#i can't wash the dishes

[pia-writes-things]

I can't seem to be able to do anything for the second or third evening in a row, I don't know if it's because I'm tired, lazy or the executive dysfunction I may or may not have, and at this point I'm too afraid to as tbh

#pia's venting again #i can't cook #i can't work on my master's thesis #i can't wash the dishes #i can't study for next week's finals #i can't read #i just scroll mindlessly #and i feel like shit #i love my life

[y-rhywbeth2]

Durge: "Why are you at rest? Start cleaning the camp!" Sceleritas Fel: "Aaah! Master! I'm sorry, I'm ever-so sorry to forget my other duties! What a wretch I am! I'm not even worthy of being your scullery maid." [startled, realises he has done poorly] Durge: "Wash the dishes!" Sceleritas Fel: "At once. I will shatter some glasses and sprinkle the fragments in the beds of your other followers. Keep their dreams bloody."

Truly the world's most helpful butler. I would love to know how he interprets the other household chores.

#Imagine having a butler and having to clean up after them... #This is half the reason why I gave Vel a house in the upper city; imagining how Sceleritas would “tend to the estate” is hilarious #He does not understand subtlety or why we can't hang corpses around the front door to improve the décor #I wonder if anybody tried to teach him otherwise? #Durge: Try again. #Sceleritas: I will drown them in the soapy water! #Durge: ...On the other hand I'll do it myself. #Being Durge is suffering #Doomed to wash the dishes forever #sceleritas fel #durge #babbling #edgelord hours

[frociaggine]

by the way. there's no conceivable universe in which the FTL fleet that left Earth in NtN didn't have it incredibly rough.

I've said this before, but it bears reminding: they jumped blind, using untested technology, with NO supply lines back to earth and no concrete plans for a colony. they took ships that were supposed to stack 11 billion people canned in like sardines and nothing else and stocked them full with enough resources to live on for generations and somehow found a settlement, and that was before they had to rush the schedule because John was making noise about transparency and mask their actual launch as a trial run.

it wasn't a comfortable journey. I'd be very, very surprised if the total passenger count was higher than 10k people, for space/resources allocation reasons as well as for secrecy reasons. Every person on board was a mouth to feed, and their descendants, and their descendants. I've seen some people in fandom say stuff like "Of course they'd bring along servants! Rich wouldn't do chores!" and IMO that fundamentally misses the point.

This wasn't the space equivalent of a cruise liner, or the Titanic crossing the Atlantic with first-class quarters and third-class decks. This is the space equivalent of climate refugees crammed in 500 in a tiny fishboat crossing the sea with a non-insignificant chance of dying en route, after emptying their savings to pay for the trip. The fact that the people on board the FTL ships were once insanely rich doesn't mean they travelled in comfort.

This was a desperate last-chance trip, destination "anywhere but here", chances of survival unknown. Their privilege got them on the ships, but the moment they left Earth, that privilege ceased to exist; there was no way to enforce an existing social structure. This is why, again, I think there were no luxuries on board and absolutely definitely no servants - if you're about to willingly enter into complete social collapse, you don't WANT to bring people you regard as less than yourself, knowing that they will be your equals tomorrow.

I'm still convinced that half the fleet at least didn't make it out, and those who managed to found settlements were nearly wiped out multiple times at different points in history.

#this was brought to you bc of that post this morning about whether there would be pets on the ship. my answer is: not for long #anyway. john calls them soon to be impoverished trillionaires. giving away cash bc it wasn't worth anything anymore in their eyes #we know 200 people on those ships were randomly selected as a smokescreen after john started making noise #we KNOW M- said that absolutely everyone else on the ship had bought a ticket or been useful to the project #you cannot conduct a large scale migration and mask it as a random test. #you can't keep that level of secrecy if you involve people who aren't in your exclusive circle #living people + supplies take up SO MUCH more space than canned bodies people #I'm putting the whole fleet estimate as 10k-12k MAX people and absolutely no menial workers lol #yes the trillionaires will wash the dishes if it means not sharing their limited oxygen with their nanny who could mutiny any day now #ftl fleet #nona reread #sort of i HAVENìT officially started but #tlt thoughts #elle tlt posting #tlt

[mukuberry]

suddenly overwhelmed with longing for kazui mukuhara

#kazuiloveposting #I NEED TO BE DOMESTIC WITH HIM SO BAD ARGJHHHHHHHHH #i wanna get home from work and he's sitting there on the sofa and he looks so beautiful and he smiles at me witha loving look #hes got casual clothes on and hes so gorgeous and divine and i feel so relieved as i look at him. like i wasnt truly home until i saw him #i wanna cuddle and watch tv and talk about my day and eat bad takeout because we didnt wash the dishes #uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu #BUT NO. hes in stupid jail and im in the stupid 3D world. fuck #i want him so bad. just like to have. and to hold. i want him in my life #SIGHHH one day I'll have an actual bf... i can't imagine they'll ever come close to kaz but oh well... gotta keep on hoping 💪😪

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present) #multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way. #combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells. #this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing. #then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on. #my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?) #me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting. #Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism* #still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something) #me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room. #i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that. #the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk. #can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

[holdoncallfailed]

the first time i had dinner at my childhood bff's house they said grace which was the craziest shit in the world to me so the next night before dinner with my own parents i asked why we didn't say grace and they made fun of me :/

#my mom said something along the lines of 'so [bff]'s father can ask god to bless the cook but he can't help her wash the dishes?' #so i didn't ask about grace anymore. #my mother is still very close friends with my bff's mom but she (my mom) has always hated her husband cos he never helped around the house #that was also the context in which i first learned the word chauvinist. lol. #text

[helianthus21]

