#hopefully nothing OOC

[soosoosoup]

John Dory and Branch

#dreamworks trolls #trolls #trolls branch #trolls john dory #never too big for your biggest bro #I like to imagine that they can find solace in eachother about some things that others might not fully understand/connect with. #like loss or regrets #got some headcanons about these two #nothing too dramtic really lol #this piece is fueled by some overanalyzing and great fics #uh hopefully this isn't too ooc in drama #here's the other piece! #trolls fanart #excuse the messiness #my art <3

[yngai]

well, with any luck, one of the seventeen different resident evil games rumored to be currently in development is announced today

#* file // : OOC — ( 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐄 . ) #and maybe that'll get me back into being on here sorry for another impromptu hiatus i guess i'm very famous for those #it's truly just been nothing but destiny 2 for me and it's only getting worse in like 5 days #of those ressie games four are remakes and one of them is for fucking resident evil zero? #that'd be such a strange release after RE4R teased RE5R like no tomorrow removing ada's ending monolog and putting a wesker scene there #code veronica i sorta get cause the remake timeline is very barebones and is too heavily reliant on knowledge and build up from the OG #like how we have no idea how or why ada is working for wesker in RE4R which is explained very well in the RE4 #so you'd need to set up chris and wesker before RE5R with code veronica and also fix its shitty level design #but zero? really? hopefully we get 9 before any more remakes #also silent hill transmission later on ooo how exciting

[spyderdust]

hi i've been playing stardew and doing literally nothing else

#* ooc: let's go lesbains! #i'll get to messages and hopefully some replies in a min #i've literally been thinking about rad//iodust and nothing else for like. two days #i also came up with most of angel's life when he was alive oop

[maimedaffair]

blah blah blah too much zofran can cause severe constipation and long QT intervals and serotonin syndrome blah blah blah give me the miracle nausea medicine.

#god its a life saver tho frfr #everything has been going good surgery wise !! finally figured out i was taking too big of bites / sips so i adjusted and im doing better #i cannot get this one stitch to heal tho. it hURTS. but no other symptom other than pain ?? so i dont think i damaged it or anything #idk i see my surgeon again tomorrow so ill show him. hopefully nothing bad. just ouchies. #˖ ࣪ . ⊹ ooc

[piningpercussionist]

"Ramona's hair feels like straw, it's burnt to a crisp from years of frying it with dye" or "Ramona is literally magic, her hair is the most softest?"

*Kim thinks for a moment, looking away with a slight blush.*

... Magic. I'm going to go with magic. Her hair is ridiculously soft for how often I've seen her strut in with some new color I could swear I've never seen before.

It's either some perk she has or it's something to do with the brand she uses, maybe, I'm not sure. It's kind of crazy, honestly.

*Kim leans back in her chair and runs a hand through her hair, trying to keep her expression neutral as she loses herself in thought. She's mostly successful, save for her increasingly reddened face.*

#(ooc: gay gay homosexual gay) #(ooc: legitimately though I feel like the SP universe has to have something going on either w ramona specifically or hair dye as an + #+ item because with how often she dyes it in SPTO there is Simply No Way her hair would be okay. ya know?) #(ooc: so team magic hair/dye. this applies to all my kim blogs thus far- though do feel free to posit this to any of them as well) #(ooc: also hopefully i still do it but im totally editing a blush onto one of my kim panels for this hang on) #pine.txt #asks #anon #rp #kim pine #sp comic #spvtwtg #spto #spvtw #ramona flowers #kimona #(not putting this under ship stuff because this is a Nebulous Future ask.) #(“what does that mean?” you nervously ask. i simply :) at you and reveal nothing more.) #(ooc: woo okay. i didnt want to leave this sitting forever making a full fledged edit so. minor changes and lines for one!) #(ooc: mayhaps i will return and make it full-fledged some other time) #? #(might need a new tag for when i do this stuff if im bringing it here for real too idk. i dont remember what i did last time)

[missallanea-a]

work is absolutely exhausting me but today my manager gave all of us little bags of chocolates from the hand-pick case ( our store doesn't have one, since we're a pop up ) from her home store as a thank you for our hard work and I almost burst into tears.

