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jihyosforehead · 4 years
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soulmate au where the world is black and white until you fall in love with your soulmate for mihyun please im begging u authornim
THANK U FOR THIS !!! this was v fun to write and i almost got carried away and u have been so so patient im sorry this is so late, i dont even rly have an excuse its just due to who i am as a person 
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also on ao3
dahyun doesn’t think much of it at first. barely even notices the difference anyway because mina’s hair has always been so dark. 
dahyun’s world had been black and white all her life, she didn’t notice when it had begun to change. 
first, it was mina’s hair. 
it’s pretty impossible to not be looking at mina’s hair all hours of the day, if she’s being honest. 
dahyun watches a row behind in their advanced algorithms lecture. their professor had been going over some data structural problems and was enthusiastically expanding more in-depth about splay trees. or it might have been splay trees. dahyun had zoned out about ten minutes into the lecture. out of her peripheral, she can vaguely see notifications lighting up her phone, every 3 minutes or so. normally she would have picked it up by now and replied to chaeyoung’s snapchat spam and meme-tagging spree.
but, she’s completely distracted by mina’s slender, graceful fingers lazily twirling strands of silky dark hair, head slightly tilted and pen absentmindedly tapping at her chin. probably going over the equations in her head, running them back and forth easily. she’s always been so smart and consistently at the top of their class. mina’s wearing a fitted white sweater that hugs her shoulders just the way dahyun likes and wire-rimmed glasses, sitting almost carelessly at the end of her nose. she still manages to look so soft though. dahyun exhales deeply.
the change was subtle. she almost doesn’t register the way the fluorescent lighting dances on the crown of mina’s head. bending the light back and forth until mina’s hair flashes a colour that’s neither black or white. 
her eyes flicker back to the screen when the lecture slides change over, displaying a long sequence of diagrams lining the wall. she should really be paying more attention, she was barely scraping in this class. her eyes involuntarily wander back to mina again. the lighting plays on mina’s hair, making it almost shine a dark brown? dahyun blinks a few times and forces her eyes to focus. it’s a tone just barely lighter than black. the light plays over it again and dahyun squints.
she’s jolted out of her reverie when their teacher claps their hands and wishes them a good rest of their day. while students move around her, some rising from their seats to bolt out the door, others packing away their things at a more relaxed pace; dahyun removes her glasses and presses the heels of her palms into closed eyes. she really needs to spend less time in front of a screen.
odd, dahyun thinks when she steps into the sunny hallway, feeling the heat tickle her skin. had it always been so bright? 
it’s two thirteen. and mina’s late. a highly unusual occurrence. 
dahyun taps at her phone and scrolls through her recent messages. there’s none from mina. she glances around at the courtyard. some students were casually sprawled on the grass, laughing at each other, or eating. others had laptops open, typing furiously at their keyboards. 
her phone begins vibrating in her hands and she fumbles hastily, trying to answer it. mina’s voice is soft and gentle in her ear; apologising for running late but she had run into a lecturer she needed to speak with and then another friend for a quick chat but was now on her way with some food and a powerbank for dahyun’s dying phone. dahyun pictures mina speed walking down the hallways, her voice growing more breathless the longer she talks. pictures silky black hair trailing behind her, tucking her bag more securely across her shoulders while dodging passing students. 
she can’t really bring herself to be annoyed when mina looks so adorably sheepish and apologetic while handing dahyun a homemade lunch. it was neatly packaged in a shiny metal lunchbox. today it was a chicken sandwich, with grapes and pear and apple slices on the side. there was even a bottle of freshly squeezed orange juice, lemon slices cheerfully floating on the top. dahyun feels her heart hammer wildly in her chest.
mina’s always doing cute things like bringing her food while they study because she knows dahyun cuts it close between her classes and doesn’t have time for anything other than a protein bar. sometimes an apple she snags on her way out of her apartment. dahyun would probably be surviving on fruit and protein bars if not for mina. 
mina hands her a tissue and then flashes her a wide, bright grin right before typing something into her calculator, eyebrows furrowed. dahyun carefully sets down her sandwich and dabs the corner of her mouth. the sunlight is reflecting off her laptop and into her eyes. she looks up for a moment and watches as the light weaves itself into mina’s hair, setting it alight into a copper blaze. dahyun blinks, dumbfounded. 
she tilts her head slightly and watches the light move from strand to strand. she moves her head back and forth and side to side, the copper follows when mina adjusts her position. dark hair, with shadows? different shades of black strands? was that even possible? it did look a lot richer, flecked with dark brown and golds. 
dahyun blinks again and chalks it up to a trick of the light. mina gives dahyun a soft, fond smile, her eyes slightly squinting, right before returning to her work. her fingers clacking away at her keyboard and then occasionally scribbling at an open notebook. 
it was mina’s eyes next. they were a steady, solid black, that dahyun loves. sparkly and shiny and expressive. bright when she’s excited and duller when she’s sad. 
over the next month or two, far too slow for anyone but dahyun to notice, mina’s eyes acquire the same richer colour as her hair. almost the same shade of lighter black, but not black. it wasn’t just black anymore though. her irises were a warm, shiny dark brown and the pupils, black. they dilate slightly when mina looks up at her. but there isn't an overt difference. 
dahyun thinks likes this colour more. 
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it was a coat next. 
dahyun had fallen asleep on her notes. she jolts awake and blearily blinks at her surroundings, sleep still weighing heavily on her eyelids. she swats a paper stuck to her cheek and is met with amused, fond eyes. she sits up and realises she’s covered in mina’s thick coat. dahyun blinks down at the heavy material and just stares. 
the fabric is beige on the outside, a tan sort of colour that errs more white than it does brown; but the inside of the coat is lined with a subtle tartan pattern. most notably, there’s red stitching. red. dahyun runs her fingers over the checked print design and blinks dumbly at it. she thinks she’s still coming out of her sleepy haze, but five minutes later when she looks down at the coat again, the stitching is so obviously more than black and white. red lines woven through pattern, sticking out like the obvious thing in the world. mina is happily typing away at her laptop, completely oblivious to dahyun’s realisation.
then it was a sunflower she’d spotted sticking out of chaeyoung’s backpack. a bright, happy, obnoxiously yellow sunflower. loud and cheerful. dahyun had seen sunflowers before, but only ever in light grey. sometimes white. sometimes even black. she was so entranced by it that chaeyoung insisted she keep it. dahyun picks it up and holds it to her chest until she was safely in her apartment. 
that night, she set it in a transparent glass vase on her countertop so she could look at it everyday. 
she learns that sunflowers have a pale green, almost yellow centre. that the colours grow into a gradient of orange and black seeds, surrounded by full yellow leaves. the petals have this faint orange that looks like it’s been carefully, painstakingly painted on each individual leaf. 
