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Morning light hited my face warmily. I opened slowly the eyes, Eddie was beside me, sleeping. I remember I thought: "I'm so fucking lucky"

Couple minutes after, he opened the eyes, those blue oceans and stare directly at mine, again, my heart was happy:

-Good morning, angel- I loved his voice after waking up.

-Hi, sweetheart! Are you ok?

-Sure, was a fun night, huh?

-Yeah, your new friends are actually very kind and funny...

-Well, you like them, so I think was a cool first meeting, right?

-Yeah! So what's next, what are we gonna do today?

-I have a practice with the band, we'll testing some new stuff that Matt got for us

-Can I go?

-Sure, babe. But first, let's take a shower, we stink!

-Ok, come on!- I got up from bed and opened my suitcase, need some clean clothes.

-You're so gorgeous! Come here! Let's stay in bed a little more longer...-he graped my hips and pull me into his arms.

-Ok, but, what's this?- I smiled after feel his boner.

-It's because of this...- he touched my breast and my ass.

-Babe...

-Ask for it...

-No...

-Ask for it, Belle...

-I want you right now inside of me...-I was so blushed.

-Come here, my dear!

After taking a shower and have some breakfast, we went to his practice...All that talent, was amazing have been noticed it.

The band was called "Mookie Blaylock", and they were too good. Matt was this kinda bandmanager. They practiced really hard, almost 5 hours, trying over and over again, new chords, new lyrics, new bass...I mean, they were really into it.

That week became amazing, Eddie showed to me a lot of cool and awesome places of the city, at same time he share the pictures and records that he made along four months. By the next friday, Mookie Baylock had a show in a really big rock music bar place.

The guys gave a incredible show, the crowd were crazy about them! Honestly, they did their best and the fact was that I wasn't the only one who thought it. Everyone were talking about their performance, and were all cool things.

Back to Stone's place and in the middle of a chat, this girl Sasha was drunk and kind of cheeky.

She took me by the arm and asked me to speak alone. I agreed, without much encouragement to endure her drunkenness.

-So, Isabelle, right?

-Yes, Sasha. What happens? What do you want to talk to me about?

-Well, I'm just very curious. I mean, Eddie talks about you in a very ... how can I say it? ... in a very different way, you know? You're like a mystery, but I see you and you don't look like that. You look very ordinary, don't get offended.

-Oh thanks. I suppose. And what you need to be explain?

-Okay. You have the right to be offended, although it was not my intention, Isabelle ...

-Look, Sasha, I don't know what's wrong with you, you can't be nice with me since the moment you met me. I don't know what's going on ... let's cope with this situation.

-Isabelle, I just want you to know that what I'm going to tell you is an act of bravery ...- she said and then made a strange grimace.

-Of course, no problem.- I said a little confused.

-I'm falling in love with Eddie ... we're roommates and it's not like we have anything, we're just friends, but I'm feeling things for him ... I'm not trying to get in the meddle of your relationship. Just, from girl to girl, you are very lucky.

-Oh thanks...

-Babe! Here you are! - Eddie hugged me from behind. -Are you having fun?

-Yep! - I hugged his arms.

-So, Sash, how you doing, buddy?

-Everything, Eddie. We just talked a little, girls stuff. - she took a big sip of her drink.

-I interrupted something? - He kissed me on the cheek

- Not at all, Edd.- Sasha was ahead to answer

-You smell so good- Eddie said kissing my neck.

-Honey! - I laughed a little uncomfortable at the presence of Sasha.

-I'm sorry, it's just that I miss you so much already

-Don't be exaggerated, it's still here- Sasha smiled genuinely.

-Oh, if you knew how much I need her here. Her smile, her arms, her voice before sleeping ... never leave, Belle...

-Ok, guys. See you later- she walks away.

-So. What were you talking about?- he suddenly asked.

-Well- I stopped- Did you like her?

-Uhm, she's a nice girl. Sometimes she's a little quiet, but we're kind of friends now, she trust a lot on me...I don't know, I guess I like her, why?

-Just, I was wondering how was your relation with her...

-Are you jealous, baby?

-No, at all. I have to admit that she's a very pretty girl. But, nothing more...

