#fucking sleep to dream by fiona apple....

[twelverriver]

when the pawn is such a lilah morgan album.... also on that note fetch the boltcutters is also such a lilah morgan album.... fiona apple songs coded character lilah morgan my beloved <3

#limp!!! fast as you can!!! on the bound!! get gone!!! a mistake!!! #i know!!!!! #UNDER THE TABLE BY FIONA APPLE!!!!!!!!! #fucking sleep to dream by fiona apple.... #ats #lilah morgan #fiona apple #jana.txt #i love her SO MUCH #cannot stop thinking about limp and lilah... might make a separate post about it

[crumb]

the NO-SKIP albums: a tag game 🎶💖

rules: share the albums that you can listen to nonstop. those lightning in a bottle-albums that scratch ur brain just right. every single track, an absolute banger. u could not skip one if u tried. no notes. stunning, show-stopping, immaculate. ur no-skip albums.

🔎 bonus & optional (but imo, v fun) rules: 1) add a track rec for us to listen to! AND 2) share ur favorite line(s) from that track! 👀

This was so hard!! There are so so so many albums not included but I think 15 albums is enough to where I look crazy but not tooooo crazy (doubtful) and I wanted to make it somewhat varied genre-wise. A lot of these artists have like multiple no-skip albums as well so picking between them was extra difficult—on some I went with the underrated favourite of mine to mix it up. I don't know! It's kinda all over the place. Thank you so much to @ventiswampwater, @visceravalentines, @avrilsboy, & @actualfucking for tagging me!!! 🥹 I think there were a few others who tagged me but then removed my tag, probably because they saw I was tagged by others lol, so thank you to those ppl too!!<333

Tagging: @xoxo-gossipghoul (& anyone else! I think most people have done this at this point? But if you’re reading this and haven’t been tagged yet then this is me tagging you!!! lol) Album List & Track Rec:

🏴 Damaged — Black Flag (1981)

track rec: Police Story

↳ This fucking city / Is run by pigs / They take the rights away / From all the kids

🪑 Songs from The Big Chair — Tears for Fears (1985)

track rec: Mothers Talk

↳ It's not that you're not good enough / It's just that we can make you better / Given that you pay the price / We can keep you young and tender / Following the footsteps of a funeral pyre / You were paid not to listen now your house is on fire

💀 Collection I & II — Misfits (1986/1995)

track rec: Mommy, Can I Go Out and Kill Tonight?

↳ Rip the veins from human necks until they're wet with life / Razor-blades love teenage flesh, an epidermoty / I'll bring back a souvenir, for it's my mommy's dream

🍊 No Doubt — No Doubt (1992)

track rec: Trapped in a Box

↳ Ah trapped in a box my life becomes void / And all of the thought for myself's now destroyed / Controlling my mind, what to eat, what to buy / Subliminal rules: how to live, how to die / Trapped in a box

🌙 Dreaming of You — Selena (1995)

track rec: God’s Child (Baila Conmigo) (Ft. David Byrne)

↳ God makes us dream / But won't set us free / Hey, hey, hey, hey / God calls us dance to songs we can't hear / Hey, hey, hey, hey

🌊 Tidal — Fiona Apple (1996)

track rec: Sullen Girl

↳ And there's too much going on / But it's calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion / Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

🦷 The Distillers — The Distillers (2000)

track rec: Red Carpet & Rebellion

↳ The palace dialed in the streets were burning / The red horizon came crashing through the morning / There was no contentment, only bloodshed / Red blood and social discontent / Bruised by puritan, oh, puritan exempt / It's like a peasant uprising

🦋 Greatest Hits — Mariah Carey (2001)

track rec: When You Believe (Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston)

↳ They don't always happen when you ask / And it's easy to give in to your fears / But when you're blinded by your pain / Can't see your way clear through the rain / A small but still, resilient voice / Says hope is very near

😈 Antics — Interpol (2004)

track rec: Not Even Jail

↳ I pretend like no one else to try control myself / I'm subtle like a lion's cage / Such a cautious display / Remember take hold of your time here / Give some meanings to the means / To your end / Not even jail

🌆 The City Sleeps in Flames — Scary Kids Scaring Kids (2005)

track rec: The World as We Know It

↳ A virus known as rage / Is brutal in destroying / And spreading all over the place / Bleeding culture / The dying nation / When the money controls the tide / We won't get another chance this time / We won't get a second chance this time

🎺 Back to Black — Amy Winehouse (2006)

track rec: Some Unholy War

↳ If my man was fightin' some unholy war / I would be behind him / Straight shook up beside him with strength / He didn't know, it's you I'm fightin' for / He can't lose with me in tow (With me in tow) / I refuse to let him go (To let him go) / At his side and drunk on pride / We wait for the blow

