#he's gonna have a GREAT time with me lmao

[lesbiansanemi]

Still thinking about the conversation I had with my roommate’s bf like two weeks ago where he said he was scared of furries but also didn’t even know enough about furries to know they were called furries I had to figure out wtf he was talking about. The urge to become a full blown furry now. Despite having all the makings of a furry I for some reason have never ended up enthusiastically becoming one despite my best efforts. Well. With spite as my motivator here we are. Where are the furry artists, I’m commissioning both my tentative ideas for my fursonas. I’m inviting all my friends who are furries over and we’re gonna work on making fursuits. I will also make this a hostile living situation for you AND I will get the added bonus of doing fun furry stuff

#during the same conversation he very heavily insinuated he thought I was a cringey weirdo in the most derogatory sense #by making fun of most of my hobbies and calling ppl who liked them cringey weirdos #but then going ‘oh! oh no! I don’t mean you though you’re fine you’re like Normal 😀’ #so. you know. #anyways last night I walked in the door from work #and the entire apartment smelled like weed and there was a dog barking at me and he was watching tv SO loud #🙃🙃🙃 sensory overload immediately in main part of apartment so I hid in bedroom all night #I’m also irritated cuz I’ve had convos with my roommate about weed FOREVER ago #literally my one ask was if he was gonna smoke he do it outside so the apartment doesn’t smell like it #idc if you smoke and you are free to do edibles/dabs/whatever inside just pls don’t smoke joints #I hate the smell and it’s bad for the animals #so why is it 🙃🙃🙃 all of a sudden happening again as this guy moves in 🙃🙃🙃 #anyways about to become a revenge furry and also suuuuuper fucking cringey just to bother/embarrass him #esp cuz he said he wants to have friends over all the time which I’m also FUDJDJSJSKSK about #but sure! invite friends over! #I’m gonna sit in the living room with my giant easel and draw furries and listen loudly to vocaloid while they’re here 🥰 #I’m gonna have a great time! you won’t tho lmao #kaz rambles

[eebie]

m oving to spend the week in fagsville All is well

#it was really nice there #i got scared driving over bc i saw trump flags #but then i saw more pride flags in one place Than i have over my entire life time And so many cool people #the mayor of the place is literally a “gay lesbian with purple hair” <- words of my bro #i guess i shouldve known he wouldn't move somewhere crazy. he said he raised his gay sister there too. which is a funny sentence LMAO #but so sweet #my dad n i are gonna stay there together bc driving an hour both ways isn't smn they didnt want me to have to do #they kinda freake dme out bc they wanted me to decide right away #we're gonna have to move my computer and stuff though which is a bitch and a half #my dad's buff though so whatever #it's gonna be great i'm excited very grateful

[mimiatmidnight]

Will you be commenting on the Taylor drama?

I love the way this was worded, like I'm one of the siblings on Succession and the press has cornered me outside my penthouse to ask if I'll be releasing a statement on my family's latest scandal. Hehehe anyways.

Sorry but I just don't understand how anyone is shocked. Truly what has that woman ever done to successfully convince people that this is out of character for her. Like I don't want to diminish anyone's pain or anything but I see all these stans on here and over on Twitter in all this distress, having their very first epiphanies like "Hold on . . . does Taylor . . . suck??" And I kinda just have to chuckle at them cause like bless your hearts babes, but omg catch UP 😭

Lol because 1) she is a severely emotionally stunted person who thinks edgy British "bad boys" are hot like she's 12 years old, 2) she has no true deeply-held moral principles outside of issues that directly affect herself, and 3) truthfully, she seems to be suffering from a serious crisis of identity after the end of the longest and most significant romantic relationship of her life, and in my opinion is pretty clearly desperate to prove something to the world/her ex/herself.

The first reason is cringe but not news to longtime viewers, the second reason is pathetic but also not news (to those who can be honest with themselves), and the third is . . . understandable in some sense, but not pitiable enough to make me willing to humor this insufferable little episode she's having. I wish her luck on this humiliating rebound journey, but she is gonna have to walk that road on her own.

