#everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao.

[jvzebel-x]

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#so i got a message from my sister telling me something rather tragic had happened in our family #on my mom's side. one of my aunties passed away&my little sister let me know. #she also let me know that my mother is taking it really hard&shed probably really like to hear from me. #&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me #into talking to my mother-- like i was not almost dead for a long LONG time&she was actively disowning me bc i wasnt sick the right way #after a lifetime of refusing to believe i was sick AT ALL which directly lead to developing cancer she screamed at me in public #that i was lying about before pretending to drive off a cliff&then refusing to pick up her phone until she called me an hour later #after i had been calling not just her but anyone in our family who could possibly check on her to tell me that i never loved her #&i wouldnt have cared if she died&it would have been my fault. #so like. i dont really give a fuck if shes taking a death in the family poorly? like i dont actually fucking care that this-- like literally #everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao. #&im really fucking pissed off that i now have to feel like shit bc i dont feel like i properly feel bad #about my family member dying bc IT BECAME ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER IMMEDIATELY. #i do not fucking UNDERSTAND. #i cannot even put into words how this all makes me feel lmao. why. literally fucking why. #the cherry on top? my aunty died of gastric issues. you know. the family curse that i def didnt get so i got to work thru it all #while being called a liar. you know the type of illness that almost killed ME. that might STILL kill me. #but yeah my mom is sad so i should call&make sure to hold her hand like i always fucking did lets just forget an entire lifetime #&esp the last five years thatll be totally cool. #a tragedy happened in the family so fuck all MY tragedies actually i guess.

[futuremercifulnerd]

Im gonna try to read more this (but idk how to dot hat other than the old fashioned way)

Its negative talk lol and its long

I really try not to be a fuckin downer but i cant take all the things happening in the US right now, its literally so disgusting. I cried in front of my boyfriend when i heard about the AA ruling, because just like everything else these fuckwits are passing, its just the foot in the door. Its bad enough on its own but its going to get worse. Im willing to bet within 5-10 years that we are effectively segregated again and women cant work. DECADES of progress are being ripped away from us within months, its been only a year since the destruction of RvW. And i know if i just wasnt chronically online these feelings wouldnt be so bad but i cant do that, i need to be in the know of things, because these things are directly effecting me and my friends and family. Every fucking day it feels like it gets worse here. Im surrounded by maga conservatives who dont listen, theyre in my family and they wont even listen. Ive effectively cut off my mom AGAIN and she cant even get it through her head why her kids dont want to talk to her (hint hint its because youre a magat and wont shut up about it, on top of all the other horrible shit youve done). Im all for fighting to make a change and beating things into others heads about doing their part and voting, etc, but its so hard to feel like we can make a change when your own state is blatantly and actively trying to make it so you CANT do that, and that voting doesnt matter! (Pst! Hey, if you didn't know, Ohio is the most corrupt state in america 😉) Like how are we supposed to make effective change when almost the entire government is bought out by conservative billionaires trying to push us back into 1860. And dont even get me started on how all of this was just light speed exccellerated by the orange shitto getting into office and them realizing that "oh? We can just, do what we want and get away with it!" Literally the only saving grace are the truly blue states trying to actually be "progressive" (which is literally just the global standard of center lmao). Tbh i think ill be LUCKY if i live my entire lifetime and dont see us in ww3 as notsi germany 2.0, because thats exactly the direction it feels this country is going.

I know there are so many good things here and so many good things happening, but that doesnt stop the fact that all of these terrible things keep happening and that our own government is grinding us into dust. Literally trying to force us to be mothers, raise an entire generation of uneducated children for slave labor, on top of blatantly trying to segregate us again. Also we are absolutely due for an immense drop in birth rates, its literally not sustainable to just keep trying to double the population every fuckin year.

I cant wait for these fuckers to burn in hell, i dont believe in hell specifically but i do think people can rot for eternity in agony, and its exclusively for the 1% not doing a thing to help us common folk.

