#hard to sort through it all LOL

[bmpmp3]

BY THE WAY i have been converted. what are your otome isekai/villainess isekai recommendations pwetty pwease......

#i read a couple beginnings of some and i was like wait a god damn minute. this shit is FUN #i understand now. i understand now. like how ffabiniku opened my eyes to modern isekai genres #the random ones i read the openings of on webtoon and tapas opened my eyes to this specific style of modern isekai #i think i was still a little wary because im always wary of parodies of things i like that are typically made fun of without understanding #(like otome games or shoujo manga) EVEN THOUGH i was mostly aware that most werent much of parodies at all #i was so used to old like smackjeeves webcomic parodies completely lacking care in their satire so i was Scared about all these new ones #but i should have had faith since most of these comics arent even about otoge half the time #and the ones that are seem pretty good. i think i was still Nervous hjkfdlhjkfds BUT i didnt need to be #theyre just fun stories with an interesting common mechanic of weird reincarnation/dimension hopping/timetravel stuff #theyre fun and good. i understand now. i understand now #interestingly i think the name otome isekai is still fitting even if a lot of the stuff lumped under the name has nothing to do with otoge #(and even some of the ones that do have some things that arent really common ie: villainesses) #like a bunch ive seen around are actually about books or comics or tv shows or some of them are just in one universe #BUT otome isekai does kind of still work i think. one of the biggest things that separates these types of isekai vs another type is the fact #that theyre usually marketed towards women and girls. which is why shoujo is called shoujo and otoge are called otome games #so in a roundabout way the name otome fits i think. an accidental retconned meaning that works well #if that makes sense #anyway give me....suggestions #there are TEN MILLION otome isekai and villainess isekai manwha and manhua and manga and webnovels and everything #hard to sort through it all LOL #ive noticed i actually tend to like the ones about books a lot rather than about games #i dunno why #also noticed these comics are WONDERFUL if you want to look at a LOT of VERY SPARKLY and very BEAUTIFUL lavishly detailed outfits #dear GOD some of the dresses and accessories in some of the webtoons i read.....some of those glittery EARRINGS #awesome

[pixelatedraindrops]

Yuma Month: Day 20: Truth

The truth…is uglier than you could have ever expected.

tw // vomit (spoilers too)

...happens only if he ate a meat bun prior to this

(all vomit in rain code is censored in pink glitter ✨)

based on this post I made long back

#Yuma Month 2024 #whumpcode #rain code #rain code spoilers #master detective archives: rain code #yuma kokohead #pixeldoodles #my art #tw emeto #okay the trigger is there but it is in a way censored XD #its kinda silly too but I will leave it there just in case #I'm emetophobic myself so I'd like warnings too #anyway yeah I had to do this for the prompt #yet another moment yuma nearly sickens himself #but this moment actually made me put my game down for 3 days #and I even contemplated on finishing it at all #I do NOT like cannibalism.. x-x even if its a giant meme now #it messed me up pretty badly playing the first time #and then after 3 days and a few walks to clear my head #i finished the game and yeah it made sense lol #anyway yeah the truth is pretty horrific #had to find another excuse to put yuma through hell lol #that pose was hard so it probably doesn't look perfect orz #dw tomorrow's prompt will likely be more wholesome #what's funny about this is they do get a solution key after this #shinigami’s like ‘huh did you cough it up master? mmm nope.’ #anyway I hope I didn’t scare you all w this!! #very unlike me to draw this sort of thing...xD #I wanted to try drawing it once to test the waters ig?? #that scene in Ch5 was kinda bait anyway lmao

[todayisafridaynight]

tw // suicide

on twitter some ppl were talking about THAT jo scene from iw again and someone commented fucking "you know he was thinking about using that gun on himself" and im not sane anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! added something something his faith in ichi kept him hopeful enough in the moment but then when he went to jail oh. ohhh !!!!!!!!!!!

nooo cause if That Jo Scene is the flashback scene with hoshino's death that really had to be SUUUCH a low point if not top five lowest points for him i wanted to throw up watching that <- replays it in my brain constantly