the next day, on her way to class she spots a rose growing on a bush. it was a striking deep red, a stark contrast to its vibrant green stem. she sticks it in the vase with her sunflower.
dahyun came home everyday, and stared at her sunflower and her rose over dinner, and wondered who they were for. could they see colours this bright? did they know yellow and red looked this pretty? that sunflowers had oranges painted on the petals? 
mina had gone back home to japan over the christmas holidays to spend some time with her family. she hadn’t seen them in over a year, it made sense for her to go home. but. mina is also one of dahyun’s favourite people; it was perfectly natural to miss her. however, dahyun misses her a lot more than she anticipated. her days seemed to be a lot more empty and dull. 
dahyun finds it difficult not to miss warm brown eyes, and mina’s pretty smile. she misses having lunch with mina after class. she misses turning up unannounced at the other girl’s dorm and planting herself on the couch for an afternoon nap. she misses their dumb, playful arguyments over what take-out they should get for movie night; that almost always end up with mina asleep on dahyun’s shoulder, fifteen minutes into pressing play. 
luckily, there was so much else to see. the bushes growing on the edges of her apartment grounds were a deep green, lush leaves sticking out of thin, woody brown twigs. sometimes there were ladybugs on the leaves. dahyun hadn’t realised their shells were red with tiny black dots. one time she even saw a bee sitting on a flower. she didn’t think she would ever be this delighted over discovering that bees had yellow and black stripes. her downstairs neighbour had a golden retriever. and her fur was as gold as the sun, with a pink lolling tongue and sweet, honey brown eyes. 
the new colours could keep her occupied for so long though. 
the sunflower and rose had long died. leaving only the petals behind. they’d drifted onto her wooden countertop, with the flowers blackened and dead. dahyun missed their colours too. 
who were they for? 
sometimes mina would facetime her while she was out and hold up plushies and toys she thinks dahyun would like. the plushies, were big and colourful but dahyun can’t help but think they look dull next to mina’s flushed cheeks. other times, mina would send her photos of the scenery and her food. dahyun can’t help but wonder what they’d look like in person. 
she finds that she doesn’t ever really stop thinking about mina. it’s starting to become a bit of a problem. 
most of all, she just misses mina. a weird ache in her chest that she doesn’t realise is there, just deepens. 
two weeks later finds dahyun nervously pacing the airport lobby. airport crowds never fail to make her uneasy. but honestly, she’d do anything for mina. 
she spots her from a distance, heart thudding loudly. she feels her pulse quicken, hammering obnoxiously in her eardrums, like clanging cymbals together. the most irritating percussion she’s ever experienced; she’s half convinced that everyone around her can hear it. mina was wearing an oversized sweater, her lips stained rose red. a maroon sweater, with gold stitching on the sleeves wrapping around her wrists. dahyun’s breath catches in her throat. she swallows hard around a lump of clear understanding. 
oh. 
mina. it had always been mina. 
dahyun watches as mina’s head cranes around, carefully searching the crowd. her eyes find dahyun’s, as they always do, and dahyun can feel the fondness wrap around her heart and take firm hold. the ache in her chest deepens, like a dam breaking. the crowd seems to part when mina runs towards her and throws herself at dahyun’s torso, not caring at all about dahyun’s heart, beating wildly out of control. mina’s arms wrap around dahyun’s neck and she buries her face in dahyun’s shoulder, nuzzling into the fabric. dahyun can smell mina’s shampoo, clean and fresh.
they just stand there for a moment, swaying a little as dahyun adjusts her hold around a slender waist, fingers finding its home at the small of her back. she keeps a palm resting there and brings her other hand to the back of mina’s head, massaging the base of mina’s skull. she can feel mina huffing a relieved sigh into the side of her neck, the tip of her nose is cold against her skin.   
she hears mina whisper that she missed her and asks if dahyun had been waiting long. dahyun barely hears it over the almost immediate snap of vivid colour encompassing them. the blues, and oranges and greens and pinks colouring the airport scene and moving outwards. dahyun’s world had transformed completely. 
everything suddenly made sense, slotting itself perfectly in place. 
it was beautiful and bright and brilliant. but dahyun hadn’t noticed it at first because she only had eyes for mina. like always.
mina, whose hair was a deep chestnut brown, with flecks of copper and bronze when the light hits it in the right spots. she must have dyed it while she was away because the gold has disappeared now. mina’s lipstick, red and rich, she can see the ridges where it’s redder in some areas, and more faded in others. mina’s sweater, maroon with gold stitching. mina’s earrings, a deep emerald green, flecked with golden marbling, and wrapped inside a delicate gold circle. 
dahyun blinks rapidly at the change, taking it all in. slowly, the colours swirl around them as everything gradually finds its place. her eyes wander up and down mina’s face and hair and clothes and nose (had the mole on the corner of her mouth always been a dark brown?), finally landing on mina’s eyes. dark brown and sparkly. honey and gold and cinnamon and chestnut and dusky all at once. had mina’s eyes always had those colours? 
mina looks at her softly. fondly. like she always has. the corners of her eyes crinkle when she smiles and mina’s eyes shine even more brightly when the light bounces off them. 
then the colours didn’t really seem to matter anymore. dahyun studies mina’s features closely, glances at the moles that dot her nose and decides that without mina, what did it matter if there was colour or not. without mina, dahyun’s world may as well have remained black and white.
for mina, it was distinct. 
absolute certainty. 
the very first time she ever laid eyes on dahyun, her whole world burst into a million different colors all at once.
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lachalaine · 5 years
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dun dun dududuuuuun !! bonjour, hello, and i wish only the happiest of holidays to all !! it’s the end of the year again, and while i’ll personally admit it’s been a huge mess of one on my side of things, i must say that i’m very thankful for a lot of what’s occurred this year as well, especially for me with regards to the rp community on tumblr ! it was a year of ups and downs and while i wasn’t as active as i would have liked to be due to the constancy of irl concerns, i’ve still somehow managed to acquire a severely supportive and absolutely wonderful set of mutuals that have made me feel very so welcome on here time and time again, making tumblr out to be what i would seriously consider to be one of the few sanctuaries i have left that i hold dear to my heart. being on here has legitimately been actual therapy for my mental health in the months that have passed, and i only have you all to thank for it ! your mere presence on here, whether or not we might have spoken on a near constant basis or even just once in a blue moon ( because i know i tend to evaporate into thin air once every few days without warning sdbhdbahda ) or even potentially never has been a real source of joy for me, even if all i was able to do was generally just take a seat back and watch you having fun on the dash. 
thank you for being such positive and such creative individuals on here, for putting so much of yourselves into a hobby, for spending your time and energy on creating new worlds with us with your characters, and just generally being such absolute inspirations for everyone. thank you as well for still being here and for accepting me and my muse onto your dashboards and for allowing us the chance to impact your tumblr experience, despite that we’ve had more then a few slip ups this year that we’re still trying to catch up on. we’ve never felt more accepted by the community ( nor have i ever felt like more of a mess, but you take the good with the bad and roll with it guess dbshdbsa ) and i sincerely appreciate you guys never giving up on me, no matter what !
