#even tho he has every reason to do so

[handfulofmuses]

Was thinking about Lofty’s post regarding TV series Orchis in season three and how he wants the General out of the picture at this point and it got me thinking.

Like I said before, Woundwort got him when he was alone and at his lowest. But now he is reunited with his brother.

Part of him wishes to just ditch everything with his brother because what’s the point? Woundwort will never appreciate him and he realizes that. He has enough of always receiving the shorter end of the stick, no matter what he does. Unfortunately, he already ditched his chief rabbit when Hazel and his warren attacked, so he cannot pull the same thing twice, not when he knows what punishment will await him for betraying the general.

Not to mention if he suddenly betrays him after trying to convince Woundwort that Campion is a traitor (again) what does that make him look like?

General Woundwort is safety - even if they left, where would they go? He is terrified of a repeat similar to Aspen. He doesn't want to lose his brother through a predator as well. So he stays by his generals side, thinking it’s the safer option for him and Orchis. So he remains by his side - because he also doubts that Hazel and his warren can take on general Woundwort, who has become more driven by hatred than ever.

#;deceitful coward (vervain) #no matter how much i try to think of an au where he betrays Woundwort #it's not gonna happen #vervain is too much of a coward to stand up for himself and go against woundwort #even tho he has every reason to do so #i love how both vervains are just #driven by their brother tbh #because orchis is the most important rabbit to him #both netflix and tv verse #screw everyone else he just cares about his brother #and the incident with aspen makes him think #what if we get attacked by a predator and i run again to leave him for death? #he doesn't want to wander around aimlessly with him and get attacked #he doesn't want to lose his brother #the general is the safer option

[starrysharks]

reassassination's resident yuri devil

#ocs #my ocs #my ocs art #original character #reassassination #genevieve cavity #her deal is that shes basically novocaine's assistant and will do literally anything she asks because shes obsessed with her #for reasons i will not explain because they are spoilers. :) #most of the time her speech is muffled cuz of her mask so she has to pull it back a bit when she wants to say something important #but shed NEVER take off the whole thing #she hates savory with every fiber of her being and tries to kill him on multiple occasions #because she doesnt like how hes taking up novocaine's attention lately #her style is ever so slightly inspired by tradgoth even tho it doesnt really look so #also her weapon is a bonesaw #zeno's art

[mattodore]

scrapped pose from theo's birthday edit

little koala 🐨

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #a burning house to live in #ts4 #blender #...that's just my general tag for pics of their sims but this is them in blender so it feels weird to use that... oh well lmfao #i'm waiting for sim ripper to load one of the outfits i need for this pose i wanna make so. i'm just in blender spinning mattodore around #i could start working on the pose now and apply the armature later but i'll just wait #ignore theo's weird knees btw........... it's just blender the pose looked fine in game when i tested it originally #do NOT ignore matthias's pancake ass tho! for some reason these slacks just do that to his ass. it's sooo criminal!! he has a bubble butt!! #anyway... theo is like. openly sobbing but his face is literally buried in matthias's shoulder so you can't see his expression #he's so wounded here... i mean obviously since this was originally gonna be in the edit but........ :/ #yk that bit from the caption on the edit where theo gets flashbacks and describes the breeze and the looming darkness..... #and then to have matthias see it all... like that recognition of a part of theo's self that he doesn't even turn his own face toward... ugh #he needed that comfort yk... and he needed to be held. at every age. #UGHHHHH okay okay i'm letting myself get emotional here let's go back to thinking abt matthias's pancake ass in these pics haha funny #insert that screenshot of roman texting ''i am going to kill myself'' to gerri

[19871997]

