel free to comment your opinion on my criticisms of Bakugou's apology, or even tell me what you think about it! I love hearing differing opinions.

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just-weird-fanfics · 2 years

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Hi there

I hope you are doing well ( ˘ ³˘)♥

I saw that your requests were open so I thought I would request something (ʃƪ＾3＾）

Well im not sure if you write yanderes but if you don't just ignore the yandere part

Well back to the request may I have some yan! nightmare x fem!reader x yan! nightmare fredbear??

Hmm I have this idea of them not getting along at all so maybe they are fighting over the reader??

BET. I saw a fanfic like this awhile back on i think Ao3 or wattpad and i've always wanted to write something like it. I know like nothing about fnaf 4 cause it scared the shit out of me when it first came out and i don't really remember how the fanbase made the nightmares act so this is kinda what i came up with. i tried making as much backstory as possible cause i was gonna try and make it serious but it got more comedic when fredbear and nightmare showed up. i tried i swear. i don't really know how to write any yandere stuff with how i wrote this but you did say i could just ignore that part so i hope this is good :)

Great. again. i wasn't able to sleep. at all. it was almost 12 and i knew what was gonna happen. i hated staying up as a kid cause i knew it would happen. now i was mostly just annoyed with them. who exactly? well. not sure how to explain it. twisted and nightmarish versions of the animatronics at freddy fazbears. the place i always us to go to as a kid.

i wasn't sure how they even appeared. at first i thought it was nightmares. then i thought i was crazy. i could touch hem. it was weird. my parents never found out about them. well they did but they didnt know for long. they disappeared one day and i only figured out what happened to them from a blue rabbit. aka bonnie.

that was 7 years ago. im 18 now. been living on my own for awhile. my brother has been paying the bills for me. well he thinks for our parents since we were poor. hes paid off the house and is now just paying the water and electric bill. very weird circumstances.

i sat on my bed again. it was summer so it wasnt really like i needed to go to bed for school. i had graduated and wouldn't be going to collage for another 3 months. i look around my room again. i realize now how weird it was. how weird the house was actually.

the room had a closet and my bed was right across from it. the old owners left dressers either side of it. one of them was up against a wall where a door leading into the hallway was. then another door was opposite that. i never understood that.

the old owner was weird anyways. he was kinda hesitant about showing my parents this room in the house and he covered the floor with a rug. when my dad moved it he found a cutout in the floor that was glued shut.

i glare at my closet as it turns 12. i knew the plusie i had in there was gonna change any minute. i lay down on my bed nd try and go to sleep. but that was ruined when i hear pots and pans bring moved in the kitchen.

"chica!" i groan into my pillow. by now they don't even wanna scare me. they're just annoying at this point. the only one i could actually deal with is fredbear. he's not annoying like the others. beside bonnie he actually was trying to be nice at first. he told me he felt bad scaring me. of course i didn't believe him at first. but time went on and he disappeared for awhile. he only showed up again when he showed up.

Nightmare. he was and is infact a nightmare. the others are scared of him too. i don't blame them. he normally only showed up at 4am. he scared the shit out of me the very first time i saw him. i hid under my bed until 6am. i noticed that whenever he shows up everyone else leaves. sometimes fredbear is still in the house. i see him sometimes in the hallway whenever nightmare shows up.

then there's nights where no one shows up but i hear them. not full on conversations but its always muffled. then sometimes yelling. i can't make out who but it sounds like arguing more than just random yelling. I woke up to it one night and freddy had told me to just go back to sleep and mentioned fredbear.

that seemed to be what was happening now. i hear the muffled arguing. it always seemed to be coming from everywhere and nowhere at the same time. if i focused hard enough i could make out some words but it sounded mostly like gibberish.

remembering what freddy had told me a few weeks ago when he mentioned fredbear i could make out the sound of his voice. and a deeper one. it wasn't any of the others. the only one that was close was nightmare.

my closet door moves and i look over quickly. i run over to t and see foxy looking at me. "What?" i ask. "wanted to say hi." i roll my eyes and close my closet. when i open it again it's just the plushie again. i go back to sit on my bed only to find a freddle. i get my flashlight and give into the little game they play. there was a moment of hesitance as a go to sit down.

my suspicions were met with a thud outside my left door. i watch as it slowly opens. i couldn't see who it was but then it opens all the way. i see a purple hat and a gold ear slowly poke its way into the room. fredbear sticks his head in and i watch him confused.

"Whats up?" i ask. he looks at me and points on the floor near the front of my bed. 'Sure. what's wrong? Why are you so quiet?" he sits down where he pointed and i see him look around the room. he glares at the door he came in from then looks at me.

"Its nightmare. again. he's being an asshole." i nod at him, "What did he do this time?" "He. well-" he gets cut off by another thud outside the room. he looks over at the door again. i see nightmare and sigh softly. here we go. i wasn't sure when i would actually hear them argue but i put it together now that i was always hearing them argue. i knew they didn't like eachother but i figured they would ignore each other. nope.

"Ignore him," Nightmare says looking at fredbear. i laugh softly, "I'm just trying to go to bed is how about i ignore both of you." nightmare looks at me. i give him a look. "We'll let you sleep we just need to clear something up really fast," fredbear says. i sigh, "fine. make it quick before i have plushtrap bite both of you."

both of them look at eachother and motion to me. that goes on for about a minute before foxy slams the closet door shut. i glare at the closet and see him stick his head out to look at me. i laugh softly when i see him flip them off. he immediately goes back when nightmare looks at him.

"wanna know what. since we're just gonna be going back and forth. we both like you. part of the reason we wanna rip each others heads off," fredbear says.

i look at him. what did he just- they can- huh? "i think you broke her," nightmare says. i blink a few times and look up at them. "Lets let her sleep on it. no more arguing so maybe she can actually get sleep."

by the time i fo to say something both of them were gone. great. i look at my closet and just see the plushie. suddenly i was confused. maybe i was going crazy. then i hear the pots and pans again. so thi wasn't fake. ok. two of the scariest fckers youve ever fucking seen just said they liked you? that's going in the books.

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf #fnaf 4 #fnaf 4 nightmare #fnaf 4 nightmare fredbear #fnaf fredbear

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perceabeth · 2 years

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annabeth felt like she wasnt wanted even when she was bc her dad was getting a new wife and some more kids? idk its pretty accurate to how kids feel when that stuff happens. it complements her character in a way that i actually REALLY like? its like shes stubborn and believes shes right and she IS smart but that doesnt mean she cant be wrong or eventually open u to others perspectives. and idk if my kid said they were being bit by spiders and there were never any spiders or bite marks i would think they were making it up? not in a negative way but just in a way that kids OFTEN do. sorry but kids do make stuff up and all you can do is listen to them. it doesnt make someone neglectful for listening and still just not believing someone.

even wayyy back in titans curse it shows that annabeth feeling unwanted was more of a misinterpretation or miscommunication than any actual hostility. her dads kinda an idiot ngl but athena randomly stuck some absent minded professor type who was obsessed with his work with a kid? i dont think he even did anything to contribute to annabeths existence so this is one of the few times where pregnancy isnt the least bit the guys responsibility and he just wasnt prepared for it. idk as usual way more than the humans it comes down to the godly parents being terrible

and when did they leave her for dead? she ran off and ended up at camp half blood. tbh literally the safest place for her if shes being hunted by monsters? and what are they supposed to do, drag annabeth kicking and screaming to a place she doesnt want to be? thats technically more dangerous for her? just for her to run away and end up dead the next time? all they can do is let her know shes welcome whenever she wants, which they do?