Han-seo, once he overcomes the trauma of nearly getting killed by his own brother, uses the “I’m legally dead” card to get out of everything

#'wash the dishes han-seo' – 'i can't i'm dead' #'i can't pick up your package from the post office i'm legally dead!' #he would tbh! #he would also put on his puppiest puppy face to get out of everything #it works on everyone but cha young #bc like. that's her move. she invented it #vincenzo #jang han seo #headcanons

[getvalentined]

Hey, did y'all know that stores selling large home appliances don't keep stock on-hand anymore? In order to get a new fridge, since mine died yesterday out of the fucking blue, it has to be paid for in-store in full, and then we have to wait for it to show up at some undetermined point between 7AM and 7PM on some undetermined day between February 7th thru 10th. It will arrive randomly, with "15 to 30 minutes' notice for convenience," and someone has to be present to receive it or it will be returned and we have to reschedule and pay for a second delivery.

I feel like if someone is buying a fridge it's because they need a fridge, which is a pretty time-sensitive thing, but sure! That sounds totally convenient! 10-12 days is a completely acceptable wait when food will spoil in a matter of hours! And monopolizing the entire day, multiple days in a row, with basically no notice as to actual arrival is a fucking inspired way of handling things!

We live in a fucking hell world.

#anyway my fridge died yesterday #along with a slew of other things that went wrong #my computer woke up to bsod #I fucked up my knees standing for too long #and my wrist because I was standing for too long hand-washing dishes #because I had to completely empty the fridge #because it's broken #and it was a high pain day already #still recovering from covid #still with massive constant fatigue #near constant brain fog #had to clean my whole house to make space to get the old fridge out #and a new one in #found out my doors are too narrow to do either of those things? #the old one only made it out the door #because we took all the doors and hinges and vents off #and I still had to remove a door latch #to fit it out the door #and now I can't even get a new one for like a week minimum #because nobody keeps stock on-hand #anywhere #in the entire fucking state #hell world hell world #depression diaries #I guess

[dokyeomini]

i think i have to be petty....

#and note the times my friends plans have 'unexpectedly' interfered with her washing her dished #s #and leaving them here for the weekend #it can't be unpredictable if it happens almost every weekend #and i swear it does #but i need proof

[straydogged]

oh. right. there are tangible consequences to him fronting.

#he doesn't. really care about our body's limitations and regularly pushes past them to the detriment of whoever fronts next #he dropped me here the second he finished washing the last bowl and I don't blame him #im in so much pain and so exhausted. and I still have to cook supper. #the dishes drying in the dishrack can wait until much much later. #I can't even take a break because at this point if I stop moving I will 100% get trapped

[stonersolana]

it's always so funny when someone "acknowledges" your disabilities but when those disabilities actually, you know, disable/impact parts of your life then they act as if the disability couldn't POSSIBLY be the problem and you're just bringing it up as an excuse

and by funny i mean it makes me want to powerdrill my own teeth

#sunbun speaks #like yes i am currently sitting down and eating instead of washing dishes #i need rest so i can keep the pain down and i barely eat so what do you want me to do? #I'm sorry i didn't pick up on whatever hidden message your words had in them and now it's awkward - yes it's the autism #like... if the symptom or behavior is obviously connected to a source but you don't take it into account then what do you want? #there's a difference between someone harming you and someone just not understanding what you meant #because their brain shits the bed in those situations no matter how much i work on it #like i take other's situations into account when i consider their words/actions because I'm not a self-centered prick #like I'm not doing this on purpose and I'm trying my best but i can't keep pushing myself past burnout #for people who don't even consider my struggles valid

[spacebeyonce]

I have tried to be strong and not cave to the urge to clean the kitchen but I might have to give in and clean that shit tomorrow. like it is so bad. and they're just letting it be bad.

#I want to wash my cup and refill it but I CAN'T because THE SINK IS LITERALLY OVERFLOWING WITH DISHES #THE COUNTERS ARE FUCKED #IT SMELLS WEIRD #I HATE IT HERE

[pinkieroy]

I'm exhausted

#and there are dishes to wash #but i will do it tomorrow because I just can't do anything else today #text #personal

[beskad]

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#I hate being so sick all the time #it's always something and it feels like my body is falling apart #had to use a kitchen stool and sit while washing dishes again today #I'm so physically exhausted and mentally and emotionally exhausted that I can't even hold a text conversation #tbd

[candlesoul]

mm vent

#there are dryness in certain parts of my hands and no matter how much i apply cream it doesnt go away #i know it’s because i have to constantly washing dishes and even i use gloves it torn somehow and i have to do this with my bare hand again #today when i was looking at my dry hands i felt sad #it remimds me of my life #no matter how hard i try to change my life i’m still in the same place same emotions #im tired of tricking myself that it will going to change #It's not about this dry hand #but it's about how I'm trying to be in this life and that I can't find a place in life #im glad i dont live my mom anymore im glad finally escape that shithole #but still other stuff are same and it kinda bothers me a lot #i feel so jealous of people #i wanted to be normal #anyway just venting #i feel awfull #just scroll and act like doesnt read #i dont think anyone read this till here #if you did here is your chocolate lol 🍫

[twilit-tragedy]

!!!!! Why are meds expensive!!!!! (and why don't they magically go inside the box!!!!!) Why is dentristry expensive!!!!! Why is specialized healthcare expensive!!!!! Why is mental health expensive!!!!! Why do I need so much fucking money to live!!!!!

#I'm having one of those days #Why is food expensive! Why does one always need to keep eating and cooking and eating! Why are there always fucking dishes to wash!!! #I don't have the spoons for this but guess what? money is payment for work but I can't work a lot of jobs #I'm knocking myself out as soon as I get home and wash the damn dishes. Today sucks