#literally any weird spelling is to avoid searches

[fallenangelloyalty]

One helluva orgasm

Well , dont kniw how great this is gonna sound.... but what that fuck, ain't one mother fucking ear gonna hear.... resavore dogs........... life goals.. . I have always daydreamed about, (only when I had a head full of rage and a body full of nothing)... standing in the corner, waiting for some to come scream with me..... mmmm, who did I steal those last two lines from.. or where... if you dont already know, I dont need to tell you.... are your curious at all????.... fuck it, the suspense is killing me.... mudvayne you fucking asshole , unmusically inclined,  self centered prick!!!!!... lmao... I always wanted to say that... fuck me Alex, talk about rambling thoughts..... fuck... it might sound bad. But I just have too much up there stored away behind doors that all have different key holes..... so you would think that if the key dont fit... dont go in there.... and I think , if the shoe fits, fucking wear it.... I wear a 7 by the way..... if you wanna buy me some shoes and call me out on some shit.... lol..    always hustling somehow... momma needs new shows and I'm broke as fuck.   .. funny thing is, fuck being with or without.  . I'm gonna survive either way..   and still be happy... most of the time.. as long as I dont go reenter the wrong door.... who needs keys, when you leave all the doors open. . I'm not afraid of who might go in there. I dont wanna leave anyone or any being, aka entity,  left locked in there. If you are in my mind, I gotta look out for ya.... i have done some shady shit in my life, but I'm come to realization that when i lay down at night, my conscience is bare..... damn, that line has been taken by zakk wilde.... he would be proud.... fuck what an i thinking. He dont hive a fuck either.... ... fuck me I feel like a retard genius sometimes... statistically the average genius is a housewife..... with a score of like 140 or something....  because a high IQ is fucking logic... common fucking sence.... street smarts basically.... and I got more of that than anyone I've meet with a college degree. ... fuck me Alex, so much wasting talent, I work at IHOP as a server, taking it up the ass everyday from "the man".... I could have been a fucking porn star, and or prostitute,  with very selected clientele,  and taking it up the pussy..   although I love to play with ass.... omg, I honestly hope no one finds this one and reads it

.... therebus only less than a handful of people that could read this and get it, other than that, I'd be locked up at rusk again... . . Damn, at least there I would get free room and board, free food, too be honest, alot of free entertainment... and last but definitely not least,  there would be plenty of listening ears that hear me as well...   ol. .. focus.... damn I'm in a tight spot (oh brother where are tho)... just in case it went over your head. Or wherever your neurotransmitters in up... I'm guessing In the hippo campus 

.. and that's not a school for hippos... I think it could be a place close to where all the dope smoking, free spirited hippies loss all there shit.... fuck me Alex. Talk about multitasking. I was  playing with ass and  masterbating earlier and feeling the music.... ok back to the top.... alot of times, during a body full of nothing and a head full of rage. I wanted to pita cigarette out in someone eye... someone who would deserve it by the way..  and say to them,  can you see  clearly now.... your welcome,  dont mention it.... just chalk it up to be

helping carma out... it's either a bitch or a blessing..  and the second thing I conjured up within this head full of bullshit,  is I would love to pull out my knife and cut your fucking ear off, which you wouldnt miss cuz its perfectly useless to you, and say can you hear me now, you fucking slut ass , whore ass, deaf bastard..... ok .. finally , back to my point... like I said I'm sure none of this is gonna matter anyways... fuck, to me it means everything.... say you had a piece of clothe,  maybe a 12 in by 12 in piece of material.... and that fucking shit mattered to you... It would matter to me too. . ......... (sidetrack). Do I wanna be on or off the rails of the crazy train. After scrolling al the way to the top of this psychotic piece, that flows from my mind and off my lips like cum I'm trying to spit out...or in this case flows from my mind and off my fingertips... hence, I'm typing you fucking unreceptive robot covered in dirty flesh ... *I'll tell you where else these finger tips have been tonight, if you could hear me.... but you cant, and I know that fir a fact, cuz if you are reading this and really trying to comprehend what the fuck I'm trying to say, unless you are a fucking trooper and have some fucking depth to the soul and really digging what the fuck I'm saying like we are kindred spirits and connected by something that is far from tangible ... you are having to read each sentence two or three times to feel it.. hell if you had to do that,  you ain't made it this far................................... should be safe enough now to say what the fuck I mean and mean what the fuck I say.... 

