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kirimono · 4 years
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bnha secret identity au
a while back (like over a year ago) some friends and i were talking about a bnha au where theyre more classic Teen Superheroes With Secret Identities. that chatlog is under the cut.
ShriekingSisterhood
BAKUGO WOULD NEVER COMPLIMENT AN HERO BESIDES HIMSELF, EVEN IF HIS IDENTITY WAS SECRET
dataghost
lmfao yeah
cassetticon
bakugous identity would only be secret for like 5 minutes
starsinger
jsdfidksbgj
fuck
ShriekingSisterhood
Someone: Idk ingenium is kinda shit
starsinger
thats. reayyly funny to contemplate actually
cassetticon
"WOW KING OF EXPLODOKILLS WHOS THAT SOUNDS LIKEA  COOL GUY"
dataghost
exactly like the end of iron man
ShriekingSisterhood
Bakugo emerging from a nearby dumpster: ye totally but you know whos the fucking coolest LORD EXPLOSION MURDE
cassetticon
yeah
ShriekingSisterhood
In secred id au everyone knows bakugos id
not even bc he bragged about it or anything hes just his own #1 fan
cassetticon
yeah
starsinger
also he cant hide his hair
ShriekingSisterhood
WHAT IF HIS CITIZEN DISGUIZE IS HIS BEST JEANIST HAIR
cassetticon
holy fuck
dataghost
god hed just be. dead inside
ShriekingSisterhood
oh god, oh man, okay this might be dilly but
everyone in secret id au knows bakugo is lord explosion murder
)drmatic pause, lifts finger for effect)
except kirishima
cassetticon
WOW
starsinger
aughdshfjdfsdgh
cassetticon
YEAH,
ShriekingSisterhood
who  is so fucking cursed
THAT HE HAS A CRUSH ON BOTH OF THEM
dataghost
oh nooooooooo
starsinger
HHAHAHAHAHAH OH NOOOOOOOO
ShriekingSisterhood
WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING THEY ARE THE SAME AWFUL BOY
starsinger
EYAYHH
cassetticon
SCREAMS
ShriekingSisterhood
Kirishima to his jock pal Uravity: I dunno like I like both of them so much like, I can't figure out which one to like, ask to punch me??
cassetticon
jesus
starsinger
haugh.
dataghost
god unfortch
cassetticon
ochako is trying very hard to figure out how to tell him
ShriekingSisterhood
Kirishima: it's impossible to choose between them
dataghost
man bakugou is like . barely even disguised in his costume
and kirishima still has no clue
cassetticon
yeah thats the best part
ShriekingSisterhood
Kirishima: I love them both equally but for different reasons
starsinger
spiff this is the worst
i love it
ShriekingSisterhood
EVEN ZAP BOY KNOWS
BUT NOT KIRISHIMA
starsinger
god. i want to see the HIJINKS
cassetticon
same. god
ShriekingSisterhood
bonus points if Bakugo honestly believes he has most people fooled
starsinger
kirishima accidentally schedules a study date with bakugou at the same time red riot has a training session with king of explodokills
ShriekingSisterhood
FUCK
cassetticon
screams
starsinger
i dont know how this happens. i could see kirishima doing it but i feel like bakugou keeps better track of his schedule than that but
cassetticon
i mean bakugou is also under the curse's thrall
dataghost
wait so does bakugou know kirishima is red riot
starsinger
did he get........... Flustered
ShriekingSisterhood
omg
starsinger
its funnier if no i think
but
ShriekingSisterhood
he got flustered
dataghost
i feel like bakugou knows like no one's secret identities because he just doesnt fucking care
starsinger
yeah
ShriekingSisterhood
MAYBE HE THOUGHT KIRISHIMA WAS DOING IT ON PURPOSE
cassetticon
yeah
thats good
@ jane
ShriekingSisterhood
oh no i like that much better
he doesn't even fucking know
cassetticon
kirishima might be the only exception tho just bc of how obnoxious he is in and out of costume
ShriekingSisterhood
the only one he knows is deku and he hates that he knows it
cassetticon
wow yeah
ShriekingSisterhood
hes constantly trying to unknow it
dataghost
god
starsinger
wheich is really funny because, again, theres not even a DISGUISE COMPONENT to kirishimas costume
cassetticon
YEAH
HIS WHOLE FACE AND TORSO IS JUST OUT THERE
starsinger
YEAH FJKDFKJKJFD
ShriekingSisterhood
HIS ABS, OUT THERE
dataghost
okay i feel like in a real secret id au they would put SOME more efffort,
maybe he has a mask
cassetticon
i Guess so
but thats not as funy
ShriekingSisterhood
what if bakugo thinks tetsu tetsu is red riot
dataghost
but the abs are still Exposed
sdfllkfdajslkjsfdjlkfdsjlsfdl;kj
cassetticon
holy fuck
ShriekingSisterhood
bc he can't be assed to tell the hard boys apart
starsinger
bakugou finally figures it out when he finally sees kirishima shirtless when theyre at the gym
cassetticon
SCREAMS
ShriekingSisterhood
FUCK!!!
THIS IS THAT GOOD SHIT!!
