#i cant like. figure out what i want to work on

[andie-platonically]

i dont think the rage stars fully invalidate kipperlily as a villain tho. if we take the metaphor that KPCK represents the kind of privileged white people who oppose affirmative action because they dont believe in systemic racism—and in fact sometimes believe it works the other way around—then the rage stars seem like they represent radicalization??

a seemingly normal person has a feeling like the world isnt fair. maybe they’re already angry. someone, maybe a teacher says, i know the source of your problems. its those people. if we get rid of those people you wont feel this way anymore.

yes, radicalization is inherently manipulative, and many people are radicalized at young ages, by authority figures that they trust. and you CAN be deradicalized. the rat grinders were pretty hazy when they were revived, but i hope they remember what they did because real people dont get to forget. they got out of there, but they have to reckon with the things they did while they were in.

but what about KLCK? i think it says something that she took the star willingly. yes she too was manipulated, but she saw a world that she felt was unfair, and she sought out anger and violence as a solution. im not going to say that any one person cant be deradicalized, but for some people it would take a hell of a lot of time and effort, and they would be fucking dangerous in the meantime. and when they’re actively trying to kill you & your friends…. it’s not your job to deradicalize them. it’s your job to survive.

idk like im probably not going to make any KLCK posts after this because i see a lot of divisions in the fandom and tbh i dont want to get involved in that, but like. i think there is tragedy in her story. but i dont expect the bad kids (victims of her hatred & violence & rage) to feel that sorrow. and i dont think it’s their job to forgive her, either.

#everyones like wow look at this world full of metaphors #except the rage stars those should be taken literally #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy spoilers #d20 fhjy #kipperlilly copperkettle #rat grinders

[lordsardine]

.

#i cant like. figure out what i want to work on #i have the superhero story open but im llike 3 weeks ahead of schedule for it so motivation is. urgh #im close to a chapter i really want to write too. it's the one before it that's just vague #and then like i finally opened the MG novel #and like right. i like this story and think it has a lot of potential #but man™ #idk the edits i have done it's like 'wait a second these are good actually' #but i have to re-write a lot of things and i dont need to change the plot but it's just #and then while im debating hardcore on either of these my brain is like 'you have new video game waiting at home' so there's that #........okay im going to vomit out at least a page for the adult superhero novel and then work completely just on the MG one tomorrow #during my writer's group #someone teleport to this panera nad kick me #miscellaneous

[koipalm]

liushennnn in my attendant sy au (read right to left)

notes on this au:

sy transmigrates into a new body when sqq fights the system trying to force him out of his body. sqq is livid and decides to take sy as his retainer/secretary/assistant, forcing him to do most of the accounting & administrative work on qing jing peak and work for sqq for free while also helping sqq avoid his tragic fate by telling him spoilers and secrets about the world that sy remembers. sy has no golden core and no cultivation, and cant wield a spiritual sword or fight. sy has no documents, no money, and no prospects. sqq basically provides everything for him & can also take it away. sy moves into the other room in the bamboo house and cleans and organizes as well, although his own room is a mess. sqq never makes it clear what sy's position on the peak is, so all of the disciples follow his orders in fear of disobeying sqq. sy is basically 2nd to sqq, although he doesnt see it that way; he sees himself as sqq's overworked servant. he resents sqq for his control over sy's life, but he's terrified of being kicked out.

sqq takes sy to the peak lord meetings as well, using sy to carry documents, serve tea, and to give him information about anything that might be useful to sqq if it comes up during the meeting. sy also often acts as a messenger for sqq between peaks. he doesnt get much interaction outside of senior disciples and the other peak lords.

since sy's hands are usually full with documents, accounting books, talisman paper, & anything else sqq wants him to carry, sy can't use his fan to hide his face as much. instead he uses his hair & his glasses. his skin is sallow & he often misses meals from running around doing sqq's errands, so he always seems tired. clothes he wears are simple & loose, either slip on or buttoned up. he dislikes loud & bright patterns bc he doesn't want to stand out, but sometimes has no choice bc sqq buys his clothes. sqq will often make him wear more extravagant patterns, even when it makes sy nervous about attracting attention.

since sy seemed to appear out of nowhere to the other sect members, sy is very worried about acting too suspicious and getting kicked out. he copies sqq as much as possible to acclimate to the world and seem unphased & elegant.

sy is very interested in the other peak lords since he interacts with them often, especially liu qingge. liu qingge often catches him staring, but sy tries not to interact with anyone more than he has to. liu qingge usually sees him hiding behind sqq as a buffer. if sy does speak, he does it low & quiet, & if behind his fan if possible.

sy looks like his old body & has long black hair, similarly styled to sqq by his insistence. sy dislikes this.

sqq calls sy "a-yuan" bc sy doesnt like it. sy doesnt like telling people his name though bc it makes ppl think theyre related, which he also doesnt like, so he doesnt stop sqq from indroducing sy as "a-yuan". this makes it very difficult for other ppl to know what to call sy in fear of being too familiar

sy does meet sqh earlier in this au, and he helps him as much as he can get away with behind sqq's back. since sy is less bound by the system than sqh is, sqh sometimes "sponsors" sy to do things he himself cant do.

sy calls sqq the equivalent of "sir".

