#i can feel it. growing inside me

[ravenekrops]

i may not be drawing but by god i AM fantasizing about drawing

#and storytelling in general #i can't write either but i see them. the scenes. the conversations in my mind. the interactions. the reactions. i see them so clearly #i can feel it. growing inside me #until it bursts out of my chest alien style #the horrors of childbirth #god i'm SO chatty today. i'm so sorry to y'all followers #like why do you even follow me fr 😭😭😭 i'm just a critter rambling about nonsense half of the time #the other half i'm just shitposting and aestheticposting #chatter

[silviakundera]

Love for Love's Sake (2024)

Extremely Spoilery Meta about the Finale

A drama that really REALLY worked for me. Just like "A Journey to Love" is my exception to a hate for tragic ending romances, "Love for Love's Sake" is an exception to my burning hatred to unclear endings.

In this case, I think the ambiguity is fine for me because it's not "open" and unsettled. The ending is definite. It's how the viewer personally interprets the ending that is open. And the director/screenwriter earned the multiple interpretations every step of the way. I felt satisfied with my own answer (and the protagonist's peace at demanding no answers), which is all that matters for my enjoyment.

The whole drama is set up to reward a rewatch and it's intended to be enjoyed more the 2nd time around. There are subtle clues from the start that the protagonist has died & it's an AU "adaption" of his own backstory that he's been dropped into. (for example, not just the mirrored history he has with Cha Yeowoon, but also multiple settings we see from the flashes of his Real Life show up in the Game World. The world is being populated with places from his repressed memory. omggggg guys when the game is 'glitching' and he appears damp [SCREAMS] )

"He suffers so much from beginning to end. ..The perfect happy ending you're talking about might just be an inescapable tragedy for others."

"It can't be helped that some people's lives are like that."

This could be referring to Cha Yeowoon, from the storyline The Senior has introduced. But more I think it's directly referencing Tae Myungha and the tragedy of his short life. Even with altered memories of a truth he isn't ready to face, he feels an injustice. In the liminal space between life and death, with a blurred recollection of what came to pass, he faces the author.

The whole opening has an unreality feel as they discuss death and how some people get left behind from others' happy endings. How dark and unfocused the background is just emphasizes that this conversation is occurring in no place & time.

Then he drops into The Game, unsettled and unmoored.

The sense of urgency they give the character is interesting. It plays 2 ways. The drive to save your favorite character from his doomed narrative. And the secret, hidden drive behind the wall holding back his memories. That last second desire not to be extinguished.

So what do I ultimately think is the meaning of what Tae Myungha experienced and of the ending? 🤔 I think there's no 1 truth. The drama's narrative is intentionally ambiguous. And so I don't want to tell anyone what their interpretation should be.

But what I ended up believing is that this is Tae Myungha's journey to make peace with his regrets, forgive himself, and find love & happiness like he failed to do in his life. He is given an opportunity to seize these things (by death, by buddha, by some god-like author idk) but he has to go through a journey to solidify his place in this next life. An afterlife of sorts - call it The Good Place. ;) Many different theologies have the concept of a mid-place waiting area and it's not guaranteed that you will cross over to what comes next.

"Please carry out the missions and build the world."

Cha Yeowoon starts out as his mirror but Cha Yeowoon isn't a version of Tae Myungha. I might say he's the RPF AU version of Tae Myungha lmao. [my meta on this topic here] Once the world begins to take shape, the core people our protagonist interacts with become real and gain autonomy. Tae Myungha's actions could stabilize & help build out this new world he's entered. But he couldn't make Cha Yeowoon act as he wished or be happy exactly when & how Tae Myungha wanted & expected it. Myungha can't predict him.

What does it mean to be 'real'? If the core people who are built out in this world develop their own feelings and thoughts, can hurt & care, then they're real enough to love and be loved back. Cha Yeowoon picked up the pen himself at the end and decided not to accept Tae Myungha's erasure. Ultimately, they were both able to wield the pen. It was by both of them joining hands that Tae Myungha got to stay.

In the end he is in a warm & bright room, almost hazy with light. His grandmother is there with him, looking healthy & happy. His friends and the boy he loves are waiting for him. They're going to the beach, young and careless. It looks like an endless summer day. The game is over, a reward offered: the happy ending.

Episode 1: "So is this reality or not?"

"This place is better than the real world. Should I just stay here?"

Finale: "In the daily life that is too ordinary to be called destiny but too beautiful to be called a coincidence, I finally realized I have all the answers I want. Our days are filled with unquestionable happiness."