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#prefacing this w ik in fanfiction they're all just our little barbie dolls we're making kiss and it doesnt matter whatsoever but like Do you #understand how much love and respect and loyalty there is between connor and leon irl #like in connors nhlpa ama he immediately no question said that leon's the nhler who knows him best + that he's spent his entire professiona #career w him. whenever leon's asked what he thinks of connor the first sentance out his mouth is 'you [the media] know. he knows' and then #he carries on talking about how he's the best player in the world + connor never hesitates to return the sentiment #and between the two of them it's not sentiments they sau it like its fact bc it is #and their whole 'cup or bust' thing every analyst and their mother have taken it as a 'they're going to win in edmonton or not at all' in t #e sense that they want to stay in edmonton n stay together <- like not even in an insane person edmonton polycule type of way in the they'r #the best players in the world and have insane chemistry on the ice and are eachother's best friends type of way #like a reason why their pp is so lethal is bc those two on a line + the other team down yeah ofc thats going to be automatic #and leon saying that their best beats anyone else's best no doubt and connor talking about building the team from the ground up like leon w #s there when they got boo'd off the ice in 2014 he was a part of building the team that's thier damn team and in turn the sheer amount of #respect the rest of the team have for them and they have for the rest of the team and the trust that while they're the best players they #don't have to play for all of them n that's part of thier whole like. our fourth line stands up to any other first line rock solid belief #like and ofc thier on ice hugs and lockerroom hugs and that moment in the sportsnet knee injury doc and how they mention that they're best #friends whenever theyre asked and how their gf's are also best friends and also their damn dogs #NOT TO MENTION. he's my ride or die. im really lucky our paths crossed here in edmonton. as a friend it was really tough to watch that #<- leon's insane 2022 playoff run on a broken ankle #and the way leon's been dubbed the german gretzky and connor's been the next next one since he was 15 and the way they have such a solid #control of the lockerroom together and i dont know if they've ever said conflicting things to the media and how they've said that they push #eachother to be better (connor saying that leon told him to score more) #and their little taps throughout their season and bringing back their team from the dead and leon being the one to make connor laugh in #pressers and on the bench #ALL TO SAY. like i am a mc.matt.drai enjoyer in the threesome/winners room/asg/2997 are actually quite abnormal about eachother and matthew #has never been normal about anything in his life and this might be fun. kinda way #but 2997 are soulbonded in ways quite possibly none of us will ever be able to truly understand #<- also i do mean this genuinely like they're not normal people but both of them are not normal #SORRY FOR RAMBLING. i just wish there was better written fanfiction. #<- wish to be the change you see in the world innit tho #so funny to me how the eh is just canadian innit.

[lupins-hehim-pussy]

i want top neuvillette who's still femme and a crybaby my god is that so hard

#/lh #my tastes. masc bottoms femme tops #to be fair my dynamic with them is neuv gets pregnant but neuv also tops. so generally speaking. solid switches. but wrio bottoms #he's the king of the underworld after all. #i do think its hilarious tho if you look at the trends across wrlt vs nvwr interpretations #the tops always gets broadened...... masculinized.... aged #and the bottom becomes this waifish wet noodle.......... #like ive seen bottom wrio with a baby face. paired with a neuv who's somehow broader than him #and alternatively ive seen the. meatiest. manliest middle-aged man wriothesley with a neuvillette who's back is perpetually arched #and im like the dimorphism is crazy /j this isnt just a strictly wrlt thing tho this is real across. every ship. that has ever existed lol #tho on a more serious note i have a big squick when it comes to bottom wrio interps where an emphasis on their dynamic is........ #the fact that he's younger. or that they first met when he was a minor. im like weird thing to emphasize but ok. #disclaimer tho when i say crybaby hes not a Childish Man mind you. hes Sensitive and Awkward but he's still got that weird ancient stalenes #his voice just wobbles sometimes. he often sound like hes at the verge of tears even if his face is perfectly flat #hes autistic like that #and the sole reason why wrio doesnt top That Much is because hes fuckin tired man. eepy. hes like my god neuv if you still wanna go at it #ur gonna have to take the reins. baby im tired. #something something freakish dragon strength and stamina #personally. my hcs are as such. neuvillette is very lean. almost uncannily long if i exaggerate it for funsies. hes slenderman coded. skinn #but you find no texture underneath his skin. you can't feel bones or muscles shift when he moves when you touch him #there's this exceptional discomfort when you see him lift something that looks much heavier than he should be able to manage #almost like his long fingers might impale it. like you are balancing something soft and fleshy on a nail. it doesn't feel secure #like if wriothesley held you. his arms would feel warm and solid. thick and supportive. whereas neuv's feels like it might dig into you #i could yap all day.