Fuck the poor pitiful me cop out... it's not about that.... it's about you, poor pitiful you... and by you I mean 98% of the people I communicate with... ok maybe 98. 2%... wait, I'm gonna put this on the table.. throw it out there for ya... open mouth insert foot.. biting off more than you can chew and walking around naked I. Your living  room... feel free.... jagged little pill... yes you..  and ne of course... he is my question,  and it's not one for you to answer,  cuz truth does not exist, but the lies do... perversion of the truth... misguided in misderection..... Chad gray.   Hiw the fuck , how in the hell can people be so two faced... how can someone or anyone fir that matter, be close to someone and not wanna even try to understand one another... answer,  people dont like what they dont understand... they fear the unknown.....  if they are not benefiting from it... gaining from it.. they dont give a fuck.... no concept of sacrificial love.... .... guestion...  and of course rhetorical again.... how can they say they love you.... they dont even fucking know you.... never tried... ....reality check.... do on to others as you wish them to do unto you.... common fucking courtesy of the human race... we are all connected in

[genderfreezone]

Do you like the Evil Within 2?

Yeah! Certainly not as much as the first one (i was not immune to being sad they left out fan favorites Jojo and Ruvik's Cube)

The rest of this post is me rambling about things i didnt like about the game, and then things i did like (most of my issues are how they treat the female characters tbh)

Its missing kind of the action-noir-gone-horrifically-wrong feel of the first game. The scare factor also suffers bc our player character has been through this before, hes a veteran at dealing with this crazy shit, it doesnt phase him anymore and by extension it doesnt phase the player. They really like tripled down on the Evil Corporation thing and both the intrigue and horror suffer for it.

This game did not drink its respect women juice (the first one didnt really either, case in point: Everything About Kidman) Sebastian is surrounded by 5+ female characters and only 2 of them survive (and one of them is his 7 year old daughter hes spent the whole game trying to rescue... and yet they never bothered to give her any kind of characterization or agency. A highly empathetic and supernaturally powerful little girl in a monster-infested hellscape?? HELLO???? Lily really had the potential to be the most interesting, sympathetic, and complex character--especially as she slowly lost her innocence--in the WHOLE GAME, but she was just sort of relegated to Plot Device McGuffin) The rest of the female supporting cast are killed off for Sebastian's Man Pain. In fact, THIS ENTIRE GAME IS CENTERED AROUND SEBASTIAN'S MAN PAIN. Torrez is a walking stereotype, shes literally just Vasquez from Aliens. Hoffman was the most likeable and believeable, except when it Turns Out She Was In Love With Liam Or Whatever (psst, guess what, i dont care. Also O'neal was kind of a dick anyway? I dont care x2)

And you know who i SUPER dont care about? Bland-White-Bread-And-Mayo-Sandwich Myra. Where's the no-nonsense firecracker of a police lieutenant Sebastian married? Not here, thats for sure. Her entire personality is "mother" and "worries about stressed-out husband". We got more characterization of Myra in seb's jornals from the first game, where she never even made a physical appearance! Horror media does this SO MUCH, women are either A. Sexy Lamp B. Hurts Men (Sexily) C. Mother or D. Innocent Virgin. It sucks. Do better.

The story lacked the "digging up old buried memories" and "theres more to this than meets the eye" of the first game. It felt too...... Straightforward. Everyone told Sebastian the truth. EVERYTHING WAS EXACTLY WHAT IT SEEMED. It all felt too simple, too easy, like there SHOULDVE been something else beneath the surface. And yet there wasnt. (I watched markipliers playthrough and i loved his theory that Kidman was actually Lily. It had such potential. Kidman's entire resume for the police station was fabricated, who's to say the rest of her past wasnt fabricated as well? It would retcon a lot of stuff and like 80% of her backstory from the DLC, but you know games like this arent above retconning important shit, and at least it wouldve been sacrificed for something with actual intrigue. Maybe it wouldnt even retcon anything! Consider: tiny Lily is taken by Evil Corporation and dropped off in a non-nurturing environment that would lead her to become the kind of person who would willingly join & work for an organization like Mobius. At least wouldve been a nice excuse for why Kidman and Lilys face models looked so similar... other than... yknow.... "WomEN ARe hArD tO DRaWwwwwee")

Okay okay ive been ranting for long enough. It probably makes it sound like i kinda hate this game, but i dont! It certainly doesnt hold the same place in my heart as the first one (which i still have very glaring issues with lmao Kidman deserved WAAAAAAY better), but i do like it! It brings back salty, grizzled, tsundere Sebastian Castinellos. It brings back spooky monsters that kill you dead. It brings back having a fun theatrical over-the-top villain who takes himself a litte too seriously.