#drama watching #my gut feeling is that this world is a limited #the scenes are confined to places he has seen #(i think that amusement park was closed because he has never been inside) #i think he never grows old #and his grandmother never dies #but its ok #and it all makes dreamlogic sense #i can see other interpretations as valid #and i can see the theory that he entered a true alternate universe in the end #but tbh i cant personally go with the full fledged alternate universe concept for the ending #the 'game world' always felt unreal and uncanny to me #it never felt like a fleshed out whole universe where all the people and places are fully realized #like the opening in episode 1 has a sense of unreality #the scenes at the end have a sense of unreality in how they were shot and lit #love for love's sake #love for loves sake spoilers #love for love's sake spoilers #kdrama

[pastafossa]

Hey I just wanted to ask a writer question. I really admire your writing and the amount of work and dedication you put into your stories and characters. You are one of my favourite authors ever. I have been wanting to get into writing and I was wondering how you flesh out your characters? For example you have a character that you’ve thought out, do you have a template that you fill in? Or just write a whole bunch of points about the character in a Google doc? I know that question might not make the most sense but I have a few characters that I’ve given quirks and backstories in my mind but I have no idea how to transfer them onto paper? Like Jane from TRT, is there just a big template or doc where you randomly put points into or some other type of organization? I know it’s not an easy thing to answer on text or even something you might not want to answer but even one sentence of advice is much appreciated :) Thank you so much for everything! I appreciate you. I will also put this into the ask thingy if you want to answer on there instead of PM 😁

I've managed to hammer this out in bits and pieces over the moments I've been more coherent so I think I'll make sense. First, thank you so, so, so much! I honestly love these characters so I'm always happy to hear someone likes it, even if I enjoy the work! 😭

Second - I do in fact have a template in doc form that I use to keep things organized! It's one I've been using since I took a novel writing course years ago by a published author, and in one particular class we went over character development, which is where I learned the template. The way I was taught (and the way I develop major characters) - first, even before filling in the template, I figure out their archetype(s). What story role are they filling? Who will they be a foil for? I like to think of those as your foundation, because every character is an archetype of some kind, and you can use that to build them up. To use Jane as an example, she's an antihero archetype, yes, but I've also pulled elements from: the Unscrupulous Hero, the Sympathetic Murderer, the Combat Pragmatist, and the Ineffectual Loner. Compared to Matt's hero archetype, she's the Lancer. Archetypes can help you if you're struggling to build up from the bottom.

Once I have the archetype, I start filling in the Major Character/Hero template, which roughly looks like this (if you don't fill it all right away, that's fine, because there's a step after this to fill it in the rest of the way). I like this one because I feel like it covers VERY important things that a lot of online character profiles skip, and has much less of a focus on looks (which I find way less important from a writing perspective):

Name: Age: Family History: Career: Physical Description: (include things like scars, notable or unusual features) Preferred Style of Clothing: (instead of listing brands, try to instead describe their style of clothing as it relates to their character - ex: Jane wears upper-end pantsuits in muted colors when meeting clients, because they carry a strong emphasis on professionalism; when hunting things down, she wears what is practical over anything to do with aesthetic) Goal: (every character should have one; what are they trying to do?) Motivation: (WHY do they want that goal?) Big Secret: (if it were Jane, it'd be what happened in Los Angeles; so what are they hiding? Keeping to themselves?) Self-image: (How do they see themselves? Are they confident and secure? Insecure and depressed?) Internal Conflict: (what are they struggling with?) Game: (What's some little game they enjoy?) Pet: (if applicable) Temptation: (what's aaaalways going to lure them in?) Vehicle: (if applicable; alternatively, how do they prefer to get around?) What makes them unique: (our fake post-apocalyptic character we made as a class had his teeth sharpened into points to scare people; Jane is often fidgeting with threads; just anything that stands out) How do they speak: (do they speak very precisely? Use lots of slang? Do they have an accent?) Quote: (What quote sums them up, or what quote do they relate to most? I have an entire folder of these for Jane tbh, and some for Ciro as well) Lesson Learned: (All characters should grow in some way, rather than stagnating. So how do they grow? What do they learn through the story?)