idk i think i kinda vibe with percy cuz my household was seriously unstable and volatile growing up, while in annabeths case it seems miscommunication and annabeth not realizing what she had? that doesnt make her stupid or bad, just fallible and... a literal child? children often arent appreciative that doesnt mean they're brats or spoiled or ungrateful, it means theyre kids.

sometimes when u do things like this, just. stop and think to urself: am i reading a post to find a way to argue, or am i, in fact, interested in what OP is saying ? if u are not interested, just stop reading !

no, actually, i would say u are wrong !

first of all, she was seven years old when she decided to run away. do u know how many seven year old kids try to run away from home? just about everyone. if ur child runs away, it is ur responsibility to look for her lol. u can't go 'aw no she's gone? ok whats for breakfast x' babes that's insanity. besides, she must have been on the news all the time considering she was traveling with Thalia, and we all know how much press coverage Percy got based on how much trouble he attracted as a child of the big three- Thalia's mum was dead, Luke's mum was driven mad. What excuse do the Chases have for never coming looking?

she was seven and a demigod, a fact both frederick chase and his wife were fully aware of :) another thing they were BOTH aware of: the existence of this camp for kids like her. Why, my love, do u think it's normal for them to not only let her run away, but also not even consider for ONE secnd making the trip up to Long Island to drop her off so at least they'd know she was safe? A child is, whether u like it or not, a parent's responsibility, actually, and Annabeth got dealt a shit hand.

ok, they didn't see the spiders, but they did see the webs, did they not? usually when a child is traumatised and begging for help, u don't ignore it because that's how children are- u ask them to describe their experiences, and if it does persist, it's cause to have them checked out, actually! ur thinking of imaginary friends and a child's inability to make out fiction from reality- but in this case, it is actual trauma. just bc they're children does not mean u can dismiss their fears and thoughts!! refusing to care for a child's mental health or seeking treatment for it is, in fact, a form of child neglect which is child abuse.

her stepmother made her feel like she was putting her children in danger- that is not something that a seven year old concocts in her own mind. she was still learning how to join her letters or what a fraction was, she was incredibly young lol. she ran away from home and literally would have rather starved or gotten eaten by monsters than return. that's how unwelcome she felt in her own home- whether or not that's how the parents felt as well, it was their responsibility to keep her safe, to bring her back and assure her that she had a place with them- not when she's fourteen and missing and possibly on the brink of death, but when she's seven and tries to sneak out of the house. furthermore, it should never have been Annabeth reaching out to them twice after she ran away to amend things. Frederick should have been on his knees at Camp begging for her to give him a second chance he was a grown man who destroyed a child? And after ALL of that, he wanted to move her to San Francisco, where he knew was far too dangerous for a girl like her. He repeatedly chose just about anything over her. Risking a child's safety? abuse, baby!

and this argument is probably the worst defence of Frederick and I see it so often it's ridiculous. YES, I understand that he didn't do anything that would warrant a child. I GET that- but he had options, did he not? He could have dropped her off at CHB, given her up for adoption, have someone in his massive family care for her? Are you telling me that if handed a baby that u don't want, you would just leave it on the pavement and go about ur day? that isn't an excuse lmao a baby has done NOTHING to hurt u why would u punish it?? that is the single most terrible excuse i'm so sorry i know i'm being extremely nasty to u but unfortunately u are just. one of the thousand people coming to me like this and my patience has worn thin. this rly isn't personal i promise lol

You vibe with Percy, that's cool but just because his home was one form of godawful does not mean Annabeth was privileged to be born into her family. the thing is, it doesn't seem at all like miscommunication- but it's written off as miscommunication. that's where the issue lies. Because her storyline is far worse and Percy's narrative dismisses it because he had it rougher. through the course of the books, Annabeth has a lot of personal biases and she learns to undo them. She's wrong a lot, emotional, hurt, stubborn, as u said- but based on textual evidence and extrapolation, this was not the same case :) obviously, u are welcome to walk away from this thinking i'm wrong, and that's fine, but please don't send me another message lol i'm not gna sit here justifying what feels quite obvious to me in the books!

#no honestly i dont have anything against u!!#i just get asked stuff like this a lot and it's like. if u don't agree #just block or blacklist or something idk #i really am so sorry i swear im usually kind of a nice person lol #u just caught me at the wrong time lksdjfksdf #stevie #q&a

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emetkoto · 2 years

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What was k'oto and g'raha's relationship like during the crystal tower questline? also how did he feel watching those doors close on g'raha knowing they were unlikely to meet again?

i did that thing where i accidentally write too much again. sorry </3

k'oto has chronic "must protect soft kind boys" syndrome so right off the bat he was more friendly and receptive to g'raha than normal..its hard to explain its just like. he sees a nice looking man. he is more willing to trust them right off the bat :) less 'guilty until proven innocent' like usual and more 'innocent until proven guilty' ! its kind of a problem of his, judging people like that as soon as he meets them but this isnt a character study of k'oto its about him and his bf so lets move on

ANYWAY so yeah k'oto thought g'raha was pretty chill and funny and kinda cool like the man was an archon and had allagan blood and was a badass archer and his enthusiasm was contagious <3 it really helped k'oto get through the crystal tower stuff which he originally saw as kind of an annoying drag of a task he didn't want to do, he wasnt particularly interested in allagan history and didnt think or care much about the tower....he was in the middle of a 'why do i have to be the one to do this' phase, back then he didnt fully grasp why or how he was so important so being made to do stuff like this annoyed the hell out of him but g'raha came along and was so excited about it he was like 'ok....maybe i can do this if it means this guy will smile more and his eyes will sparkle and he'll infodump on me a little more'....he was just glad to have another chill friend yknow thats why he liked cid so much bc he was just Chill <3 it was basically puppydog (kittycat?) love, k'oto never in his life could have guessed how little time theyd have together so he didnt think much of that lil crush and was like 'ill think about that later'.....oops! later is a lot later than he thought </3

g'raha was ofc very excited to meet k'oto, he'd heard all about the cool stuff he had been upto and was a bit jealous of how many grand adventures he'd been on and how much impact he'd had on the world in such a short amount of time, the normal g'raha idolizing wol thing yknow? he wanted to be a lot closer with him but found himself hesitating a lot because. inferiority complex and imposter syndrome is a bitch, trust me buddy i get it </3 even if he could see k'oto was kinda crushing he was just like 'nah...no way the warrior of light likes me' so they just kinda both. didnt do much about it at all! they had a little moment there on top of the tower before the end of the questline and both of them were like 'oh man maybe theres a chance for something here' and then...........................g'raha realized his destiny and sealed himself in the tower :,)

k'oto was like. devastated when he realized what was going on, it was the first time that someone other than him was the 'chosen one' and even though he always asked for it to be someone else he didnt mean it like this cmon hydealyn he likes this guy,,,,,but yknow g'raha was like 'this is my destiny ive got to do it' and it kinda helped k'oto realize his own importance bc sometimes...you really ARE just the only person who can take on a responsibility no matter how much it sucks and can hurt, so he and g'raha were able to part with a (pained) smile in the hopes they'd be able to meet again someday....but k'oto really didnt get his hopes up too much, everyone had made such a big deal about how hard it is to open the tower that he really just thought it was the end, even if it got opened it wouldn't be in his lifetime so he kinda. blew that real bad </3

needless to say they were both. SO happy to get a second chance

#ocs #koto tia #grahakoto #words of mimi

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comic-nerd-dc · 4 years

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Dick Grayson x OC

May have some mature themes and curse words themes from the live action titans series

Gar is my little brother, and Rachel was, my family so when I resisted the darkness and no one else did her, gar and I were running trying to survive then gar got killed and I couldn’t breathe. He could shapeshift but the meds left me with telepathy. When Rachel went dark she went to kill me before gar stopped her then she saved dick, but she pulled me into his mind as well.

