#even after I already told him I hated it

[garrettwrites]

When someone tells you they don't like hugs, that's not an invitation for you to "cure them". It is not a "you" thing, although sometimes it might be. You thinking "they have to get used to it" because "your hugs are different" and "that's how you show love" is not a valid argument. Hugging them out of the blue as a goodbye is not cool either. Fuck off.

#ok to rb in case someone is in the same boat but thinks the post is too personal #this friend of mine... #pretends he's great but can't respect one basic thing #he's lucky I have grown to control my emotions and not lash out #i hate it #don't hug me or touch me end of line #i am honest to god feeling sick #this dude and I have history where I borderline felt incapable of saying no and had sex with him #afterwards I told him how I felt #yet he still pulls this shit #hugs make me sick to my stomach I don't even hug my family #and I really don't wanna hug a man who pretty much made me hate sex (for myself) as a whole #i feel disgusting rn #twice he hugged me and got mad when I refused to hug him again #even after I already told him I hated it #then asks if I'm scared of him because of that like you piece of shit I wanna rip my skin out where you touched it #I may pretend to everyone that I'm a strong confident man but good lord #sometimes I wish I had an over protective boyfriend so he could kick him in the teeth over this shit #it's ridiculous I know but fuck #apologies if you read all these tags but I over drank after this and none of my friends are awake and I needed to vent #garrett.text

[rotisseries]

"she met a pinecone's fate" was hysterical the first time around and it's still funny but the longer I think about it the more unsure I actually am about the line

#it just feels so. callous. or like. it doesn't FEEL callous cause it's not portrayed that way and you laugh and I'm still laughing #but like. it's callous that is a callous thing to say and it's not like percy doesn't have dickishness to spare #but on this specific thing? really? he's not like that #like. this is after being told the full story so he knows what happened to thalia #and his response to effectively hearing about how this girl died for her friends and not just any friends but the people he's with rn #is “she met a pinecone's fate” a like. dismissive joke about what happened to her #like in the books percy empathizes with thalia's situation he feels for her it's tragic it's a somber moment😭😭 #she was a demigod more powerful than the others she was hunted even more than they usually are (percy relates) #and she died for her friends (definitely something percy relates to and would value lol) #and on TOP OF THAT. to say this in front of grover and annabeth? who clearly loved her a lot?? #like. percy doesn't like annabeth atp but he doesn’t hate her enough to be crossing those sorts of lines?? #and GROVER. is literally his best friend. can you not figure that thalia's death probably weighs on him #oh wait I just remembered at that point in the episode he doesn't know grover was with them lol sorry ignore that bit #anyway. like I get it it's funny and they have a lightly antagonistic relationship in ttc so it's funny!! #like haha he's ALREADY getting his digs in!! #but. idk. feels a bit mean :/ #pjo #pjo tv #dropping episode 3 thoughts mere hours before episode 4 lmao #I'm not gonna be able to watch 4 tonight though lol

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Live Action Last Airbender really said in order to get rid of the sexism, some other sexism had to take its place but unlike Sokka learning sexism was bad, the new sexism is never addressed and treated like its okay.

#rip suki girl just became a prop in live action to sokka's writing that episode #to the point she actually lets him win a fight against her just cause awww poor little baby got his manhood hurt by suki easily beating him #earlier on in the episode that was already suki trying to help cause again his manhood feels hurt #because...yes its a girls job apparently to help a man when he feels emasculated #like god remember how in animated suki wins easily against sokka in training cause hes being cocky and thinks girls cant fight still #to the point when she beats him you can just hear 'FLAWLESS VICTORY' as she waves her fan in her face #and when he does beat her its because he trained with her and therefore knows how to win #and we see actual character with suki when like sokka she also doesnt like her pride being hurt #and also she checks him out shirtless because yeah....they also reduce her to a love interest i hate it here #june flirts with iroh for some reason....instead of just removing it if they didnt want iroh to flirt with her #because i guess a girl doing the fliriting with the not interested man is a good swap??? #and dont get me started on katara they mascared her in live action #shes just bland now in live action because femainity bad according to netflix #and also doesnt even get told she can study with aang and co no she just becomes an instant master after beating pakku #because....girlboss #well i say study with aang and co but he dont even learn waterbending here lmao

[songtwo]

idk i think my bf might be developing a drinking problem and i just don’t know what to do…..