#iw spoilers #snap chats #UGH I WANNA REPLAY IW SO BAD i still wanna see the scenes with english dubbing but i wanna finish lost judgment first #in any case no i love that scene. like you can see the will to live leave jo's body as he goes to sit down #god naw cause i was laughing (read: crying) over how jo really let that dog comment get to him. loved that really .... #i do enjoy the added context to sawashiro and his relationship with ichi even if its sort of one sided #like ichis never really harbored ill will towards him- hes not happy about how sawashiro treated him back then LOL #but it was still clear he respected him #with sawashiro- like once you know the whole locker mix up secret then it contextualizes their relationship (from jo's pov anyway) #but just sawashiro having actually MET akane and speaking with her and listening to her wish .. idk. #its a nice thought that- for as hard as he is on ichi- he is trying to look out for him for akane's sake #emphasis on For As Hard As He Is like my man you dont gotta take his finger off 💀💀 in any case ... #maybe thats just optimistic thinking but its a nice thought. This All In Relation to having faith in ichi to Not game end himself 💀 #god but sawashiro in jail .. i really wouldve paid money just to know what was going through his head #how he reacted to aoki's death the moment he was told- like he already knew aoki never valued him but still... fathers love and all #ive rambled long enough vjlLKVEJVLKEJ BYE

[rosykims]

can confirm sigrun is so so so much funnier and more perfect when ur playing a warden who acts like this unironically. felt genuinely read to filth when she said this

#oc: elspeth #tay plays dao #i think sigrun helps elles come to terms with going back into the deep roads after the main game #for a few hours descending the knotwood - visibly dissassociating w stress - she comes too long enough to be like. annoyed #at this person who by all accounts has experienced exactly what she and other grim fucked up legionnaires have gone through #except shes still happy go lucky about everything???? #so shes like ok she must be new lol. BUT EVEN THEN SHES LIKE. HOW TF ARE YOU STILL LIKE. HAPPY LOL #i think the idea of someone not being afraid of the deep roads bc they actually take the legion's concept of Already Being Dead seriously #is SO interesting and helpful to her and she adopts the same sort of mindset as well. to cope #she looks to dwarven example a lot as a warden but esp this mission and then afterwards sealing up the tunnel in vigils keep #and fighting the mother obviously #anyway we as a collective are not stanning sigrun hard enough i love her so bad

[bigkickguy]

yesod vergilius roland doodles to try and fight through art block most of these dont make sense but whatever works to get something on paper

#kickdraw #yesrolver #library of ruina spoilers #i feel like vergilius would like yesod cause he is efficient and blunt = easy to understand and work with #but also i think yesod will yell at anyone - so when he yells at verg and hits too close there would be problems #i think they'd be fine if they could get on the 'we all have the same dream' sort of page + respect each other #basically similar character development to yesod + roland in ruina #but i feel like if roland tried to yell at vergilius after the leviathan break up? verg would laser vision him #yesod is more like a fly annoying but harmless - so he doesn't get the laser vision unless he gets in the way of the mission #until yesod gets too personal with criticizing vergilius hating himself - then its back to laser vision #I should write out a chart for this once i settle on it and think it over more lol #its hard thinking of how they'd act its been so long since i last read through ruina and vergilius is a hard guy to read for me

[sysig]

They need long hair, and to put it in a bow! (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #The Captain #ZEX #DAX #It's very important! They gotta look like proper maritime pirates/naval officers! I need the cute little ribbons! #I'm chalking this one up to Muppet Treasure Island as well - Beaker's cute little ponytail got me bad you're welcome lol #Originally the Captain's was just on his own but then the others filed in politely lol #I never can decide on a human!ZEX look - especially since I want him to have long hair as a pirate! #Something something masculinity expressed through hair lengths - short military crop cut as well as long but tied up #Or not tied up 👀 It's all such a good look on him! But there must be an overall winner in there somewhere! #Also doesn't help that I can't decide on or pin down his facial structure or body type lol #I mean yes curvy obviously <3 But do I give him a strong jawline? It goes so well with his short-cropped hair but does it with long hair?? #I also think that any hairstyle can suit any face it's just jdkfslafd hard to draw in a way I can recreate and am happy with! #I'll get him yet! He won't escape me! He's too pretty to let go of! (Lol) #He's also harder to decorate with human ears haha ♪ He needs more hair accessories! More than just a ribbon! #I usually imagine him with finer hair so maybe one of those like ponytail accessories? What are they called uhhh #A ponytail wrap! That thing! Yes! :D He'd look great with a ponytail wrap! And it'd keep his hair out of the way! Lovely <3 #DAX also had to make an appearance obviously ♪ Love him too much to leave him out of the festivities I'm sure he's very happy lol #He did predominately get the eyepatch tho good for him - all sorts of accessories and useful human inventions! #Gets it gifted from ZEX like ''Oh ♥'' and then ZEX is like ''Isn't it great my Captain gave it to me but I like having both eyes free :D'' #Poor DAX haha ♪ #I'll give him a handsomer bow another time I'm sure he'd look great in something darker and more loose and flowy <3