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#so the hospital group that diagnosed my stroke as an anxiety attack&let me sit in their er for roughly five hours is in the news #bc body cam footage came out showing them having called the police on a patient who was 'refusing to leave' #despite the fact that he 'had no medical reason for being there'. #he had ODd&they had given in narcan. he was also homeless. so all the actual rules about watching a patient post resus #went out the window in favor of calling police&being incredibly cruel about it. #the man died at the police station. where they took him bc they looked him up&he had bench warrants. #they couldn't process him bc he was totally unresponsive. they tried tho. best believe they tried. #&when they had to explain why they were didnt try to get him medical help they released the body cam footage. #prob the only time they didnt throw tantrums over it too seeing as it successfully shifted the blame. #the hospital has had to apologize publically for the 'failure' on their part. #i cant even put my feelings into words. #ive said it once ill say it every fucking time learning medicine was not&is not hard. its not worthy of special note. #its something you do bc you care. &if thats not the case i hope you die of the medical neglect you would force onto those #who come to you for fucking help. #pathetic. absolutely fucking pathetic. #i might not ever be able to work in traditional medicine but w stories like these why the fuck would i ever want to? #why would i ever want to be associated w willful fucking murderers? bc thats what medical neglect from a medical pro at their work is. #fucking murder.

[arolesbianism]

I’ve been having a rough few days, but I’ve been feeling a bit better so I decided to make some lil thingies for some spiraling upwards kitties :3

#keese draws #warrior cats oc #spiraling upwards #I’ve posted art of ratstar and pigeonbillow before but the other three I haven’t I think #but yeah these are some more of the minkclan founders #and by that I mean two of them are and one of them was a kitten at the time #lightning is haveniris’ mom but she didn’t trust herself to raise him so her clanmates sort of collectively raised him #and by that I mean mostly pigeon and two other old ppl that aren’t included here #light did end up opening up to him more and acting as more of a mom after he chose to become a medic tho #the two have a complicated relationship for sure but they still care abt each other a lot #oh yeah and literally all of these guys are dead by the time murtle rolls around except for haven #pigeon died about two years before the other two and raincinder has been dead since before minkclan was properly founded #which is unsurprising given she’s such an old withering woman #she mostly made it that long because she was given a guide sponsor life #so long story short not all starclan cats actually get to use the cool starclan powers and those who do are usually ‘sponsored’ with an #extra life and a cool star like marking #this isn’t a well known thing tho and even within starclan only higher ranking cats rly know anything beyond knowing that every now and #then new guides are chosen #now usually what’s supposed to happen is that the sponsored cat has a close eye kept on them and if they are deemed worthy they’re allowed #to keep their mark and become a guide once they die the second time #the main flaw in this system is that the cat who sponsored them has to be the one to revoke it #so if they refuse to revoke it for whatever reason there’s not much that can be done about it #or in raincinder’s case her sponsor ended up fading before they could judge her fully #so even though by all means even the most rebel friendly guides would revoke it easily she managed to keep her mark til death #this was ofc largely helped by her living til 19 fucking years dear god woman #but hey I guess it means minkclan gets a guide even though she’s a rly shitty one #rly that mostly only matters for the sake of nine lives and the sake of travel between starclan and the living territories #which actually does cause a lot of problems when all the guides decide to go haunt a child instead #oh also guides also pass on their mark to leaders who’s life ceremony they hosted #not the guide role tho each guide gets a new mark

[stupid-sloot-headcanons]

Also on the subject of me being unnecessarily mean to people, someone asked me why I refused to buy the new P3 remake and I just replied that if I wanted a Persona game with dumbed-down gameplay I would just replay Persona 5.

