#etc etc on a fucking loop

[thegardengrows-infrozenrain]

brb, bashing my head against a wall about it.

#vent #rant #vagueposting #i hate when people do that #just rope me into shit and then drop it like a week later #like people have actually blocked me now because of this ridiculous shit #and it's your goddamn fault #but every fucking time you get these insane ideas in your head i have to be there to fucking support you because no one else is #this happens every single FUCKING time and it's happened with all of you #i'm just so goddamn done at this point #i'm sick of all of you. and fucking buddying around with you like this is okay. #not to mention my failing fucking health. which you all repeatedly ignore #'hEy WaNnA rP' 'no sorry i have a headache rn. deficiency shit. they haven't bought me more [whatever]' #'oH oKaY tHeN iLl LeAvE YoU bE' [five minutes later] 'hEyY wAnNa Rp' #etc etc on a fucking loop #it's obnoxious and exhausting and i'm so sick of fucking all of you #but i can never say it to your face because where else would i find people who want to talk to me #i don't want to die alone but being surrounded by you assholes isn't exactly an upgrade

[lucabyte]

i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking. #nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose. #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #---------------------------------------------------------------------- #anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!) #which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around) #and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt) #and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine) #the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly. #but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief) #as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

[jiiyawns]

fight the pain awaaaay

#sth #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic frontiers #tw eye strain #i am already so fucking sorry to everyone's eyes. its okay just know i had to stare at this brightass red for hours #smth smth i've had this song on loop i'm contributing 1000 plays myself etc etc etc #secretly this is sonic underground fanart except i do not wanna draw a guitar lol #based off the official art that everyone likes including me because yes i like the idea of him idk. jammin. rocking. he's sonic #i hate perspective and i hate geometric shapes. thank you #fanart #draw

[lacefuneral]

stede pink suit tribute

#ofmd #yes even my joke fancams loop. #fun fact: this video is longer than the time this suit actually appears on screen for #i think the funniest bit of this is how fucking high res the shots of his face are compared to the actual shots of the suit bc of how much #i had to zoom in on the footage #i'm learning new sharpening methods in AE #ilu double cineon converter double unsharp mask sandwich <3 #thats why stede's face looks so good #the suit not so much sggdshhgdsh #got the tumblr aspect ratio wrong as well. this is why i usually stick to the native resolution of the show #don't ask me why i tried to manually stabilize the footage instead of warp stabilizing. i'm not a pirate i'm an idiot etc. #song is ''ain't no thing'' by oliver nelson and kaleem taylor #jay.mp4

[treasureplcnet]

also quite obsessed with karl being as detached from the story as he is. there's nothing that makes him have to be the detective that has to be involved, but he unknowingly dooms himself by agreeing to work with the KYAL cult. every other detective basically deals with elias head on except weissman, who only meets him right before he kills him. like he's right when he says "by my choices" because everything that leads him to being mixed up with the mannix cult is himself. it's the gambling debts and the choice to do the dirty work for an organisation he knows nothing about. he's the only one that doesn't encounter that body doing police work and it's specifically because he's told to cover it up. he gets himself into the mess and eventually fixes it but the fact that esther always dies in the doomed timelines and he's always too late even if he starts wanting to change things ("till this child. esther.") it just makes me very ill

#sorry jane who heard this on her dms but now im posting it to tumblr cause im having a category 5 woman moment. AND ALTERNATIVELY: #i am also EXTREMELY obsessed with how its a time loop and the idea (so sorry tumblr user whose post i have lost and was inspired by) #weissman was just so fucking hard to deal with that they made sure that he was in their pockets. i just like the idea of the loop-- #--having like. fixed points that elias would need to ensure the dystopia (body is covered up/the investigation closes/etc) but #how they get there is a slightly slower process and the earliest loops were the messiest/most unpredictable #and what we see in the show itself is like. the most streamlined version over hundreds of loops and attempts #so karl specifically. lonely that he is and determined to survive. AND with a cruel streak against people he doesn't like #kept nearly blowing their operation so they began to incorporate him in it instead #there's also another tragedy in there if /esther/ is what they realise works best against him.. #just love and kindness for a girl that weissman comes to see as family and they immediately exploit it after learning during an early loop #im ignoring specific plot points here (polly seemingly panicking when esther shows up at the station) but I DO NOT CARE. #THERE'S ANGST HAPPENING RN. IM CREATING SCENARIOS TO HURT ME #now if i could write coherently this would be written as a fic but im stuck writing too long textposts #karl weissman #bodies 2023 #bodies netflix #sorry to the other detectives. weissman in particular is my babygirl who i devote most of my brainpower to #personal

[anotherpapercut]

whatever you think about friends (1994-2004), I truly do feel that "you're job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's DOA. it's like you're always stuck in 2nd gear. and it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year" adequately prepared me for my 20s

#like. that is accurate actually #gotta be the most practical sitcom theme out there #sometimes when things are bad all i can think is 'fuck this stupid baka life' and 't hasnt been your day etc etc on loop #its comforting #so i guess someone DID tell me life was gonna be this way.......