your genuine patience and kind understanding has been a blessing for me and her in so many ways, and i’m thankful that we can still be here at the end of this year to hopefully make up for all that we’ve missed and failed to do with you guys, and still attempt to try to come in strong for the next one. i’m hoping as well to repay everyone for all that you’ve done for me this year, because i’m not exaggerating when i say i don’t think i could have made it through without your support !! whether it’s been a small ask or a short im message or even just a spare like on one of my posts, it all has meant so, so much to me, and though i know people will say that tumblr is a hellscape, somehow this community still manages to power through the bullshit to make it one of the most welcoming platforms i’ve ever had the chance to be on, and i’m thankful for the chance to be considered a part of it. it’s allowed me to meet all of you, people that i don’t know i would have ever had the opportunity to meet otherwise, and that alone has been an experience i would hate to ever have to lose. 
thanks for being here for me and for jackie, through our times of stilted growth and near constant stumbles, and thanks for giving me the strength of heart to keep moving forward, and to keep trying !! i know for a fact i wouldn’t be nearly as stable irl if i didn’t have this hobby to keep me grounded, and honestly - being here is one of the best decisions i have ever made in MY LIFE. bless you, ily and thank you xx
and so below the cut i just have some quick ( lol ) messages for a few friends that really just made such a grand impact on my year, i don’t know where i would be without them. i also just want to make a quick shout out to the people that have made my dashboard what it is - a haven for creativity and laughter and inspiration, and a place where i feel most accepted and at peace. if i might have missed you, please don’t take offense to it, there’s just a lot of people on my dash and honestly my head is spinning already but ily too please don’t doubt it and thank you !! 
for the people that i just generally really adore on my dashboard but have also made such a grand impact on my muse and i in 2018, i just want to say THANK YOU for sharing your time and your efforts with me, for sending me asks and for writing with me or even if we haven’t written together yet - just thank you for being my friend and for being here !! I KNOW IM STILL CATCHING UP TO THINGS IM AT 115 ON MY INBOX AND NOT TO MENTION MY DRAFTS BUT I’LL MAKE SURE TO FULFILL EVERYTHING I OWE YOU GUYS ASAP! thanks for being so patient with me and for giving me countless chances and for those of you checking up on me and also offering me your support when i needed a friend - thanks for being such absolutely incredible people! 
i really adore you guys more then you know and i hope 2019 gives us a chance to do more together, because i feel a lot like there’s so much more to work on and i’m so excited to get to it all with you! also YOU GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY AMAZING WRITERS AND IM CONSTANTLY IN AWE AND READING YOUR WORK BECAUSE ITS ALWAYS SO MUCH FUN AND I LEARN A LOT AND YOU GUYS ARE REALLY INSPIRING OKAY I JUST NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR TALENTS WITH ME I AM THANKFUL FOR THIS CHANCE ALWAYS !!!
@dialforsnacc / @jaxyu / @saikuru-no-owari / @mikrifotia / @niirmohii / @aureumrex / @endgcme / @ncughts / @univentorem / @moonsought / @valhallic / @tamenteki / @lifedenied / @necrophagic / @spellbiinding / @hathlived / @manypcths / @odigxs / @brynhildrofromantia / @portalipsis / @pridesglasses / @luseron / @ghxstlyrxveries / @nanpoghan / @lordspreyer / @moonsought / @sukkubxs / @hhemeraa / @xaconite / @imperterritus / @astcrii
thank you all sincerely for everything, and i do really hope i managed to get most everyone asdbhasbdha i know im missing quite a few people but even if you’re not on the list, please know i adore you, thank you !! also moving forward these are the uhm -- ‘short’ messages i promised, sorry for babbling on and all but thanks for reading through, i appreciate it !! 
@bestiatexere // momochiiiii !!!!! the best twinsie !! the sweetest twinsie !! the most amazing and seriously the most incredible person friend i have ever had the absolute pleasure to write with! not only write with, but plot with and ship with AND DHBSDHBASHDS GIRL I SWEAR IT HAS BEEN AN ABSOLUTE BLESSING FOR ME THAT WE STUMBLED ON EACH OTHER THE WAY WE DID. IT COULDN’T HAVE COME AT A BETTER TIME. we’ve been through a shit ton together since the day we met, and it’s been a hell of a roller coaster ( like holy shit, i can’t believe the crap we went through tHIS YEAR ALONE !! ) but thankfully we managed to get through it all in one piece! and though i know we’re exhausted beyond belief and kinda wanna pass out to hibernate for a few weeks until we’re ready to face the world again, i know we unfortunately don’t quite have that kind of luck on our side just yet. but someday !! someday soon!! someday we’ll have the chance to write and plot and make sure our kids get all the happy endings ( and angst endings hihihi ) they could ever WANT OR NEED AND DHSAHDBASH HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU HOW HAPPY AND LUCKY I AM THAT I SOMEHOW MANAGED TO GET TO BE YOUR FRIEND ?? you are a blessing through and through, always giving so much of yourself and trying your best no matter what! you’ve been able to keep me grounded when i’ve felt like i’ve been a ghost, and you’ve been such a constant source of comfort and support when i’ve been lost. the fact that you’re always so understanding and kind to me even when i’m like this has been such a treasure to me, i never want to make you feel like i ever take your friendship for granted. i am seriously so absolutely lucky that you’ve given me this chance to write with you and your incredible muses, because you give all you can for them, and your effort shows. in heart, mind and words, in ideas and plots and all the gifs we squeal and scream over constantly --- these things have gotten me through my days when the world seemed very bleak, and i am thankful that you’ve chosen to share these treasures with me. you are the one person where i feel like we’re constantly on the same page and i can be an anxious mess with you and also a dork with you and ITS SO COMFORTABLE IM SO LUCKY !!! YOU’RE MY BESTEST TWIN. SOMEONE I CONSIDER ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS. AND I CONSTANTLY ADORE YOU AND AM IN AWE OF YOU AND YOUR TALENTS AND ABILITIES EVERY DAY YOU GET TO SHARE IT WITH ME. U ARE A BLESSING. NEVER FORGET. YOU’RE THE BEST GIRL AND I HOPE YOU NEVER EVER HAVE TO FEEL OTHERWISE AGAIN !!
