#fell in love with my man again

[malignedaffairs]

The anchor ring that houses the base

#elden ring #morgott the omen king #margit the fell #my own work #man he's so much fun to draw #shiita is all subtle accents #morgott is all texture #all these gnarly horns and folds and scars and hairs #truly a crucible king <3 #love him #ahh i'm almost at stormveil castle on my current playthrough #time to die to margit and listen to him scolding me for my ambitions over and over again

[whaliiwatching]

finally my obsession with zoot suits becomes useful

#spider man: across the spider verse #spider punk #spider noir #hobie brown #noirpunk #DO YOU GUYS KNOW ABOUT ZOOT SUITS #they’re fascinating the history is just. ouujhghghghhh i love it #not to mention the silhouette??? the chain???? fuck yeah #plus… green carnation… wink wink #green carnations as a subtle queer symbol also fell out of use round the 20s i think but i like it so #also zoot suits are technically a late 30s/40s thing if i remember right but leT ME HAVE THIS #theyre going on a date to a langston hughes reading <333 #yknow how every spidey seems to have a borough?? like miles has brooklyn and gwen has chelsea #well. noir has harlem #IMAGINE IT. NOIR RIGHT IN THE THICK OF THE HARLEM RENAISSANCE #I NEED IT TO BE REAL #im so happy i get to incorporate my interest in the roarin 20s #into this magnificent ship. fucking fantastic for me #poem on hobie is love again blues by literally guess

[bonefall]

So, your Clear Sky post is absolutely horrifying, but it was very needed, so thank you. What are your general thoughts on tackling his abuse for the AU? Like you've said, pretending he's a good guy is not the way to go, but are you planning on toning down *some* of the situations, just to give some of the cats a break? Clear Sky is a very realistic depiction of abusers, but that seems to come across even without victim number 25, yknow? I'm very curious about how you'd like to go about this.

My most recent big change was bringing Slash back into the fold, because I realized that it was actually a disservice to not address where DOTC's themes dip into Colonialism. It's a hard topic, and I'm still trying to work out the details, but I realized it was important.

With how BB!DOTC is such a MASSIVE overhaul, to properly address abuse and the ways it impacts you, ableism and its violence, and xenophobia broadly, a huge reworking of Slash belonged here too. He's one of the greatest examples of how badly WC demonizes non-Clanborn cats. I shouldn't dance around it.

That's what I need to do with Skystar.

MANY of his victims have happier endings than canon, though. Bumble is one of the most famous, bumped up into a major character and directly responsible for the formation of ThunderClan. Bright Storm is taking most of Gray Wing's roles. Birch and Alder are getting examined, with either a father who wants his kids back or Milkweed as the mate of Misty.

A lot of people will die because of him, even more will be hurt, but I see BB!DOTC as a story about victims and survivors.

Others might grab POVs here and there, but as a response to canon which I feel is Clear Sky's story told in many parts, I center this rewrite around Thunder Storm. The path of kindness he marches down, with love and with anger, and the people he helps.

So BB!Star Flower...

Previously I was playing her as ENTIRELY just manipulating Clear Sky. She was loyal to One Eye and trying to get at Skystar to bleed him dry for 8 lives to sacrifice; but connected to Thunderstar over recognizing him as a victim who deserves her idea of justice. So, she offers Thunderstar the final kill, so her father will be grateful to him and he'll get power AND the death of his abuser.

(When Thunderstar looks upon Skystar, pathetic and neutralized down to one life, he thinks about the collateral damage that will descend upon the forest if he accepts the deal. He decides that he has found the line between Justice and Justification. Of course he wants the power to make his enemies cower, protect his people, and eliminate Clear Sky so he never threatens them again; that's not the problem.

He can still do these things. He wouldn't NEED the power of a war god to do so.

But if One Eye returns, he will be endlessly hungry, ruthlessly dedicated to revenge, and set out to devour the whole forest. Everything would get worse, and even more people he loves would die. It's where his desire to destroy a monster would lead to him BECOMING one.)

Even on its face, it was previously missing an element. There's a step between "Starf decides to bring One Eye back" and "Starf offers Thunderstar the final kill" that was bare. This is the piece that was missing-- That she, herself, is trying to reach out to the only person who's ever really understood her.

But more importantly... I do feel this topic belongs here, in BB!DOTC. Abuse is a MAJOR theme. SKYSTAR is a monster already. He's harmed two wives in BB (Bright Storm and Falling Cry) and played toxic games with all three kits (Thunder Storm, Pale Sky, Tiger Sky).