#im not asking for every Persona game to have SMT levels of difficulty #but I called that they were going to dumb down Tartarus wayyyy too much and from the gameplay footage ive seen im comfortable saying i #was right #maybe if they do remakes of Persona 2 IS and EP ill consider throwing my money #only because its the best in the series and has the best cast #sloot bitches about things #and holy fuck Orpheus's awakening looks like some SFM bullshit now #and i like the new tracks a lot but theres a giant shoji meguro shaped hole in the remixes and arrangements #and its painfully obvious. like none of the remix tracks sound good to me #also the voice acting is actually pretty nice but i prefer most of the original voices #Tara Platt gave Mitsuru a commanding presence the new va doesnt have #aigis's new va misunderstood Aigis's entire portrayal and that shes supposed to be ROBOTIC. not just a monotone person #junpei/Yukari/Door-kun are easily the best. esp junpei. i prefer him actually lol #And Alex Le is clearly putting so much passion into this role. good on him #personally tho i have a...weird relationship to Sega's English localization #like in Infinite Wealth the dubbed versions was starting to piss me off bc its so different from the subbed #and when it comes to scenes like Kiryu's reason for joining the waste disposal it muddles the actual thing hes saying a lot of the time #that said sega hires very professional talented vas even if i dont always agree with their translation choices #p3r is no exception

[cinnabeat]

i was reasonably certain the no one dies in this series bc its a dramedy at heart but damn im not so sure anymore

#i seriously dont think anyones gonna die but you never fucking know #literally every bastard thats died has come back in some form #i mean they died in the past before the present in story timeline but without fail these fuckers keep coming back like cockroaches #reminds me of fairy tail although fairytail was wayyyyyyy worse abt it #will never forget my brother asking me if i recommended it and immediately i was like absolutely not #like yes i watched AND read it yes i was religioulsy reading the updates every week #yes i have lots of the anime ops and eds on spotify yes i have a keychain with the main fours guild marks #yes i absolutely cried when it ended but i wouldnt recommend it to anyone on pain of death #truly is not worth it like literaly bothing after the magic games arc matters #as far as im concerned it ended there with fairytail regaining their glory and absolutely nothing else world shaterring and apocalyptically #ending happened #couldmt even tell you what happens after the magic games arc like genuienly it was so nonsensical and just straight up bad that i perma eras #permanently erased it from my memory #anyways im reasonably sure no ones going to die but if they do i deeply deeply hope its not my fave he doesnt deserve that #his brother can go tho #michi tag

[gibbearish]

oh psa but if you're in an industry that checks IDs and the person in front of you is clearly trans, don't make comments about anything on that ID. for instance saying "OMG your middle name's Danielle? that's my name too!!!" to someone 5 feet tall with a full beard is perhaps not the best choice one could make if one didn't want to put a neon glowing sign above that person's head saying "THIS IS A TRANSGENDER" to everyone they're with

#it is p funny tho going out places with cis / nb-and-always-presented-as-agab friends and always getting singles out abt my #id in Some Way and them always being like ??? wtf that was so weird what was up with that #and i have to be the one to be like 'remember that my id has an f on it' and theyre like :0 ....... >:0!!!! #like fuckin. the time i got id'd at goddamn jack in the box???? #she was like 'yeah we have to check it on all orders over $25' which had never happened before and has never happened since because #its fucking jack in the box so every stupid order is over $25 #for important context i was driving and bf in passenger seat was paying so id handed her his card and was way less passing than now #so once we left travis was like yo wtf that was so weird why on earth would they id someone at jack in the box????? #and im like well because i look like this and i handed her a credit card with the name travis on it and people making #up reasons to check trans-looking peoples ids to verify if theyre trans or not is unfortunately not an uncommon occurance #and he was completely floored that that was even a possibility #which like mood when i was doing bev steward literally the only thing i was thinking about on those ids was birthdays #course i was working at a theme park so we had ids from all over the country #and world but nonamericans had passports which are much more consistent than state ids #so id get handed someones id and just be like ugh ok where do they hide it on this one i have 50 people in line i dont have time for this #like why would i be wasting time casually perusing their gender marker yknow i have shit to do #so the fact that there are people who will feel the need to know that so bad that theyll do that is just wild to me and presumably him too #(working there was how we met and he ended up being bars lead then full water park sup after i left the job) #but yeah after he had his 'wait people actually do that?' realization he was just like '....well then good thing it was my card so we had to #give her my id so she'll never get to know for sure‚ get fucked' LMAO #ooh or when me and a friend went to trader joes and bought drinks cause i collect cool drink cans and when the cashier was checking #my id i made a joke to ny friend abt my picture looking like bobby hill and the cashier was like 'GASP dont say that about yourself youre #beautiful!!' which i believe i did have the beard by this point so it was a pretty obvious dig #and the picture super does look like bobby hill by the way like ill show yall if anyone's curious but literally no one irl has disagreed #except this one random woman lmao. but we get out and my friends like ????????? that was so weird #why did she say that????? and im like. well it has an f on it remember #and once again the :0 -> >:0 transformation #like it sucks having it happen but there is smth really funny abt watching friends so inclusive something like that never even #occured to them realize that thats a thing people will do and it just happened right in front of them #shoutout to my roommates friend tho who has worked at a sex shop and weed shop and changed my rewards account name for both to chosen name