Now, this is something I was encouraged to do after the template, and also something I was already doing on my own. Once you have the template as finished as you feel comfortable with, you might feel like you need to develop the character a little further to fill in the rest, or solidify what you already have. The way you can do that? Write something short with this character. It doesn't have to be anything you need to post; it can be based on a short scene, based on a prompt, things like that. I like dumping them into: humorous scenarios, angsty scenarios, and Action Oriented (TM) scenes. Those really help you get into the meat of the character (aka: how they react to teasing/flirting/jokes; how they react to strong emotion; how they react in situations that might cause panic). Basically, it's your way of introducing yourself to them and becoming more comfortable writing them, because often a character might act a certain way in a cold, rigid template, but behave entirely differently once you drop them into a scene. Alternatively, you might get to writing and realize you need to make an adjustment so that they have better chemistry with the other characters. Writing a new character's a dance, and you're both going to step on each other's toes in the beginning, but once you learn how they move, it gets easier. And it helps them develop and grow as you learn about them!

#writing advice #writing #character templates #this is the template i've used for most of my major characters and i love it tbh #i've tried some other ones and they just don't work for me #i feel like they focus WAY too much on appearance which is fairly minor in the scheme of writing #and not enough on things like goals and motivations and who the character *is* #because that's our job as authors #we're here to show you who these characters are at their base level so you can watch them grow #we are here to dissect them so readers can see their squishy insides #or as the author who led the class said: 'your job as a writer is to cause pain and suffering' #and you can't DO that if you don't know the inner workings #so i've used her template constantly since then because it makes that easier #it also emphasises growth which is something i LOVE #because i hate when everyone just stays the same in a story #ok i think that's everything #been writing this up in bits and pieces over the past two week and was finally coherent for long enough to clean it up a bit #now to keep seeing if i can start write writing again

[manlyster]

i did so awesome at the gym tonight!

i think i got an A+

#i can feel the power growing inside me #also ive been eating a shit ton of potatoes and vegetables this week so that helps

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent-ish life pictures and etc.

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1. bright very poofy cloud sky #2. saw these weird bugs on a sidewalk that were clustered in a pile and some of them were sitting butt to butt or something.. I wonder if #that's how they mate?? or maybe just some sortof strange bug fight or something.. interesting little creature party happening #out on the pavement on that day #3. Its kind of hard to see but on the inside of this watermelon there is a slightly lighter formation that sort of looks like a heart shape #4. special breakfast of scrambled eggs. soy sausages. and jarred artichoke heart. with some black coffee and whipped cream + a strawberry #5. ARBY.. fish ...traditional summer treat available only until like september maybe for like a month. but I love them because theyre cheap #lol.. the next closest/cheapest fried fish sort of option that is easily acessible to me is a more upscale fast food place where you can ge #three tiny little chunks of fish maybe the palm of your hand sized for about $17 lol... so 4 arby fried fish chunks for like $5 is good #6. & 7 - very cool sunset colored sort of pink/yellow/orange flower I found growing wild in someone's yard #8. got as a gift from someone who got it for christmas but didn't really want it and asked if I did since everyone knows Im like The Person #Who's Obsessed With Cats out of any group of people.. but I still havent done it lol.. it just sits there gathering dust until I have #the time on top of my 600 other projects. I think it's cool that it's gray so it does look like noodle (my cat) #9. Noodle (the aforementioned gray cat) with fancy lighting behind him #photo diary

[silenthillbunni]

ig i just personally dont rlly vibe w ppl who think that merely saying 'i wish they died' just to lighten the heavy weight of their overwhelming emotions (that they cant control may i add) is the same thing as actively actually murdering someone 💀

#did u know that venting can actually make someone feel a bit better and less inclined to act on thoughts..... #when u create environment in society where u force everyone to supress and hide all their ugly thoughts and emotions #those feelings will grow stronger and stronger and poison you #and that's why ppl eventually explode when it cant be contained anymore #ppl expressing things - that they prob dont even mean or want to be true or a reality #is nowhere near the same thing as ppl acting on it or causing others harm #but then also i am of the opinion that *everyone* deserves help and treatment. ppl shouldnt be discarded and labeled as broken or crazy #sm ppl have overwhelming emotions they cant control bc all of our brains are different. there should be *quality* help available for everyo #instead we live in a society that shames ppl. that push ppl into boxes and say #if u dont fit into this tiny neat little square u are ugly broken disgusting and reprihensible!!! #then they just banish u to the shadows where they dont have to see u or look at u #anyway this is a whole society thing that is connected to this issue in my braib #brain* #what i was gonna say was that i personally think venting and expressing your thoughts - no matter how ugly they are #is necessary for humans. esp when it's in a space where the potential target of the thoughts wont see #esp when there are no plans of taking yhe thoughts into action #asl long as u can separate complaining and venting ur frustrations and causing someone (undeserved) harm irl #thats just who i am and this is my blog and i dont appreciate ppl telling me #that i have to shove it all back inside and im not allowed to express anything #if you're a wasp who thinks everything should be bottled up. that everything should be expressed delicately #then u do you. but you do not tell me that i have to conform to your ways. i find your ways harmful and regressive #so maybe we should just go our separate ways huh? everyone arent meant to get along #theres no use in arguing or fighting or reprimanding ppl everytime u see smth u dont agree with #esp when all u see is a *thought* that causes no material harm to another person. then u should just be on ur merry way