#it’s been going on for a couple of months now but he promised he would stop and he had been doing well until today…. #and it’s like. on one hand i never wanted to be w an alcoholic and i told him straight so he promised it would stop #but on the other hand i can’t just abandon him #and it’s like we used to go out a lot and party but like. that was it but ever since he met this guy he just gets lost when he drinks w him #and the thing was he got like aggressive like he didn’t do anything to me and i can’t really explain it but he just wasn’t himself #and like. we talked about it a million times and it’s not like it happens every week #it’s been like 5 times since december #but 3 have been on the past month alone #and two weeks ago it got bad like he almost got into an accident #and like i’m not even physically w him anymore like we really only see each other once a week since i moved #and from the very first time it happened i told him i couldn’t be w him if it kept happening #and after that incident two weeks ago he swore it was the last time but it just happened again #by the way he and that guy get wasted it really is a miracle they get home alive #and like. idk what to do #i really don’t want to be w someone like this #and i hate feeling like this like if i were to think only about myself i don’t want this i hate feeling like this #but i also can’t abandon him #like not even bc i would miss him or whatever i just wouldn’t feel good leaving him alone #but like i don’t want to live like this #maybe i’ll ask for some time to just figure things out #but it’s gonna suck so bad bc we were supposed to see kendrick lamar next week and then we already had plans for his bday and omfg #i don’t wanna leave but i don’t want things to be like this either #and i asked him to stop and gave him multiple chances but idk #i just don’t know what to do #i love him endlessly but i need to put myself first but i can’t abandon him:( #and our 1.5 anniversary was also next week….. #but i think time is the sanest and safest thing right now

[widevibratobitch]

so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.

'you gotta sing this softer'

'what'

'this is mozart'

'this is vitellia'

'this is mozart'

'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'

'this is mozart'

'i wanna murder a guy'

'this is mozart'

'...'

'softer. gentle. mozart'

'...ok'

#they're killing me here #i already bargained for ONE (1) note in chest (thank you so so much that i am ALLOWED to sing an A3 in chest voice <333) and now THIS #THIS is why people hate mozart. fuck you. #i recorded that rehearsal and the first version sounds SO MUCH BETTER. after i did what she asked me to do its just. so fucking boring. #i hate it here #i love this duet so much but frfr im not sure i wanna do it if i have to do it on their terms. #also like sorry to be a bitch but you're a pianist girl. just stick to your stuff and let me take care of mine. #just because you're playing this like you're constipated because tHiS iS mOzArT doesnt mean the rest of us dont care either. #its possible i never will get the chance to sing the entire vitellia so i want to do justice. as much as im able. to this one chance i get #it took me A Long While to deal with the fact that i wont be able to bark that 'indegno' and 'regno' like i always envisioned. #but like. ok. whatever. i can still make it Entertaining. THIS however. no. no fucking way. #and its not even about me being a big-headed know-it-all who thinks she's better than everyone because. lol and lmao clearly im Not #but this is about having a fucking SOUL. its about actually taking the libretto into consideration too. its about trying to figure out #WHY mozart wrote it the way he did. like sorry but this is another fiordiligi case where its CLEAR that the amplitudes the crazy jumps #are there FOR A REASON. the reason is HE WANTED A CONTRAST. some fucking EMOTION. he sure as hell didnt want it to be Soft And Gentle. #i know it because i talked to him and he told me im right about everything as always and you can eat shit girl bye #grrrrrrrr im so angry #i knos i sound so arrogant here but please. please i just want to make this music fun and enjoyable. i just dont want it to be boring #please understand my vision im begging you

[musical-chick-13]

.

