#helpp pls

[delusional-cannibal]

Help me get my baby cremated

Sorry all it's a spange/ vent post

he/him btw

Tw medical mistreatment, pregnancy, abortion/miscarrige?

TLDR: hospital messed up, had to lose my baby, have to figure out creamation

Hey so I'm not really sure on how to do this so I'l start when I got sick

I got sick around september last year. (constant vomiting lasting over a week happening 20 hours a day, unable to eat or drink) with many trips to after hours and the ED constant tests and being put on IV drips they said it was some type of hyperemesis and to food diary ect

From then I'm on new meds and am coping better with an attack every few weeks lasting a week (sometimes lining up with menstration sometimes not) Still in hospital at least once but up to 4 times a month ( usually in the same week)

So march I come in very sick they do bloods and pee tests and check everything, they say I'm probably either too stressed or I have bulimia. (Ive had mental health issues in the past but I know when I'm getting bad with my eating and I had been doing a lot better)

April I come in 3 times and again lots of bloods taken and other samples given ect. I must be stressed or disordered

May I come in twice and again tests and again "theres nothing wrong with you, youre stressing yourself out

June I come in and they tell me I am 3 month pregnant. There are blood test results from early April saying I was pregnant but because the pee stick tests were all negative,no one,,,,, checked,, my bloods,, for 3 months.

I find that out on sunday the 11th. They show me ultrasounds, they refer to it as a baby and a child multiple times. They then tell me I wont be able to have him. I'm no where near well enough to make it to term and I would most likely not be able to carry him without high risk of still birth. On monday I get a rough phone call saying they can see me for surgery on thursday. I was 13 week and 4 days so 3 more days and I would have had to wait until it got worse and probably have to stillbirth/false labour. So i had the surgery and now I am left here feeling hollow and wrong with a jar in my freezer that would have been my son.

I dont know if I would have kept him or adopted him but this is not what i wanted, epecially not being this far along.

I am absolutely pro abortion/prochoice and if i had only been a month or so or if i hadnt seen him that then would have been the choice for me. But being over a third of the way and being told "Hey you're a third there! but you cant do it even if you want it bad enough" was just gut wrenching.

A friend will be helping me complain but thats the last thing on my mind. Like just a week ago i was worried about watering the plants i had been neglecting for a speel and this week I am trying to figure out how to organize and pay for my babys cremation.

How does life even do these thing man?

Like I've had a rough time as it is with CSA and being homeless for periods, but the csa court case was mostly over, and i had found a nice person, and am living in the first house where i haven't been mistreated and I'm making a home and tmi but i had sex for the first times since i was assulted last year and it had only been a few times with condoms each time and they day after pill when one broke? And then this, like I was just getting my life back and now i get to watch it fall apart again.

Sorry for the rant, thanks everyone

my paypal is [email protected] I'm from nz so we dont have the venmos/cashapps

and

https://givealittle.co.nz/cause/help-me-get-my-sweet-boy-cremated

#spange #give a little #hannibal #vent #helpp pls #not hannibal #abortion #miscarriage #pregnancy

[omertasmoon]

An act of submission

(Emperor Zhongli x gn reader)

"They say that a good servant reflects the personality of its master…" Zhongli chuckled as he traced the brim of his cup with his finger. Despite maintaining a calm facade, the corners of his lips occasionally twitched upwards into a smirk, yet he was trying so hard to hide it—a futile exercise in suppression.

"Erm… excuse me, what?" You replied. Was he complimenting your guzheng or was he throwing shade at you for imitating him? It wasn't your fault, but you couldn't help but think that it was the result of being by his side for a long time. Putting on a private solo concert for the Emperor was nerve-wracking: one wrong mistake and there goes your wrist. One thing you didn't know was that you had managed to plant the first seeds of obsession in his heart which resulted in keeping you by his side and dragging you along everywhere he went. Too bad the amount of love he shows you is just the surface of it. You never know how deep the ocean is, hm? During the time spent with him, your brain had subconsciously picked up his habits, resulting in you emulating him sometimes. How very bold of you to assume that he hadn't noticed it.

"Erm…" A small, soft sound slipped out of your mouth. It was really obvious that you were trying to ease the awkward tension between you two.

Upon hearing the soft sound of your voice, Zhongli paused and gently lifted his gaze from his cup. His eyes full of adoration and love wandered across your features. Such beautiful features which he wished to preserve forever. If his mind were a room, you would undoubtedly be the wallpaper, your presence permeating every space, reflecting the depths of his fascination for you.

There it was, the reaction he was hoping for. That expression which was akin to a baby deer in the headlights. Your eyes were wide in confusion and your lips were slightly parted but wide enough to let out an ‘eh?’ sound. Zhongli chuckled, amused by how your face had gone red. Possibly because of the steam from the tea or him making advances on you- oh, how he wished that he was the reason of you being so shy and flustered. The soft glow of the red lanterns cast a warm light on your face highlighting the contours of your profile, giving him the opportunity to observe your facial expressions in detail. To be frank, he was proud of himself for bringing a reaction out of you. He may have experienced joy and pleasure throughout his life but they all were nothing compared to the happiness he gets from your smile. He was slowly plunging himself into the spiral of obsession but he didn't know it.