#❮ missallanea / ooc ❯ ━━ ❝ probably listening to a musical on repeat . #/ after giving my everything to a job that just totally threw me aside like nothing #/ being appreciated for the work I do is so wild #/ so yeah I get to eat some fancy chocolate tonight ;w; #/ hopefully it'll help me get some replies done >3 #/ *meant to post this ~before~ that verbal vomit of an ashiok reply but WHOOPS here we are

[sensesdialed]

can i talk about how much being around other spider people would mean to peter after he's been so incredibly lonely post-nwh. can i talk about it

#i say this like i have very coherent thoughts BUT #it's just so good... #through ALL the pain and grief and complete uprooting of his life that he had to put together again all alone... the knowledge #that there were just TWO people who understood him and hopefully remember him... who Helped him #in a way nobody else ever could. it means SO much to him. it sticks with him.. you can see it in the way he incorporates them #into his new suit... so to have a chance like that AGAIN to be seen. known. understood... #after not being able to talk with ANYONE about SO MUCH for? at least a few months probably but after going through #so much it's gonna feel like forever anyway... #the idea of it makes me so 🥺 idk #yes haha funny he's the guy who almost broke the multiverse he's gonna be annoying and stubborn #but also /spider people understanding each other/... makes him feel a little less lonely... #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

[primordyalsoul]

tried to get my mitts on the first p.jo book from the library only to find everyone's got it on hold

#ooc; onion girl enthusiast #((i'm not surprised tbh but i was still like damn 😭)) #((i shall simply wait)) #((also sorry i've been a little quiet! the mental health is not mental healthing and also i'm still getting some assignments done)) #((january is always my most beloathed month i swear nothing good ever comes of it 😭 )) #((but hopefully i shall be around soon! likely during next week))

[ofhope-a]

THE LONG-AWAITED KANJI TATSUMI POST, aka --

Let's start, firstly, with Kanji's own words:

IMPORTANT: this will touch on real world homophobia, particularly the sort that ran rampant in the early 2000's / 2010's, which translates into the game, as well. Please tread carefully.

The main theme throughout Kanji Tatsumi's Palace is his struggles regarding sexuality, or more accurately, how he must be one "side" or the "other." Kanji's Shadow self, while partially reflecting the tone-deaf nature of how sexuality was interpreted back in the early 2000's, is showcasing a Kanji that is more comfortable, more out with his sexuality... a part of him in which he doesn't identify.

"Accept me for who I am!"

"Can't believe something like this was inside me."

A major part of Kanji's punkish persona stems from this battle. "Feminine hobbies," while thankfully not categorized as such much now-a-days, were regarded as just that: feminine, something men shouldn't enjoy. Kanji, as I've discussed previously, partakes in many such hobbies, an enjoyment which makes students gossip and file him into a category in which he doesn't, he feels, belong. One of Shadow Kanji's main arguments is that girls belittle him, whereas men are less judgmental -- however, I feel that his Shadow took this mentality to an extreme.

"They cry if you get angry, they gossip behind your back, they spread nasty lies... they look at me like I'm some disgusting thing and look at me like I'm a weirdo!"

"But you're a guy! You don't act like a guy! Why aren't you manly?!"

"What does it mean to be a guy? What does it mean to be manly?"

Kanji, I feel, has the experience of most male-identifying individuals in the early 2000's: to cry is to be weak, and to share your emotions is to equate yourself with a "girl," a sentiment which then had negative connotations. Kanji's father died whenever he was very young, and his mother is what influenced him most... something that, unfortunately, would be picked apart in school. With this in mind, Kanji compensated by being every definition of manly he could find: being tough, starting fights, never showing his emotions.