Normally, I always roll my eyes when people make these kinds of jokes, but given the circumstances I feel justified in saying: I can't wait to hear the breakup song about him, sis 🤡

#the great thing about disliking your own fave is that they simply do not have the power to disappoint you lol #like her stans (at least those who arent complete sycophants—which sadly is not most) are breaking down over Babys 1st Cognitive Dissonance #meanwhile im just over here chilling lol #ive also just NEVER been particularly invested in her personal life anyways so im gucci on that front too #i didnt even realize specific songs were about specific celebrity exes until *several* years into listening to her music #thats how unplugged i am lol #she is unusually extremely visible in the collective conscious right now cause of the tour and this insufferable PR blitz #but the absolute best thing for me is when she disappears and i dont have to perceive her -- the actual person -- outside of her music #and then it can just be me and my lifelong companion the fictional character “taylor swift” (c)(r)(tm) #so personally the only real threat this hangs over my head is the thought she might put him on an album #like that does strike real terror in my heart im ngl #ESPECIALLY any of the rerecords oh my god #and given the way hes been tailing her in and out of that damn studio . . . its not looking good for me kids 🥴 #i cant believe she would be that dumb after making the same mistake with joe on folklore #cause even tho now she has to suffer the indignity of sharing a grammy with her ex (LMAO) #at least we can understand that at the time she thought they were in it for life #but if she pulls that shit again with a REBOUND??? just to like stick it to joe or further delude herself or whatever? #idk im gonna need interpol or somebody to step in and do something drastic like this is a cry for help #did you guys see that euphoria meme someone made about her deranged “ive never been happier!!!!” speech the other day? #it was SO funny ill go find it

[magentagalaxies]

i have so much work to do for finals season which is frustrating bc on the one hand i'm very glad all my classes have project-based finals where i get to be creative instead of just doing an exam or a paper. however. i have a bad habit with every project-based final ever of accidentally getting an idea that's way too ambitious and creating more work for myself than i need to do

however this semester even tho i fell into that exact same trap my two most elaborate final projects each involve 1. editing a video essay which contains an interview i did with paul bellini and at least 45 seconds of it are bellini talking about why he thinks i have great potential as a comedian, and 2. editing a ten minute reel of the documentary footage i got on tour with scott. which of course involves rewatching various videos of me and scott being extremely chaotic together. so i stay winning ig

#my other finals include ''powerpoint presentation detailing the historical significance of mel brooks the producers'' #and ''live sketch show that i actually don't have a significant role in but that's fine i have a different sketch class next semester'' #(this sketch class was technically ''creating characters and solo performances'' and i really wish i could've done more) #(but also that whole interview-footage-debacle drained so much of my creative energy so sometimes doing the bare minimum is self care) #so i don't have a solo piece in the show. but i do get to say my favorite line in the whole show in a group sketch which is great #and i did sign up to perform an aubrey monologue in a sketch show in a suburb of boston next week #which is gonna be super interesting bc i've been looking to do more performing outside of my college #bc i've found that i don't think college kids are actually my target audience??? or at the very least i want to perform to a wider audience #it's frustrating bc for that show i have to trim the monologue down to 3 minutes but it's the tightest monologue i have and it's 5 minutes #so trimming it down feels like a game of jenga since it's so tight lmao #but honestly even if the performance bombs i'm mostly doing this so i can tell bellini about it lmao #he's so supportive of my comedy and he's been such a great help with my aubrey monologues i feel like this is bellini homework lmao #anyway i probably won't post the video essay publicly bc it's not the style of video essays i want to make #and it's too specific to the class it's for #but if people are interested in watching it i'll send you the vid when it's done #and for the tour video i'll probably post that or at least some version of it #bc that's just gonna be a fun teaser of ''here's the level of behind-the-scenes content you'll be getting from this doc!!'' #and also a fun way to be like. audiences don't know me nearly as well as they know scott #but they will definitely know me by the end of this bc there are so many wild interactions i have on camera of me and scott being chaotic #anyway this post was mostly to organize my thoughts of what i still have to do this week #i am so ready to be done with school lmao i'm gonna be spending a full month in toronto this summer #and it's shaping up to be such an exciting time i can't wait

[deus-ex-mona]

“a sicks’ dream come true; coming soon to fanfic channels near you”

