#he will admit that somethings did hurt

[raelyn-dreams]

Sometimes I feel like people will read one (1) story and base all their perceptions of a unit/character off of that which. Just doesn't really work imo, ESPECIALLY in the Reminisce stories.

Of course you won't like Shu if you only read Marionette. Of course you won't like Keito if you only read Meteor Impact. Of course you won't like Eichi if you only read Three Magicians (or literally any other reminisce story). Because they all play an antagonistic role.

You're seeing the absolute worst parts of them, their lowest points, when they're at their most desperate and ruthless. And that can be a good thing!!! I would not have the same understanding of any of these characters if I had NOT read those stories, and I'm grateful that I can fully know them better now! But I feel like sometimes, people run with it way too far, and refuse to acknowledge any change from them, even when all three of these examples have apologized and genuinely attempted to better themselves.

That's definitely not to say you have to read all the stories for a unit/character before forming any opinion on them (I freely admit that I could tell you almost nothing about Eden or current fine's development). However, be aware that your opinion may be influenced by certain stories, and that it is very likely you are missing some context for why a certain character acts the way they do.

Therefore, please stay open-minded, or at the very least, honest and polite!

#shu keito and eichi may have all been assholes at one point or another #but they did it out of love #does that make it justified? hell no! and they admit that! #but shu treated nazuna and mika as dolls because the only way he knew love was to force someone to achieve their greatest potential #keito yelled at and kicked out souma because souma was going in too deep and he didn't want him stained by akatsukis war actions #eichi started the war out of his love for the idol industry with the full intent of eventually being overthrown by people like trickstar #and he keeps tsumugi hiyori and others at a distance because he knows how terribly he hurt them and sees it as taking responsibility #yeah i just. i really love all these characters and don't like them getting slandered for things people don't fully understand #that's not to say i won't slander them because kaoru hakaze is never living down the souma scene in crossroads as long as i live lmao #but genuine bad-faith hate is something im very uncomfortable with and i wish people would realize that they may be missing the big picture #enstars #ensemble stars #ensemble stars music #fandom culture #enstars units #meteor impact #ryusei bonfire #reminisce marionette #enstars three magicians #enstars stories #enstars story #shu itsuki #keito hasumi #eichi tenshouin #enstars war era #enstars war #raelyn rambles

[worstloki]

prize for least genre aware protagonist 👑

#no because Thor trusted Loki so much and was oblivious and that's what made the whole thing a tragedy #but Thor was really out there like 'what do you MEAN Loki lied to me about Father's death and my banishment... let me try appealing to him' #except Thor's version of appeal is like a really really bad apology where the person doesn't want to admit they did anything #and also isn't convinced you're hurt #and Thor's SO SURE this plan will work because he knows his brother right #he knows Loki #and his plan which in accordance to him would have worked was to appeal to Loki's good side/the truth of who would be hurt #his plan was to do away with Loki's assumed anger by being like ''noooo don't do this here hit me instead <3'' #and he thought Loki wouldn't do it. #which means that before the whole plot shenanigans that would have worked and Loki also wouldn't have hit Thor #Loki watching Thor try to manipulate him by acting like his feelings are invalid the same way Frigga and Odin tried: nice try. thot. *wack* #so anyway Thor got hit and I think that's what u get for being soooooo sure that your little brother who u take for granted won't get hurt #by anything discouraging said or done or implied or being used by u for about him <3 #anyway the fact that Thor was SO sure that Loki was reacting badly and would calm down and be normal again is so sad actually #because it means Thor had the experience to know that's how it should have gone #which means when that's not what happened Thor also gets to be the one who has to work through processing that Loki's changed #and I don't think he DID that in the year where Loki was gone #he just neglected thinking about it until Loki was back and suddenly he couldn't pretend his brother had been the same (good) one at death #sad ironic something something character foils too late tragedy #Thor really went out there like i got this and got <beep>slapped fr fr #and then it happened again when he showed up for the Bifrost fight #Thor: i just have to wait it out. we all get angry. he'll get better #Loki: [screaming crying raging shrieking trying to kill him] #Thor: HE'LL GET BETTER #the fact that Thor doesn't expect the lies or the hitting or the unreasonable attitude even when Loki is VERY angry.......... ;-; #Thor watched his brother deteriorate in real time

