#i also know that this likley going to change zilch - or worse - i will (again) be called *sensitive* *judgemental* or worse names

[isabellehemlock]

I started this post so many times, kept erasing, praying, contemplating, discerning, trying to rise above it but the fact that it still is impacting me this much leads me to believe that maybe it's important to speak up on at least once - maybe there's someone out there who this post is meant to find, someone to feel less alone.

I'm not going to trauma dump, or out my own history on a public blog, and I'll use my "I" statements here but here it goes:

TW: fandom discourse, processing feelings around a non con fic, one mention of the word rape, but non descriptive of the contents of the fic

I am so disheartened to see holy places within my faith used as settings for rape - not even under the premise of maybe some cases being processing some kind of personal trauma through writing - but for insidious purposes, to encourage mocking and cheering as both a sacred space and a person is being desecrated against their will.

I would hope this wouldn't be found acceptable in any faith, in any sacred spaces.

I also realize that in comparison, the bigger and most important issue to address are the patterns of racism and bias that a handful of people have latched onto and felt emboldened to continue for years now - but I am also aware that I should never speak over/for someone with personal experience of racism and wanted to keep the focus of this post on what I can speak on.

#valid critiques on organized religion are one thing #i have had spiritual abuse too and i empathize #but i do not believe this was what that fic was about - not about healing or processing - #it felt like shock value and to tick off as many boxes as possible #some of you have become so desensitized to watching as many people in fandom as possible - #only to churn it into spite events #that you seem to have forgotten - that we can see you too #this is about a tog fandom event - and the third sign in 24hrs i received that i am on the right path . . . out the door #wrapping up some things through the end of the year and that's it i fear #fandom discourse #fandom stuff #mention of: #rape #religion #<- non descriptive but for anyone who needs to filter this post out #i realize this post could likely lead to me being unfollowed or block and I respect whatever boundary someone needs #i also know that this likley going to change zilch - or worse - i will (again) be called *sensitive* *judgemental* or worse names #but that's how important this was to me #i will take the risk #hope for the best