[c4tto626]

but do we get to see o.o the thigh straps?

you just want crotch pictures, admit it 😏 but also sure

#it's my go-to when i don't wanna bring a bag anywhere #fits my most important necessities #(phone knife etc. i clip my wallet to my belt loop) #fuck the military but they kinda did something right #with the molle system lmao #c4.img

[marcusagrippa]

there are churches in attis..

#insane to try and figure out a timeline for this fucking book. but that means the whole jesus thing happened #and that happened because of. WELL. the Romans™. but the romans that would have had to have existed for the timeline #of events that led to jesus' crucifixion ie probably all of the guys in the late republic for augustus to do stuff + then. empire. tiberius #etc. are in the period that the book actually covers. so. ???? #whatt ever its probably some weird time textual loop thing situation. guy who needs to stop thinking about this book voice #or maybe i just missed the point of it. sad! #attis

[bbqhooligan]

my bad broski i was not familiar with your game 🫡 yeah i have been a drake hater for years & tbh ever since pusha t's story of adidon released i was praying for his downfall but it all got pushed to the side and was so anticlimactic. because music industry keeps hiding and uplifting the freaks and the predators! i was so mad abt drake cowering and posturing like he's still the king while he got exposed (for me, this was meet the grahams before meet the grahams was a thing). but i get you, and i also heard j. cole's new song too and man... kendrick made these two go on a downward spiral. motherfuck the big 3, it's just big me indeed! so i agree i'd rather want king kenny ft. megan AND YOU KNOW THE MUSIC VIDEO WOULD BE FLAMESSS MEGAN IS SO CREATIVE AND FUN SHE WOULD MOST LIKELY BRING THE FUN PART OUT OF KENDRICK TOO. CARTOONS AND CEREAL PART 2.

OMG ANON YEAH I DIDNT EVEN THINK ABT A POSSIBLE MV THAT WOULD GO SO HARD lmao im scared to hope i didnt even consider that holy shit. but yeah with drake, like with all male celebrities theres a small part of population that holds onto the "bad info" but everyone moves on and youre left feeling crazy like GUYS I STILL REMEMBER HE DATED THAT MODEL AS SOON AS SHE TURNED 18 THAT HE MET AS A MINOR so it was historic KENDRICK LAMAR went "nah i remember too youre not crazy" jesus woah.

also i saw a yt comment that said "damn kendrick wasnt lying it really is Big Him" and ive been cackling calling him the Big Him

#mypost #kendrick lamar #k. #drake #askbox #yeehaw brother ill yap about this endlessly forever ill never move on this is MY tpic forever #like its so weird cuz YOU remember brad pitt you remember billie eilish weirdo old boyfriend you remember #but everuones like MEH #dicaprio. ALSO DIDNT FUCKING. CAPTAIN AMERICA DATE A 19 YEAR OLD TOO #god also that other chris who was funding homophobic churches #god im in a loop of remembering now. damn #WHATEVER. ITS KENDRICK AND ME AGAINST THIS INDUSTRY #IF KENDRICK HAS A MILLION SOLDIERS IM ONE OF THEM ETC ETC ETC

[sixsthemeii]

welcome to hell, sunshine

#tw hanging #tw suicide #lisa rpg #lisa the joyful #buddy armstrong #buddy lisa #lisa buddy #lisa armstrong #to all my followers here for little nightmares: i am so sorry #i also want to clarify for anyone interested in this game #it has EXTREMELY heavy subject matter (csa/violence/etc) #and on top of that its got that weird south park style racist transmisogynistic ‘humor’ #i feel like not a lot of ppl talk about that last part when recommending the game which is like. bad because i was+ #COMPLETELY thrown for a loop when it happened #and i know others were as well :/ its fucking gross #idk im rambling atp #lisa the painful

[braywashed]

I think the thing that's fucking with my brain the most is the separation of fact and fiction because it's like... we spent years being told that Bray was this unkillable character that would always come back no matter what, and now it's just like...I have to remind myself that in reality he was just a normal guy, it's weird.

