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#&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me
jvzebel-x
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#so i got a message from my sister telling me something rather tragic had happened in our family
#on my mom's side. one of my aunties passed away&my little sister let me know.
#she also let me know that my mother is taking it really hard&shed probably really like to hear from me.
#&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me
#into talking to my mother-- like i was not almost dead for a long LONG time&she was actively disowning me bc i wasnt sick the right way
#after a lifetime of refusing to believe i was sick AT ALL which directly lead to developing cancer she screamed at me in public
#that i was lying about before pretending to drive off a cliff&then refusing to pick up her phone until she called me an hour later
#after i had been calling not just her but anyone in our family who could possibly check on her to tell me that i never loved her
#&i wouldnt have cared if she died&it would have been my fault.
#so like. i dont really give a fuck if shes taking a death in the family poorly? like i dont actually fucking care that this-- like literally
#everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao.
#&im really fucking pissed off that i now have to feel like shit bc i dont feel like i properly feel bad
#about my family member dying bc IT BECAME ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER IMMEDIATELY.
#i do not fucking UNDERSTAND.
#i cannot even put into words how this all makes me feel lmao. why. literally fucking why.
#the cherry on top? my aunty died of gastric issues. you know. the family curse that i def didnt get so i got to work thru it all
#while being called a liar. you know the type of illness that almost killed ME. that might STILL kill me.
#but yeah my mom is sad so i should call&make sure to hold her hand like i always fucking did lets just forget an entire lifetime
#&esp the last five years thatll be totally cool.
#a tragedy happened in the family so fuck all MY tragedies actually i guess.
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