cassetticon
HED KNOW THOSE ABS ANYWHERE
ShriekingSisterhood
BAKUGO GLANCING OVER AT HIS BRO WHILE THEY DO SOME CURLS IN THE GYM AND HIS CROP TOP RIDES UP AND BAKUGO'S WATER BOTTLE INSTANTLY BOILS AND EXPLODES
RIGHT IN HIS HAND
starsinger
i think the concept of 'its a secret identity au but that just means they slap a tiny domino mask on but it somehow works' is great. but so is the concept of 'they have their canon costumes with no fuckgin disguise components whatsoever but none of them know ANYWAY'
also concept tho: kirishima's superhero costume is his old emo makeup
dataghost
he just starts yelling at kirishima immediately and kirishima is just like "keep it DOWN we're in a PUBLIC GYM!!!! its supposed to be a secret!!!!! :("
ShriekingSisterhood
HFGDFH
cassetticon
holy shit vera
i love this
ShriekingSisterhood
okay but what if bakugo is like "if kirishima is red riot then he obviously figured out my secret identity way before all this"
cassetticon
i love ex-emogoth kirishima
starsinger
aAaaAAAHAHGHGH
cassetticon
OHHHH MY GOD
BAKUGOU JUST TAKES IT AS A GIVEN THAT KIRISHIMA KNWOS
ShriekingSisterhood
"How did he outsmart me, how did he figure it out"
KIRISHIMA DOESN'T KNOW A FUCKING THING MY GUY
dataghost
god what if bakugou assumes like. kirishima was doing study dates & stuff with him BECAUSE of his secret identity
starsinger
ghhh OD
ShriekingSisterhood
YEAH
cassetticon
im dying of thks
ShriekingSisterhood
"HE WAS SENDING ME A MESSAGE?? WAS IT A THREAT? A CHALLENGE"
starsinger
this is so ooo oo good
ShriekingSisterhood
NO, THIS HARD BOY IS JUST, A BIG MESS
OH MY GOD
WHAT IF,
kirishima: fuck now that bakugo knows im red riot what if he sees me flirting with lord explosion murder and gets pissed
dataghost
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
cassetticon
screams
starsinger
hhfdhdhfhfhHDFHFDHFHDHDFHDF
he stops flirting with lord explosion murder so much and bakugous like
pissed
ShriekingSisterhood
THE BOY IS SIMPLY TOO CURSED TO LIVE
cassetticon
god. yeah
bakugou: hes playing me like a fool again(edited)
dataghost
i mean we're assuming bakugou noticed the flirting in the first place
ShriekingSisterhood
kirishima, meanwhile a 100% genuine no playing about it fool ass fool
fuck, since bakugo thinks all interraction is rivalry
maybe he thinks like, kirishima  no longer considers him an opponent or something??
cassetticon
oh. my god
yeah.
starsinger
yah its something like that
cassetticon
"you think youre too good for me now huh"
ShriekingSisterhood
so his pride is hurt, and also the deep subconscious tender part of him thats gay is hurt too
starsinger
he cant quite articulate his actual feelings hes just like
Pissed
dataghost
yeah
ShriekingSisterhood
Kirishima: (stops flirting)
Bakugo: I don't know what this is but i know how i feel about it: furious beyond articulation
starsinger
god i just thought about tsuyu for a second and im fdjkfdjfd
shes just a frog
ShriekingSisterhood
god,
starsinger
in both civilian and superhero forms. but its liek. no one thinks its weird
ShriekingSisterhood
good
dataghost
yeah sometimes youre just a frog, nbd
doesnt necessarily have anything to do with you being Popular Hero Froppy, nope
ShriekingSisterhood
sometimes 2 people are just frogs and that doesn't mean anything
maybe people assume tsuyu got into being a frog bc she likes Froppy
dataghost
just unrelatedly, frogs
starsinger
yeah! exactly
oh my god spiff
ShriekingSisterhood
and shes like (internally flustered) KERO
maybe its just like how there are, horse girls and dolphin girls in ever high school
dataghost
are you implying horse girls and dolphin girls are literally part horse & part dolphin in the bnha universe
ShriekingSisterhood
Is there are reason for them not to be
HEY THO... WHAT ABOUT THE BNHA STUDENTS LIKE GOSSIPING SUSPICIOUSLY... ABOUT THE FACT THAT THEY NEVER SEE ALL MIGHT SENSEI IN HIS CIVILIAN FORM
like, assuming the teachers/adults are open abt their secret identities at the school
they're like "we've seen everyone out of hero mode except all might.... does he not have a civilian life"
Deku: (sweating)
dataghost
all might is extra secretive bc he's so like...."Gotta Be The Symbol Of Peace!!! No one can know i am a real human EVER!!!!!!"
ShriekingSisterhood
Student sees Greeblin Might like: "Oh are u that zombie hero"
yes but also in my head its that, they expect civilian all might to be buff
theres no extremely fucking unbelieably buff guy roaming the halls or in the teachers lounge or in town or anything
dataghost
yeah but even before his injury maybe he was like,
projected a super-super image like superman, like ~im not a civilian when im not heoring i live in My Special Secret Lair~ or soemthing
starsinger
god now im thinking about the logistics of this and its SO FUNNY that like every superhero in the entire town is at taht school. either as a teacher or as a student
dataghost
what if its not even a hero school
its just a regular ass school but everyone just HAPPENS to go there
starsinger
oh yeah like superman being like 'oh yeah i live in the fortress of solitude at the north pole'
YEAH EXACTLY
dataghost
yeah yeha
ShriekingSisterhood
oh my god
All Might: I live in a fortress of solitude in the alps and no once can see it with eyes
dataghost
all-might trying to live his civilian life pre-injury when he was always buff is so funny then tho
people keep asking him if he's all might and he's like no! look my hair doesnt stick up!