[drusic]

i’m not gonna lie, i’m still feeling like shit

#i feel like everyone is moving on and getting to distract themselves but i can’t #i don’t know how to #my stomach feels crazy and i’m anxiously waiting for his response #hoping he’ll at least admit it and apologize #although that doesn’t change what he did #whether it was intentional or not he still caused so much harm and trauma to this poor girl #and that thought alone fucks me up because i’ve been through something similar in the past #i know i’ve been kinda inactive cause i’ve naturally been distancing myself from them a little #but this still hurts like a bitch #hugging y’all real tight 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 #*

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[gregoftom]

“do you have all the support that you need [for sweden]?”

#tomgreg #''i'm not okay'' wig tom :)))) #man what can i even say about this part like literally what can i say #it feels less like he leans to greg when something is wrong with shiv and more like he leans to greg when he's fucking terrified #why would someone like greg EVER make you feel safe in a business world. unless you were enamoured with him. #unless you felt like you were on top of the world with him. invincible. unstoppable. unless you TRUSTED him with your life. #unless it wasn't about business at all. or at least not completely. #idk idk. you could say he couldn't exactly call shiv bc of the state she was in and yeah you could say he needed to cover his ass. #true. that's all true. but i think that regardless of that. it's important to remember greg asked if tom wanted him there earlier #and tom denied it but in actuality he really fucking did need him. #he could never predict he'd lose his big connection; that logan would die. of course not. he could never predict he'd suddenly #become unsafe and the rug pulled out from under him. but if he could you KNOW who the fuck he'd take with him. #it's also important to remember that it's only to shiv and greg that he ever admits that he's not okay/hurt. that he ever lets down the wall #greg is not amazing with his words but i think to hear his voice was enough to comfort tom a bit. and when he made the joke #greg calmed him down. he didn't even chide tom for making a joke about greg looking like a suspect. he was too focused on #listening to tom and making sure he got it all. #they're sOOooo. ughh #sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. SIgh #sorry for the long ass cap posts but like. sometimes you Gotta cap it and not do a video like this Deserves caps

[lucy-moderatz]

She's just, you know, she's shiny hair, style section…Vera Wang. And I'm the sex column they run next to ads for penile implants.

#tv: sex and the city #satcedit #sex and the city #satc #as much as i don't condone how carrie treats or speaks about natasha #there is something very real and interesting at the center of it #she cannot admit to herself that she is still in love with big #and incredibly hurt by the fact that he has married someone else #especially so soon after their break and after telling her he would never get married again #leaving her with both that pain #and the deep rooted anxiety that he didn't want to marry her because she's imperfect #he obviously chose natasha over her because natasha is perfect and carrie is not #that way she can push all of her bad feelings onto natasha instead of big #all natasha ever did was try to be nice to carrie and all carrie every did was blame her for the fact that she wasn't over her ex #character: carrie bradshaw #things i made

[doodlebloo]

"Nothing happened and that's the problem" makes me so crazy. Like no you get your incorporeal ass back here right this second and explain yourself

#nothing happened and thats the problem is like When by Dodie. do you understand. #its like they just kept Waiting. both of them. #like Ranboo can move in once I have a better handle on myself... well not now that Tommy has died... Well not now that hes back either... #now we should wait until after I figure out this outpost conflict. Now we should wait until we're not fightig anymore. #now we should wait until hes recovered from his death. just one thing after another #& for Ranboo it was mostly a fear of himself. he wanted to wait until he knew he was a safe person to be around #before he moved in. didnt want Tubbo to wake up to find him gone from the house doing god knows what. #so he experimented on himself and he did all the research he could and eventually he was begging to be locked up and he didnt fight it #much at all when it finally happened. the guilt of not being able to have a life that was Right in front of him. #& i just know the thought is eating him up inside that Tubbo could have helped if hed just SAID SOMETHING #but the risk was too high bc to explain hed have to admit how much hes hurt the people Tubbo cares about. even if he doesnt remember #he still knows he did it. #''nothing happened and thata the problem'' as in We didnt get to live the life we wanted #but also as in We never had an argument I never confessed what ive done I never learned about his past #all of this was building up for months and months and not one bit of it ever came to fruition before I was killed. #fuuuuuuuuuucking hell he has got to do lore again at some point i am so. rabid #(no obligation he doesnt Have to etc discliamer blah.) #doodle.txt