“Is this what you really want?” she asked I was standing in front of her on the ledge

“You know if we die here we die in real life as well” she adds before taking a deep breath forcing me to grab a pole thingy and pushed me off when I fell I thought I was going to die until dick caught me. She helped me save him and I’m pissed cause what if he hadn’t. We were out of his mind and Rachel went an sent her dad where he belonged but that did an explosion thing and I got sent flying backward into Jason who didn't seem to have a problem with me on top of him

“Hey there beautiful,” he said as his eyes turned normal again and at that moment I didn't care that I was on top of him I just hugged him

“Woah Ally you ok,” he asks hugging me back once we stand up

“I'm fine now” we later all get into the car and gar calls shotgun

“Are you sure you don’t want to come with us kore?” I ask she nods

“I have some self-searching to do right now” she adds and I get in next to Jason in the back. I was thinking about gar and what would have happened had he died.

“Hey are you okay you are shaking,” Jason asks putting an arm around me

“I'm fine Jay thanks” he doesn’t look impressed so I smile

“I'm fine really,” I say looking to see Dick staring threw the rearview mirror at me

“Eyes on the road,” I say telepathically and he smiles slightly

“Something even better to look at behind me though” he responds in his head and I roll my eyes

“Hey we have been on the road for a few hours how about I drive” I smile and Dick laughs

“You don’t know where I’m going” he adds and I laugh

“Yes I doooo” I say in a sing-song way and he rolls his eyes pulling over

“Gar I’m not as nice as she is, back seat” Dick smiles at the boy

“Yeah ok” Gar adds

“Where are we going,” Rachel asks

“Somewhere, I’m not going to ruin the surprise,” I say driving as Dick buckled into the car about an hour in everyone fell asleep

“I'm so sorry that I hurt him and you, you know that right” Dick asks suddenly

“Yeah I know don’t worry one bit” I smile at him as we pull into Wayne manor

“I’ll be back,” he says and I nod about half an hour later he back and says

“Titan tower” and I begin to drive there

“What about Jason,” I ask

“He’s coming to” he adds with a roll of his eyes

“He’s not that bad Dick, give him a chance,” I say and he rolls his eyes

“What’s he dreaming about, if he’s not so bad,” he asks and I look in his mind and see me but let’s just say it’s not the most lady-like position I’ve ever been in, when I come out of his mind I blush

“Well?” dick asks

“He’s dreaming about me” I smile blushing deeper and Dick looks confused for a second before realizing

“Oh my god no, ewwwww, him and you,” he says, I don’t think he means it as an insult but it comes across that way

“Nice to know how you feel” I mumble as we pull into the tower and he’s about to say something but I stop him by getting out of the car and I open the back seat

“Hey Jay, wake up,” I say gently attempting to wake him up but when he wakes up he to my surprise kisses me, I don’t really mean to but I also kinda do as I kiss back for a split second before he pulls away wide-eyed

“I kissed you, wait you kissed me back” he jumps out of the car screaming and I laugh as Gar wakes up and the Rachel

“Come on we are here” as we all ride up in the elevator, gar, and Jason run to explore the whole tower as Rachel stands out front on the terrace I go to move but Dick grabs my hand

“What was that thing at the car with Jason,” he asks as the doors close to going back down again and I look at him

“What?” I ask

“You heard me” he snaps

“He’s an adult, so am I so what’s your problem other than you don’t like him because you act like a jealous boyfriend and then say shit as you did in the car so spit it out” I snap

“Do you know why Rachel brought you into my mind?” he asks softly

“Yeah so that way if you didn't save me she could still stop her father,” I say and he shakes his head no

“What do you mean,” I ask and he looks at me

“She chose you because while she’s like a little sister to me, I’ve been in love with you since the day we met and I hate seeing you all flirty and close with Jason because I want you to be flirty and close with me instead,” he says as the elevator doors open and close as I press the button for our floor again

“ Dick, give me some time to think ok. It’s a lot to take in and I thought you didn't like me like that so there are Jason and his kiss was pretty good for a half-asleep kiss” I laugh to myself

“Let me even the playing field then,” he asks and I look confused until he kisses me, rougher than Jasons probably because Dick is awake so I kiss back and when I hear the ding for the floor I push him back

“Make your choice sweetheart” he winks before walking into the tower and I step in after him when Jason comes up to me and kisses me again catching me off guard while pulling me closer to him with one hand on my waist the other on my ass and I push him back

“Jason what the hell” I snap and he smirks

“Oh come on beautiful you kissed me back less than an hour ago why can’t I kiss you freely now,” he asks and I look at him

“Because one you grabbed me without letting me know what was happening and two because you aren’t the only guy and I don’t know who I want yet, Jay I’m sorry but if you grab me like that again with me knowing what’s happening I will break your arm” I snap and Gar screams ooohhhh

“Who else” he demands and I look at dick whos smirking at his ‘brother’

“No” he questions me and I nod

“What the hell, I cant be in his stupid fucking shadow always, no just choose him, I won’t be an option it is either me right now or never” he demands and I blank

“Rachel what do I do,” I ask in her head

“Well first choose dick, he was apart of your fear and you helped him out of his choose him, and two please ask before entering my mind I have a lot going on up there,” she says and I smile

“Then jay I’m sorry but I pick Dick, I hope we are still friends?” I ask and he smiles and nods to me walking away while Dick walks throwing his arms around my waist

“Do I get to be the jealous boyfriend now?” he asks and I nod

“Does that mean I can kiss you now?” he asks and I nod again and his mouth is on mine again, we kiss until I hear Gar yell ew and asks us to get a room so Dick says

“Gladly” while picking me up and wrapping my legs around his waist walking us to one of the rooms I’m assuming he’s claiming as his own never breaking the kiss he lays me down on the bed

“Farther or stop now because if we don’t I won’t stop later,” he says panting and I smile reaching for his belt, he runs and locks the door and the rest is history after our fun time we fell asleep but I was shaken awake at 2 am by Dick when I was having a nightmare

“Sandy, sandy are you ok, you were screaming my name,” he asks and I look at him

“I'm fine, I’m fine,” I say and he nods

“Do you wanna talk about it?” he asks

“We were back at that house, Gar was really dead, dead and Jason had…” I don’t continue that sentence and Dick clenched his jaw

“Then right after you looked at me and it’s like you couldn’t even see me when you killed me” I finish looking at him as he holds me close to him

“I'm so sorry I scared you like that,” he says

“Yeah and to make it worse I was way more attracted to physio dick than I should have been” I add laughing trying to lighten the mood and he looks at me wide eyes

“What” he chokes out

“Oh yeah, at one point in that time period you had your hand around my neck I was backed against the wall, and honestly it turned me on. I'm ashamed because it wasnt you but god damnit I wished it were under different circumstances because that control the power you had over me was hot” I joke and he looks in shock

“Oh god I shouldn’t have said that I’m sorry,” I say and he looks at me

“Uh, wow, me being insane turns you on ok a lot to take in,” he says half-joking

“No not the insane, the power” I correct and he nods

“I could overpower you right now if I wanted to does that turn you on,” he asks I laugh

“Dick as much as I love you, I don’t think you have it in you to be as rough as I mean” and his eyes go dark with lust

“Let’s find out should we baby,” he says arm moving up my body and around my neck again when the tower beep and I smile at him

