#i actually might make a kinlist now

[thesoleilla]

Hi i'd like to request a matchup, if possible one sperately for bsd, tomodoachi game and mystic messenger. If that doesn't bother u🥺🥺🥺

First thing first,

I'm a daddy and i'm badass. (I'm not 160 cm tall at all by the way i'm definitely... 60FEETS TALL AND SUPER STRONG, WE ALWAYS GET ALONG-)

Plz don't match me with akutagawa or mori from bsd they scawy ;;;;;;;;

I'm also very smart. 800IQ if you ask me. (I say i'm not but i am and sometimes i say i'm not and some other times i say i am but i like to pretend i am so triple confusion? I am probably the only one confused here...no actually i'm pretty sure i confused the whole audiance, yes ,there is an audiance)

I'd like to be matched with someone that can find a house for both of us where the toilet is next to the bedroom, because guess who wakes up every 2 hours or so to do their pee-pee needs? m e-

I DON'T HAVE ANY GENDER PREFFERANCES I WILL DATE WHATEVER THING, EVEN MY BED!

Also um i use any pronouns xP But when i'm Daddy please treat me like one 😏😏

I'm an ENTP and i misstyped my MBTI and thought i was an INFP for 2 whole years. Yick.

My astrological sign is a gemini if that helps

I kin funny suicidal maniac man from bsd and i kin hacker boi from mysme (i'm requesting in anonymous but now with this information... U know who i am, shi-)

Also i am very shy u//w//u

No, but i'm too lazy to use my brain to talk when there's new people around, because i don't know them and i don't know how i'm supposed to talk around them, and i feel lazy so i just don't talk

IDK WHAT TO SAYYYYYYYY

Well u know who i am so whatever

Thx

I put all the matchups in separate posts, I hope that's fine, check the bottom of the post for other fandom matchups <3

I MATCH YOU WITH DAZAI OSAMU

Matchup Masterlist - Matchup rules

 TW: suicide mention in the last paragraph because...Dazai

・★ > From your request (and also from your kinlist, totally not from the fact I've deciphered your identity hahaha), I can tell you two are pretty similar, which, I believe, tends to help in a relationship

  ・★ > He makes fun of your height. Sorry, you probably rock it, but Dazai is Dazai. He'd try to stop if it made you uncomfortable, but to be completely honest, I don't think he'd last long at that.

  ・★ > On the topic of making fun of things, when you were both talking about moving in together, you kept pestering him about your intense peeing needs. Let's just say, he took that information and RAN with it for jokes. I mean, you're so tiny it's proportional for your bladder to be this small! That explains why, when he was putting the furniture for your shared bedroom, your nightstand got replaced with a toilet. To this day, you still haven't managed to remove it.

  ・★ > On a more serious note, this man may have made fun of Kunikkida's journal for his ideals, but the instant he met you he started having one for you. He might not even have realized it, and when you asked him about it, he said it was something the therapist told him to do (the therapist you forced him to see).

  ・★ >In that Journal, he also had guessed your right MBTI before you did. Don't ask how he did it, I don't think he himself knows.

  ・★ > However, he also noticed your introverted moments and he makes sure he makes up for it because when that dude starts to talk there's no stopping. Especially if he's poking fun at something (or someone, most likely you).

  ・★ >When you two met, the whole agency did everything in their power not to let you two be in the same room, as the thought of having to handle both your anthics at the same time made them rethink their life choices. So let's just stay, when you two got together, the agency started shaking in their boots

  ・★ > Strangely enough, Dazai never once tried one of his double s**cide methods with you. When you jokingly asked him about it, he simply said he didn't want to take the risk of a situation where you'd succeed and he'd fail, so he'd rather neither of you try, just in case.

  ・★ > All in all, despite your sometimes weird behaviors, you two make a surprisingly sweet couple <3

Mystic messenger matchup

#match up #bsd #bsd matchup #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bungo sd

[prismaticutie]

Hi guys! I've been posting a lot abt Rasmus lately! So I want to explain how my obsesseion varies between Rasmus and Cyrus

"Is Rasmus going to be the new Cyrus" GOD no.

There will never be a new Cyrus! Cyrus is the one and only Cyrus

If you haven't seen it yet, I have a post explaining what Cyrus is and how integral he is to my everyday functioning. It's a long post, so all you really need to know is he's like if you combined an imaginary friend + fictional other + caretaker all into one and placed him with me 24/7. He's my silly little cy guy and I would die without him <3

Yet I don't post about him as much as you'd expect me to. But I have been talking soooo so muchsies about Rasmus from Omega Strikers

So why is it different? Because! While Cyrus is a fictional character, that's not all he is to me

Cy serves a lot of other functions and purposes within my life. He's been around for a little over a year now (15 months?) and he helps me to be able to live my life in a healthy and successful manner

Rasmus is just a fictional character. He's a really cool one! But that's all he is

It's casual character obsession. Well, casual for me. To anyone else I probably look insane. And I am! But that's for other reasons

If you followed my pokeblog when I was obsessed w Hassel, it's a little like that. Except I think Rasmus is more of a kin type obsession, not like fictional crush (which is what Hassel was)

I don't think that this happens often w me? I can't remember the last character it happened with before Hassel.