#my art #shen yuan #liu qingge #liushen #svsss #sy attendant au #notes r basically just copied and pasted from my notes app lol.. #i still cant for the life of me figure out sy's term of address for sqq #it's supposed to be familiar enough yet reverent enough that sy can get away with it #because he doesnt want to call him shizun or peak lord shen qingqiu #also i get that like theres this whole thing of making everyone be like oh sqq/sy you are so beautiful and so moe #but i think that gets boring. what if everything sucked for him all the time and he was rly dehydrated and lqg still liked him like that #also its right to left bc thats just the way the paneling worked out best

[gophergal]

Life on the farm

#gopher art #mortal kombat #subscorp #mk subzero #mk scorpion #kuai liang #hanzo hasashi #mortal kombat legends #been holding onto this one for a bit! finished it more than a month ago lol #i was originally going to save it for subscorp week but then i was like. nah. that wouldnt be entirely fair lol #and besides. ive been wanting to share it for long enough and my resolve has kinda worn down #anyway - snowblind but AU'd! heres my concept of this (which i may use later on for something idk): king kano got his shit wrecked #like way before the events of the movie. by the revenants in fact. i want him torn to shreds. you still have random roving assholes #making trouble across the wastes. but its much less dire. kuai still retires to his farm. kenshi still falls for shang tsung's bullshit #and kuai mentors him. hanzo becomes warlord of netherrealm. BUT. he and kuai keep in contact. its long distance and they make it work #sometimes scorpion vacays to Kuai's farm. as a treat. thats what this drawing is #i cant deny that i literally just want them to be happy ok. thats literally all i want for these gay old ninjas #bonus commentary: at the time of drawing this i was still figuring out how i wanted to draw hanzo. he's so fucking hard to draw #when i draw him without his mask or beard he looks so fucking off. but if i draw him with the beard it feels weird too. #babygirl why are you so hard to draw?? dont you want me to draw you?????

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

First - Next?>>

#rc9gn #torn pages au #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #randy cunningham #ok. i downloaded a bunch of bundles for krita that i rarely use. and also a bunch of cool free fonts. somehow it translated into #me making a ridiculously dramatic intro comic for TPau knowing perfectly well im not going to be able to maitain it #especially on this lvl lol krita is slow and keeps stuttering on my old laptop ;( despite all the cool brushes...cant draw there #so uh despite a tbc written dont expect anything??? imma working on another thing >;) #also as stated before this au is just me blatantly using opportunities to draw first in various pretty ways ;3 #tho is it pretty if its just me slapping neon lightning everywhere???... i cant shade to save my life ok! i just slap things together #also trying to figure out what size comic i want to make is a nightmare i like kinda phone-screen sized but standard also looks ok??

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[3-aem]

MY BRAINS NOT WORKING AND THE CUTE BOY I WORK WITH KEEPS CORRECTING MY GRAMMAR THIS IS SO AHAIWIAKSDHDGRRRRHRNE

#dhakaksdjs fuckdwkufeisfjsjajsueei #im using a translator and it keeps outputting 您 instead of 你 and he keeps calling it out like bro ur making it awkward #AND IM LIKE SORRY I CANT ACTUALLY WRITE IN THIS LANGUAGE IM REALLY DU M. BB #also he offered to take over the last part bc i was like hi its almost 9pm here and i literally cannot think anymore #like i am certain its a very easy last part my brain is just finished #i feel so bad bc i wanted to push this proj over the line #this company is so intense i am so baby i am so tired #hugging my cat and rubbing my gross face all over his gross body #me in vc trying to figure out how to say: it was broken earlier idk how it was fixed u saw it was broke tho right #but all that came out was: in the past it was….problematic… *20 yr silence* #before he awkwardly went: um its okay i dont think this is necessary also u have lint issues #and i was just like ya….i know 😭 #its ambiguous to some of my teammates if i just dont understand them or if im fking dumb #its probably both im ngl #the blank stare i have on my face is first from trying to comprehend what the actual words they are saying mean #and then to comprehend what technical concept they are trying to convey #using like 50% of the information i managed to parse out #also im used to literally spending 30-40% of the working day talking smack #now i try to crack and joke and everyone is like three this isnt the time #three we are all gonna be hear past 9pm working this isnt the time