“Sorry babe another time,” I say getting up pulling on his shirt while he slides on his pants over the raging erection we walk out but I walk out in front of him to cover it

“What’s going on,” I ask as Rachel fills us into the news that Jason broke a window while training and the alarms thought it was an intruder so we head back to the bedroom

“I never asked before but what was you fear, your darkness” he asks and I look down

“Let’s just go to sleep ok” I say and he looks at me

“No you know mine I wanna know yours” he says and once the doors closed I look at him

“It was you” I say and he looks confused

“We never got together but I’d always loved you, and one day you showed up at my house, you had killed my husband, my kids, destroyed our home” I take a breath and he starts to say something but I stop him

“Now you're wondering what I resisted, you want to know how I didn’t succumb to the darkness right?” I ask and he nods

“Because even after you had done all that I couldn’t shoot the arrow, I would rather die than ever kill you and that’s how I didn’t go dark mode, I let you shoot me,” I say tears I didn’t know where falling down my face until he wiped them away

“Oh my god, sandy I’m so sorry, my love, I would never do that you know that right,” he asks and I nod smiling at him

“I know now go back to sleep love, we have training to start tomorrow” I smile and kiss him

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simply-sams-things · 5 years

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We can try to make it work

Something I thought of a few days ago.

Reader is 13 weeks pregnant in the beginning

Spelling is not the best cuase I'm tired.

Summary:You meet the cast of Bohemian Rhapsody 6 weeks after you found out you were expecting your ex boyfriends baby. He knew but wanted nothing to do with you or the baby. So you put on a brave face and continued your daily life but with a bump. You are a make up artist for big movies and today was your first day on the Bohemian Rhapsody set. You were excited becuase its a Queen biopic which who dosent love Queen!?

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You walked into the tralior you parked next to which said Joe Mazzello and Ben Hardy on it because thats were you were told to go. You felt a little sick but you took a bottle of ginger ale in your purse incase you got sick. You walked in to see a man with lite brown hair and a man with blond hair trying to make a conversation but failing.

"Hi I'm Y/N nice to meet you" you started off when you put your purse on the counter with your name on it.

"Hi I'm Ben. Ben Hardy" the blonde one said putting his hand out for you to shake. You shook it.

"Nice to meet you Ben" you said "and you are?" You said looking at the brown haired man.

"Joe. Uh Joe Mazzello" he replied

"Well hi Joe I guess I'm doing your make up today since your in my chair but we can't start till 8 and its 7 so we have an hour" you told him. "Ben I think Ryan will be here in about ten minutes so dont worry you're not being left out"

Ben chuckled and said he was going to go find some food and asked if anyone wanted anything the both of you said no but thanks for offering.

"So Joe where ya from" you started

"New York. You?"

"Oh I'm from ______"

"How long have you been doing makeup if you dont mind me asking"

"Well since I was small but I didnt get into it until I was in high school and after high school I went to beauty school which lead me into the film industry and now I'm here"

"How about you with acting?"

"Oh I've been doing it since I was very young and I played in some big roles but now im playing John Deacon in a Queen biopic which is amazing" he said excitingly

"You were in Jurrasic Park" you realized

"Yes yes I was!" He said laughing which caused you to giggle.

Ryan walked in at that time and said hello and set up his situation and you realised you had to set yours up. Joe watched you and you knew so you simply gave him a smile through the mirrior which cuase him to blush.

You felt it get hot in the tralior suddenly and took your sweater off showing your tiny bump and Joes eyes quickly adverted away from it as soon as he realised he was staring at it.

"Joe its okay to stare at it I dont mind" you told him knowing the look he gave it. It was one everyone gave after they saw it. Mabye it was becuase of no ring on your finger or mabye it was becuase you were only 25. Either way who knows you were used to it.

"Sorry I just umm wasnt expecting a bump"

"Nobody does but it kinda happens when you get pregnant mine just popped out a few days ago" you said with a chuckle.

"Sorry again"

"Dont be Joe its okay I dont mind you looking at it just don't stare at it to long cuase that's a bit weird" another laugh to lighten the mood. Ryan had no idea what was going on and just listened to the strange conversation unfolding in front of him. Ben, thank god, walked in and sat down and greeted Ryan. It was 7:30 so you thought it was a good idea to start Joes look but of course the second wave of nausea washed over you and Joe noticed.

"Y/N you okay?" He asked you.

"Yeah just wait a bit I'll be back in a minute" you grabbed your Ginger ale and walked outside in the still cold morning air. You walked around the trailor and sat on the curb. You were chugging the Ale and didn't notice Joe looking at you.

"Are you okay?" His question scared you and you jumped. "Sorry. Sorry didnt mean to scare you just making sure you're okay." He sat down next to you.

"Yeah no its okay I'm fine Joe go back inside I'll be there in a few minutes just needed air"

"Are you sure it looked like you were going to get sick"

"Just morning sickness thats all but it wont be until a few more weeks till its gone im fine though really" you told the man.

"Okay well I dont want to be rude and leave you so I'll stay here with you until you want to go and do my face"

You laughed. "You dont have to but thanks I'm ready to go back just needed fresh air."

You both walked in and you did your thing while only almost throwing up once. You walked to set together and for the next six weeks you talked about your families and lives and you had enough courage to tell Joe about your situation with the babys father with the rest of the cast one night at dinner.

"Wow thats just a loss for him" he told you.

"What do you mean?" You asked

"He misses out on being in the life of a child and its mom" he said

"Joe are you flirting with your makeup artist?" Rami, the man who plays Freddie Mercury, asked Joe. You had grown close to the rest of the cast quickly and helping them when their personal artist were not around.

"No I'm just saying he lost something a lot of people want to have" Joe said looking any were but your eyes. At the time of the conversation you were 19 weeks.

Gwilym, Brian Mays actor portrayal, noticed the tension and asked you a question you never thought about.

"So Y/N are going to find out the gender?"

"Well I haven't thought about it yet" And the truth was you hadn't then you realised that appointment was in three days. "Crap I have an appointment in a few days"

"Why is that a bad thing?" Lucy asked. Mary Austins look alike.

"No its not but I have nobody to come with" you said with a frown. Everybody looked at you and then Joe and then back to you and then back to Joe.

"What?" Joe asked.

Ben then spoke up.

"How about Joe and I go with you? If thats okay with you of course"

"That would be lovely Joe you listening?" You asked

"Yes I am but that's your thing I dont want to interrupt that moment"

Everyone groaned.

"Joe its alright you and Ben can come with I think it would make it more interesting to be very honest."

Two days later Ben texted the group chat saying he can't go cuase he had a date. But Joe and you knew what he was doing. He pulled a move were three people had plans but the one who invited backs out and leaves the other two too do the thing.

Joe picked you up so you didn't waste gas and energy and he wanted to talk about the whole Ben thing.

"Y/N you look lovely this morning" he said when you opened the door. You were wearing leggings and a black maternity shirt that said 'coming this June' as well as a big jacket.

"Well thank you and you look good as well" you told him. Joe was wearing jeans and a blue shirt and a jacket. Simple outfit for a normal thing he thought.

He opened the car door for you and went to the driver side and started the car and the radio was turned on full blast which Joe had forgotten about and apologized when turning it down.

You were laughing and said its okay multiple times. Joe was embarrassed.

At the appointment you had to get your blood drawn and was going to get called back right before you found out the baby's gender. You hate the thought of your blood getting drawn. It scared you to the point were you wanted to leave.

"Hey its okay but you need to do this I'm right here incase you need me" he told you.

"Can you come back with me please?"