#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but #not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about. #that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends #that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even #considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF... #like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy) #but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car #crash or fix me soup when I'm sick. #like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad #and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship #right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go #if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through #the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!! #and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after #she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think #anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore #but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst #Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that #this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me #WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!! #*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today #and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore! #In the Vents #GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS

[pzos-amiserableidiot]

was watching tiktok and a video had the song michael in the bathroom playing and I was vicerally reminded of being in middle and high school and mom always mentioning how much I looked like my dad (his name is michael) and how I slowly was able to start noticing it too and whenever I sang the song it reminded me of him and I felt like we were overlapping too often felt like id never be anyone but a shadow or his mirror and then i began learning i was trans and now the song makes me think of him even more (he’s not a bad dad he tells me he’s proud of me and stuff there’s just two really big moments he unknowingly failed and one long continuous one but he loves me and he’s proud and he supports me and he didn’t mean it and ive learned to make that enough) and the weird flashback I got when I heard that song and overlapping with his face and how if I transitioned I almost fear I’d be his clone and yeah Anywyas banger song

#the moments were that time he told me how he used to want something to be wrong with him and he’d cut himself to try and prove something was #and he showed me his incredibly faint scars and this was after I told them I was depressed and his solution was to tell me he faked it???? #and didn’t even see anything wrong or worrying that he’d cut himself or was self destructive or wished something was wrong so he’d have #something to blame for being the way he was and like DAD THATS DEPRESSION but I was too numb and shocked and felt so so so betrayed becuase #it felt mocking at the time like his way of comforting me. his child. was to fucking show me his scars and be like I faked it so I know #it’s real and sorry I don’t understand WTF DAD #Other time was when he gave me his phone to play Pokémon go and I betrayed his trust (he didn’t like anyone going through his phone) and #went looking through and found Grindr and saw some shirtless photos and people messaging before I left #dad had a shirtlesss photo on there. and I had to pretend everything was fine and erase the evidence and give the phone back and help look #for furniture for our new house and never tell mom cause she’s been through so much already (I really shouldn’t have known I wasn’t her #therapist but this is about daddy issues right now not the mommy ones) so anyways I never told him and years later he told me his friends #signed him up for Grindr as a prank and to make friends and that’s why he thinks someone from his work I pranking him by signing him up #for a gay furry dating site and yet I saw him on his bed sometimes messaging people and yeah #oh and the long continous one was not divorcing mom and defending her saying she loves us when she rejected me and my sister for being trans #and being gone for most of my childhood working and never understanding the fucked up dynamic of home that took place and resenting him for #ruining the perfect routine (sharp words scary feelings always wanting to cry) #anyways michael in the bathroom always gives me weird feelings #cause I hate and love my dad and I looked up to him so much and loooking like him would’ve been a dream but sometiems the wrongs he did #come back haunt my thoughts and I want to scratch and tear apart every feature that makes me look like him. I look nothing like my mom so #there’s nothing physical to tear apart (I just act like her sometimes and have to force myself not the throw up and attack myself from the #disgust)

[aceoflights]

I really dislike the attitude of "why didn't you tell me earlier" when it comes to coming out

1. there can be many reasons

2. a queer person does not owe you anything, even if you are close

3. THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU

#also it perpetuates the idea that you assume everyone is cishet until you are told otherwise #i don't believe that people who react like this are bad people #a friend reacted like that after she found out about me being queer #which i simply hadn't told her about because i was still in the process of figuring myself out #but it also perpetuates that coming out thing #which is stupid because if we wanna normalise queerness we should maybe stop treating it as if it's not normal/not the norm #also hate when they do this in media #prime example ted lasso #i really like this show #but damn was the isaac colin thing stupid #i knew where they were going with it from the beginning #and i did not like it one bit #that whole trope puts the blame/guilt on the queer person for 'not trusting their friend(s) enough #as if queer people don't already have to deal with enough shit #my boy colin went through that whole episode thinking his best friend was homophobic and hated him now #not to mention the possibility of isaac outing him #the show wants you to believe that this was just a misunderstanding between friends and that there is no bad guy #but there is (even if it wasn't his intention) and it's isaac #queer #coming out #outing #ted lasso #colin hughes #isaac mcadoo