[highwaydiamonds]

starting a new job tomorrow (monday) morning and am feeling about 72 (million) different things all at once because of it

#scared - so scared i will mess this up too #scared no one will like me #scared i will not be good at this #afraid i will hate the job #what if something happens to make me late - like witht he car tomorrow #just - it's new and there are so many unknowns and i don't like unknowns - they're just SCARY #and i don't want to eat lunch alone and i feel like i'm going to be and rn it's not a comfortable alone - it will be in time i know #but rught now it doesn't feel like alone by choice - it feels like alone by dint of ew no one wants to eat lunch with you - which sucks #and my aunts - or one of them anyway sent congratulations to me via one of the people i live with - who are speaking to them more than i am #the last time the aunts corresponded with me - it was via text abd they basically did tough love intervention style texting #which - they had every right to say how they felt - and i think they were right about some things #but it also felt like they were kicking a puppy when it was down - and well - i was the puppy being kicked #so when i got the job and one of the friends i live with asked if i would call my aunt(s0 to tell them i said no #i know they love me but i'm not interested in putting myself in a position to feel lambasted again #you saying you're proud now doesn't mean much any more - i needed you to say that you loved me then #that you knew i was messing uo but that you loved me regardless and you knew i could do better - not the yelling at via text that i got #you don't get both - i can't handle both. so yes fine i know you love me but it's going to be from a distance #and i love you too in some kind of way - one that right now is hurt and sad because i don't think you care how i feel at all #but i am trying to do right and do better - and i don't want to do things from spite but #i admit there is a part of me that when i get to better place - i want to be able to say - no i'm not contacting them bc idgaf #but i also know that's not likely to be true and isn't kind and not how i realy want to live and be #and wow that really turned into one hell of an emo tangent #anyway - i'm stopping myself now - i got some catharsis there and i need to get ready for bed so i won't be a total mess in the AM #if anyone has actually read this all please wish me luck - i could use it #and i know i will have to make the luck on my own anyway #i just keep thiking of- what if i fall? but oh my darling what if you fly?

[lisbonsteresa]

you don't get how crazy i'm going over this

#like....LIKE????? #not even talking about the lisbon of it all (we have to though these things are intrinsically connected but we're holding off for now) #i'm so....proud? of this little fictional man? #was the setup a little silly? maybe (but i loved every SECOND of it i can't BELIEVE i actually got a big blowout and a lowest point- #realization AND a rush to the airport confession that's SO) #this payoff was so SO worth it for me #and honestly i don't think the setup was even THAT silly -- what did lisbon say in 4.24? he had to hit rock bottom and know it or something #that's this. hurting her like this is his rock bottom (see you can't ignore the lisbon of it all - which i LOVE) #even with all the crazy shitty things he's done up until now; especially to HER; it was to get red john; he had that to fall back on #(not that he really saw it as a fallback but it gave him something else to focus on/something to justify his methods) #but after red john (episode not person) he doesn't have that anymore and he's been floundering ESPECIALLY when it comes to her #this wasn't a con (*not an official con) this was him doing something shitty and her finally having had enough #and him realizing just how right she's been; she was right on the first plane this season and she was right at the blue bird #and he's finally able to admit to himself just how much of a shit he's been...and then he's able to admit a lot of other things too #that little bit of honestly led to so much more and it let him FINALLY say out loud what they both knew (as much as they ignored it #or talked around it or pushed it down) and it let him say it without pretenses or expectations; just because #he 'needed to get to this' and she 'deserved to hear it' and i'm usually kind of meh on 'i needed to say it/you needed to hear it' #but this one; this one i GET #and i'm not explaining myself well at all i'm delirious but the point is this is SO well done and it feels DESERVED for me i love it #tm

[catboyithaqua]

MIU BECAME THE THING SHE HATED...... AND DIED BECAUSE OF IT.....