🎸 Favourite Worst Nightmare — Arctic Monkeys (2007)

track rec: Teddy Picker

↳ And it's the thousandth time that it's even bolder / Don't be surprised when you get bent over / They told you, but you were gaggin' for it

3️⃣ Three Vol. 1 — Joel Plaskett (2009)

track rec: Gone, Gone, Gone

↳ In the middle of a lonely night / Got caught in the hallway light / For a minute you were gettin' close / I suspect I've seen a ghost / In the middle of a highway dream / You got caught in the headlight beam / Down the road with your tired eyes / Good old boys with your old goodbyes

🫙 Ignore the Ignorant — The Cribs (2009)

track rec: Emasculate Me

↳ Spent all this time chasing happy / But happy is boring to me / So put walls around our misery / And gently emasculate me

🧱 Brutalism — IDLES (2018)

track rec: Exeter

↳ It seems like no-one cares / I think I'll take the stairs / 'Cause nothing ever / He punched himself in the face / To prove he wasn't gay / 'Cause nothing ever happens

#these album choices make me look gay angry and sad #which is accurate #tag game #tagging game

[barbiedreamtomb]

i made a playlist for my best gal <3

(track listing etc under the cut)

the world

i am the river - lael neale / heavy balloon - fiona apple / fire - kimya dawson / summer cold - bedouine / hello earth - kate bush / the apocalypse song - st vincent

annabel lee

abbey - mitski / mermaids - florence + the machine / gold dust woman - fleetwood mac /sleep to dream - fiona apple / buy the stars - marina / cop car - mitski

“the body”

entombed in ice - avalon emerson / haunted water - SPELLLING / newspaper - fiona apple

nona <3

human behaviour - björk / once in a lifetime - talking heads / i just love you more - kate nash / sea of love - cat power / and she was - talking heads / how big, how blue, how beautiful - florence + the machine / the wheel - laura stevenson / crash - charli xcx / leave my body - florence + the machine

the unlocked tomb

don’t fence me in - amyl and the sniffers / seether - veruca salt / fallen alien - fka twigs / do you take this man - diamanda galás / it’s not a fashion statement, it’s a fucking deathwish - my chemical romance

#the locked tomb #the locked tomb spoilers #alecto the first #my playlists #alecto

[moonlightchess]

Thanks for the tag, @velvethopewrites! I loved all of your song choices, I even youtubed the ones I didn't recognize and they were amazing so everyone here should go check out your blog!

Rules: Make a new post and spell out your url with song titles, then tag as many people as there are letters in your url.

M: Moonlight Sonata, by E.S. Posthumous.

O: Ode to the Devil, by Mad Marge and the Stonecutters.

O: Oro, by Seo Linn. (Oh my god their music will SEND you if you're into modern interpretations on epic celtic folk music).

N: Bro. Bro. Bro. Who the hell ELSE am I gonna send your way???

L: Long Live the Chief, by Jidenna.

I: Illumination, by Jennifer Thomas.

G: (I'm having trouble with this one, so I'll cheat a tiny bit) A Gorey Demise, by Creature Feature.

H: Heaven Knows, by The Pretty Reckless.

T: Try a Little Tenderness, (Stevie Wonder cover) by Avery Dixon.

C: Cut You Up With a Linoleum Knife, by Mastodon. (Also Chill the Fuck Out by Romes because I couldn't decide.)

H: Hakkerskaldyr, by Heilung.

E: Etudes #4 in C-sharp Minor, by Frederic Chopin as performed by Jan Lisiecki (my favorite Chopin interpreter).

S: Sleep to Dream, by Fiona Apple.

S: Serial Killers Know How to Party, by Schoolyard Heroes.

Tagging @odeada-nightspawn, @methotrex8, @laughteronsilverwings, @adrianexists, and anyone else who wants to try this!

#tag games #this was surprisingly hard but i tried to make sure they're all songs i love so check them out if you want some new music in your life

[frickinbee]

SO FUCKING REALLL AGHHHGHHH

#Spotify

[helen-cs]

A Response to July 30, 2017

Thursday, March 30, 2023

I’m writing this, 5 years later, as I try my hardest to finish this Geography of Hazards essay at Lait Night, in the Dead of Night, that was due yesterday (of course, some things never change). I knew around 5pm or so that I couldn’t fulfill my wish of finishing it on time, so instead, I fucked around online and got obsessed with e-paper screens with a fast refresh rate, so I could build my own computer with no wifi and just a word processor like the Pomera DM250, so maybe this can be the year I can reign in my dysfunctional, unorganized mind. Only this year I do very wholeheartedly feel like this can happen, with or without the Pomera. I’m extremely confident in my hopes and dreams this year, believe it or not.

Like all fine procrastination sessions go, I end up back on my old Tumblr. And I end up reading the post above, and I’m at a loss for words. I don’t know what to tell her, I don’t know how to describe how awful, wonderful, scary, gut-wrenching, and euphoric the past 5 years have been.