Obviously I also have favorite characters. I talk about them more than other characters in a series, but there's a difference between a character being my favorite vs me being obsessed w them

If a character is my favorite, then you will see me post about them regularly. I might spam post them from time to time, but you won't see me going out of my way to talk about them personally. Usually just rb stuffs

If I am obsessing over a character, then I post about them a LOT more, and might even make my OWN posts talking abt them. I'll actively be constantly rbing stuff for them, and generally I'll be a lot more active in sharing my thoughts on them (in tags or otherwise)

The only reason I don't do that w Rasmus is cuz Omega Strikers isn't so super popular so the fanbase isn't massive on here and there's not much to rb

Basically my 3 stages of affinity for a character are:

Favorite - I see them I go 👍 (Spyke, N Harmonia)

Obsession - I am hyper and rabid and if I see them I go ‼‼‼‼‼😀😀😀😀😀😀💥💥💥💥💥💥 (Rasmus, Hassel)

Unequivocal Cyrus Tier - Seeing the character, I have the same reaction as the obsession level but if I think about him I see him I go 😊😊😊😊😚😚😚😚😋😋😋🤪🤨💗💗💗💗💗💗🌟👑(Cyrus)

I could use this to rank all my fav characters that would be fun actually. Unfortunately I do not remember like half of them bc I have no concept of object permanence

Um but since I mentioned Rasmus might be on my kinlist (spoiler alert: he is) if this post gets one like I'll drop my kinlist including characters I'm kinsidering/honorable mentions (I have one mutual who might fight me to the death abt this tho)

#Lumi'z #I don't have a good way to end this post LOL #Also fun fact: 'unequivocal cyrus tier' is a reference to when I made pokemon character tier lists and had to give Cy his own category #Second fun fact: In 10th grade I never properly bothered to read 'permanence' in 'object permanence' #The word looked difficult so I skimmed over it and decided it was pronounced as 'per-me-ance' #I mispronounced it for months before my sisters corrected me #That is not something I usually do w words btw. That is like the only word this has ever happened with after elementary school #I hate how it looks tho it's got too many vowels like whaddya need all those vowels for you vowel hog #The letter e specifically. Ugh. #Anyways hit like if you want me to drop a kinlist !

[delightfuldevin]

Hello, this is an intro post!!

I put my about and stuff in a carrd so I can use it for multiple socials, so here it is:

I'll be posting my art and animations here, as well as any random stuff I like. I'm obsessed with having a tag system, so pretty much every post will be tagged in a consistent way if there is ever anything you'd like to filter. Taglist is here

Oh also, this is not exclusively an NSFW blog, but I may be horny sometimes and it will be tagged #hornytimes. If I post any art, it will also be under a cut. I might make a sideblog if I start getting too horny on main though lmao. Oh, and community labels are a thing now, so I’ll be using those too. (Those weren’t around when I was on Tumblr before)

Anyway, thanks for stopping by ♡ Oh and saying this here, I don’t mind if you spam my notifs!! If you wanna like/reblog multiple posts in a row, it doesn’t annoy me, in fact it makes me happy that you’re enjoying my blog!!

Also, decided to add my “main” F/Os under a cut here! These are the ones you’ll see here the most!! (Might be updated on occasion?)

Romantic:

Bowser (Super Mario)

Pitaya Dragon Cookie (Cookie Run)

Platonic:

King Boo and Princess Daisy (Super Mario/Luigi’s Mansion)

Pearl, Marina, and Big Man (Splatoon)

Roguefort Cookie (Cookie Run)

Queerplatonic:

Rosalina and Princess Peach (Super Mario)

Moonlight Cookie, Raspberry Mousse Cookie, and Shining Glitter Cookie (Cookie Run)

Callie and Shiver (Splatoon)

The Hollow Knight/Pure Vessel (Hollow Knight)

Princess Luna (My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic)

Familial:

Bowser Jr and the Koopalings - kids (Super Mario)

actually all of my kids but there’s a lot of them djfbjshcdv

also all of Bowser’s minions

Luigi - brother (Super Mario)

Rouge the Bat - big sister (Sonic)

Meta Knight - parental-ish figure (Kirby)

Marie - cousin (Splatoon)

The rest are on my carrd! As well as my kinlist!

I can’t share Bowser or any of my kids, but everyone else is okay!!

#pinned intro post #devin speaks #this aint my first rodeo

[tommyssupercoolblog]

10 characters 10 fandoms - tagged by @kiki-strike

this is rlly hard actually oof help me,,, some of these aren't gonna be actual fandoms just things I like because I NEED TO HAVE TEN. No particular order. 1 - Jackieboyman from ALTRVERSE because he's so blorbo LOOK AT HIM GOOOOO also he reminds me of me and also he reminds me of Seán and also he reminds me of spiderman and I like all of those things. He's so silly too!!! silly little man!!! silly littyle guy!!!!!