"Of course"

"Y/N Y/L/N" a nurse called "Hi I'm nurse Gina your husband can come with you cuase we will head right to the ultrasound room after the test"

"Oh he's not my husband just a friend" you explained

"Umm okay well he can come back"

"Joe?" You motioned for him to follow

You sat in the chair and set your arm out while Gina put the blue band above your vein. Joe noticed your scared face and put his hand out for you to hold. You grabbed it and he started to distract you.

"So Y/N what do you want the gender to be?"

"Oh I dont know a boy maybe?"

"A boy would be nice you can teach him all your tricks to make people focus like you do on set"

"Yeah" you felt the needle but then it was done and you looked over and saw that she was done. You let go of Joe's hand and said sorry for crushing it.

You were taken back to the room and you got on the table and gave Joe your purse.

"Okay so I'm swole right now so dont judge my mountain" you said with a chuckle

"I would never" he said bashfully. You lifted your shirt and Joe poked it. Making you laugh.

"Okay Y/N this will be what?" Gina asked

"Cold!" Joe and you said at the same time and that caused you all to burst into a fit of giggles. You wondered how Joe knew that.

"Here we go" Gina said and put the cold gel on your belly and then the doppler. She started with the normal stuff like heart and brain and lung growth and she even did the heartbeat. Joe was amazed by that part. And then Gina took a few pictures of the baby.

"Alright are you finding out the Gender today?" She asked

"Yes we are" You replied

"So let me just go and find were the part is cuase your baby is kinda low but thats great right now cause it needs to be head down for delivery" she said while moving the device around your belly.

"Its a.....boy!"

"Really!?" You asked about to cry and then you looked at Joe who had a big smile which cuased you to cry.

"Yep! And he is very healthy so dont worry about that. I'll leave you two be" Gina said cleaning off your belly and leaving. Joe helped you get off the table and gave you a hug and kiss on the head.

"You got your boy"

"I did!" You exclaimed still crying

"Hey why you crying?"

"Oh just becuase in happy and hormonal."

"Lets go get brunch to celebrate there is a nice place down the street"

"Okay!"

A few weeks later it was the week before Christmas and you were going to visit your family at your grandparents cabin in Vermont but you had told them you were bringing your boyfriend. Problem was you didnt have one and that's how you ended up on Joe's front door step scared shitless and wanting to leave but as you were about to leave Joe opened the door.

"Y/N is what are you doing here? Are you okay? Is the baby okay?" He asked pulling you inside.

"Yeah everything's good nothings wrong. you were leaving I should go" you said turning but Joe grabbed your hand.

"No whats going on? My date can wait family is first"

"Date? Joe go its fine it doesn't matter"

"Yes it does Y/N whats up?" He said pushing you to the couch and sitting down next to you.

"Well umm okay so I'm in big trouble with my family" you started "I told my family that I have a boyfriend and that I would bring him for Christmas but you see I dont have one and now I'm going to show up pregnant which they know but I told them that I was still with his father but obviously I'm not cuase he's a dick and is a no-show to anything" you said fast needing to take a breathe.

"I dont understand why you're here though" he told you

"I was going to ask if you wanted to come to my familys cabin and pretend to be my boyfriend but now I feel like an idiot so I should just go" you started to get up but Joe pulled you back down and into his lap.

"Joe I'm going to break you"

"No you won't" he said "I'll do it"

"You dont have to if you dont want to" you said

"I want to plus it would be fun a free cabin trip"

"Joe are you sure?"

"Yes I am Y/N"

"But dont you want to be with your family I'm sure you do Joe"

"To be honest I was actually going to Rami's house so this is an upgrade" he said with a chuckle.

"Okay then 'boyfriend' what are your limits?"

"What do you mean?"

"What can we do and not do, to convince my family we are a copule?"

He told you all the stuff he was willing to do such as holding hands, hugging and even a kiss on the cheek. You agreed and set your boundaries.

Four days later Joe and you took the journey all the way to Stowe, Vermont to your grandparents cabin. He drove but it took awhile cuase you had to pee a lot but it was still fun. You took pictures in every town you came upon and had lunch in a little town outside of Stowe. When you got to the cabin, your parents were already there including the rest of your family.

"Joe they will ask you a bunch of questions and I'm very sorry about that"

"Its okay, hey its okay are you sure you want to do this?"

"Yes"

"Okay then lets go 'girlfriend'!" And he hopped out of the car and went to open your door. You walked up saying you would get the bags later. When you got to the door your aunt opend it and grabbed you into a big hug saying you has gotten so big since she saw her last and was kissing your face and hair. Joe was trying not to laugh. She saw Joe and brought him into the hug and said welcome to the family.

"Kathy let those children inside they are freezing!" Your mom said.

Aunt Kathy moved and let Joe and you inside. Your mom and dad knew joe and what he was doing so he was happy to have familiar faces around.

"Joe! Y/N! You made it!" Your dad said.

"Yes we did sir" Joe said

"Hopefully she wasn't to much for you!" Your mom said

"Of course not! He on the other had was a bugger!" He said pointing to your belly and laughing. You held on to his hand the whole time.

"What was my grandson doing that could be so annoying?" You mom joked "have you felt him move yet?"

"No not yet but the doc said this week we should feel him move" you said

"Well come on in you must be tired and hungry"

The rest of the day was spent talking and having many family members asking Joe his whole life story and also touching your bump and waiting to feel any movement, but your boy was stubborn and wouldn't budge.

Joe and your dad brought in the bags and took it to your room. You were in the kitchen with your mom when she asked a question.

"Do you like Joe?"

"As a friend yes" you said low incase anyone was listening

"No as boyfriend materiel silly!"

"I dont know mom, he is my best friend in a way. I feel more connected to him more then i do with others. I like him yes but I'm afraid he wont like me back mom."

"Baby he likes you too I can tell by the way he looks at you and trust me I know that look because your father gives that look to food and you know he loves his food"

"Mom!" You said laughing

"What he does!"

Later that night, after your shower you walked into the bedroom and saw Joe on the bed looking at the t.v. looking for a channel. You decided to climb in next to him and try to fall asleep but it was hard cuase it was cild in the room no matter how many blankets you had on you.

"Are you alright?" Joe asked "You're shaking the bed"

"I'm cold" you said sounding hopeless and that broke Joes heart.

"Well we could uhh...if you want to...cuddle to keep you from dying of frost bite?" He finally manged to get out

"Are you sure?"

"Yes"

And before he knew it you were next to him still shivering but next to him. Your swollen belly touching his stomach and your arms pulled close to you while his arms managed to find their way around you. But he started to get annoyed cause you kept poking his stomach.

"Stop poking me"

"I'm not the baby is poking you...wait you can feel that too!" You said looking up at him

"Wait that's the baby!?" He said looking down at you. His hand then found its way onto your belly trying to feel him kick again. You then guided his hand to the right place and he said 'wow' under his breath and you smiled and put your head on his cjest and kept moving his hand wherever the baby was kicking.

"I like you too you know" he said out loud. Your heart went a million times fast becuase he heared your conversation with your mom, but then it sank cuase he probably was doing it only becuase you were a single mom.

"Joe-"

"No listen I like you in fact I love you becuase you are so strong and are raising this little guy all by yourself and the moment you walked into that trailor a few months ago I was certain you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. When you took that sweater off and I saw this guy for the first time I got sad cuase I thought you were taken but when that dickwad of a ex boyfriend called you saying all those horrible things about you at Gwils birthday party I was enraged becuase how could anybody say that to you or anybody-"

He was stop by you becuase your lips were crashing against each other. He sat up more and sitting you into his lap. You leaned back from the kiss smiling.