First of all, did you know that you have to pay to not see ads on Tumblr now? I have Big Girl money now so $40/year isn’t that bad, but jesus christ. It’s a constitutional freedom to be able to see pictures of sonic’s feet without interruptions. The memes became better on Instagram, then Twitter for a bit, but now I’m back here to see what this old piece of shit has to offer. I’m lying, I’ve always felt a soft nostalgia for Tumblr.

Anyways, back to debriefing you about everything. I’m pretty sleepy, and won’t have time to tell you about everything, but last year, your boyfriend’s cancer got pretty bad. There’s a distinct line drawn in February 2022 that signals a clear Before and After, and its more distinct and inerasable than all the other lines that you’ve ever drawn. I remember the old passive suicidal thoughts we used to have. Sort of related, but Fiona Apple once said, re: speculations about if any of her songs were about her childhood rape, that “It doesn't get into the writing. It's a boring pain. It's such a fuckin' old pain that, you know, there's nothing poetic about it." That’s kind of how I feel about them now. The anxiety and misery and pain of that time, Helen, was real. It was more real than anything, I remember. And I wish I could take it away from you. But I’m also here to tell you that it’s such an old, old pain now. I’ve wringed all the poetry and romanticism out of it that I can, and I can really say that with time, either it transforms into something lighter to carry, gets absorbed into your personality, or time slowly erodes it away like it’s paleolithic rocks in the sea.

Either way, I can say that .. I don’t really think about it all that much these days. Maybe it’s really because it’s wormed its way so deep into my brain that it’s just one of the flesh parts now. Who knows? Regardless, after reading about the pain from all those years ago and comparing it with how differently I think about it now, I think it’s a bit bittersweet. I know I desperately wanted it to end. But I think, it’s always been a bit surreal to imagine that pain not feeling as real anymore, to be a “thing of the past”. And now that it is/might be, I feel more distant from myself.

We wish desperately for a rebirth but don’t realize it means leaving the comfort of who we always were. And even if it does end up being better, which it is ... it feels like letting an old friend go.  

Speaking of going, I think I’m extremely sleepy now. I hope you’re sleeping well too, thouugh I know this was the summer before 1st year uni and you definitely weren’t sleeping right haha. By the way, you end up dating K. And he ends up becoming your first real heartbreak. Broke up with you a month into university, probably for J. But J’s a really nice girl and you both don’t deserve what you guys went through. You still wish you never dated him, but that’s the way it goes - lessons learned, life to live. And don’t worry, you handled it like a champ. And I’m not saying this because I pity you. Everything’s going to be ok. And you can trust me when I say that.

[interrobangbitch]

15 Questions

Tagged by: @wrestlezaynia Gracias, doll!

Nickname: Princess

Sign: Gemini

Height: 5’5”

Last thing I googled: vinegar rinse for hair diy

Song stick in my head: “Last Dance” by Donna Summer as sung by Selena but to be honest I don’t even like Selena that much not sure where it’s come from?

Number of followers: I don’t even know there mostly bots except for @wrestlezaynia it seems lol

Amount of sleep: 6 hours sometime 4 I need more I’m so fucking tired

Dream job: Writer/Performer

Wearing: baggy Budweiser shirt, ankle socks and a butterfly pendant necklace

Movies/books that can summarize me: Practical Magic, The New Adventures of Old Christine, Only Yesterday, among others

Favorite Song: “You’re so Vain” by Carly Simon and “Oh Well” by Fiona Apple

Favorite instrument: Piano

Aesthetic: Cute Witch

Favorite Authors: Djuna Barnes, Nigella Lawson, Helen Fielding

Random Fun Fact: I hate blue food

I shall tag: no one because I’m new here

#about me

[laurelhare]

ty @catboychuuuya for tagging me ilysm <33

rules: you can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, and then tag 10 people. no skipping!

1. norman fucking rockwell / lana del rey

2. death with dignity / sufjan stevens

3. train song / vashti bunyan

4. skinny love / bon iver

5. he can only hold her / amy winehouse

6. life on mars / david bowie

7. sleep to dream / fiona apple

8. changes / david bowie

9. should have known better / sufjan stevens

10. kiss me / sixpence none the richer

tagging everyone!