2 -Zim from invader zim :p funny little guy yells a lot. also though so fucked up mentally like oh my god. something is so wrong with him /pos

3 - Pomni from the Amazing Digital Circus because she's so panicy and blorbo and I want to help her and give her a hug. She's so wet dog you know? She's so big sad eyed. She's so.... just..... *sqeezes her like a stress toy and hugs her and does a little spin going "wheeeee" and wraps her in a towl because she's sopping wet* you knOW??????!!!!

4 - AUDIE FROM ANIMAL CROSSING. SHE'S AN ICON SHE'S A LEGEND SHE'S A BADASS SHE'S A GIRLBOSS SHE'S A POPSTAR SHE'S A TAX FRAUD COMMITING QUEEN WITH A QURKY PERSONALITY AND SHE'S MY BESTIE OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! we commit crimes together we slay together we're so alike and we're so in sync and we're ready to rule the fucking world and do a million concerts forever

5. Karkat from homestuck because he's angey and his name rhymes with kitkat- I can't eat kitkats because of allergies so I live vicariously through his name. and I like his hair and his overal design. Also I like how he's actually v supportive of his friends and smart. short king

6. Rarity from My Little Pony because while Pinkie Pie is defenitely who I'd pick if I was choosing who like, represents me or who I gell with, or maybe rainbow dash & fluttershy for the gelling with/getting along thing (stares at Seán <3), I also rlly appreciate rarity's drama and her artistry and how she's glamorous. I guess there's just a lot of media demonizing femininity and as much as she comes off as prissy to people I've grown to realize that a lot of that is just that she's easily frustrated/upset/angered and also like cares about her appearance, neither of which is like evil or anything. She's actually reminds me of me in that way because I have a short fuse both for crying and deciding to like bite people so like. same girl. She gets a bad rep and I don't think she deserves it. we stan her for that reason. support ur local diva

7. Fizarolli from Helluva Boss because he's the next thing came to my head. don't interact with the fandom at all actually!!! but we watch the show and Fizz is like, pretty pog. he's poggers. I like his design and I like that he's blorbo.

8. Bocchi from bocchi the rock. MECOREMECOREMECORE because of the spiraling and "the world is ending" but then SEÁNCORE SEÁNCORE SO HIMCORE because she's socially anxious and can't talk to people. Both of us see her and go "wow me". our shared kin if we had a kinlist. Holding hands over her.

9. Yui from K-ON. Listen to me listen to me shakes you by the shoulders LISTEN. Literally me. me. ME.

10. OH MY GOD VIRGIL??? ANXIETY???? FROM SANDERS SIDES???? He reminds me of Seán and also he has so much character growth and development over time and I just rlly feel like we as an audience get to know and understand him better than anyone else really so it creates a sense of closeness with the character that like. Of course he's the fan favourite!! not just because he's edgy but also because he's someone people know and can understand as a character really well, can write fics well and make comics well, can see themselves talking to or hanging out with. or arguing with if they wouldn't get along IRL. It's a stacked deck right now I feel like. although,,, roman is so close in that #2 spot so he might just overtake asuming he can both get an actual episode where he breaks down finally and also that I don't end up still picking virgil because "my husband is an anxious emo boy too omg!!!"

yeah um. um. anyway tags are hard and I don't wanna annoy anyone so um I will jus end here :3 but if you WANT to do it and no one's tagged you just say I tagged you and do it, I'll help u out girliepop bestie pogchamp slay king

#i made a textpost

[keyframe-moved]

I think one thing that gets lost in translation for a lot of people trying to figure out if they might be DID/OSDD systems is that it's actually like . Really uncommon for alters to have noticeable differences while fronting even to you. Even online. Like we still aren't super overt in person after being aware of our DID for Years and I'm willing to admit that the fact that we were overt online by the age of like 12 is an outlier (even then we didn't realize it was DID until we were 17 and thought we were just like . Indecisive about our online persona and "kinlist" (fictives those were the fictives))

Systems with florid presentation are rarely created that way and are more a result of coming to terms with yourselves and alters expressing themselves in ways that make them feel safe and happy. If being overt could put you in harm's way or for any reason makes you or your alters uncomfortable you probably will stay very covert, and that's not a bad thing.

DID and OSDD-1a/b are, typically, very covert disorders. Not only is it hard to tell that something is strange because it's likely been happening to you since you were a child, but also the point of the disorder is to hide itself from you. It's a survival mechanism meant to hide your trauma and feelings from yourself so your childhood self could keep going. Don't get so caught up in the overt ways systems on Tumblr express themselves, and first acknowledge that these are mental disorders spurred by trauma, and healing comes first and foremost - you do not owe anyone the fact that you're a system and it does not have to be a thing you have to talk about or put on your carrd if you're uncomfortable talking about it

TL;DR my advice is that if you feel out of place in system Tumblr and start feeling like you're not really a system because of it take a step back and realize that Tumblr systems are only like that because it Works for Them (and sometimes it doesn't and they actually force themselves to be like that which is REALLY unhealthy and can lead to constant splitting). Many systems don't act that way, and if you're just now figuring out that you're a system, you almost definitely don't act that way, and thats not bad. Be patient with yourself and express yourself only in a way that feels right to you

#gold speaks #system stuff #long post ish

[echotunes]

Tubbo quotes

i have so many of these so i figured i might as well make a compilation post

"Hide your baked beans, sassy Thomas is coming"

"I just melt my flesh and bones on a regular basis."