[delurkr]

🎉🎉Happy birthday to @108garys!!🎉🎉 Here's some snow to celebrate ❄⛄

Let's see, where I live it was winter when I started this, and it's not anymore but now it's winter where 108garys lives so I have an excuse for taking so long on this and the best reason to complete it, it all works out perfectly 😄

#bold of me to assume i could retain my sanity while attempting to draw snow and woods #it wiped years off my lifespan but never mind because im still tickled by the whole concept 😁 #also i feel obligated to note that those flowers are cyclamen #because i specifically searched up flowers that are pink #can bloom indoors in the winter #and are reasonable for the time and place #just to make sure #so pretend anne has them growing somewhere inside i guess but dont tell her someone swiped some to decorate her snowwoman lol #fanart #my art #the clarke family #james clarke #anne clarke #tanya clarke #dennis clarke #anthony clarke #megan clarke #the dark pictures anthology #little hope

[nxctern]

There’s been something building up in my chest and mind for a while now

It’s an odd feeling

#idk what it is but it’s been hurting a lot these past months and it keeps growing #it feels both like a huge hole in me and something so so so so full of emotions about to burst at the same time #i cant cry at all either nothing comes out so im left with this buildup of things inside that eat me up and make me want to #try things i shouldnt do in an attempt to be able to release some pressure. idk what it is. idk why it’s been getting so bad lately its just #my chest keeps feeling tighter and tighter and in a way i’m just like ‘well i hope my heart stops soon’ #oh well it is what it is i’ll just see how many more weeks or months it can take i’ll keep u updated on when i have a full blown mental #breakdown where a year of negative emotions just come out 👍🏻 or maybe not depends on how it goes #oh i didnt mean to write so much heres a boring doodle from yesterday or a 2 days ago i think? #txt #was feelin blue for some reason #im hoping that the mental health will get the kind of bad where i make a lot of sad emo pieces in an attempt to not kms #those are my best works

[voxxisms]

VOX is here to eat. don't ask how he knew, don't question exactly how or why he got here so very quickly. who's turning down crepes?

❝ you should share, you know. can't leave me hanging as a guest, right? i can even whip a little up with you, if you want the help. ❞

yes, he will insert himself into the kitchen to assist, if required. he surprisingly has an idea of what to do.

@radiiosugars

#【 I'M GROWING COLD | VOX ( IC ). 】 #【 JUST HOW TO MAKE ME FEEL | VOX ( VERSE ONE ). 】 #【 I CAN TAKE IT && PUT IT INSIDE OF ME | RADIIOSUGARS ( ALASTOR && VOX ). 】 #【 LOVE A HAUNTED HOUSE | RADIIOSUGARS ( ALASTOR ). 】 #【 WHISPER IN THE SOUND OF SILENCE | ( DASH COMM ). 】 #【 KEEP DIGGIN' MYSELF DEEPER | ( THREADS ). 】 #radiiosugars

[xcziel]

got a bunch of little baby plants and am doing some repotting but damn i have a hard time remembering which ones can't have direct light

all but a few of them are low light types because i don't like window or overhead light (i am a cave gremlin)

but some of them need at least indirect light and i'm trying to get those situated well to the french doors (also i bought another seasonal fern bc i am weak and it's hogging a bunch of the space)

some of the tiny ones are barely hanging on and idk what to do else besides sun+ water

i thiiiink it's the tiny peperomia, the mini spider plant, and the aglaonema that really need out of the direct sunbeams and the couple of little succulents that need moved in more

the one snake plant that i haven't watered for six months needed a bigger pot so i upgraded it and i hope it takes it well. the bitty pearl pothos doesn't need a bigger pot but less sun and more drainage i think, so it got a new pot too

why do i get tempted by plants when i hate natural light so much? i did buy a *little* grow light for the corner though

i need plants that are ok with just ambient low light - the sansevieria is out of the window reach entirely but has been putting up fresh green shoots? the big peace lily keeps unfurling new leaves in the dark corner as long as it gets plenty of water?