[venhedish]

Tagged by @alienfuckeronmain. thanks so much beb you know i love to talk about myself. <3 nickname: pretty much just Ven. there was an embarrassing period in my freshman year of high school when i insisted people refer to me as Sora because i was obsessed with Kingdom Hearts.

zodiac: scorpio sun, cancer moon, capricorn rising. i don't particularly believe in astrology, but fuck if that combo doesn't perfectly describe me.

height: 100% average thank you very much. i am *not* short. (5'4").

last movie I saw: i tried to rewatch spiderman: homecoming a few days ago and learned it's not actually on any streaming services. i watched like half of the second kung fu panda movie a couple nights ago, but i put it on literally to fall asleep, so. i guess the last movie i actually watched with the intention to watch was the old guard, which was like a month ago.

last thing I googled: lmao. "blood lick scream," apparently. i was looking for this gif:

favourite musician: that's an impossible question. let's go with the musicians that have influenced my taste overall the most? Placebo; Hozier; The Frights; Arctic Monkeys; Kishi Bashi; Beats Antique; Fiona Apple.

song stuck in my head: i woke up with Closing Time bouncing around in my brain for some reason?

other blogs: @necro-nomnomnom is my sex and horror sideblog. @digital-scrivening is my multi-fandom/random whatever sideblog, and @spn-trope-round-robin is the Supernatural fanwork challenge I run.

blogs following: creepin' up on 400. actually, i'm not sure if this is asking how many i follow or how many follow me, but the answer is the same either way. amount of sleep: ehehehheheheheh. normally? anywhere from 3-12 hours; i have chronic insomnia. i also currently have some kinda tooth infection, though, so i slept from 3am on sunday to 12am on monday. and then again from 9am this morning to about 1pm. time has lost all meaning to me. you did read that right: i slept for 21 hours straight and was still tired. :(

lucky number: 8 what am I wearing: biker shorts and a shirt with a very sad ghost on it. dream job: sugar baby. not even joking. pay me to be sexy so i can do my hobbies for free in my spare time. as soon as i get paid for doing something i love, i don't love it anymore. there's a reason the only paid writing gigs i take at this point in my life are for kinks that i am totally uninterested in. languages: English. i can get my point across in French, but it won't be pretty.

play an instrument: i've been playing the ukulele for a whole year as of a couple weeks ago! it was my quarantine project and i managed to stick with it to my utter surprise. i think i'm firmly an intermediate player now. currently working to master arpeggios and full barres.

favourite song: my fave song changes multiple times a week. right now it's probably South by Hippo Campus:

random fact: my favorite comfort foods are shepherd's pie and american chop suey. Tagging @lovetheirloves @hotgirlsummersam @fandom-hoarder @digitalmeowmix @queergoblin @margaryes and @samsvisions (and you, if you want to do it. i never know who to tag so i tend to just smash my keyboard until names i recognize come up)

#tag games #about me

[phoebe-fucking-bridgers]

Tag me

Rules: answer these 30 questions and then tag 20 people you'd like to get to know better.

Tagged by: @justawhitewall ty love!!

Name/nickname: mill, rebecca

Gender: nb

Star sign: libra

Height: like 5’6” - 5’7” I think

Time: just gone half seven

Birthday: October 11th

Favourite bands: led zeppelin, the mountain goats, joan jett & the blackhearts, the rolling stones, dorothy, the pretty reckless, crooked still, fleetwood mac, tears for fears

Favourite solo artists: lorde, phoebe bridgers, fiona apple, orville peck, nina simone, etta james, billie holiday, blondie

Song stuck in my head: andante, andante - abba

Last movie I watched: moulin rouge

Last show: the x files (hell yeah)

When did I create this blog: fuck knows maybe a couple of years ago? But I’ve been on here longer

What I post: video games, whatever shows I’m enjoying, writing stuff, basically anything that makes me laugh

Other blogs: I don’t have the energy for that kind of commitment in my life

Last thing I googled: ad noctum

Do I get asks: more than I answer lmao, usually for prompts and stuff I’m just bad at doing them sorry

Why I chose my url: it’s phoebe fucking bridgers babey, I liked the story behind her website name

Following: 54

Followers: 164

Average hours of sleep: anywhere between four and ten tbh

Lucky number: 6

Instruments: just guitar but it’d be nice to learn piano someday

What I am wearing: just pyjamas and a hoody . and a blanket (I’m getting nesh)

Dream trip: anywhere really, maybe back to iceland, or st petersburg, yellowstone, rome

Favourite food: ooh I prefer to cook but if I had to chose, pizza, veggie burgers, or a roast dinner, I eat olives out the jar so the bar really is on the floor

Nationality: bloody british

Last book I read: the princess bride

Top three fictional worlds I’d like to live in: most of the fictional worlds I like are pretty dark . . I honestly can’t think of one that’d be great, can I just say smth like stardew valley?