#presenting my cursed sleep-deprived brainworm of the day: nagisa gets sold to ft4 for uni fees #or well. more like they’re looking for a live-in assistant dude. thing. or sth. idk #and papa shiranami just sells his son off bc ‘hey it’s literal free real estate!!! plus he’s gonna get paid for the entire deal so why not?’ #nagisa initially pitches a fit at his dad a la gamushara yelling scene bc ‘dad!!!!!! how could you just sell me off to some strangers?!!!!’ #‘shhhh son; think of the free housing. in ✨t o k y o✨. stuff’s expensive there yk’ ‘but still!!!!!’ #so nagi sulkily packs his bags and heads out; trying to motivate himself with thoughts of ‘hey at least i’ll get to see hiyori more often’ #then he arrives at the train station and sees our favourite 5-man non-idol gang… and promptly passes out #when he comes to… poor guy finds himself right smack in the middle of a hugeass canopy bed #with dai sitting smugly by the side like ‘the great me carried you back mans. you’re welcome ;)’ with a tip of his cool fedora #and that’s when nagi realises that 1) it’s not a dream and that he actually has to live with his oshis now. and 2) damnnnn this bed is soft #cohabitation shenanigans happen. as they would seeing as the entire gang + rio’s niece live together in this oddly huge megu-owned penthouse #plus free bi-weekly vacations to megu’s family villa bc they can never spend a waking moment without each other #and nagi finds it strange that the group is oddly accomodating of his uni schedule when it concerns his job tasks and such… #or that they collab with lxl (hi hiyori!!!) way more than they should typically be… #but he brushes it off when rio asks him to cook with him or sth idk i mean how often do you get to cook with your oshi???? #and idk eventually the jig is up and it’s revealed that hiyori was the one who was accidentally behind the whole thing #like a ‘sorry nagisa i told uchida that you’d be moving here too but lxl were there the entire time and they went and got ft4 to buy you’ #or something kinda thing. idk. bc everything has to be lxl’s fault; even when they’re just lurking in the bg #i’m def gonna regret this later lmao. it’s almost 2.30 in the am; i have not written in months; and i’ve never read a sold to 1.d. fic ev er #this is the kind of cosmic horror that only sleep-deprived brains can cook up ig…….. oh wells #it is suiyoubi my dudes #the dude from gamushara

[scattered-winter]

horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh

#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago #and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember) #and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him #do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao #and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that #everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it. #and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life #and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years. #sigh. anyway. #im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet #and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3 #just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too????? #we're all grieving. i aint special. #i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl #thats what it looks like we're doing tonight #im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out #and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant. #not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been . #a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone. #sigh. im tired i need to go to bed #winter speaks #personal

[tastymarbar]

Kenji seems like the type of guy who would ask p3-kun to practice kiss with him. you know like, no homo and all that. just two dudes kissing for "practice".

#mar talks #kenji tomochika #persona 3 #''hey dude you wanna practice kiss with me? not in like a gay way just for like... our future girlfriends y'know?'' #''...uh huh sure'' #p3-kun goes with a lot of bs in some of his SL he probably would go with this too #plot twist its all well and good until kenji realises he actually like kissing p3-kun #and suddenly it's not so no homo kissing practice with his bestie #and now he's feeling weird and oh god he can't possibly let p3-kun know this #except spoiler alert kenji is not subtle(tm) and p3-kun knew this whole time lmao #after ages kenji confesses what he's been feeling and p3-kun just bluntly states ''yeah i already knew that'x #and after a long time kenji finally confesses and p3-kun just goes ''yeah i already knew that ur not subtle dude'' #and kenji just stares at him flabbergasted bc tf you mean you knew this whole time?? and didn't say anything??? #(more spoiler alert p3-kun liked it to but he was too neurodivergent to say anything) #(they totally just sat there for like 10 minutes looking at the floor bc wtf do you even say after that) #whoops I'm gonna write a whole ass fic in the tags at this point #I'd actually write that but im not that great at writting orz #also hi if you read all that i hope you have a nice day :D

[spiral-wizard]

i finally got a new jobbbbbb :'''-) as a driver for a local mobile paper shredding service?? catch me in Big Truck showing up to your office to shred your Confidential Documents !!!