"Bye! It's been nice gaslighting you!"

"Why is Jesus not on famousbirthdays?"

"Phil's a boner"

"TommyInnit is emotionally unstable? POGCHAMP!"

"My brain has abs"

(about the Mona Lisa) "This is Jeff Bezos"

"You know, if Joe Biden was in the UK, I would slap him with a very long eel"

"Sapnap? More like SnapNECK WOO MURDER! YEAH WE'RE GOING TO JAIL"

"If Minecraft characters could piss, d'you reckon we could trident using our piss in the Nether?"

"Oh my god, am I on your kinlist?"

"I'm gonna military coup the UK, who's with me?"

"I'm gonna walk up to Boris and go 'ayup' and shoot him"

(to Ranboo) "One day you'll call me Tubbo in real life and I'll stab you with a knife"

"When does the ye olde lord and saviour come back?"

"GET SWASHBUCKLED YE FIEND"

"BadBoyHalo, will you be my protein powder dealer?"

"Daylight was fading fast and there were CHILDREN WITH KNIVES"

"You're a dick. And that's not a bad thing, if you like dick. Why did I just say that. God, I'm coming up. Actually, for that I'm going down"

"I'm gonna sell my piss back to the grid"

"Step to the side, apricot villain. It is time to bring out the bigger guns, aka me"

(about Technoblade) "I reckon he's a big fan of the ye olde commies"

(to Jack Manifold) "How many bitches you got?"

"I've just realised socks aren't sentient and now I'm quite upset with myself."

(Elmo voice) "What's your favourite colour? Mine is THE RED OF THE COMMUNIST FLAG!"

and a bonus tommy quote that fits the post theme:

"Tubbo is not a hoe, he is so much more than that"

#tubbo #mcyt #tubbo_ #tubbo quotes #echo.txt #mine #tw gaslighting mention #tw gun mention #food mention #text

[smile-files]

hiya! its gta, im just not gonna anon this time. could you please give me a tutorial of how to make a carrd? im a confused mess rn hhhh fghjk

i’ll try!! :]

first of all, go to https://carrd.co/. that’s a given.

i’m not experienced with designing websites from scratch, so i generally choose a starting point to work off of. i suppose it doesn’t matter too much which template you choose; 

the important thing is that the site has buttons of some kind, so one could go between different pages (i recommend clicking on the ‘sectioned’ category of templates for this. my current carrd uses the template second from the top on the right, which you can see a demo of here)

once you’ve chosen a template, you can go from there; underneath each page divider (see the ones titled #work or #about in the dashed lines) is its corresponding page. the page divider tells the website which page is which, so when you click on the button for it, it takes you to the right place.

and more on buttons - you might not see the buttons straight away, even though in the demo they were right underneath the text. this is because they’re sectioned off to a footer beneath the text (scroll all the way down to see them); this makes it so no matter which page of your carrd you’re on, those buttons will appear below everything else. 

to make it easier for yourself to move around on your page, you’ll want to label your buttons how you want them. click on the buttons to be able to change them -  when you click on ‘home’ in the menu on the left, for example, you’ll see how the label is ‘home’ and the url is ‘#home’. that url links to its corresponding divider - so clicking on the home button, one your site is up and running, would bring you to the page under the ‘#home’ divider. for a button to work, your buttons’ urls have to match those of the dividers (otherwise, your button can’t take you anywhere!)

let’s say you want 5 pages to your carrd: the main page, an about section, a section on some of your interests, a section on kins, and a section with your contacts. but there are only 4 buttons, and thus only 4 page dividers! how do you add another? good question! you see that little + button on the menu at the top? click the button labeled ‘# control’ to add a page divider. it will automatically go to the bottom of the site, so you should drag and drop it to where you want your next page to be. then you can change the name of that page using the ‘name’ section of the menu - it should be labeled as something like ‘section05′ as default, but you can change that label, which is the section’s url, to anything you want. you can change any existing page dividers’ names to whatever you want as well, so they match what you need!

but remember, if you’re changing the urls of the page dividers, remember to also change the buttons’ urls to match. now that you’ve added a new page section to your site, you’re gonna want to add a button for it, so you can access it! to do that, click on your buttons, go to the menu and click ‘add’ to add a button. now you can change the url to the url of your new page divider and change the label to whatever you want! (note: you can see all of your urls by clicking the little ‘#’ button on the top menu)

once you have every page sectioned off for your site, it’s time for the fun part - adding images and text! basically everything you add is through the + button on the top menu. there are a variety of things you can add to make your site great!