[hella1975]

forever wishing sam fender would unrelease dead boys

#it’s like the moment I get a glimmer of hope for my hometown it reminds me of how awful it is #I feel like I’m screaming underwater at people like there’s something actually insidious about that town #and I’ve BEEN saying it and it keeps getting written off as youthful angst #bc of COURSE you hate your hometown! everyone hates their hometown! #but now I’m going to another funeral for a boy in my year and it’s another suicide and I don’t even know him #i havent seen him since primary school I have no right to be so upset by this #but I’m just trawling his ig bc he looks the same #he looks the exact same and he hung himself. he was twenty #and ofc he’s connected to my family bc everyone is in that fucking town hes like a v distant cousin #so we know the news first like so many of his friends are out having a nice night rn #and I’m here with this knowledge despite not knowing him. like tomorrow someone is going to find out their best mate killed himself #the police are literally still at his house and my mum is telling me she loves me because it’s ALWAYS the boys in my year group #like off the top of my head alone bc i KNOW it’s more ive already lost six boys in my year and I’m 20 #how many kids have to die before my hometown stops being such a shithole #sorry for the vent post i dont even know why this has gutted me so much #maybe bc the only memory i have of this boy is between the ages of 5-11 so I literally ONLY know him as a child #like he was so happy I can only remember him smiling and just. what went so wrong after that? he had spiky hair and gap teeth #and now I’ve been told that he hung himself and I just #god. i don’t even know anymore #I’ll never forgive that town #hella goes home

[siobhanromee]

had the most miserable experience today.

#Got invited to the party of someone I know and like well enough. And it ended up being a lot of people younger than me which is fine #But I also felt a little left out #And it wasnt like the kind of younger than me where they like need help playing the games and stuff #Oh also all of them were from a church youth group so that adds something #And I wanted to leave at 5:30. But my sister wanted to stay a while longer so we stayed. #And somehow my brother showed up #Well I know how he got there but he wasnt supposed to come #But I had to wait even longer since there were then 3 people I had to take home. But my brother told me he wanted us to go to the store to #buy a plushie for his girlfriend #Which on the surface is very cute. But it actually sucks bc his girlfriend is a secret. #And on the way to the store. I already wanted to go home but the party host called my sister bc my sibling left their phone at the party #And my sister said 'oh we will just turn around' but I was eager to get home and I said to the sibling who lost their phone that they shoul #pay me a couple buck s for the gas to make a return trip to the party. Also I had eaten a cookie that was contaminated somehow while I was #driving so here I was trying to coordinate getting the phone back and also trying to not ingest the rancid tasting cookie AND trying todriv #And I ended up hitting the curb loudly while getting into the parking lot at the store. My sibling who lost their phone got out of the car #And started to walk away. I raced after them and they told me that they were just going to go home #I told them no way in hell was I letting them go in the dark by themselves with no phone. They did agree to come back with the rest of us. #but very grudgingly #We got the plush of fucking course he picked the most massive one. And I had to pay bc he didnt have cash on him. And I cant even vent to m #mom abt this bc explaining this would mean letting out abt my brothers girlfriend and he already fucking hates me so that would only make y #Life worse. And I dont know how he has a girlfriend bc he is so mean to me and I dont know why anyone would find him compelling #And hes 5 years younger than me and I've never dated. I'm not exactly in a rush to date but I'd like to have SOME experience. #And hes been dating her for a while too. I told him he cant just have this covered for him forever hes gonna have to come clean one day #And so I'm reeling and having an awful time mentally bc I think I've severely hurt the feelings of the one sibling who likes me #And I had to go to the store when I really just wanted to go home and I had my sister giving pointed comments abt my decisions and the fact #Might have been poisoned by a rancid cookie and I have no one to tell abt this and to top it all off I feel like none of them even understa #How incredibly stressful and awful this made me feel #I am simply not going to take them places for the next month unless I absolutely have to #Bc thats the only power I have in this situation #Also my most minor guilt is I set out to post less vents on tumblr. And this is a vent so :(

[andragoras-in-vanity]

lmao the two things i hate the most are men who think theyre funny, and men who pick up a mic and think they can call themselves musicians.

somehow i managed to snag not only those two things but also 'so fucking boring but thinks he could keep up with me enough to fuck me' all in one dumbass guy!! i fucking hate tinder, man.