And I'd avoid Star Flower being abused... why? Because it's uncomfortable to confront the pattern that Clear Sky displays? That in-canon, he tries to cut all his victims into the same ideal shape, from Storm to Thunder to Star Flower? ...it should be uncomfortable. Everything that I described in Clear Sky Is A Monster is rooted in the same desire for control, power, and punishment most abusive people share, he just happens to be a severe example.

Yes. That includes how he treats his child and romantic partners. The parallels that are drawn between Starf and Thunder are there because he wants power in the form of obedience. Starf replaces the son as a narrative award for his "growth" of not killing random people anymore for a while.

A cookie cutter is an effective tool because IT ONLY MAKES ONE SHAPE.

You know what's more uncomfortable? Reading canon!DOTC and seeing someone who hurt you reflected almost perfectly in the character the writers think did nothing wrong. Because of "good intentions" that were not there.

I will say though, just to be clear; I don't see a purpose in being more than PG-13 about serious topics for this project. I promise none of my intentions have changed. Nothing will be more graphic or gorey than canon WC-- just more intentional.

I'm keeping the sacrifice because it's dope. No one is taking this from me. Girl Moment: Killed her awful husband 8 times to count as 8 sacrifices and offered the last life to her buddy as a show of good will. How else do you make friends outside of high school

But I know now that Star Flower NEEDS to keep the canon fact she has very little agency, UNTIL that moment she snaps.

She's sacrificing one abuser to try and bring back a bigger, badder one, because in spite of everything, her father One Eye always made her feel safe. Even though he promised her off to Skystar, and expected her to be willing to die for him. She's followed every command, every order, past the death of his mortal vessel.

The first, and only, selfish choice she's ever made was in reaching out to Thunderstar to offer him the power of her father.

Thunderstar's Justice is a story about a Thunder Storm at the pinnacle of his arc, how the survivors of his Clan are settling into the new normal after the carnage of The First Battle, how Skystar's arrogance brings a violent god to the Forest... and the connection Thunderstar makes with the daughter of a monster.

#Kronk meme: ''Oh Yeah. It's all coming together'' #I'll be making the fragments in another post #Just because this one's getting really long #It works well as an explanation of my intentions #I think I had been making a mistake previously to conceive of BB!Starf as a femme fatale who seduced Sky #Again: I'm not perfect! As I analyze and re-read with a more critical eye. My art changes. #Tho I will admit I do like the idea of a Starf who is totally cognizant of how she can manipulate a villain #Into doing what she wants. I do love myself a powerful and scheming woman #It's that it didn't fit my story or my themes OR even the purpose of BB as a fixit that addresses canon #Better bones au #BB!DOTC #BB!Star Flower #BB!Skystar #BB!Thunder Storm #Also imo this philosophy will let me make BB!One Eye what I think he deserves and works best as #THE WORSE OF TWO EVILS #The Tyrant of Tyrants #And man.... the idea that Skystar becomes the Clan patron of war... #The God of Summer laughs at him. #''Outdone and reeling your wounded pride speaks the words your tender mouth can never say'' #''That you were outclassed and now you obsess over the bigger monster you aren't good enough to become'' #''You fell into the step of a lion and think you can replicate what my paw does without effort.'' #Cw abuse #Tw abuse #Abuse #Child abuse

[alch-emi]

Primrose Azelhart my beloved ❤️

#octopath traveler #primrose azelhart #octopath primrose #Did a replay of Octopath 1 recently and fell in love with her all over again #Game still holds up btw I rly missed Orsterra #I’d draw her more but man. the details on her necklace are a bitch #I perservere for my wife tho 🙏

[the-dark-ghost]

Ok... I think young Jeffrey Dean Morgan will be living for free in my brain for a long time.

#jeffrey dean morgan #my man #john winchester #:) hehe #negan #actors #I think I fell in love with a young man who no longer exists again :( #It's not that it's of much interest either. Jeffrey ages like wine #the walking dead #sobrenatural #dad Winchester

[maegalkarven]

Also the fact what I'm going to talk Astarion out of ascension while playing as Gale who WILL grab the crown of Karsus for himself-

Like ok, hypocrite.

But also 7000 spawns over there and I am attached to every single one of them, so NO.