@kuebcko // SCALEEEEEEEEY !!! hello hi ily thank you for always being there for me :((((((( honestly, i don’t know how you manage to do it but somehow i feel like you have a j warning alert somewhere in your mind, that just kinda pops up an alert whenever you feel like im sad or need a friend AND LET ME TELL YOU, IT IS WORKING LIKE A CHARM. like, i don’t know if i’ve ever mentioned this, but i’ll be feeling anxious or lowkey down in the dumps, and even if i try to keep it quiet because i KNOW YOU WORRY ABOUT MEEEEE AND IM SORRY I DON’T WANT YOU TO WORRY BUT IT MEANS A LOT THAT U DO !! even if i try to keep it quiet, you still somehow manage to come in with like this one cute positivity ask or even just a cute pinterest pin for me to look at ( which btw YOUR AESTHETIC SENSE IS ALWAYS ON POINT !! ) AND HOLY HECK IT BRIGHTENS UP MY DAY LIKE U WOULDN’T BELIEVE. its like a guaranteed HAPPY switch for me, that just turns my day from :( to :D :”> :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD JUST LIKE THAT. you have helped me through so many of my days, even without trying. you’ve always supported me and tried your best to cheer me up, offering me a shoulder to cry on or vent to when you knew things were rough. and you’ve always been so, so understanding of me and my current predicament THAT I DON’T KNOW AT THIS POINT HOW YOU PUT UP WITH ME BECAUSE IM THE WORST AND MOST UNRELIABLE PERSON EVER AND ITS TERRIBLE AND IM SORRY BUT THANK YOU FOR NEVER GIVING UP ON ME :(((( YOU ALWAYS SPARK THE WARMEST LIGHT IN MY HEART AND I NEVER FAIL TO SMILE WHEN I SEE A MESSAGE FROM YOU. AND ALL I WISH FOR IN THE FUTURE IS THE GENUINE HOPE THAT IM ABLE TO DO THE SAME FOR YOU. i know you’re still uncertain of your work and what you do, and it hurts my heart to see you so anxious about things, and i know no amount of words might help take that frustration you feel away. but i must tell you, no matter what you write - your heart and your soul has always been able to resonate so intensely through your writing and your muses, that it always takes those of us that that get the chance to read it on a trip! one that we’re very reluctant to get off of, and one where we’re constantly looking forward to whatever else you’ve got up your sleeve. whatever else you have in mind to do, scaley, i hope you’re given the chance to do it, because i know you’ll be a success at it either way. thank you for always being there for me, and for always being there for so many of us that need a smile or a cheer just to get us through our days. i hope that in the coming year, i can be more present as your friend, and i hope i can be that same source of joy for you as well. 
@soulmauled​ // SHIROOOOO !!! hello hello hi hi hi can i smother you in hugs for YEARS PLEASE YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY ALL THE TIME AND IM SO HAPPY YOU’RE AROUND HONESTLY !! i know we don’t get to talk too much and that when we reply to each other its usually always more then a few days or weeks later but dhbashdbsah DO U KNOW I DON’T MIND AT ALL?? because so long as we get to chat once in a blue moon, that’s enough to make me happy! you’re honestly the absolute sweetest person i have ever met, and any time i get an ask for a chat from you, you’ve always been able to make me giggle, no matter how sad i might have been initially. you make my heart feel lighter, and i’m always glad when i get to hear of how you’re doing, and i’m always hoping that things are going well for you. thank you for always sending me things to answer from your boys, and for always doing your best to answer the things i manage to send you as well! i appreciate you doing the memes i tag you in all the time too because reading your results always makes me happy! idk honestly you’re just - you’re just a very sweet and soft presence to me all the time, and being able to be your friend is a blessing i wouldn’t exchange the world for and i appreciate you so very, very much! i hope your 2019 is an incredible year for you in all the ways possible, and i wish you a lot of happiness and good health! ALSO I WISH TO PROVIDE YOU WITH MORE JACKIE MOMENTS BECAUSE JACKIE BEING WITH YOUR BOYS IS A GIFT THAT KEEPS ON GIVING AND I RESOLVE TO PROVIDE MORE OF IT FOR THE BOTH OF THEM DHSBADHBSAH BLESS 
@bathed-in-red // RO !!!! SNUGGLES YOU FOREVER OH MY GOSH, I MISS YOU. THANK YOU FOR POPPING IN EVERY SO OFTEN WITH THE LIKES AND THE ASKS. THANK YOU FOR STILL BEING HERE AND FOR STILL SUPPORTING ME AND BEING AROUND. i miss writing with you so much and i hope we get the chance to do so again in the future. i hope things are going better for you in every way, and i hope your mum is doing well. i know things have been rough for you too and i wish 2019 would be better for both of us. please take care of yourself always and be safe. im so happy to see you every now and then honestly, and though we dont always get the chance to talk, im happy in the moments we do. i know we’re both busy as fuck and potentially always hibernating BUT. I ADORE YOU ALWAYS AND IM SO HAPPY THAT EVEN IF WE SPEND DAYS AND MONTHS APART, YOU’RE ALWAYS SOMEONE I KNOW I CAN DEPEND ON. thanks for being there. thanks for watching out for me. i hope things get better for you too and if you ever need anything on my end, please let me know. i’ll do whatever i can to be there for you, as best as can be. i adore you ro, and i miss you and roppi loads. take care always and be safe and ilyyyyy BIGGEST HUGGIES AND SNUGGLES HAPPIEST OF NEW YEARS TO YOU BBY YOU’RE THE BEST!
@valorandheart // KELLYY !!! HI HELLO EXCUSE ME DO U KNOW HOW HAPPY YOU MANAGE TO MAKE ME ALL THE DAMN TIME?? whether its with jamie or sanford, reading your messages or little comments and asks about the most random of the things i post always has the amazing ability to perk me up and make me laugh out loud whenever i get the chance to read them !! you’re such an incredibly uplifting and joyful person honestly, and im so happy we get to write together and plot together EVEN IF I POOF INTO NONEXISTENCE AND GET BACK TO THINGS IN LIKE A MONTH OR TWO ( IM SO SORRY !!! ) ITS ALWAYS INTERACTIONS WITH YOU THAT ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL SO LIGHT AND HAPPY AND HONESTLY YOU’RE HILARIOUS AND FUN AND ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL IN EVERY WAY !! i’m so lucky that i’ve been able to write this plot out with you, even if ITS TAKING ME YEARS TO RESPOND TO THINGS. AND OUR PAIR IS ALWAYS ON A TURBULENT ROLLER COASTER THAT WE CANT ALWAYS FIGURE OUT BUT SOMEHOW THEY MANAGE TO MAKE IT WORK. its been such a joy for me this whole while though honestly speaking, because i’ve been able to see jackie grow from her experiences with jamie, and learn from him and somehow even try to strive to be a better person because of him. she’s still a mess, but she feels a little more whole, a little more not so lost when she’s with him, and this kind of development is the kind of thing I DREAM FOR. and i can’t wait to see where they end up!! or rather I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHEN THEY FINALLY GET A KISS IN AND ALSO WHEN THEY EVENTUALLY STOP RUNNING AWAY FROM THEIR FEELINGS OKAY IT’LL BE AMAZING !! also I WANT TO SEE SANFORD AND JACKIE INTERACT AND YELL AT EACH OTHER OKAY ITS A NEED AT THIS POINT WE BETTER DO SOMETHING IN 2019 OR ELSE IMMA SCREAM IN ALL HEADERS OKIE THAT WOULD BE BAD FOR THE BOTH OF US IT CANNOT HAPPEN EVER DHSABDHAS WE’LL WORK ON THIS OKAY OKAY THANK YOU WHOOOO !! 