I love Stefano. Probably not in the way some other fans do, but i love him as a ridiculous theatrical over-the-top villain. He sucks! And i love that he sucks! I love him BECAUSE he sucks! Hes terrible and exaggerated and completely up his own ass and ITS GREAT. He isnt as ACTUALLY THREATENING as Ruvik was (even in his bad assassin's creed cosplay. I could go on and on and on about why Ruvik is simultaneously a ridiculous AND frightening antagonist and how much i love it but uh..... maybe later) but hes such a FUN villain! Hes the kind of pretentious art snob shitheel i cannot STAND irl, but in this game i LOVE to HATE him. Hes just SO over-the-top you kinda wonder if he actually subscribes to the pretentiousness he spouts, or if hes just being Exceptionally Extra.

The other villains? Theodore was.... forgettable. His monsters were forgettable. (Its like how i completely forgot that Frank Manera was a character in Whistleblower for like... 5 years lmao i guess this game also kinda followed that "having multiple named/characterized antagonists in one game" thing that Outlast did) Myra, i just didnt care. Her final design was kinda cool, i liked the red clusters of insect eyes. Her monsters werent really gross enough to be memorable. The only reson theyre gross at all is bc they kinda look like theyre made of semen. (I checked the wiki and apparently Myra's white goo is "psychoplasm" and her monsters lost 99% of their gross factor. I just dont care.) The Administrator literally just looked like a 3D human model of Maxwell from dont starve, and i have to laugh every time i see him. Hes not terribly threatening, all he does is threaten characters to work faster and doesnt actually follow through on those threats. He doesnt even make fun threats like HABIT or anything. He thinks hes so powerful and ominous that his mere presence will frighten the player but hes just kinda all bark and no bite. Hes The Big Bad Company Man so you know hes gonna get whats coming to him, and you know Kidmans gonna be the one to do it to him, so hes not even that much of a threat. Hes whatever.

Stefano definitely got all of the coolest monsters. Many Arms Buzzsaw Lady was terrifying and i love her. And OBSCURA was just *Chef's Kiss* Anima was cool, she kinda looked like a mix of Laura and Samara. The Harbingers were neat, but really only bc ive got a thing for gas masks. The rest of the monsters werent really unique or weighty/threatening enough to be memorable. Now the first game is a fucking TREASURE TROVE of unique monsters *muah* you got Sadist, Sentinel, Keeper, Amalgam, Heresy, Laura, Shigyo, the Twins, Alter Egos, and im probably forgetting some!! But holy FUCK!!!!! And if we're includong the DLC?? MOTHER FUCKING SHADE. SPOTLIGHT LADY. LIGHT WOMAN.  SEXY LEGS.  Whatever you call her, i fucking love her. Her design is so simple. Helmet. Sheet. Legs. Her voice? Unnerving as hell. Love it. (Also i just personally love the diving helmet. Also like you know how a lot of games have a spotlight mechanic where you have to avoid the light and if it lands on you, you're fucked? LET'S MAKE AN ENTIRE MONSTER OUT OF THAT. She's PERFECT.) Oh and also those weird crawling exploding dudes. They made gross sounds and it was great. (Tbh Keepers still probably my favorite, if only for horny reasons)

TATIANA HOW HAVE I NOT FUCKING TALKED ABOUT TATIANA. Shes like the ONE female character that i fucking LOVE in the sequel. I love how they finally gave her a personality, and that personality is literally just "fuck you, Sebastian" Oh GOD its great shes SO FUNNY. I just.... god i love Tatiana lmao. I love how she makes you kinda uncomfortable too, like she knows something, but she wont tell you bc youre stupid. I didn't like the kind of "all-knowing guide" thing they did to try and make her creepy (like she's a "guide" but then also turns around and is like "no i wont tell you what you need to know bc you """have to discover it on your own""" or whatever") it serves no purpose since she never gave you any actual information, and it didn't succeed in making her creepier, all it did was frustrate me. She was at her creepiest when she IMPLIED she was doing something behind the scenes or knew something you didn't know and then didn't elaborate (not REFUSING to elaborate, just... stopping talking and leaving the statement to hang in the air, like the "getting her nails done" and "its been a long time, detective" and the "now what makes you say that" from the first game) and she was at her funniest when she was interacting with Sebastian from the sidelines, her snide little comments and sarcastic clapping cracked me the fuck up. Tatiana not treating Sebastian seriously was a fantastic touch for a game that otherwise would probably take itself so seriously it would double back around to being silly. Without Tatiana, it would've been just another male-centric gun-toting "survival horror" game, and for the most part, it was just that. She was definitely a much-needed source of slightly derisive comedy and a definite high-point for me, even if they didn't so a great job of making her creepy or fulfilling her "purpose."