#a family can be you your tressum your vampire spawn boyfriend and his 7000 siblings #I'm sure mama dekarios will understand #tara: mr dekarios you need to find a mate! #tara when she sees WHO Gale fell for: ...I take my words back. surely you're not going to introduce him to missis Dekarios? #gale: of course I will introduce the man I want to marry to my mother! #tara: ...gods give me patience. but not strength bc I'll KILL that idiot #tara: mr dekarios this spawn is manipulating him #gale: i know! but it's ok cause I love him #tara:... not this again #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #astarion #gale x astarion #bloodweave #bg3 spoilers #bg3

[raiiny-bay]

oc questionaire

tagged by @sikoi & @salemssimblr (ty for the tags <3)

NAME: Kelly Parker

NICKNAME: Kel, Parker, Redhead, & (on rare occasion) Benny

GENDER: male, he/him

STAR SIGN: taurus

HEIGHT: 5'5

ORIENTATION: bi

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: american, white

FAVORITE FRUIT: lmao

FAVORITE SEASON: winter

FAVORITE FLOWER: iris

FAVORITE SCENT: ngl, it's probably weed

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: hot chocolate

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 10

DOGS OR CATS: cats

DREAM TRIP: he'd honestly be happy just taking a day to trip to go to a concert or something. he's not particularly interested in traveling.

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: 2-7 + Dhes

RANDOM FACT: his island in animal crossing is named hot topic

i tag @teddybearsims, @mattodore, @barbieaiden, @wldestluv-rs, @morrigan-sims, @fizzytoo, @void-imp, & @nekrophoria (feel free to ignore ofc!)

#i'm a lil late to this. i apologize lol #tag game #myedits #kelly #moody boy......... #the benny nickname stems from his middle name btw. it's bennet #the only two people who call him that are wolfe & wolfe's dad #idk why i made his middle name so obscure. i should've made it benjamin but like. whatever. #i'm not going to try to understand my 12 year old self's brain #also i didn't give him a favorite fruit bc the man does not eat fruit #he is the pickiest eater. if it weren't for dhes he would eat pizza rolls for every meal #& 1 more thing: his favorite flower is an iris bc of the song by the goo goo dolls #dhes played it for him one time when they were like. 14 or so & it spoke to him lol #he basically fell in love with dhes all over again & ever since then he associates the flowers (& the song) w dhes :-)

[dystopiagnome]

I got a new laptop.

#tss patton #tss virgil #moxiety #so to run down the idea because it burns a hole in my head #Virgil and Patton start dating at like 20 and it's perfect except for one thing #They want completely different futures and long term they couldn't work out #Patton wants a picket fence and kids and a marriage #Virgil isn't mentally here for any of that nor is it something he wants it's stressful and not for him #He wants that one bedroom apartment with a cat and a man who isn't legally attached lifestyle #From the beginning they knew it's a matter of time before they break each other's hearts but two years come and go #they're scared because fuck they fell so deeply in love with who they are #years later Patton moves on gets married to another and lives quietly #But the minute the second he gets to see Virgil again he falls apart because he can't love his husband- not like that #And blah blah High Infidelity Ivy I'd Have to Think About It Becoming the Lastnames Cleopatra Presumably Dead Arm #None of this is shown in the image just the idea that they know their end is coming #hi guys

[fishhuh]

I'll be honest I'm honestly relieved there isn't gonna be a s3 of ofmd. I understand why ppl are upset and they're valid for it but honestly after how betrayed I've been by it and how much bullshit I had to go through with s2 I never really wanted a s3 because I knew it was just going to fuck it up further.

Say what you want by "oh at least they got their happy ending" bc well, maybe it is for some, but for me there never will be a happy ending in canon at this point no matter how many seasons they put into it, that ship sailed (heh) a long time ago.

To me the cancelation just means the show is officially in our hands now, and tbh I trust us with this show more than I ever trusted David Jenkins with it.

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd critical #sorry guys not too big of a djenkins fan after well #literally everything lmao #sucks that it had to be cancelled and not just over #but tbh I think I love the show too much to gamble it's fate again with another season #izzy hands #poor man had the whole ass show on his shoulders and it went and fell with him #my posts

[goldetrash]

"It's my life!"