[pixel-bloom]

Yeah my sims are happily in love, despite everything. What of it? 🥲

#if you're new around here #all three of my gen4/5 couples have been through some garbage #and only 1/3 processed it correctly #the first two couples still have shit to sort #bleeeh it's been really hard playing this legacy bc ant/lucia fight constantly (they have a love/hate thing) #and gnat and max are still hurt by each other so they're sad most of the time #and don't get me started on the fears LOL i need to mod my game more to get rid of all these emotions and fears #anyone else's evil sims going off the rails more?! mine are killing their relationships #gen 4 #gen 5 #ant #lucia #gnat #max #ladybug #theo #last ramble...the shot of theo and ladybug is full circle and i am not ok #they used to meet at the pier and smoke and its where they both confessed they liked eachother #but they decided to just be friends AND T_T!! FULL CIRCLE

[mainfaggot]

I have been having a hard time falling asleep lately like not as bad as pre-taking sleeping meds ... it only takes an hour to be snorking and mimiming but my body hurts all over and I toss and turn and I can't get my brain to Shut UP no matter how exhausted I am it's the worst like I just have to wait for the sleeping pills to take over bc otherwise I could probably stay up for 3 hours trying to sleep without them

#-_- #also today i was thinking in circles in the shower. i was in there for FORTY MINUTES i exited feeling dehydrated as fuck lol #it's all just 'im so tired. why am I trying so hard. this is trying? all i do is try to be normal and i call this trying hard? but it is' #'it is hard. for me right now it's hard. and im trying. but it sucks because it all feels so wishy washy lackluster slowed down bleak dull' #'like. it's like I'm going through the motions except im very aware of the motions so im forcing myself to go through them but then that #wouldnt be going through the motions would it? because doesn't that expression imply a sort of mindlessness and robotic behaviour lacking #awareness? except i am aware. i am acutely aware that im simply doing for the sake of doing and passing time slowly and not in a soothing #way but rather in a way that feels draining and exhausting #and im almost always dreading the next task and almost always unsatisfied at the end of each day' #good grief. #z.post

[acaciapines]

every day i think. surely i have written enough fight scenes by now that they will have gotten easier, right? and every day i sit down to write a fight scene and realize oh. no. i have absolutely no idea what i am doing.

#chatter #yes im on tumblr instead of writing. what of it. #IM NOT A VISUAL PERSON.....fight scenes are just Noise to me i literally just wing it every time #idk man. heres some dialogue. lets all pretend the sword stuff in between makes any sort of sense #literally my achilles heel its been years and years and years and they are just as hard every single time #youd think id stop writing things w fight scenes but nope!! i just keep!! doing it!!! #anyways i just gotta get through this and im home free the rest of the nimona fic is fight-scene free #(at least fight scenes to this extent bc everything eelse is way more. emotional. n i can do those just fine lol) #okay. time to get back to writing. and or procrastinating writing. its all part of my process

[witherbythesword]

thinking about unspeakable violence dished out like a soft caress. No sudden force, no screams of "no, no please stop" but just two people completly wrapped up in each other.

Embrasing the pain they give willingly and eagerly. Even as it gets more intense. Why act like you don't want it, you both you want it. To be hit and choked and cut with whinces and controlled breathing through the pain and tears but always a soft smile at the end.