-Ok...she's just a friend, babe. Besides, you're the most beautiful girl on earth- he kissed my nose. - And I will not cheating you yet, 'cause I'm not a rockstar already...I'm so poor to make something like that.

-Aww- I laughed

After two beautiful weeks in Seattle, I had to return to reality, university and job.

I didn't feel uneasy when I left, after all Eddie was fine and everything seemed to go well with the band, in two months they would have their first presentation, they still worked on the name of the band and on the songs of the first demo that they would promote in some bars in the city.

At the airport we were joined by Stone (I had a good friendly chemistry with him), Mike, Liz and Sasha (with whom I couldn't speak because she always seemed indisposed)

While we were driving there, Stone asked Eddie something:

-So Eddie, do you plan to get married?I mean, with the wedding, the priest and all those stuff ...

-Do you believe in marriage? - Mike asked.

-Well, buddy. There is only one person in the entire universe with whom I could try that, the only one, that if she asked me to, I would renounce any belief I had. On the other hand, I don't know if I believe in traditional marriage, I believe in commitment and in celebrating it. - Eddie gently squeezed my hand and kissed my cheek.

- Aww, come on, Edd! Why you have to be so perfect together! - Liz was so cute.

-So, would you marry him? - Mike joked

-With him I would go to the end of the world- I squeezed his arm with some gratitude.

-How old are you, Isabelle? - Sasha suddenly asked

-I'm 20- I answered kindly.- And you?

-24, same as Eddie. In fact my birthday is two weeks before his.

-Can celebrate together this year! - I smiled- true, honey?

-Wait ... 20??? Eddie, did you make her your girlfriend at age 15?! I mean, you were 20!! - Stone was incredulous.

-16! And I want to clear up that! I'm not a pervert, nothing happened with Belle until she was 18!

-What !? - the others seemed not to believe him.

Sasha looked at me with a strange strange gaze.

-Guys, please! - Eddie laughed- when I met her I knew that she would be the woman who would steal my sleep all my life, and that's how it was. And I was lucky that she looked at me. And she deserved all the waiting and patience of the world. This beautiful woman who holds my hand and my back is the nicest and most beautiful spirit that has ever crossed my life. So those 2 years waiting were worth every second ...- he added looking at me with some tenderness.

-I like you, guys- Mike said with a funny grimace on his face.

I left Seattle with a huge smile on my face. My confidence in Eddie was still clear and definitely the time we spent together was valuable to both of us, we were able to fully enjoy it.

It had been another two months since that time. I went back to stay for a weekend and everything went well, however, when I got back home, something strange began to happen in the next few days.

The presentations of the band began, now with the name of "Mookie Blaylock", the favorite player of the boys. His repertoire was short 5 own songs and 2 covers. Apparently they were drawing public attention and Matt, his representative was moving fast in the flourishing industry of the area.

Something was happening, I soon felt that the distance between Eddie and me was huge, when I needed him he was not, and deep inside I understood that the band demanded a lot of his time in those moments, I swear, I really understood it, but what I couldn't explain was the fact that he didn't have 10 minutes to call and hear from me.

Things in school and in the job were very difficult, also with dad's crisis. The girls tried to be with me, but come on! they also had a life ...

I began to have doubts about ourselves, it was the first indicator that something was failing, and that was my fear. At night my head was filled with doubts and twisted thoughts. Is he with another girl? He loves me or he don't love me anymore? And if everything was a youthful fantasy?

Why he has not called?

When we were talking on phone everything seemed fine, until the moment of hanging up, sometimes neither of us knew what to say, that was another alert that I knew how to face in time ...

Days gone really hard and slow...my head was about to explote and my chest felt cold...

He was living a stage of adventure and perhaps the most supportive thing that I could do for him was to give him the space to enjoy it to the fullest.

I had been thinking for days about how to say it, how to speak it without looking like a crazy jealous, I knew it was not insecurity, it was letting him enjoy freely, I mean, doing everything he had to do without thinking about how it would affect me...was har to find words.

Finally my phone rang:

-Eddie! - I was happy to hear it.

-Belle! Hi! - He seemed a little discouraged.

-Hello, babe! How are you? How is everything?

-Well, I'm a little tired, you know ... But everything is going well, we are very excited. There are many talented people everywhere, but there is no competition, you know? It's more like a huge musical studio, with alcohol and drugs everywhere ...