@weiwuxiian // LIGHT HI HELLO I KNOW I ALREADY TOLD U EVERYTHING IN THE TAGS THE OTHER DAY ON YOUR OWN END OF YEAR THING SO ILL TRY TO MAKE THIS QUICK, AHEM !! i just want to say THANK YOU. for being around for being my friend. i know i’m not the best person at keeping in contact at all, which is totally bad considering we have the same timezone, but i really really appreciate you being around !! being able to be your friend and also getting to write with you! you have such a brightness about you that is so wonderful to see in all honesty, and any muse you pick up somehow manages to radiate it! you are also so very sensible and kind, and i’m very lucky that we were able to get our muses to connect the way they did. libra and jackie will always be one of my favorite ships, and i know i still have some things i owe for him in my ask box, and even if you’re on hiatus with him rn, i must tell you that seeing you so happy on wwx is just as interesting for me as seeing you on libra. i hope school and everything is going well for you, i hope you were able to achieve your goals for the year but also get some time to rest for yourself. i really look up to you in all honesty, you’re one of my biggest inspirations and i hope we get to write our muses together again someday soon. also i hope we get to plot and chat lots again in the future hihi i really miss talking to you tbh !! i hope your new years is amazing and i just gotta say - i’m so thankful to have you as my friend! thankful and lucky and blessed that i was able to meet you this year and get to know you the way i did, and i so constantly wish you all the best!! 
@richkicl // hello jae !!! gosh, i know its been a hell of a long time since we’ve spoken properly, but i hope you’ve been doing well !! we’ve missed you a ton since you’ve left, but we’ve also been cheering you on all this time even though you’ve been away! i’ve been rooting for you, and i know your absence on the dashboard was felt, but i hope you’ve been well and things have gotten better for you in the time that’s passed. I STILL OWE YOU A THREAD FOR SHOYA, BUT IDK IF YOU’RE STILL UP FOR DOING IT BUT IF YOU AREN’T THATS OKIE DOKIE !! i just hope you’re doing okay, honestly. thank you for always offering me a chance to talk about my problems, and for always giving me such solid advice when i need it. you’re one person who’s always been very rational but also so enthusiastic and kind, and being able to plot and write with you has always been the greatest fun for me. i look forward to seeing you around again soon, but please always take your time no matter what. i wish you well, and i wish you an amazing new year. thank you for always making me laugh, and for encouraging me to be more open and be more upbeat. honestly, its because i met you that i feel as comfortable as i do today, and i want to thank you for being such a positive individual, more then anything else. you’re amazing and i adore you, and im so lucky i’ve had the chance to be your friend!! i hope we get to talk again soon. HAPPY NEW YEAR, AND I MISS YOU !! 
@astrumtristis // LULU. HI I MISS YOU. i miss you a lot and gosh, its been a while. i wish we spoke more often, as much as we used to honestly. things seemed a lot simpler back then, tbh. i know things have been going rough for you lately, and --- i’m really sorry that things have turned out the way they did. i want to give you a small thank you however, because somehow, despite all your own troubles, you’ve managed to take some time out to give me your support as well. honestly, you’ve been a prominent part of the reason i was able to get through the year, as your constant strength has given me the will to keep moving forward. my only hope is that through your own burdens, i might be able to provide that same amount of support to you, as much as i am able to from so far away. the things you’ll be facing from now on will be difficult, more so then anything i’ve ever had to face, but i’ve always been in awe of your strength and your vitality, lulu, and i hope in even the smallest of ways - i might be able to somehow support you and make the road ahead easier for you to traverse in any way possible. please let me know if you ever need a friend. if you ever need anything at all. i’m here for you, as much as you might need me. no matter what, you have my thoughts and my well wishes for everything to get better for you in the end. you’re strong lulu, one of the strongest people i know, and you can surmount this. we’ll fight the universe together if you need backup !! just say the word and i’m there !! do your best lulu, and i hope the next year, and every year after - is the best ever. happy new year bby !!
@vxtxation​ // MIKA !!! oh my gosh where do i even start ?? do you know, you are one of those people i just absolutely look up to no matter what? i’ve always admired your work when i first saw you writing with jae, and idk how we got to being friends but !! IM SO HAPPY WE BECAME FRIENDS TBH. we dont’ talk too much but holy heck i gotta say ALL YOUR MESSAGES ALWAYS MAKE ME SO HAPPY. youre just such a positive person who’s honestly really really cool !! not to mention talented in both writing and art !! i’ve told you this before but your art has always so incredibly wonderful to me! the expressions you give them, the creativity in their situations and the emotion is them is so very clear to anyone who sees it, i feel so ?? lucky ?? to have been on the receiving end of some your work?? I STILL KEEP THEM IN MY PHONE OKAY. also i look back on that one happy but crying jackie pic and my heart just !! gets all warm and light and i want to hug you so so much for that one !! THAT WAS. PERFECTION. IN A PICTURE. AND I DONT KNOW WHAT I DID TO DESERVE IT BUT IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. it stood out at a time when i needed support the most, and you didn’t have to but you did and GOD IM JUST REALLY LUCKY. TO HAVE THE CHANCE TO BE YOUR FRIEND. i hope to see so much more of your work in the year to come and i hope 2019 is kind to you. I HOPE WE GET TO WRITE A LOT MORE TOGETHER TOO IM NOT GIVING YOU NO 6 MONTH DELAY ANYMORE I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL NOT ALLOW IT. THANKS FOR BEING PATIENT ALL THROUGHOUT AND FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE. YOU’RE INCREDIBLE AND AMAZING AND I APPRECIATE YOU MORE THEN YOU KNOW. THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU AND I HOPE YOU HAVE THE HAPPIEST NEW YEAR IN THE WORLD !!