Them being allowed to completly tire themself out, flex their muscles as much as they want. Feeling completly accepted and loved in their sadism. I want to be so good they get into a dom rush. Getting more and more intense and violent until they can't help themself and fold me in two to fuck me to pieces.

thinking about the calmness and the pain. The slow pressing of throats and forming bruises. Smiling into kisses as a pain that was almost unbearable subsides, ready to take more.

Being cut and it hurts so bad, your pupils blown wide, your whole focus on them. You look like a dear ready to be slaughtered under them so cute.

and then they take a lemon to squeeze the juice over to make you whimper some more.

#wither writes #whatever #WHATEVER #And then just getting praised SO much after #clinging to them like a coala while we watch a nice movie and tell them how much the mean to me #and kiss them all over #and they hold me and we drink some hard chocolate #and we both know the pains are going to get worse before they get better but it's just a form love takes shape for us #nsfwtext #so it's okay #just us both glowing and being fully sateiated in our masochist and sadist urges #and feeling so connected #i love other ways of getting hurt of course too! #but it's sunday and all i want is a slow day of being a deer before the slaughter ♡ #:3 #Loving you like a prey animal loves their hunter #flirting (wolf with blood all other them and their snout burried in a dee carcass) #lol #yesterday my friend asked me something #and after i gave my answer they didn't say anything for a few secs and then asked “and how is living with that kind of mental derangement?” #and it took me straight out and i laughed my ass off #but now everytime I say something slightly weird I think “and how is living with that sort of mental derangement?” #very nice honestly #I am frolicking through the fields and running.into traffic at night the whole thing I can only recommend it

[wereh0gz]

Idk if I've talked about this headcanon before but I like to think Sonic "hibernates" during winter

And by that I mean he sleeps for almost a day straight, wakes up for an hour or two to eat, shower, check up on Tails, etc. and then goes back to sleep for another day

He trusts Tails enough to take care of himself while he's asleep as they both lived and survived on their own before meeting each other, and he can't really control it (if he places his head on a pillow he will fall asleep literally seconds after and nothing can wake him up) so he kinda has to trust him

The weird thing is, no other mobian hedgehog (or any other animal that should hibernate in the wild) does that. They might feel a bit more drowsy than usual and sleep in for a couple of hours but not to the point of sleeping the whole day. Nobody knows why Sonic specifically does this

Sonic is weird even for his own species

#ramblings #sonic headcanon #i like to think that going to a place with a cold climate all year round also triggers this hybernation thing #so he has to fight to stay awake while passing through them #it was incredibly hard in unleashed when he travelled to holoska #because of the whole werehog thing and not having slept well in a while #one time he woke up in the hospital because one winter day he decided to take a nap at around noon #and didn't wake up after a couple hours and tails got worried #he ended up waking up almost two days later and was very confused as to why he was in the hospital #i think eggman probably doesn't try to take over during the time sonic is sleeping #because. honestly for him it's not so much about taking over as it is about kicking sonic's ass #and he wants it to be a (sort of) fair fight because it's no fun kicking his ass when he can't really fight back #i think i'm done rambling about this headcanon for now lol i can't really think of what else to say

[grubbylilgoblin]

Think I was well right to miss this

#especially as we get more and more cracker island content #i ... i think o hate this storyline not in a way of #''man i wish this or that was a bit different'' or ''thats absurd but i mean its murdoc so....'' #but genuinely.....they didnt beed to do this...... #their loreless stuff is quite frankly some of the best because the fact that the cahracters are allowed to be happy and jist have their fun #it comes through in the tine of the whike thing #think about it #humanz the now now and song machine chapter one #all had story behind them #though it wasnt the main focus and yet it still came through in the songs #having a second ''haha murdocs insane hes tryna rope in everyine else and kill 2d again lol" album after the monumentos occasion that was #the original plastic beach ...the original end #murdocs original downfall from the king if his band to a madman bent on fame trapped somewhere by his own doing #can you really blame me for missing it #especially with the pure emotion we got from the albums that came before cracker island ..... #it was the gorillaz as people .... who they are comes through in their music #even though they dont exist #now all it is is simply trying to hard to please the poeple who want ''lore'' like its some sort of long running novel #and not an impressive concept that became somthing genuinely marvelous.... #i am very passionate about gorillaz in a way that i cannot articulate #but you need to understand.... #it ..... hurts ...seeing what thyeve been doing recently #i miss this

[koumeowkami]

does anyone here thinks of me as a friend tho 🤨 or a nice human being at least

#today is a bad day lol i'm literally overthinking all of my life choices #so i just keep asking people silly questions to be reassured ... kinda #i'm trying really hard to build some sort of connection with people lately #but i just suck at it more than usual #i'm gonna blame this on my pisces being going through pisces season #just me rambling #rant??