"Joe I love you and I have since that first day" you gave him another long and passionate kiss. "You have changed my world in so many ways-" you felt a few tears run down your fave. Joe brushed his thumb over your cheek to wipe them away."-I love you so much"

"I love you to Y/N more then the world combined" he said leaning into another kiss but just then your son felt jealous and kicked you extremely hard Joe felt it and winced a little.

"Ow!" You said putting your forehead on Joe's chest and he started rubbing his hands up and down your back.

"Are you okay love?"

"Yeah just hurt a little he must feel left out I guess" you explained

Joe leaned down aa bit just above your belly and started talking to it.

"Hey little man I know you can hear me so listen up! I like your mom a lot and I was trying to kiss her before you made yourself known which is great becuase your moving but before I kiss your mom I want your permission first okay? Can I kiss your mommy?" He asked and you bursted into a fit of laughter.

"Joe!"

"What?" He asked smugly

"He is kicking like crazy now thanks a lot" you said moving off of him and looking at the clock noticing it was 10:30 at night.

"Well I should take that as a yes" he said before moving back down to cuddle you again.

"Okay mister we should go to bed tomorrow is Christmas eve and I'm tired" you said moving your head on his chest and he wrapped you back into hos embrace.

"Damn it" you whisperd

"What?"

"I have to pee."

The next morning as you got dressed you felt a pair of arms wrap around your shoulders and you leand back and looked up at your lover.

"Hi" you beamed up at him.

"Hi" he said before placing a kiss at your lips.

"Are we the real thing now?"

"I guess" he said before spinning you around to hug you.

"Well, boyfriend I'm happy becuase after last night I wanted to eat some sour patch kids and well since you get the honor of being with me this means you get to go to the store and get sour patch kids for me" you squealed patting his chest before looking for your bra and shirt for the day.

"Wait thats no fair I want some too!" He said looking at you looking through the drawrs trying to figure out were you placed your bras.

"Middle one honey" he told you

"How do you know that?"

"I watched you unpack yesterday and then you told me to remind you that you put them in there" he said after pulling his shirt over his head.

"Well I'm going to come to the store with you so i can get my candy as well"

You walked down stairs hand in hand and saw your mom cooking breakfast you then wanted to instantly help but she asked for Joe and told you to find your father. You gave Joe a look but he waved you off and you wandered around looking for your dad.

"Joe I heard you and Y/N talking last night and I couldn't be happier but I want you to know if you hurt my baby and grandbaby in anyway no one will find your body" she told him "understand?"

"Yes Ma'am" he said "I love both of them alot in fact with all my heart and soul. She has changed me and that baby boy has changed me as well. I love them to the moon and back and I could never hurt them."

"Good because they are my world Joe and you are now because you're in our family now! Now help me with this food or your girlfriend will be angry and she is a mean angry hungry person like a very mean one!" She told him pulling him into a hug. She noticed that you and your dad were listening the whole time.

"Ease-droppers!" She exclaimed letting go of Joe who turned around to see you and your dad standing there smiling.

"Mom stop threatening my love" you said going up to give Joe a hug and grab some bacon.

"I will as soon as you stop stealing the food!" She said playfully slapping your hand and you retreated it with two pieces of the bacon and handding one to Joe before walking out to the living room. Your sister was there talking to her husband and watching their three kids play. You had two nephews and a niece. The twins, Gabe and Quinn, we're 6 and Katy was 4. They adored you and when they saw you they all fought about who was going to sit next to you and on your lap.

"Hey kiddos I love you and all but nobody is sitting on my lap" you told them.

"But auntie why!?" Katy asked.

"Well your baby cousin is making it hard for anyone to sit on my lap even doggies can't sit on my lap anymore!" The three gasped.

Then Quinn got down close to your stomach and started talking.

"Hi baby cousin it's your biggest cousin Qinn I want to ask you a favor! Can you move back so I can sit on auntie's lap because I want to and I haven't in a long time love you baby cousin!" Every one in the room chuckled and you sister asked you and Joe a question about the baby.

"Have you guys got a name for him yet? because I have a few!" You looked at Joe who shrugged.

"No we haven't actually but I have thought of a few" you said looking back at her.

"Really? What are they?" Your brother-in-law asked.

"Umm well I liked the name Landon, I thought it was cute. I want a unique name cause I can tell he is going to be an interesting baby already. I also like the name Ashton" Joe watched you and listened with a passion.

"What about you Joe? Do you have any names" your sister asked Joe didn't want to admit but he thought of names for his own children in the future so he just said those ones.

"I like the name Sutton. It's a gender neutral name I've always liked." Your heart melted that was the name but you would tell that Joe later.

"Those are nice names!" Gabe said.

"Yes auntie they are but the name Katy is the best!" Katy said

"Of course it is Katy girl!" You smiled "how about we go play in the snow! So we can pass time while we wait for Grandma to finish breakfast!" You suggested

"Yay!!" Everyone said

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After your Christmas Eve feast also known as Chinese food, your whole family say in the living room. You were on the couch and Joe was at you legs while Katy sat on your lap. She somehow fit and because you just ate you knew that the baby would start kicking soon and he did Katy looked up at you in awe and squealed. Everyone looked at you both.

"Auntie's baby is kicking me!" She said joyfully

Everyone rushed over and felt him kick and then they sat down.

"Is it wierd?" Gabe asked

"A little but I'm used to it now"

"Alright kids time for bed because santa is coming tonight!" Your sister said

"Can auntie put us to bed?" The three said all at once rubbing their eyes.

"If she wants to" she looked at you

"Of course I will I am happy too but after you guys are out I'm going to bed because I want to know what santa brought me!" You said heading up stairs behind the three.

Once in their room you tucked the twins in their big bed and gave them a kiss on the heads before going over to Katy's bed and tucking her in.

"Can you sing us a song please?" Quinn said very sleepy sounding.

"Okay loves what song Gabe?"

"I don't" he yawnd "know"

"Well how about moon river? I sang that to all three of you when you were baby's"

"Okay" they said

"Moon river wider than a mile

Crossin' in style someday

My dream maker

Heartbreaker

Wherever you're going I'm going the same

Two drifters off to see the world

It's such a crazy world you'll see (What I see, who I become)

What I see, who I become

We're all chasin' after our end

Chasin' after our ends

Life's just around the bend, my friend

Moon river and me"

You ended the song and kissed all of their heads as they fell into a deep slumber dreaming of tomorrow. The baby was going crazy the whole time and as you walked into your room you saw Joe on the bed with a big smile on his face.

"What? Do I have something on my shirt?"

"No"

"Then why are you smiling like an idiot right now?" He laughed and motioned you to sit on the bed and you did.

"I like your voice"

"You heard that!?"

"Oh yeah and it was beautiful and sexy"

"Joe!"

"It was and it adds another reason to love you even more"

"Thank you for that compliment and I guess your not the only one who thinks so because he was going crazy the whole time!" You kissed Joe and he hummed.

"Sutton is a nice name Joe I like it"

"You do?"

"Yes I do it's a beautiful name"

"I wasn't going to mention it to you but I'm glad you like it." He kissed your head as it laid against his shoulder "Do you want it?"

"What no that's your name babe I could never take it"

"I want you to have it" he thought for a second "well him have it" he rubbed his hand over your belly.

"Are you sure because we can name him something else"

"We?"

"Well yeah because we are together I'm sorry it's to soon I shouldn't have said anything"

"No no no I like it the sound of we and that you trust me with this"

"Joey I love you stop being perfect but don't stop please" you said getting up to change into more comfortable sleep clothes which ended being Joe's shirt and some flannel pants.