@tragicalyouth // ASH BBY !!! IM SO GLAD YOU’RE BACK !! i know its been a while since we’ve written together or plotted together or even chatted at all, but i’m hoping we get the chance to do so again soon !! i’m glad to see you picking things up where they left off, and to see you happy and well. im looking forward to more atsu and jackie interactions soon, and i hope they’re able to advance from their convoluted mess of frenemy/crush hahahaha !! they’re still one of my favorite pairings and im looking forward to seeing whatever is in store for them in the future !! i hope your 2019 goes really well, and you’re the happiest you’ve ever been. thanks for always sending me asks as well, I STILL HAVE SOME TO ANSWER FROM YOU BECAUSE I DROPPED THE BALL ON RP STUFF IN JUNE AND IM STILL CATCHING UP BUT IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT !! i hope we get to chat lots soon and i hope i get to see a lot more of you on the dashboard in the year to come! thank you for always being so supportive and kind as well, and i’m wishing the best for you too! do your best, and happy new year bby !! YOU DESERVE ONLY THE GREATEST! 
anyway THATS ALL I WAS GONNA DO THIS WHEN I REACHED 500 FOLLOWERS AND IM LIKE 45 FOLLOWERS FROM THAT AND I DONT CARE ABOUT THE COUNT ANYMORE I HAVEN’T SQUEALED ABOUT PEOPLE ALL YEAR THIS IS MY CONTRIBUTION TO THE FANGIRL OF MY MUTUALS OKAY I LOVE YOU ALL OKAY HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAVE THE BEST YEAR EVER ALL THE LOVE AND GAMBATTE !!
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it's 5 am and i just wish i had some fucking booze. it's tempting to go to the garage round the corner and get a bottle of something, or maybe even a monster?? anything to keep me awake. how the fuck did i used to do all nighters, so often and so frequently?? this is painful. i guess this is the price i must pay for fucking myself over. just finished the last 5 pages of the With Nails chapter i started earlier today/yesterday/whenever because time is NOT real and is just ANOTHER way that the government CONTROLS US. im dying to see Withnail And I again, it's only been 6 days since i saw it last and i can't stop thinking about it - in the last 24 hours alone ive heard the soundtrack twice. i can't stop quoting it either, but it proves somewhat discouraging when i give some of my friends my favourite lines in a snapchat video and none of them seem to care. am i annoying you?? do you care?? by this point i live on caffeine, energy drinks or not. my eyelids are drooping and i think i need my first cup of coffee today. i wish home bargains still stocked pussy because i never got to try it and really fancy doing so, plus i need a new can of deodorant too so i can kill two birds with one stone if i go later. provided i don't pass out and fall asleep by then that is.
coffee acquired, watching Dan Nerdcubed play Hitman, almost half 7. home bargains opens in half an hour, so after this video im gunna throw on some clothes - a band tee, black hoodie, black leggings and my fuck off goth boots - to go get deodorant to drink and energy drink to cover myself in. next stop antifreeze, or better, lighter fluid!! first coffee of the day also means first shit of the day, i think, im losing count.
shop doesn't open until ten am HAHAHAH what the fuck am i supposed to do for an hour and a half?? i literally just got dressed and gave myself a pep talk, FOR NOTHING!! started writing a not-fanfic and started work on a new song thanks to Phoebe - they're such a muse for me right now, always stimulating my creative mind. in other news, ive just had my first monster in almost two months as it was the only way i could survive today. currently im running on being awake for 13 hours straight and am in my MANIC PHASE. i can't wait to crash and burn after dinner, enter the depression :( phase :( and ignore the world again. at least i have college tomorrow, i really can't wait to go back. me and mum also got 100% on Lego Harry Potter Years 5-7 today and ps. fuck jk rowling FUCK YOU DRAGON!!
the depression phase has set in. a year ago today i was with my friend Owen seeing The 1975 live for the first time at the O2. we've both been fans since '13 and he's the reason i'm a fan, only to have had my numbness soothed by songs like Robbers and Love It If We Made it - so thank you Owen, for making sure i got this far. but i wanted to celebrate the occasion by listening to their last album while i went on a walk again. rather than feeling elated or happy, i just feel empty and like something is missing. because there's loads missing. a year ago today i wrote a so g called I'm Sat At A Concert And I'm Thinking Of You about Georgia, because every love song The 1975 played made me think of her. either j had my emotions confused again or i genuinely felt something for her. but i ended up falling out with her, and Rachel, and even Megan - another fan of the '75 i almost ended up in a relationship with before i was able to ruin it. surprise surprise!! i think about and miss them all daily and there's nothing i can do to get them back. i just want to phone one of them up and speak like civil friends, but i know that won't happen. maybe that's me romanticising my life?? i want to just call somebody up and talk, like therapy or a vent session. but it just feels like there's nobody there, that i would be annoying or a nuisance. i guess that's one of the down sides of forcing yourself into isolation and away from people. i also think i realised that Inner Mechanism, thought about my dwindling mental health, has this underlying theme of the people i love and miss the most. if it wasn't for at least five different people, this album wouldn't have been written and materialised. which has kind of given me a spark of drive to finish it and put it out asap, but at the same time, i don't know or think i have the energy right now.
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My philosophy for a happy life | Sam Berns | TEDxMidAtlantic
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My philosophy for a happy life | Sam Berns | TEDxMidAtlantic
Translator: Bob Prottas Reviewer: Ariana Bleau Lugo hey every body. I am Sam, and i just grew to become 17. A number of years ago, earlier than my freshman yr in excessive school, I desired to play snare drum within the Foxboro high institution Marching Band, and it was once a dream that I simply had to achieve. However each and every snare drum and harness weighed about 40 kilos each and every, and i’ve a ailment known as Progeria. So simply to give you an suggestion, I weigh handiest about 50 pounds. So, logistically, I fairly could not raise a average sized snare drum, and due to the fact that of this the band director assigned me to play pit percussion during the halftime show.Now pit percussion used to be enjoyable. It concerned some rather cool auxiliary percussion devices, just like the bongos, timpani, and timbales, and cowbell. So it was fun, but it surely concerned no marching, and that i was once just so devastated. Nonetheless, nothing was going to discontinue me from taking part in snare drum with the marching band within the halftime show. So my family and i worked with an engineer to design a snare drum harness that will be lighter, and simpler for me to hold. So after continuous work, we made a snare drum equipment that weighs simplest about 6 kilos. (Applause) I just want to provide you with some extra know-how about Progeria. It impacts most effective about 350 kids in these days, international. So it is lovely infrequent, and the effects of Progeria comprise: tight epidermis, lack of weight acquire, stunted growth, and heart ailment. Last yr my mother and her staff of scientists published the first victorious Progeria healing study, and on the grounds that of this I was interviewed on NPR, and John Hamilton asked me the query: "what’s the predominant thing that people must find out about you?" And my reply used to be quite simply that i have an awfully completely happy life.