-I can imagine, there are many young people. And you? Do you join those parties of uncontrolled alcohol and drugs?

- Not really, I just don't use hard drugs, you know that.

-I'm glad, honey. You're not a rockstar yet, you cannot waste the money on that way...- I laughed.

-Belle, what's wrong? Something in your voice is killing me... - he fired.

I felt a seething fear rising from my stomach to my chest.

-It's not easy, baby...

-Come on, Bellie, tell me...

-You know I love you, right?

-I know and I love you too, my love... now tell me what's wrong?

-Edd. I want to talk about something I thought... - I hesitated to say it.

-Tell me...

-Well, do you remember when you told me that a girl got naked in your bed, and those girls who wanted you?

-Yes, nothing important. Belle. Are you ok?

-Eddie, I think we need to give us a time. I mean, before something bad happens... you know? I have doubts at night and it is unfair to overshadow this fantastic moment in your life...

-What are you talking about, Isabelle?

-Eddie, maybe you need to live alone this moment. It's costing me a lot of effort to endure all this. I'm finishing with the uni and everything is very busy, the job, everything is complicated at home. I need you, but you're not here. You never pick the phone...think about it, I don't want to destroy what we have...

-You're feeling something for another man? - He interrupted abruptly.

-No! God, Edd! Don't say that, my dear. Just, maybe we should just have a little rest of all this madness ...

-Belle, I know this is not an excuse, but ... if sometimes I don't call you, it's because I'm really tired and I just want to rest and write ... please don't take it in the wrong way. I think you also understand that we must continue doing things in our personal space ... Honey, everything is happening very fast, but that doesn't mean that this care less to me, or that you stop being that person who gives meaning to everything, angel... .

-Eddie...did you hear me? Are you listening to me?- I couldn't contain the crying.

-Belle, dear ... please, forgive me ... I'm a fool. Don't make a decision for both.

-Eddie, don't get rid of the best we have, please, babe ...

-Darling, don't say that. Please, give me the opportunity to repair it ...

-Eddie, no. Listen, we need this. If we continue with this, we will hurt ourselves, honey.

-Are you leaving me, Belle?

-Eddie ...

-Are you leaving me, Isabelle? Tell me...

-Just lets take a break, there's a lot happening around us.

-Belle, please, sweetheart ... there's someone else, right?

-No, my love. Don't go with those twisted thoughts.

-So? I cannot understand what is happening! I did something... Belle, there's no sense in what you've told me ...

-Eddie, it's just a time ... if we don't stop we'll stumble. I am beginning to feel jealousy and doubts. You too! Open your eyes, please. If we don't take some time, we will destroy it.

-Are you talking about that guy in the office? Belle don't compare, he told you that he is in love with you and works with you, you eat together, daily! ... it's not the same, my dear...

-Can you see it now? Eddie... we need this.

-No... you need it. And you clearly don't need me to make a decision ...

-Eddie, please. Let's do this in the best way, the right way.

-What are we doing right, Belle? Throw you into the arms of another man? Honey, think about it... you're going to break my heart if you don't come back ...

-We'll be fine, you can always talk to me when you want, and we can talk about everything... you can have fun, Edd... live your moment. I will be here, forever, for you.

-I love you, Isabelle, but stop saying bullshit! Fun??? what kind of fun?

-I don't know babe, there's a lot of parties and girls and...

-Really, Belle?- he interrupted me with some anger.

-Eddie, don't be so rude withe me, I'm trying to think of both and the best for us, for this...

-Belle, I don't need that kind of fun with any other girl... don't need any space. But I will respect your decision ...

-Eddie, we love each other, right?

-I do, but I'm not sure about what that means to you now- He was hurt.

-Edd, I love you. So much.

-Belle ... goodbye- he hung up.

I called again, a lot of times. Eddie never picked up the phone again.

I left a message on his answering machine:

"Eddie, I love you, I will always be there for you, no matter the time or the distance, my heart and my soul belongs to you.

What I did was for both of us, you will see that time will prove it. Take care and keep reaping the success you deserve.

You are the love of my life, Edd. And I swear to you that we will hold our hands again in another moment of our lives.

I know it hurts, but it was not a goodbye, darling.

Be a good boy and enjoy the days that run in your heart. "

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