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seijch · 3 years

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ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

#did i have an announcement tag #announcement #also regarding work hsjkdfsd the company i work for didnt give my location the opening for the full time position i wanted #my managers all agree id be promoted if we had it but we dont so i . hee .#anyway um i hope everyones doing well #some of my moots changed urls while i was away and now i have no idea who anyone is #its like when you see your familys friends and theyre like omg youre so big now! i remember when you were a baby and youre like 🧍‍♂️#and you have to play along bc apparently they remember you hskdfsd #im not very funny in this post but i figured id rather be honest considering my lengthy absence #consider this my comeback stage

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the-devils-weakness · 6 years

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I am starting a story. They guys in the story are based off of the sexy Leto brothers.. Hope yall like it.. Please be nice just starting this up.

This is a story about best friends , Langston and Lyric... Music brought them together. Welcome to their life of love, music ,and a little madness and darkness..

THE FIRST PART OF THE STORY IS HOW THE GIRLS FEEL ABOUT EACH OTHER

Lyric oh goodness she is my partner in crime my rock. I watch her as we are sitting outside on my porch.. Shes my dark beauty her Raven like hair in a mess singing our song " Cuts deep "by Inferno... I think... What the hell i would do without her. We came into each other's life at the perfect time... she's my soulmate my shoulder to cry on. My best friend til the end of time.. We have been best friends since we were 16...i love her with all my heart.

My little Lang.. Langston my rainbow bright straight from hell... Shes my everything... She has saved me she is my riot,my soulmate..without her i wouldnt be here i watch her download new songs from Inferno... Huge smile on her face our story is just beginning ooh what a ride it will be...

chapter one

7am Saturday , Lyric will kill me for waking her up this early. But oh well its my right as a best friend to attack her with awesome news! I open the door of her house run and jump on her bed RIC WAKE UP!!!! she screams and kicks me off her bed . Dammit Lang what the hell? Why are you trying to kill me? I have to laugh she's so dramatic at times.. Well buttercup your bestie has won us tickets and backstage passes to Inferno. Before i can say anything else, she jumps off the bed and wraps me in a huge hug. Oh Lang im sorry for kicking you. Her trying to sound sweet makes me laugh.. So darlin in 3 weeks we will be in front of Inferno!!!!!!

Our screams make her older brother Sam, and his friends Nick and luke, run into the room. They are watching us freak out . What the hell is going on in her Lyric? We stop our happy dance, Sam why do you care? And if you must know Langston won tickets and backstage passes to Inferno in 3 weeks ! He looks at us like we are crazy, his asshole of a friend Luke looks at Langston, like she some kind of science experiment. I knew he was going to say something horrible, and i was right he slowly walks over to her and then it happens..

Wow what the hell are you? Did Halloween forget you when the holiday was over? You look like a part of the addams family,that a rainbow puked on.. Couldn't just pick one color? I see you love skulls ... I watched her face as he broke her down her green eyes filling with tears that she holding back. She plays with her bracelets that hide the scars from her past .

i look at my brother begging him to do something about his friend , he just stands there laughing he knows about her past , he was there the last time she cut , he was at the hospital . she looks at me like she is lost and i begin to cry for her. she looks at Sam and starts to yell at him

What the fuck is wrong with you sam ? i never thought you would be this much of a asshole! he looks at her and dont say a word, luke thinks this is the best thing in the world and he is now laughing right in her face . then i see it the look of no return she is going to freak out. she looks a luke and without warning she punches him right in the face , he falls to the ground . i ran over to her and wrap her up in a huge hug lets get out of here Lang .

we sit in her car for what seems like hours , she finally talks , lyric can we just run away ?i am sick of this shit i am so done with your brother and his friends . your brother can kiss my ass i dont want anything to do with him at all. i know she is hurt he has been like her big brother she loves him to death and he treats her like she is nothing when he is with his friends he dont care much for me either and i get why she is hurt .

she wipes her tears and smiles that smile that makes my heart happy. guess what i did darlin. she hands me a set of keys , i look at her kinda lost because she is the type to do something without warning . what the hell are these to ? well my dear they are the keys to our new apartment i signed the paper work last night and wanted to surprise you . we move in this weekend you little creep when did you have the time to do this without me knowing ? Lyric i am just that good she laughs ..

moving day moving day bitches look out we are here i cant help it i am so excited. Lyric is trying not to drop a huge box she claims she didnt need help with. i get my cat carrier that is far to large for no reason with my cat who is less then impressed to be in it . Oh Cinder we are home , she makes a noise to which i take as get me the hell out of here .i walk up the stairs cussing myself out for getting this huge cat carrier . i finally get get to the door i walk in and set the carrier down . the second i open it Cinder runs out and jumps in the window. The diva has found her spot Lyric, and she is pleased with her new home . lyric comes out of her room.