but the other peace lily that was by the window is crunchy now and idk how to rehab it (still green? and not wilted but the leaves are crunkly so)

also i seeded some rosemary and sage and they are sprouting but the mint did not come up at all ://

#someone stop me from buying more snake plants just bc they survive #i killed my poor desk philodendron idk how and the diffenbachia too #i need more idiot proof plants but i keep having hopes when i walk past the racks outside the store #i need a palm or something tall for the living room across from the peace lily that just gets a tiny bit more light #also i want a billion succulents but one outdoor one died and its still hard to restrain myself #i need plants that light 60watt lamp light for by the bed where no natural light reaches lol #but also i need an explanation of where this indoor plant hunger comes from #i have a yard but everything out there dies come the months of baking heat #and only the grass really comes back - it's going gangbusters in the empty plant bed right now where nothing else seems to grow #(but weeds) #and if i have to bring the plants in for the summer they can't need bright light which is what they would get on the porch #also i don't want to bring bugs inside quite frankly - the spiders are enough for me (the gnat or two is too many) #i need to figure out how to get my pothos to be fluffier again rather than super leggy it's ridiculous #plant whining #i desperately want a ficus and i'm so afraid i can't keep it alive #i am very attentive for a while but then there will be a period where i keep thinking 'i will water tomorrow' only it can be almost a week #mainly i think the tap water is not great and i now i want to water with filtered water but i think i keep using more water than i should #why can't plant-coddling instincts be inherited? i just don't have that 'feel' for exactly what they need like my mom

[thedevotionaltour]

thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words. #i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason. #it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad) #(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult. #they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time. #bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now? #why at this moment and no other time? #but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him. #more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.' #it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me. #i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

[bunnyb34r]

God forbid you wanna nap in this neighborhood

I stg every time I lay down to, the big ass stereo guy decides "ahh now is the perfect time to be an asshole 😌" and starts

Usually it's like 2pm-4pm that he's out but today nothing... until 5:45pm when I was TRYING to take a fucking quick nap... 😑 I'm gonna throw hard boiled eggs at his house I stg

#marquilla #his stereo gives me a migraine every goddamn time hes out #and i dont wanna be the asshole neighbor thats like hey you cant ever play that/youre too loud (daily) during non-noise ordinance hours #so you're technically not doing anything wrong youre just annoying me... and like be a jackass #especially since i dont do that when the other neighbors are having a family party outside bc again it's between 8am-10pm they #are allowed to be loud it just annoys me and hurts my brain #so when the weather is warm and i can garden im gonna play my trumpet and learn to #my excuse for doing it outside 'oh my family doesnt like me playing inside' not 'im trying to pavlov you into stopping bc i WILL be playing #badly in hopes you go away' #it's not even that i can hear his music it's that it's all bass which at that level i can feel and it hurts and i hate having to wear #headphones in my own house #like growing up my nextdoor neighbor would play polka for hours every goddamn sunday and we just dealt ofc even if it got old FAST #and the neighbor next to him would play the radio when they'd have parties and we'd play ours when outside (god help my neighbors when i #was into hsm and only played that all summer for two years) point being i understand it's just part pf being in a neighborhood #the problem is the bass penetrating my skull :( so enjoy Embouchure Badly in C Sharp my dude #im gonna pavlov this man #<- the tag to block (or track lmao)

[outlying-hyppocrate]

pensées poétiques, i suppose

#random thoughts #the things i imagine......... i have planned myself such a beautiful life inside of my mind #flowers and a cottage. and a beautiful man who loves me. and i love him #and we grow raspberries. beautiful raspberries. he knows how much i love them #husbands. husbands in a cottage. we were happy for so long. but my condition worsened #i was already so sick. physically sick. sick in the mind #sickness. consumed by sickness. always. i like to think it was the pearl #the pearl who told me her secrets and poured her words down my convulsing throat as honey #honey. when i was young i choked on liquid honey. i was so close to falling away #it coated my mouth. filled my lungs. slowed my heart. i want to feel such a way again #to know that something so sweet as honey can take you. enrapt. beautiful #and i should like to think that the honey still remains. from my mouth as i speak. holding my viscera together. inside of my mind #so this is what we meant by “honeyed words”. beautiful prospects. beautiful visions