Favourite colour: blue

Tagging @moonshaunted @fantasmagoriam @campsearchlight @whaattheme @ultrastimpaks @shadowhrts @glutaminase @lady-tabris @imnotamosquito and idk whoever else wants to do it

#personal #thank you!! sorry I’m boring

[skogsskratti]

Thanks for tagging me @on-a-ravens-wing

Name/nickname: Simon irl, Waldschrat online

Gender: male mostly

Star sign: Pisces

Height: 168 cm

Time: 03:27 am

Birthday: Late February

Favourite bands/groups: loads in a wide range and always changing. Currently listening to a lot of Katzenjammer, She-Male Trouble, Garmarna, Vroudenspiel, White Stripes and Die Elenden

Favourite solo artists: idk. Einar Selvik? or maybe Fiona Apple

Song stuck in my head: Zitti e buoni by Måneskin (it's just been esc yesterday, it'll be stuck a few days probably)

Last movie: rewatched Ronja Rövardotter (1984) last week

Last show: I just started watching Locke and Key

When did I create this blog: this one apparently 2013, but I had another account before for which I forgot the login, that must've been around 2009

What do I post: Whatever I fancy that doesn't fit in my themed sideblogs. Fandom stuff and cute animal videos mostly.

Last thing I googled: "barrios la catedral sheet music"

Other blogs: Yes, @theyoungwaldschrat where I post and reblog nature photos and sometimes heathen, folklore and craftsy stuff; @official-schwaebisch where I mostly just reblog German stuff; @askarthurweasley was supposed to become HPRP but is now just HP fandom stuff; and also @lepidopterascientifica which is a different account, where I used to post my butterfly and moth photography (It's been dead a while, but I'm working on a revival)

Do I get asks: Usually not

Why did I choose this url: Simply used to be my nickname (from Simon, and referencing a animated webseries called sinn-los) in like 2006. People stopped calling me that, but I kept using it as a username online until the word simp became a thing. I should probably change it here too, now.

Following: 1400

Followers: 240 here, about 1500 on theyoungwaldschrat

Average hours of sleep: anything from 5 to 13 (I'm a NEET, my sleep schedule's fucked)

Lucky number: 27

Instruments: guitar (not bad) and mandolin (beginner)

What I am wearing: A nirvana shirt and green viking style linen pants

Dream job: making a living from fun crafts... probably not gonna happen

Dream trip: Sweden

Favourite food: Most things that contain a lot of cheese

Nationality: German

Favourite song: Not a clue. I'll just post this playlist I recently made to show some of the music I like: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2PQBoKE5GAG3CI9lZXj2tS?si=c942525a75224a64

Three fictional universes you’d like to live in: the Wizarding World, Middle-earth and maybe Narnia if it was less weirdly religious.

I tag @screechingcrow @darkcottagecorewitch @wingscale and @lavender-hued-melancholy if they feel like it.

#tag game #asks

[lovethatlaiduslow]

i was tagged by @meridianheroine​ and @liathgray thank you babes!! ♡

1. name: syd!

2. gender: f, she/her pronouns

3. star sign: leo sun, sagittarius moon, virgo rising

4. height: 5′2, 5’3 on a good day

5. time: 11:10 AM

6. birthday: july 29

7. favorite band: mmmrjkdjd it changes a lot but currently florence + the machine. i’ve been listening to them (her?) an embarrassing amount recently

8. favorite solo artist: mmmmrjdjfn once again somewhere between mitski, fka twigs, phoebe bridgers, björk, fiona apple, sufjan stevens, and hozier

9. song stuck in ur head: girls in the hood by ms megan thee stallion. at any given moment in the day i am going i’m a hot girl i do hot shit spend his income on my outfit i don’t text quick cause i ain’t thirstyyy these bitches mad mad they wanna hurt meee

10. last movie: antebellum. it was... interesting. if you ever check it out please make sure to look up the content warnings because there’s a lot of potentially triggering subject matter

11. last show: bojack horseman. i’m currently on the third season and i’m losing my gd mind it’s fucking excellent

12. when you created this blog: december 2020. i used to be on tumblr in the past, but this is my first time being active since then. it’s weird as fuck ngl but i’m really enjoying it

13. what you post: my specialties are gay shit, pretty shit, pure brainrot, and my other incredibly niche interests i subject my followers to

14. last thing you googled: “i bet on losing dogs chords” i don’t wanna talk about it

15. other blogs: [redacted]

16. do i get asks: i do! i have quite a few in my inbox i need to answer lol i’ll get there

17. how many are you following/how many followers do you have: wouldn’t u like to know weather boy

18. average hours of sleep: 4-6 currently but i’m working on improving that shjhghfrrg

19. lucky number: 69

20. instruments: i played the violin when i was younger, but nowadays i love playing the ukelele, esp baritone :) i also own a melodica entirely to annoy my friends and siblings

21. what are you currently wearing: sweats and fuzzy socks wrapped in a huge blanket. i have work soon i am Decompressing

22. dream job: ur guess is as good as mine my dude

23. dream trip: anywhere in the continent of asia i’ve never been and i would kill a man to go. india or china or thailand or nepal or indonesia anywhere idc dude.  