But there were times he would slip. Where he would bring up the fact that he could sew or knit, and his peers would tear him apart for it, because they were "right"; this is to say, Kanji has been torn between multiple sides for many, many years, and this extends toward his sexuality as well.

We first meet Kanji whenever he is meeting with Naoto. To avoid delving in too deep, it is hinted - and shown - that Kanji has a visible crush on Naoto, who at the time is known as the Detective Prince. Later, whenever this is shown to be the opposite, Kanji... has little of a reaction. He doesn't sigh in relief because he "actually is straight all along!" - he's beginning to connect the dots, that he liked Naoto before, and that he likes Naoto now. That is to say, he liked it whenever Naoto represented as a male, and likes Naoto now that she represents as a girl, too. We can see this struggle plainly before the beauty contest:

"If you do, my doubts will finally be cleared" -- this, to me, comes across as desperation: he wants to be straight. He wants his Shadow self to be wrong, because being gay just doesn't ring a bell with him. Neither does being straight. It doesn't fit him, and he only knows two options: either to be straight... or not be straight.

He is shown to be relieved during the beauty contest, by quietly proclaiming how pretty each contestant is, and whenever Naoto doesn't show up for the final part, he is... quiet. That doubt is creeping in again, and he doesn't know how to grow comfortable with it.

The hard, and unfortunate truth, of Kanji's whole story is that he was born at a time where the term bisexual was treated as a naughty word. It wasn't acknowledged, and many people refused to accept that it existed. Kanji's Social Link ties directly into this struggle, with him making a child a doll, and instead of being chastised for it... the boy thanks him. He doesn't bully him, or ask why a boy is knitting a doll. And Kanji, in turn, doesn't question why a boy would want a plush.

Throughout these exchanges, Kanji grows more and more comfortable with himself:

Because... Kanji knows that his Shadow Self is a part of him. Maybe not to the extremes it portrays, but it is a part of him... and a part of him likes men, as well as women. He likes someone no matter their gender. He realizes, slowly, that he appreciates them all the same, as shown most literally shown with Naoto. Slowly, rank by rank, Kanji opens up: that his strength was used as a cover-up for his knitting, that he thought by being tough nobody would care about his other hobbies. That, while he identified with being tough, he didn't like how it was used: to indicate someone that couldn't possibly like the things that he liked. He didn't identify with that, and he didn't identify with liking everything the "other half" of him had to give, either.

So, at the end... Kanji learns that he doesn't have to pick a "side"; that he just has to be himself, and this self... is who he is, and who he wants to be, and who he is proud to be, at a time where bisexuality wasn't spoken of.

#homophobia mention #tbd. #Maybe? #specific ooc tag. #I tried to cover this as sensitively and as precisely as I could; so hopefully it's okay. #While I do believe Atlus... were probably being homophobic tbh; I do think Kanji's struggles with his sexuality are compelling #and I think it showed well how... awful people were then [and still are to this day]; and how such things can tear you between wanting this #and wanting that. The saddest truth there is that there's LOTS of people - actual people - with a struggle similar to Kanji's #They were raised during a time where men couldn't be emotional. And women couldn't like 'boy' things. #And you were either straight or gay; either a man or a woman; there was nothing outside of that or in-between. #Thankfully we're doing away with that year by year. But I felt like with his story it was important to emphasize how it was #during the early 2010's / earlier than that. #Yada yada. I'll write now.

[dragetunge]

Im proud of myself getting my drafts and inbox done.