[tradingjack]

trigun panel redraws from the first 5 chapters

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #rem saverem #drawing #artists on tumblr #illustration #my art #comic #manga #trimax #panel redraw #trimax goes so crazy. though early trigun you can kinda tell nightow wasnt quite sure what direction he really wanted to go lol #it's still phenomenal work. I'm having so much fun going through it #im taking the opportunity of looking for panels to redraw to also really like. study the story lol #i'm also so bad at intentionally messy hatching lmaoo i cant do it T^T #all of these are done on little cards :D i'm keepin em in a little case for now #i figure if i take my ww cosplay out again i can hand em out to people who stop me for a pic or a compliment yk #idk what panel i'm gonna do when i finally reach 5th moon. there's so many crazy things

[buwheal]

Bro the askers treat spamton so much better on that askblog.

While over here we send him drawings of his joints and tell him "go puppet boy go!"

Honestly I love seeing the difference.

LOLLL they do… and maybe a little bit of that is my fault based on the ones i choose because im really picky with the ones i do answer (being nice to him, in this case) because there are SO many people who are trying to make him feel better, but ultimately they always bring up something or other to remind him of the shit he’s gone or is going through..

..Like,, “so you know how youre always failing and you’re uh… maybe alone with the (physical) things you’re going through? Yeah? Well ive failed too. Sometimes. Hope you feel better after i just reminded you!” Kind of stuff. Obviously im very much exaggerating what people say but YIPPPEESS its like they’re trying to get him to cry or something. I appreciate their efforts and how much the care but damn i dont think that they’re thinking about how that’d sound to him, especially since his immediate thought towards things like that is that its ingenuine.

I think less of Loki’s audience wants to see him suffer. A lot of mine do. LMAO. The difference /is/ funny.

#ignore the rambling aha i just started writing and kept going #but goddamn #some of them are like SUPER long too #and idk what to do with them because like… they dont need to be super long to work #its sweet that they care though #i think my specific choice in which ones get answered in that kind of context have shaped the ones i get #which is nice because i actually have a good few to work with right now #also so glad that at least some of you recognize that the reaction he had was toward the mention of his appearance #not sure if you’ve fully figured it out though #im actually itching to animate him crying his eyes out for no damn reason #because i dont think i have drawn him crying.. im deprived/j #hes like pretty much consistently on the brink of sobbing lmaoo #but he HATES crying in front of anyone so I havent had him do it.. yet…. #yet…. #theres a lot i really want to do but i cant yet based on the position we’re at

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza series #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #yakuza 3 #katase #hisho #masu im stealing your tag for her LOL itll save me the stroke. plus hisho works as a name donnit fuck it we take what we can get #tbh when i looked her up in the files- or mine anyway- it was 'hisyo' which. dont think thats a word <3 ANYWAY #snap sketches #click for better quality or scream and die #>says i wont draw them again >makes references to draw them again #my in-game-models ref sheets for them is so messy we gotta work with what we got its FINE #what a way to cool down after Church <3 #normally i wouldve had the katase/hisho models together but i wanna.... show off the height difference i made up about them </3 #i had fun tho... you cant see it due to. CLOTHING. but i wanted katase to be boxier since everyone built like damn CARGO in y3 #didnt really have much thought with hisho. aside from the fact she's like ~5'2 without heels #yeah no in my dome i've decided With Heels katase's 5'9 while hisho's 5'4 that's just what my eyes figured out #anyway. i dont have any more time for girls this week i got comms </3 just wanted to doodle somethin quick for meself this morn.. #ok bye ima go work so i have more time to draw nonsense !!!!!!! #i need to stop. liking this game series it keeps giving me things to wanna draw and distracting me from projects And Everything Else #BYE

[toytulini]

if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.

#toy txt post #or maybe i am just sameface syndrome #but also different face syndrome #two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time! #i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao #the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her #her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime #birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept #but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie! #me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i need to practice. features #you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet #to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that #knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!! #not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime #im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps #happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be #and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also #no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!! #agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to. #anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy #part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least. #for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy #on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that #feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller #headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure #and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height #but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes #the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights #are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye

[lokh]

graphic design is my. passion (gritting my fucking teeth)

#had the idea Oh wouldnt it be cool to look like a magazine spread <- doesnt look at magazines for reference. #i wanted a figure on the bottom right but it kept interfering with the 2nd panel. thinking i should change the pose on it #which means whats happening is im gonna have a LOT of suggestive fucking sketches of sanji. brilliant. #ok yea the more im saying it. definitely changing at least one panel. hes not supposed to be naked btw would u believe this started #cos of lingerie. yeah #suggestive cw #i GUESS #what if i just did a fuckton of sketches and colored ALL of them and then figured out the positioning later <- worst idea yet #and i cant even work on this on the plane. hell world #the longer i stare at this the more i think WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!! but i just liked the idea of the pose (back facing)...