24. favorite food: probably either pancakes or sushi :)

25. nationality: american (derogatory)

26. favorite song: oh yikes. do i. have a favorite song. ig it tends to cycle through mitski’s discography atm it’s probably happy bc it’s the one i’ve been hyperfixating on the most

27. last book read: the song of achilles! i just bought it and circe recently and i’m so fucking excited to read them. it’s already destroying me ksjdkd

28. top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: most studio ghibli films (i’m looking at you, grave of the fireflies), the fma-verse (yes ik im a clown), and either atla or tlok 

anyone feel free to jump in if you’d like! ♡

#i have officially had this account for three months LETS GO #not me once again being too nervous to tag anyone i am not good at this website #if you want me to tag you pls lmk and i will! #or just tag me and say i did #i think i left a question out but i’m too lazy to figure our which one lol #anyways no one dox me blease

[crepuscularqueens]

am i going to make another playlist breakdown that no one asked for... yes :) for samsteve :)

now - paramore (boy i could talk about this one forever it’s so on the nose of the whole them of it all! their energy is truly captured here!) feels like i'm waking from the dead and everyone's been waiting on me, least now i'll never have to wonder what it's like to sleep a year away / instead, i'd have some memories for the days i don't feel anything, at the least they will remind me not to make the same mistakes again / there's a time and a place to die and this ain't it

glory - bastille (oh god oh GOD. these two could have really had it all couldn’t they?? every single line could make me go bonkers from it) as we fell and hit our heads upon the curb, you make me laugh until i die, can you think of any better way to choke? / not everything had gone to plan but we made the best of what we had, you know? / and then you put your hand in mine and pulled me back from things divine, stop looking up for heaven waiting to be buried

homemade dynamite - lorde (you may know my thoughts on this one already! ah! but when they first meet and they both kinda lose it a bit for each other! steve needing to pass sam like 3 times then go and make his point again! sam harboring steve as a known fugitive when he just met the guy! wow okay!) a couple rebel top gun pilots flying with nowhere to be, don't know you super well but i think that you might be the same as me, behave abnormally / know i think you're awesome, right?

kindred - rationale (what can i say i have a giant weak spot for the bittersweet!)  we are kindred, tugging on the tether, like we'll live forever but one day we'll have to leave. i give thanks for each day of solid ground beneath our feet, but there are no promises for tomorrow for you and me / baby we risk it all just to fall like dominoes, baby all we have is good intentions, fine line in your memories, you’re not alone and you’ll never be, remember that we're both in this together

under the table - fiona apple (okay this pick is somewhat tongue in cheek because they are both insufferable smartasses who sometimes say things they shouldn’t. im thinking... “so you like cats” “sam.” “what?!?!?!?!”. like, this is just for fun) you know i don't go for those ones that you bother about, so when they say something that makes me start to simmer, that fancy wine won't put this fire out, oh kick me under the table all you want i won't shut up, i won't shut up

sudden desire - hayley williams (for the... well... you know) take the elephant by the hand and hold it, it's cruel to tame a thing that don't know its strength. but better to walk beside it than underneath. my kind companion, softened stone, my gentle giant, painful reminder

black moon rising - black pumas (we have to introduce a little heartbreak eventually. i know i did but yeah. we unfortunately know how this ends!) shoot me down and break my heart, it's the black moon rising. you brave the sight, i paint the picture of the black moon rising

lose my mind - kaye (okay but “i might just burn up my whole life”??? yeah that’s them alright. that’s them.) you're trouble, aren't you? i can see it, know you're gonna leave me bleeding, but you set alive every inch of my spine / i might just burn up my whole life, we don't have to be civilized / forget your loyalties to float in my gaze, we look good in destruction, couldn't we trust it? (all of that just SCREAMS them!)

fly me to the moon - frank sinatra (okay, so maybe i added this to my playlist for them immediately after watching ep 1 of tfatws. you have no proof.) you are all i long for, all I worship and adore. in other words, please be true. in other words, in other words, i love you

black sun - death cab for cutie (sometimes we just get very very bitter towards endgame steve. i don’t know that man.) how could something so fair be so cruel, when this black sun revolved around you? / there is a role of a lifetime, and there's a song yet to be sung, and there's a dumpster in the driveway of all the plans that came undone

demons - the national (you know how it is with me and the national. image of me violently shoving this song at steve rogers and glaring at him.) when i think of you in the city, the sight of you among the sights, i get the sudden sinking feeling of a man about to fly / can i stay here? i can sleep on the floor, paint the blood and hang the palms on the door, i do not think i'm going places anymore, i wanna see the sun come up above new york / i do not know what's wrong with me, the sour is in the cut. when i walk into a room, i do not light it up, fuck

the living - san fermin (trying to put into words why this song is so perfect for them is... hm. life’s for the living, you know?) i hear it coming, it’s coming this way, it’s digging me up, the dead have been raised / and it’s hard to quite describe it, like we're part of, part of something bigger

drive desperate - cold war kids (asking someone to follow you... desperately needing their approval) follow me will you? follow me will you? follow me down until, i will admire, oh i need someone who will / to find the words that lift me high i’d tear a hole up in the sky, i’d beg for your approval just to know i’m on the right course