"Ah, nothing. According to what I said earlier, I put the musical instrument in the position of the servant while you are its master. The strings of it bend to the will of your hands to produce such beautiful sounds… Not to mention, the songs produced by it are as gentle and soothing as you. It reflects your personality, don’t you think so?" Zhongli replied in a genuine voice but the predatory glint in his eyes gave it away.

“Thank you…” Your voice trailed off at the end as you were unsure of what to reply

“No need to thank me, I was just stating facts” He brought his cup to his lips as he said so. Zhongli’s gaze fell upon your hand wrapped around your tea cup. “Do you mind if I take a look at it?” He raised an eyebrow, his eyes lingering on your left hand. Even though it seemed like a request, you knew that it was an order. Your hand shot up immediately even though you were praying desperately that he wouldn’t chop it off for accidentally playing the wrong note earlier that day. A soft hum left his lips as he lifted your hand higher to the level of his mouth.

“Do you only plan on plucking the strings of your instrument for the rest of your life?” The emperor caressed the back of your hand with his thumb.

“Erm… maybe. What’s there to pluc-”

“There are many things you can pluck, my dear. For example… my heart. You can pluck it out and I would thank you for it” The way he said it so casually shocked you for a moment. Zhongli eyed the ring on your index finger which you inherited from your mother. Your heart was thumping loudly that his words were drown out. “Y-Your majesty…” Your face was as red as the lanterns hanging above both of you.

His lips hovered above your ring for a while to toy with your conflicting feelings at the moment. After what seemed like an eternity, he brought his mouth down to leave a kiss on it. “A jade wrist loses to a golden cup, so slender, so slender, it’s the passing of youth…”

-Irene Callista

#yandere zhongli #zhongli x reader #HELPP I'M NEW TO TUMBLR #SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO ADD PICTURES 😭 #I have a test in like 14 hours and here I am on my knees for this mf #My first fanfic so uh.. pls don't mind any possible mistake one could detect 😅 #IreneCallista

[jokaarija]

heyyy joker out if you’re seeing this no you’re not, turn away now please and thank you 😃🙏

#pls i really hope they’re not curious enough to make an account #this is my safe space helpp 😭 #joker out

[chrlvctius]

they rlly said hellweek before sembreak 😭😭

#hell week #almost there #like istg #screaming crying rolling on the floor #can this be over #pls pls pls #sembreak pls #I'll be going somewhere at 5 am on friday and I'll be home by 7 pm 😭😭😭 #I'll also post when i get home from my long trip on friday #HELPP MEEEE #woso #woso community #arsenal #awfc #lionesses #leah williamson #arsenalwfc #leah catherine williamson #leah williamson x reader #alexia putellas x reader #realness #guys wish me luck rn

[dreadfullyrottenn]

why is there SO MUCH LEON X CHRIS RULE 34

#PLS #I THOUGHT CHRIS X LEON R34 WAS LIKE A JOKE #I SEARCHED IT UP #AND THERES SO SO SO FUCKINH MUCH OF IT #PILES #TONS #MILLIONS OF ARTWORKS #AND ITS JUST OLD MAN YAOI #HELPP #chris redfield #leon kennedy #resident evil

[doll-russian]

Why is the doormans so weird?

Mr. Khan apparently drinks oil too and has a weird obsession with Doors, and Uzi is an angsty teen i think that says alot about her! And Mrs. Nori... Uhh yeah.

#(PLS I ENJOY READING THE NORI AND KHAN RP ACCS HELPP) #shitpost

[hldingontu]

so uh chaos arg progress ive figured out most of the polybius but all the word scrambles are still confusing me and I DONT KNOW THEIR FAV TAYLOR SONG YET … im. so okay.

heres how my notes are going:

you heard it here first chaos listens to SLUT! (taylor’s version) (from the vault)

#the chaos experience arg #HELPP #don’t judge me pls #chaos pls tell me ur favourite taylor swift song #i wont judge #i might #i love args :3 #ARRRRGH #hey chaos are ypu free wednesday #chaos are you free #we could like #i dunno get ice cream #PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

[gwinaifen]

i wanna do a lil moot challenge where it goes "moot that u would protect and kill anyone that hurts them *insert user/name*", "moot that u think is cool *insert user/name*", "moot that u think u would burn things together if u two were put in the same kitchen *insert user/name*", "moot that u think would piss themselves in a haunted house *insert user/name*" AND SO ON BUT I DONT EVEN HAVE MANY MOOTS BESIDES QING KEIN KIYO AND USER SORUFU AND ELEMENTALSTATIC cries

#angel's rants #angel's rambles #qing would definitely be the moot that id protect and kill anyone that hurts them #kein is the cool moot and the moot that would bully 7 year olds on roblox (same HELPP) #kiyo is the moot that burns things and pretends to be a fb mom. #user sorufu and elementalstatic pls interact more.... #i feel like we would be a chaotic / odd bunch HEKLPp #LET ME BE YALL'S FUNNY SISTER OR THE COUSIN ONG 🗣️🗣️ #AND NO ONE HURT QING anyone who hurts qing will have to be careful about the noises they'll hear at 2:48 A.M tonight. /j

[vollerey]

oh no hes sexy and consensual and consent is sexy oh my god hes babygirl my other vampiric pookies look away pls

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted porter #redacted treasure #redactedverse #HELPP #i love this brit #porter pls #he does no wrong #(he asks for consent omg?) #he is not adam it appears #pls hmu.