most things automatically show up below the footer once you’ve created them, so you’ll need to drag and drop to where you want it to go. 

for text, you’ll automatically see a text box in the left menu. there is where you type the text you want to add. but if you want to change the color, font, or any other cosmetic change, then click the button that looks like a paintbrush on the top of the left menu. that button is for appearances (the button you were on before has a big letter ‘a’ on it). 

do you want all the text on your site to be the same color, font, and size? it would be annoying to set all of that manually. but fear not, as you can set a style! first choose an appearance for your current text. i’m setting my text to a nice pink, with a poppins font, size 2 weight, etc. i want all my text to look the same way, so once i’ve set my current text, i click on the dropdown menu next to the word ‘appearance’ on the left menu; it should say something like (none) on it. 

once you’ve clicked, you can press ‘add style’ - the current appearance of your text is saved, so if you want to have any other text you have look like it, go into the appearance tab of that text, click the same dropdown menu and click the style you just made (it is automatically titled ‘new style’, but you can choose the little pencil button to change the name if you want) to have your new text have the same style! 

styles can also be used for elements like images - i actually recommend setting the appearance to the image before you upload it, in some cases; you want to make sure that you won’t have to crop the image to fit, let’s say a circle, if you didn’t want your image to be a circle in the first place. but, of course, you can still edit the appearance after you’ve uploaded. you can add corner rounding, or change the height, etc. if you want all of your images to have the same format (the same shape, for example), you can set a style for it as well.

one thing that took me a while to find out is to have two columns of images next to each other! if you’re like me, with my cringy ol’ kinlists, you don’t want to have a single trailing column of images going down your page; it’s very inefficient. to add columns, you’ll have to add a new kind of element - a container!

click the + button and click ‘container’ (the icon should be a little box). you can use containers for other things, but i use them for images. there should be a dropdown menu for ‘type’ on the left menu, and there you should choose ‘columns’; you should see a box with two little boxes inside, each one with the label ‘empty’. you can drag anything into these boxes really, even text, but i find them most useful for images. 

to add a row beneath, just drag whatever image you want to below one of the images in the top row - when you drag it, there should be a little teal line under the image you’re placing it beneath. 

want 3 columns instead of 2? how about 4 columns? click on the container (try not to click on one of the things inside, click on the space around) and click ‘add’ on the left menu; now there should be 3 columns. you can always add more if you like! you can also change the width of the column - maybe the left column is 75% wide while the right column is only 25% wide! you can keep them even or change them up. you also have the choice to set a column as a ‘spacer only’, which means that the column is filled with empty space and is just used as a way to format the other column.

you’ll also want to change the looks of the page and the background, as well! you might not be able to see the difference between them at first; as a rule of thumb, make sure you’re selecting the right element on your page by seeing the text on the outside of the little teal box that’s around whatever your mouse is hovering over - when over text, it says text, and image says image, etc. you can see where the page is by hovering outside of the elements and seeing what the selection text says; once you know where the page is, the background is everything outside of it.

the page is like a big platform on which your site goes - all of your different sections and elements, etc. you can choose where it’s positioned, its size, how much of the tab it takes up, color, gradient, corner rounding - you can even choose a pattern to add to it, like stripes, noise, or a grid!

the background, which is everything behind the page, can be set to a color, gradient, image, video, or slideshow! do whatever you want with it.

and yeah! there are lots of things you can do with your site to make it look just how you want it and to personalize it to you - and don’t be afraid to look things up to learn how to add even more! (i learned about adding columns for images with a quick google search when i was making my own carrd!)

once you’re done, click on the save button on the top menu (it looks like a floppy disk, not like anyone knows what that is nowadays. it’s the button next to the phone). if you don’t have a carrd account, it will ask you to make one with your email - this is so you can save your carrd! agree to the terms of service, you get the drill. 

then give your carrd a simple title and description! once you do, you can choose whether you want to publish your site now or save it as a draft to your account. if you do want to publish, choose a name for your site that fits the contents! for example, my botanica info carrd is appropriately titled botanica.carrd.co (as ‘botanica’ is what it’s about! note: that carrd is super outdated now...) 

whenever your ready, you can publish your carrd! then you can link it in your tumblr description, on your pinned post, or wherever else everyone can see it! 

this probably isn’t much, but i hope it helped anyway! have an amazing day, bud!  :]

#melonposting #extreme melonposting #jacksterisgxy

[trenderpirate]

i sipped the transtrender koolaid,,,

guess im here now, one little gulp of that sweet sweet neoncore drink and suddenly im a trender. 9th grade tru/scum me quivers as i stand like 3 feet taller than him radiating self love like he never had.

i’m shane! though i go by a million names, that’s the one i’ll probably go by most on here- unless i shift out, then i guess it’ll change. that’s the name i’ll be going by now, that’s better put. i also use mostly he/him pronouns, but literally use whatever you want. she/her? fine. they/them? awesome. any neopronoun? hell yeah. i also really like ⭐️/⭐️s pronouns so those are awesome too.