#if you sing but cant play an instrument that says a lot about you as a person and none of it is good #youre fucking lazy and you have no substance #vocalists who dont even have shit to stand for politically are even worse #such a fucking waste of space #anyway i got pissed off because this idiot fundamentally misunderstood the plot of dragon age 2 #after trying to make a joke about my name being anders #like buddy not only are you stupid and have already told me all i need to know about your lack of political alignment youre boring as fuck! #and you could never keep up with me #i hate tinderrrrr im fucking sixk of that beinf my only option for meeting guys #the guys on there are NOT quality men #especially around here #but anyway fuck that dumbass and i kinda wanna block him

[caffeinatedopossum]

About your last post, being persistently exposed to trauma, residually as a child, is absolutely a fucked up thing whether or not anything directly happened to you. Whether or not others take it seriously that is absolutely valid trauma and I'm sorry and hope you feel better soon.

Thank you :(( I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks it was damaging

#tw csa mention in these tags #i think i didnt realize it was traumatic because when stuff started to come out #it was allegations about my dad from one of my sisters #saying that he sa'd our sister and my dad immediately went to jail #but my mom was devastated and couldnt function. idk exactly what happened because its blurry (i was only 7 so yeah) #idk somehow our mom got him out of jail tho and i was told (VERY emphatically) that he wasnt actually guilty #my sisters were forced to testify #saying that they had lied essentially and it wasnt true #and thats what i was told too. i was told that it was a lie and it hadnt happened and i believed that #because i was 7. most children my age didnt even know what sex WAS let alone abuse #i also didnt really care because i didnt understand. i was just scared and i missed how my family used to be #but obviously it never went back to the way it was #my parents moved us really far away. out of state. and after that i was never allowed to stay home alone with my dad again #which was upsetting for me because i hated going most places (i would get sensory overload and i had bad anxiety already) #and i also didnt understand why my mom was so convinced someone would spread allegations again if they had no reason to #basically it was years and years of me slowly realizing what really happened #and it never fully sunk in... i think in a way im still that terrified 7 year old deep down. in denial because acceptance isnt acceptable #skfkgj sorry for the trauma dump it just helps to talk about specifics sometimes

[wabblebees]

assigning me homework is cruel and unusual, actually

#my brain is fucked. literally why are u making me do this shit. its fucking ridiculous #complain complain whine complain #whine whine bitch moan complain whine #scream. tear hair out. consider running away to the mountains #realise im already in the mountains and i still have to do this shit #grrrRRAAAGH. #the assignment is to read 30 pages of our textbook and take notes in an Atrocious & Exceedingly Specific Format that my brain DOES NOT LIKE #it does not FUCKING COMPUTE. and its making me so frustrated that i cant even READ anymore #after exactly One Hour of reading my entire brain went NOPE WE'RE DONE HERE and now its been TWO hours #the whole point is so we have a ~reference book~ to look back at in the future when it may be relevant! but what that Actually means is #YOUR HOMEWORK IS TO REWRITE THE TEXTBOOKAND MAKE YOUR OWN ✨️EMOTIONAL CONNECTIONS✨️ TO THE TOPICS COVERED #sir. if i told u the ✨️emotional connections✨️ i am making to this textbook #my mother would tackle me to wash my mouth out with soap. ''respectfully.'' #the professor (derogatory)((<-the guy teaching isnt even technically a professor)) didnt even make up this assignment or the curriculum #he just got the job bc all of the other ACTUAL department faculty refused. bc this sucks ass. #he talks FOREVER abt some tangent & THEN is like 'hm. so we dont have time for the things i planned to do in class today. what do we do.' #WHY SHOULD WE KNOW. THATS YOUR JOB #and i like him (sort of.)((i at least want to be decent to him yanno?)) but this is fucking insane. i hate it here #id be so on board to read this textbook and learn this shit if i didnt have to take those GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING NASTY-ASS NOTES. FUCK. #this shit is legitimately so interesting to me!! but knowing i have to do ALL THAT?? #makes my brain book it out the back of my skull like a fucking looney-toons skit. makes it go kablooey. leaves no trace but a dust cloud #thinking abt this assignment has been making my attention span so skittery that i havent been able to work on my OTHER homework Either #ugh. whatever #ill get over it & finish eventually. i just. the textbook is ALREADY oversimplifying so much #so im sitting here highlighting nearly fucking EVERYTHING. and then cant figure out what to actually take down as nOtEs #30 pages. of which im supposed to distill ''the 4-5 most important pieces of information from each page'' #meaning my shit in ~column a~ should have. AT L E A S T. 120 FUCKING BULLET POINTS??? #and THEN. im supposed to put an equivalent amount of ✨️personal connections✨️ in ~column FUCKING b~ #fuck me ig. fuck. #bee speaks