#🔥▓◤out of dragon nip: ooc post◥ #its all in queue too so hopefully nothing gets eaten

[stillresolved]

hiatus.

don't know how long it'll be but i'd also like to use that time (when i have the energy) to focus on writing new bios and maybe catch up on some drafts too. i'll be semi-available probably via discord and i'll try to get back to new mutuals and their messages then :3

also me @ my real life: you know when i said i wanted my life to be a tad more exciting, i didn't mean it like that 🙃🙃🙃

#ferre said something i hope it was dumb ( ooc. ) #i feel like i haven't able to quite rest well but uh :/// hopefully i can get back to that sooner or later #don't worry it's nothing that i can't carry or handle #it's just....a lot. in multiple ways :// #and also tiring. thinking about rp hasn't been a priority for a bit #which makes me sad but also i'm trying!! to be less...rigid about this? #which technically means i don't think me making this hiatus post is actually necessary but u know :/ #i like kind of keeping ppl in the loop #so yeah taking a step back to update my blog and also try to get back some enthusiasm as well

[lighthouseborn]

fellow "holiday season is complicated for grief reasons" kids wya? how r u doin this year? ilu. i've got a ten year dead parent membership card if you want to come cry about it being year two or year one or year six and a half or something/anything, i got you, i know ♥

#i have. been less Intensely Christmas Sad but more conscious of a future anniversary so i'm sort of #idling in a very nostalgic but not inherently evil spaced-out sort of space lately #''hannah does it get easier?'' It jumps around year to year. Nothing seems to correlate to this but some years it's really hard and #the only thing I could really think about was them not being there/missing out. Some years you hang a stocking and set a place at the table #and it's fine. #Year two was awful. Year 7 also very bad. A few in between were pretty okay. #Last year I was really angry in a righteous fury kind of way and I fought for all our older traditions like I WILL ENJOY THIS ;dlksjfg;sldl #hopefully obviously this doesn't just have to be about parents that's just. that's the short stick i got i'm blowing you kisses regardless #and yes also if you are not awash with christmas grief you also get kisses i promise #genuinely about to haul off & start biting ( ooc. ) #loss tw #grief tw #it's an olive branch but still

[abrushwithdeath]

((Hello! Spring Break started yesterday and goes through until the 8th! So, aside from a few days where I won't be home a lot and trying to get caught up again on housework and such, I'm gonna try to be here a little bit. I might be bopping back and forth between this blog and Cass's. I'm gonna start with a focus on shorter replies to get back into things, I think? Then I'll see about getting to longer format stuff again :)

If anyone wants memes sent their way while I'm here or a one to two line starter to get things back in motion, just message me or leave a comment here letting me know which you want and I'll get it done today <3))

#ooc. #((I'll get it done today ASSUMING THAT NOTHING RANDOM INTERRUPTS MY WRITING. #I'm adding that because otherwise something WILL happen and then I'll feel guilty.)) #((Also- I shouldn't be working second shift as often anymore which *hopefully* means a bit more time for writing #even when I'm back at work!))

[hellsbroadcaster]

I've kind of had bleh day, and struggling to focus on anything so imma try again tomorrow fnkdslfndsl

#⌜off the air⌟ . // ooc #i need to edit this part #ill do that before i get on here #hopefully it doesnt take me too lon #but right now i just keep staring at the screen and nothing is happening sobs

[reginrokkr]

Guess who has to do three exams next week instead of being reasonable and do one on this one (since we haven't any) and two on the next week just because most of the classmates are lazy.

#◟༺✦༻◞ what lays behind the mantle of faux stars ┊ooc.┊ #suffice to say it's going to be more work that way #to prepare them #as the following week after that #it's time for the partials #it's so frustrating to deal with this #because they do nothing but complain #when they admit openly that they don't study #at this point they're just doing this to buy time #to keep doing nothing :| #can't wait to be over with this on February #so I start the internship #and hopefully I get hired pretty early #until then it's time to suffer

[multeasers]

i've got hermes and wrh icons now but no xkit yet,,, so for everyone i have to cut a reply for i'll have to get to that later whoops

#🌊 ( ooc ) : mun talking #but whatever HIIII EVERYONE I'M BACK IN BUSINESS FINALLY HOPEFULLY !!! #there's nothing i have for sure until the 19th at least whoops #BUT UNTIL THEN...