i’m a senior in high school, i like art, i write and sing and draw (and am thinking about making and selling pins!). i am a Minor, keep that in mind. i’m bisexual, and taken by my boyfriend who i’ll probably just refer to as “angel”. i am polyamorous but like,, not interested.

i collect names and pronouns cause i think they’re both bonkers and for fun. i might make a name and pronouns list at some point, just to point out specific ones i’ve used or enjoyed in the past and present. i am also a part of a system, so sometimes my name and pronouns will change as a part of who’s shifting.

when i was first introduced to the “trans dis/course” i was like,, 13? and i totally didn’t get it, i was like “so what there are bigger issues let people live right” and so basically i was a tucute without knowing what that meant. then at like 14, i met some “friends” who were big tru/scums and i was like “guess im that” and then that wad a bad time and now im like “back on my Actual Beliefs” and here i am!

i am a system of 7 identifiable headmates, not including the host/body, a few of which i will refer to only with initials for privacy reasons - L, B, Beelzebub (Beelz) (fictive, Good Omens), Ashton, Aussie, Diego (fictive, The Umbrella Academy), and Shane (factive, message to know more about). depending on the shift or who is fronting most, my experience with gender and pronouns will likely change.

i also kin, sometimes this relates to my system sometimes it doesn’t, and i love meeting other kins! this is a big part of my identity but it is not something that i rely on or am encompassed by. if you want, i can post a kinlist sometime!

well, there’s my introduction to the trendercore community! i don’t really fit the “trender” stereotype, but i love the self love and positivity surrounding this community and i’m drawn to it, and therefore here i am. i love you all thank you very much for making a community like this!!

#(shane) #trendercore #trenderpunk #trenderscene #trender positivity #transtrender #mogai #mogai heaven #introduction #intro #otherkin #fictionkin #system #fictive

[digitalfootprxnt]

August 21st, 2021

Good afternoon! As simple as it sounds today I would like to talk about the killer grilled cheese I had this afternoon for lunch. I really don’t have more to say but it was really good and it made me happy. I’m currently listening to this playlist, particularly snow globe by waterparks, I have to say Greatest Hits is such a good album, I think it’s some of their best work. Now, Entertainment will always be my very favorite, for me there will never be another Entertainment, which is okay. Greatest Hits has more diverse sound, but the simplicity of Entertainment, along with the lyrics make it something else. I also saw parx in person during the Entertainment tour in 2018, and it was probably one of may all time favorite shows that I’ve been to so far. Here is Awsten Knight:

If things go well I might actually go see them again in November, with my s/o, which honestly I have never been so excited for a show in my life. I’ve never had a band excite me the way parx does, the music just flows through my body and it is like an ethereal experience for me. My all time favorite parx song is Sleep Alone, it’s just one of those songs for me. You know what I mean? Anyways, I haven’t really drawn much today, I’ve been playing World of Warcraft all day on and off.

  World of Warcraft is another one of those things  for me. I’ve been playing it since I was in the 5th grade and I have a few characters who will show proof of that. I have five characters that I main. There’s Elariliamue, a blood elf hunter who will beat you up. There’s Tyreliria, a night elf druid with pink hair and a loveable face. There’s Marbargeret, a human paladin and my very first character. There’s Jancilythel, a human mage with no spec commitment. And finally, there’s Rilerina, a blood elf warlock who is Elariliamue sister in cannon. All of my characters have some significance to me in one way or another, for example, Rilerina (who I prefer to just call Rina) is a character who’s story is heavily influenced by my mania. Tyreliria is my euphoric manic episodes, Elariliamue is influenced by my depressive phases, and Jancilythel is representative of my fears. Obvi other characters have other things, Marb is a manifesto of my fear of growing up, I hold her so close for that reason, and other characters, like Amrae, a blood elf mage/puppeteer who has had a hell of a time since she lost her arms, she represents my need for control. I’ve been putting my emotions into characters for a long time, it’s like a coping mechanism of sorts. Onto my gameplay though, today it was a tossup between Jancilythel and Elariliamue. I finally got to starting the Venthyr convent quests, which is great because partying with vampires is a vibe. I love it.

I also worked on getting Elariliamue closer to completing the next set of campaign questing in Korthia. It’ll probably take a while, seeing as I completely stopped playing games a while ago to focus on art and solitaire. I won’t go on about that though, it’s kinda boring to talk about so ig I should go ahead and sign off for the time being.

Here’s a link to my kinlist (and click this for my image board where I find the weirdest shit and save it) 

have a good weekend y’all

Kendall<3

[tylerwritez]

Monday June 28

Morning update:

Oh my god.

I was packing my stuff for the big move after my parents divorce and I found an old prayer thingy.