estate sale sign - the mountain goats (okay! bitterly remembering when you shared a path with someone! when everything you had gone through and everyone you lost along the way meant everything in the world and then you feel so all alone in all those memories because they made their choice to give it all up!) some guy in an impala shakes his head when he rides by, but i remember when we shared a vision, you and i / the sacrificial stains all spreading out and soaking through, but i remember when we kept it pretty, me and you / try to see if secrets burn when you hold them up into the light, i remember when we loved each other day and night / every martyr in this jungle is gonna get his wish

end of the earth - marina (i got in my damn feelings for this one boys) love can never be what you want it to be, but i'd still follow you down / if we're torn apart, then i won't let go, cause wherever we are, it feels like home

heat waves - glass animals (furiously shaking endg*me by the shoulders screaming “make it make sense”) usually i put somethin' on tv so we never think about you and me, but today i see our reflections clearly in hollywood, layin on the screen. you just need a better life than this, you need somethin i can never give / i just wish that i could give you that, that look that's perfectly un-sad

deliverance - rationale (im aware this is getting repetitive) you sold me a dream, now i'm hanging on for my life, out of sight, out of mind / it's hard to believe that i don't mean nothing to you and i'll never back in your favor and back in your arms

emergence exit - freelance whales you would've been better alone without my love, you would've been safe from storms

#this is a LONG ONE #samsteve #mine #okay like i know i go off the rails with being bitter and angry about things with this but. in my defense i can't just pretend! #wish i could make happier playlists that's just not in my wheelhouse tho #i love them dearly and i have a lot of feelings they just HAPPEN to be miserable ones

[sassyredheadedmess]

Thanks for including me in the tag game @the-kessel-run! ☺️

Last song or album: A new find that is now on repeat in my brain for the last week or so.

And, an ollllld fave that is kicking hard in the rotation rn.

Last movie: I’ve been rewatching Pixar films lately, and Wall-E was the last. It’s also one of my most favorite movies.

Currently reading: Tiny Beautiful Things, by Cheryl Strayed. “She had to do more than hold on. She had to reach. She had to want it more than she’d ever wanted anything. She had to grab like a drowning girl for every good thing that came her way, and she had to swim like fuck away from every bad thing.”

Currently watching: Schitt’s Creek, for about the 10th time bc yeah ♥️

Currently craving: A tuna melt, and ten or twenty grand.

Coffee or tea: Coffee all the way!

Without any obligation, I’ll invite some of ya to join! @boudoirrx @friends-like-those @duckies-lil-pond @devastationwagon @scratchmeowt @funnygirlthatgab @scars-and-memories @oneohsixwoodfab @regnatorem-chao @baby-foxx and anyone else that feels like sharing! 💫

#it me #mine #thanks for the tag!

[zuzuslastbraincell]

tagged by the wonderful issy @outtamywayskinny (iconique url!) to answer these thirty delicious questions. yum!

name/nickname: sasha / alex / ash / sash, or some forbidden combination of those

gender: lmao

star sign: libra

height: 5′9″ or 175cm because I’m a bastard who believes in rounding up

time: 20:58 CET

birthday: 2nd october baby!

favorite band(s)/group(s):  godspeed you! black emperor, liturgy, the soft moon, sonic youth, dinosaur jr, fugazi, system of a down (listen i’ve been jamming to toxicity a bunch recently... we love to hate george bush here), depeche mode, moss icon, a tribe called quest, public enemy, tom waits, mewithoutYou, mother mother,  run the jewels, lightning bolt, fleet foxes, protomartyr, fuck buttons, radiohead (sorry)

favorite solo artist(s): chelsea wolfe, fiona apple, baths, mitski, patti smith, courtney love, noname, pj harvey, courtney barnett, steve albini (just anything he touches really), lingua ignota, MF DOOM, madvillain, kanye west’s early work only (again sorry but the college dropout is so good). i used to love grimes and azealia banks more than anything but time has proven me a fool on both fronts (more grimes than ab). i miss 2013 where i just listened to 212 and oblivion on repeat guilt-free.

song stuck in my head: ghost by gouge away. love to listen to a female vocalist scream her lungs out honestly.

last movie: bridget jones’ diary (2001) which is fascinating from a sociological point of view imo

last show: still watching adventure time season 7 with the hope of catching up to see obsidian and make my 2012 bubbline loving heart explode

when did i create this blog: august 2020

what do i post: rambling headcanons, occasional funny posts, takes that range from lukewarm to haute (coutre), other people’s cool art, links to my ao3 page (my writing is good), complaining (i love complaining)

last thing googled: “mace windu lightsaber.” i’m listening to A Civilised Age which is an EXCELLENT clone wars podcast and they were all discussing what lightsabers they’d have so i googled to check what designs they were talking about. so basically. nerd shit.