"Don't stop being sexy please?" He said while you cuddled into him.

"Okay I won't as long as you're enjoying the veiw I won't!"

******* part 2 coming soon

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clonebro · 5 years

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The State of the account.

Hello everyone @clonebro here. If you've been following my blog ( I hate calling it that) then you've probably noticed that I have just completely stopped posting since, what was it? 1 or 2 months? Any way,I've decided to come back and tell you all about whats going to happen to this memepage.

(I know most of you are just here for the memes and not my "fun" personality so If you want to skip the lore and reasoning behind my decisions and just get to the change log, scroll to the last paragraph. But I recommend reading the lore)

Now my reasoning and some explaining, over the past month and a half I've been suffering stress over midterms and some depression. Now normally this wouldn't make me just stop posting, I'd probably just be on hiatus again but in addition to that l...you know what? I'll be completely honest, over that time I had been trying to get into art and start drawing. My orginal plan was to get to a point where I could sell my art and use my skill to add to my content, but that was, well, a failure. One thing alot of people dont know about me is that I actually went to an art school...for one year before dropping out. I had my reasons, I wasn't inproving over time, it was expensive and it was more trouble than it was worth. my art teacher wasn't the best and I knew that even if I did graduate, I would be in debt and I knew my art wouldn't be able to support me. So I dropped out and went into zoology and veterinary science (which is where I am now). anyway now you know my tassles with art and how that was a catalyst for what was to become. Years later I found the art of @vivziepop and began working on bettering my art technique and once again I saw very little improvement. I even went to art threads and forums for help (Reddit, 4chan, youtube,tumblr etc.) but those did nor help. I began to talk with @eclecticcoyote about my troubles (I wont diverge into our private conservations but I will give a general overview) he helped just by being there to talk to and I owe him so much. I talked with him about my art and he helped as well. Yet for me, it never felt like enough. I was (and still am) not a strong person (physically or mentality) and I dont have any noticeable skills, both of these I realize are kinda my own fault. I started doubting again and began feeling I wasnt contributing enough, that I wasnt showing my worth, Hell I even got jealous of other creators and their success and acomplishments. Seeing people half my age making content mush better than mine made my blood boil. These factors in combination with stress and emotional strain caused me to shut down, I wasn't enjoying this, I was bored and lacking drive. I know thats not vaild excuse and I'm sorry. But I never had anyone else to talk to other than Electiccoyote about this and my irl friends are either away most of the time or didn't know how to deal with this. Im probably not the person you think i am. Im not this charismatic,edgy sometimes bit of a prick dude who makes memes. Im just a boring man living day to day, waking up with no reason why. I know I'm not special and I know others have faced much worse than me. I just ask you to understand. But I've come back, and I'm not really any stronger, yay. Ive more or less decided to discontinue my pursuits in art, If I cant improve after of training with a professional and two years on my own exploring my own horizons and training by myself, the at this point I dont think it's going to go uphill from here. I just wish i knew better. There may just be a better way Thank you @eclecticcoyote. You were always there for me.

(If you've read this far I thank you from the bottom of my heart, you have no idea how much it means to me.)

Change logs

Anyway, assuming I dont just abandon Tumblr and disappear off the face of the internet, I'm going to make some changes

Memes should continue as normal for the most part, but do expect hiatus every other month

I plan on celebrating my 200 follower milestone soon. I will say thanks to all who have sticked with me. (I dont exactly know how though)

Art is an after thought at the moment, I really want to pursue it and get better but recent events have made it hard to do so.

I've open an ask box (finally). So feel free to ask me questions.

I plan on rebranding my Character/Avatar Roger when I have the time, I've been growing less fond of his design.

Anyway, Thank you for reading and listening I plan on coming back soon. See ya. @clonebro / Justin out.

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borderline-pizza · 7 years

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Zero offence and I know you'll mock me and say stuff about how anti-self dxer's are trash... but I'm not anti-self dx, just curious about it and you say you have diagnosed yourself. How did you make that call? Why didn't you go see a therapist/doctor/professional? Do you think there's an age which is too young to self dx? Do you feel embarrassed going to a medical professional and saying "yeah I'm self dx with XYZ"? Just Ive been in the mental health system for 6 years and this is an odd concept

oh it’s fine just being curious lol. alright here’s my (probably very long) answer.

when i was about 10, i first started being able to go online alone and i learned about different disorders like depression and anxiety. at about 11, i realized there was something wrong and i decided i mustve had depression.

at about 12, i was still shyer than everyone. i knew it wasnt too normal to be shy at such a late age but i was unsure of what it was until i found out my sister had anxiety and she explained to me what it was and i realized i had that too.

i’ve always thought i had adhd since i was super hyperactive and talkative when i was a little kid. even more than others. but i realized that it made sense because i have focus issues and the whole experience with adhd.

with bpd, i didnt realize until i was 15. i was scrolling through my personal tumblr and someone reblogged a bpd post. i strongly related to it, but i ignored it. i kept seeing them for the next month, and figured i had to check it out since it related to much to me. ngl, i thought bpd was bipolar. so i thought it wasnt gonna be me just bc im 100% sure im not bipolar. so when it said borderline personality disorder, i realized its something i could have. i spent the next month researching it and looking at everyones different experiences and i decided i must have it.

okay next question. when i was younger, i was way too anxious to ask for help. i thought i was too young and i thought i wouldnt need help. however, as i grew older, i found myself in more situations which wouldve been easier if i werent mentally ill. i decided i wanted to go to a professional at about 14. ive been asking my mom since then if i could go and shes always made comments about how only fucked up people need therapy and how i shouldnt rely on a stranger to fix problems that i should get over myself. im still in the process of trying to go to a therapist.

i think that each different illness has its own kinda age set which is okay to self dx at. for example, i think you can self dx things like depression and anxiety around 10. personality disorders and such should probably wait until 14 or 15.

next question, i wouldnt do that just bc so many professionals are shit and dont support that. i might say “ive heard about ___ and i think it might apply to me” but i wouldnt specifically say self diagnosed lol.

sorry it was long but.. heres your answer 😂 hope it was good enough if not lmk

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bitchfitch · 3 years

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babylon artfight resource

as you can tell i play it Very fast and loose with this boy, just get the color pallet right and your good.

an excerpt from one of the things ive written with him:

Why isn't he looking? The man there in the very back of this dingy little tavern with his nose in that massive old book. Nobody ever ignores him when he plays, so how is this man Not Looking?

Babylon sings a little louder, bows his violin while forcing a bit more of his natural charm in along side every note. This rest of this little inn was looking, smiling dazedly as they danced and sang along to songs they didnt know they knew, songs they would forget as soon as he stopped playing. It wasn't often he let himself do this, playing in front of people who weren't guarded against him, but he needed the coin, and this town needed someone to come steal away their troubles for just one night.

But why isn't That one paying him any attention? Even when Babylon wasn't trying to charm people, his music still stole wills easier than he took wallets. It was something innate about him that did it. Nobody without some form of protection could resist him.

And yet, even now as his own feet begin to hurt and his voice grew strained, that man hadn't looked at him once. He's not deaf, Babylon saw him turn in response to the waiter talking to him. He doesn't seem to be protected in anyway, usually when his magic brushed against countercharms it felt like dragging his nails down a chalk board, but he felt nothing of the sorts from the man. He just seemed completely and wholly unaffected.

That was… Interesting.

He let the final note taper off as he came to a stand still. The tavern goers clapped, the applause tapering off as they blinked their momentary confusion out of their heads. Some might realize they had been charmed, most don't, and no one caused a fuss about it tonight, that he could be greatful for.