[spocks-kaathyra]

when the weed starts tasting like the realization that I'm still deeply lonely and I'll never be loved how I need and it's selfish of me to even want it

#I'm kind of such a pathetic person jesus christ #maybe I'm in love with him. maybe I'm just deeply lonely #either way jesus christttt grow up get over it oh my god #kind of is it abnormal to feel like I've slept through the past multiple months of my life #and wake up realizing there's a hole in my chest that can never be filled and a crack in my head that can never be mended #hole in chest = deep wrenching desire for connection. crack in head = inability to keep up with my daily life #god I'm so whiny literally get over it is it ever that serious. oh elliott. is it ever really that bad. #thinking abt that time I thought that if I drank enough I could be uninhibited enough to ask for physical affection #and then spent 3 hrs throwing up. erm. not my proudest moment #kind of need to get so fucked up I get taken care of again. kind of need to be cradled in someone's arms #<- most annoying person on the planet oh my god. I hate u ppl who yearn online literally grow uppp u sound pathetic #need someone to study me. need someone to know me inside and out. need someone to be interested in hearing every thought I've ever had #need to be treated like god's specialest little princess. need to be someone's hyperfixation. #okay I've reached self-parody levels. it's bedtime #narcissus's echoes #vent

[ankylosaurusthesaurus]

that’s it i’m setting fire to the netflix building

#dead end got cancelled this is my final straw #i fucking hate how poorly animation is treated #w/ netflix it isn't just animation either... any show that isn't immediately an overnight sensation gets treated poorly by them #even if it's very good and has a strong + growing fan base #and is actually creative and contributes something to pop culture + society #but if it isn't stranger things or wednesday or heartstopper levels of succesful #i guess it just isn't worth making to them #i feel like animation especially has been treated poorly #cos it's hard for animated shows to reach that lvl of success #especially if it's something completely new #it just makes me so mad #how is it that inside job and dead end got cancelled within the same week #it makes me so angry especially because there's really nothing fans of these shows can do #and w/ toh being leaked early BY THE COMPANY ITSELF #a company that is known for making animation relevant in american pop culture #and producing animated media that is resonant with audiences of all ages #not just young kids #and then in recent years they have been blatantly disrespecting the art form and any innovation within it #making live action remakes of really beautiful and unique films so they can make more money #disrespecting toh- probably one of their biggest shows in a while #it makes me so mad cos animation is such a cool medium #you can do so so much with it that you just can't do in live action story telling #like secret of the kells?? would not have worked in live action #and it's probably one of the most beautiful movies ive seen #not the most beautiful animated film #but most beautiful film in general #and recently animation has done so much for increasing lgbt rep and diversity in media #i'm just so angry over how animation is treated #dead end deserved better #inside job deserved better

[scattered-winter]

as lonely as being aro can be I honestly wouldn't have it any other way because as a kid I felt like my life would be over in my 20s once I married and started having kids but the first time I realized I didn't have to do that shit was akin to a bird getting released from its cage

#like idk. i remember watching my mom growing up. no time to read or paint or sing or do anything she wanted to do #because she was always doing chores and housework and taking care of the kids #and she said she chose that life and was happy with it but it felt like a cage to me every time i thought about it #and in the ''religion'' i grew up in anyone with ovaries was supposed to get married and have lots of babies as soon as they could #so yk. 20s. #and as a kid growing up in that environment i Literally thought i would only get to live for 20/25 years #and then i'd be miserable and locked inside the house for the rest of my life #and all my friends growing up Wanted that !! they wanted marriage and a million kids and all the things we were told we needed to have #and im sure a lot of this was just the culture we grew up in. even now after leaving years ago im still struggling to unlearn things #and as kids ?? we didnt know Anything. #but idk. i remember watching brave and connecting with merida so much because i didnt want to get married either !!! #but i thought i had to !!! literally that movie made me cry so many times fr #but finding out what aromanticism was was literally so insane it was like. i dont have to do any of this bullshit actually. #it was literally the most radical thought i'd ever encountered at the time #it felt like i was defying everything i've been taught and it took me a long time to separate myself from the mindsets i grew up with #and then longer still to eventually separate myself from that environment completely #but idk. im a little lonely sometimes and my siblings and friends are all getting married and paired off #but i dont have to. my life isnt over and i can live it however i want. #idkkkkkkkk im feeling kinda emotional rn. being aro is incredible fr #winter speaks #queer #personal