#yesterday i rode along on one of their routes as kind of a trial run #which turned out to be less about deciding if they wanted to hire me and more about making sure i actually wanted to do it #/ knew what i was getting into etc. and honestly i had a great time lmao #as far as i know they're gonna pay me for the day too and would have even if i decided against it which is nice. wish more places did that #the driver who drove me around was a real gruff midwestern dude... taxidermy decorated office and everything #at one point toward the end of the day he misgendered me after not really referring to me all day and i was like Oh No. #but i pulled him aside a lil while after that and was like look man. i'm female on paper but in every other sense i live my life as a guy. #and you know what? he was extremely normal about it. hashtag grateful #word processing

[biracy]

Tbh I should probably take a break. I almost definitely won't but I should, yknow

#idk i don't have much 'real stuff' happening irl besides like. job hunting and college applications. so it's hard #but i think if i at least ease off some time on here n read a little more n watch more movies i might start to feel better #haven't really liked where my head's been at lately it feels like whatever persona is The One Who Blogs is 'taking over' more #to put it in a very dorky comic book-sounding ass way LMAO but that's how i feel! like i'm losing my own 'voice' yknow #my mental health is Bad my physical health is also Not Great n i kinda feel like ass. if i'm being honest #idk i feel like i'm crashing from whatever high i've been on for the past couple of days n i'm not Really super happy w myself #except the media literacy posts those were good. but like the more discoursey stuff i'm not proud of #again sorry to like. publicly vent LMAO i'll be fine i'm good. i'm trying really hard to pull myself out of this #but again. sorry abt the Shite i was posting earlier today i wasn't really in my own right head #just kinda wanted 2 get all that off my chest idk if it's clear that i don't really have anyone i feel like i can talk to right this moment #i'm very socially isolated irl and i'm so scared of becoming socially isolated online too just bc i'm an idiot who doesn't think b4 he post #NOT to make it sound all about me or whatever but it's true. i'm very very scared of losing people n right now this is My Space #i'd forgotten just how bad it felt. in this Specific case it is kinda my fault tho LMAO don't worry i've apologized as best i know how #okay i'm done. i'm done. i'm gonna go watch tv and go to bed i hope #open mick night

[atsu-i]

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#lol icb my older bro's praised me two times for my cooking #before this year ends bruh #first was the meal on christmas esp #the dessert lol he even fed that to his friend on christmas day itself #and he was bragging about it lol #and the second one is today #am gonna cook lunch as always and he asked what's our food for lunch #he figured it out and he said oh it's that? you are good at making that #i wasnt expecting that so i just laughed lol but anyway #am glad he is sometimes enjoying my cooking lol #he can be really picky and shit most of the time #anyways am just sharing coz that made me feel okay lmao #i feel like am bragging but not really lol #ah so yeah that's it! tonight is gonna be..uhm..the beginning of a new year? #have a great day/night everyone! tc always :) #and stay safe 🖤

[heavenknowsffs]

Sorry for another vent post but here goes

#like i'm not looking for a relationship ok ? but i met this guy and we've been hooking yp #but like he is being all sweet and caring and he is great don't get me wrong #he's like eddie munson i'm not gonna lie #but at the same time he doesn't get my jokes and when i make a sarcastic comment or something funny he always thinks i'm being honest #and then he's too sweet if it makes sense in normal convos? BUT if i am ganuinely distressed (which i am a lot you guys know) #he is just not very emotionally intelligent 😬 and like it's all fun and wtv but i feel like he might like me more than i like him #and i called him babe once bc i had this girl friend who calls everyone babe and i spent like 3 days with her so i called him that #and now he always calls me babe and i'm like 😐 pls stop but i can't tell him to stop bc it will seem rude #and yeah my friends that know him are like he's such a cool guy and so sweet and everything and it looks like we're dating #but like we're not man we're not i met him a few weeks ago #anyway i think in reality i'm trying to find bad things about him just so i can justify not liking him and sabotage the whole thing bc + #+ i'm too afraid lmao #i think i'm emotionally unavailable and don't want a relationship or feel ready for it at all #i feel like i'm starting that age most ppl have at 18/19 of exploring and just vibing except i should have gone through that then #but i never got the change bc of abusive relationships and being at home and not having freedom to just exist #and now i do and i feel like if i start dating someone i'll lose my freedom again #which should not even happen in a healthy relationship but that's how i feel #maybe will talk about this to my therapist see what he says #i think i know what he will say like 'you're just afraid don't think about it too much tell him how you feel' #and i HAVE told him generally how i feel and that i don't want to move mad about it and he was like 'no were just getting to know eachother

[argcicle]

My half-delirious ranking because it’s past midnight and I just realized the album came out:

1. Portrait of a Blank Slate

2. Scum

3. Consequences

4. Call Me What You Like

5. It’s Golden Hour Somewhere

6. Warsaw

#also bc this is my blog and I never tag shit so this isn’t breaching containment lmao #I really like Wilbur’s vocals but sometimes he strains particularly hard and it makes me cringe #like it’s a great tone and there’s singers who do it and are very healthy but every once in a while he’ll sing a high note #or hold out a note and it’s like. oh no. that’s not an artistic choice #I will say I normally have one or two songs that I just skip in albums and eps #(staring directly at the fall. I like the concept but spoken word never meshes well w/ me) #(sections of it like in call me what you like are rly fun but it’s not my cup of tea when it’s the whole piece) #but this one I feel like they’re all gonna be added to my regular listening #and that’s like super rare. even though I think the only other time this happened for a non-musical album was also Lovejoy lmao #are you alright? does not miss once in its life

[shadow-tism]

dr pepper... save me..

dr pepper

save me dr pepper

#why is he sad? #Great question! #I have no clue #Trip the mouse #Sonic oc #sth oc #I dont really like this but hmmph #posting anyways #its 12:30 as I have finished this and now I am gonna try to do some school #wish me luck #(I am terrified hahahaha lol lmao) #dips art #Dr pepper #sad little guy #Hi yes I will take 'I spent way too much time on this sketch' for 800 please Alex

[hairenya]

One of my colleagues and I are fighting (because she’s a bitch) and she framed it as wanting to be concerned with my teaching abilities which is hilarious because the student body absolutely adores me and hates her. Like motherfucker I am the Princess Diana of this middle school I will end your entire existence do not fuck with me.

#jlktalks. #she just bought a house and I don’t have any bills so like #the consequences of her getting in trouble are much more severe than mine lmao #old ass bitch with her Kurt Geiger bag like I don’t own Versace purses #this is me calmed down a Xanax and several hours later btw #I was 100% going to fight and her and even asked the SRO if he wanted to come watch #he said yeah btw but her pussy ass never showed up to ‘have a discussion with me’ #she’s mad because she made the kids sing happy birthday to her and wrote up those that didn’t #and I told them she couldn’t actually do that #and then she said it wasn’t the first time she had heard about her name being mentioned negatively in my class #like bitch I wasn’t trashing you but I’m sure af gonna start now #she’s also mad I told them they had a constitutional right not to stand for the pledge of allegiance #shout-out to my mentor for talking me out of telling her I don’t like her #she said it looks like I was taking their side like yeah bitch cause I am?? #the current advice from my mentor is to avoid her (I’m great at that I once went a year without talking to a teacher as TA) #(​like in her class everyday) and to say ‘we’ll have to agree to disagree’ if she says something #also shoutout to my new mentor he’s so sweet and so kind and gives such good advice and it actually works because I listen to him #the only reason I listen to him is that I have a crush on his married ass and I am nothing if not a sub #but hey whatever works #rant #adventures in teaching #‘I’m old school’ nah bitch you just old #she was talking too about how she had been in good spirits prior to all this #like I hope I ruined her birthday and I’m lowkey thinking about putting a spider in her room if I can catch one without freaking out #but she’d probably kill it which isn’t fair to the spider #she just got actual braces at 40 like you can’t afford actual invisaligners and you’re gonna try and tell me what to do???

[freakylilnutjob]

five y/o me watching Matilda: I’m glad my parents don’t treat me like that, that’s messed up!

twenty-five y/o me watching Matilda: oh fuck…

#I rewatched Matilda for the first time in forever last night #Mr Wormwood’s character was so extremely triggering #lmao I was so oblivious as a child #literally so many things he said I could hear/remember my dad saying #it’s so fucked up #idk seeing a child subject to that (even in a movie) was very eye opening for me #like I know I suffer(ed) abuse but I didn’t think it was that bad #until last night when I saw Matilda going through it and I was like ok that’s like SO fucked up #and now the amount of trauma I have feels very valid #I thought I had to have suffered something way worse but tbh the verbal/emotional abuse IS pretty bad #ahh great times #thought watching it was gonna cheer me up since I loved it so much as a kid lmao #which now makes so much sense why I loved it because I related too much but didn’t realize it #gonna be thinking about this one for a while!! #Matilda #sams spam