[n7punk]

bruh redbubble just suspended my account with no explanation or warning. and i read the suspension conditions and absolutely none of them apply lmao

#like. the fuck #what bullshit #and to appeal it you have to jump through SO many hoops #ive heard this happen to other people but i've also seen so many people sell on redbubble i assumed it wasn't that common #god the thing about appealing it is they require you submit your face and shit and i don't want to do that #bleghhhhhhhhhhhhh god i worked so hard on these #i cant figure this out right now #mylife

[swagging-back-to]

finally went and got my GED diploma a year after i graduated :)))))

#the check in woman was like 'come on you cant leave without saying bye first!' and iwas like nonononono please no #she made me go talk to the woman who single handedly delayed my graduated by 6 months. #who is annoying as fuck and super classist and pro college. #when she asked what i do for work i was like 'an educator' and she was like 'oh so you've used the free college credits to get your early #childhood education?' and i was like 'uhhh no. still just as against college as i was last year. i don't plan to be an educator for long.' #and she goes well what do you want to do (not your fucking business lady. at all.) and then when i said 'anything' bc real people don't hav #the choice of their dream job or nothing. real people have to just take whatever is available to them--esp in our dead town. #and she was like 'oh come on in during the summer! I'm here for summer school! can take a bunch of tests to find out what your dream job is #can figure out what colleges youd like!' #i was just like ''yeahhhhhh. anyway have a good day' and fucking left. #i was actually debating going to college just a month ago. for the first time in my life i was seriously debating college bc it was my #choice and n oone had been pushing college to me for years. and then she starts this bullshit and im even more anti college than i was in #highschool #anti college #college is a scam #not to mention 'come in during the summer to take completely unnecessary summer school after youve graduated with almost a perfect score' #???? seriously how entitled do you think you are to my time? #i have work this summer. i have plans this summer. and even if i didnt i sure as fuck wouldnt spend my time being preached at about how #im wasting my life and dooming myself to poverty bc i dont want to go 6 figures in debt #and lost 4+ years of time i could be earning wages.

[dykecadence]

i think salons are just built evil. any salon in a conservative town is a speedrun to see how fast they can make you feel like a completely isolated little freak (negative) for the crime of... wanting the hair you want

#i wanna get my haircut fixed a bit cuz it looks Slighty Wrong to me but i cant figure out how #but i refuse to go to a professional because they loooove to make me feel like shit and not listen to what i actually want #sorry for the bitchiness at least its not about work this time

[wolfcat-hybrid]

Trying to do worldbuilding for a planet is very hard when you don't know anything about astronomy, physics, hard science in general, and haven't taken a math class in several years

I wanted the planet to be small but otherwise Earth-like but apparently a planet that small would not be dense enough to hold an atmosphere together unless it was real close to its sun and if I wanted it to be real close to its sun while still being habitable it'd have to be a red dwarf star and actually a planet that orbited a red dwarf star that close would probably be tidally locked and the colors would be all weird and wait, how old is the planet, what about the moon, fuck we gotta figure out the tectonic plates, how the fuck do THOSE work--

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..if this were a spec bio or sci-fi setting these would be interesting topics im sure. But I'm trying to put together a HIGH FANTASY SETTING. These guys wouldn't even appreciate the work I'm doing here!! In their setting the sun is a deity who handles LEGAL MATTERS they don't CARE ABOUT THISSSS

#the only reason any of this came up is because I wanted to figure out how big the continent was. which is fairly important #to figuring out travel distances and stuff. #and then i thought oh u kno whatd be fun. if in the setting theres only one continent. like if pangea 2 happened #and then i realized oh then the continents gonna have to be big or the planet has to be small #but a big continent doesnt WORK w the story so its a small planet #but it cant be TOO small or else ALL THE OCEANS WOULD EVAPORATE APPARENTLY!!!! OR THE SUN WOULD BE RED #or their wouldnt be a day-night cycle or. fuck the plants wojld be black or something #again this is an earth-like planet that evolved humans. its a high fantasy setting. #i want to give an astrophysics student like $20 and have them just do this for me #listen im a history major i can handle all the cool stuff. just tell me how big the fuckin planet is so i can calculate travel time. #please. #wolfy speaks #worldbuilding #planetbuilding #i guess. technically #i tried looking up worldbuilding resources for designing a planet but they all got into stuff ive never heard of. #sir im a history major. do i look like i know what the eccentricity of a rotation is or whatever #im a ding dong i need someone to give me ghe worlds simplest formula