starsinger
KJFDJSDG
GOD
ShriekingSisterhood
All Might, ten minutes later: (buying milk at the local grocery  and fucking up the self checkout)
oh my god... secret buff all might is so good
its the superman glasses type effect
starsinger
'that cant be all might hes not smiling real big'
thats the extent of all mights acting skills
ShriekingSisterhood
maybe he gets a giant tshirt that says "pessimism" so no one can possibly identify him as a civillian
dataghost
sdaljkdjsakljlaksd
starsinger
akjsfjdjf
ShriekingSisterhood
"bad mood" t shirt
dataghost
i feel like he does a bunch of comics-type secret identity stuff to cover up his civilian id but its all super flimsy
like, obviously fake glasses, a shirt like that
maybe a fake mustache
starsinger
FDSDJKLFSDKJLKJL
NOOOOOO
cassetticon
and it all works
starsinger
ALL MIGHT WHIT A FAKE MUSTACHE IS AWFULLLL
dataghost
the glasses dont even have lenses theyre just a frame
cassetticon
he gets a mustache like mics bc he thinks its Cool
dataghost
its not even a blonde mustache. its like brown and OBVIOUSLY doesnt match his hair
everyone just assumes he dyes it
starsinger
he bought non-prescription glasses but one of the lenses got knocked out but he keeps wearing them
they have One Lens
dataghost
fsljdljdfs;jlfsd;
cassetticon
i love him
god
starsinger
m2
ShriekingSisterhood
what if the mustache is attached to the glasses like groucho style
dataghost
(i thought for a second about nighteye being one of the first outside the One For All lineage to know all might's civilian id and . augh)
starsinger
god i was like 'ok i have to think about todoroki now' but now i have feelings and im lie k. Put It Back :arrow_lower_left: dot jpeg
augh jane
ShriekingSisterhood
phantom of the opera shit
thats todoroki's hero disguise
dataghost
there's a fake nose on the glasses too and it barely fits overhis actual nose
ShriekingSisterhood
actually hes just covered half in ice
starsinger
oh nevermind i remembered his caonn hero costume is like
ShriekingSisterhood
so thats fine
starsinger
a plumber suit
dataghost
a plumber
starsinger
post sports arc
dataghost
what if thats his civilian job
and he just doesnt change clothesx
starsinger
gadhdhfg
noooo
ShriekingSisterhood
what civilian job does all might have
maybe he pretends to be gran torino's home health aid
starsinger
if eel like he Didnt Have One until meeting izuku. true to canon
dataghost
i was like "office job" but then realized i was literally just thinking of mr incredible at the beginning of the incredibles
starsinger
at which point he became an absolutely awful teacher
dataghost
o h noooo
starsinger
ghjdkfujfj
ShriekingSisterhood
god,,,m wow
what does he ever teach if its not a hero school
PHYS ED
dataghost
omfg
ShriekingSisterhood
HES THE SCRAWNIEST GYM TEACHER OF ALL TIME
dataghost
vjlgsdjkldfskljfsjsfj;kf;sdkjfsdkdsk;jflk
he gives GREAT inspirational speeches tho
starsinger
hujks FUK
ShriekingSisterhood
BUT LIKE AT THE SAME TIME, HE CAN LIKE LIFT AN ENTIER POMMEL HORSE WITH ONE HAND
god
what if they don't even have a sports team
so theres no games to give relevant inspirational speeches at
so hes just like, doing them at random
when he sees an in
dataghost
just at the beginning of each class
or whenever The Mood Strikes
question: is class 1b at the same school or are they Rival Schools
ShriekingSisterhood
fuck,,, both are so good
dataghost
imagine Rival School Student Monoma sneaking into their school to ~infiltrate~
ShriekingSisterhood
i like rival schools
because monoma like, steals their mascot
and kendo brings it back
dragging him over to apologise
but also i love the idea of him trying to infiltrate his own fucking school
starsinger
the concept of 'rival schools but aslo they dont have sports teams' is SOOO good
mathletes competitions get REAL intense
ShriekingSisterhood
just because A1 got the better homeroom classroom
and he wants it
oh my god intense matheletes
starsinger
science olympiad. band and choir competions.
cassetticon
MARCHING BAND AU IM HERE
ShriekingSisterhood
I WAS ABOUT TO SAY, LEE SUMMON
starsinger
ok whats the funniest sport to have if you can only have One Sport at ur school
ShriekingSisterhood
frisbee
starsinger
fall sport: ultimate frisbee
winter sport: fencing (? probably there is a funnier sport but ive got nostalgia)
spring sport: ultimate frisbee again
no
winter sport: ultimate frisbee... on ice
ShriekingSisterhood
fencing is too dignified is my concern
cassetticon
i love this concept
ShriekingSisterhood
YES
starsinger
eyah exactly spiff
ShriekingSisterhood
maybe winter sport was like curling
but no one liked it so they turned it into ice ultimate frisbee
starsinger
altho like. one time my friend spilled gatorade on the mesh of his mask and had to fence with gatorade on it and couldnt see shit
and won the bout
so
dignity is relativw
ShriekingSisterhood
wow, amazing,
OKAY BUT
TODOROKI KILLING IT AT ICE ULTIMATE FRISBEE
starsinger
HAHAHAHHAAHAHAGUHGHFDHJFD
cassetticon
WOW
starsinger
ok no
ShriekingSisterhood
BUT BEING LIKE MEDIOCRE IN THE FALL AND SPRING
starsinger
consider
ShriekingSisterhood
AND NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHY
starsinger
todoroki.... being really disappointed
that curling isnt a thing anymore
ShriekingSisterhood
OH NO,,, HES BE SO GOOD AT IT....
his bitterness drives his ice frisbee prowess
starsinger
yeah not even using powers hes ujust like You Have To Understand The Ice
cassetticon
aw....
ShriekingSisterhood
the best thing about this is bakugo is so competitive that he'd join every sports even if it sucked just to win
starsinger
I Understand The Ice. and just not understanding why everone doesnt think curling is the best
ShriekingSisterhood
so bakugo is essentially Forced to play frisbee
cassetticon
yeah. god
ShriekingSisterhood
im crying.... ice understanding hand crusher
starsinger
i think hed be legit way into ultimate frisbee but fuckign hate ice frisbee but
play it anyway
he and todoroki were like the only people on the curling team and bakugou was AWFUL at it and HATED todoroki for it
ShriekingSisterhood
wow thats some real shit there
cassetticon
im crying  this is so good
ShriekingSisterhood
actually i would add iida to the curling team
he also likes Understanding The Ice
starsinger
awwwwww
ShriekingSisterhood
and its a lot of speed and velocity and such considerations
which is actually relevant for his power
starsinger
mmmm true
ShriekingSisterhood
hey does iida just wear bigass pants to hide his engine legs
dataghost
was Iowa's bro also on the curling team....he joins cause he was Inspired and Wants To Live Up To Him
ShriekingSisterhood
like all the time, in v=civilian form
starsinger
sjffjdk.
maybe so.
ShriekingSisterhood
does he wear leg warmers in the summer
starsinger
AUGHGHDFH
dataghost
but then the curling team gets cut off before iida can win The Big  Trophy and :(
starsinger
i feel like long skirt is more practical for this
oh noo
ShriekingSisterhood
honestly yeah
i love bnha: shittiest sports anime ever au
cassetticon
same
ShriekingSisterhood
hey is present mic supposed to be secret identity in this au too
bc i honestly cant see that
cassetticon
definitely not
dataghost
I feel like he's one of those like, celebrity heroes
cassetticon
yea
ShriekingSisterhood
besides the overall distinctiveness
he just, could not shut up about it, on his public radio show so,
cassetticon
yeah exactly.