Chuuya singing Trash Candy

#my art #bungo stray dogs fanart #bungou stray dogs #bsd chuuya #bsd fanart #I fully fell back into the hole again #sob #chuuya my beloved #you beautiful man #i love you so much #raaah #singer chuuya lives in my head rent free #and it's amazing

[strampunch]

This was going to be a more polished illustration but I'm going to be super busy at work the rest of the month and the "Encore" short got me too hyped, so here's a rough version of Maxwell in some shadow shenanigans. I might finish this in the future, we’ll see

#Don't Starve #Don't Starve Together #Maxwell dst #William Carter dst #my art #so HOW ARE WE FEELING ABOUT HIS SHORT HUH? #personally I loved it but also I have no idea where Klei is going with his character arc #I'm here for the angst and the redemption potential #but also I can't believe he fell for it AGAIN #he's a pathetic old man and I love him

[xxrat--punkxx]

Was forced to eat cement when he was 6

#I mean he was thrown into the swewers but like same thing ngl #anyway so that Elden ring brainrot huh #I love Morgott especially #au where my tarnished and him are besties is so real #grumpy old man who has had nothing but hardships his whole life my beloved #anyway #idk what this is I never post sketches but it took me like an hour for some reason #also usually this is the part where I’d say ‘never drawing him again omg his design is complicated’ but no I actually #-I actually liked drawing him #my art #elden ring #morgott the omen king #margit the fell omen #elden ring margit #elden ring morgott

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

me when i remember that gojo never hated geto even once and never stopped seeing him as a best friend even after he killed him. me when gojo’s only regret was not having geto there to support him before his final battle. me when im satoru gojo and i choose to love one single person for the rest of my life

#this is the main reason i do Not subscribe to toxic gojo .. or cheater gojo …. or any version of disloyal gojo #this is a man who was met with complete understanding from exactly One person one single time and decided to stay in love w him forever #who was willing to bare his heart to him over and over again even when he didnt receive the same vulnerability in return #even if u see stsg as strictly platonic it says something abt gojo as a person . and how unconditionally he loves #if gojo ever fell in love w someone and actually dealt w those emotions properly instead of closing himself off #there isnt a single chance in hell that he would ever make them sad #i said what i said. #satoru ”my partner can do no wrong” gojo u are so special to me

[eremin0109]

When you realise that during the filming of Jab We Met, Shahid and Kareena were going through a bad breakup and yet they portrayed Aditya and Geet being so passionately in love with each other that it turned the film into a generation defining romcom.

#apparently they were uncomfortable filming with each other #but like this is more filmy than the film itself fuck #just imagine having to enact all of these beautiful scenes with your ex #(some of them might have even mirrored real life) #fuck man kudos to both of them #because if I had to work in a movie like JWM opposite my ex I'm sorry but I just would've fell in love with them all over again #sigh #jab we met #shahid kapoor #kareena kapoor #bollywood #romcom

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

Having now watched Bridgerton after resisting for years, all I can say is, if Anthony was my sibling and pulled that season two mess after all the trouble he caused me in my love life in season one...

*hands Daphne a knife and gets the hell out of her way*

#personal #I love when my men are messy and pathetic disasters #so it's not that I dislike Anthony at all #he's a sopping wet alley cat you find in the dumpster and I love it #but literally dude the fact that Daphne did not grab the nearest sharp object and stab you... #when he's like man I wish your husband was here to keep you in line BRO #you would have had to HOLD ME BACK #YOU DRAGGED MY HUSBAND'S ASS INTO A DUEL AND THEN NEARLY SHOT ME!!!! #IT'S YOUR FAULT I HAD TO FAKE DATE THE GUY IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! #I'M ABOUT TO FIRE SOME WARNING SHOTS AT *YOUR* HEAD #my siblings know better than to pull that nonsense they know they wouldn't live to see the sunrise #I'm sorry it's been DAYS I just cannot get over this #Lady Bridgerton's like yeah so sad Daphne had to leave because her kid had a cough DON'T LIE VIOLET #SHE LEFT BECAUSE THE OTHER OPTION WAS MURDER!!! #we all know how they got their second kid in Queen Charlotte #Daphne was like either I get a bunch of orgasms or I kill my brother #'aww you guys are pregnant again!' 'yeah it was sex marathon or fratricide' 'what?' 'don't worry about it' #Anthony if you think Simon 'I Fell In Love With Daphne Because of Her Scheming' Bassett #would do anything other than get the hell out of her way #you are SORELY mistaken #anyway don't ask me my overall opinions about the show or we'll be here all day but that one bit is just. haunting me. as a sibling.