MIU BECAME THE THING SHE HATED AND DIED BECAUSE OF IT..............

MIU BECAME THE THING SHE HATED AND IT GOT HER KILLED AND KAITO HESITATED THE ONE TIME BECAUSE OF HOW HE ACTUALLY RESPECTS HIS SISTER AND CARES ABOUT HER

THE ONE FUCKING TIME HE HESITATES IN PROTECTING HER....... THE O N E TIME..... THE ONE TIME HE LISTENS TO HER. SHE DIES.

GAH FUCKING HELL THIS GAME!!!!!!!! FUCK THIS!!

#maxposting #digimon survive #digimon survive spoilers #MIUUUUUUUUUUU :( #hits that much harder bc i relate so so so hard to miu #her trauma is almost the exact same as mine...... her family 'looked at her like she did something wrong.' exactly the same as mine. #the poor girl thinking the overprotectiveness is kaito turning against her..... its not baby its not... his problem is his secondhand ptsd #from almost fucking killing a man. for her. because shes his sister and god forbid anyone hurts his sister. especially like that. #man.... ill admit that when he slapped her i was about to smack him myself but their story felt so so so real to me.... #and i remember at mius age. when i was punished in the same way #with that overprotectiveness and isolation. even if it wasnt meant to be a punishment it still fucked me up more. #but kaito just wants to stop his sisters suffering. thats all he wants. thats why he cares so much and why hes so so protective like that. #because last time his sister was on her own. she was raped. so he refuses to let it happen again.... #fucking MAN #this GAME #holds the cast sm #whoops the tags got SUPER PERSONAL let me just #rape tw #child rape tw

[perenlop]

feel like an asshole for saying this but man i hope my sister doesnt stay on our vacation long

#liiike shes coming to be with dad for fathers day thats why i feel bad #but we’ve been in a weird spot for some time now bc of what happen #and also last time i was at the beach with her she body shamed me and pressured me into s #into sitting in the tent she packed and discouraged me from swimming bc of my body hair #she probably wont this time as much bc ive changed the kind of swimsuits i wear #but then that may prompt her to insist to my parents that im trans #which i am but i do not want them to know that #im conflicted towards her bc i like her shes the closest thing i have to a sibling i can talk to #but shes also psycho analyzing me constantly and badgerinng me into talking to her and then telling my parents what i said #and when i mentioned the thing on thanksgiving she insisted i made HER uncomfortable and forced the conversation and she had to comfort me #when??? that is NOT what happpened at ALL #what happened was that matt had been a prick again and i snapped at him and she went off on me abt how i had to process my trauma already #while also saying he’d done something far worse to me when i was little (which isnt true) and saying i had to process it and move on #bc ‘’hes just existing now and you have a problem with that so you need to get over it’’ #‘’i KNOW he did that i KNOW he hurt you worse than youll admit bc you want to protect him but you HAVE to get over it and talk about it!!’’ #and i asked and asked and asked her to stop bc it was uncomfortable and she just #and she knows she fucked up with that bc she avoided me on christmas and ‘’had to give me distance’’ on text #my mom’s encouraging me to just go off if she tries that again tho so that’s something #dl

[dyketubbo]

ctommy really said it all when he said (c)wilbur wanted to be treated badly so he treated others badly. cwilbur hurting himself and him hurting others often goes hand in hand, and while it is good to not let it be misconstrued that he strictly hurts others to focus on how he hurts himself it is. also not good to try and claim he just doesnt hurt others