dataghost
EYAH
plus like. it only gets the show BETTER ratings so why hide it
ShriekingSisterhood
what if hes married to  Aizawa but Aizawa made him choose between being maried to civilian guy Aizawa or Eraserhead
starsinger
what if hes a celebrity hero with a radio show. and then has a civilian identity as an english teacher
ShriekingSisterhood
bc Aizawa's identity is mega secret
dataghost
god aizawa would hate all the attention either way
ShriekingSisterhood
omg
dataghost
I feel like he doesn't even want eraserhead to be a super well known hero
cassetticon
i mean thats just real in canon
ShriekingSisterhood
Aizawa, sick of the attention, tells Mic to fake his death at the hands of like a villain
"it will be good for ur show ratings"
cassetticon
he canonically does hate publicity and does not want to be known by anyone
ShriekingSisterhood
"no one bothers the dead"
dataghost
omfg
ShriekingSisterhood
or maybe the relationship is still secret but they can't ever go out anywhere bc Mic gets so easilly recognized
dataghost
Mic has so much fun pretending to be dramatically mourning his dead civilian husband
ShriekingSisterhood
"PRO HERO CELEB PRESENT MIC, SPOTTED BUYING DINNER FOR LOCAL HOMELESS MAN, AMAZING GENEROSITY"
dataghost
egjbvjjgb kon k
starsinger
FGHDJAFJ AUSFJG NOOO
ShriekingSisterhood
Re: mic mourning his dead civilian husband
hes like,
"OH IF ONLY HE HAD BEEN A SUPER TOO"
"IF ONLY HE HAD THE POWER TO, SAY, ERASE OTHER PEOPLES POWERS, HE NEVER WOULD HAVE COME TO THIS SAD FATE"
dataghost
Aizawa is just glaring Murder at him
ShriekingSisterhood
"ALSO HERES THE NEW TOP HIT FROM POP GROUP  "Q 5" ITS QUITE A BOP LISTENERS"
"ITS HELPING ME GET OVER MY DEPRESSION, FROM THE, EAD HUSBAND"
starsinger
god
ShriekingSisterhood
What if present mics so bad at acting that people think he murdered his fake dead husband
cassetticon
holy fuck
starsinger
now im like. ideeply want to see the many subplots that are jsut 'iida has to deal with the time conflict between mathletics and curling'
hfdjkf
ShriekingSisterhood
what if thru some hilarious misunderstanding all might applied to be the gym teacher but it turned out he was accidentally applying to be the masthletics coach
starsinger
its shenanigans because he tries to do both of them at the same time because hes like 'i have superspeed itll be fine' its Not Fine
IJADIJ;LDFSAJLKDFKJLFDJKL NOOOOOOOOO
ShriekingSisterhood
"I thought you meant you needed a Male Athletics Coach??? M Athletics"
dataghost
he doesnt know shit about math so his only coaching contribution is like Pep Talks
starsinger
yES
all might giving INSPIRING PEP TALKS
to the mathletes
ShriekingSisterhood
"GUYS, SOMETIMES THE SINE OF A NUMBER, IS THE FRIENDS YOU MADE ALONG THE WAY"
starsinger
which end up being coached by. iida
dataghost
beuatiufl...
iida ends up stepping up as like, Team Captain Who Actually Can THelp People Train  Math
starsinger
momo is in charge of the science olympiad
and also the science bowl
ShriekingSisterhood
"REACH  FOR THE LIMIT, WHICH THERE IS NONE, BUT I GUESS IN MATH SOMETIMES THERE IS, BUT OTHERWISE"
starsinger
the ONLY LIMIT... IS THE LOWER LIMIT!
dataghost
theres only 1 sport but there's Many different Nerd-Offs
starsinger
yea exactly
its really funny bc its the opposite of canon where everyone is jocks even if theyre nerds
ShriekingSisterhood
everyone is nerds even if theyre joks....
finally balance
starsinger
yea...
dataghost
kaminari tries to start some kind of Movie Club as an excuse to just slack off and watch movies during club time
but then the nerds invade it and it turns into a big Trivia Game thing and kaminari just puts his head in his hands
cassetticon
He Tried
starsinger
uhghfjfd
ShriekingSisterhood
the one jock-exclusive
starsinger
and kirishima  i think
ShriekingSisterhood
yeah,,,, god kirishima
cursed boy
dataghost
pats him
starsinger
i love him so much'
ShriekingSisterhood
i love him also....
dataghost
remember how bakugou joined all the sports teams just bc he could. kirishima joins all the sports teams independently bc its manly
and then bakugou assumes he's like, trying to compete with him
ShriekingSisterhood
ooooh my god
starsinger
sdfghj
ShriekingSisterhood
real
starsinger
kirishima tries to bond w bakugou abt not being good at curling and bakuogu is like hOw Dare You
ShriekingSisterhood
THIS IS THE WORST NEG OF MY LIFE
starsinger
'man how is todoroki sO good at this i dont get it'
'DIE'
dataghost
god rip kirishima
Too Cursed To Live
ShriekingSisterhood
the best thing is that when bakugo is like "ill destroy you, ill punch ur face" kirishima is just like "fyes uck me UP bro"
he 100% knows what hes getting into
starsinger
i really like the idea of bakugou bein g like ill fuck you AND todoroki up. about curling
when he cant like
skate yet
ShriekingSisterhood
hsfhdjh
hes still holding on to the bar at the edge of the rink
starsinger
ok i just looked it up and curling does not actually use skates
but
ShriekingSisterhood
talking about how hes going to be indispuitable number one curler
starsinger
eyah
dataghost
while lying on his face having fallen down
starsinger
hey guys. guys. guys does a villain attack the ice rink
and somehow it means they have to cooperate and learn a leson about teamwork
and skating pysics
but it doesnt SUPER work but it works a little bit
dataghost
god they have to ~work together~ but also not let any of the others see their powers
starsinger
fcfuki tho they dont know its them so like king explodokill is like 'maybe now i have a mmodicum of respect. for red riot. maybe. a tiny bit' but is still like KIRISHIMA MADE FUN OF ME ABOUT SKATING THO AND I HATE IT
ohhhhh thast good also fdjfdjkdfjk
maybe they have to work together to get to the locker room but wont say why (its bc their costumes r there)
but then the final fight is as hero guys?
dataghost
oo that makes sense that's good
none of them even like, stops to think about the Coincidence chdmxm
except Maybe todoroki
and even he only does like way after the fact
starsinger
yae
fuck i just rmembered izukus hero name and am having a fucking freakout
dataghost
god!!!!!
bakugou is fucking. haunted by it
does he know izuku's secret id when he picks it or does he find out later
starsinger
?