she looks at my cat , yes she looks very happy to be out of her hell box . she walks over to her and pets her , Lyric got her for me, three years ago for my birthday she was a little black fluff ball with a big red bow . Both of them help me thur the hardest times and i dont know what i would do without them. hey Lang before i forget i have to tell you we have another four legged critter in the house .oh really and who would that be? she smiles and says come her boy the next thing i know her huge black great dane beast dog knocks me over . Well hello Zane so happy you are here , Zane we got out of a shelter last year he was mistreated and Ric had to have him . he gives me a million kisses and goes over to the window by Cinder she licks his nose and goes to sleep . They are besties as well we finish getting the place unpacked for the most part . we end up passing out in the living room watching friday the 13th .

fucking nightmares , i get up to go get some water , i hope lyric didnt hear me she wishes she that there was something she could do .i havent been the same since my step dad told me he wanted nothing to do with me .he has been in my life since i was 3 years old . he could careless if i was dead or alive. i have always had issues with myself but him saying he didnt love me hurt alot . the day he wrote me off was when the cutting got worse . i wish i wasnt fucked up. i really dont know what i would do with Langston. i have my mom and my awesome sisters that are always there for me , and my real dad and his wife are amazing. i dont want to sound like a some sad girl with no family, but Lyric is different . i just wish i wasnt out of my mind , i know she would never leave me or stop wanting to be my best friend. damn sometimes i just wish i would just stop over thinking everything . i am wide awake there is no way i can go back to bed . i sit in the window with a book and turn the music on, Inferno's song "devil within " fills the room and i am relaxed i love this band to death they are how me and Lyric met . we know every word to all of the songs , we have Inferno stuff all over the house .. And we are in love with the singer Jace and his sexy drummer brother shane.

out of the corner of my eye i see a guy with and pink mohawk and ripped up jeans , going into the upstairs apartment across from me . i see him in the livingroom window the lights are low and he is talking to someone sitting in the livingroom with dark hair . then it hits me .. i am going crazy ! that it not Jace and Shane what the hell why would they have a place here ? its 4:30 in the morning . the more i look the more i freak out. no fucking way i must have said this way to loud and they both look out the window right at me and smile ... i wave like a huge nerd and run into Lyrics room. wake the the hell up! i think i am going insane . she looks at me like i have lost my mind , What is wrong Lang ? Dude i swear on everything i believe in that Jace and Shane Morgan are staying in the upstairs apartment across the way from us !!!! i tell her what i saw and she is looking at me like i have really lost it . please Ric come see i swear i am not seeing things . i take her to the window look babe please tell me i am not insane . she looks and sees Shane outside with no shirt on , she looks at me like she has seen a ghost .he notices and waves she looks at me and drags me into the hallway.

Langston what do we do now they are right there. i look at her and smile we get them to notice us more .

CHAPTER 2

4 days before the concert , langston and i havent seen the guys since that night we stayed up hoping to see them again . its midnight when i finally have a idea , Lang get the dog we are going for a walk . we change into one of our awesome outfits , langston is in her famous ripped up jeans that and her skull tank top . i am wearing my new skirt and red lust love shirt , we are gonna see the guys again if it kills us, we get zane outside and walk around grass area between the buidlings . Zane is running around like a lunatic langston has his ball but before she can do anything he runs at her and knocks her on her ass , and i start to laugh . she is on her back with the beast of a dog standing over her . then i hear them, nice dog sweetie, there Shane is standing there in his army pants and his black hoodie. I forgot how to talk so I just smile. Langston Relazies what is going on and gets off the ground and is met by jaces hand to help her up. She take it and looks at me in shock he smiles and walks her over to me holding her hand he is still holding it when Shane brings Zane back over he hands me his ball, and he grabs my arm and says how about you ladies come hang out? I smile and say sure I am sure I am sure I have a insane look on my face . Jace brings Langston to me take the dog home and come over. He smiles and they both walk away .

We run back to the apartment,we stand there looking at each other. Lyric please tell me this isn't a dream.. No Langston it's real I can't fucking believe it. I look out the window and there they are watching us and smiling. I give and shy wave and we walk out the door. We walk up to the door and knock and I feel i Am going to puke. Jace opens the door with a killer smile and let's us in, Shane is on the couch he also smiles, hey Lyric come shot next to me she moves over just enough for her to cuddle up next to him I. I still can't believe this is going on., I feel a arm around my waist come sit with me Langston Jace says in a low sexy voice.

