#go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

Thinking about how when some people comment on how I squeak when I laugh sometimes I get insecure and when other people comment on it I’m flattered and thinking about it hours later and I genuinely don’t know what makes the difference

#anyway i squeak sometimes. #don’t mind me #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

I keep on trying and failing to make the same stupid post so I clearly need to go to sleep goodnight people

#go the fuck to sleep cyrn #the post was like #matt sees a cat on the street n kisses the cats head #whoop the cat is neil #matt is like do i look like i regret that my buddy #and neil is like :o but w blush #and idk #goodnight filks #folsk #folan #guck #im not even gonna felete those bc i think its dumb n funny #night yall

[toomuchdickfort]

It’s 3 am and my bedtime was 1 or 2 am and I’m scrolling through screenshots trying to find the names of 2 characters from like 2 years ago Bc I want to bring them back

#go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

Me, realizing it’s 4 am and I failed to go to sleep by 2 again:

The ac outside my window: click. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm-

#don’t mind me #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

Thinking about how it’s technically Thursday now and I’ll be able to use my middle name and pronouns tomorrow and see my work friends and also how my favorite manager correctly introduced herself as my favorite boss on the phone after I didn’t hear whatever she said at first and I’m looking forward to it so much but I won’t be able to give any of them hugs and like I’m still very excited but you know the kinda sad that you feel like this rubber ball in your chest?

#yes its late and yes im yearnjng for contact whats new #anyway i meant to be asleep like 2 hours ago and im still not tired which is a fucken problem since i need to be up by 10 tomorrow so i have #more than enough tome to bike to work and idk im #im not letting myself go down that path rn i’ll just make myself feel bad and wake up even more #hopefully gn y’all lol #don’t mind me #i’m rambling #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

@ people who have only ever answered to one name. You don’t have to you know

#go the fuck to sleep cyrn #this got stuck in my head i know its 3 am but i felt like i had to put it somewhere and didnt want to bother anyone in a message with some #weird line like this #so #don’t mind me

[toomuchdickfort]

I’ve probably made a post about this before, but wow, what an image

#youtube link #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

I’m still thinking about that morning I woke up and searched ‘situational hero’ so I could remind myself of a story idea when I got up and then I went back to sleep. I was convinced it was a phrase, and possibly the name of a character trope, like how glass cannon is?

#don’t mind me #i’m rambling #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

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As much as he wants to pretend he’s paying attention to where he’s being led, Derrek is just listening to his breathing and their footsteps echoing in the hallway and the ribs that his shoulder bumps against every so often. He gets into a rhythm, counting his breaths with his steps, and when Barrow stops him, he forgets to keep breathing for a moment.

It feels like one of them should say something, and Derrek can feel Barrow take a breath beside him, but they let it out again after a moment and knock on a door ahead.

It’s loud, and it feels like it rings through his skull, after dealing with silence for so long. And the room that he’s led into is startlingly cold... he hasn’t had to fight the urge to shiver in the past two years. A part of him wants to cry, but he knows he’s not going to do that in front of someone. No thank you. Tears are for behind locked doors and under heavy blankets and that is it.

Barrow gives his shoulder another gentle squeeze before they let go, and he feels a bit lost without the contact. But he came here for a reason, and he’s not going to walk away now.

There’s the sound of paper moving, and someone clears their throat.

“Mister Velhues... you’re late.”

The voice is uncomfortably familiar, but he knows better than to acknowledge that.

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@highladyofthesith @reliablyaverage @a-court-of-gays-and-glitter @french-fry-0 @greyandgreeneyes @mauchi--mochi @soupgromlin

#the vibe on this one may or may not be dofferent from his last piece #sorry #im also in a different place and also context so i guess it makes sense? #anyhow not having someone check this out before i post it bc its 3:20 in the fucking morning and im too impatient to wait #writing #cyrn o’neal #cyrn o'neal #derrek velhues #barrow #even though theyre not really #doing much in this one #uncomfortable silence is uncomfortable silence whether derrek notices it or not #hes just trying to deal with not actively feeling a Lot of magical effects 100% of the time #hes also not been even chilly since before he was stuck in a magic rock so #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

Me: finally almost asleep

My brain: hey bitch wake up time to write

#chains just sound cool #anyway someone remind me tomorrow to post it if its still cool #go the fuck to sleep cyrn #i still need to make a tag like that w sloan but like. familiar tag lol #don’t mind me #i’m rambling

[toomuchdickfort]

I’m like *posts original content* *checks my notifications* *checks my notifications* *checks my notifications* *checks my notifications* *che

#ive made this post but phrased different at least twice before but i cant find the other versions #don’t mind me #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

Nobody:

Me when I’ve been talking for more than a second: ... you know?

#go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

I’m like “ok I am going to sleep because it is 4 hours after I said I was gonna and also I’m sleepy and it’s 5 am” *thinks about my new character the second I stop actively listening to youtube*

#lol #i just already love them ok #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

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There’s a blinding moment of light, and Jones doesn’t even have to open his eyes to recognize it... but he shouldn’t be dealing with this yet. He’s supposed to have another month before the next switch. He’s not nearly done here yet...

He pushes off the blankets, squinting into the dark room to find his jacket and shoes to pull on before he goes outside. He probably just needs to walk out some energy... it’s fine. The paths from yesterday should still be set into the ground, so he shouldn’t have to worry about that, at least.

It’s darker outside than usual, but the moonlight is still bright enough for him to see the distortion of the conjured bridges above the water, so he sets off, letting familiarity guide him as he stares beneath his feet. It could just be him getting worked up, but the darkness of the water feels hungry tonight, somehow.

There’s a distant crack that echoes through the clearing, and his attention is turned to the trees ahead. Nothing big should be awake yet... so, of course, he’s got to go and check it out. It’s stupid, of course, but he doesn’t really care right now.

With that decision, he picks an offshoot of the path and follows it, looking for something stood among the trees. It’s slow-going, with how the path tilts and turns to avoid anything that had been in the way when he had conjured it, but he’d rather have an uneven path than none at all right now. He doesn’t know what’s awake in the water at night, and with how everything else nocturnal here seems to be, he doesn’t want to know.

There’s another crack, and it’s louder this time. It’s closer. And he very quickly registers a shape looming over him that is not a tree, and it sinks in just how much of a bad idea this was.

Derrek turns, but before he can run, his feet are hitting the water as the pathway vanishes.

There’s a blinding flash of light.

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(Here’s an even older piece I never posted for whatever reason) (it’s like. A month or two old by now) @highladyofthesith @reliablyaverage @a-court-of-gays-and-glitter @french-fry-0 @greyandgreeneyes @mauchi--mochi

#writing #cyrn o’neal #elysur #derrek jones #not main sad derrek its his like. universe b self #actually technically they swapped places BUT im not getting into that rn im tired #go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

I DROPPED MY WATER AND MY WARM AND TOASTY SPOT IS NOW WARM AND WET AND I HAD TO LAY OUT A TOWEL BECAUSE IM NOT FINDING A WHOLE NEW SPOT BUT I JUST HAD TO GET OUT A SECOND TOWEL BECAUSE TURNS OUT THERE WAS LESS WATER RHAN I REALIZED AND ALL IM ASKING FOR RN IS TO GET SOME REST BEFORE I HAVE TO GET UP FOR A WHILE-

#go the fuck to sleep cyrn

[toomuchdickfort]

Someone take away my not asleep privileges for a few hours Bc clearly I’m overusing them

#go the fuck to sleep cyrn #my eyes are watering so much i just need to go to sleep