dataghost
like . when izuku picks the name "deku" does bakugou know yet or no
i guess this question makes less sense in this au
cause like how could he be a hero if he doesnt have a hero name yet
starsinger
i think maybe its
izuku introduces himself as the hero deku for the first time and thats when bakugou realizes that that new hero whos been running around........ is . izuku
and obvsly Flips the Fuck Out
dataghost
ghhhhhgggghh
starsinger
i think. u kno the flash onto bakugou and urarakas faces
i think id want to keep that
but with the added 'oh shit thats izuku'
context from the au
dataghost
goddddd
for uraraka too?
like is she Also just finding out
starsinger
mmmmmmaybe
maybe not actually
yeah idk depends how deep the hijinx run lol. how long izuku was determined to Not Tell Anyone About Hero Shit
dataghost
feel like it could be A Long While cause he'd feel like he'd have to be secretive For All Might
starsinger
yeahhh exactly...
altho if superheroes are a big thing but secret identities are a bigger thing it might be Less secretive
bc like. theres no inherent connection between 'a new superhero appears' and 'all might'
dataghost
but I feel like izuku would be nervous anyway
starsinger
yeah for sure
dataghost
and he's v strategic & thoughtful so I feel like he'd Understand The Importance Of Secret Identity and be like "no one ever!!!!"
starsinger
yeahh That rings true for me ithink
i was just like 'if 'quirkless izuku' and 'hero deku' arent inherently connected bc Every Civilian Secret Identity Is Quirkless then its not as big a deal
dataghost
yeah also fair
so are quirks way rarer in this au?
starsinger
but ur right that all might def has the No One Can Know Im Human thing
and izuku would also probably
i dont know if quirks are Rarer or if theyre just hilariously secret even tho literally most of the population has one
and many of them are very visible
dataghost
what if like. quirklessness is rare but everyone's civilian id is still quirkless
and everyone just. d oesnt notice
starsinger
tsuyu: yeah im quirkless. kero.
dataghost
also like. Basically everyone who's quirkless is actually a hero in disguise
but no one puts the dots together
starsinger
just had the thought 'i really like bnha superhero au' and fuckgin died
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explorers of arvus: port draavos / 3.23.20
and now for something different: the misadventures of the hope’s guard
so for the past 3 years ive been in an ongoing dnd5e campaign run by michael called Explorers of Arvus, which is super cool and super fun and i love it a whole lot! and back when i used twitter, i’d liveblog our sessions and that ended up being my way of note taking bc im otherwise quite terrible at it
after i stopped using twitter, that had the side effect of me not keeping notes anymore, so i kind of didnt remember any of the past couple sessions? especially because its hard for all 6 of us to have like, schedules that make sense, so there’s a lot of distance between each session.
and then i realized i can just take notes shitpost-liveblog style and then just… like, put it on tumblr or whatever. i’ll probably make like, ill probably port over my old liveblog threads onto here sometime but until then: we played d&d today! Time For Shenanigans
some quick context: we’re called the Hope’s Guard, but our unofficial silly name is Chunch Bunch the Dungeon Master is Michael aka Skalter aka @openlyeight​ Taure M’ea is a half-elf paladin played by Penn aka @penn-name​ and she is doing her best. Sieron Astora is a human (secretly half-orc) wizard played by Jorb aka @jorbs-palace​ and he’s basically the protagonist, and also starting to be gay for Charlie Charlie Wickfield is a halfling wild magic sorcerer played by Leos aka us and she’s known for being very chaotic, lighting things on fire, and having a high charisma score but no idea how to articulate anything Thorne is a half-orc warlock played by Solar aka @craftlands​ and he grew up in nonsense land aka the feywild and i love him, and also he’s fine-tuned to be able to snipe the shit out of anything within a 600 ft radius of him w/ eldritch blast Silje Cottonwood is a tabaxi blood hunter played by Nyx aka @patheticnyas​ and he is very edgy but also a cat and is VERY gay for Thorne our general goal is to stop some motherfucker called Halvkar / the God-King from… i dunno, being a huge bitch? he dumped zombies all over Arvus and that’s a problem. its late at night and i just played d&d for several hours
AND SO: WE PLAYED D&D FOR THE FIRST TIME OF THE DECADE
last time:
chunch bunch beat up the cult and now we’re FINALLY GOING TO ARVUS, YALL (also we picked up a cat) (his name is silly. its silje but literally pronounced like “silly”) sieron hatched a child! so like, we have a lil coatl friend now OH RIGHT SIERON HAS A MOM. sierons mom is here charlie and sieron attempted to have a gay scene but charlie went off script by being “[internal dial up noises]” when sieron said something really heartwarming we’re in fort draavos! and now we’re picking up sidequests and just kinda wanderin around. woo!
NOW, ON EXPLORERS OF ARVUS:
thorne and charlie discuss the morals of necromancy, and also the concept of “[charlie voice] necromancy racism”
EVERYONE IS BONDING WITH CHARLIE TODAY taure gave charlie the rune of wound closure and told her to stay safe and im :keralisweep:
accidentally started a cutscene bc charlie is very loud in a temple, oop. some priests(?) glared at us and walked off and im sure they wont stab us later! ingrid the adorkable friend has been having reoccuring nightmares about a dark figure w/ black robes standing above a bleeding platform high in the air over a swamp and summoning undead, so we’re gonna go hit that up! it MIGHT be like, a vision of the past, but even if so thats still pretty relevant also there’s a cool half orc lady named undril silvertusk who we’re gonna escort to camp vengeance! she’s awesome
thorne: i was in a dungeon once charlie: you got better! thorne: [points] i DID get better!
summer: can i roll to steal the laser gun? michael: if you find the dragon, you can try to steal the laser gun.
solar: guys, we have to protect the lesbians at all costs. and if one of them turns out to be an ancient gold dragon and curses my dick, then so be it
taure: dont worry, i wont let you die. ingrid: …okay :D!