[blood-grove]

idk why im just now even wonder this but how do you eve make friends on this site... like i wanna have silly people and say silly things to them i ssee so many cool people on this site that i wanan try to talk to but then i get scared cuz big following an i dont wanan be a weirdo

#how does this work #helpp meee #how to make friends #pls i just wanna be silly and talk #yapping

[lilaccheese]

PLEEEAE TEACH ME HOW TO DRAW THE RED TEAM. I NEED TO MAKE FANART BUT I CAN'T PROPORTIONS OF THE EXAGGERATED . PLEAE RELOGB.

#tf 2 #teamfortess2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 #help #art #art help #help with art #please #helpp #explain pls #teamfort #how many tags do i need #to draw attention #team fort #soldier tf2 #soldier team fortress 2 #heavy tf2 #tf2 soldier #heavy team fortress 2 #tf2 heavy #bro pls #tf2 scout #scout tf2 #scout #scout team fortress 2 #engineer tf2 #tf2 engineer #i hit the tag limit #PLEASE JUST HELPPPP. TF2 ARTISTS. I SUMMON YOU

[witchofthevale]

I had... a weird little scare, so I'm changing my name here from Chee to Elle sajshahs Still the same username!! Still the same, loud, funny little weirdo!!

I'm never letting go of the username, it's to pretty, might change my writing one though...

This is also your(?) PSA that if you think you know me which you dont shut up please elect to ignore our connection, ty.

#just people irl should not find me in safe spaces where i rave about getting railed ok #KJASAHJAHSA THAT NEARLY STOPPED MY FUCKING HEART PLS WHERE IS THE ETIQUETTE #IF YOU THINK U KNOW ME FROM A FANDOM SPACE PLS ELECT TO IGNORE IT JDHKJJHJHFF #U DONT KNOW ME I DONT KNOW U WE GUCCI UCHI #SORRY FOR THE ALL CAPS BUT THAT LEGIT SCARED ME HELPP #I HAVE MONSTERFUCKING COMMENTS HERE KHAKSJHGJHGHJGASA #my heart is still hammering against my ribskjkshhhd #why would ppl do this to me all my new tags goskdj #elle needs to shut up

[sennave]

does anyone know how to make comic panels in procreate or just in general bcuz i am kinda struggling with storyboarding rn

#art help #comic #helpp meee pls its not even funny i hate everything #art

[sstarnights]

Pavitir!

ATSV WAS SOO GOOD AHH. By far one of my fav movies, next being Nimona. The colors were so pleasing to the eye and the animation was DIVINE. So I wanted to draw something relating to it, and I did Pav. I love how most people who watched atsv agreed that he is bbg lmao.

#spider man: across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #pavitr #spiderverse 2 #sony animation #my artwork #he really is bbg coded tbh #not that proud of this one but when am I ever proud of my work #my hands hurt so much pls helpp #Will def do more spider verse related art #but schools starting back in like 2 days so rip my free time

[solongllondon]

i was tagged by @heartstringsduet to 🎧 put my liked songs on shuffle and list the first 10 🎶 thank you for tagging me michelle <33

when i needed you, carly rae jepsen

sunburn, ed sheeran

truly, cigarettes after sex

nature boy - acoustic, aurora

me against the music, glee cast

hold your breath, ruelle

jupiter (live at the troubadour), wrabel

see u in hell, carobae

mein leben - live, kraftklub

like the movies, laufey

i was actually really surprised at what songs came up ngl lol

anyway i'm tagging @backmygirlhood @thislovetv @stood-onthecliffside @figuringthengsout @annagrzinskys @circeswife

#tag games #if any of u don't want to be tagged anymore pls let me know <3 #esp if the ones ive tagged that i don't tag often dont wanna be tagged pls let me know!! #figured i have to branch out with who i tag in these things it's always the same 4 people helpp so here's some variety lmao but v lowkey th #shoot me an ask if u see this and in the future wanna be tagged in things!! <33 #also lol of course glee would come up in sth u tagged me in michelle lmao

[callilouv]

hmhmmhhm platonic relationships my beloved

#ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ idle chit chat #treasuring platonic relationships both irl and in fiction :] #ALSO PLS THE DUALITY BETWEEN MY SAD POSTING EARLIER AND MY POSTS NOW HELPP