other blogs: @sashacore (art, politics, personal stuff), @profanetools (elder scrolls sideblog, lesbian dwarf zone)

do i get asks: yes but i dread every single one since i put on anon

why did i choose this url: it’s funny (to me, at least, i can’t tell if my jokes are good nine times out of ten)

following: 700 or something because i compulsively follow people back

followers: 398

average hours of sleep: ranges between 5 to 9 hours but regardless i’m always still tired

lucky number: 77

instruments: clarinet but i haven’t played it in years :(

what am i wearing: a new hope star wars t-shirt (i am visibly doing a shrug emoji but i’m too lazy to copy-paste so imagine it in your mind’s eye) a plaid shirt over that, poorly fitting mens jeans, chipped black nail varnish. very par for the course for sasha.

dream job: god just. someone pay me to write please.

dream trip: interrail around central europe OR i’d really like to do a tour of china, since i think it’s far more diverse and varied than most people give it credit for

favorite food: pizza, but specifically the 3,50€ takeaway pizza from the small southern italian town i lived in for a year in 2018 with the local style of fluffy crust / thin base. fucking divine. never again will i get that quality:price ratio. never again.

nationality: copying what issy says: “i’m from- 😐e- 😰 eng- 🤢 england 🤮” except i can’t say actually say i’m english since my mum is glaswegian it’d be death on sight, whoops! (i think she resents the fact that i’m english lol). but i am to my scottish family as james derry girls is to derry, if that makes sense. i refer to myself as bri’ish usually because it is accurate even if there are certain class connotations to calling yourself british vs. english (it’s a whole Thing).

favorite song: just one??? okay fine. fine. it’s chelsea wolfe’s flat lands.

last book read: i’m still reading beloved which is incredible but i’m also reading mort by terry pratchett which is a good read

three fictional universes you’d like to live in: 1. the one where i am mentally well 2. the one without capitalism 3. i think it’d be fun to airbend personally.

not tagging anyone but big love if you want to do this yourself!

#i am feeling very anxious this evening so this was a wonderful distraction thank you

[gayworths]

30 Questions

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

tagged by @arathesane, thank you! i don’t want to tag anyone but anyone who reads this is welcome to do it :)

answers under the cut

name/nickname: sarah, i have several nicknames but i don’t feel like listing them lol. most people just call me sarah or sar anyway.

gender: female.....ish. no further comment at this time

star sign: aquarius

height: 5′6 or 7

birthday: feb 12

time: 12:42pm

favorite bands: i have a lot and my memory is garbage so i’m mostly just gonna list some from my spotify wrapped/top 100 this year: abba, beach house, rilo kiley, the strokes, the national, fleetwood mac, talking heads, hole, arcade fire, boygenius, the mountain goats, florence + the machine, sleigh bells, sleater-kinney, blondie

favorite solo artists: ditto above: mitski, fiona apple, lorde, lucy dacus, laura marling, beyonce, dolly parton, carly rae jepsen, sufjan stevens, banks, kate bush, marina

song stuck in my head: champagne problems

last movie: last one i finished was the thin man goes home (i’m watching all of them this month). i’m currently watching women on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

last show: bsg rewatch. i’m about to finish s1 today.

when did i create this blog: jan 2011 💀

what do i post: mostly about the movies and shows i’m watching, lesbian stuff, whatever my current hyperfixations are (so currently rita hayworth, jane fonda, old hollywood, and agnès varda i guess)

last thing googled: mormonism (because i’m rewatching bsg lmao)

other blogs: uhh i have an ancient bsg sideblog that i never deleted, also a personal blog i made at one point before i got more into posting that kind of stuff on twitter. i also have a shameful number of urls saved.

do i get asks: sometimes! i always appreciate when i do

why i chose my url: it was a joke because i like rita hayworth and i’m gay. and then i just never changed it

following: 102

followers: 2145

average hours of sleep: honestly like 4-5

lucky number: 22

instruments: piano, flute, i can sort of play piccolo too

what am i wearing: black pajama pants, plain black t shirt, a blue plaid bathrobe that i stole from my mom

dream job: linguistics professor but like light on the professing, heavy on the research

dream trip: lately i’ve been wanting to go to iceland but frankly i’d love to go anywhere at this point. i’d fucking love to go to, like, the indiana dunes rn.

favorite food: oh god i don’t know

nationality: american

favorite song: i don’t know but spotify says i listened to space song by beach house like a billion times last year

last book read: i recently finished Olivia by Dorothy Bussy/Strachey. currently i’m listening to the audiobook of Persuasion. i started listening to the audiobook of The Thin Man but idk if i’ll finish it because it’s pretty horrifyingly misogynistic

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: the jacques demy cinematic universe, the redwall universe, and just like, inside the movie pride (2015) even though that’s kind of cheating because it’s based on a true story