Oh I also really love the COLORS in TEW2. The first game fell into the trap of having the colors be totally washed out that a lot of horror stuff does, but it also kind of worked for it. Especially with the color pallette of our main villain and how the whole thing was His World. The saturation of the colors in the second game is a breath of fresh air and gorgeous to look at, and you can even see the color motifs of the game change with each new villain: the game starts out with Stephano has lots of blues and purples and dark reds, when Theodore takes over we get bright orange and yellow contrasted with black and brown, and in the climax with Myra the game goes back to having washed out colors and white (and with her villain design? Let's face it: they were kinda just trying to do Ruvik again) We did get portions that were still kind of wahed out whites and greens and greys, but it wasnt the ENTIRE game, even the big blood-and-brains splatterhouse sections of the first game kinda had their colors weirdly muted for that "Horror Aethetic."

In conclusion, i do like the evil within 2, but i also had a lot of problems with it. And i complain about these problems because i like the game and know it couldve done better, tried harder, and been a LOT more than it was (the wasted character potential is my real overarching pet peeve, probably becuase i loved the characters in the first game, and character development is kind of my whole jam) . But all in all, it was still a fun monster-zombie romp with at least one entertaining villain and fun-to-look-at designs and environments. It wasn't character or horror or even REALLY story driven in the way I know it COULDVE been, but i still had a fun time and enjoyed myself.

#long post #875asks #anonymous #the evil within 2 #i couldnt put a readmore on a mobile post so you all have to suffer with me #my paragraph about stefano got cut out so i put it back in lol

[stinkgh]

16 (aka 'things I think are romantic' revisited)

I want a love that will make me feel safe and protected.

I want a love that will speak to my insecurities as if they were friends. Hell, I want to speak to my insecurities as if they were friends lmao I'm trying to get better with that.

I want a love that will fucking spoil my ass man I am a goddamn princess and yes I want a crown bitch. God please stroke my ego, but only when we're alone because that's more intimate to me than when we're in public. I dont like being the center of attention around other people but when we're alone I better be the fucking universe and all the stars in the system. I want you looking at me. I want you watching me. I want you cataloguing my every move. I want a love that will notice things I like without me having to tell them. I want a love that pays attention, because I do the same when I truly fall in love. You'll know when I'm in love because I won't be able to take my eyes off of you. Literally. And yes, I will be cataloguing you and noticing things you like without you having to tell me, either. I believe that people pay attention when they love someone.

But I don't want enmeshment and this is something I struggle with due to my upbringing, which brings me to another point. I want a love that will understand. I have so much pain from my childhood and because of that I've done shit I'm really fucking disgusted with. When I say I have trauma I want a love that uderstands what that means. It means I have a host of personality disorders that I'm currently sorting through, it means that I have an attachment disorder that makes me a fucking monster when it comes to this shit. At surface level it makes me not want to be around people for long periods of time. Anxiety and depression. Trust issues and abandonment. Clingyness and obsessiveness and anxious attachment because of deeper psychological issues I'm currently working to heal. In fact, this snippet was added on post because I'm realizing wanting to be watched so intently is actually one o those psychological issues stemming from my mother's neglect when I was a child. But this list is not set in stone and will grow and expand as I do. For right now, something like that is accurate. I want to be someone's center of the universe. Maybe that might change in a few months. Who knows? On a deeper level it means the way you say things can trigger a response in my body that makes me panic as if I'm right back in the abusive situation I worked so hard to escape. It means please dont throw that in my fucking face the way my family does. It means please respect when I need time alone, or when I see something in a movie that triggers me and I have to leave the complex because I'm having mild flashbacks and don't want to be there anymore. I need a love that will understand the nature of my trauma is embarrassment and shame and that I already feel fucking awful for needing to walk away in the first place. I need a love that will be kind to me, my trauma, and my triggers. I also need to do that for myself, and why I'm so excited to start therapy and learn some coping mechanisms and better ways to think. It's why I love my journey so much because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'm so tired of living this way, so tired of being hard on myself, and that the changes I want will work because I'm declaring they will right here and now. I want a way out, a way around, a new ground to stand on, a better view 🙌 And that's why I know I'm doing this for me and no one else, but also possibly one day there might be someone else and I'd like to not regress into a literal bean when the bad things happen.