It's..... yeah.

Okay - I'm gonna get real wordy and wax poetically and I'm so sorry I'm incapable of just talking and crying like a normal person.

It's like a big old layered burrito of denial on all fronts, right?

Because on the surface, we have a guy who was so young, and that seems so hard to get past in itself. We also have the fact that he was prone to injury at points and disappearing for... months at a time. He had been released and came back, what, a year later? In the meantime there were always a billion headlines with his name, speculating the worst, and it never had any accuracy or mattered. We were always *looking forward* to him returning and he always inevitably did because he had half his career ahead of him still and it always seemed like the best was to come.

And we have all these stories of what a beautiful person he was, a side we roughly knew of but never got to really experience ourselves as an audience.

But the person we saw was, as you said, this unkillable character. Literally unkillable. He told us from day one he could never die and would persist 5000 years from now when *we* were all gone. Because he was this personification of all the darkest bits of humanity and American society come to force us to face our sins. We watched him, silly as it was, get burned alive and come back a shambling heap of melting flesh and be completely restored. He was forever, he was a god, you could always find him and you could never, ever kill it.

And like, as fans, we kindle that kid in us that wants to believe in superheros and villains and we grow over the years with them. We go to events, and we sing his songs, and we thrust ourselves into that role ourselves of characters in a way. Like we were always *his*. Even if you didn't love him, you played into that for his entrance at the very least because it was such an undeniable experience. He talked and you, and every babyface, listened - whether you wanted to or not.

I'll never forget that one match on Raw, still early on, when the whole crowd was first singing "He's got the whole world in his hands" and just swaying, and then turning around and chanting "Bray is gonna kill you." Like, I remember Big E was in that match, and I'm pretty sure he was on the receiving end of that chant. He was over. He was beloved. And the whole crowd was singing hymns and calling for his demise for this literal cult leader that would speak in tongues and Exorcist walk across the ring, holding his heart and smiling with some masked sinister joy at it.

It's really really hard to reconcile he's not actually some biblical force of nature looming over everything and everyone even though we know better. And like, that fan in me that's that eternal kid in a way, is just stomping my feet screaming "but he CAN'T die!"

The end of Smackdown did, and still is, really fucking me up because I kept waiting for the lantern to go out. And like, I couldn't decide if I wanted that. Because on one hand, there's a symbolism there, and a kind of sad beauty, in the light going out. He was with us, and he's gone now, and he can rest (ahahaha I'm going to start crying again). The light fades. But ultimately I'm so glad it didn't go out because A.) I don't think I could've fucking handled it and was already bawling, and B.) It shouldn't go out. Or fade. His spirit of everything he brought to that world should stay with us and with every single performer who goes out there every night and throws their hearts into playing these characters.

And like... maybe, even though it's so hard now, maybe eventually there's comfort to be found in the idea that even though the vessel is gone - *He* will, somehow, always be there haunting us. Because "I have a thousand faces and a million names." We might not see him, but we can choose to believe every time a hero is forced to face their fears that he's there behind it - silently whispering into our ears, willing us on to indulge in every second of it.

#this is dumb maybe #i guess on a less dramatic note anon #i cant remember where it was - probably jo's instagram #there was a pic of them together and he was wearing those stupid glasses he wore in that last segment for the bobby feud #the ones with the gold side frames that look like he stole them from someones mom #like no homie really had those glasses #and i had this moment of like 'oh god he's such a fucking dad for real' #i dont think anything ever threw me through a loop more than that lmao #like 'no i need to repress this imagery immediately i can't believe the eater of worlds looks like someones quirky uncle at the bbq' #now its like im glad for that stuff and the stories and pics and videos etc because it makes me smile seeing that side of him and how he #touched so many people and made people so happy to be around #but it doesnt help the confusion of it all or make it make any more sense #and i have this awful feeling a year from now im still going to be waiting for him to pop up #feeling lonely because no one else is talking about him anymore #oh it got dramatic again im a dumbass im shutting up now

[ruvviks]

watching all the bee gee three stuff unfold on my dash has been craaaazy today

#personal #have not played it since i rage quit last year so i am out of the loop as fuck and still got tags blacklisted but mein gott. man. etc etc

[isa-ah]

i have formally and officially entered the loop. sigh.