[lovestryke]

resisting the urge to buy weights rn. i need to go bear mode.

#ive been looking forward to it but uh im a lil twig rn because i forget to eat...and ive just been getting skinnier because of it >_< #optimus encouraging me to eat more and workout heheheee #if im being honest ive only been into transformers for like. 1 and a half months at most and the franchise has done more good for me than #anything else ive been interested #tho i will not ignore how woy influenced me tho. hes one of the reasons ive chosen kindness and patience. but hehe. op has encouraged me to #also be kind. but also not take shit and eat better and work out. and also..influenced me to take a stance on whether i want kids or not #if im being honeessstt i think fnaf may have damaged me most? actually maybe not most but i just. was really possessive of things and #got very anxious when anyone else even mentioned it #anyways i found a set from 4 to 80 pounds for 40 bucks and its a deal for only 2 days and i have like. #$115 in my checkings right now but also like. id like to wait until after chuck e cheese hires me...i have so much confidence they will put #also. let me hold out. but ALSO my therapist DID change our appointments from every other week to only 2 sessions per month. heh. maybe she #thinks im doing well. but also i did get a bit of money from the last 2 fucking weeks where i was scheduled only once so i could just use #That money.

[binders-and-beanies]

He’s so. I’m so. I’m feeling something about this gay little man and I don’t know what it is

#I’m spending a day and night in another state w my fwb for his bday and I’m like #just the two of us celebrating ur bday? seems somewhat homosexual no? #and he’s driven all the way to my area in a mf rental and booked us a hotel room before too and I’m like what are we #like we go out and do cute lil things and it’s as friends but it has date vibes #and we’re affectionate n such and he talks abt me differently than he does w other ppl but like #he was like ‘I love how uncomplicated things are with u since I’m not catching feelings’ #ok why aren’t u tho. be obsessed w me #we would not be compatible at all he is 7 years older and a fancy proper gay with a fancy job and lives 1.5 hours away #he even pointed out how funny we probably looked holding hands in the city today bc we look so different #but I’m like hey. hey. make it complicated and dramatic. cross state lines for me every 1-2 weeks #ik the only reason I feel this way is bc he’s pretty and good in bed and c*ddled me but come on #writes this while I sit behind him on the train back from another city we adventured in today #as I also text him obscene things abt what we’re going to do when we get back #mine #txt #personal

[lord-squiggletits]

It’s always very weird to me how much hate IDW OP gets in comparison to characters that are as bad or worse. Like, if hate for IDW OP was just “he’s an asshole and does xyz things,” I would get that, but the vast majority of the hate I see for him is just calling him an asshole with no particular explanation as to why. More puzzlingly, I see “IDW OP is an asshole” coming from the mouths of people who simultaneously stan characters like Pr/owl (also a cop, committed war crimes, constantly manipulates and uses people) and Mega/tron (genocidal dictator, racist against organics, generally violent and fucked up) so like???

It doesn’t seem like the problem is that IDW OP is an asshole, it seems to me like the problem is very specifically that it’s Optimus. For some reason people are just absolutely allergic to the idea of Optimus being morally gray to match a morally gray continuity. Somehow Optimus and Optimus alone is a horrible asshole who doesn’t ever deserve to be acknowledged even though the same people have no problems liking characters from the same comics who are as bad or worse? And it’s quite disappointing because it seems like in that case, it’s less about IDW OP being an asshole and more about the fact that people haven’t actually read the story and don’t care about the context/reasoning for IDW OP’s actions.