#keeping this part in the tags #but also sui warning #for the discussion in the tags #i think separating suicide completely from the idea that it doesnt just hurt the person who kills themself isss. not great? #people will be hurt by suicide even if they arent the suicide victim. its a part of grief #no it isnt justified for characters like eret and niki to turn suicide into this antagonistic act on wilburs part to hurt them #but it also isnt good to act like all of a sudden you cant feel left behind or hurt when someone kills themself #especially considering a significant part of cwilburs suicide was in fact about hurting others #he literally rigged lmanburg with tnt and has admitted to the fact that passing down presidency was go hurt tubbo #(and to an extent it was likely originally to hurt tommy) #a big part of wilburs self harm is about how he hurts others too #to claim that the others are simply Not Allowed to feel hurt by his actions is a little fucked #AGAIN. THIS IS NOT TO SAY IT IS RIGHT FOR THEM TO MAKE CWILBURS SUICIDE ALL ABOUT HOW THEY WERE HURT #its simply to say that i dont think the solution would be for them to not talk about how it hurt them #nor is the solution for them to not feel hurt at all #its perfectly okay for ceret to feel hurt by what cwilbur did. regardless of whether cwilburs actions were justified or not #you all Have to remember not to tie emotions to the question of whether something is okay or not #discussing whether a character is shitty or not for saying or doing something shouldnt be hand in hand with saying that- #-they werent hurt at all or dont deserve to feel hurt #thats fucked up lol #mask mews #self harm tw #dsmp #wilbur

[lilgynt]

you know what funny enough during all of the shit between the last few days my brother and i were doing our usual routine of awkwardly texting and then i noticed with his like letter saying how he loves and thanks me for dealing with this fucked situation he sent me like 50 bucks so i got my dad settled long enough for me to make a two bags of edibles deep call to him and we talked a lot

#personal #i called out the shit i thought i should #like we were both at negative times in our life #my negative didn’t break ur door 😐 #and he was like fair that’s too my negative stuff negatively impacted your #ur life several ways #and we talked a bit through that and he was like you’ve been the emotional rock between us and always handled ur temper with more grace #and adding up all the hurts you gave me are nothing compared how good you’ve been to me/ in my life #and i emphasized that he’s been better to me/ my life than against it #also soemthing about him moving out causing this and i was like no a lot of these were issues when we were younger too #he also was like blame all my issues on mom and dad and i was like could have told you that in elementary #it wasn’t just bashing him but it felt good to call out those bits #and he even agreeed when i did! #he apologized and admitted i haven’t deserved any of this behavior #and he talked about his therapy and how he pretends to be me and his therapist him and it doesn’t feel good what he feels #he feels genuinely awful but understands if i can’t forgive him and go back or try to make soemthing new like what we had #and he misses just being able to talk to me And went over our bond through the years and emphasized how much he loves me #i mentioend that he mentioned therapy on christmas and i got a broken door for it #btw he didn’t apologize for the door bc he didn’t know about it when i revealed it i didnt describe the event to him and he couldn’t #pin point when it happened and was trying to see if he like. blacked it out. or something so that’s on me mostly #like 99% me 1% him for breaking it - my friends say he should have said sorry the second i told him regardless but meh #anyway he acknowledged that and acknowledged im gonna need to see it in action but he wants to work on being a better big brother to me #and he loves and misses me #it was nice actually it gave me a lot of what i needed i also offered to go to therapy with him so maybe on that but very nice and he’s #trying to help more with the dad situation- if nothing else is just acknowledging how fucked up this is i which is super needed

[technicolorxsn]

love how there are pretentious video essays that just repeat the book and meander and ramble about house of leaves. it's what zampanó would have wanted. it is not, however, what I want

#anyway i finished the main portion of the book #all i have left is the poems and a few other small things i think? ive read pelafinas letters #im thinking of getting the full book of her letters #but also they severely messed with my head so we'll see #i will say. i do get why ppl say the book is pretentious and frustrating #there was a lot of stuff where i couldnt tell if it was supposed to be satire or if it was genuinely just that dense and pretentious #and a lot of the codes were rly obtuse imo? #like... idk. some of them were super obvious like the sos stuff or pelafina outright saying what to do #but others like. man how am i supposed to know johnny waxing poetic about pussy was coded #i mean that one is also pointed out though much later but i know i missed a lot just like it that werent pointed out #and ive heard theres a lot of shit where the message you get is just danielewski????? which gonna be real. kinda dumb. #but i did also really enjoy the book #there was a lot of stuff in it that was just so compelling or poignant or whatever other word #the minotaur stuff is good (ofc id say that though i love me some minotaur themes) #also a lot of the scenes with johnny just...... christ #idk how ppl say to skip them hes so fascinating #yeah i could do with him talking about his possibly hallucinated sex life a bit less but also his story is just plain interesting #i still think about the part where the girl he was talking to runs over a dog they had picked up........ it was fucking chilling #and his hallucinations of dying are so descriptive in just the right way to get under my skin #the uncertainty with him and his family..... did pelafina try to kill him? did his father just send her away for being a bit too overbearing #over an accident? was there something else? what was the deal with his foster family? with lude? gdansk man and kyrie? #how did it get published? who are the editors? why did the band know of the book before it should have been published? #why does his journal section end with a story from a man he admits to making up completely? the doctor from seattle doesnt exist #the chronological end is more hopeful with him saying things will be okay but then he puts a previous entry after that? #i think the burning of the book parallels the story nicely #johnny said his piece; he nurtured the book as much as he could; but it was hurting him and he had to give up on it #idk! #this book does make me feel a lil dumb ngl