(Applause) So even though there are numerous limitations in my existence, with plenty of them being created by using Progeria, I do not need men and women to feel unhealthy for me. I don’t consider about these limitations all the time, and i’m able to beat most of them anyway. So Im right here in these days, to share with you my philosophy for a completely happy existence. So, for me, there are three facets to this philosophy. So this is a quote from the noted Ferris Bueller. The primary side to my philosophy is that Im k with what I finally cant do when you consider that there’s so much i can do. Now individuals frequently question me questions like, "Isnt it rough residing with Progeria?" or "What everyday challenges of Progeria do you face?" And identification like to claim that, although i’ve Progeria, most of my time is spent fascinated by matters that don’t have anything to do with Progeria in any respect. Now this doesnt imply that I ignore the terrible facets of those limitations.After I cant do something like run a long distance, or go on an severe roller coaster, i know what Im lacking out on. But alternatively, I decide on to focus on the hobbies that i can do by way of matters that Im passionate about, like scouting, or song, or comedian books, or any of my favorite Boston physical activities groups. Yeah, so — (Laughter) nevertheless, usually I need to in finding an additional solution to do some thing by using making adjustments, and that i wish to put these matters within the "can do" class. Form of like you noticed with the drum prior. So heres a clip with me taking part in Spider-Man with the Foxboro high school Marching Band at halftime a few years in the past. (Video) Spider-Man theme track (Applause) thank you. All proper, all correct, so — That was once lovely cool, and so I was able to accomplish my dream of playing snare drum with the marching band, as I believe i can do for all of my goals.So with a bit of luck, that you would be able to accomplish your desires as good, with this outlook. The next side to my philosophy is that I surround myself with humans I want to be with, individuals of high fine. Im extremely lucky to have an strong family, who’ve normally supported me for the duration of my entire life. And Im also relatively lucky to have a particularly shut team of acquaintances at school. Now had been sort of goofy, a number of us are band geeks, but we quite experience every others organization, and we support each other out once we have got to. We see each different for who we are on the within.So that is us goofing off a little bit. So were juniors in excessive school now, and we will now mentor more youthful band participants, as a single collective unit. What i love about being in a bunch like the band, is that the music that we make together, is right, is actual, and it supersedes Progeria. So I dont have got to worry about that when Im feeling so excellent about making song.But even having made a documentary, going on tv a few occasions, I consider like Im at my easiest point when Im with the folks that encompass me day-to-day. They provide the real positive influences in my existence, as i am hoping i will furnish a optimistic have an impact on in theirs as good. (Applause) thanks. So the bottom line here, is that i’m hoping you respect and love your loved ones, love your pals, for you guys, love you Bros and renowned your mentors, and your neighborhood, considering they are an extraordinarily actual part of every day existence, they can make a real large, confident influence. The 0.33 facet to the philosophy is, preserve moving ahead. Heres a quote by means of a person you can also comprehend, named Walt Disney, and its considered one of my favourite quotes. I at all times attempt to have something to look ahead to. Anything to attempt for to make my lifestyles richer. It doesnt ought to be significant. It might be anything from looking ahead to the following comic publication to return out, or occurring a large family trip, or striking out with my neighbors, to going to the subsequent high college soccer recreation.Nevertheless, all of these things preserve me centered, and comprehend that theres a vibrant future forward, and could get me by means of some complex occasions that I is also having. Now this mentality includes staying in a ahead pondering state of mind. I are attempting hard to not waste vigour feeling badly for myself, considering the fact that after I do, I get stuck in a paradox, the place theres no room for any happiness or every other emotion.Now, its no longer that I ignore when Im feeling badly, I type of receive it, I let it in, so that i can well known it, and do what I have got to do to maneuver previous it. Once I was more youthful, I wanted to be an engineer. I wanted to be an inventor, who would catapult the sector into a greater future. Might be this got here from my love of Legos, and the freedom of expression that I felt once I was constructing with them. And this used to be additionally derived from my family and my mentors, who always make me feel whole, and good about myself. Now at present my ambitions have converted slightly bit, id like to go into the subject of Biology, maybe cellphone biology, or genetics, or biochemistry, or rather some thing.This can be a buddy of mine, who I seem up to, Francis Collins, the director of the NIH, and this is us at TEDMED last year, chatting away. I believe that no matter what I decide upon to turn out to be, I feel that i can change the sector. And as Im striving to vary the arena, I can be blissful. About four years ago, HBO began to film a documentary about my household and me known as life in line with Sam. That used to be a sexy nice expertise, nevertheless it was also 4 years in the past. And like any one, my views on many things have modified, and optimistically matured, like my skills career choice.However, some matters have stayed the equal for the duration of that point. Like my mentality, and philosophy closer to existence. So I wish to exhibit you a clip of my younger self from the film, that I feel embodies that philosophy. (Video) i know extra about it genetically. So its much less of an embodiment now. It used to be like this factor that prevents me from doing all this stuff, that reasons different kids to die, that reasons everybody to be stressed, and now its a protein that is abnormal, that weakens the constitution of cells. So, and it takes a burden off of me considering now I dont must believe about Progeria as an entity. K, beautiful just right, huh? (Applause) thanks.So, as you will see that Ive been pondering this fashion for many years. However identity on no account really needed to apply all of those points of my philosophy to the scan at one time, except final January. I was once pretty unwell, I had a chest bloodless, and that i used to be in the medical institution for a few days, and that i was once secluded from all of the features of my existence that I felt made me, me, that type of gave me my identification. But realizing that I was going to get higher, and watching ahead to a time that i might consider just right once more, helped me to hold moving ahead. And many times I needed to be courageous, and it wasnt perpetually convenient. Sometimes I faltered, I had unhealthy days, but i noticed that being brave isnt imagined to be convenient. And for me, I think its the important thing option to keep relocating forward. So, all in all, I dont waste power feeling dangerous for myself. I encompass myself with people that I want to be with, and that i hold moving ahead. So with this philosophy, i hope that each one of you, despite your barriers, can have an extraordinarily completely satisfied life as well.Oh, wait, dangle on a 2d, one other piece of advice – (Laughter) on no account omit a occasion if that you can aid it. My schools homecoming dance is the next day night time, and that i will be there. Thank you very much. (Applause) .