That or they just want every Optimus to be a happy silly dad or a depressed uwu dad (but only depressed in a cute and palatable way, never depressed in a way that leads to lashing out and bad decisions and social isolation), so they hate IDW OP for not being the cardboard cutout they want him to be. Instead of just... reading the OP that’s on the page and judging him based on the standards of IDW1 and the type of story IDW1 is.

#squiggposting #like deadass i'm not fucking kidding #if i had a dollar for every time i saw a pr/wl or a m/gatron fan shit on idw op i would be fucking rich #like brother you're perfectly okay with war crimes and genocide and being a cop when it's THEM #(i suspect it's because of shipping and general whitewashing of those characters tho) #(and because idw op isn't easily shippable or able to be washed down people just fucking hate him) #(also because no one reads anything besides mt/mte or l/l) #but yeah it's so fucking weird for me to see people like 'I HATE IDW OP BECAUSE HE'S A COP' #*stans pr/owl* #or 'IDW OP SUCKS BECAUSE HE ANNEXED EARTH' #*stans meg/at/ron who genocided and cyberformed MULTIPLE planets for purely colonialist and racist reasons* #honestly i don't think it has anything to do with comparing these characters #i think people just ignore/whitewash the awful parts of characters like pr/owl and meg/atron #and that's why things like this provoke no cognitive dissonance in them whatsoever #so in a way morally gray/evil characters like pr/owl and megs are actually erased just as much as idw op #it's just that pr/owl and me/ga/tron erasure consists of erasing their canon flaws and just making them uwu dolls to ship people with #and idw op erasure is just erasing his existence completely basically #that being said i think it's worse to have my favorite character just be completely erased and shit upon at every turn :/ #ppl shit on him even when the conversation doesn't have anything to do with idw #ppl shit on him when they get asks about their favorite characters #and it's almost always completely one sided bashing where it's just 'he's an asshole' and never naming a specific thing he actually did #and even if they did like. it's a fucking story made to talk about tough politics and morals and social issues #if you're reading something like idw1 just to find characters that are nice and unproblematic and completely relatable #that's just a really juvenile and embarrassing way to consume mature media #also half the criticisms of idw op i see literally can't even get basic plot points or thematic messaging right so honestly fuck em #me and my idw op loving friends are based and mfs who can't comprehend canon are cringe #discourse

[daz4i]

if i may complain for a bit about something that doesn't actually matter and can be easily avoided. god i hate fics that baby-fy chuuya

#yeah yeah i know just don't read them w/e. there's no tags to avoid these unfortunately 😐 #it kinda feels like a fanon of fanon. it's so far removed from his canon self even if some core elements are there. #why write him like a 15 y/o even as an adult. and the thing is. even when he was 15 in canon he wasn't this childish. c'mon. #a lot of the most popular skk fics have him characterized like this and man I'm tired. look how they massacred my boy. #ok complaining session over. i feel like i sound kinda mean. sorry abt that. #it doesn't actually matter that much just a bit frustrating when it keeps happening when you're already a couple hundred words into a fic #edit: i lied I'm not done complaining i gotta turn this into a rant bc ppl misunderstanding my favorite character online is a crime. #childish was the wrong word for me to use ig it's more like. innocent. #girl. bestie. he has been part of criminal organizations quite literally since he remembers himself. #he is not some sweet uwu baby who's a bit of a tsundere or w/e. he's got genuine reasons to be angry yknow. he's been through shit #and he's not innocent? he's in the fucking mafia lol we literally see him kill like 20 people in 5 minutes at 15 y/o. #he's not naive either???? he may not be dazai levels of smart but he's still capable of figuring things out himself???? #like he did figure out rimbaud's thing by himself. he's not stupid or slow. he wouldn't be a mafia executive otherwise. #and that's also the reason he can't be naive like... he is in constant danger after all #and idk watering down all this^ for aus is boring and turning him into practically an oc but it's even worse in canonverse #or literally any au where he suffers the same amount as he does in canon. bc then what's your excuse for watering him down. #it feels like forcing him into this very clear cut mold you see in every media when he is literally. not that. #no one in bsd is honestly that's part of its charm imo. they all subvert your expectations of their character archetypes #i think this is why it's making me so angry bc it doesn't feel like just misunderstanding the character but also the whole story. in a way. #am i going too far? perhaps. i dunno. i do feel less Dirty after letting out this frustration tho. #complaining session is now officially over okay. yes. sorry. i don't mean to offend anyone sorry if i sound mean at any point.