[bakingmoomins]

so my uni just got its access to unlimited google drive space revoked and now where do I move 81gb of files

#i mean. most of it are recorded lectures from online classes. i think? and a lot of pirated textbooks lol #but yeah I need to move all this to my external hard drive bc well. can't trust cloud services and it was too good to be true #also we got our access revoked bc my uni was like. straight up not paying for it for yeaaaars jsjsjsgdhs #i now how to sit down and sort through all my files probably also on my computer since I'm already doing it

[weathernerdmando]

.

#finally started therapt last Wednesday morning. or was it Tuesday? idk. #but i did and even though it was just an intro session it was helpful. #it was in part bc i was Not Doing Good. At all. esp monday night. my cat and dog probably got me through a good hour of the worst of it. #my brain was not being rational or logical and they were about the only thing distracting me from getting up and doing something stupid. #fortunately younger me did not have easy access to things that i do now bc id have been in the hospital at least once at that age if i did. #unfortunately current me does and its def a last defense type thing but if i dont know how a certain thing works then i cant do it #i am setting up Actual systems to deal with all of this though i have therapy again Wednesday and we're doing that then bc its Scaring me- #at how bad it's gotten tbh. and even though i dont want to worry people i know irl. i also dont want to let myself isolate myself so. #and not that there are plans or anything. i am taking steps to make sure there arent #but i dont want friends to be like howd i miss it or anything and be guilty or soemthing if i ever mention it #cause im not exactly saying anytbing to anyone atm at least not to the true extent of it. bc i dont want to worry people lol. #vicious cycle etc #but it got bad again yesterday when my dad and i sort of argued (not really? just. a bit of a heated discussion) about car stuff. #like i know my brain is not being rational but when its not being rational its fucking hard to argue with it #so. eyah. #personal shit

[aerodaltonimperial]

so back when i was teaching, one of the things i learned to look for were the "mood makers", as i liked to call them, of the classes. there were always 2 or 3 per class, and it was easy to find them in the first few days. you got those kids on your side, and it was a ripple effect with the rest of the students - they would all follow. so winning those kids over was huge when it came to how the year would play out. and from time to time, whenever the class was sort of faltering - middle of winter, of a big project, burn-out high - i would lean back in on those mood makers again to turn things around.

one particular class, when we had a big multi-month group project happening, were just... really struggling with getting their shit together lol. they were supposed to be practicing their presentations (english speaking class) and they were doing pretty much anything but, and their presentations were supposed to start the next class day. they were also PANICKING as i started giving out some feedback - which was NOT GREAT - as they were running through the lines they were supposed to be remembering. after realizing all of them needed so much extra work, i decided we needed to have a turn-around, so i invited one of the mood makers up to the front. i held out a cup to him, with two papers inside.

"one of them," i said, "says tuesday, and if you draw that, presentations go as planned. but one of them says thursday, and if you choose that one, everyone gets extra time to practice."

everyone was like OH SHIT. OKAY. THIS IS IT. and this mood maker, he was a big personality (they usually are) so i knew he'd really ham this up, and he did. we made a huge deal, with drum-rolls and everything, of him picking one out of the cup. he opened it up the paper and announced THURSDAY to a round of huge cheers. he was the class hero. everyone had TONS of motivation to work super hard on this gifted extra day, and really put the time in. their presentations were great. morale SOARED.

the plot twist was that both papers said thursday, because they all needed the extra time. my forever teacher advice: find creative ways to make things happen so that you get the buy-in from the class.

#this memory came up in my facebook #and i was like OH THAT CLASS #i remember this hahaha