If Babylon was a wise man, he would take his earnings and leave, return to his home in the attic of a different tavern. The glorious one that sat in the center of their bustling capital, that wasnt at all like this one here in the very back of a town litteraly called Dead End.

But he wasnt a wise man, he was a curious one with a stranger to try and figure out.

Babylon decided he didn't quite feel like being tactful, and slid into the booth seat across from the stranger. Before he was even fully settled the man spoke without looking up from his book.

"Your playing was beautiful," He had a strangeness to his voice, his tone was flat and it didn't sound quite right coming from his mouth, too deep, too… Something that Babylon couldn't name,

"Thank you," Babylon smiled, nobody ever remembered what he sounded like after he had finished playing. Which was a shame, he'd spent so long cultivatimg his skills that it always felt like such a waste when he could play as horribly as he wanted to and still have everyone who heard bending to his will. But he was still proud of everything he'd worked to learn, "To be honest I kinda thought you weren't enjoying the performance," He cocked his head, "I'm curious whats in that book that kept your attention,"

The man was quiet for a moment, he was so still, his eyes didn't move in his skull and his skin had a sickly yellow tint to it. Definitely not anything he was trying to be, Babylon concluded. He shouldn't fimd comfort in the fact that he wasnt the only one trying to hide a monstrous face behind that of a half elf's, though he felt he was definitely doing a better job at it.

Finally the man spoke, "I liked it a lot," he said simply, "I didn't want to stare, so I kept my head down,"

something pinged in the back of Babylon's mind. Oh, the man was Lying, he wanted to stare. Of all the boons he got out of his wretched deal, this one was always the most useful, "Is that so? I don't mind being stared at if I'm being honest, I actually like it quite a bit. I don't think I could be a performer otherwise,"

"People do not like it when I look directly at them. The bar keep said it was creepy," The man said truthfully, still apparently giving his full attention to the book in front if him,

"I want you to look at me," Babylon started, if his music couldn't charm this stranger maybe something a little more direct could? and if it couldn't… well the very thought of that made his heart race. "You're… Interesting and I think I want to figure you out," he purred, flirting always worked for him, hopefully it would work here,

The man finally looked up and imeaditly Babylon understood why people didn't like him looking at them. His eyes were just wrong, too still and slightly glazed, not wet enough, and the iris was a strange greenish silver. But, it didn't feel like the stranger was looking at him, more like he had already been looking. How hadn't Babylon noticed that before? How long has this stranger been focused on him, and how was he faking not being focused on him so perfectly?

"Oh, you really should keep your chin up more," Babylon started, "Its a shame to hide such a handsome face," he said, it was true, the stranger was handsome if you didn't count his stranger features, a strong jaw and sharp cheek bones with a nose that had a cute crookedness to it, thick lips that weren't quite red enough to look alive, and long stringy black hair that had a pretty wave to it,

Something loud crashed outside, like a tree falling over behind the tavern. The sound sent everyone besides the stranger jumping half out of their skins as he closed his book and hurriedly stuffed it in his jacket, "I think I need to go,"

Babylon wasn't fully back to himself yet, loud noises always sent him on guard, when he reached a hand out to snag the stranger by the sleeve, "Sorry, sir," he apologized, "Was I coming on too strong? Come on. sit back down and give me another shot" he tried to smirk but that feeling of being watched only grew, like he truly, Finally, had the entirety of the stranger's attention, whatever that might mean.

"No- Uh, Good bye," the stranger said, pulling away without a hint of elaboration as he set a fast pace to the back door of the tavern. Not running, or walking, more lumbering and shuffling. Like maybe he wasn't quite used to have legs under his considerable size, tall and broad shouldered with a deep barrel chest and thick arms and legs.

Babylon watched him go, tapping his nails on the old wood of the table as he did. He'd have to meet that guy again someday. He'd never found someone completely immune to him before. People were always at least tempted to follow along with what he asked, but the stranger, the one with the dead eyes and the desire to look at him, he seemed so unaffected. Or at least he wasn't charmed in the slightest by him.

Babylon tried to suppress the fluttering feeling in his chest. This was it. his first chance at maybe being able to befriend someone who wasn't being coerced into liking him.

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The next time he decided he would venture into that little no name tavern, Babylon chose to wear a different face. That wasn't unusual, it was safer for him if no one could ever recognize him. What was unusual was the amount of effort he had had to put into making this one. He wanted to make sure that stranger wouldn't look away from the moment he entered. Normally that wouldn't be hard for him, he had a nack for guessing what others found beautiful, but the stranger was a complete mystery. No inkling of what he may like came drifting to the surface.

Still, Babylon tried and tried until he found something right. Small and dainty like how he'd gone last time hadn't been enough to catch his eye, so maybe tall, with a good amount of muscle. Babylon thought about the men who worked the docks down by the lake, they could be a good example for this. He'd borrow the sandy blond waves of one of them too while he was at it, and the wide puppy dog brown eyes of that little cleric that had started following him and his sisters. A beard came next, a few shades darker than his hair and just long enough to round out his jaw.

He looked in his pocket mirror, this face was handsome, the black stretch fabric he favored for his clothing clung to the broad chest and strong thighs in a way even an eunuch would appreciate. He was good at making handsome faces for others to enjoy, but this one didn't sit right. It wasn't what he needed it to be. Maybe…

He let his curves soften and his chest grow, let the beard dissipate until he looked like the former faces sister, still strong and broad, but feminine and beautiful instead of handsome.

He sighed, this was worse. It wasnt farther from what the stranger would want, but he didn't know What about it was wrong. It wasn't the femininity, that he felt certain of.

He fwumped back onto his mattress with a heavy sigh as he let his disguise drop. He hadn't been able to get that stranger out of his head in the entire three weeks since he saw him. This was the first free afternoon he had had in that entire time, and here he was wasting it by not being able to guess at what that stranger would like.

It was frustrating.

It was infuriating.

but most of all it was invigorating. He Didn't have a little window into this stranger's head like he did with everyone else. He was just as lost as any other man trying to catch the eye of a stranger at the bar.

The trap door that lead up into this shared room was shoved open with a loud clang as Tamm, one of his two sisters, pulled herself up without even bothering with the ladder. She huffed a greeting before pulling that cleric up after her. He yelped and stammered when she set him on the floor beside herself.

"Thought you were going out tonight Babs," Tamm said, she gave him a look that definitely meant she wanted some alone time with the cleric,

"I'll be out in a moment, just having a crisis," He huffed, he sat up and tried to ignore the hurt that always came when the cleric flinched everytime he saw him without a disguise. Babylon didn't think he was That ugly, certainly grotesque, but in a pretty way if he did say so himself,

"Go have a crisis somewhere else please," Tamm said, "I promised to teach nerd lord how to sword fight,"

"And you need to be alone in our room for that? I'm pretty good with a sword, maybe I could help teach him?" Babylon scrunched up his nose at her, he Knew what she really wanted to show him, he'd seen the way they'd been making eyes at each other, but he Really Really wished he didn't,

"Babs-" she started, but he waved a dismissive hand as he got up and grabbed his violin,

"Yeah Yeah, I'm going Tammsy. Make sure shorty wraps up, I'm not ready to be an uncle," He goaded before dropping through the trap door and into the hall below. The door slammed shut above him and he heard the latch lock shut, "Don't Eat Him!" Babylon shouted, and snickered when he heard her groan through the ancient wood.

He straightened out his clothes before taking on the face he'd tried out before, the more masculine one just because he didn't want to have to remember to respond to a different set of pronouns. It still wasn't perfect, but it would do.

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