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My philosophy for a happy life | Sam Berns | TEDxMidAtlantic
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My philosophy for a happy life | Sam Berns | TEDxMidAtlantic
Translator: Bob Prottas Reviewer: Ariana Bleau Lugo hey every body. I am Sam, and i just grew to become 17. A number of years ago, earlier than my freshman yr in excessive school, I desired to play snare drum within the Foxboro high institution Marching Band, and it was once a dream that I simply had to achieve. However each and every snare drum and harness weighed about 40 kilos each and every, and i’ve a ailment known as Progeria. So simply to give you an suggestion, I weigh handiest about 50 pounds. So, logistically, I fairly could not raise a average sized snare drum, and due to the fact that of this the band director assigned me to play pit percussion during the halftime show.Now pit percussion used to be enjoyable. It concerned some rather cool auxiliary percussion devices, just like the bongos, timpani, and timbales, and cowbell. So it was fun, but it surely concerned no marching, and that i was once just so devastated. Nonetheless, nothing was going to discontinue me from taking part in snare drum with the marching band within the halftime show. So my family and i worked with an engineer to design a snare drum harness that will be lighter, and simpler for me to hold. So after continuous work, we made a snare drum equipment that weighs simplest about 6 kilos. (Applause) I just want to provide you with some extra know-how about Progeria. It impacts most effective about 350 kids in these days, international. So it is lovely infrequent, and the effects of Progeria comprise: tight epidermis, lack of weight acquire, stunted growth, and heart ailment. Last yr my mother and her staff of scientists published the first victorious Progeria healing study, and on the grounds that of this I was interviewed on NPR, and John Hamilton asked me the query: "what’s the predominant thing that people must find out about you?" And my reply used to be quite simply that i have an awfully completely happy life.(Applause) So even though there are numerous limitations in my existence, with plenty of them being created by using Progeria, I do not need men and women to feel unhealthy for me. I don’t consider about these limitations all the time, and i’m able to beat most of them anyway. So Im right here in these days, to share with you my philosophy for a completely happy existence. So, for me, there are three facets to this philosophy. So this is a quote from the noted Ferris Bueller. The primary side to my philosophy is that Im k with what I finally cant do when you consider that there’s so much i can do. Now individuals frequently question me questions like, "Isnt it rough residing with Progeria?" or "What everyday challenges of Progeria do you face?" And identification like to claim that, although i’ve Progeria, most of my time is spent fascinated by matters that don’t have anything to do with Progeria in any respect. Now this doesnt imply that I ignore the terrible facets of those limitations.After I cant do something like run a long distance, or go on an severe roller coaster, i know what Im lacking out on. But alternatively, I decide on to focus on the hobbies that i can do by way of matters that Im passionate about, like scouting, or song, or comedian books, or any of my favorite Boston physical activities groups. Yeah, so — (Laughter) nevertheless, usually I need to in finding an additional solution to do some thing by using making adjustments, and that i wish to put these matters within the "can do" class. Form of like you noticed with the drum prior. So heres a clip with me taking part in Spider-Man with the Foxboro high school Marching Band at halftime a few years in the past. (Video) Spider-Man theme track (Applause) thank you. All proper, all correct, so — That was once lovely cool, and so I was able to accomplish my dream of playing snare drum with the marching band, as I believe i can do for all of my goals.So with a bit of luck, that you would be able to accomplish your desires as good, with this outlook. The next side to my philosophy is that I surround myself with humans I want to be with, individuals of high fine. Im extremely lucky to have an strong family, who’ve normally supported me for the duration of my entire life. And Im also relatively lucky to have a particularly shut team of acquaintances at school. Now had been sort of goofy, a number of us are band geeks, but we quite experience every others organization, and we support each other out once we have got to. We see each different for who we are on the within.So that is us goofing off a little bit. So were juniors in excessive school now, and we will now mentor more youthful band participants, as a single collective unit. What i love about being in a bunch like the band, is that the music that we make together, is right, is actual, and it supersedes Progeria. So I dont have got to worry about that when Im feeling so excellent about making song.But even having made a documentary, going on tv a few occasions, I consider like Im at my easiest point when Im with the folks that encompass me day-to-day. They provide the real positive influences in my existence, as i am hoping i will furnish a optimistic have an impact on in theirs as good. (Applause) thanks. So the bottom line here, is that i’m hoping you respect and love your loved ones, love your pals, for you guys, love you Bros and renowned your mentors, and your neighborhood, considering they are an extraordinarily actual part of every day existence, they can make a real large, confident influence. The 0.33 facet to the philosophy is, preserve moving ahead. Heres a quote by means of a person you can also comprehend, named Walt Disney, and its considered one of my favourite quotes. I at all times attempt to have something to look ahead to. Anything to attempt for to make my lifestyles richer. It doesnt ought to be significant. It might be anything from looking ahead to the following comic publication to return out, or occurring a large family trip, or striking out with my neighbors, to going to the subsequent high college soccer recreation.Nevertheless, all of these things preserve me centered, and comprehend that theres a vibrant future forward, and could get me by means of some complex occasions that I is also having. Now this mentality includes staying in a ahead pondering state of mind. I are attempting hard to not waste vigour feeling badly for myself, considering the fact that after I do, I get stuck in a paradox, the place theres no room for any happiness or every other emotion.Now, its no longer that I ignore when Im feeling badly, I type of receive it, I let it in, so that i can well known it, and do what I have got to do to maneuver previous it. Once I was more youthful, I wanted to be an engineer. I wanted to be an inventor, who would catapult the sector into a greater future. Might be this got here from my love of Legos, and the freedom of expression that I felt once I was constructing with them. And this used to be additionally derived from my family and my mentors, who always make me feel whole, and good about myself. Now at present my ambitions have converted slightly bit, id like to go into the subject of Biology, maybe cellphone biology, or genetics, or biochemistry, or rather some thing.This can be a buddy of mine, who I seem up to, Francis Collins, the director of the NIH, and this is us at TEDMED last year, chatting away. I believe that no matter what I decide upon to turn out to be, I feel that i can change the sector. And as Im striving to vary the arena, I can be blissful. About four years ago, HBO began to film a documentary about my household and me known as life in line with Sam. That used to be a sexy nice expertise, nevertheless it was also 4 years in the past. And like any one, my views on many things have modified, and optimistically matured, like my skills career choice.However, some matters have stayed the equal for the duration of that point. Like my mentality, and philosophy closer to existence. So I wish to exhibit you a clip of my younger self from the film, that I feel embodies that philosophy. (Video) i know extra about it genetically. So its much less of an embodiment now. It used to be like this factor that prevents me from doing all this stuff, that reasons different kids to die, that reasons everybody to be stressed, and now its a protein that is abnormal, that weakens the constitution of cells. So, and it takes a burden off of me considering now I dont must believe about Progeria as an entity. K, beautiful just right, huh? (Applause) thanks.So, as you will see that Ive been pondering this fashion for many years. However identity on no account really needed to apply all of those points of my philosophy to the scan at one time, except final January. I was once pretty unwell, I had a chest bloodless, and that i used to be in the medical institution for a few days, and that i was once secluded from all of the features of my existence that I felt made me, me, that type of gave me my identification. But realizing that I was going to get higher, and watching ahead to a time that i might consider just right once more, helped me to hold moving ahead. And many times I needed to be courageous, and it wasnt perpetually convenient. Sometimes I faltered, I had unhealthy days, but i noticed that being brave isnt imagined to be convenient. And for me, I think its the important thing option to keep relocating forward. So, all in all, I dont waste power feeling dangerous for myself. I encompass myself with people that I want to be with, and that i hold moving ahead. So with this philosophy, i hope that each one of you, despite your barriers, can have an extraordinarily completely satisfied life as well.Oh, wait, dangle on a 2d, one other piece of advice – (Laughter) on no account omit a occasion if that you can aid it. My schools homecoming dance is the next day night time, and that i will be there. Thank you very much. (Applause) .
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