It said:

"Dear Jesus,

Thank you for the music and the trees and my friends and family, and for the time to really look around the world with colorful skies that are so beautiful, the whole world is beautful and in balance and natural and that is how I'm gonna be. I dont want this to be a temporary, spur of the moment thing. I understand now. I realize that it's not the world that's ugly, but the sin that plagues it. I understand what He wants now. I'm sorry, God. I'm sorry, Jesus. I know I'll go to hell no matter what I do but I might as well try to live a holy life.

I understand.

But then, why all these STRONG feeling? Please, you gotta help me through that.

He made us to serve him. I understand that. Give me the strength to serve you, please. I'm so weak.

Sincerely,

Jude"

I felt so angry cos of it. Once I saw all that shit about "serving Him" I immediately ripped it up in RAGE, just blind rage.

I was just a fuCKING CHILD. HOW COULD THEY DO THAT TO ME???

8:50 p.m. update: HOLY SHIT OUCH ON MY WAY HOME I HIT A SIGNPOST COS I WASNT PAYING ATTENTION AND IT RAMMED THE HANDLEBAR OF MY BIKE RIGHT INTO MY DICK JESUS CHRIST IT HURTS GODDAMN

12:38 a.m. update:

Okay so you maybe noticed that today's entries arent really organized and that's cos I've been BUSYyyy

I'm gonna add Litten the pokemon to my kinlist also Piplup

Anyways today I went out with my friends. My dad was mad at me cos my room was all messy cos I'M PACKING MY STUFF TO MOVE?? idk what he expected my room to look like. So anwyays I left the house, me and Erin and Elle, who I'll now be calling Eden because its weird to keep using Elle for reaosns I wont describe...me and Erin and Elle went to the library and I checked out some mangas. I checked out volumes 1-2 of , , and volume 1 of

Then we went to Safeway cos it was too hot to be outside and it was another place with free A/C that was nearby. I stole some Stevia and probably other stuff that I can't recall right now.

We ate sugar cookies (those nice crumbly processed ones with icing on top) at the park, then I went home for supper.

After that i met them at the park and we biked to this Ravine area with like trees and water and a bridge and shit and we were looking for Hagstones which are rocks in the water that get holes worn into them. It's for protection from Jordan's hexes.

We found loads of nasty bugs... but no hagstones. Also the thornbushes scratched up my legs, the bugs bit me up, and the water was sorta nasty and I went on hands and knees in it looking for those rocks XD.

I had fun but it was quite uncomfortable with all the HEAT and bugs.

I got home then and idk not much happened.

I've been eating fruit instead of my usual snack foods and i think its helpful.

1:06 a.m. update:

... I feel like I'm going to cry.

I saw a post about families and now I'm upset because I... I see this shit and I feel like I'm 10 or younger even... all over again. It all comes back to me. The reason I cry at night so often... the reaosn I cant tell reality from shit my brain made up. The reaosn i need therapy and the reason i feel so TORTURED AND IN PAIN...

All I ever needed as a child was love and support and I didnt fucking get that so now any posts about happy families make me feel sad. Especially if they have a kid who is "difficult" in some way... like how I was... who still gets treated well.

Fuck man. I wasnt difficult, I had emotions. I wasnt difficult, I needed extra help. I wasnt difficult, I was trans.

I WASNT DIFFICULT... I DIDNT DESERVE TO BE ABANDONED THE WAY I WAS. holy shit. I was just a child like any other. Literally all I needed was love and support.

Fuck my parents. Now I feel like I've missed out on like... a whole childhood... as myself. Instead I spent it being who you wanted me to be to avoid your wrath.

I'm so sad.

And its cos you saw a fucking child telling you he was in pain and punished him.

I was so young.

Jay keeps misgendering me... he just referred to me as my father's daughter. OH MY GOD... I GET IT! I UNDERSTAND! I GET IT. I DON'T PASS. I GET IT, I LOOK LIKE A GIRL... I GET IT, YOU'VE SEEN ME NAKED. I UNDERSTAND.... I understand that your mind doesn't see me as male... but please. PleAse make some fucking effort. please. cos it actually hurts me to be misgendered cis people could never understand. Fuck man, cis people could never undertsand the shit we go through and I feel upset now because no matter how well intentioned he is... he just doesnt seem to Get It.... or like..I DONT KNOW! IS HE EVEN TRYING?

Like. No matter what I look like, I'm still a guy. I'm no ones daughter.

Sorry. I know I'm being rude about this and I should have more patience.

I'm just sort of upset. Why can't he see me?

Fuck man, NOBODY can see me. I'll never be seen. Cos this isn't fucking me but it never will be.

I hate this. So much. I want to RIP OFF ALL MY FLESH. WHY HAVE I GOTTA BE BORN THIS WAY HOLY FUCK HOLY SHIT WHY CAN'T I JUST BE FUCKING NORMAL GODDAMN IT I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS FUCK GOD I HATE GOD FUCK GOD ILL KILL GOD IF I EVER FLOAT UP TO HEAVEN IM GOING TO LITERSLLY FUCKING KILL GOD ILL CLAW MY WAY UP FROM HELL TO KILL THAT MOTHERFUCKER FOR DOING THIS TO ME

LIKE HOLY SHIT MY CHEST??? HAS JUST GOT THIS STUFF ON IT AND ITS MAKINF ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE I WANT TO PERFORM SURGERY ON MY OWN SELF.