THE HOT SPRINGS EPISODE IS FINALLY HAPPEN sorry thorne. charlie dabbed at a buff tiefling charlie is too fucking short for the hot springs. also she’s like 50% hair so she is Dying
time for food! we ran into an adventuring party that is apparently based off one michael was part of in another campaign, and i think the buff tiefling is his? also taure ordered samples of everything and then got Super plastered
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thorne rolled really good to infodump hardcore about arvus artifacts and it is cute and id die for him oop michael asked for all our passive perception
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omg theres an introduction of a ~mysterious character~ and originally theyre supposed to just sneak off but then michael realized they’d be genuinely interested in thorne’s infodumping so now theyre just Lurking
the opposite of a slow burn is a fast explosion
[everyone gets distracted quoting realtime fandub]
oops taure is depressed! ALSO SHE BROKE UP WITH SIGRA??? charlie is VERY bad at emotional support so she’s just “uhhhhhhhhh”, but thankfully thorne catches her before she faceplants into her potatoes CAN ANY OF US CARRY TAURE??? SHE’S IN FULL ARMOUR AND ALSO PASSED OUT
michael: what do you do with the bottle? summer: eat it
charlie get haircut! WITH SWORDS. her hair is now like midway down her back so its like, a bit shorter than when she first met everybody silje: do you want this [the hair he cut off]? charlie: UH WHAT WOULD I .. DO WITH IT… silje: …make a rope? charlie: yknow what i might as fucking well, who knows if id need spare hair
penn: i dont think taure is horny tho! summer: ITS OK, SILJE IS HORNY ENOUGH FOR ALL OF US
michael: Sieron, Str of 10- action hero Thorne, str of 14- twink nyx: silly, str of 13- cat solar: i guess thorne is a hunk. michael: thorne is a twunk summer: the t in thorne stands for twunk
taure, extremely drunk and sad: CHARLIE IM SORRY I MADE YOU BURN DOWN THAT LIBRARY (sieron and thorne carried her to bed and she ended up apologising a whole lot about literally everything)
jorb/sieron wants to know if charlie’s hair has any lingering wild magic nonsense!
thorne’s staring out the window! and also discord kept censoring solar when they were trying to say that THIS ENTIRE AREA IS WITHIN THORNE’S RANGE. solar: i could shoot someone at the thundering boar tavern [from our tavern] jorb: [as thorne] WRONG TAVERN, IDIOT!
solar called soldier:76 a cornfucker and it blindsided me so hard
michael: silje cottonwood, dark edgy blood hunter. [flops over on camera] NOTICE MEEEEEEEE
WE’RE NOW MAKING NONSTOP FORT DRAAVOS PUNS. i had to go clean pepper’s litter and when i came back they were STILL GOING
thorne pets silje on accident bc silje ws doing an anime squat on the balcony’s railing and is now having a crisis of “is it appropriate to pet the furry?” AND ALSO SILLY IS VERY SOFT
jorb & michael: [say something cursed] summer: [looking around frantically] I DONT HAVE AN IMPROVISED WEAPON solar: Allow Me. [brandishes baseball bat on camera]
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hello!! i am back and on desktop this time. the blog is just as pretty. alex + yellow = v v attractive jfc. this is a long one so buckle in.
to begin: i hope you have the most fun on your day road trip and sing your heart out to atl and taylor swift. i love driving long distances and idk just driving in general is fun. have the absolute best time MWAH
my birthday is in november!! november 23 to be specific. i share it with miley cyrus which is something i always found to be very cool when i was growing up and watching hannah montana. it also means i am a sagittarius and funny little fact i realized is that my best friend is a gemini. alex and jack are also a sagittarius and a gemini. from being 13 i know that tyler and josh from twenty one pilots are also a sagittarius and a gemini. something about sagittarius and gemini besties idk.
also yeah!! ao3 year in review!! it's a bit complicated to figure out at first and if you read a lot the finding pages thing can be pretty tedious, but it's def worth it once you figure it out. it gives you a lot of different stats about everything you read and it's pretty cool. now i am going to go look at your fics to remember my favs. you deserve the praise so i am willing to offer it. jeez you write a lot i respect the motivation sm. you write quite a bit of angst and i won't lie i try to stay away from angst so i haven't read your fics that seem super angst-y based on the tags. BUT there are still so many i recall reading and loving nonetheless. on a quick scroll-through: i usually don't read high school AUs but "paint me in trust (i'll be your best friend)" was super adorable and lovely. "thank god i'm yours" is one of my favs iirc. also i love love love "it's not always easy (but i'm here forever)" like yes please romanticize alex gaskarth i love it sm. "i won't be silent (and i won't let go)" and "i fell asleep in a city that doesn't" are both super fluffy and romantic and are favs of mine. in case you haven't picked up on it i adore very fluffy and romantic fics lmao. alright i am continuing to scroll and there are so many more i could list that i love but this section is getting quite long. just know if it's about a kitchen or hotel rooms being for lovers i probably read it and adored it and that pov is so valid.
waterparks!! will not lie i only really started listening to them about 6 months ago having been distantly aware of their existence for several years by being a fan of bands in the same genre. listen as long as you let yourself be vaguely annoyed by awsten is prevents you from being in love with him. follow him on any social media platform for like a day and you'll be sick of him typing in nothing but all caps within hours. simply do not romanticize him and you can keep yourself from falling!! so this is coming from a slightly fake parx fan, but some of my favs by them have been peach (lobotomy), crave, numb, fuzzy, violet!, you'd be paranoid too, and lowkey as hell. that is a very songs-from-their-most-recent-album-heavy rec, but whatever. i did give the disclaimer about being a fake parx fan.
yeah hayley does have 2 solo albums now!! petals for armor and flowers for vases / descansos. pfa is the one i didn't really like upon first listen but has grown on me. i haven't even listened to the second one in its entirety oops but we won't mention it. dead horse is good but simmer (pretty sure that was the other single??) just ain't it for me. the album has some lovely songs but it's just a hit or miss album all the way through. some favs of mine on it include pure love, taken, crystal clear, watch me while i bloom, and why we ever. it's sorta a storyline album about healing if that adds anything to it?? but anyways. i started listening to paramore around the time after laughter dropped and it grew to be one of my fav albums in existence. idle worship is probably one of my fav songs like ever. i def understand being slightly put off by bands with songs that make religious references (me with twenty one pilots' earlier music that makes a lot more religious references considering i'm not religious whatsoever) but i think i am blinded by being in love with hayley williams and just ignore it. idk that she's like super religious?? she's addressed believing in god and stuff a few times but she's def not the "rub it in your face" type and if she's making refs in music more recently then they're subtle enough i'm not noticing them. ik albums like brand new eyes had a lot more because it was shortly after that the band split and the songwriting process was essentially her and ex-bandmate co-songwriter arguing about their religious beliefs (turns out he ended up being super homophobic and transphobic all based on his religion so do with that what u will and thank the clown for leaving). i feel u on the "i meant to start listening to them" because that's essentially how i started listening to them. i told myself i was going to and then finally forced myself to do it. fuck falling for awsten knight what's more risky is falling in love with hayley </3
also yeah!! you've articulated my feelings towards tde. every song is so vastly different that it's hard to like it all. #1 fan is pretty decent though, and that's not just my bias about finding both ross and his gf hot and a cute couple and getting to see them together and ross half naked in a mirror in the video nope not at all. he's my fav himbo!! he has no personality!! no thoughts head empty!! i still love him and his strawberry-growing saga on twitter tho <3 the hazard of being in love with ross lynch since i was 12. girlfriend better be a fucking banger and there's quite a few already released singles in the tracklist so i have hope. i believe my show is in chicago on november 19 which is a thursday. kinda sucks since i intentionally bought the chicago tix nearly two years ago (the show was originally supposed to be april 25 2020. lol.) because the show was on a saturday and i have to drive 3 hours to get there. obviously i can't speak for them as tde but r5 shows always fucking slapped and i can vouch for them (realized i haven't seem them live since 2016?? 5 YEARS?? wtf) so if u genuinely like them. would recommend going to see them.