So ladies how are you doing today? Shane asks as he puts his arm around Lyric. She turns her self against him well Shane we are pretty good got everything finally unpacked and now we are here with you guys I would say we are pretty good. And we are actually seeing you guys play in a few days. His eyes light up well I am happy you will be there Lyric we will have to hang out after the show. I couldn't agree more Shane she said, her and I make eye contact she knows I am freaking out but hiding it very well. She looks down at my wrists and seeing me playing with my bracelets. She winks at me silently telling me i got this, I look at Jace who has moved a lot closer to me. You excited about the show Langston? He says my name and makes me wanna say take me now. I can't wait for the show we actually won the tickets and backstage passes. So it looks like we will have some one on one time for a few minutes . He smiles and whispers I am looking forward to it. And he holds my hand, we hang out for hours talking and getting to know each other . It's 5am when we realize the time.

Oh wow I can't believe we talked all night Jace says. It feels like you ladies just got here, thank you for having us over guys we say we needbro get going, men and lyric have to work in two hours and need lots of coffee. Sorry to keep you ladies all night Shane says his arms still around Lyric. It's more then alright Shane she smiles. Jace pulls me into a huge. See you later Langston and they both give us a kiss on the cheek.

We walk in the house we are greeted by cinder and Zane who act like they haven't seen us in years. We feed them and we get the coffee started. lang look out the window lyric says softy, Jace and Shane blow us a kiss and wave.

I can't believe this is happening and the look on lyrics face she can't either. Can't wait to see where this goes..

Work is going by so slow , we are so hyper off coffee and just thinking about last night, i cant believe

we hung out with jace and shane. Me and Langston dont tell anyone at work about the night , they would not believe us any way, We work at HIdeaway its a cool little shop that sells everything from music ,clothes and jewelry , we have been the managers here for two years . we love it here we also get to look at Jace and shane all day this store sells the most Inferno merchandise . The only bad part about this store is Lacy and katie , they think they run the place and think they are hot shit . they are only fans of guys in bands for the looks and money the kind of girls you want to punch the fuck out , and i have to say i am so shocked that Langston has not kicked lacys ass yet . Lacy and katie will also be at the concert and they are dead set on hooking up with the guys and they like to tell us what they have planed all the time just to piss us off.

the phone rings

Hello this is Lacy , how can i help you? OOOH LANGSTON , you have a phone call.

Hello this is Langston , what can i do for you today ? hmm well that is loaded question, i can think of a few things you can do for me, right away i smile well hello you how are you doing ? I would be better if you were next to me i bet you are tired from being up all night .Well you amd your brother kept us up til 6am ! The second i say that Lyric looks at me with huge eyes and smiles lacy and katie are watching us and trying to figure out what is going on . Well we are sorry about that how about we bring you ladies some lunch? You guys wanna come here are you insane ! Jace laughs , well yeah is that alright? Oh yeah it is you know where we work just be ready for the madness . Everything will be okay baby Shane and I will be there in like a hour , Shane is making sure he is all sexy for Lyric . Dude shut the fuck up , i hear Shane yell i can not help but laugh. See you guys soon we can eat lunch in our office text me when you guys are almost here . will do babe see you soon . i hang up the phone

Lyric is looking at me like she is dying to now what is going on . Lyric we have a lunch date in a hour , she looks like she is going to jump out of her skin they are going to let us know when they are almost here .

who is coming to have lunch with you freaks ? katie says in her stuck up voice ,Lacy laughs . Ladies if you keep up being little brats i will treat you both like one and you wont be working here any more. You dont have to be so mean Lyric katie wines , A hour passes and still no word from Jace i hope that everything is okay .Lyric is folding shirts in the corner and i am tying to hang up posters, i am short and need a latte i cuss for having short legs , katie and Lacy are acting like they are working . i hear the front door open but dont think to much about it , i look over at Lyric just in time to see Shane wrap his arms around her . Hey Sweets , miss me she turns around and hugs him back , i am in a panic i dont see Jace at all , i get off the latter turn around and i am face to face with him , hey baby he picks me up and i wrap my legs around him. At that moment Lacy says . what the hell is going on here ? she cant see Jace his back is facing her and shane has Lyric in the corner of the store kissing her , katie is watching them in shock. I roll my eyes lacy our lunch is here we are gonna close up for lunch see you back in lets say two hours ?

Aww how cute Katie look they need alone time with their fake dates . whats the matter guys dont want to be seen with the little freaks . they bust into laugher , jace holds me tighter and he turns around so now he is facing them. Do i look fake ? he says they have no idea what the hell is going on . Shane walks over holding Lyrics hand , what is going on man? katie and Lacy look at Shane then at Lyric . lyric gets a huge smile on her face she holds shanes hand tighter.

jace kisses my neck still holding me against him,

I will be writting more very soon... The next few days there will be more added

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