3:30 a.m. update:

Oh btw one of my friends says their friend had a crush on me in junior high 👀

Idk man its fukcing 3 30 I'm just on my phone. Soon l get off, piss and sleep.

Total calorie intake today was 979 cals.

Goodnight

#JudeJournals

[kinsitivity]

Unhealthy Kinning

I’ve been in the kinmunity for about 3 years now, and this is something I just don’t see discussed enough. It’s sort of hard to talk about, since nobody wants to invalidate fellow kin or try to tell them they’re kinning “wrong.”

I thought that it was important to make a post like this to help people who might have unhealthy kintypes in knowing how to recognize when their kins aren’t healthy and how to deal with the situation. Forgive me in advance if I say anything offensive or out of line, feel free to correct me if I messed up!

More below the cut so I don’t clog everyone’s dashes with a long post.

1) What is Unhealthy Kinning?

Unhealthy kinning is having a kintype (it can be fictionkin, therian, otherkin, etc.) that generally worsens their mental or emotional state, or brings any type of harm to them.

Examples of unhealthy kinning:

-Kins that make you feel worse about yourself (“I’m not as good/smart/attractive as my kintype therefore I’m bad/unintelligent/ugly,” “I did bad things as that kin so I don’t deserve to be happy now”) -Starting to do dangerous or harmful activities (like self harm, impulsive behavior, reckless risk-taking, trying to unhealthily lose or gain weight) to try and feel closer to your kin -Kintypes that begin or worsen thoughts of suicide and self harm -Basically, any kin that has made you feel worse or has put you at risk since you began kinning with it

I’ll use myself as an example: I kin with Sherlock Holmes from the BBC adaptation. After discovering the kintype, I found it worsened my self-loathing: basically, I was convincing myself I couldn’t do anything right or be worth anything because I’m not a literal genius. (Harsh, right?)

2) How do I cope with having unhealthy kins?

Admittedly, my first instinct was “this is fine, I’ll just ignore it, I don’t deserve good things anyways,” and that kind of stuff. Clearly, that’s not gonna work. Though there are actual coping mechanisms that can help:

    1) Focus on the positive sides of your kin. This might help if the problem is that your kin did bad things in the past and you feel like you should suffer for it. Try to focus on the positive traits of your kin. Is your kin loyal? Strong? Self confident? Or, you can try to see what bad qualities you had as that kin but have improved on since!

    2) If you’re feeling like you’re not enough like your kin, try finding minor traits you share, or pick up a healthy hobby from them! Similarities can be as small as “we have the same favorite color,” “we both like winter,” “our middle names begin with the same letter.” Or you can try to pick something up! Avoid unhealthy activities, like going into dangerous places (the woods at night, around wild animals...), taking high-stakes risks, drugs/alcohol (do what you want if you’re of age just be careful about growing depenence, addiction, and long-term effects), stuff like that. Learning to play an instrument your kin plays, exploring a woodsy park, going to the beach, listening to music/soundtracks/nature-y white noise, learning a language your kin speaks, or playing sports or video games that remind you of your kin are a few examples of healthy things you can do to feel closer.

    3) Encouragement from kin friends! I’m not saying that you should depend on your friends for your happiness, of course, but having friend with similar kintypes/from the same canon source who you can share memories with (good or bad) and vent to about Kin Problems™ can help! Plus, just knowing that people who know your kin care about you is nice.

    4) Try using your kin(s) for coping. Back to the example of myself- I ended up being able to use my Sherlock kin to cope with emotional overloads/emotional shutdowns, self esteem problems (we both have shitty self esteems!! Yaaaay *slightly disappointed applause*), plus more. If you have multiple kins, you can use one of the others for coping as well! Or, you could always make a copinglink.

    5) Avoid shifts for that kin when you know you’re having a rough time. If you have other kintypes and have different kinshifts, then you can try intentionally shifting into another kin when you feel a shift for one that you know will be unhealthy in the situation you’re in. You can even avoid shifts all together if needed. Shifts can be intentionally caused by listening to canon source soundtrack, general music/playlists that remind you of your kin (8tracks!) doing (safe and healthy!!) things that remind you of your kin, and rewatching/reading/etc. your canon source if you’re fictionkin.

    6) Dropping the kin. This is pretty hard to do, it only works for some people in some circumstances. While it’s not exactly possible to just stop being kin with something, you can essentially ignore the kin, if you need to. Take it off your kinlist, avoid shifts, try to focus on other kins, if you have more. Like I said, this only works occasionally. If dropping a kin makes you evem more miserable, it’s not the best option.

I know this came out kind of lengthy and rambly, but I hope it ends up being helpful to some people!

-Mod Cecil<3

#otherkin #fictionkin #therian #kin advice #kinmunity #self harm mention // #suicide mention // #drug mention // #alcohol mention // #substance abuse mention //