anyways. i have not listened to luke's solo album yet. i plan on it. this has gotten so long but i tried to respond in all areas and even organized it in different paragraphs this time (thanks being on desktop!!). hope you are well. hope you have a lovely day. hmm what's a little "going on in my life" fact. i got new glasses a few days ago and my eyes essentially said fuck off because adjusting to the new prescription has left me with eyes that hurt and occasionally slightly nauseous. here is to hoping my eyes get their shit together. mwah LOVE YOU TOO - the other bella/cubs anon/idk
okay hi hello. i have put this off because holy hell it's long but let's do it. i am putting a cut because this whole thing is long even without my answer
first: the road trip was super fun thank you!!! i am intrigued by this information regarding sags and geminis, we should do some scientific inquiry. enquiry. i don't know if there's a difference between those words.
aha! well i tried the ao3 year in review thing and i would say it had about 55% accuracy but still i agree it's fun to look back at that kind of stuff. and i feel you on the angst thing i go through phases of writing angst-heavy stuff and then writing very fluffy stuff and it is entirely based on my mental state buuuut i have lots of fluff and i'm glad you found it all and that you liked it yay <333 KITCHENS ARE FOR LOVERS i will die on that fuckin hill. hotel rooms as well but primarily kitchens.
dfgjhgdlfkhgdfmj honestly i dont use twitter enough that i would see his tweets enough that that would bother me also the fact that he tweets in all caps means that i just picture him yelling everything he tweets which i find absolutely hysterical so i don't think that would help. i have added these parx songs to my listen asap playlist and will get to them when i get a chance thank you i am excited also i already know lowkey as hell and it slaps super hard so im very much lookin forward to the rest of these. merci merci
YEAH simmer was the one i didnt vibe with. and honestly i feel zero compulsion to get into hayley williams as a solo artist. i just don't vibe enough to want to do that so i doubt i'll be listening to her anytime soon but maybe if i hear the songs in passing or get super bored one night, idk who can really say. but yeah christianity typically puts me off of music (speaking as a very jewish bitch) although there are notable exceptions in the cases of thomas rhett and the driver era. i'm just not attached to hayley enough to be like ehhh this doesnt matter. does that make sense
FAVORITE HIMBO PLEASE HGSDFGDFGKLFGJ i dont follow him on twitter but i have seen some interviews of ross and rocky and tbh they're great i love the way ross speaks like i like his speech mannerisms and i like his FACE and HAIR and. yeah. i think hes pretty. and i think he and 5sos SHOULD collab i think that would be sexy as hell. can you imagine that. oh my god can you imagine a ross lynch/luke hemmings collab. i'm not even really talking to you anymore bella because i know you haven't listened to luke yet and don't have a stake in it but if anyone else is reading this long ass answer. ross & luke collab. okay im going to move on and not think about that now. but i probably won't see tde unless i get a job this semester because i'm trying to stop spending so much money on big indulgent things like concerts likeee i was in a really good habit of not spending that much and then suddenly i got paid for one summer and i was just goin Crazy and i need to dial it back. plus i wanna see ajr and noah kahan equally bad so like. i have to make some calls about priorities here. it's Much to think about
good luck to your eyes i'm sure your new glasses are hella cute tho!!! LOVE YOUUUUUUU
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hey jude!!! just read ur last anon abt being nb and wondered if u could talk abt ur own gender experience?
well basically i didnt grow up in a very open household, like rly Zero discussion of gender, so i know i Experienced gender entirely but i played almost exclusively with the boys in my class until probably grade 6 or 7, & at puberty, even tho i was a better athlete than most boys in my class still, i started hanging out with girls more, at recess, etc. i was always into androgyny, even if i had no idea (& i didn’t) what that was—i liked some femme things, absolutely, but i wanted nothing to do w skirts or pretty shoes. i wanted to be in adidas running sneakers 24/7 if i could help it, & i wore a uniform to school w the option of a skirt/pants, & im p sure i always wore pants. at the time this, to me, seemed more functional, & it was, but it was also, as i can understand now, something that made me feel Less like a girl, although not at all like a boy.
when i was older, 12, 13, 14, my parents wanted me to dress nicer, & i was v much into like american eagle shit, although by mid hs i was into some vintage stuff. one rly big odd style influence for me was mia wasikowksa in this weird movie called restless bc it was this v soft femme androgyny & i think for me this kind of gender expression became very important to see & understand. it wasn’t that she didn’t look like a girl, or that she wasn’t a girl, but she also sometimes looked like a boy, or wore boys clothes, but she wasn’t butch. idk this movie sent me for a loop honestly lol. 