[margheritart]

Also related to this: hot take/controversial opinion/hard pill to swallow/whatever but "Seth is not a good person and is rightly hated" and "Seth is a victim of Gretchen as much as the others" are two arguments that can and SHOULD coexist

#the wilds #like to me this is so indicative of how much of a psycho this woman is #that she meets this teenager with serious issues and instead of going like ok this one needs help it's not safe to have him in the group #she puts him in the island in a stressful and tense situation with other teenagers and gives him information that the others don't have #definitely waiting for him to snap and fuck up so that the boys fail before the girls #i was already disgusted by how she recruited nora in s1 #but this is on another level #she doesnt care for the wellbeing of these teens she just wants her stupid ideology to be proven right #and even after being told what seth did she still puts him in charge #like she's consciously enabling an abuser at this point #i hate her

[tiredsadpeach]

The urge to isolate and only talk to my family, my bf, and one other friend lmao

#it’s just so #I’m tired of hurting #if he comes to me little I’ll still be his cg because that’s like leaving a child imo #but just ever since the bullying incident thing I have really really been rethinking that friendship #and all those connected to him #and I hate that because liek on one side that’s my fp I think I’d lose my fucking mind without him #and on the other side.. aren’t I already losing my fucking mind? hasn’t he already checked out of this friendship? #you literally tweeted SHUT UP repeating after I asked you if you were okay one time lol #whenever we get in a fight I get to see all the awful things you say about me in that time #you can’t even be happy for me and my bf just because things moved so fast I understand being worried but I’m so fucking happy cant you say #just once that despite it all you’re happy for me? I know I was happy for you at times I was also worried sick lmao #I make one cent tweet and you get mad because I didn’t say anything to you immediately when we’ve known each other for a while and it takes #me some time before I can do that like idk what else you want from me I wait so that I don’t explode and say something I don’t mean #I always have and everytime that’s a problem even though I’ve told you before #I just #idk #2022 killed this friendship I think and I hate that

[famewolf]

it is me, the fool, trying to figure out if i should call my boss tomorrow, on my day off no less, and officially tell him to remove me from promotion consideration ... or will i finally have the nerve to do it on wednesday and in person

#[static] #i was in line for promotion last spring but i got really burnt out and started looking for a new job #told him i needed a break after training for months doing manager things and not getting manager pay #put off looking for work to focus on the handfasting and since then the company has a new manager position that was kind of what i wanted - #-in the first place and it seems too good to be true lmao everyone says i should do it and all the managers tell me i already do the job #but i have come to the realization in my late 20s ... that you dont have to do everything that you are good at if you are not passionate - #-about it ...... like you dont need to go for every promotion handed to you if you dont like the work #this position is higher pay but less hours so i'll be getting paid the same ( if not a little less ) for an extra day off #it's not worth it and im finally realizing that! i just need to leave and start over somewhere else #something that doesnt destroy my health every day and doesnt aggravate my chronic pain disorder #something that lets me have a life outside of work!! anyways .... he told me hed really like me to do the position #and i told him to talk to me after the holidays since i thought i'd be gone by then. and im still here and its 2 weeks until the end LMAO #i think im just gonna call him i could get the nerve to finally tell him no all week. i just hate letting people down lmao #and also i kept humming and hawing about the position even though i knew it wasnt a good idea #alas ... it is ok to start over even if it feels like youve put a lot of effort and time into something