#im so so so tired but ive been putting off going to bed for hours #even tho im like straight up getting nauseous and dizzy spells #mostly bc my dreams last night and the last couple nights fucked with me #but when i stay up like this my dreams just get worse #which makes me stay up more #etc #the loop #im so tired awughh #once reached a point of sleep deprivation where i had a mental breakdown repeated false awakening nightmare followed by spider hallucinatio #so many spiders on the wall when i woke up #it took hours to actually believe i was awake LOL #i used to have this issue over the course of years where i had the same nightmare every time i fell asleep #didnt matter if it was 1am or 1pm if i slept for 45 minutes or 4-5 hours etc #same nightmare every single time. so i lost A LOT of sleep avoiding it like the plague #i went full whacko mode man. i was off my shit. hallucinating daily type sleep deprivation #dont be like me kids #stay in bed

[sinecosinewheel]

ok so here's a bloodborne post. every dream or nightmare in bloodborne needs two things:

1. a host/dreamer

2. a being to create the dream

in the nightmare frontier/nightmare of mensis the dreamer is micolash and the creator is mergo.

we know for sure the nameless moon presence made the hunter's dream, and the obvious conclusion is gehrman is the dreamer. my personal pet theory is the doll is a second dreamer, the real host of the dream, because you find her sleeping in the old abandoned workshop

when you end a dream you have to kill both the host of the dream and the creator, ex, killing micolash then mergo, killing (freeing) gehrman and then the moon presence

so here where i get a little confusing okkkkk. the doll is the reason the game loops. the purpose of the hunter's dream is to keep hunters alive, at least when they start out hunting. hunters can leave the dream, like eileen and djura, but can they really? they reset when you start new game plus. everything resets. you are able to end the nightmare of beasts by ending the mensis ritual, but micolash was already long dead and a skeleton when he 'woke up', meaning gehrman would be as well. the doll, however, would just go back to sleep. she has an immortal doll body, if she wakes up there is no actual consequence. in the childhoods beginning ending you become the new creator of the dream, and the doll is the host, so gehrman is unnecessary. in the ending where you replace gehrman you are replacing his role as the surrogate child of the moon presence/collateral, and the doll is the host. in yharnam sunrise you 'leave' the dream, but you can't actually leave. the only thing left is new game plus. there is no way to permanently kill the doll in the game, and you need to kill both the dreamer and the maker of the dream to end it

i believe the moon presence created something unintendedly bigger than herself with the dream, it's become an endless self powering cycle that resets the entire world instead of just keeping a few hunters alive. the great ones are sympathetic in spirit, but she didn't really understand what laurence (and associates) was asking for because she can never actually die. so now no one can ever die! N that's my post

#wheeltext #the creator of the hunters nightmare is kos and i thiiink the dreamer would be the orphan. kos is already 'dead' (as a great one can get) #n you put the orphan to rest #n then the nightmare ends #so yeah there are two effects of this type of deal #it creates a dream/nightmare (which stays even after the host and creator are killed) and it does Something #the Something of the mensis ritual was the beast plague/whatever the FUCK they did to yaharghul/the one reborn #n the Something of the hunters dream was the time loop/keeping hunters alive/providing aid to hunters/etc #n the Something of the hunters nightmare was dragging all hunters to actual hell when they go blood drunk #i believe the nature of the deal with the moon presence was to house the hunters #assist them keep them alive whatever they need #and she would get two things out of it #the first is a surrogate child in gehrman (he also works as collateral for the deal while laurenc n co worked for the mp's ends) #and the second is that the hunters would take out the competition and kill other great ones #hence the note Hunt the Great Ones. Hunt the Great Ones. in byrgenwerth #OH FUCK #ok so maybe the obscuring of rituals rom did yknow hiding the blood moon etc was a deal she made with willem #but it didnt create a dream it made the moonlit lake #rom could also be the dreamer maybe? bc she used to be human #idk im really just spitballing at this point if i got anything wrong or misremembered smth feel free to correct me #also sorry this is so long lmao

[vriendenboekjes]

finally the haterisms i need

#like sure hes good but not that good/interesting #figure skating #🌬️ #how are you almost scoring him as high as JASON BROWN SCHINDLER'S LIST.. be fucking for real #i haaate the focus on quads/jumps so much. where is the beauty lol. when so often theyre pre-rotated and you cant even tell the difference #between a toe loop and a salchow. it's embarrassing. jason brown fan forever and ever his spins make me weep #judges are biased as FUCKKK i hate the sport but i love it etc etc #anyways. watch jason brown's sinnerman. i think it's one of the most beautiful programs out there

[shewhosleepsalotincemeteries]

#can you play a song with a fucking beat etc #looped this for my entire run today #i need to make an updated running playlist with more stuff like this #🎵🪦