& obviously my understanding of gender expression didn’t correlate (& doesn’t correlate!) w so many gender identities, & “passing” is extremely harmful as a notion, etc. but when i was younger my understanding of gender & sexuality was very limited & began to expand when i saw very femme but still andro ppl, even tho i couldn’t articulate it at the time. 
when i was a teenager i knew i didnt want to rly have a single thing to do w any boy, which made me sure i was a lesbian bc thats the only narrative i’d rly known abt queerness, or queer women, or even queer ppl who presented as femme. there werent any out lesbians at my school (no fucking way), & the only out queer kid at all was a white gay guy a year older than me, who was popular in the way white gay boys can be popular in high school. but i read voraciously, was fascinated by the crossdressing in shakespeare (paris in the merchant of venice was a particular fixation of mine?) & anyway. i knew i was queer, i knew i liked girls, & i knew i was outrageously uncomfortable w my body, particularly my breasts. for a long time i thought this was because i was ashamed of my sexuality, when i came to sort of understand that, but ofc now i know abt dysmorphia & dysphoria, so yknow. knowledge.
when i went to college i came out big time, & it became very important to me to both be queer & look sort of queer but not queer enough to be Queer—i wanted ppl to be like ‘maybe into girls, but maybe straight.’ as im sure many of us know, this was a lot of internalized shame abt a lot of things, so that sucks. however, i cut my hair which was like the first comfortable thing i had done for my appearance in a v long time, & also smth which my parents hated & i did anyway. i wore a Lot of rly femme stuff bc they hated it tho? so this was all v confusing for me bc my parents are v homophobic, & here i was in college starting to read queer theory & gender theory & falling in love w like. the most beautiful, brilliant girl, & also spiraling into a mixed episode after i got diagnosed w bipolar I, which sort of put everything else on the backburner for a year. 
eventually tho i sorted that out (as much as u can sort smth like that out) & i started to rly pay attention to androgyny. i went to europe & i think theres a whole bunch of nuances to fashion that exist there that certainly arent here, & i spent a winter in warsaw so there were aspects to fashion & expression there that were entirely abt functionality, which i was v attracted to. in college, as well, & especially after college, gender became smth i was v much invested in bc i was (& absolutely am) a feminist, so my place in the canon & zeitgeist was one as a queer female writer. it was so so central to who i was, & what i was writing abt. every single thing i wrote in college was in some way a balm, some sort of piece abt myself, learning abt trauma & the body. sorting through a lot of hurt. i could write a theory piece abt elizabeth bishop & reading it back now i know it was also abt me, that kinda stuff.
when i went to toronto i rly rly started being invested in looking critically at gender & my experience of it bc being read as a woman was smth that was grating on me, even tho i had identified as woman for so long, & had no desire at all to transition. i know 100% i am not a trans man, so that was confusing for a long time because i sort of knew there was a space between but it was very hard to conceptualize. eventually i sort of came to understand gender is a color wheel where cis boys are blue & cis women are pink & then theres literally a ton of other colors out there, so yknow. lots of different experiences of gender. some days i feel much more strongly like i identify w women (in mostly political situations, it matters to me to be read as “female” sometimes bc rights for ppl w vaginas AND trans women are FUCKED UP in so many places). some days i hate the idea of identifying as a woman. i also never want to identify as a man. so when i was in toronto i rly started to know a LOT of queer ppl w so many different expressions of gender. & we were all young & lovely & open & fucked up & we would get fucked up but we would also go read together in the park & wander around alleys in the snow & like. there’s a Muchness to toronto that i experienced that helped me, personally, understand these intersections between my own sexuality & gender & expression as much more than just a gay woman who isn’t butch & isn’t femme. i was rly lucky to become part of a community that identified as Queer, & so i became v much understanding of these different aspects of my own identity that fell outside of binary—my sexuality, my gender. Queerness is a vital & profound thing to me & i was rly able (& so fortunate) to have a close friend group of mostly queer ppl & then a few of the actual literally most incredible allies i’ve ever known & will ever know. 
so then from there i just rly kinda thought abt things & like i got a binder & stuff in TO but rly started to evaluate my dysmorphia & dysphoria (i had struggled really badly w an eating disorder in/post college) & was able to sort out that so much of it had to do w feeling uncomfortable in the way my body was read in the world. & that will always happen bc i LOVE makeup & i have a “feminine” voice & sometimes i love skirts & i shave my legs bc i like how it feels sometimes & i dont ever want to go on T—none of these things make anyone ANY gender, but ofc theyre coded as “female.” but i’m learning to just yknow educate where i can & take a lot of solace in the community of ppl i have fostered who support & understand my Being. i’ve also allowed myself to be invested in aesthetics & fashion & how much a role that plays bc like. yah fuck Yah i look cool shit bc my friends love it & absolutely i wanna wear the same vans maia mitchell has & i want a melodrama hoodie & i LOVE local toronto designers & their angsty patches abt sad songs & whiskey but i love fashion born out of histories that is connected to smth i can understand, like queer punk movements, or smth my friends & i share, like blundstones (which are gender neutral, which is cool). i’m fascinated in how ppl express their Selves, & we are so unfortunately Finite in our bodies in the sense that that’s rly how the world, in our day to day interactions, processes who & what we are. so i invest in the care of mine by trying to listen to it, trying to make it comfortable—& clothing is a huge thing that can do that. also its fun so anyone who thinks loving (ethical, cool) fashion is vain can eat my ass
anyway lmao now i have a p decent sense, atm at least, of what makes my body its most comfortable (even if that is v far from Comfortable at times). i love my tattoos, & i basically never rly want long hair again i’m p sure, & i love makeup, & if i could wear vans or blundstones every day for the entirety of my life at this point that would be incredible. those are easy things, & i try to allow my body, in its cultural place, to have access to them as much as possible, which is so important to me in a sense of having access to a physical space that matches my mental space of gender identity. politically sometimes i feel v v much a “woman” in terms of my lived experience, & i allow that of myself as well. sometimes when i write it’s important to me that my poetry be read as a queer person but also someone who is culturally coded as a woman, bc those are still always central concerns of my work—the trauma, the power there. but day to day i’m mostly happy spending my time obsessing over other things, like what to call this new genre of music halsey & lorde are making, or why my dog stevie is a Fanatic when it comes to ice cubes. ive come to enough terms w my gender, & my sexuality—& the expression thereof—that unless someone is talking abt gender, or someone asks me a question, it’s not smth that is constantly on my mind, which is. Nice. its so nice lol. 
also i would like to point out that i know my experience being non binary is rly rly white & western in so many ways & i get that. my cultural experience of non binary gender is also v much this like. ive felt frustrated before but never in my life have i felt scared to be non-binary while i was like out & abt in the world, bc i still pass as a cis white woman literally everywhere all the time (which has its pros & cons but like, still, a lot of privilege). so i do try to keep all of that in mind as well when i try to center myself & all that jazz
& who tf knows where all of that will take me. i feel like, bc ive learned to listen to my body & my brain so much better than i did when i was younger—even when they might hate themselves—i am so much better at filling up a space in the world that occupies smth healthy. which is not smth i take lightly, & i’m also so open to changes, as long as they feel good & beneficial & true. which is sort of new for me. who knows man ur mid twenties are a wild ride 
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