I want a love that wont allow me to become my shadow. I want a love that knows her self worth more than her love for me. I want to know my self worth more than my love for her. I want a love with potential to grow in spirituality and health if those are goals we deem worthy to share, and I add that last part because right now I struggle with both spirituality and health so first and foremost these are goals for myself. I want to be a healthy bean, not a rotten one.

I want a love that will put up with my obsession with Kimbra. But not just Kimbra, my love of music in general. I want a love that is able to share things but also respect our differences and not try to make one conform to the other. This is a huge me thing by the way. Enmeshment. Also ties in to avoidant attachment disorder due to my inability to be around people and exert my uniqueness without fear of being judged, ridiculed, or feeling like I have to change who I am in order to conform to others so that I won't be singled out. Which, really fucking bothers me because as a teen I never really cared about this shit before. I always prided myself on being different, the ""rebel"" but in actuality a huge fucking weeb who didn't care how weird other kids thought I was. Where the fuck did she go, HELLO?? ARE YOU IN THERE?? Oof, got a shriveled up "no" on that one, I know I know. You're hurt, but guess what? you're alive. Just all shriveled up like a raisin. Some people like raisins, you know. I once had a bag of grapes sit in my freezer for a literal month and some of them turned to raisins by the end of it. They were surprisingly good. You know what, I should buy grapes when I'm out tomorrow, but not the red ones they suck. The green ones taste better. Oh! Then I can make some green raisins and they'll look like Yoda! Hah!

I want a love that will embrace my sarcasm and dry sense of humor, but I also want a love that won't use sarcasm to hurt and that is also a huge me thing. I have to heal my family's run with emotional abuse before I can love someone else because I have already let it show itself and me and that is not my definition of what love looks like. I want a love that will not shy away from self inspection and mental health. I want a love that takes an interest in this process with me. I want a love I can lean on when it gets overwhelming, a love that understands when I mess up and wont be afraid to tell me when I'm wrong. I want to be capable enough of self Inspection to the point of letting someone else in without feeling threatened, to know that someone else has my best interest in mind and to do the same for my partner. I want a love that treats mental health as a vital aspect to life. I want a love that isn't afraid to speak their truth but can also handle hearing someone else's truth, because we are both individuals walking a different path and my truth will not always equal yours and neither will yours always equal mine. I want a love based on respect at all times. I want a love that doesn't push boundaries. I want a love that's mature enough to handle mature situations in a mature manner. This is a me thing, but also a requisite I'd hold long term for my partner as well. In fact, all of these things should be long term.

I want a love that's warm and cozy. I want a love that makes me miss it everytime I have to leave because it'll be that much better when I come back. I want a love that will hear my name and think warm, happy thoughts, and the same for me when I hear my partner's name. I want a love that lasts a lifetime. I want a love I can grow old with. I want a partner, a lover, a friend, a confidant, a business partner, a co-parent, a marriage, a bond, a mate, a werewolf to my vampire, an angel to my demon. I want a fire, a hot burning love filled with so much passion it could melt everything around it. Engulf me, I want to be consumed by everything a love like this would bring. I want to be swallowed up by a love so powerful we could rule the world together. I want it raw and then I want to bake it at the right temperature, decorate it and make it pretty. I want a love that will help me make something so beautiful. I want a love that will help me maintain it's beauty all the way until the end. And then when it's time to go I want a love that will help me eat it, too.

Yeah I just compared love to baking a cake. I also want a love that wont mind my cheesy metaphors. Secretly I like being poetic. My life has so much darkness you have to find light somewhere.

I want a love that will love me every bit as much as I love them.

This is the kind of love I want.

#ref1