[zenballmaster]

hmmmmm also not totally agreeing with their shen interpretation either, but that's mostly bc i don't personally take his own perception/telling of the past, especially regarding his parents, as being what objectively happened ghfheio

#u absolutely can ofc. but i just find it more interesting to me personally if i Don't laughs #i don't think shen's problem is that he is ignoring his pain from his parents rejecting or Mistreating him by instead funneling all those #feelings into ambitions of conquest and power #buuuut that he refuses to let go of that perception and so much as open up to the /possibility/ that they truly loved him #bc if he Did he'd have to grapple with the fact that all of his hurt and all of his resentment/bitterness is predicated on Nothing #nothing but his own hurt ten-year-old feelings anyway #he killed so many people and burned so many bridges. all bc at some point as a child his parents didn't say something with the right tone #and he doesn't even remember why now. but like hell he's going to admit that when it's shaped so much of how he feels and what he does now #and then it just Kept Going #and tbf that's all kind of swinging too far in the opposite direction. to completely disregard his own feelings #even if they were based on his own flawed perceptions #........i didn't mean to tag ramble like this i'm going to go back to the video now #i have strong opinions on shen wheezes

[ohmygraves]

after one of your leave, you came back to work with a ring around your finger.

you didn't mention it to anyone, and people simply noticed it when talking to you or handing you things. they congratulated you, talking about the ring. you nervously brushed it off, trying to explain it.

ghost didn't know about it either, and when he overheard someone talking about it, he dropped his mug of tea on the floor, the pieces scattering around the place.

this was such a shock to someone who had planned to propose to you.

well, propose might be a bit too far, considering you two are not even dating. he wanted to say it, but things were a little too hectic and he didn't have the guts to ask you out and moreover you're not sure if you'd like him... even if you two have been friends in the taskforce for years.

then again, in his mind, you two are practically an old married couple.

he was clearly upset by this, ignoring you and trying to push you away. he was undoubtedly hurt. did you elope with someone? why didn't you tell him? invite him to the party? did your "friendship" with him mean nothing at all?

ghost was snappy, in a terrible mood overall. he snaps at johnny, yells at gaz, and even glares at price. he was constantly on edge and it's starting to piss you off. so you confront him.

"what the hell's up with you?"

he didn't feel like humoring you, sitting down all irritated over his meal instead.

"you've been avoiding me all week, snapping at people... did i do something wrong?"

so he went off at you.

"wanna know what's wrong? you. coming back to base with a bloody ring. let me guess, you eloped with someone? is that it?" he hissed, "and here i thought i'd propose, that's out of the fuckin' window now."

you sat there, taking his words in. "... it's a fidget ring?"

you showed your hand to him, using your fingers to spin the little parts of your ring. he didn't realize how you've been fidgeting with it, or how you explained to people over and over that you're not married or engaged.

all of the sudden ghost felt like his blood ran cold, not only because he just acted so stupid jealous over a trinket, he basically admitted that he wanted to marry you.

"... wait, you wanted to propose to me?"

#call of duty #call of duty modern warfare #call of duty headcanon #cod headcanon #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #cod ghost x reader #cod #ghost x reader #cod ghost #ghost cod #ghost