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #SORRY rant incoming bc holidays. are the worst #but im just so sad and tired #i get why my dad wants his new marriage to work out and it’s not like i ever wanted them to fail #but his wife is. kdgsejfjjd she sucks!! she’s the reason he had to go back on his promise to house our little bro! #and yet he asks US to try and help him fix things w her even tho until recently we didn’t even know she apparently had such a problem w us?? #we were perfectly nice and polite to her and didn’t do anything to bother her #barely even talked to her at all!! left the lovebirds alone to whatever they wanted to do! #and yet she has apparently been losing her shit at him every time he does anything to help us?! #like sorry u married a man w children and then didn’t expect him to actually be a parent to them but get fucking real? #that’s supposed to be YOUR CHILD now. and ur trying to kick him out after he spent almost a whole year in hell #and tried to stick it out for so long specifically bc he didn’t wanna inconvenience anyone #fuck you!! go to hell lady!! why are WE having to appease YOU? #just bc ur parents sucked u think u can tell our dad to just leave us to starve? #u think u can boss around my little brother who is the strongest and most hard working of all of us? #lol. lmao even. #get fucked. #if u think i won’t figure out a way for us to make it through life without you then you’re funny. #i’ll be a better mother than anybody ever was to us #coughs anyway. sorry. feeling raw today

[luobingmeis]

sometimes i monologue to myself for what feels like hours abt 3zun/nieyao and then i end with the very lxc statement of “well, they both have their reasons” :’)

#like i don’t have much to say abt jgy and that’s only been #bc my statement from day 1 has been that i get so frustrated when people say that jgy was ‘evil’ from the start #and did every single this with manipulative and malicious intent #so like that is something i have already talked length abt w/ blink so like that soapbox has been done and is currently still happening #nmj tho…. #it’s funny bc frankly i can list more things he does that i disagree with than agree w/ #and like frankly for me personally i don’t really. care abt how much i agree with a character aksksksks #if it makes sense that they did what they did then i am happy #which like isn’t even me being shitty or trying to be above it #but it’s bc. yeah the general statement of ‘i dont agree with x/y actions but i still like the character’ #which like. the other option of only liking the characters that i morally agree w/ has become such a tired discussion #anyways i digress bc when i think abt nmj yeah i think def in the meng yao era he was rly unfair to jgy at a lot of times #and i think that in-general my’s wen spy era was painted to look. nefarious. and not like something that was pivotal to win the war #and yeah like he shouldn’t have tried to kill my esp bc i do believe that my was genuine in trying to save nmj from being killed there #and then this all snowballs out etc etc etc #but it’s like! agreeable or not imo it’s so understandable why nmj does this #like i use nightless city as my big nieyao example bc like. my did what he had to and by being a spy he ultimately won them the war #or at least finished it #but on a personal level nmj has a reason to not want to fuck w/ my #but even then i think abt!! how for nmj he /doesnt/ take the personal route #he takes the ‘what abt the others’ which like ig for the world itself isn’t an off-color statement #but it’s also like. i think abt what jgy said on the steps of jinlintai abt how they’ve both killed #and yet nmj has never forgive jgy even tho he’s killed far less #and it comes down to like what nmj thinks is a just reason for killing (aka no subterfuge) #i’m losing my train of thought and also running out of tags i think #anyways if i had to pick 1 era this is a wen spy meng yao era support blog #and then blink and i joke abt nmj being my favorite plot device but like #by god am i obsessed with him. i didnt even get a chance to talk abt his qi deviation #and how imo that is more tragedy than anything else #anyways. 3zun. the ouroboros trio. i am obsessed with all three of them.